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What if the darkest night of your soul (ego) was actually a canvas? Emmy award-winning artist Alex Ruiz joins me for a raw, riveting ride through depression, psychedelics, and creative resurrection.

From The Simpsons and Beauty and the Beast to sacred ceremonies with peyote, Alex shares how he went from burnout and suicidal ideation to finding purpose and birthing a body of work that channels mysticism, mythology, and multidimensional muses. We explore how visionary art becomes a mirror, a medicine, and a means of becoming.

Inside this episode…
🍄 Psychedelics & the art of becoming
🖤 The tortured artist & letting go of the darkness
🎭 Horned women, third eyes & mythic characters
📉 AI vs human soul in art
🔥 From hiding in the art cave to teaching with purpose
🧠 Journaling, visualization, & the neo-renaissance

He also gives us a sneak peek at Delicate Delirium, his upcoming art show in Austin on June 28th, and shares how creating his own fantasy world (language and all) became a portal to reconnection, authenticity, and healing.

If you’ve ever wondered how to alchemize pain into purpose, are looking to rebuild your relationship with art, or if you’re just here for horny forest creatures and psychedelic chats, this episode is pure soul nectar. 

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What if porn could actually deepen your intimacy, spark real connection, and help you reclaim your pleasure without shame?

In this rebellious and radically honest episode, I sit down with Lily Sparks, the visionary founder and CEO of Afterglow, an ethical porn platform created by women. We dive deep into what it means to be turned on with intention from busting the myths around porn addiction to navigating boundaries, fantasies, and the healing power of conscious erotic content.

We’re talking:
✨ Why ethical porn is a game-changer for relationships
🔥 How couples can use porn to enhance intimacy (not escape it)
💬 Consent, representation, & real communication
💥 Reclaiming your sexual narrative without shame, guilt, or apology

Whether you’re porn-curious or ready to start your pleasure revolution, this conversation is your permission slip to explore, express, and embrace your turn-on unapologetically.

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0:00 Introduction to Afterglow and Ethical Porn
8:26 Representation and Confidence in Sexuality
17:18 The Reality of Pornography and Consent
26:01 Behind the Scenes of Ethical Porn Production
38:31 The Reality of Pornography and Consent

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So many of us are craving deeper intimacy, but no one ever taught us how to actually talk about sex, desire, or what turns us on. 

In this episode, I’m joined by Dr. Diane Mueller for a conversation about what it takes to keep passion alive in long-term relationships.

We get into the truth about libido (hint: it’s not just hormones), the impact of the nervous system on arousal, and how communication can completely shift the way we connect with our partners. We also talk about hot monogamy, self-pleasure as a tool for empowerment, and the kind of emotional safety that makes real pleasure possible.

If you’ve ever felt like your sex drive disappeared, or you're craving more depth, connection, or fire in your relationship, this one’s for you.

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Timestamps:
8:30 The Steps To An Open Communication
16:00 Navigating Vulnerability in Conversations
25:05 The Importance of Scheduling Intimacy
34:33 Anatomy and Orgasm: Understanding Individual Differences
40:22 Emotional Connections and Past Experiences

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This episode is dedicated to Larro! Love you, brother. Let's roll...

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In this tender and truth-soaked episode, I open up about my journey with grief after losing a dear friend who left this world far too soon. It’s raw. It’s real. Emotional AF...and wrapped in love.

I talk about the gut-punch of loss, the wild ride of emotions that followed, and the unexpected signs he sent me from the other side. Because love doesn’t just disappear, it shape-shifts. I also share a near-death experience that cracked me open in a way I didn’t see coming, and a powerful, symbolic body-painting session that felt like a creative rebirth. It was like my way of honoring both him, the parts of myself that grief awakened, and the new version of myself. (Rising phoenix, vibes!)

This episode is a mix of courage, creativity, connection, and the kind of healing that only grief can bring. It ends with a tribute poem I wrote for him to honor his spirit and the bond we shared...

I'm still unpacking some of the soul lessons... yet, if you’ve ever lost someone you love, or are navigating the messy beauty of grief, this one’s for you.

If you want to explore courage while connecting with fellow creatives, join me on NABA this Wednesday, May 14th, at noon CST for a virtual, open-mic writing workshop/playshop.

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0:00 Intro
5:16 Courage and Creative Expression
15:42 Near-Death Experience and Personal Growth
22:51 Body Painting and Symbolic Healing

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In this week’s episode, I am joined by Dennis Hull, a trauma-informed coach and tantric practitioner, to explore healing through vulnerability, masculine-feminine dynamics, and the art of emotional connection.

We discuss tantra as a path to empowerment, the role of safe spaces, and how practices like BDSM can support healing when grounded in consent and authenticity. From savoring grief to protecting energy, this episode invites a deeper look at intimacy, embodiment, and the power of being witnessed.

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12:00 Feminine Energy and the Art of Receiving
23:47 Embracing Vulnerability and Authenticity
33:49 Navigating Connection and Rejection
45:05 The Role of the Protector

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In this episode, I sit down with Danielle Massi for a deep dive into shadow work, unpacking what it really means to face the hidden aspects of ourselves. Our conversation moves through personal stories, common misconceptions, and the quiet power of self-awareness as a catalyst for healing.

Together, we explore the emotional complexity of therapy, the nuanced challenges of working with personality disorders, and Danielle’s evolution from therapist to author, speaker, & CEO. Childhood and past life experiences, often buried beneath the surface, are brought to light as we examine how early wounds continue to echo through adult behavior and relationships.

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From the art of cooking to navigating modern dating, we explore how creativity, relationships, and personal transformation all intertwine. Ghosting, breakups, and life’s big questions come to the table as we uncover the lessons hidden in failure, the wisdom from ancient civilizations, and the power of self-discovery. 

No topic is off-limits as we challenge expectations and embrace the complexities of human connection and the journey of becoming who we’re meant to be.

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0:00 Intro
12:04 Career Journey and Embracing Opportunities
24:32 Ghosting: The End of Friendships
34:44 Meeting in the Wild vs. Apps: The Modern Dating Dilemma
41:18 Exploring Past Lives and Reincarnation

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“Relationship anarchy is liberation — uprooting every system of oppression we’ve unknowingly brought into love.” — Sage

Are traditional relationship structures limiting your personal freedom? In this episode, I dive deep with Sage into relationship anarchy, non-monogamy, and the power of love without rules. 

From exploring the transition between polyamory and relationship anarchy to breaking free from relationship patterns, this conversation challenges everything you thought you knew about love, commitment, and desire. 

If you've ever wondered, “Is Relationship Anarchy right for me?” or if you’re looking for ways to create custom relationships that align with your values, this episode is for you.

🔗 Listen now and start to find what truly works for you.

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0:00 Intro
8:32 Navigating Polyamory and Relationship Anarchy
23:53 Embracing Change in Relationships
33:22 Curiosity and the Evolution of Relationships
48:07 Authenticity in Relationships

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Are you secretly sabotaging your own miracles? 👀

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I sit down with Dr. Sharnael to explore the subconscious sh*t that keeps us stuck in cycles of illness, toxic love, money drama, and feeling “blocked” from the life we know is meant for us.

We talk about how trauma gets stored in the limbic system and biofield, why your subconscious literally takes everything you say as law, and how self-hate quietly repels love, money, health, and opportunity—even when your conscious mind is “doing all the things.”

Dr. Sharnael shares:

• Her story of getting seriously ill and realizing it was rooted in unprocessed trauma
• How a wild “meet Will” dream led to a doctor, a mirror practice, and a total self-love awakening
• Why free will and the subconscious can override even the most aligned spiritual intentions
• How her body registered her high school first date as her “real” marriage day 🤯
• The energetic reason she kept attracting liars… and what changed when she finally loved herself
• The link between parasites, patterns, and people who keep taking advantage of you
• How biofeedback, outcome mapping, and frequency work can help clear the field and invite miracles in
• Practical tools for remembering your dreams, tracking synchronicities, and speaking the language of miracles

We also talk about:

• Boundaries as a form of self-love
• Why health, wealth, love, and purpose are all connected
• The power of the quote: “Revelation comes out of rest”
• Her book The Science of Miracles and how it maps out the tech behind magic

If you’ve ever thought, “I’m doing the work, why isn’t it working?” this episode is your loving call-out and your roadmap.

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0:00 Intro
1:34 The Journey of Self-Discovery
11:43 Rekindling Lost Connections
25:34 Breaking Negative Patterns Through Biofeedback
36:35 Interconnectedness of Health, Wealth, and Relationships
41:50 Revelation Through Rest and Nature's Influence

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“I did this for you, not to you. It wasn’t a punishment, it was a gift.” – Medicine message from Dr. Ron’s ceremony

What if your “anxiety” isn’t a personality flaw… but a brainwave pattern stuck in fight-or-flight?

In this episode, Kristin sits down with Dr. Ron Nathanson – chiropractor, neurofeedback specialist, and psychedelic-assisted healing guide – to explore how brain mapping, neurofeedback, and plant medicine can help rewire trauma at the deepest levels.

They dive into:
 🧠 What neurofeedback actually is (and how brain mapping works)
💥 The car accident that led Ron into chiropractic and trauma healing
👧 How his daughter getting run over by an SUV led him to neurofeedback
📚 The Body Keeps the Score, epigenetics, & multigenerational trauma
🍄 Ron’s life-changing psilocybin ceremony: “I did this for you, not to you.”
🌿 Ayahuasca, suffering, forgiveness & learning to love unconditionally
🙏 God, Christ consciousness, AA, and what it really means to surrender
🔥 Oxidative stress, supplements, and the real cost of an unhealed brain
💓 Why love + nervous system safety are the ultimate medicines

If you’ve ever wondered how trauma shows up in your brainwaves, why talk therapy alone sometimes isn’t enough, or how psychedelics and God can both belong in the same healing conversation… this one is for you.

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0:00 Intro
7:28 Types of Trauma and Their Impact
14:55 Neurofeedback and Brain Mapping
22:48 The Impact of the Pandemic on Mental Health
37:23 Parenting, Freedom, and the Journey of Self-Discovery
45:36 Empathy and Connection Through Love

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We’re all just walking each other home… might as well do it with good stories, good medicine, and a regulated nervous system

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