First, I AM SO SORRY FOR HOW STUFFED I SOUND... Allergies man. Thank you for your patience lol.
Anyways, what has your journey with prayer been like? Here is mine. I hope this encourages to ask and trust in God's goodness.
It’s beginning to feel a lot like
Recently, I’ve been intentionally
My prayers have been filled
Never have I been this audacious
In the space of prayer before
It felt wrong when I first began
Shame would be quick to meet me
Each time I closed my eyes
Shame whispered of my unworthiness
Questioning the foundation of my faith
Making a mockery of the relationship
I’ve fought to build with the Father
Shame tried to sow seeds of doubt
Manipulating the truth of contentment
Hindering me from interceding
Distorting the source of my longings
And belittling my yearnings
“You are asking for too much.”
And seeing a pair of shoes
They were blue, wedged sandals
Quite frequently actually
Each day making a point to remind her
She never purchased them for me
Although I don’t know why
And I’m sure the reasons are valid
“Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead?”
I’ve opened the dusty file cabinets of my life
And looked through the areas of my
I’ve dreamt up restoration
Imagining what it would be like
If the neglected and overgrown fields
And opening the book of promises
Not just between Creator and creation
But even between creation and creation
So why then would I limit
Nonexistent is what He cannot do
And limitless are His capabilities
“Without faith it is impossible to please Him”
Diminished expectations at times
Are a result of withholding requests
And I’ve been finding that asking
And it increases faith and intimacy
So I’ve unlocked the safe
Where I tucked away my petitions
Desires don’t just disappear when ignored
Left in your heart to rot
And there bitterness festers
Given to the one who can make use of them
Testimonies are on their way
And regardless of the outcome
It’s been feeling a lot like Christmas
I’ve been waking up each day
Through whom will He respond?
Take this as your invitation