November 26, 2025

Welcome to Episode 19, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

In this episode, The Crew — Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly — dive into navigating nonmonogamy during the holidays, coming out to your children, and how to introduce new partners to your family.

Navigating nonmonogamy—and especially introducing new partners to family members or children—can stir up a lot of anxiety. For many, the fear isn’t just about the moment of disclosure. It’s the worry about the subtle questions, projections, opinions, or judgments that may follow. People often assume that nonmonogamous structures involve intimidation, coercion, or manipulation, when in reality much of that discomfort comes from deeply ingrained cultural conditioning: rampant allonormativity and mono-normativity that frames anything outside monogamy as suspicious or unsafe.

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November 19, 2025

Welcome to Episode 18, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

In this episode, The Crew — Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly — dive into poly under duress. “Poly under duress” is a term used in consensual non-monogamy communities to describe a dynamic where one partner feels pressured—implicitly or explicitly—to open the relationship, often because the relationship feels at risk if they don’t agree. When that pressure is present, even subtle reluctance around agreements can create power imbalances, coercive undercurrents, and emotional fallout that’s hard to name but easy to feel.

So, what does enthusiastic consent look like when we’re talking about relationship structures, not just sex? And what happens when “agreements” drift into control rather than connection?

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November 12, 2025

Welcome to Episode 17, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

In this episode, The Crew — Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly — dive into the beauty, struggle, and complexity of relationships.

We can’t be happy all the time, and relationships, whether romantic, platonic, or intimate in other forms, can be challenging. In them, we’re often invited to confront our own healing journeys, because healing doesn’t happen in isolation; it happens in relationship, in community.

Modern individualism has pulled us away from communal ways of relating, leaving many of us disconnected from the very systems that help us heal. When we retreat into our own bubbles, we become under-resourced, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. And for many, reaching out to family or community isn’t always safe or supportive, especially when living authentically or stepping outside societal norms.

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October 18, 2025

Welcome to Season 2, Episode 6, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

The crew — Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly — remind the listeners that sharing information with your partners and “frontloading” can be complex. Often, we approach communication from a place of wanting to protect our partners or ourselves, being cautious about what we say, trying to prevent hurt, or manage outcomes. But in doing so, we can unintentionally rob others of their agency.

Many of us are also navigating the pull of codependency, patterns deeply baked into our society and reinforced by monogamous conditioning and romantic myths. When people begin opening their relationships for the first time, these layers start to surface: the need to appear “perfect,” the tendency to mask, the instinct to protect rather than to trust.

Nonmonogamy, at its healthiest, calls us toward interdependence, a space where autonomy and connection can coexist. How do we redirect fear, dysregulation, and worry and accept that we can’t control our partner’s other relationships, and instead, focus on ourselves and the relationship we have with our partner(s)? How can we learn to listen to our partners outside of our fear, assumptions, or blind spots?

Nonmonogamy is hard, and it will tap into your unresolved trauma, and the work is on-going, but it takes you out of complacency and false pretenses that monogamy often presents.

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October 10, 2025

Welcome to Season 2, Episode 5, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

The crew — Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly — dive into the complex role of differentiation in relationships, exploring what it means to stay connected while remaining your own person. They unpack why developing autonomy and expanding into nonmonogamy can feel so challenging within a culture steeped in monogamous conditioning and codependent relational norms.

The conversation also highlights the somatic impact of relational change, acknowledging how shifts in attachment, intimacy, and openness can register in the body. They discuss the importance of preparing the body to find safety and regulation, and introduce the concept of titration- taking slow, measured steps so the nervous system has time to catch up with new relational experiences. From a somatic lens, they examine the role of couple privilege, the need for frontloading and transparency with other partners, and the value of slowing down to honor everyone’s pace.

Ultimately, they remind us that expanding a relationship isn’t just a mental or emotional process but a deeply embodied one, and that cultivating self- and co-regulation in the midst of change can transform fear into freedom, and disruption into deeper connection.

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September 7, 2025

Welcome to Season 2, Episode 4, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

The crew (Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly) tackle jealousy and why trying to “get rid of it” misses the point. Instead, they frame jealousy as information—a doorway into attachment wounds, fear of abandonment, shame, and unmet needs. From there, they pivot to the skill that keeps relationships resilient: front-loading (sharing plans, needs, and likely triggers before they blow up), which they connect to informed consent and preserving each partner’s agency.

Big ideas

* Jealousy = data, not a defect. Name what it points to (history, disrespect, lack of communication) rather than slapping on quick “band-aids” like closing relationships.

* Monogamy hangover patterns. Cultural scripts teach us to avoid jealousy by controlling contact; non-monogamy invites feeling it, exploring it, and choosing responses.

* Front-loading as care. Share early and often—especially when something might affect time, priorities, or agreements. Withholding “to protect” a partner can actually remove their agency.

* It’s messy—and that’s normal. Rupture/repair cycles are part of intimacy (friendships included). Leaving at the first discomfort often just resets NRE without growth.

* Attachment shows up differently across contexts. Anxious/avoidant dynamics can flip between new and established relationships; self-awareness helps you choose rather than react.

Try this

* When jealousy hits, ask: What is this feeling protecting? What do I need to feel safer/seen?

* Front-load the front-loading: tell partners you value lots of context and why.

* Use in-the-moment co-regulation (breathing, touch) and skip empty reassurances; offer grounded reminders of care and commitment instead.

* If considering a breakup, name specifics and a time horizon for change; then reassess with clarity (not panic).

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August 31, 2025

Welcome to Season 2, Episode 3, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

In this episode, Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly discuss the ebb and flow of feelings, and explore “catching feelings” as the common rhetoric of what to share in relationships—especially within non-monogamy. They unpack why naming “feelings” may matter, when to lean into it instead of avoiding it, and when “catching feelings” is relevant (or not) to relationship agreements.

Big ideas

* Radical fear = name it, don’t dodge it. Identifying the core fear (loss, FOMO, rupture, time/attention shifts) helps partners understand each other and hold space rather than spiral in assumption.

* Leaning in is the “radical” part. We’re socialized to avoid what scares us; choosing to face it opens doors to honesty and intimacy.

* “Catching feelings” isn’t automatically a crisis. It matters mainly when it signals escalation (e.g., cohabitation, kids) or resource changes (time, priority, responsibilities). Otherwise, feelings ebb/flow like deep friendships.

* Check-ins with purpose. Don’t report feelings just to report them; share when something will shift agreements, time, or household realities.

* Never say never. Boundaries and desires evolve; what was once a “no” can become a “maybe” as people grow.

* When fear hijacks the nervous system. You can’t “manage” emotions away; co-regulate instead (hugging, hand-holding, breathing together) and offer grounded reassurance without empty promises.

* Know your anchor. Return to your core reason for practicing non-monogamy (your “why/anchor”) when anxiety spikes.

* Mind the language. “Reasons” may land softer than “why”; avoid implying “resistance.” Watch for emotions being wielded to control outcomes.

* Gendered socialization. Women are pushed to do emotional labor; men are discouraged from feeling/crying—both miss out on full expression.

* It’s okay if it’s not for everyone. Readiness varies by person, partner, and season.

Practical tools mentioned

* Name the fear explicitly before discussing solutions.

* Purposeful check-ins: Share when feelings will affect time, priorities, or agreements.

* Co-regulation in the moment: physical contact + slow breathing.

* Re-anchor: Revisit your core reasons/values when overwhelmed.

* Language tweaks: Use invitations (“Want to talk more about what got you here?”) rather than labels (“What’s your resistance?”)

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August 17, 2025

Welcome to Season 2, Episode 2, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

In this episode, Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly dive into the theme of jealousy and fear in relationships, particularly within non-monogamy. The conversation centers around the idea of radical fear—the recognition that fear underlies jealousy, insecurity, conflict, and even the difficulty of asking for what we want in relationships.

The hosts explore how fear connects to attachment styles, with some people fearing the loss of a partner and others fearing the loss of themselves or their autonomy. They discuss how reframing jealousy as fear can help clients and partners alike approach it with compassion rather than denial.

From there, the group expands into the importance of emotional safety. They highlight how safety is not absolute but can be cultivated as “safe enough” spaces where honesty and vulnerability can emerge. The conversation touches on practical ways to build safety in relationships—through self-regulation, attunement to emotional energy, curiosity instead of defensiveness, and creating shared vocabulary.

The hosts also reflect on the dynamics of couple privilege in non-monogamy, where couples sometimes close relationships out of fear, which can perpetuate monogamy as the default cultural norm. They challenge listeners to question whether closing is truly about values or simply about avoiding discomfort.

Finally, they affirm that while non-monogamy isn’t for everyone, its framework—centered on communication, consent, and questioning defaults—offers valuable tools for all relationships, monogamous or not. They emphasize the role of somatic awareness in managing dysregulation and creating connection, reminding listeners that experiential safety is just as important as conceptual understanding.

The episode closes with the group acknowledging how much they themselves learned from the discussion, underscoring that these conversations are not just clinical but deeply human.

✨ Key Takeaways:

* Jealousy is rooted in radical fear—fear of loss, rejection, or change.

* Facing fear compassionately opens the door to honesty, vulnerability, and safety.

* Emotional safety is co-created, not guaranteed, and requires regulation, attunement, and curiosity.

* Non-monogamy highlights relational growth, but its tools can benefit all relationship styles.

* Somatic and embodied practices help people recognize, name, and manage dysregulation.

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August 9, 2025

Welcome to Season 2, Episode 1, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

In this Season 2 opening episode of Shades of Pleasure, Mou, Melissa, Wayne, and Kelly revisit key conversations from season one on dismantling monogamy hangovers, challenging heteronormativity, and deconstructing couple privilege. They explore how attachment styles—secure, anxious, avoidant, and disorganized—impact relationships, especially within non-monogamous contexts. The hosts emphasize that these styles are not fixed or inherently “bad,” but rather coping strategies rooted in early life experiences. Non-monogamy, they note, often amplifies attachment dynamics because it involves navigating multiple relationships, making emotional awareness and conscious communication essential. They caution against rigidly labeling oneself, instead encouraging the use of attachment theory as a flexible lens rather than a limiting identity.

The conversation then turns toward the deeper thread underlying attachment challenges: fear. The hosts propose reframing the work as “radical fear”—acknowledging that insecurity, avoidance, and anxiety often stem from fears about safety, abandonment, or loss. They discuss how societal conditioning, scarcity mindsets, and patriarchal norms shape relational expectations, and how non-monogamy offers opportunities to confront and unlearn these patterns. Through personal examples and client stories, they illustrate how awareness, shared language, and intentional processing can help partners break cyclical patterns, build emotional safety, and adapt outdated coping strategies. Ultimately, the episode frames both monogamous and non-monogamous relationships as fertile ground for growth—if we are willing to face our fears and approach each other with curiosity, compassion, and openness.

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December 31, 2024

Welcome to Season 1, Episode 10, Shades of Pleasure

Four sexologists open up about life, love, and the pursuit of consensual non monogamy.

In this season finale episode, Melissa, Wayne, Kelly, and Moushumi, four experienced sexologists, explore the challenges of embracing vulnerability, humility, and patience in transforming relationship dynamics. What roles do curiosity, humility, open-mindedness, and managing expectations play in navigating new relationships with metamours, and the shifting dynamics that may emerge between anchor partners?

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