I’ve hit a painful wall. (Most walls would be painful) Lots of lessons being learned, daily. I want to help, desperately, and I will. But I have to take care of my body and mind, first. It’s an admission that’s difficult to share, but it’s the truth.

Nothing we say is going to feel *right* at this moment, but we have to have an open dialogue. I share memories of prejudice growing up, my thoughts on the recent necessary upheaval, and being an empath during this time.

There’s so much more I could think, say, and do......God help us.

I share how I’ve been taking matters into my own my own hands when it comes to my serotonin levels, how things are progressing, and the role my subconscious beliefs have taken.

In this episode, I discuss the importance of accepting reality, the utmost importance of sharing our thoughts and feelings, and recent techniques that have helped me, immensely.

An honest disclosure of my fears with where I’m going with this. Details of where I am, chronologically, in my process, and WHY I decided to make these changes for myself. Advocating for anti-depressant medication and why they can be so important. Then, a brief admission of rage while running errands in quarantine. Remember: wherever you are, honor it. Love yourself, accept yourself, make room for all of the messy aspects that come with being human.

An unscripted, messy chat to kick things off, while walking in a park (please mind the occasional winds) For an hour, I share my experiences with my drug of choice, weed, my depression, my recent “sobriety,” and microdosing with psilocybin. All of these chemical changes began just slightly prior to the U.S. being in Quarantine, but this is a brief history of where substances and I began and where I am, currently. The purpose of this episode is not to condone OR bash any substance in particular. I have found that many people have questionable attachments to them, and my hope is that this admission could provide some comfort for others who question their own relationships with them. I am NOT an expert, but merely a human going through an experimental evolution, that perhaps some will relate to.