In this opening episode of Season 5, I share the question that became the foundation for this entire season: When did we become so disconnected from ourselves?

Together, we explore the quiet ways women learn to observe themselves instead of simply experiencing life, and how that often leads us to slowly edit who we are without even realizing it—from the beliefs we've inherited to the subtle ways we change our bodies, our voices, our joy, and our expression to fit the world around us.

My hope is that as you listen, you won't leave with more answers—but with better questions.

Content note: This episode includes conversations about childhood sexual abuse, child loss, depression, suicide, and other sensitive topics.

Part of our Through the Fire series, where women share the stories that transformed them.

In this deeply personal conversation, my mom shares the story she's always called The Butterfly Story—a journey through childhood sexual abuse, unimaginable loss, motherhood, severe depression, suicide, and what it looked like to slowly build a life on the other side.

Together, we talk about surviving trauma, raising a family while carrying invisible burdens, the moments that shaped her along the way, the long road from survival to transformation and how God used her story to help others through theirs. It's a raw and honest conversation about pain, resilience, hope, and becoming.

If you've ever wondered whether healing is possible after the hardest chapters of your life, I hope this conversation reminds you that your story isn't over.

Part of the Through the Fire series, where women share the stories that transformed them.

After a horse accident left Amanda with a broken back, she was faced with a choice: become defined by what happened to her or let it change her for the better. In this conversation, we talk about resilience, refusing a victim mindset, getting back on the horse—literally—and the unexpected ways faith, perspective, and what she describes as miracles shaped her healing journey. It's an honest story about finding meaning in the hardest seasons and discovering that sometimes the fire changes us for the better.

Kim's story is one of profound faith, unimaginable loss, and choosing to trust God through it all. As a mother, chiropractor, and cancer survivor, she shares what it looked like to walk through cancer, grief, and heartbreak while continuing to believe that God could use every part of her story for His glory.

In this conversation, we talk about trusting God when life doesn't make sense, discerning truth from the lies that often accompany suffering, and why Kim has continued sharing her testimony—even in the hardest seasons. Her story is a powerful reminder that hope isn't found in having easy circumstances, but in the One who walks with us through them.

Content note: This episode includes a conversation about the loss of a child. Please listen in whatever way feels most supportive for you.

Amanda and I explore the relationships we're meant to outgrow—and the ones waiting for us on the other side. This is a conversation about community, vulnerability, divine timing, and finding your people in places you never expected.

We talk about her experience co-leading women's retreats designed to help women reconnect with themselves, what she learned from bringing women together in deep community, and why vulnerability is often the doorway to meaningful connection.

We also dive into my experience growing up in a polygamist community and the unique kind of village it created—one where families helped raise each other's children, life was deeply intertwined, and community wasn't something you scheduled, it was something you lived. Amanda shares what drew her to that aspect of my upbringing and how it shaped her understanding of belonging and connection.

This episode is a conversation with my friend Glenna.

We met on Peanut and built a friendship that’s become really meaningful — even though we don’t share the same beliefs or see everything the same way.

We talk about what it actually looks like to build a deep, safe friendship in this season of life, and how ours grew by choosing to go beyond surface-level connection. Instead of keeping things as occasional meet-ups, we invited each other into our real, everyday lives — and that’s where the depth was built.

We get into what it takes to create that kind of connection… being willing to be vulnerable, sometimes uncomfortable, and continuing to choose the friendship in real life, not just in moments.

We also touch on staying connected through different seasons, long distance, and Glenna shares part of her experience dating as a single mom.

At the core, this is a conversation about building friendship on something deeper than just shared opinions — and what’s possible when you’re willing to go there.

Motherhood changes almost every relationship in our lives—including our friendships.

In this episode, I sit down with my friend Abbie to talk about the unexpected ways friendship shifts after becoming a mom. We explore the loneliness many women experience in this season, why friendships can naturally drift, and how marriage, motherhood, and the demands of everyday life can make connection feel harder than it used to.

We also talk about finding friends who share your values, the role faith has played in our own friendships, and what creates safety and depth in a relationship. From making time for one another to navigating the obstacles that keep us isolated, this conversation is a reminder that meaningful friendship often requires intention.

In this episode, I sit down with Katie from Missoula Mama Circle to talk about something so many moms are craving—real, tangible support in motherhood.

Katie shares the heart behind why she created Missoula Mama Circle—a space designed to help moms connect, show up as they are, and build real, lasting relationships. Because while motherhood can be deeply fulfilling, it can also feel surprisingly isolating, especially when the “village” we expected isn’t naturally there.

We talk about the different seasons of friendship—what it looks like when relationships shift or fall away, and how that doesn’t always mean something has gone wrong. Sometimes it’s just growth.

We also get into the real fears that come up around making friends as an adult… the hesitation, the waiting for an invitation, the wondering if you’ll be received. And what can happen when you stop waiting—and start creating the kind of connection you actually desire.

Katie shares more about the ways she’s intentionally building community for moms in Missoula, from weekly meetups to workshops and involvement in programs like Family Action for Montana, all with the goal of making support more accessible and tangible.

This conversation is such a reminder that the “village” isn’t gone… but it often requires us to step into it differently than we expected.

If you’ve ever felt alone in motherhood, struggled to make or keep friendships, or found yourself craving deeper connection—this one is for you.

RESOURCES:

Connect with Katie & Missoula Momma Circle Here:

- Missoula Mama Circle | Mom Meetup Group | Missoula, MT, USA

- https://www.facebook.com/share/g/1AoxnQ9xoL/

This episode opens a new season on connection.

We’re starting with friendship — not just being around people, but the kind of connection where you can actually relax, be yourself, and feel safe.

I talk about why that can feel so hard, especially for women and mothers… how we were shaped to stay controlled, composed, and guarded, and how that shows up in our friendships now.

I share parts of my own experience with friendship, attachment patterns, and losing close relationships — and how that has shaped what I look for now.

We also get into the reality of motherhood and connection… why playdates and mom spaces don’t always lead to real friendship, and how much isolation is built into the way we live.

And something that doesn’t get talked about enough — how many of us have only accessed looseness and connection through alcohol, and what it can feel like to navigate that without it.

If friendship feels hard or deeper connection feels out of reach… you’re not alone in it.

What if the thing keeping you stuck isn't a lack of healing… but the constant search for more of it?

In this season finale, I sit down with Nina De Francisco (MindbodyNina) for a conversation that deeply challenged the way I think about healing, self-awareness, and growth.

Together, we explore the subtle ways many of us turn healing into another thing to achieve, another way to evaluate ourselves, and another box we're trying to climb into. We talk about the pressure to become a better version of ourselves, the exhaustion of always working on ourselves, and how easy it is to mistake understanding our wounds for actually healing them.

This conversation is especially for the thoughtful women, the deep feelers, the intellectualizers, and the women who have spent years doing the work but still feel like they're somehow falling short.

We discuss nervous system patterns, embodiment, belonging, self-rejection disguised as growth, and what it might look like to stop chasing the next breakthrough long enough to be with yourself exactly as you are.

If you've ever wondered why healing can sometimes feel so heavy, this conversation is for you.

Resources & Connect

Nina De Francisco

Instagram: @mindbodynina

Paul Leendertse – The Root Cause InstituteInstagram: @therootcauseinstitute