I know all too well that men desire affection and love too. But some men don't know how to show their emotional side or even ask.

Most people go through depression and just quit on themselves versus asking God to help them get them by.

Todays world is different.......

Having sex unprotected knowing the possible of having a child could happen is irresponsible behavior. But when you don't take care of those kids knowing they yours.....now thats even deeper.

I have put myself in a situation out of anger. I felt a type of way when expressing myself and pretty much didn't care what the outcome would be. Now I am here simply pulling back with a sincere apology because it has gotten too far.  I have a real business to run and I can't run it by myself. I feel I need a team to help relaunch it. But in order for me to get past this to get there, I must openly get this out and go in another direction. Tune in to see why....

I truly believe in having a sexual friendship with no strings attached but only one sided(my way). That's right I want a friend to only cater to me when I want them too, how I want them too and they won't feel funny about me having so much control over them. I'm definitely a freak so they'll be pleased with me...so that isn't an issue. However, if I don't want attention at a certain period of time, then don't text me. Don't bother me at all cuz I simply need my time/space. And the way I see it, they will automatically know when that feeling is felt. I know I sound selfish but I am a double standard kind of girl and I think I like it that way. As of right now it's about being free with a nice treat at the end.

It's my desire and I expect my friend to cater to my needs with no issue. lol ...Period

Don't get me wrong I am also contradicting and will later find this annoying!!!

But for now.....I am in selfish mode and need my cake and space too. 

Let's talk more about how to get off assistance vs trying to apply for any. I swear when I first got on, I thought I had won the lottery. It was something so many tried to get on for years and I had lucked up when I received mine in 3months. (Next topic)

Let's the limitations/restrictions that come with it and the new rules to abide by in order to keep it.

It is Day5 and I thought I would be better by now. However, after my car got repo, I found myself bursting in tears at work. I mean noone saw me crying when I did the lobby but my emotions were definitely evident. I feel like I am being tried constantly but I am not breaking. you hear me.....YOU definitely got the right fighter, but a missed opportunity cuz once upon a time....I was young.

Today is day 2 of my 7daycleanse. and I feel better now that I was able to release some steam. I spoke about the root of my problem and I swear it lifted me up. I feel lighter. Tune in now.

Ever wonder why you are the way you are? I have just revealed my personal issue that I didn't realize was a thing in my reality. Part 2