Our guest this week is Ozzie Cabral, Ozzie is from Commerce City who battled addiction at a very young age. He was sexually abused between the ages of 5-9. The trauma was hard on him, so it made it easy for him to start smoking weed at 11 years old. He felt happy and was smiling and laughing which he loved. Ozzie and his next-door neighbor started doing drugs together. She was dating an older gentleman who was able to get them cocaine. They then found meth at 13 years old and started using. Ozzie's cousin came down from California when he was 15 years old trying to stay clean, but it wasn't a great situation meeting up with Ozzie, so they started getting in to trouble again and Ozzie left his home at 15. He would stay in a crash pad for troubled kids which was owned by this lady Shirley who had had a bad past herself. She would let troubled kids stay there. Ozzie loved her she would laugh with him and let him stay there.
At 17 Ozzie loved rock music and he moved to California to stay with his aunt listening to Zeppelin the whole way. When he got to Hell A LA, he found heroin and started using out there again. It was scary for a young kid hitch hiking up and down the coast. His aunt left Ozzie and she moved away she couldn't do it anymore. He couldn't move in with his cousin his wife didn't like him and thought he was the problem. So, he was on the streets again. Ozzie found comfort in the ocean; he heard his grandmother's voice. Its Bigger than him, it feeds him, and it can kill him, so he believed that was his first higher power. He was given a yard work job from a teacher in Ventura which was a blessing for Ozzie. He got a greyhound ticket to get back to Commerce City, Shirley had died, and Ozzie was back where he was before using again. "It follows you wherever you go." Ozzie was drunk and wanted to join the Army to get clean hoping his friend would join him. Next morning, he was at the recruiter's office and joined, his friend didn't show up. The barracks was a huge party which Ozzie didn't expect. So, he was back drinking heavy doing cocaine and heroin again.
His first duty station was Colorado Springs, Fort Carson. So, every weekend he would go to Commerce City to visit this girl who had been writing him. He eventually got her pregnant and tried to make a good woman out of her. They moved to Washington where Ozzie had his second child. Ozzie's girl wanted to reconnect with her mother who left her at a young age. Ozzie dropped her off at the Seattle airport and went right to grab a hooker to find drugs. Strung out when his girl came back things started going back. Ozzie got out of the military and went right back to Commerce City. His wife left him, and he was in a bad hole, friends and people dying around him and getting sick from all the drugs. He convinced his wife to come back and he was going to get clean. He couldn't so he was trying to get his wife to leave buy degrading her and it was too late the cops kicked down the door and took the kids from Ozzie and took him to jail.
Ozzie's cousin shot himself in the head in front of his wife and 3 kids because he couldn't get a job, and no one would hire him. Ozzie was planning his own suicide after because he felt he was in the same position as his cousin, and he felt he couldn't do anything right. He called Stout Street foundation for help, and they let him in to the program. He was there for a week until the bounty hunters caught him. In and out of jail for warrants Ozzie finally got out with this guy he used to get high with. He was walking to the house to get drugs and Ozzie left and ran away from this guy needing help. So, his sister picked him up and took him back to Stout Street. Ozzie's grandma never saw him clean which hurts, he made a promise to them that he will sit with them every year for 23 years.
Ozzie is now 23 years clean. He went back to school and got degrees he is going to meetings and in the field. Recovery and the fellowship he's in is what Ozzie credits for him being such a beast in recovery now.
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