Ashley Spence is the founder of the DNA Justice Project, the author of Silent Witness: How DNA Uncovered the Truth and Empowered my Healing, and a survivor whose story I won't spoil here because it deserves to be heard in her own voice.

What I will say: this is a conversation about what it takes to come back home to your body, your voice, and your faith after something tries to take all three. 

If this topic feels close to home, take care of yourself as you listen.

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Alexa Bowditch gets into what happens to a relationship when life hits hard... loss, motherhood, hormone imbalances, and identity shifts.

We talk about:
• navigating grief and miscarriage inside a marriage
• what “don't leave the table” really means in long-term relationships
• how postpartum hormones impact libido, mood, and connection
• rebuilding intimacy after a baby when you don’t feel like yourself
• scheduling sex (and yes, building a sex dungeon 👀)
• GLP-1 microdosing, metabolic health, and hormone regulation
• PT-141 and the truth about low libido in women
• the connection between hormones, the nervous system, and desire

This isn’t surface-level relationship advice. It's real-life... what happens when you're exhausted, grieving, touched out, dealing with hormonal shifts, and still want to stay connected to your partner?

We also get into the uncomfortable truth that some relationship problems are actually biological, not just emotional or mental.

If you're navigating postpartum changes, low libido, hormone imbalance, or trying to rebuild intimacy in your relationship… press play.

Timestamps:
02:56 Grief, Loss, and New Beginnings
05:52 The Journey of Motherhood
08:56 Reclaiming Identity and Intimacy
11:46 Building Supportive Relationships
14:55 Finding Ease in Life
18:06 Creating Space for Intimacy
21:01 The Role of Community in Healing
24:03 Embracing the Complexity of Womanhood
26:46 The Importance of Self-Care and Reclamation
36:00 Creating a Space for Intimacy
42:00 Exploring Microdosing and Hormonal Health
46:13 Understanding Peptides and Their Benefits
57:54 Navigating Relationships and Personal Growth

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"It's the difference between fast food and a more refined meal. You can have a kinky fantasy and just scratch the itch. Or you can bring inquiry, intentionality, and start seeing many layers." Rina on tantric vs. conventional bdsm

What if bondage isn't about pain, punishment, or being "bad," but about devotion, safety, and coming home to yourself?

Shibari artist and ritualist Rina Trevi joins to chat rope, tantra, regulated danger, shadow play, and why chosen vulnerability hits differently than forced vulnerability.

We get into:
 - Why Shibari can be deeply healing
 - The difference between kink and conscious power exchange
 - Trauma, surrender, & somatic memory
 - How erotic play can free you from victimhood
 - Connection without scripts, goals, or performance
 - Cervical orgasms, tears, & divine union

This one is spiritual, sensual, & psychological...buckle up, buttercup.

Timestamps:
01:05 – What is Shibari, really? Origins, shame, & vulnerability
03:45 – Choosing vulnerability vs being forced into it
06:30 – Surrender, trauma, & the body's response to restraint
09:40 – Childhood wounds, safety, & somatic memory
12:10 – When Shibari becomes healing (and when it doesn't)
15:00 – Fast food sex vs sacred meal
18:10 – Where kinks come from (trauma, archetypes, & mystery)
21:30 – Playing with shadow, power, & taboo safely
25:40 – Regulated danger & why extremes feel intimate
28:55 – How to explore fantasies with a partner (without shock)
31:00 – Aftercare, integration, & altered states
33:30 – Vipassana, cocooning, & spiritual restraint
36:00 – Tantra vs goal-oriented sex
39:30 – Devotion, presence, & erotic creativity
42:30 – Cervical orgasms, tears, & divine union
45:00 – Lightning round: truth & devotion
46:20 – Rina's books: Shibari as a Ritual & Freedom Bound

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Your childhood doesn’t disappear when you start dating...it gets activated.

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I am joined by attachment and relational healing coach Genell Gorman for a candid, unscripted conversation focused on mother wounds, father wounds, attachment styles, CPTSD, and how early emotional experiences shape adult relationships.

Together, we explore...
 • The “oh sh*t” moment when you realize your dating patterns mirror childhood wounds
 • How emotionally unavailable parents create anxious, avoidant, or disorganized attachment styles
 • Trauma bonding vs. genuine chemistry
 • Why chaos can be mistaken for love and how to break that cycle
 • Healing without becoming emotionally armored or hyper-independent
 • Whether you need to “heal first” or if heal occurs through relationships
 • Reparenting, nervous system regulation, and reclaiming your personal power

This episode is for anyone navigating dating, intimacy, or healing, who is tired of repeating the same story and ready to choose love from a place regulation rather than longing.

Timestamps:
00:00 Intro & grounding
02:20 The “oh sh*t” moment — childhood shaping adult love
05:50 Father wounds & emotionally unavailable partners
09:40 Loss, abandonment, & nervous system imprinting
13:20 Trauma bonding &  attraction to unavailable partners
17:30 CPTSD, codependency, & self-abandonment
22:00 Anxious vs. avoidant dynamics
27:30 Isolation, hyper-independence, & fears of intimacy
32:00 Chemistry vs slow-burn safety
36:00 Chaos does not equal love
41:00 Cutting off parents vs. establishing boundaries & compassion
47:30 Inner child healing & reparenting
51:30 Can relationships heal us?
55:00 Final reflections & encouragement

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“Real power is speaking your desire without being attached to the outcome.”

What if the real power isn’t getting what you want but having the courage to ask for it?

In this episode, Dennis Hull joins to talk about sovereignty, desire, boundaries, rejection, and why attachment to outcome quietly runs so many of our lives. We unpack the philosophy behind tantra play spaces, the difference between safety and sovereignty, and why real community can’t be built online alone.

This is a conversation about pleasure without performance, asking without expectation, and learning how to stay present even when you hear no.

Messy. Honest. Deeply human.

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"Trauma is not what happens to us, but what we hold inside in the absence of an empathetic witness. The salvation, then, is to be found in the body..."

What if trauma isn’t something to heal or release but something that formed intelligently in response to life?

In this episode, I sit down with Will Rezin of Trauma & Somatics for a deep, grounding conversation on trauma, attachment, procrastination, nervous system regulation, and why so many of us never actually feel completion, only “what’s next?”

This episode isn’t about fixing yourself. It’s about understanding how you formed and what becomes possible when survival isn’t the only goal anymore.

🎧 Timestamps:
00:00 – Intro & why this conversation matters
02:00 – What trauma actually is (and isn’t)
08:45 – Outcomes, productivity, & pressure to perform
12:30 – Why completion never lands
15:40 – Attachment styles in the body
19:30 – Anxious vs avoidant vs disorganized 
24:20 – Earned secure & nervous system repatterning
28:40 – Story follows state
31:00 – Why “safe space” language can backfire
40:20 – Boundaries as skills, not traits
44:00 – Dogs, co-regulation, & Boudreaux 
49:30 – Trauma & Somatics trainings 

Free Anthony de Mello Lecture: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1pttMPB1EPdXjIkj3q-ZQ6GCuOQfhGa5k/view

The next cohort of Attachment & Somatics begins on Feb 13th, 2026, with the first class scheduled for Feb 16th. 

The next cohort of Trauma & Somatics begins May 2026.

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“The longer you stay on the wrong train, the more expensive it is to get home.”

In this episode, I sit down with Leola, tantra teacher, bestselling author, and host of Talk Tantra To Me, for a conversation that gently roasts manifestation culture, flirts with devotion, and asks an interesting question: What if desire is how God speaks to us?

We explore:
- Why your desires are rarely about the thing (sorry)
- How control issues are often just trust wounds in a trench coat
- The difference between egoic craving and soul-level longing
- Why “manifesting harder” might actually be anxiety in lingerie
- How surrender doesn’t mean giving up — it means giving over
- God as lover, leader, and the one who may lovingly wreck your vision board
- Why the body is still the most avoided spiritual teacher in the room
- And what happens when you stop seducing outcomes and start seducing truth...

This episode is for you if..
- You’re tired of forcing things to happen
- You secretly suspect desire isn’t the villain
- Your vision board needs a gentle exorcism
- Or you’re ready to trust something wiser than your ego

It’s deep. It’s funny. It may lovingly call you out. 

Listen if you’re ready to stop begging the universe & start having an honest conversation with it.

🎧 Press play. Listen to the whisper...don't wait for the yell. 

Timestamps:
01:30 – What’s making Leola feel most alive right now
06:30 – The Three-Minute Game (intimacy exercise)
09:45 – God as a domme + resistance to surrender
13:20 – Finding God in the body
16:00 – Desire vs. egoic craving
19:50 – Becoming a slave to desire
25:40 – Receiving love & nervous system healing
30:15 – Relationship patterns & self-audit
33:50 – When a vision dies, grief, & trust
38:45 – Trusting the nudge
44:30 – Devotion through the tantric lens
50:20 – If God had a dating profile…

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In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I sit down with Mayra Leen, author, hypnotherapist, and priestess, for a conversation on presence, feminine integration, desire, intuition, and living outside societal structures.

Mayra shares her journey from corporate success and burnout into priestess embodiment, her truth about rest versus aliveness, and why presence itself is the portal to everything we want. Together, we explore money as energy, separating work from worth, non-monogamy and creative relationship models, trusting intuition through play, and the danger of turning healing into a never-ending project.

This episode is an invitation to claim arrival, not as an endpoint, but as a lived experience of being here, now, and fully alive.

Chapters:
00:00 – Welcome + What’s Alive Right Now
01:20 – The Priestess Archetype & Collective Awakening
05:05 – Corporate Success, Capricorn Energy, & Burnout
09:40 – The Moment Everything Shifted
11:30 – Dropping Into the Feminine During COVID
13:35 – Feminine ≠ Rest Only: Integration Matters
15:40 – Soft Girl Era Myths & Common Mistakes
17:25 – Rest vs. Aliveness
19:50 – Priestess Weekends & Living Ritual
22:10 – Money, Devotion, & Being Paid for Being
25:45 – Presence as Medicine
28:25 – Trusting Intuition & Self-Leadership
36:10 – The “Eight Husbands” Concept
42:30 – Non-Monogamy, Depth, & Creative Relationships
49:50 – Presence as a Portal
57:30 – Feeling Emotions & Clearing the Backlog
1:01:00 – Claiming Arrival

🌐 Connect with Mayra:
•⁠  ⁠Website: www.mayraleen.com
•⁠  ⁠Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mayraleen/

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“Old keys don’t open new doors, and this year asked me to choose new ones.”

In this solo episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I reflect on a year that brought me to my knees and opened my heart.

I explore what it means to receive an answered prayer, release old patterns, and choose bold faith over familiar intensity. Through stories of organic love, spiritual curiosity, church rediscovery, vulnerability, sacred eroticism, and inner child healing, this episode invites listeners to slow down, get honest, and align with the life they say they want.

Topics include...
• Letting go of old keys and opening new doors
• Slow-burn love vs. intensity
• Faith, integrity, and intentional living
• Vulnerability vs. exposure
• Stillness, safety, and nervous system regulation
• Erotic energy as holy and sacred
• Play, presence, and inner child healing

This episode is for anyone standing at the threshold of something new, wondering if they’re brave enough to receive it.

Chapters: 

00:00 Reflections on 2025: A Year of Transformation

02:55 New Beginnings: Embracing Vulnerability in Relationships

05:44 Intentional Living: Setting Goals for the New Year

08:31 Faith and Spirituality: A Journey of Self-Discovery

11:16 The Power of Vulnerability: Building Deeper Connections

13:56 Exploring the Intersection of the Erotic and the Holy

17:12 The Role of Stillness in Personal Growth

19:33 Embracing Playfulness and Choice in Life

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“The mask that keeps you from being abandoned is the same one that keeps you from being loved.”

This episode is not soft.
It’s not performative.
And it’s definitely not comfortable.

Licensed therapist C.R. Herro returns for one of the most raw, intellectually honest, and emotionally confronting conversations on Sex, Drugs, & Soul to date.

We unpack:

• Why archetypes and masks feel safe but sabotage intimacy
• The uncomfortable truth that sex is not love
• How trauma teaches us to outsource safety, worth, and belonging
• Why kindness is strength (and intensity is often a red flag)
• The fantasy of being rescued & the grief of letting it die
• What it actually means to become your own hero

This is a conversation about responsibility, embodiment, emotional honesty, and the courage it takes to stop performing and start living.

🎧 Listen if you’re ready to stop numbing, stop pretending, and start telling yourself the truth.

00:00 – Welcome + why this conversation will ruffle feathers
03:00 – What’s turning C.R. on: access, honesty, & emotional availability
07:30 – Why being human is harder than we admit
12:00 – Archetypes vs authenticity: the mask we wear to feel safe
18:00 – The puppet metaphor: why the mask blocks real love
24:00 – Trauma, self-blame, & being crueler to ourselves than others
30:00 – Codependence vs hyper-independence (same wound, different armor)
36:00 – The fantasy of being rescued
42:00 – Sex ≠ love: the most expensive lie
48:00 – Intensity vs kindness (red flags that look like desire)
54:00 – Dropping performance & choosing emotional responsibility
60:00 – The 80th birthday exercise: playing the tape all the way forward
68:00 – Becoming your own hero
75:00 – Love without possession & interdependence
82:00 – Final reflections, integration, & closing wisdom

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