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  • Words Have Meanings

    Correction: 1997 not 1977

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    Hey there I'm Scott and this is tangents.

    Well this could be a long one although I

    never know.

    I have like seven pages worth of notes and sometimes that means

    something and sometimes it doesn't.

    I've gone for like two hours from half a

    page notes and I can't really predict it.

    I really genuinely can't but we'll see.

    Today is as I'm recording this the 16th of September 2025, 1736, not that

    that matters to you.

    I'm still in Tokyo for another few days.

    It's Tuesday.

    I'm

    flying out on Saturday and I don't know.

    I have to say I can't believe I can't

    believe my time.

    Well I guess this is just how things go.

    You know things seem

    like a long time and then they're over and before I came, yeah.

    Seems like it was

    going to be a long time.

    It's spent like two months out of the country and now I'm

    coming back and it's just, it's wild.

    It's actually more held.

    Completely

    completely aside before I actually get into the actual thing.

    I shaved yesterday

    and I hate facial hair.

    I'm not a fan of it.

    But annoyingly I really think it's

    like a fucking suit.

    Like it looks good.

    It actually, it looks good.

    My friend

    when she was in town commented on it and said, you know, it actually looks
    good.

    And it does.

    It actually does, but it bothers me.

    And you know, it like it

    switches and it kind of irritates me.

    I look at it in the mirror and I'm like, fuck, it

    does.

    It does look good.

    I wish the suit didn't look good too.

    Because I hate wearing a suit.

    And yet when you're wearing a suit, you look better.

    You feel better.

    And I just, yeah,

    I feel like a different person with the facial hair.

    Not that this is anything at all to

    do with what I want to talk about.

    So again, since this is going to be potentially long,

    I'm going to jump right in.

    So today, I'm calling this one words have meaning or maybe

    trigger words.

    But I feel like I'm just luring my words sometimes.

    But words have meanings

    or trigger words.

    And this one is basically a friend a couple days ago mentioned that he's

    put off by Erquoats insults.

    And these insults were things like people calling people

    crystal fascists or white nationalists, white supremacists, racist, this kind of stuff.

    And

    his comment was actually also, it was a little shaded, which was basically he's put off by it,
    but he understands that if I'm using these terms, I'm not the kind of person that just throws
    around insults.

    And so, you know, it gives him a little pause and gives him a little time to sort

    of think more about it.

    And consider what is actually like the underlying thing there.

    And so, I want to talk a little bit about these and in practice, I think there are several

    problems.

    And one of these problems is that there are people who genuinely just throw around words

    as insults without any thought or consideration, no real meaning behind them.

    People just throw

    shit out.

    And it's very annoying because when people do this, it dilutes the meaning of the words,

    and it's confusing to people and it basically, I think it's just moneying the waters.

    I wish

    people wouldn't do that.

    And then similarly, and closely related, a lot of people don't know

    the meaning of these terms, so they just kind of throw shit out.

    Sometimes also deliberately throw

    out incorrect words.

    Not that they're necessarily trying to obfuscate the meaning of the words,

    but between those two things, it might again, muddies the waters.

    And like a common one, right versus

    left.

    If you look at the history of these terms, and it's very complicated, but the history of

    these terms, you go back to the French Revolution.

    And in the national assembly, people would sit

    in the right wing.

    In the left wing, based on sort of whether they were in support of the

    more traditional authoritarian essentially the king of the right wing.

    And in the left wing,

    would be more revolutionary and collective rights, liberty, liberty, equality, fraternity, you know,
    societal justice and radical reforms.

    And that's where that originally came from.

    It's of course

    evolved since then and the language is not a static thing.

    There's a lot to it beyond that.

    It gets more complicated.

    And again, also, this is only one dimension, and there are many, many

    dimensions that can be there.

    But I think most importantly, people really don't have any

    political awareness.

    And when I say this, I mean, most people that you talk to, especially in the

    United States, have had very little education, probably haven't taken a single polycycores,
    political science course, probably, you know, maybe they've taken a little bit of government,
    and they understand vaguely checks and balances and how the U.S.

    government is supposed to work.

    But in terms of political theory, most people have no idea what socialism is, or communism,

    or fascism, and so on.

    And, you know, what is conservatism? It's an interesting problem.

    And I'm going to get into some of those in a minute.

    But like socialism is just like the social

    owning of the means of production.

    So like, if there's a factory, and the factory has a bunch of

    machines, one way to organize that is to have the people working in the factory, own the factory,
    collectively, and own the machines.

    And then they get to decide what to do, and they get to put their

    labor in, and then get the profit and decide what to do with the profit.

    Whether that's reinvesting,

    or distributing among themselves, or whatnot.

    Another system of economics that you can use is capitalism,

    where you have a capitalist, maybe one or more people, who own the means of production.

    And they get to decide, you know, okay, I'm going to hire these people,

    you're just going to do a job, and then I'm going to take the fruits of your labor and sell that
    for whatever I can, and I'll give you whatever I decide is as a reasonable amount for it.

    And

    I get to make all the decisions.

    It's mine.

    Yeah, it's not my favorite system.

    Let's just say.

    But people don't really understand, like they throw around these terms, socialist capitalists,

    and have no clue, no concept what they mean.

    A lot of people, like one of the that I really get

    annoyed with, is a lot of right wingers.

    And when I say right wingers, I don't actually even mean

    people that are necessarily, like if you, if you took a quiz and you sort of found where you stand,
    I don't know that a lot of people who vote as though they're right wingers, actually are right wingers.

    A lot of people, I think, just do not evaluate and do not really understand, and they have

    thought about what their positions are on certain issues, or what are your values? What do you think
    matters? How do you think things should operate? How do you think government should operate? What
    system of economics? And the system of economics also, like if you have a very limited view of what
    is possible, you're not going to be able to decide, or you're going to decide from that limited
    site you're not going to decide from the full sea of possibilities.

    So that's all complicated.

    So in that, I really think a lot of people who consider themselves to be right wingers,

    probably aren't.

    They're like culturally raised that way.

    A lot of people who consider themselves

    to be liberals, and they have, of course, like people throw away around, this is another one of these
    terms liberals.

    Often, like when I throw it around, I'm talking about neoliberals,

    there's a very big difference between classical liberalism and neoliberalism, and both of these are
    right wing ideologies.

    It's interesting that they get people, if you explain that to people,

    because there's been so, I guess it's a combination of things.

    One, the overton window in the

    US, the sort of range of possibilities that people think are reasonable to discuss or think about,
    and the range of where political parties are that are in power.

    It's shifted so far to the right

    that people have no idea what the actual scale is.

    And the window that people see

    makes it seem like neoliberals are lefty.

    And in fact, they're absolutely, absolutely right of

    center by any reasonable, you know, any reasonable metric.

    And again, also, like there are many

    different dimensions in all of this.

    The funny thing is also, of course, if you actually go to the

    people that consider themselves to be liberals or get called liberals, and again, liberals being
    neolibs, a lot of them really would not align that well with neoliberalism, or though,
    you know, there are, like, there are some parts of it that actually don't sound so bad.

    Like,

    you know, free markets, and free expression of ideas, and, yeah, things like this.

    Of course,

    it's still a fundamentally capitalistic system.

    And, yeah, maybe, like, put some regulation,

    but basically free markets, and all those kind of stuff.

    But when people really

    identify as these things, or identify others as these things, they'll come up with terms like that,
    or, again, conservatives, like, I know a bunch of people who consider themselves conservatives,
    if you're a conservative, the Democrats are actually a closer conservative party to, which is one
    of the reasons why I'm not a Democrat, frankly.

    The Republicans are radical,

    crystal fascist, that this is the modern Republican party, not just Trump, but the
    the leadership, and so on.

    Radical, crystal fascist, anarcho-capitalists.

    I'll get into what that

    means later, but that is what they are.

    They are absolutely radical.

    They're not interested in

    conserving shit.

    They're not interested, and other than the, without getting a little bit too

    much into this, that's the purity of the white race.

    They're racist, horrible, kind of people.

    I'm just, like, the juxtaposition between that and destroying the environment and thinking, like,

    anything goes, and not having any reference for what has come before, or having any interest,
    really, and actually preserving things like forests, or just natural beauty.

    Not having any

    feel for, like, stewardship.

    The party is not conservative, and it annoys me to know in that

    people call them conservative, and people call themselves conservative.

    So anyway, that's, it's

    very irritating.

    And I think the broader problem here, and the thing that is really important to

    understand, is that in the United States, and unfortunately, this is true to a very large extent,
    globally, not everywhere and not everywhere, but, you know, you go to Canada, you go to the UK,
    you go to Australia, and really you can go down a very long list of countries, and the,
    the parties, the dominant parties absolutely do not represent anyone except for wealthy oligarchs.

    And, you know, this is, if you actually look at what the parties stand for, not necessarily

    their party, the official platform, but the stuff that they do, the policies that they enact,
    the things that they invest in, and the things that they keep money out of.

    They don't align,

    like if you pull the membership, what the membership will tell you, and what the party is doing,
    are almost completely unrelated.

    This has been very well studied, but it's between zero correlation,

    and almost a negative correlation, which is something, and I don't think people understand this,
    and it really, you know, ends up in this situation where, like, neither of these parties
    is actually representing anyone.

    And one of the things that's kind of eerie when you start

    getting out of that, because I, you know, I was raised by people who were, well, my mom especially,
    always voted Democrat.

    Well, I guess she was like Hillary Clinton, she did the Goldwater thing,

    which is not ideal, but then Democrat afterwards, I was registered in Democrat, I voted Democrat
    in every election up until 2024.

    2020, I almost didn't because, frankly, Biden, before he was

    genocide Joe, and you Gen X Joe, he was crime bill Joe, he was Jim Crow Joe, he was the guy who said
    he didn't want his children to grow up in a racialized jungle.

    That's a basically direct quote,

    and important to note, your context does that make his quote better there.

    He's somebody who is

    actually pro-forced birth, he's against abortion, and, you know, he was for the high demand,
    up until 2019, does not align with me.

    He said, row went too far as recently as 2024,

    and, you know, this is the guy who is leading that party, and the party itself, and,
    especially since Bill Clinton, the party has switched to this point where they call this the
    neoliberal consensus, but basically Republicans under Reagan got into this sort of neoliberalism.

    This is another thing, because, you know, people like to throw around lives and call themselves

    lives and call themselves, recall of it, people lives and all this stuff.

    The neoliberal consensus

    is shared broadly by both parties.

    So Republicans and Democrats,

    by and large, subscribe to at least some form of neoliberalism.

    They don't really,

    they don't use the term often, but that's if you actually look at the tenants and the points
    and all this, that's where they fall, which is kind of ridiculous.

    That was one of the problems

    with Reagan, he pushed for the hat and pushed against the idea that government should provide
    services for people that don't necessarily have to make money.

    You know, lots of things,

    it's wild how many things there are that people have done in the past like building roads,
    building libraries, public schools, I'm a pilot and the air traffic control network is an
    amazing thing that you don't pay for.

    It's something that is just like a service that we pay for

    collectively and, you know, it's not like a torode.

    It's a free thing, free public, or free

    free for use.

    Obviously, things cost money, but for the end user, it is free.

    There are so many

    things like this that if you built them today would be very difficult because Reagan first
    made it this idea that everything has to be run like a business.

    Everything has to make money.

    Everything has to have revenue come in and, you know, the amount that's coming in has to

    exceed the amount going out and, you know, it's just, it's wild because there are so many things
    that we do collectively that are so much better for all of us based on free to the end user.

    Using sidewalks, walking on the road, driving, things like this, free to the end user.

    And, you know, it's just, it's just wild.

    So the Democrats under Bill Clinton absorbed

    the same thing and, you know, like Clinton did this, I hate the term welfare reform because
    what it really was was basically pushing that neoliberal consensus and getting the Democrats
    on board with the same stuff that the Republicans were on board with and going from this idea
    that, you know, you would have a social safety net and that you would try to help people to, oh,
    you know, will help people and will means test everything and if you happen to be somebody,
    you know, we're going to really figure out if you're in need or if you're screwing the system.

    And I've talked about this before, but the thing about means testing, the thing about having

    requirements for these kinds of things, it adds a lot of overhead.

    It doesn't actually save money.

    If you actually look at the amount of time and money and effort put into determining like,

    does somebody actually need social services versus just having them free for the taking for
    anyone that asks for them or wants them, it actually costs more to put in the barriers.

    It's like public transit.

    It costs more very generally to run the tolls and do all of this kind of

    stuff and to enforce that for, say, the New York subways system that it would cost to simply
    operate it for free.

    And the amount that you take in from tolls, it doesn't actually cover any

    significant amount of the costs.

    You know, it's significant amount of money, but the amount of

    money the operating costs for the for the system are significantly more, especially if it was
    well maintained.

    So anyway, coming back, we have this really big, kind of awful, false division

    in the country.

    And again, remember the parties don't represent people.

    And if you, if you take away

    the labels and I hate the term no labels, party, but because somebody is ruined it.

    But many, many

    terms have been ruined like this.

    But if you take away the labels and you look at policy positions

    and just sort of figured out where you stand, which is what I think you should do.

    I think I

    will get to the next thing.

    But I think we should all kind of think about each issue and

    sort of decide where you stand and be flexible, too.

    Like be open to the possibility that you think,

    oh well, we should only give help to people who need it.

    And then be open to the idea of,

    well, actually, by giving help to anyone that asks for it, if somebody doesn't need it,
    you're going to make that money up in terms of tax revenue or, you know, and doesn't need it in
    your estimation.

    And if somebody does need it, but for some reason, you know, like their situation

    change.

    And they've suddenly lost their job or had to, you know, something happened and suddenly

    they need a little bit of help.

    Who is the decide who needs what? That's a massive thing.

    Who

    is the decide, you know, like if you're getting free college, I know people whose parents made a lot
    of money and they were unable to go to college or unable to go to the schools that they wanted
    because they couldn't get student aid because their parents wouldn't pay for the schools that
    they wanted to go to.

    And, you know, this kind of thing, like it gives you a terrible situation

    and it gives you this situation as well where you're intrinsically making a class of people,
    we're going to be against whatever the social, you know, whether it's the social safety net,
    whether it's food or shelter or whatever.

    You'll have people who are against it because they're

    not in the category of people that are allowed to get it.

    And you'll also leave people out, you'll

    also unduly delay, you know.

    And I mean, if you know anyone who has a disability and they're in

    the US and they collect disability, they're not getting very much money at all.

    It's a pitence.

    And not only is it a pitence, but thanks to the welfare reform and giant air quotes and all of this,

    they're not able to have basically any assets at all.

    Plenty of people who are disabled

    are not able to even get married because if they get married, their partner will throw them out
    of disability, you know, they'll have too much money or too much, whatever.

    And, you know,

    they're living on the edge.

    They're not able to keep any savings.

    They're not able to work.

    It's a funny thing because we have means testing and we have this stuff that is like,

    well, this is not the concept that I want to get to here, but there's this concept of a welfare
    cliff, which is not just for welfare, but for any kind of social support, if you stop giving it
    to people when they hit a threshold, like when they start making a certain amount of money,
    there becomes a point where you have to make a lot more money just in order to catch up to where
    you would have been before.

    If you taper it off, it's a little bit better, but if you just give it

    to everybody, then you don't have these kinds of things.

    So in doing that, you're giving a false

    incentive not to work.

    You're actually like, the system is set up through these things that are

    supposed to encourage people to work, and there's sold as such to make it so that people cannot
    work.

    They're actively punished for trying to work.

    But anyway, getting back in this false division,

    this is something like, I see this much more now because I'm kind of outside of both of these
    groups, and it's kind of staggering just how much of a mirror image these things are, especially
    and things are complicated.

    I'm not saying that all air quotes conservators are watching

    fox or all air quotes in the brills are watching MSNBC.

    Obviously things are much broader than that,

    both of these have viewership in the like single digit millions.

    The plenty of people never

    watch them, but just to use those as examples, you have people who are watching fox, and you have
    people who are watching MSNBC, and both of these channels are completely detached from reality.

    They're presenting something that is utterly, utterly incongruous, both with each other

    and with the grounded reality.

    They're presenting existential threats, and this existential

    threat situation, and I will say like, I think Trump is genuinely extraordinarily dangerous.

    I don't think that's a, well, it shouldn't be a really controversial statement.

    Unfortunately,

    I know some people who would think that it is, but he is an extremely dangerous person,
    and many of the people in the current Republican leadership are extremely dangerous.

    But nonetheless, in both cases, you have people saying you have to vote for so-and-so because

    the other guy is an existential threat.

    And in one case, maybe it's more true than the other,

    but in both cases, it's like you have to vote for Joe Biden, despite the fact that he's a terrible
    person, he's a old racist fucking dirt bag.

    And I don't think that's, you know, I don't think

    that's an ambiguous, or it should not be a controversial statement, but I know plenty of people
    who would push back and say, oh, he's not a racist, Scott.

    No, he's a fucking racist.

    And I mean,

    I can get quotes, especially if you can go back to the 70s, but you can get more recent stuff,
    it's a fucking racist.

    It's really fucking annoying to me, that people just, I don't know.

    I don't even want to get into that, but it's, it's annoying.

    But you have to vote for Biden,

    because Trump is so bad.

    And then you have the other ones going, well, you know, you don't align

    with Trump on all of these things, but you have to vote for Trump because Biden is so bad.

    And it's funny, too, because the ways that they suggest Biden is so bad is they're like,

    oh, he's a communist.

    And first off, I wish, if the Democrats were the people that the

    Republicans insist they are, I'd probably be a Democrat.

    If they were actually socialists

    and communists, I'd probably align more with them.

    But in reality, you know, a lot of the reasons

    that Trump sucks and the reasons that Biden sucks are the same reasons.

    A lot of them are things

    like they're both corporatists.

    They're both interested in funneling shit tons of money back into

    companies, giving public resources to companies, giving billions to companies, doing a lot of
    the same kind of stuff.

    You know, I mean, you had Harris at the debate stage arguing with Trump

    over who was more like, who was a bigger fracker? Who was a better, we're in a ecological disaster
    right now, mass extinction and climate catastrophe that is extremely, like you're starting to see
    some stuff, but it's going to get worse.

    And it's extraordinarily, like it should be a planetary

    emergency.

    And instead, you have the two major parties in this country arguing with each other

    over, and I don't mean like, she's saying you're a bigger fracker.

    I mean, both of them are trying

    to claim the moniker of the biggest fracker.

    That's who these people are.

    And because you have this

    thing in the sort of, you know, for one of the better term, like, in a migdala activation that
    they're doing, like, you're getting, you're getting people into this panic, anger, it's super
    emotional state, flight or flight.

    It makes it very difficult for people to actually rationally sit

    back and go.

    But actually, you know, is, is Harris this bad that you have to vote for somebody

    as awful as Trump, is Trump this bad that you have to vote for somebody as awful as Biden or Harris?
    I would, yeah, I would lean more toward the latter being true, but I don't think, you know, like
    all of the above, I'm fucking horrible.

    And the fact that, like, out of 330 million people,

    these are the best people you can come up with, it is a condemnation of our system to be down.

    Just to be extremely, extremely blunt there.

    But anyway, I think the worst thing about it is

    it makes discussion impossible.

    And this is, this is again, like, one of these things about these

    words.

    It's one of the reasons why I almost called this trigger words.

    Because if I say certain words,

    certain people will immediately shut down.

    If I say that Trump is a racist, a lot of people will

    just immediately shut down.

    Because I don't know, he's not a, he's a fucking racist, like both.

    It's kind of funny, because it's also, like, he's an open-over racist.

    You know, it's not,

    you don't have to go back to the Central Park 5 and the just blatant shit that he did
    in terms of housing that was very discriminatory in the 70s and 80s.

    Just the current stuff

    openly openly racist.

    Biden also a racist.

    And I would even go so far as to say that Harris,

    you know, despite being a black presenting woman, she is an agent of white supremacy.

    And I'm going to talk a little bit more about what that means.

    But it's something that, you know,

    like, I'm not saying, like, everybody's a racist and nobody's a racist.

    I'm saying more, like,

    everybody kind of is, like, she and it Biden both built their careers in a large part on throwing
    black men into prison and stripping them of their, of their civil rights.

    And part of that is also

    if you look at the 13th Amendment, air quotes abolishing slavery with a little asterisk, people
    get enslaved when they go into prison, because slavery is still allowed in prison.

    And so both of

    them built their political careers on enslaving black men.

    It's kind of a, they're, I mean,

    not just, but that by and large, that was what the end effect of what they did was.

    And it's

    interesting.

    It's kind of interesting that they're all so similar in this regard, especially when

    you get people who, like, lose their minds about how different they think these people are.

    It's, I always, this is not in my notes, but this is something I always think of that,

    I always liken it to pro wrestling.

    You know, you have this situation where, you know,

    these people playing these characters and you have, sometimes they're espousing strong differences
    or they're arguing with each other in public or whatever.

    I'd say both hang out the same bars

    and the same parties that get paid by the same old look arcs.

    They do the same things.

    They're all

    rich fox, just, you know, they're, they're chummy.

    They're putting on a show.

    And within the

    parties also, they do things where they'll have somebody who is like the rotating villain.

    So at

    one point, it was Joe Lieberman.

    I know more about the Democrats than their Republicans, but,

    you know, the Republicans, I'm sure do something very similar.

    At one point, it was Joe Lieberman.

    At one point, it was hereston cinema and then it's somebody else and, you know,

    our mansion or whoever.

    It'll be somebody and there's always somebody there to point to,

    to say, well, we would do good things if it wasn't for this one asshole or these two assholes.

    It's kind of a fucking show.

    And when you start seeing it as a show, it gets really obvious that

    it's a show.

    So anyway, coming back to my notes and what I wanted to talk about.

    So one of the

    big things that shuts people down, and this is especially to my friend, is when we talk about racism
    and white nationalism and white supremacy and white supremacists, it's considered
    worse to be called a racist than to actually be one in the US.

    And so like, you'll get people

    who react immediately and kind of reflectively with I'm not a racist.

    People, people, because obviously

    like you don't want to be a racist, we know that that's a bad thing.

    We used to know that being a

    Nazi was a bad thing.

    And now, now you get people on the Fox News saying that they're a Nazi,

    but they never mind that now.

    We're reclaiming the word or some bullshit like that.

    But anyway,

    people don't understand where they fit into sort of white supremacy and white supremacists
    culture.

    And how lots of things that we do that don't necessarily seem overtly racist are racist

    and they're harmful to a lot of people.

    And they're real danger.

    Again, it's easy to see the overt

    over the top stuff.

    But it's the subtle stuff that actually ends up being really difficult.

    That doesn't mean that the over the top stuff, you know, like somebody lynching somebody

    obviously extremely terrible.

    But those are things that you can kind of point to and it's more

    obvious that they're terrible.

    Whereas the things that a lot of people, I would even argue,

    almost everybody does, imply Aaron and pose these little bits of force.

    They're not necessarily

    huge, but collectively they end up being a lot of pressure and force that pushes people into
    a great deal of disparity.

    Another one that is really like people get very reactive to is to be told

    that they have white privilege.

    And I know that the problem is with this.

    And I think people sit there

    and they're like, oh, but I don't have that because I haven't had a perfect life and, you know,
    I haven't faced many challenges in blah, blah, blah.

    And I'm sure you, I'm sure that's true.

    I'm sure, you know, you've had a lot of difficulties.

    I'm sure things are not going as

    well as they could for you.

    I'm sure, you know, you could be doing a lot better.

    But the thing

    about white privilege and what that is is simply that the fact that your white is not getting in the
    way, it's not one of the problems that you're facing.

    Whereas people who are not white,

    that is a massive impediment.

    And you can argue, like, oh, no, it's not.

    The things that we're

    in a post, yeah, bullshit.

    You can look at the statistics.

    It's very clear.

    Look at any job and

    look at the racial breakdown of who's doing that job.

    And then look at the actual decomposition

    of the country.

    It's very clear that there's some very strong bias there.

    It's not subtle.

    It's not at all subtle.

    And this also doesn't mean that our lives are perfect.

    It doesn't mean

    that, you know, like, just because you look like me, you're automatically a CEO.

    But it does mean

    that, you know, the reasons that I'm not in that position are not just based on the color of my
    skin.

    And the thing also, I mean, here's one that I see a lot of people get very reactive to.

    Racism requires systematic power structure and differential.

    And again, this is going to be very

    triggering.

    And, yeah, I'm just resurfacing it.

    Don't get shut down and don't get reactive here.

    But you cannot be racist in the United States against white people.

    You can be prejudiced,

    prejudiced, that's fine.

    But to actually be racist requires that power structure.

    And the power

    structure and the systems that exist do not exist for that.

    The history is not there for that.

    You would have to have a massive revolutionary change in order for that to be something that was even

    possible in the U.S.

    And again, like, you know, I get the, you could be like, oh, but, but,

    but, no, reverse racism, which is like racism against white people, is not a thing.

    It's not a thing.

    And I understand that you may think it is, but the accusations of that and the idea that that is

    a thing is actually just a tool.

    And part of this comes to something called Darvo.

    Darvo is

    deny attack and reverse victim and defender.

    And this, this was created by, uh, or not created by,

    but I guess, described by, um, I'm going to box her name, but Jennifer freed in, I guess, 1977.

    I was, it was kind of on gaslighting, and it's this tactic that abusers will often use,

    where they will sort of, um, the, if it is right up there with kind of sewing fud, fud is fear
    uncertainty and doubt.

    Um, and, and when you do this, you're muddying the waters and you're confusing

    things and you're making things seem much more complicated than they are.

    Fulls complexity is a massive

    thing that people love to use.

    It's one of the things that protects is real a lot because right now,

    um, you know, they're committing a genocide.

    I would say unambiguously, um, at least probably 600,000

    Palestinians and Gaza have been killed since, uh, you know, like October, 2023.

    And, uh, yeah,

    go out.

    I don't even want to get into that, but it's not complicated.

    If you, it's one of these

    things where if you actually look at it, it gets much simpler and the more you look into it, the
    simpler it gets.

    And when you start looking at it, it's like, oh, well, there's actually one group

    and that this, I'm going to get into this a little bit because it's going to come back to,
    what I'm talking about, but there's one group who actually has a lot of real, just collective,
    systemic power.

    And there's a group that does not.

    You have one group that has like a super modern

    military with nuclear weapons and fighter jets and, um, you know, the iron dome, the ability to, you know,
    shoot down, um, incoming missiles and the ability to strike targets, um, in somebody else's space.

    There's one group that does not.

    They have improvised weapons, they have, you know, very

    little technology, very little capacity to inflate harm.

    Now, if you look at, like, how many,

    how many people die in Israel from bombings versus how many people die in Gaza from bombings.

    If you look at pictures of Gaza has been leveled, like, just absolutely decimated.

    And,

    yeah, it's not hard to find, um, kids and tents blown up and burned alive by bombs and bullets
    and weapons that were made often in the United States, uh, versus they have that they're literally,
    like, people with stones and, uh, nothing, no power.

    They even, if you take out the current,

    uh, stuff that's happening.

    You have one group, and this is a thing that you could have seen,

    but you have one group living under a apartheid, uh, where their, their movements are strictly
    controlled, their ability to leave and to come back are strictly controlled.

    And then you have

    another group that gets to move freely.

    You have one group who live under, uh, you know,

    like fences and constant threat of violence and who get regularly kidnapped and shot the
    mowing the lawn.

    If you, if you search for that, that's a cool one.

    Uh, that Israel was doing

    a long time before the current stuff.

    Um, and then you have another group that just is completely

    protected and essentially can operate with impunity.

    There's no, that the power imbalance is

    extremely clear.

    And when you start having that and you start using this Darvo, uh, you are

    showing this idea that like, well, it's, um, it's actually, therefore, because blah, blah, blah, blah,
    and, you know, it's actually the, the reason that you have, uh, disparities in terms of who is
    working a certain job, you can blame the victim or you could look at the actually strong, well-established
    systemic, you know, power structure and differential there.

    Um, you can, uh, and I'm, I'm trying

    to tiptoe a little bit here because I understand that some of the people I want to talk to here,
    some of the people I would like to hear me are going to hear a lot of this stuff and they're just
    going to, like, their eyes are going to roll back and they're not going to be able to take it.

    And

    I wish that you would, I really wish that you would just listen and just think about this for a second.

    And to think maybe maybe some of this stuff that you've been told is a little bit bullshit.

    Maybe maybe some of this stuff is actually just the tool of people who are doing the oppression.

    And some of it is like, it's an interesting thing about this because it's not like,

    I always call this kind of thing a conspiracy without conspirators, which is not to say there aren't
    people who are like deliberately pushing things and making them worse.

    But a lot of this kind of stuff

    you end up with people who have some kind of a general alignment.

    It's like an external magnetic

    field almost.

    And they end up doing things that seem kind of coordinated.

    They seem like there's almost

    a, uh, a plan working together and people, you know, pulling the strings and all that,
    when in reality, it's just a bunch of people making independent choices under some kind of
    a system that pushes for certain kinds of choices.

    Um, so one of the big examples of Darvo is

    with affirmative action.

    So affirmative action is basically just to, uh, to try to level the,

    that disparity that I'm talking about, um, similarly like there's a DEI diversity equity and inclusion.

    You're trying to take things where there are existing biases, where there are existing

    disparities and sort of make them a little bit more fair.

    And I have, um, I think it's going to

    be the art for this episode.

    We'll be this old cartoon, um, that's basically showing, um, I guess

    sort of a baseball game.

    And, uh, it's, it's showing three different people standing, watching the

    game.

    And there's a fence.

    One of the people's short, one is going to medium height and one of

    them is tall.

    And, uh, on the left hand side, you have equality, which is the thing that, like,

    like, equality sounds good.

    It doesn't matter.

    It sounds like, oh, everything is fair, everything

    and, but in reality, because you have that disparity and height, um, in that artificial barrier
    in front of people, the one that's already tall, standing on exactly the same crate,
    gets to see everything.

    And the one that's kind of medium height, they're struggling on it,

    but they can kind of see the game.

    And then the short person is screwed out of seeing the game.

    And then on the other side, you have equity.

    And in this case, the tall person gets to see the game.

    The medium height person standing on a crate, they can see the game.

    And the short person,

    also standing on two crates, gets to see the game where they couldn't before.

    That is what DEI is trying to achieve.

    Now, there's also, uh, people have extended this and

    they've added in things like justice and things like get rid of the fucking wall.

    And then we

    don't have these barriers.

    And then you don't need the crates, uh, which would be ideal.

    And,

    you know, I know, like, I know it's tempting to say, like, oh, we don't, we don't want to have DEI,
    we just want to make things, that's the fucking point of having it is to make things fair.

    And until you have massive, overhauls of society, um, you need to do something about this.

    And if you don't do it, uh, then you end up with the person who can't see the game.

    It's, it's a massive, massive problem.

    And it's one of these things also, like the, in this picture,

    you can kind of see the differences in height and you can see what those things are.

    And reality is a lot more complicated, because systematic and, uh, oppression is not something

    that, uh, that you can really see.

    It's something that you can measure.

    You can see statistically

    certain groups have, you know, advantages that other groups don't.

    And certain groups can advance

    further and certain groups are left behind.

    But you can't really see it.

    You can't really see

    what is doing it.

    Um, you have to, you have to do some work.

    And because of that, it makes it

    really difficult for people to understand, especially if you don't face it.

    Like, people who,

    that, the, the short person standing on the one crate that can't see, they fucking know,
    they have zero doubt, like they, that's obvious to them.

    The medium height person is kind of like,

    kind of conceivate, not great.

    Um, they sort of know, they, they're pretty, yeah, it's there.

    The tall person is like, well, what's the problem? Yeah.

    You have to, you have to do work.

    If

    you're that tall person, you actually see, um, what is going on.

    And this is, this is just so

    baked in to everything.

    And it's such a thing that, um, yeah, and I'm not, I'm not trying to say,

    like, we're all racist.

    But white supremacy is built so much into the American culture that

    and using in culture.

    I would rather call it that because American, the Americas or North

    and South America, I'm talking specifically about, uh, the United States, so museums.

    But it's

    so baked in to that culture that you don't know it.

    And you don't realize, and you don't understand

    to also, especially if you're not the kind of person that's actually going out of your way to figure
    this out.

    Uh, it's very easy not to know that if you're, yeah, if you're white, you can be

    mediocre.

    You can be Joe Biden or Donald Trump.

    And it's one of the things actually about these two,

    both of these are the most, um, archetypical, I say, I would say examples of museums, of people
    from the United States.

    They are mediocre, racist, old white dudes who have their entire lives

    fucked up continuously and never faced a consequence.

    Both of them, uh, Trump has lost a billion

    dollars of other people's money.

    Biden has done so much harm and so many terrible things.

    He lost

    this Supreme Court.

    He, you know, like, I mean, he got us here.

    And yet, and yet they're both,

    well, current and former presidents of the United States.

    And then I, I will say, also,

    like, I'm not a huge fan of Obama's anymore.

    But one thing you can say about Obama is he was exceptional.

    He was, you know, his whole life had to be exceptional, had to be so much better than either of

    these two assholes.

    And even then, you know, gets the chance, the chance to bullshit treatment.

    Even then gets, uh, called BO by people who definitely are not racist by the way.

    But anyway,

    this is, this is the thing, when you're black, it's not to say that you can't get ahead, but in order
    to get to the same place, in order to get to the same level, as again, a mediocre white dude,
    you have to be exceptional.

    You have to be either through luck or probably through practice and

    probably through both.

    And this gets into this, again, myth of air quotes reverse racism

    and reverse discrimination.

    And it did, you get a little anecdote here, but years ago,

    I was talking with somebody, and this person is white dude kind of, kind of relevant here.

    But he wanted to be a firefighter.

    And he went in and did his interview, prepared all that kind of stuff.

    And when he was there, he was explaining that the guy who interviewed him also a white dude

    was explaining to him that, you know, it's, well, you don't have any chance here because they're
    going to give it to, and this is his words not mine, but they're going to give it to an air quotes
    unqualified black woman.

    And the thing is, A that's not true, B, I'm trying that the, I feel like

    I'm describing stuff that is like simultaneously so obvious, and yet the people that I'm describing
    it to, or hopefully, I would like to think some of the people that are, I'm describing it to,
    do not know this, and then I'm actually informing.

    But, you know, D.I.

    and affirmative action,

    it doesn't mean you're giving things to unqualified people.

    It means you're doing what you can

    to sort of level the playing field, to sort of let people actually have some degree of fairness and
    equity.

    And it also for a job like being a firefighter, where there are way more applicants than

    there are people who are getting it, most people who apply to that job are not going to get it.

    And this guy, this racist guy that was doing the interviewing, is throwing this thing out about

    D.I.

    and he's getting to tell so many other mediocre white dudes who probably,

    probably weren't necessarily the best candidates.

    It's not because they weren't the best candidates,

    it's not because there were so many other candidates for so few slots.

    It's because somebody who's

    unqualified is going to get the job based on their skin color.

    And the reality is, if you look at

    the statistics, something like 75% of firefighters are white.

    But if you look at the population,

    only like 60% of the population is white.

    It's kind of interesting.

    And then you kind of go through

    and you figure out, well, how many are black? Well, something like 7% are black versus 12% of the
    population.

    And then you start digging in and you're sort of like, well, why is that? Why?

    Why is that? Why do you think that is? It turns out that the people who are doing the hiring
    tend to prefer white people.

    They have intrinsic biases.

    Some of those are not even, you know,

    like there's obviously again the overt racism where they're just discriminating and it's open
    and it.

    But there's a lot of stuff that is very subtle, but you don't even notice that, you know,

    like if you looked at exactly the same scenario with exactly the same things happening, exactly
    the same dialogue and you're someone who was raised in the US.

    And this actually goes a crop like,

    you could be black and you could have been raised in the US and you will still see the black
    person doing exactly the same things, seeming less competent than the white person doing exactly
    the same things.

    Or, you know, you'll have a higher standard for the black person than the white

    person.

    Again, it's not that you are necessarily like overly militantly racist.

    It's just that we

    live in this society that is so racist, that, you know, it's just embedded in you from birth
    and it's very difficult to see.

    And also, you think you're being fair.

    You think you're being

    reasonable.

    And if you're one of the people who wins, you have this thing called,

    called survivorship bias.

    If you're one of the people who wins, you think, oh, it's me.

    I'm actually good or things are fine.

    And this is one way actually where black people who end up

    getting to, you know, positions like Obama end up often being very strong agents of white supremacy,
    which is not to say that they're overtly like using the inward kind of racist.

    But they're doing

    things like sitting there and assuming that other black people that are not getting as far as them
    are just doing it to themselves.

    And it's, it's a really fucked up thing.

    We do this all the time.

    It's, you know, survivorship bias.

    You look at people who go through a process.

    And that process

    is basically random.

    Maybe has some kind of uneven odds.

    And the people who win

    feel like they've done something better.

    The people who lose, you're like, they kind of suck.

    And people looking at them think that people who win are just more qualified than the people who

    lose are just less.

    When in reality, a lot of it is just sort of genetic lottery kind of stuff.

    And when I say that, I mean, you know, how, like, what family did you end up in? What situation

    did you end up in? What kind of things worked for you by chance? How many bullets did you dodge?
    By chance? And what systemic biases did you either overcome or not have? And that's a thing
    that I wish, I really wish people would just see more.

    And there's one of those things also where

    it's very, you know, again, I like in it to atmosphere because it's so omnipresent.

    It's really

    easy to forget that it's there.

    You know, it's really easy.

    And even if you think about it and

    you're like, oh, yeah, if I move my hand, it can kind of feel the air.

    But then a minute later,

    you stop moving and you forget about it.

    And it's just like, it's not there again.

    You have to

    actively work to see it, especially, especially if you're somebody who happens to be successful
    in that system.

    And especially, especially if you're white because you're, you're just, you know,

    it is so transparent there.

    And you don't feel all the little, all the little things pushing

    against you at every step.

    And so if you're not actively looking for it, you're not going to see

    it.

    It's, it's, it's a very big problem.

    So anyway, this is, this is one of the ways where

    bigots can kind of push the narrative and convince people that affirmative action is actually bad.

    When in reality, they're just sort of telling people who we're not going to get the job anyway,

    that they're not getting the job for a specific reason and sort of sewing that doubt and sewing
    this idea that things are unfair.

    And it helps also the, the culture is set up so that

    it's generally unfair and fitting to a lot of people.

    So, you know, a lot of people are poor

    and they feel like, you know, well, I'm, I'm white and I'm poor.

    And so there must not be, you know,

    whatever.

    And in reality, it's just that, you know, you being white is not part of why you're in

    the situation you're in.

    It's not part of why you face the challenges that you have.

    Despite what

    the, the bigot who is telling you that it's affirmative action is telling you.

    So anyway,

    I think it's worth thinking about like, how did we get here? And in thinking about how we get here,
    the first thing you have to understand is sort of like the foundation level understanding.

    And

    I do want to say, there'll be dragons here.

    Like, I am, this is not my domain of expertise.

    There

    are people who have spent like full PhDs studying this.

    I'm just kind of like a amateur.

    So I'm

    giving you my understanding and my, you know, sort of, I'm giving you what I can, but understand
    a little asterisk on this.

    Some of the things that might say declaratively may have some

    fuzz to them, but the broad strokes, this is pretty, I think it's pretty accurate.

    So race is a made up concept.

    It is, it is purely fiction.

    It was made up and especially like

    whiteness was made up in the, or the 17th century.

    And there's no genetic basis for it.

    There's not even,

    if you want to look at like more from metrics.

    So like phenotype and get the, the calipers out and

    do all of this kind of horrible stuff, do frenology or, or all these ridiculously racist things,
    it's not well defined.

    It's not, it's just not a thing.

    It's a purely fictional concept.

    And this actually makes you wonder, like, well, Scott, you're making the whole episode about

    something that you're saying doesn't exist and is fictional.

    And yes, I am.

    And the reason that

    I am is because even though it doesn't exist as a real thing, even though it is made up,
    it affects people.

    It actually matters.

    It's like money doesn't exist.

    Money is just a fictional

    concept.

    It's just made up.

    But whether you have a high score in your bank account or not,

    has massive impacts on your life.

    Just like that, whatever your race is, not a real thing,

    and yet has massive impacts on your life as long as you're living in the United States.

    So

    whiteness was kind of invented sort of as a replacement for Christian in, in settlers and
    sort of like the 1600s.

    And it was done for a variety of reasons.

    But one was that people who were

    in the genus could convert, whereas you can't really convert to, to whiteness.

    Although this is

    the thing like expanding whiteness is a whole thing and giving up your actual ethnicity.

    It's not that you're Spanish or Irish or German or whatever you're just white.

    It's part of the

    as part of, and then they kind of expand this end, and they also have proximity to it and so on.

    It is a thing that people made to create this artificial hierarchy,

    and essentially to divide and conquer people.

    It's kind of interesting because when you look at the

    way this is set up, it's very similar in a lot of ways to capitalism, which is to say,
    you know, you get relatively poor people.

    This is going to, this will probably be controversial

    to people, but relatively poor people to be landlords, and you're like, most scat, but they're rich.

    No, they're not compared to a billionaire.

    Though the wealthiest person you know,

    unless you happen to know people that have hundreds of millions or billions of dollars,
    the wealthiest person you know, they're like a small millionaire, they're poor.

    They're actually poor

    compared to a billionaire.

    They have, they're as close to being completely broke

    at, you know, like within the margin of error, and the fact that you don't understand that,
    and the fact that they don't understand that is part of how this is set up to, to do things.

    You get that person who, again, is poor to suppress and Oprah's and exploit the people under

    them in that system, and they get some kind of reward for it for sure, but in the process,
    they're passing money and other things up to the next person, and there are several layers of this,
    and it goes up to the people who actually have billions of dollars, who don't even have to do
    the stuff themselves, like they don't have to do the oppression themselves.

    They don't have to be

    the villain.

    It's really easy for people to understand that landlords are a villain.

    You can look at

    Chairman Mao, but it's not, in the current system, it's not so much the landlords, which to be
    fair, they are directly being villainous, but it's actually the people who own the banks,
    the people who own all of the stocks, the people who are benefiting from people doing horrible
    things to their tenants, but without having to do the horrible things themselves, it's kind of a really
    cool, clever, I say cool, and not in a good way, but it's kind of a clever system when you think about it,
    it lets you commit immense amounts of villainery and exploit vast numbers of people without actually
    doing it directly yourself, and race is actually even better than capitalism in this sense,
    because with that, you don't even have to give somebody something.

    You don't have to give somebody

    little trinkets.

    You don't have to give somebody like a nice house or a couple houses or whatever.

    You just give them the idea of whiteness.

    You give them the idea that, yeah, you're poor,

    but you're still better off than this other guy who may be poor as well.

    Probably is basically

    in the same boat as you, and in doing that, now you've got this intrinsic conflict between people
    who are really basically at the same level.

    They're basically at the same level.

    They're basically

    culturally at the same level, but instead of focusing on the actual minority of people who are
    sort of up at the top, exploiting everybody, now they're fighting each other.

    This is really

    where this comes.

    It's like the old saying, like a poor white person is more in common with a poor

    black person than with a rich person, and absolutely fucking true.

    So you get people who have no

    power, who have no money, who have nothing, to exploit other people who have no power, who have no
    money, who have nothing, rather than having them collectively go like, hey, wait a second, and then
    look upwards.

    It's really dangerous, but it's also something that I think, and I hope you can open your

    eyes to at some point, and maybe start to see, wait a second, maybe we shouldn't be fighting each other
    so much.

    Maybe it's those people that we should be looking at.

    So again, it's a fake concept,

    but just like money, you have to think about it.

    You have to talk about it.

    You have to

    consider it, and until we fix it, it really matters.

    It's something that really makes a big difference.

    It's something that I'm not going to say.

    It's like the biggest thing in any of our lives,

    but it's something that really is one of the biggest things that determines your success in life
    or your failures.

    Again, it doesn't mean that automatically you're going to be successful

    if you're a white or you're going to be unsuccessful if you're black, but it does mean that all
    things being equal, the odds are really in your favor.

    If you're white and really against you,

    if you're black.

    Anyway, this brings up white supremacy, and it's really easy again.

    This is one of the things that I'm trying to make as the theme to this, but it's really easy to

    look at sort of like the white supremacist, like a David Duke kind of character.

    Somebody who is

    almost cartoonish in it, and to say, you're not like that guy.

    That's an extreme,

    but that's the thing that is an extreme case.

    Those people are definitely malignant,

    and they do a lot to spread a lot of harm, but they're also not the typical thing.

    The thing that

    really enforces all of this, the thing that makes it like stick, it's not people like that,
    nearly as much as everyone else, all of us, and especially when we're not examining,
    especially when we're not thinking about it, especially when we're not considering what we're doing,
    and we're not aware.

    Like when you're unaware of stuff, you don't realize what you're doing

    habitually.

    You don't realize the judgments you're making, you don't realize the biases that you have,

    and how those biases affect people.

    They affect a lot of stuff, and your life, they determine

    things like who you're going to be friends with.

    They determine things like you're going to

    work with, and what kinds of jobs you're going to get, and all kinds of things.

    They determine

    like, are you going to be a pain in the ass to somebody? Are you going to be nicer to somebody? Are you
    going to be more understanding or caring about somebody? Or are you going to just kind of be
    more bitter and cold to somebody? It's all a factor.

    It's also something that really makes a

    big difference, and it's all stuff that, you know, that the real people doing this kind of stuff
    are us.

    The people who are most responsible for it are us.

    They're not like, again, the David

    Duke kind of people.

    And so this gets into this idea of like, what is an agent of white supremacy?

    What is somebody who is actually actively doing this kind of stuff? Because it's very easy to
    think, well, obviously, if you're, and I kind of mentioned this before, but there's this idea that
    by being black, you can't possibly be.

    But the thing is, there are a lot of black people who are

    agents of white supremacy.

    There are a lot of black people who are sitting there and propagating these

    things.

    And I don't just mean the people who are sort of like, you know, clownishly pick me kind of

    people.

    I mean, like, people who think that they're doing a good thing.

    People who think that they are

    sort of, you know, like, they've overcome stuff.

    And they're in this position.

    And, you know, it's that

    it's that race.

    It's that, you know, I was much better.

    And so, everyone else who looks like me

    is much worse.

    And blah, blah, blah.

    That's a massive, massive problem.

    And it's a massive area

    where, you know, you don't necessarily see what you're doing or what is causing the harm.

    And you can also get kind of false reassurance from people because you'll get people who look

    a certain way.

    And they tell you certain things.

    And you don't realize that partly they are just

    reinforcing the same system that you are participating in and benefiting from.

    Or the opposite

    of the bandana under your, we are listening.

    So it's very much actually also like misogyny.

    And that, you know, like, there are lots of women who are actively agents of misogyny,

    who are actively making things worse for other women.

    You have to, you know, just because you're a

    woman does not mean that you're not propagating or perpetuating or, you know, acting on misogynistic
    impulses.

    And it doesn't mean also that you're not sitting there saying, oh, you know,

    sexism doesn't exist anymore in blah, blah, blah.

    And you can't do that.

    And then when you do it,

    you end up actively oppressing people.

    Just because they happen to be in your category does not mean

    you're not actively oppressing them.

    It's, it's, it's part of how this stuff works.

    And it's also

    part of why it's so insidious and part of why it's so important to really examine and go, go for,
    like, you know, I'm, again, I'm not an expert on this stuff.

    There are other people who are experts

    on it who have written a lot of stuff who have spoken a lot on it, go to them and listen,
    hey, don't, I don't mean, like, ask them to do work for you.

    But I mean, look, look at their material,

    read their stuff, listen to their stuff, and learn from it and actively sort of evaluate
    what you're doing in life and where you are and all the things that you are actively doing
    to make things worse for other people and to continue to perpetuate the system.

    So one, and I think, you know, again, this is just an important thing to the really unpack

    in yourself and to understand just like how internalized these things are and how implicit the biases are
    and, you know, it's very difficult to see unless you haven't pointed out to you.

    Like,

    especially, again, if you're in a class that is oppressed, it's pretty easy to see.

    If you're

    in a class that is benefiting from privilege, it becomes much more difficult to see.

    It takes a lot of effort.

    This also gets to, you know, and this is something that just drives me to fucking bonkers,

    but I'll see people talking about like blue lives and you'll see even like a blue air quotes blue
    lives matter.

    There aren't no fucking blue lives.

    Black lives are an actual thing and black lives matter

    is not like a statement that only they matter, no other ones do.

    It's basically got to implicit

    also in it.

    And the reason that you have to say it is because the implicit bias and the systematic

    biases basically say that they don't police face very few consequences.

    People who lynch

    black people face very few consequences and people who rape black women or black men face
    far fewer consequences than people who rape white people.

    It's just the way things are in the U.S.

    and not seeing that, not accepting it is actively perpetuating it.

    It's something that you have to

    you really have to understand where that stuff is and how that works.

    It would just

    give like an example.

    This is kind of abstract, but people look at me and even if I'm fucking up,

    even if I make a mistake, they tend to presume competence.

    They tend to assume like, oh Scott

    kind of knows what he's saying, knows what he's doing.

    And yeah he just he made a hiccup there,

    but that's fine.

    And then if you imagine in contrast you have a black woman who may have actually

    got like a PhD from Harvard and is hyper qualified and is done like a million things that I haven't
    done and she makes like the tiniest little mistake.

    People see her do that and they focus on the

    mistake and they assume incompetence.

    They assume that she's not qualified.

    They assume that she got

    there through something that was not fair.

    This is one of these things.

    It's like, it even better

    one is I can lose, I'm allowed to lose my temper.

    I'm allowed to get heated, I'm allowed to get

    angry.

    I'm allowed to be upset.

    But if a black woman gets just like a little bit elevated,

    it's like a little bit strong.

    It's even briefly uses like a change in tone.

    Suddenly she becomes

    the air quotes angry black woman.

    And this is again like it's not, it's not allowed.

    You have

    these sort of handcuffs on you.

    Straight jacket on you.

    And I can you like you don't notice it

    if you're not in that position.

    The person in that position definitely knows it.

    Now you can ask her,

    she can she can tell you.

    But if you're just watching from afar, you don't see it.

    You don't know it

    unless somebody points it out to you or unless you really go out of your way to try to see it.

    So anyway, I think hopefully that's enough on that.

    Again, other sources are better than me.

    I will

    talk about it again.

    I'm sure, but it's something that I think I think we all need to know.

    And I'm

    hoping my hope is that if you're hearing it from me, maybe you'll be a little bit more open to it
    and maybe you'll maybe not react as much.

    Maybe you won't be quite so triggered and you'll

    start looking into it a little bit more and start thinking a bit more about it.

    The people you

    need to hear it from to be honest are black people, are black women especially, are people that are
    facing this kind of stuff.

    And not just another random white dude.

    But again, I think sometimes

    because of those biases that you have, maybe coming from me, you'll be sort of think about it a
    maybe you will react a little bit less and maybe it will open the door for you to look a little
    bit further.

    That's that's my hope.

    That's that's why I'm why I'm like an hour talking about it.

    So getting on on other words, like fascism is a system of government marked by centralized authority

    under a dictator, a capitalist economy subject to stringent government controls,
    violent suppression of the opposition, and typically a policy of belligerent, massive,
    nationalism, and racism, per the American heritage, dictionary.

    Obviously there are many other

    definitions.

    You can go through another dictionary.

    This is a pretty good one.

    I think it's fine.

    I think it's good enough as a first order approximation.

    And when I say Trump is a fascist,

    I mean, I mean, just that.

    And it's frankly, and I understand, like, I feel like I'm talking

    to be like a child.

    I'm sorry.

    I'm saying it this way because I'm not trying to be condescending just

    it's so obvious.

    And yet it's, I can feel you shutting down and pushing back and just like reacting

    to it, rather than actually listening, but Trump is a fascist.

    Go through the list of stuff that

    I just mentioned.

    It's extremely, extremely blatant and obvious.

    He's very clearly seeking

    and grabbing and acting like a dictator.

    He's very clearly a capitalist.

    He's strictly controlling

    the economy.

    He's imposing all kinds of economic controls.

    He's taking percentages of companies.

    He's doing all of these fucking things.

    He's sending beliefs and the military and to violently

    suppress the opposition.

    He's making this idea that, you know, like, oh, crime is rampant.

    And so we

    have to send in the military.

    Again, crime in the US, US is a more dangerous country than a lot of

    countries in the world.

    But crime is very low.

    Like it is an extremely safe country.

    Your perception

    is very skewed, especially by media and by people who are sitting there for various reasons,
    sometimes deliberate and sometimes just because people don't know any better.

    But people are

    telling you that it's dangerous, but it's really not.

    It's genuinely not.

    The odds, if you don't

    and I'm not saying that not like shit happens, you can go someplace and just get bad luck.

    But in reality, you know, by and large, you can live your entire life and you probably will

    without really interacting with violence, unless you somehow invited it in or it's in your family
    or it's in your friend group or your neighborhood or whatever.

    It's not something that

    that is just so prevalent that like you go down the street in the wrong place and then you're
    going to get shot.

    That's the perception people have.

    But the reality is actually things are

    much safer than you realize.

    So he pushes that idea and then uses that as justification to send

    in the police and to send in the military and to violently suppress the opposition.

    He's blatantly

    nationalistic.

    The fact that he even have to say that is motto is literally America first.

    Like that's this.

    You can't get any more nationalistic than that.

    Also, I mean, this is a motto

    that came up, I think it originally started in like the 1800s.

    It's a motto for the

    nativeist movement.

    Nativeists, you might do some math on that.

    Does not mean indigenous people

    if that's not clear.

    It was a motto used by the KKK and length of 1930s.

    It was very closely

    linked with anti-Semitism and with fascism.

    And in fact, again with fascism, like Hitler and the

    Nazis and Germany were very heavily inspired by.

    And this is not me like speculating on this,

    like they literally wrote about it and talked about it.

    Very heavily inspired by things like Jim Crow,

    things like the US committing genocide on the indigenous people here.

    Things like the Indian

    schools and the cultural genocide and all of these kinds of things.

    Eugenics was another thing

    that was extremely popular in the US.

    A lot of, it's easy to focus on Trump and the Republicans,

    but this country is a very fascistic country.

    It's a country that I always, I'm nervous about

    you in saying this because a lot of people will again react to it, but try not to react to this
    and try to consider it because it's actually true.

    The US is kind of what would have happened

    if he would have won.

    Because there was a genocide on a scale of again hundreds and millions of

    people killed.

    Like we don't know the exact numbers because there were no censuses and

    but order of magnitude 100 million people killed to the land with.

    It wasn't just like land that

    was sitting there that people could take.

    It was a massive, now in some of it was disease,

    so it was not intentional, but a lot of it was.

    A lot of it was very deliberate.

    A lot of it was

    stuff that was like deliberately either, if not actually actively killing people, which again,
    a lot of it was that, but also destroying culture, the cultural genocide, like taking kids,
    forcing them to speak English, forcing them not to speak their indigenous languages.

    forcing them to dress like the settlers, forcing them to adopt the settler religions,

    and isolating them and trying everything they could to destroy their culture and to break
    continuity with it.

    It's an extremely scary thing when you start realizing that, you start thinking

    about like, oh, wait a second.

    If you would have been able to destroy a group of people and things

    worked out for you, what would Germany be like in the future? Well, there's a lot like the US,
    a lot like the US.

    And again, like Hitler and people there, we're open about that.

    They literally

    talked about it.

    It's not like me saying it.

    So, the thing about this is just, it's not

    ambiguous.

    The Trump is a fascist.

    It's not ambiguous that his party is a crystal fascist party.

    His party, and the crystal fascism is just sort of like the intersection of essentially a brand

    of Christianity with, and this is kind of important, but theocratic rule, which is funny
    and simply because there's this whole idea that people push about the Sharia la, Sharia la.

    The people who kept talking about that the most are the Christians who talk about how oppressed

    they are, despite being a majority of people in the country.

    You know, the US, like it's majority

    Christian country, the people who are running the country are almost all Christian, almost all
    white males, by the way.

    And they talk about how oppressed they are.

    It's such a fucking Darvo thing,

    like up and down when you start looking at it.

    It's really ridiculous.

    And it's, again,

    like I'm trying not to be condescending here, but it's so fucking obvious.

    It's so fucking obvious.

    I wish that you would fucking see it.

    The party is also anarcho-capitalist.

    So it's going to sound like, you know, what is anarch?

    The thing about this is like people, and again, this goes to education and people don't understand
    terms and, you know, what does that mean? You know, and it also didn't, you just say that there
    were these tight controls of corporations.

    We had, in some sense, the companies and the country

    are kind of merged.

    Those are, are things.

    But also, like the anarcho-capitalism is that the

    capitalists don't want to have regulation.

    You know, they don't want to have to deal.

    They might,

    they might be embedded in the country sort of nationalistically.

    And the country is like embedded

    in those companies.

    But at the same time, in, in, in archo-capitalism, they don't have like

    little annoying things like environmental regulations.

    They don't want to have to deal with that

    safety regulations.

    Don't want to have to deal with things like food safety.

    Things that cost money and take time.

    And, you know, it's annoying to actually have to control

    the quality of ingredients that we put in stuff and make sure they're not poisoning people.

    So

    let's just not worry about that.

    You know, let's just not have any consequences for people who just

    want to sell the cheapest possible food for the most money.

    And who cares if they poison people,

    who cares if they kill people in the process.

    So that is essentially what they are.

    And, you know,

    they're, again, like unambiguously, um, white nationalists, which means, um, it means kind of what
    it says.

    It says they're seeking to develop and maintain, and this is that my language, but you know,

    like in airports, racial purity, um, and maintain a white majoritarian control of the country.

    Like, this is stuff.

    They literally openly say, um, and it also, you know, I guess, I don't

    want to keep rambling on about this forever.

    But, um, these are, these are not just like names.

    I'm not just like throwing insults of people.

    I'm not just like saying, oh, you're a fascist.

    And that doesn't mean anything.

    No, I'm saying Trump is a fascist.

    And by the definition of a fascist,

    he checks every box.

    He checks every single box.

    And no uncertain terms.

    Like, absolutely.

    It's not even, it's not ambiguous.

    It's not like there's a question about it.

    It's not the

    baitable.

    And the fact that people react so strongly is extremely frustrating for me, because,

    you know, you go like, oh, you can't use that language.

    No, it is language.

    It is the correct

    language to use here.

    And, you know, the fact that I even have to argue this or to talk about

    is extraordinarily frustrating.

    And it is one of these things where like, you know, like, people

    throw around these terms.

    Um, but, you know, like, the guy that came up with Godwin's law,

    Godwin, he said, you know, like, everybody gets compared to Hitler or any, any sufficiently long
    conversation on the internet and somebody, like, throws around this idea.

    And then he also said,

    the Trump is also, you know, comparing him to Hitler is not that ridiculous.

    And, I mean,

    part of it, like, the dude had, um, by his bedside, a book of quotes from this guy, from Hitler.

    Like, that's, that's who he is.

    It's not like, I'm just like randomly pulling out the Hitler comparison

    to despair.

    I'm not just making shit up.

    I'm not, you know, like, you can look up that definition.

    You can look it up from another source.

    And you make the list.

    And, you know, you can go through

    there a bunch of people who have, like, checklists about what fascism is.

    And, um, or eugenics,

    or any of these things.

    And you go through that list.

    And it's pretty objective.

    It's pretty clear.

    So I, I wish the, um, but I do wish people would not throw around these terms.

    I wish people

    would understand the terms.

    And I wish people would consider that if you're throwing them around

    what they mean.

    But I also want you to understand, um, calling him a fascist is not just me

    pointing fingers in name calling.

    Um, calling him a white nationalist is not just me, like,

    disparaging him and insulting him and making shit up.

    Calling him a crystal fascist, calling him

    an anarcho-capitalist.

    You know, these are, these are descriptive terms.

    They're not just insults.

    And, and I, I'm just, I don't know, I just am hoping I am attired.

    I'm really tired of having to

    deal with the situation where, like, just basic terms, basic concepts are treated as though they're
    not, like, clear.

    You know, it's like, I feel like I'm arguing that the sky is blue with a bunch

    of people.

    And I was like, why the fuck? Why do I always have to spend so much time explaining that

    the sky is blue? You know, and I don't mean in the sense that, you know, like, well, actually,
    and you get into the details.

    You know, I mean, just like, at a first order approximation,

    the sky is blue.

    Like, it's, it's not a question.

    It's not like, well, is the sky really,

    you know, the sky is blue? And can we just fucking accept that and move on? That's, that's, that's,
    that's, that's, that's, that's, that's, that's just like, please, like, I, I, I, I'm tired.

    I'm really

    tired of that.

    I'm tired of bad face, too.

    This is, I don't mean to keep harping on Charlie Kirk

    because, again, I don't think this guy is interesting.

    I know he's not decent or was.

    And not a good guy.

    He, but the damage that he and people like him have done to, like,

    discourse and the ability to talk to people, the amount of harm that has been done just through
    the fake, the bait, me, bro, bullshit where people, you know, sit there and they make these bad
    faith arguments, they throw around shit that they don't mean, they manipulate stuff,
    in his case he would like turn down the mic of the person so that they couldn't counter his stuff.

    And, and also, like, you have this situation where, um, that this will be the last thing I

    talk about on this one.

    But, you know, like, you have the person who's getting heated,

    and you have the person who's very calm.

    And if the person who's very calm is sitting there

    calmly saying inflammatory shit, it's, it's quite reasonable for somebody else to get heated.

    If somebody's saying a bunch of racist shit and sexist shit and nativist shit and all of this

    kind of stuff, um, some people who are direct targets of those things might be a little emotional about
    it might be reasonably emotional about it, um, they might be bothered by, they might raise their voice a
    and then people look at that and it's, it's such a fucked up thing about our culture that
    that idea, that you have to be dispassionate and somehow being dispassionate makes you rational.

    Yeah, it's, it's a very twisted kind of sick, um, gross thing.

    It really is.

    If it, which is not the say that like being emotional is always the right thing,

    but we're human beings and emotions are a big part of our brain.

    They're a big part of, um,

    how we evolved to be, how we evolved to work together and interact with society and experience things.

    And this idea that somehow you're going to just be disconnected from them and that, in addition to that,

    being disconnected from them is a marker of being, uh, more rational and a better, you know,
    like, just more objective, uh, descriptor or describe a reality versus the person who is, you know,
    under threat and, yeah, it's like, if you have a gun, you're pointing it to somebody's head,
    and you're very calm and you sound great, and then the other person sounds a little nervous, um,
    you know, the nervousness there is not something that is a ding against the person.

    It is

    a natural reaction.

    And sometimes that gun is verbal and that gun is like saying, oh,

    well, people like you are, you know, you're not valid as human beings, um, you know, just like
    throwing out stuff that would be essentially evoking and encouraging violence against groups,
    or, like, removing rights from groups.

    People tend to get emotional about that kind of stuff,

    and they should get emotional about that kind of stuff.

    And when they do get emotional about that

    kind of stuff, um, that doesn't make them, um, irrational, that doesn't make them unreasonable.

    And, and again, like, this is, um, going back to this concept of the, again, air quotes,

    angry black woman, um, there's, there's nobody who has more reason to be frustrated and angry,
    like if you take a random person in society, um, that is a demographic that has
    probably more annoyances continuously.

    And also, like, one of the best educated and most competent,

    and, you know, whatever you want to go down, uh, the people who have the least reason to be
    shot upon and get the most shot upon, um, other than, I think the only people that, like, if you
    want to go into groups that are oppressed, um, I think the only one you could get that's probably
    more is just children.

    Children are basically treated as the property of their parents,

    which is, uh, again, a really disgusting thing.

    Uh, but other than, other than children, broadly,

    black women have, like, by far the most reason to be pissed off, by far the most reason to be annoyed,
    and to be heated.

    And they're the ones that are the least allowed to do it.

    They're the ones that

    have this against straight jacket on that, like, they're not allowed to react.

    And if they react,

    then they're very emotional and blah, and then meanwhile, you have a bunch of mediocre white dudes
    who are allowed to cry and bitch and moan and get upset and, you know, like poop their pants and
    yell and all of the stuff.

    And it's just, it's, it's so twisted.

    It's so fucking twisted.

    So anyway, with that, um, I think hopefully that's a, that's a good place to, and, um, hopefully

    that was actually worth, then, like, helpful.

    And the, the balance that I'm trying to strike there

    is basically, I really want, I want you to hear me.

    I want you to understand what I'm talking about,

    and I want you not to be, like, immediately reactive and put off and shut down by the things I'm
    saying.

    And, um, because these are things that we need to talk about, these are things that, frankly,

    like, all of us need to understand, all of us, if we ever do hope to get to actually get past this
    stuff, and I, I'm sorry to say that, like, if you were raised with that stuff, um, you're not getting
    past it, it's, it's gonna be in there.

    Um, it's like, it's like ableism, but you can work on it,

    you can get better at it, and you should, but understand that this is going to be, like, a lifelong
    project, and no matter how much time you spend on it, you're still probably going to have a little
    bit of stuff to overcome.

    Um, but if you work on it, if you really put time and effort into it,

    um, maybe your kids, maybe your kids, kids will be in a place where that really is actually in the
    rearview mirror.

    And that is a place to get to.

    That is a place, um, that would be nice to get to.

    That's a place that we should work on.

    That's a place that we should be aiming for.

    Um, and again,

    I also don't mean, in saying that, yeah, just because it's going to be a very long project,
    doesn't mean that we shouldn't work on it.

    It's something that we need to work on,

    it's something we need to do everything we can to change, because, you know, like James Baldwin said,
    and I don't even remember what year it was, but there's a video of him talking about how, you know,
    it's going to take time, and how much time is it going to take? And, you know, my father's time,
    I took my time, it's going to take.

    And, and you just keep going through this stuff, and it's like,

    how the fuck much time is it going to take, you know, how long do we need? There, there are still,
    it is 2025, and there are still sundown towns in the United States.

    But they're very recently,

    I think, is recently, as today or yesterday, Black Man was lynched, which at the same time also,
    there are quotes no foul play suspected.

    Dude was lynched, and, you know, like, come on, come

    the fucker, no foul play, be fucking serious.

    And again, 2025, how the fuck long do we need to be dealing with this shit?

    Kelly, please, just, and I understand, like, it's uncomfortable with stuff that you don't want to talk about,
    it's stuff you don't want to think about.

    You want to think, oh, I'm, again, I'm not,

    I'm not a racist and all that kind of stuff.

    But understand that just by virtue of being raised

    in a very heavily racialized and racist society, you've got that stuff in there.

    You've got

    ableism, baked in, you've got eugenics, baked in, and you have to look at these things and really
    examine them and understand that, oh, you know, I mean, I guess this will actually be the last thing
    I talked about, but just to tap this off with the ableism.

    I started working on

    reading myself of this kind of language a while ago, when I say a while, and in years ago.

    And the thing that I noticed is, first off, the amount of things where you just use terms like

    stupid or low IQ or DOM, things that are associating like negative qualities with all that.

    Even, even I've probably today, like talked about sick, talk about, you know, things that

    are like that.

    It's deeply, deeply embedded in our language and in our thought process.

    It's not just the words that you use, but the way that you think about stuff.

    And, you know,

    you take this first level of stuff and you'll get rid of it, or you work on getting rid of it,
    you'll still kind of, it'll leak out from time to time.

    But then, as you're working on it,

    you start noticing, well, what words are you coming up with to replace those things? And there's a
    whole other layer of stuff.

    And, you know, I mean, for me, I'm like several layers deep and you

    start realizing holy shit, holy, holy fucking shit.

    This is just so deeply embedded in our

    language and my thought processes that it's really difficult to escape.

    And it's really frustrating

    as the thing that I'm working on.

    And I think it's really important that we all think about that kind

    of stuff.

    Because in doing that, like we have this notion that, you know, like people who are unhoused

    are somehow inferior.

    Like there was somebody just openly calling on Fox News, like a couple of weeks ago

    or a week ago, for essentially leafly injecting unhoused people.

    Like, you know, like people

    want to deal with a homeless problem.

    Not by helping people not by giving them homes.

    But by just

    fucking killing them, just you know, like they want to deal with people who are disabled.

    But I just

    fucking killing them.

    That's huge inx, by the way.

    That's pure huge inx.

    And, you know, like even the

    letter riff, the policy that Biden pushed for for COVID, which is now essentially into perpetuity,
    going to kill into the hundreds of thousands of museums every year until we do something about it,
    which compared to like influenza, which was already bad, that was just killing like 20 to 60,000
    people.

    And this is killing on the low end, two times.

    And on the high end, five or more times,

    influenza.

    And we just let it happen.

    And it's totally totally preventable without even doing that much.

    But we just didn't want to do the work.

    Biden and this just did get to the, yeah,

    last thing that I will actually say that Biden and Trump are both such fucking lazy students
    that don't want to do their homework.

    Don't want to go through the process of what it actually

    takes to do something that they've wasted so much fucking time.

    They've got us in this position where,

    you know, like problems that could have been easily solved five years ago are just going on and on and
    and essentially going to be endless.

    And, you know, it's like if you would have just fucking

    studied, then you could have passed the test and you'd understand the thing and we could be done.

    But instead, you cheated and you don't understand it.

    And now this is just internal.

    Do the work.

    Just do the work.

    Please be better.

    Be better than these people.

    Do the work,

    think about it.

    And again, like, understand that we're all imperfect and that even when you do the work,

    you're going to fuck up and the idea that you're going to be perfect, the idea that you'll
    just magically fix something.

    That's part of the problem.

    Understand that and understand that even

    when you fuck up, it doesn't mean that even though you know you're going to fuck up,
    doesn't mean you're a horrible person.

    But it does mean that you have to work on it.

    It's

    something that we need to work on.

    And the more you work on it, the better you get at it and the

    more things will move forward.

    And if we get, if we all get out and push, we can actually change

    things quite a bit.

    Like the world is what we make it.

    Make it better.

    With that, thanks for listening

    as ever.

    And,

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    Hey there I'm Scott and this is Tangents

    Well, I recorded one of these yesterday the

    14th of September and today is the 15th of September

    I'm not sure I'm going to do

    this every day for the remainder of my time here in Tokyo but I have a bunch of stuff
    I want to talk about and not a lot of time and I have this opportunity where I'm
    just kind of sitting here with the hotel room to myself

    I don't know give

    him a current situation when I'm going to have like my own space again for a while

    So I'm

    going to take advantage of the opportunity and also you know like the last week I didn't
    record any and also also between the last one that I did and a few things that I was
    talking with a bunch of people about I have a lot of stuff that I want to add or
    embellish or you know just elaborate on and I also have some things that are completely unrelated
    that I want to talk about and I think what I'm going to do this is not going to be hard and fast
    it's not going to be you know always consistent but many kind of alternate between
    more serious stuff like the last one and some kind of popcorn stuff like this one and in particular
    what I'm going to talk about today is is that be just not entirely popcorn it actually has I
    think some value and I'm saying things that I think are worth listening to and considering
    and hopefully things that maybe you'll learn from and expand upon but I want to talk about
    travel and in particular how to travel where you should go why you should do it and especially like
    the house and the practical stuff and kind of you know obviously like I'm not an expert I'm not
    there are people who do this professionally there are people who have done it for much longer
    and more extensively than I have but I have traveled a bit and I have some thoughts and maybe
    be in a year or five or ten my thoughts will change but I'm giving you the current snapshot of
    my understanding now as as I as I see it I would also say and I think this is an important
    note to consider that all of these answers all of the things that I just mentioned they're very
    personal and they're highly dependent on a lot of factors particularly things like where you are in
    life you know are you with somebody you have a partner are you solo are you what is your job
    situation do you have a job that doesn't afford you much vacation yeah if you live in the U.S
    travel is an extreme luxury because in the U.S people get ridiculously little vacation time
    compared to you know just the basic bare minimum in say Europe people in the U.S get like
    sometimes a week a year sometimes two weeks it's very rare to have four or five weeks a year and
    there are people in lots of parts of the world and you should be pissed off about this if you're in the
    U.S there are people where like the baseline is five weeks a year and they're also like it's
    understood that you're going to take those time and then maybe that the whole five weeks directly
    at or eight weeks whatever you happen to have not necessarily going to take that as one big chunk
    but you're allowed to and you might take you know take it in two or three fairly decent sized chunks
    whereas a lot of people I know in the U.S they might have a week or two off but they're not allowed
    to take it consecutively and they have restrictions on like when they can take it around holidays
    and what they can do with it and a bunch of other like horrible stuff that the U.S is a very
    dystopian hell-skate place and when you live there especially if you haven't gone outside
    or talked to people outside it's easy not to understand that and I think I think this is
    this is actually getting to the wise um this is this is a number one why you should leave
    and I'm not saying you should leave and never return although personally
    personally if I had the resources and I could get my mom and sister to either leave or visit
    me outside I don't know that I would go back I'm not a huge fan there it's not to say that I
    hated there um I like a lot of the people I like you know the there are things that are nice about
    it but there aren't just so many things outside of it that are so much better ridiculously
    better and I think these are things that you know you you don't necessarily
    see until you see them and then once you see them it's hard not to out on air it's hard to
    unsee them as basically what I'm trying to say so one of the things like this this actually
    goes into a bunch of categories so some of it is stuff that is going to be very hard to actually
    feel if you're traveling uh casually so by casually I mean like you're on vacation essentially
    you're going places and you're not really deeply embedded uh in the place that you're going you're
    not you're certainly not living there you're not necessarily spending a lot of time with locals
    talking to people uh things like healthcare like you're probably not going to encounter the healthcare
    system in a lot of countries although you may and it's interesting because I've heard so many
    stories of people from the U.S

    going someplace else and something happens and they have to go

    see a doctor in my case I didn't have to go see a doctor but my dog had to go see a doctor
    of that she did a couple times actually and she needed emergency on the weekend surgery in
    in France and that surgery uh was significantly more expensive than if it wasn't uh emergency
    but it was 300 maybe 350 euros which is damn near 350 bucks and this was not in the like the
    1970s but way before the euro existed this was you know maybe a decade ago um and at the time
    when she also had emergency surgery and the U.S

    and that was thousands and thousands of dollars

    for actually you know like not that significantly different uh of an operation so
    it's one of these things like that you might not actually see it but you might happen into it you don't
    plan on breaking a bone or any of this kind of stuff but it might happen and I know a lot of people
    who have gone places and something happened and like they're they're freaked out because it's like
    oh shit somebody's called the ambulance because in the U.S

    being a health scape that dystopian

    health scape uh calling an ambulance is one of these things where it's like dude it's a massive
    luxury like it's gonna it easily will cost you thousands of dollars staying at a hospital
    easily can cost tens of thousands of dollars like it's it's completely just ridiculous and
    as an act of health care in the U.S

    sucks in so many different ways and in so many

    different layers and it's it's one of these things actually like uh this is not a health care episode
    but I'm gonna put a button on this pretty soon and then get to the next thing but this is one of
    these things that like like education and like uh pretty much any industry right now whether it's
    food service or you know manufactured goods or whatever what has happened is that we've got a
    bunch of finance pros so people who really don't have any skills or education beyond just moving things
    around in a spreadsheet and they have sort of taken these positions of leadership
    they're the administrative class essentially the CEOs the VPs all of all the people if you're in
    Arizona State the University that I went to and worked at these are the people in the foundation building
    these are like Dr

    Crow president Crow these are people like kind of think of some of the other

    names I'm not gonna name names but they're like all of the people who are not professors they're not
    actually you know teaching they're not doing research and they are getting paid
    hundreds of thousands of dollars a year at the very least for things that really are adding
    between zero and negative value to the University and they're a growing class like more and more
    people are up there at the same time people who want to teach and want to do research are finding
    it harder and harder to do that and there are fewer and fewer jobs like that so things are getting
    very top heavy and beyond that the people who are running everything are not really interested in
    education or healthcare or anything like this they're just interested in making money and part of
    the interest of making money is like at each layer you find out how can I maximize my revenue
    and minimize my costs and that means you're adding up a perfection it means you're doing things like
    cutting out things that are essential or that you really should be taking care of it means that you're
    charging more and more and of course everything is not just like one layer we don't have
    direct what whether it's healthcare or you buy a widget a pen it's not like you're just buying
    that thing and one person one step has gone from raw materials to the finished product
    you buy that pen you have the layers of drilling for the the oil and gas that went into
    baking the plastic and then refining it and then making the plastic and then injection molding the
    plastic pellets and somebody's designed it somebody has made the if it's a ballpoint pen they've
    made the machined balls for it they've done all this kind of stuff and you know there's assembly
    and there's packaging and distribution and all of those layers have these finance bros getting
    involved and adding not just like a reasonable amount of profit but massive ridiculous amounts
    and it drives up the cost of everything by a massive ridiculous amount and it also decreases the
    quality because any place they can cut corners they absolutely do and they think that's a good thing
    they see you know in healthcare there's will be the last thing to talk about healthcare for a little
    while but they see in healthcare that you know like excess capacity like having empty beds
    that's just a cost why are you why are you gonna pay for empty beds that you're not using why are
    you gonna pay to have doctors and nurses on staff that you're not actively using right now and the
    answer of course is what if shit happens what if there's a catastrophe what if there's a pandemic
    you know something bad happens having that excess capacity there gives you resilience there's
    really good reason to have excess capacity there's really good reason you know if you're at a
    restaurant like taking everything up a notch you get like oh you buy the best ingredients and
    sure it costs an extra couple of cents or maybe even an extra couple of bucks but it's massively
    better and you do that at every level and you actually take pride in it and you care about the
    person that you're delivering the thing to and all this stuff and everything is just better and
    you can tell helpably that everything at every layer is just a fucking scam and people are making
    it shitty or inshitter and that you get food that's basically filled of sawdust and it's
    ridiculously expensive too and that they simple example of this I used to love going to Chipotle
    and the reason I did it wasn't that Chipotle was good but it's kind of like Starbucks and the sense
    that it might not have been great but you could go to a Chipotle almost anywhere and they
    granted the Chipotle and Paris the veggies would be overcooked it wasn't exactly the same thing
    but it would be similar but anywhere in the US go to a Chipotle and the veggies were actually
    pretty decent you get a lot of them if you ask for them and it was it was pretty consistent and pretty
    well controlled then the former VP I think it was a VP of Taco Bell took over I can't
    see you and he didn't immediately fuck things up but over time you know the price kept going up for
    everything and then he started cutting costs and the first one that I noticed and this one I feel
    simultaneously I feel a little bit of a little bit proud that I walked this because at the time I
    didn't realize what happened I just go into Chipotle and I get it and I have the tomatoes and the
    tomatoes had a very distinctive shitty taste a really not even a shitty shitty taste would be
    something this is that Taco Bell tomato there's nothing to it like there's not really any flavor
    there it looks like a tomato and it has kind of like the vague hint of tomatoness to it but it's
    eerily not there all that there's no substance to it it doesn't taste good and they were the same
    tomatoes and I've never had that kind of tomato outside of Taco Bell which incidentally and then
    this side from the the food I'll get into the food actually next but aside from um yeah not being a
    huge fan of Taco Bell

    Taco Bell is nice because if you are going around the US and you want

    something that's kind of vegetarian or even vegan you can very easily just order whatever
    helps that you black beans for beef and presto vegetarian and you can also like not have the sour
    cream and cheese and I got vegan it's not that hard it's a pretty it's not great but it's pretty decent
    for what it is Chipotle was like a tear above that and I get those tomatoes and like what the
    fuck is going on here then I searched and shockingly the guy who was I discovered you know like a
    year or two prior the guy who was the VP or senior VP of Taco Bell became the CEO and it's it's
    telling and this is what these guys do to by the way they fuck stuff up one place and then they go
    off to the next thing and they get you know essentially fall upwards that hospitals this will be the
    health care thing and then I'll get to the food but at hospitals you'll have a CEO come in
    and he raises the price of aspirin by a couple bucks and finds new ways to fuck over the patients
    and to not help people as much as they could and to cut staff and to do x-fly and z that all
    make things worse and then gets a big bonus and gets hired someplace else getting paid even more
    the fuck things up there even more and somebody else comes in and fuck things up on top of the the
    fuckery the previous guy did and there's not really any pressure and a lot of these things to improve
    things so it just keeps getting worse and worse and worse and more expensive and you can again you
    can just tell it's palpable in the US everything is very expensive and everything like kind of tastes
    like shit this is another reason why I think you should travel because one of the like don't
    he was not a cheap city by any means but one of the things that you do notice here is you can eat
    really cheaply like for I'm terrible at the conversion but there are ramen shops that will be like
    350 yeah which I I should know that conversion but it's it's not a lot of money it's actually
    two two bucks and 30 cents that today is current conversion great so two and a half bucks
    you get a big bowl of ramen that actually tastes better than most of the ramen that you probably
    had in the US for a lot more money for like almost ten times as much money and of course there's
    no tax on top of that which is really nice the taxes in most countries are there you know there's
    sales taxes a thing that exists in a lot of places but they're baked into the prices so whatever
    the price that you see is the price that you pay and of course like here and it's a lovely thing
    people actually get paid decently so tipping and there there is no tipping culture really
    but tipping is not a thing that you have to do so whatever you go to the menu you see the price
    that is the amount that you're going to pay and it is lovely it's fucking awesome
    experiencing the food though and this is a thing again I'm not trying to make this whole thing
    about ways to see how shitty the US is but definitely in my experience a lot of this stuff
    shines a light on how shitty the US is the food and this is kind of weird I noticed this
    when I first started traveling and this was probably like a decade and a half maybe even two
    decades ago got time flies but I go and just go to like a corner stop that corner shop not a great
    place not like you just just like the equivalent of a of a seven eleven type shop and you get an
    orange I don't remember why I just am walking someplace get an orange now orange doesn't necessarily
    look as beautiful as the orange that you're going to get at safeway or Albert Sins or wherever you're
    going not Ralph sir whatever but crack into it and first off it was cheaper than the oranges that
    you're probably getting and in second it's delicious it's amazing it has it's fragrant like it has
    as flavor to it and in a way that like even if you go to like organic shop pay a lot of money
    and you get like heirloom oranges it's not the same it's not as good I'm not saying like every time
    uniformly they're always better like I had the shittiest espresso that I've ever had I had in the
    the airport in the wrong terrible espresso but generally speaking go anywhere in Europe and you can
    miss espresso and it's pretty good especially in Italy and you know like as a general rule most other
    countries that I've been to the produce is just better and not a little bit better but massively better
    and it's cheaper at the same time and of course you do have to consider like what is how much
    people making versus like how you know like what percentage of their income does that orange
    account for it might not be as good of a deal when you factor that in but still they're not that expensive
    relatively speaking and they will be better and I guess that I think I'm not sure but I think
    the difference there is basically in the US these things are all you know they're certainly going to
    be full of pesticides and herbicides and all that kind of stuff but really more than anything it's just
    optimized to kind of look good so selected for looking good and you know things are done to make
    it look good and get to the store looking as good as possible and you know you and the US you will find
    like perfectly spherical oranges and they look amazing they really they definitely do but they
    taste like shit or they have very little taste it's I did not realize what an orange could taste like
    really until I went to Spain for the first time and I got fresh squeezed orange juice
    stayed with my friend Alberto and his wife and they had an orange juice squeezer they made
    us breakfast or they made me breakfast I guess I was alone and it was like the best orange juice I
    had ever tasted in my life and just from like random Valencia oranges that they had and it just like
    you can't it's hard to understand it's hard to express it sounds like a ridiculous thing that I'm
    saying but I really think a lot of this is like the difference between optimizing for maximizing
    profit versus at each level you have somebody who actually cares about growing good produce
    and giving you like buying produce the taste good and selling produce to people that taste good
    at each level if you do that and you have people that care and they're trying obviously still
    everybody's making money at each level I'm not a huge fan of that picture you know that's it's
    under that sort of system so it it makes sense they're making a little bit but they're not making
    all the money you know they're not and they're not destroying the cost and making it as cheaply as
    possible to get something that superficially looks as much like the product you're trying to buy
    as possible but it's shitty or I mean they're not so like to be fair they're not like trying to make
    it shitty but it's just when you don't have selective pressure in a certain direction it's there's
    nothing that keeps it getting shitty and it's just going to drift into shittyness it's like if you are
    a moral that is to say you have no morals and you're an ethical which is to say you have no ethics
    then inevitably you are going to do things that are immoral because again you have nothing
    pressing you to be moral you have no moral framework at all and it's going to press you
    well again it's not that you're driven to be unethical it's just you're going to drift there
    because you have nothing keeping you from it and often those things are easier or they're more
    expedition they're expedient or they're you know there there are things that will drive you
    in those directions not always but even if there's no pressure at all just I chance you'll drift in
    those directions but if you have moral and ethical standards then that kind of keeps you out of it
    if you have the idea that you know you want to give people good produce you want to you're
    you're a farmer and you want to grow oranges that taste fucking amazing and you're putting all
    your work into making oranges they're just you know mind blowing and you're selecting for oranges
    the taste better maybe they'll you know you probably select for like look decent too and all
    this other stuff but that's what you're working on and you know then you're the person who is like
    the supplier and you're gonna know like you want to to sell the best oranges you find the
    farmers that are making the best oranges and you you know are the distributor and you go through
    the whole list from this and if everybody is kind of driving towards something that's better
    everything gets better if everybody at every level of healthcare is driven not that I want to keep
    getting back to that but if everybody was trying to actually make people healthier and do the best
    they could there you're gonna find that healthcare is better you end up having better outcomes you end
    up having increasing longevity you end up having better standard of living and better quality of life
    and you also don't end up with people going bankrupt and being financially destroyed by medical
    that because you know it's just a way to make money for people and so they've raised the prices
    to the point where you know kid gets leukemia and it's like millions of dollars to treat it's
    treatable but or probably but millions of dollars to save a life or whatever the thing is that's
    what you end up with so I think tasting the food going places seeing what it's like and especially
    you know when you're someplace getting that experience and and also like you know seeing how people
    actually eat another country is an interesting thing seeing the relationship people have with food
    and with you know like are they eating just as sort of like a perfumptory mandatory thing that you
    have to do just to survive and then that's like yeah or are they going to do a nice casual leisurely
    lunch having a good time enjoying themselves eating slowly trying to eat at least decent food
    and all of this kind of stuff it's interesting now of course it just gets to sort of the how
    you're traveling and what you're doing if you are like the sort of gold standard for this would be
    your an exchange student living with a host family and then you really get to see how people live
    and you really get to experience that that is like I didn't start traveling until after
    I had already graduated undergrad and grad school and so I missed out on being an exchange student
    and it's it's not exactly like a regret but it is one thing where I kind of if I had a kid or
    if I knew somebody who is young enough to do it and every time I talk to people that are of the
    right age for this I tell them can indulge them in the direction try being an exchange student
    something it doesn't really matter where go to another country for a semester or two live some
    place else see what that's like and it will never be the same kind of experience because once you get
    out of school you're not going to be with people who are in that same position in life you're
    not going to be meeting people as easily you're not going to be with a bunch of people who are
    ready and willing to travel every weekend you're going to have higher standards for your travel
    probably I mean that necessarily you could be my age or older and still be okay with staying at a
    hostel but if you're if you're younger going to a hostel not a bad thing like and this is one of
    the things in the how if you go someplace and like the first time I traveled I was trying to be
    fairly cautious with money I didn't have very much I still don't have very much but you know I've
    gotten to the point where I'm just not comfortable staying in a hostel and some of the
    hostels actually have age limits and most of those I'm probably over but you can find ones that go
    like I've been to hostels where you see guys that are like much much older than me and so
    it does it does exist you can do that but the thing is like a hostel is sort of like a hotel
    but you'll have bumps instead of a room and instead of like a desk or anything like this you have
    some shared spaces the nice thing about it is it's very cheap often it'll be located in some place
    really close to public transit really close to activities and things like that probably really close to
    to bars and things as well the sort of if you're into that kind of stuff which I never have been
    but you know if you are it's a good thing to do you go in you stay there are a bunch of other people
    were probably at a similar stage of life as you staying there and they're probably similar socioeconomic
    status similar ideas about things and you talk to them and then you end up going on adventures
    with them just like when you're in school on that exchange program you'll end up finding other
    students and then you decide oh we're gonna go to Germany this weekend we're gonna go well
    I'm gonna Munich and if you're in Europe going from London to Munich is not a big deal like
    it's an easy cheap thing to do for a weekend especially if you stay at a hostel or or similarly
    like if you're here yeah I mean Tokyo you could take Shinkansen and go to Kyoto go to Osaka
    go to some other city Nagano or whatever and it's a little more expensive but you could also stay
    in a capsule hotel which is sort of like a hostel but instead of well I guess it's it's a version
    of a hostel in some sense but basically and I stayed I've known about these for a long time
    the first time I've ever stayed at one was about a week and a half ago and it was just I got in
    I was in Bangkok and I flew I did a overnight flight for two reasons one because I was gonna
    save a night of hotel and two because for some reason all the flights from Bangkok to Tokyo were
    red eye flights and so I flew on that and it was a six hours as a long flight but it was a six-hour flight
    and I came in and I got here I think like four or five hours before my friend was coming in
    and so I I didn't want to leave or go to the hotel or something like that and also I was so
    fucking tired I'm not somebody who sleeps on flights so I get there and I'm thinking about it my
    original plan was just to sort of hang out at a coffee shop and do some work or something like that
    you know brought my computer I always bring my computer and I got stuff to do and I thought that
    was what I was gonna do ended up I was so fucking tired that like I was just struggling to keep my eyes
    open and I'm in terminal one and I'm searching and I looked around and I saw there's this
    I can't remember what it's called like nine hours I think capsule hotel in terminal two slash three
    and I thought about it I looked at the price and it was like 25 bucks or something I don't remember
    exactly what but it was it was pretty cheap and you could go in there and you could stay
    not just overnight but you could rent it for a few hours and so I had like again five hours or so
    took some time to get there and took some time to get back but in the end I ended up staying there for like
    three hours and I was able to sleep for like three hours I also have hours and other things
    you can do you could even just go in and use the shower and pay for that but it's actually a really
    nice kind of cheap way to do stuff and it turns out like for that I mean it would be weird to rent
    the whole hotel room for a few hours I'm sure there are places that like you do that but this was just
    to yeah this was not for like having sex or something it was just for me to sleep so yeah and also
    I would feel weird renting a hotel room for a few hours but never mind that now but that's a thing
    you can do and you could also stay in the same kind of hotel overnight and it'd be super cheap
    if you're somebody who doesn't care that much about like when I travel I really want to be able
    to work in my hotel room because even if I'm not like right now I don't have a job but I still
    have a lot of projects of my own that I want to work on and it's nice to have a desk it's nice
    to have a place where I have some privacy and can record one of these and you know it's more expensive
    but it's kind of you know I don't want to say that I'm in a position where I can do this because
    I really can't afford it but I'm still doing it and I'm inclined to but if you're younger or if you're
    more costs sensitive look into the hostels and the hostel just like just like being an exchange
    student you meet people you go out to dinner you'll go find activities together
    yeah we'll go go to the museum tomorrow we're all going to go to
    Fontambu or whatever the fuck and you end up meeting people and connecting to them and maybe
    you just have dinner with somebody or maybe you actually end up making friends that way and
    when you make friends that way especially like if you're like I'm going to go back to Europe
    because that's where I have the most experience with this kind of stuff and it's really easy to travel
    around yeah like ridiculously easy so they're you meet people and these are people who are
    traveling and they might be backpackers from Australia who are just going around for like six months
    or taking a gap year or there might be people who are like you exchange students in different
    country and they happen to be in the same country as you and then yeah a week into two go buy
    and now you want to go to you you were in Italy and now you're going to go to Spain or whatever
    and you can coordinate that and then you start having friends and in that work that you build
    people that are kind of wanting to do the same stuff it's kind of it's kind of cool it's kind of
    awesome and when you do that of course you're probably not getting the sort of local experience
    as much as you would be with the the exchange student thing but you're still getting you know it
    taste of the places and you're getting yeah you can sort of sampling platter wherever you're going
    I think that's I think that's worth doing I think it's something that I would really encourage
    anyone in the position to do to do and actually also I mean not just an exchange student but
    like I ever friend who got her PhD in Germany and Munich and actually when I went to Munich
    I stayed with her and they're I assume that they're married by now I don't know her partner at the
    time I have no idea if they're still together but they they seemed to to be on that direction
    on that trajectory either way whatever they're doing now I kind of lost touch with her I should
    actually I wonder if I'm still connected to her on Facebook I haven't seen that I'll
    career them there keeps fucking things up and I keep I see like the same two or three people
    over and over and over again and I never see or hear from any of the other people but I used to
    be connected to but anyway however whatever's going on with her now I stayed with her, stayed with
    her and they set up stuff like activities to do I got to kind of see what it would be like to
    live there I got to see you know like what the stores are like it's it's really good to go
    you know just go grocery shopping if you are in a place where you can cook that's kind of nice
    you know you can kind of feel what things would be like and even if you're not in a place where
    you could cook you could still just pop into the store see what people are buying see what the prices are
    for things see what's available and what's not which is equally interesting see how people are
    living see you know like our people going to coffee shops are people is that a thing that exists
    is that and when they're going to coffee shops are they going to coffee shops like in the morning
    or is it something where they have lots of coffee shops but they don't even open until like 10 or 11
    that I'm thinking specifically there of at least parts of Seoul I went there and they had so many
    coffee shops ridiculous number of coffee shops and I I really struggled to find one that was open
    before I think like 10 so it's it's interesting to see like it's not a morning thing it's more like a
    dessert thing and yeah you look around and you see oh but they this is how people go to restaurants
    this is what you do and just going to a restaurant going to a pub seeing how that's different
    in different countries and how they handle all the stuff like getting a seat do you just sit down
    do you have to put your do you go to a little kiosk and put your name on a queue or a piece of
    paper or do you just go up to a matter day or do you just you know what what do you do how does that
    work do you have to make reservations some countries like in the US reservations are completely
    archaic like they they do exist but I basically never would have to make a reservation unless I was
    going to say cheapo or something in downtown Phoenix and even then you don't have to you could walk in
    in Tokyo there are a lot of places where if you don't make a reservation you're not going to go in and
    some places are like you have to get a reservation like months and advance and then some places
    have a long queue so you go and there's like a little iPad or a piece of paper you put your name down
    and there'll be a line of people and you just have to wait in that and then they'll call you
    eventually and just seeing how like little stuff like that goes it's interesting it's cool and I think
    just as importantly a you start kind of seeing how other people think about things how other people
    exist and all this but also and I think this is the thing isn't one of the reasons why I think you
    should travel just selfishly look at what people are doing look at how they're getting around
    look at how their health care system is look at how their employment is and you might go
    well shit the the way that they work there is ridiculous I'm really glad that we don't do it that way
    or you might go oh you know if you go to almost any other city in the world other than other than
    like New York City and I guess Washington DC has an okay metro system Chicago
    San Francisco kind of an ELA surprisingly has an okay one if you're staying in the right places
    but most of the US does not have a great health they're a great public transit system and most
    cities around the world have some kind of public transit they have like I'm in a hotel
    I'm on one set of Tokyo I can get pretty much anywhere in Tokyo with either one train or maybe
    with it and a transfer or two and I can also walk like I can walk across the city I have walked
    across the city I've I've gone all over and in Phoenix you could walk too I've walked from
    from 10 feet downtown Phoenix and and back and and a bite to that as well but it's it's a very different
    experience like it's not it's not very safe you feel I don't mean like you're going to be in danger
    of somebody robbing you but I mean like just in terms of basic safety like you can get hit by a car
    very easily there might not be a sidewalk some places there might be you know like no stoplight
    and you just have to dodge traffic and also for some reason there you can feel like almost like
    some of the drivers are trying to hit pedestrians like they hate pedestrians they hate bikers
    bicycle let's not yeah motorbikes all of that you hate those as well and you know just like
    here I can walk and it's glorious it's fucking awesome if I want to go do something I like I don't
    know what I'm going to do for dinner tonight and I could I could go to a convenience store and get
    something or I could decide to go to a restaurant and that restaurant could be in Genza and if it
    was I could walk over there or I could take a train a few stops or I could go you know to
    Tokyo station or someplace else in the city Genzuku or whatever and you can go find a restaurant
    there and you don't even necessarily have to know where you're going like you might have
    place where I look through the city and you go on like this is another thing that is interesting
    when you're traveling how do they find places here taboo log is a common thing but you know it's
    kind of like yelp but at least used to be a better rating system because I guess people here are
    more critical I feel like a lot of Americans and other people have figured it out and then they've
    kind of like fucked up the rating system because this trip I've gone to a bunch of places that have
    been highly rated now more highly rated than they even used to get to because they used to be like
    three four was a really good rating like a three six was like mind blowing and if it was in the
    four's it just was unheard of but now I'm seeing a bunch of them that are much higher rated
    and I've gone to a couple of them and they're a few kind of shitty kind of shitty so I I feel like
    people have figured this one out which is unfortunate it's an interesting thing too though because
    if you go places you know you travel a few times you can see how things change over time you can see
    what improves and what gets worse and you can you can learn about all these things and
    you know like the public transit and walkable stuff and especially accessibility
    those kinds of things to the extent that they exist those are things that you should be stealing
    those are things that you should go outside of the US and I don't care if you're
    and this is this is good to do another thing that you know you could go to Paris
    and stay in a resort and basically never talk to anyone French never go to a obligatory
    petisserie never walk to streets never go on the metro you could do that but why
    what would be the fucking point of that you might as well go to Vegas or some you know like
    Epcot Center go there stay you I mean you could still stay on your resort if you have the money
    and yeah and I wouldn't stay someplace in a nice area as nice of an area as you can or at least
    close to a metro station and you know assuming that you are able to walk walk go around go to the
    petisserie and you know find the the one that's the best in the neighborhood do where people are
    going see what people are eating that all that kind of stuff to help people go to work and what
    time they go to work and how they get there and think about what it would be like to live there
    I think that kind of stuff is it's really like I don't want to say interesting because I keep saying it
    but it's it's something that you can learn so much from and it's something also where if we had a
    country of people who like the whole thing that you're trying to do is make everything better
    trying to figure out better ways to do stuff and you go around to different places and you see
    this country really has nailed this or like you go to a country where public there are places where
    public transit is by token there are places where public transit is like three incomplete systems
    and they have different cards for each one and it's kind of a clusterfuck there are places where
    there is no public transit or the public transit barely exists and there are places where it's
    extremely refined there are places where it's free and you can just hop on and hop off anywhere
    and you see that and you kind of look at how that works and figure out like how do they make this
    work how does how is that even possible to do and it turns out actually that even in like places
    like New York it actually costs money to charge and they have enforcement for the fairs and all
    this kind of stuff they make a nominal amount but they spend much more money than it costs and
    you could make the New York subway system free if you wanted to and it wouldn't cost that much money
    and if you took that money out of the police budget which you absolutely should do then
    a you would get better ridership b you'd have more safety and and you absolutely would have
    more safety than if you have the cops there who are not actually helping and then see you could
    actually just have a public transit system that that works better and you're not doing this
    like weird fair thing you can make things because these are these are truck points these are
    bottlenecks it's a whole like the layers of systems you have to build in order to collect fairs
    are ridiculous and you can see like oh well this city is doing this thing but that turns out
    that's really expensive and that's kind of silly it's nice but it's expensive or maybe
    like they're doing this and if you cost a little bit of money but it actually pays for itself
    massively that that kind of stuff is stuff that you should look into one thing that's cool is like
    I like walking around some cities are on a really nice grid Phoenix for all of its faults
    has an extremely nice grid and you can be anywhere you can almost always orient yourself on the grid
    and if you want to walk around the block it's a thing you can do like you might be lucky
    and be someplace where they're like parks and things to walk around or like tempy beach park or whatever
    stuff to like downtown you get to walk a little bit and there are restaurants there
    that really the density that you get in a nice older city in your upper Asia or wherever but
    yeah you can get like a taste of almost what it would be like or maybe the thing that I think of
    is like I go to like oh there and I'm like not there yet the light real kind of sucks and it's
    this one line and all of this but I can imagine like in 50 years if assuming that it's still
    habitable and there's nothing truly kind of close to happens which is maybe unfortunately a bigger
    assumption than I would like to make but assuming assuming that I do think Phoenix will have
    a pretty decent public transit system and I don't know that it will have the density that
    takes to really be walkable but I could see it having you know like a lot of because if you look
    around on the freeways there's so much room they could add train lines like all around those and
    if you make those automated train lines which again they've been able to do for a very long
    time and that again from this episode but I've talked about that before you do that and you can have
    a train come every three minutes every two minutes and once you start getting high frequency
    trains with a lot of capacity people start using them it starts being like oh I don't even
    have to wait I don't have to figure out if I get to the station I'm going to be waiting there for 15
    minutes no you can just walk to the station maybe you wait a minute or two hop on the train and then
    yeah the light rail is okay but the light rail goes really fucking slow and it drives in traffic
    and that today literally today uh i guess it's probably the 14th there because I'm past the
    international date line but basically uh there was a tractor trailer the crashed into the light rail
    and the big fire and always kind of stuff because it's on the road it's it's it's it's it's not an
    tunnel it's not on the fucking elevated platform it's just on the road and that means it goes slow
    and that means you know it's it's only a couple of cars so it's not moving that many people and
    it's also only like every 15 minutes so it's really not moving that many people and yeah it's it's
    it's okay it's okay it's got some stuff to it it's better than nothing and if you're taking
    it certain places from certain places to certain places yeah it's it's it's serviceable
    but you can imagine what it could be that's all I'm saying and if you go other places you can see
    why that's so nice and you know don't go someplace and take it and again I'm saying this
    to just I don't want to be ableist and I want to make it very clear if you need to take a taxi
    you know like you can't just walk around and take this up way I'm not I'm not speaking to you here
    and I'm not trying to be little that obviously I'm trying to be considerate of it but it's
    assuming that you're able to walk assuming that you're able or or you're in a city that's
    preferably accessible um take the fucking subway take the take the metro walk around if you can
    because the the scale that people walk in a lot of these cities it's just it's night and day
    versus Phoenix like I when I'm when I'm traveling you know I mean I'm a person that walks a lot
    anyway I'm on a sort of slow day I usually I'm walking like 12 13000 steps and then I've
    if I'm traveling I will more often than not end up walking you know 15 20 sometimes sometimes 30
    and no you just do that kind of stuff and you can go like oh there's a grust front that we're going
    to we're gonna meet there and it's it's 15 minutes if you take the train or it's a half hour walk
    and sometimes you'll do one one way and then like after dinner you go for a walk and just walk back
    or you walk your friend to their place and then you take the train back from there or you know
    you it gives you so many options that you don't have um from if you have compared to the
    also like I'm not a I'm at a person that really likes drinking but a couple of times when I was in
    Paris I went with some friends and either went to Apparo or a bar slash for us front or whatever
    and if you do that in the US how are you gonna get home and you drink how are you gonna get home
    are you gonna drive yourself probably hope not if fucking hope not I know a lot of people that do
    and I understand why they do it I'm not saying that it's okay to do I'm not encouraging anyone
    to do it but I do understand why people do it but if you're someplace like Paris it's easier
    to take the metro it's easier to walk and it's kind of fun and it kind of you know it's a it's a
    nice part of the the whole experience of going someplace you can walk someplace and then you stop by
    flower shop or a place and buy a like a bottle bring it to your friends place and you know
    do dinner there whatever it's going to be it's it's a very different sort of way of doing things
    and existing and you can see that kind of stuff and you can sort of realize or at least the
    thing that I would hope that you do and the the sort of selfish reason that I want you to be traveling
    is you start seeing like a we're getting fucked by not getting these things b this is what it
    could be like see these are a bunch of different things that different people do and this is the best one
    this is really just unum or or maybe nobody's doing it the right way but you see oh this all of these
    people solved this problem this way and that way and this other way and I think we could actually
    solve it this new way and it would even even be better now if that new way happens to be like
    Robo taxis I please no no it's a ridiculous idea individual Robo taxis are not a great
    they're good for like the last mile stuff if you have a city that has kind of a sparse
    public transit network or you know it's yeah and Phoenix I can understand like the last you go to the
    the metro station and then you take something five minutes to your home which would have taken you
    a half hour to walk or five but don't go from point to point with that it's not it's not a good
    system but you know there are lots of things that you could do that could be better and when you
    start seeing these things it really sparks your imagination and it also gives you a little bit of fire
    that just sort of start going like why don't we have this and it makes it you know like you start
    researching that and you look at the history of what happened to the trolley systems that used to
    to be in every u.s city and used to be actually pretty decent used to be in fact world class
    and now you don't have that and you look at like oh I mean I'm not saying you know it's a
    certainly are going to automatically just discover why our cities are not walkable but you might
    happen to read the color of law and you start reading that and you start learning about oh they put
    a freeway here deliberately to segregate these two neighborhoods or oh they they built this road here
    and didn't give it a crosswalk because of this or you know similarly uh car companies
    lobbied to to take their roads from pedestrian the roads used to be primarily like four
    pedestrians long ago and I mean at a certain point there it was just pedestrians and like carts and
    things and then cars started to appear and the cars were like the second class citizens of the road
    but the roads were still for people and then you start getting this push for like J walking laws
    and you know all kinds of stuff where like people were not able to walk in the streets anymore
    and things just started really sucking that in someone way that's one reason why it also goes to
    racism a lot of stuff in the U.S

    if you ask like why don't you have universal health care

    racism it's a big factor can't can't have Black people getting universal health care so we're not
    going to have them all why don't you have public pools racism why do you why do you not have
    walkable cities racism why do you not have you know in the fact like public transit why don't
    you have it and you just keep going down the list um it's it's at the heart of a lot of things
    and I don't mean but I I don't want to get into the the heavier stuff there I'm going to make
    another one soon on that subject but that's not going to be my primary thing here so I'm
    I'm going I'll leave that here but that's it's an interesting thing if you start looking into it
    that color of law book it's worth reading or at least you know read a summary of it at the very
    least so getting getting back to sort of like the the more general like how you can do it
    or how you should do it the first time that I traveled what I did was I basically I had a pretty
    decent job in terms of like vacation time so I didn't take it very often but I had about a month
    a year I think and so I decided okay I'm going to take a few weeks and go to Europe it was my
    first international trip I went solo and this is a question are you going to go solo or
    you're going to go with friends or you're going to go with your partner it's it's important to
    consider and there there are advantages and disadvantages to all of those and there are things
    that you might consider because like if you're a woman traveling solo and certain places might be
    more of a pain than you know you're comfortable with although I would say a lot of cities
    a lot of places in the world are much safer than the US but still you know it's a thing that
    you have to think about if you're traveling with a friend are you going to want to walk the same
    places are you going to want to go like do you want to go to the same museums and if you go to a
    museum how long are you going to spend looking at each thing how long are you going to want to
    are you the kind of person that wants to rush through that museum and just like scan everything
    really quickly and maybe check a couple things out or he's a kind of person that stops at everything
    and really deeply like soaks it all in are you the kind of person that is going to want
    to sort of go to a neighborhood and then spend a lot of time there are you know the kind of person
    that wants to just like hit as much as you can and check all the boxes that's going to matter that's
    going to make that's very heavily going to influence things and it makes it difficult now because
    like even if you get somebody who's very similar to you in a lot of ways that actually have
    somebody who is like they want to do exactly the same things for the same amount of time and everything
    is perfectly aligned or they're willing to make compromises and you are too um that means you
    ever we all have to compromise but there are some things that get really annoying and really tired
    like if especially if you're kind of in very different bins and any of those things so yeah
    traveling solo actually pretty nice I have mostly traveled solo um I would say
    especially if you are single it's a great time to do it it's because you know if you have a dog
    it's very hard to travel um you can find somebody to watch your dog but it it sucks right you
    know you want to pay for somebody and even if you don't have to pay you want to be away from your
    dog for a long time how much time off can you take can you take can you take a month I would
    personally say if you're going someplace and it's like a 10 plus hour flight you really ideally would
    want to stay at least a week or two that that's the way I see it I know people who don't like
    yeah they get very homesick and I think it's natural to get homesick I'm a little weird I feel
    I feel out of place in the US so like when I'm traveling I don't feel I don't feel any more
    out of sorts here or in in Paris or in Spain or whatever I don't feel that different in
    other countries I feel as much of an outsider there as I do here but if you have like a close
    friend group is that gonna are you gonna want to travel with your friends there's the thing also
    and if you do that are you gonna you know like do you want to go one place or do you want to
    coordinate like traveling around and you know that again back to the first time I went I went to
    I think I started in London because there was a direct flight from Phoenix to the London by British
    and I started there I decided to take the and it actually like it's kind of depressing but the
    trains are expensive enough and the flights are cheap enough in Europe that you know you're probably
    better off flying most of the time although I would still I like trains and they do the high
    speed trains are pretty nice but when you start going long distances it starts end up
    earning up being you know making more sense to fly although although the things like Ryan air
    they'll end up leaving from Lutin the 10 Lutin I don't know how you say it or Gatwick or something
    which is a pain in the ass to get to relative to say Heathrow or yeah as you go further you go like
    off the the underground and yeah it makes it take more time and cost more whereas if you take
    euro star you can just that it that is like the the channel thing you could just go to
    I think it's same pancreas I can't even remember which station does but it basically you just go
    in central London there's a terminal there and you get to Paris and it's a gardener and like
    central Paris and then there's a metro station right there so it's pretty it's it's not the cheapest
    thing you could do but it's pretty nice and I highly encourage it you have to figure out of course
    you know like budget and all those kind of stuff and no matter what you do probably can
    spend more money than you want I you know just be mentally prepared for that try to try to keep
    it within reason but yeah it's it's just a warning like I I'm not a person who really is good at
    budgeting just in general but I will say like every time I've traveled I've always always ended up
    spending more money than I expected and every part of it is just here I like you want some
    flexibility or your someplace and if you don't plan even if meals might be cheaper if you're
    local um you need a tourist places you're going to end up being expensive or you end up doing
    activities that end up being expensive or you decide you want to go to a show or whatever you're doing
    it's very easy to spend a lot of money be be mentally okay with that to some extent like and
    I will say this I spent a lot of money on a lot of things in my life and you know like I bought
    my ex-wife a Tiffany ring because it was important to her personally I don't you know I'm having
    fan of diamonds I think they're a just like SP3 hybridized carbon is not a thing that I'm very impressed
    with like it's something you can easily mass produce it's something that yeah and you think about like
    where are those coming from and what are the ethics of it and what is it actually worth this is
    not an actual rare stone at all like there are planets where it's just raining diamonds and
    there are places where you just have like huge ones that are very perfect and there's there's
    nothing magical about it it's just a shiny stone that's kind of hard um yeah I don't understand
    what but I she it was important to her so we got uh Tiffany ring for her and I did that as a
    grad student and it was like I was seven or eight grand and I think we put pretty sure we put
    that on a credit card and I'm pretty sure I was still paying that one off after we got the
    forest which was I let's just say I regretted that I I didn't feel great about that purchase
    if I spent that much money on travel I don't think I'd mind it you know I it would hurt don't
    get me wrong it would definitely be like ow like a little bit of gut punch a little bit of like
    before dropping out from under you but you feel like it's something where you know you're putting
    money into it but at least you're getting something out right you're getting an experience
    that you're getting memories out I don't I'm not saying you're not getting anything out of her
    but fucking ring but you know a little piece of metal with a little shiny stone on it it's like
    what what what what what the fuck is that doing like and and especially what is the difference
    practically between that and a much cheaper version the or something else you know I
    did just I'm not the bitch about that but there are purchases that I've made like that that I
    regret and then there are purchases that I've made like traveling and I can't think of a time
    when I've really regretted paying to travel ever I just I can't and I don't I kind of don't think
    you will either it's interesting also like if you travel however you travel whether you're going
    alone or with people it's very jarring and you'll have you certainly will have some form of culture
    shock probably because you know you are used to things being in a certain way and no matter
    how flexible you are some things are going to be different and you have to deal with that you have
    to deal with not knowing how to do things you have to deal with not being in your element you have to
    deal with maybe hopefully you're going someplace like if you're traveling to the UK the language is a
    little different but you know basically you could just get by any English right but if you travel the
    friends and especially like you try to actually do a little bit of French you learn and I encourage
    you if you're going someplace and you're able to learn bonjour learn merci merci beaucoup a
    for some pre you know learn learn how to order things I'm trying to learn how to
    pardon yeah excuse meません excuse meません learn how to say just like basic stuff and
    if you if you really want to be clever learn more than that learn how to do like basic conversation
    and start talking to people with that she was got with this uh bonjour from a pelscott
    olad joesfissqat anyhow nijia fjema watch us got yeah you learn stuff like that learn how to
    have a little conversation and work on it and if the language it has a different character system
    maybe even try to learn some of that you know that kind of stuff the thing about it is it's going to be
    very hard but it's so rewarding when you start to get it and when you start like unlocking you know
    my experience at kind of it is like hard and then things click and then they become easy I am really
    convinced that a lot of things in life are either completely impossible or trivial and they can
    make the transition from one to the other very smoothly and abruptly and so like you start learning
    this kind of stuff and it might be hard at first and especially if you're someplace like you're
    in a kind of your your in Japan for a week the first couple of days it gets very uncomfortable and like
    as long as I've spent here my Japanese stocks right it is it is kusu it is shitting so
    in fact I'm sure that I just mispronounced that but you know if you work on it then one day you'll
    go to a coffee shop and you'll realize you just ordered in French and you're going to a patee
    and you'll have the whole interaction in French or maybe even you'll be walking down the street
    and two French women will come up to you and they're from the south of France and you're in Paris
    and they ask you how to get someplace and not only can you answer but you actually know the answer
    and you feel cool a shit for it that that actually happened to me but I stole to this day
    this is like a decade ago I feel awesome because of it like you know I pay the fact that they just
    saw me and decided this is a person that I'm going to ask in French how to get someplace
    they just assumed that I might know and then I was able to answer that was fucking awesome that was
    fucking awesome I you know anyway I'm just like thinking back to that I have to say like that
    kind of stuff like learning your way around learning like you go someplace and you don't know how to
    get from A to B and then you figure it out you figure out how to get the metro card
    at most places that have a metro they have a squeaky card or they have the oyster card
    or navigate or you know whatever figuring out how to get that and you start getting to the
    point where you just have that and you can like swipe in and out of the stations or that are
    the stations that are just you know like free but very few of those are actually free you start doing
    that and you start feeling very cool I used to start feeling and I don't mean that you feel like
    oh I'm so cool but I mean it just feels good it's very rewarding and that jump from I can't do this
    thing to I totally got this it's I think it's an essential part of I don't want to say growing up
    because you could you could be 60 and still do this it's one of these things it's just like
    you're expanding your universe you're getting that much more comfortable with things you're getting
    better able to deal with the unexpected you're you have kind of learned that you have
    sea legs and you know you might not be able to figure it out immediately some things might not work
    you might go to the wrong line or go you know down the wrong path or whatever but you'll figure
    it out and then you'll go to the right place and by the way now next time that this happens you
    can just go to the right place in the first place and you might even have learned how to ask for it
    or learn how to figure it out you learned oh this is how I navigate here this is how I get around
    and once you start getting that it unlocks so much because you know everything is different everywhere
    but things somethings are kind of similar so if you figure out how to navigate Tokyo you can get
    around London you can get around Paris you can get around Madrid it's remarkable actually how
    much as different as things are things very similar and that feeling and that sort of understanding
    that about yourself I think it is it's just amazing it feels great and you know but it's practically
    also something that tells you I can put myself into a situation where I might not be comfortable
    I might not be able to do it right away and I might look a little bit foolish doing it and it might
    be embarrassing even but I will figure it out and I will actually start being able to do it and then
    I'll just have it and once you get that a few times it gives you so much more confidence it gives you so much
    just more I don't know trust and faith in yourself and your ability to figure shit out
    and it which again goes back to one of the reasons why I think traveling solo is kind of nice
    and again it's it's nice traveling with a partner but if you're someplace and you know you get lost
    and it's like what the fuck where am I I don't know how to get the fuck out of here I don't
    know how to get back here and it's really stressful or you get trapped in the first time I went to Paris
    got trapped in garden art I for some reason the ticket systems were down and so got the
    Charlotte go and there was a woman there who was an American who spoke French and we were getting
    on the trains trying to get the tickets for them and she was able to talk to somebody and they said
    you know like well the system is down so go to this station and you get off there and you buy a
    ticket and then go to a garden art and you'll be fine and she got that I didn't hear that part
    which she conveyed to me and a few other Americans so I got on the train and I just wrote all the
    way to garden art and when I got there I'm inside of the thing and I'm looking around and now I
    can't get the fuck out because you you need the ticket to get out of the area and I couldn't figure
    out of I couldn't figure out how to get a ticket out of the area and going through and
    figuring that out and then eventually getting out and seeing that oh he's not that big of a deal
    it seemed very stressful at the time I have to say but I ended up not being a big deal and now I
    could totally do it and now I'm just a pitiful, pitiful, pitiful, pitiful, pitiful, pitiful I can
    understand and speak a little bit and I could probably navigate a lot better now
    but going from one to the next it's pretty fucking cool it's pretty I know I keep saying cool
    but it's just it feels so good it's something I really I want to share with you I want you to share
    with other people I want you to try it if you're able to and I understand also it's very expensive
    to travel although some things some things are very expensive and they're very time consuming
    but they're also kind of worth it and if you can find a way it's kind of worth it and you
    can also I don't know that there are things that you can do to make travel a lot cheaper like I
    know I used to know somebody I want to say I know somebody but I don't think I've seen her in my
    a thousand years another one of these people that I was connected with on Facebook and I haven't seen
    forever probably could look her up but anyway she used to just like go look it down because if you
    if you follow like cheap airfare things everyone's in a while there will be ridiculously cheap
    flight someplace and she would just do that and then she'd be like oh well for like 80 bucks I can
    go to Norway or you know like something ridiculous like that and it might be the most comfortable flight
    it might be a long thing but she would do that and she traveled all the fucking time and it wasn't
    that expensive you know you can trade expense for convenience if you're rich you don't even have
    to pack your bags you can just have somebody else do it you can have somebody deliver your bags to you
    although I ever discovered this trip that you know I always knew well I didn't always know
    at some point long ago my first or second I guess it was my second trip to Japan I saw these
    all these boxes and like people with a cat dragging a box and like what the fuck is that
    and I didn't know and then a couple of times ago I realized or I looked it up and I found out oh
    this is I can't even think of what it's called yeah my note too I think this is not the only one
    but this is one of these things and like the last time actually I was here I wanted to I had too
    much stuff this is another thing I don't want to get too much into it because it's like
    40 an hour 15 minutes or hour 13 minutes but pack light the name of this thing is pack light
    the thing that I I'll get back to the packing thing and it's like it's it's much easier on you
    if you don't bring that much and you know try and no matter how light you think you packed
    you're probably taking more stuff than you need trying to go to places where you'll be able to
    to do laundry because then you can take less stuff it's different obviously like if you're going
    someplace in the winter or where it's raining probably going to want a few changes of clothes
    probably going to want more stuff that's going to be heavier and bulkier but you know you go
    someplace in the summer you might you might be able to just take a backpack I have a friend
    and she travels and the backpack the cheat takes is like I know people who have a backpack
    that they use as a purse and there's is not that much smaller than the backpack that she takes
    when she travels anywhere and you know she can just walk anywhere with it and it's so light
    I'm I'm nowhere near that I'm a spire to be but I have too much stuff and I do have some
    stuff that's like you know because I have some eye stuff so I there's stuff that's attached to that
    and then I I still could pack a lot lighter and I'm constantly working on this but you know
    the lighter you pack the easier it is to go places and the less bullshit you have to deal with
    and it's just it's exponential like every little extra bit of weight you add is exponentially
    more misery for you and exponentially more pain in the ass that you have to deal with

    Hacklight

    maybe don't pack as light as she does although if you can do that if you can get away with it
    it's fucking awesome um figure out like what is the stuff that you actually need like do you really
    need to bring a toothbrush or you're going to use the toothbrush and the hotel

    Personally I

    like an electric toothbrush I don't like the mechanical ones and you know so even though most hotels
    will have a toothbrush for you I want to bring my but you know and and I if I don't use the kind
    of the right kind of shampoo I will get dandruff and so I bring that but you know like if you're
    you in body wash or something like that most hotels will have body wash

    If you if you have a

    laundry in the hotel then especially if you are you know partially luckily and partially clever
    about it and you get a room like the one I have that has a laundry machine in the room you can just
    wash your clothes and then you don't have to take that many changes of clothes and it makes things
    a lot lighter and makes things a lot easier um if you could do that kind of stuff you do you really
    need to bring your computer I always bring my computer I'm attached to my computer I could travel
    without it I will say I recently switched to a much lighter computer and I'm so glad that I did
    and I even am slightly thinking I should have gone like one steps but like because you can get
    the equivalent of like a 13 inch I have a 15 inch back book air you can get the equivalent of a 13
    inch and today the performance on that thing unless you're doing like a lot of you know heavy
    rendering or compiling or anything like that and and a lot of those things you could do remotely if you
    wanted to but unless you're doing those things you don't really need like the giant MacBook Pro that's
    fully loaded and saving that little bit of weight a kilo or two makes a huge fucking difference
    saving the bulk makes a huge buck fucking difference and then you have something you know do you
    really need to bring that extra iPad do you really need to bring whatever it is and you know and for
    some reason on this trip I thought that I was going to go hiking and so I brought my my chemical
    pack pouch and I've got used at once I brought my slippers um I apologize and
    incidentally all the time well I bought them in like a year they are one of the best made
    shoes that I've ever had and I highly recommend um buying them because I don't I want them to stay
    in business because it's one of the few things that you can get that's actually like high quality
    and they last and I feel bad that I'm not buying them more often because they last and I don't
    want them to the suffer because they're making good stuff and our economic system encourages people
    to make a crap that you have to keep rebuying and most stuff is getting crap-ified and yeah anyway
    the best that's like you know pack light so coming back to like what you can do with your
    your bags and this one saw these young and they would say things and I was in Osaka with my friend
    and I kind of mentioned you know they have the service where you can you can send your bags
    ahead of you to the next hotel and she started like you know you're as perked up a little bit
    and she's like what is that how does that work and I'm like oh it's kind of expensive but you know
    it's it sounds actually really convenient and really awesome um and in my defense I looked at
    the Yamano tape races and I think it was like 50 bucks or something so a bag which is not you know
    it's not expensive expensive but it adds up a few of a few bags and also yeah it's it's
    enough where it kind of hurts unless you have a lot of money but we still look then do it I
    just sort of decided like that let's think about this maybe even even if it's that expensive
    maybe we'll just try it because it sounds awesome and it's a pain in the estage love your
    shit and went in and it ended up being like 10 bucks a bag 10 bucks a bag to go from
    Kyoto back to Tokyo which is wild wild it would be the next day but you know I mean it's worth it
    and so we sent our bags and then we were able to go from Kyoto to Osaka without any bags at all
    which made it so much better it's meant like massively massively more comfortable and again if you're
    like rich rich you could just have the bags show up someplace or you could have them shipped or whatever
    I don't think that's really exactly the right that's not the person I'm talking if you're the
    person who can just afford to whatever or especially if you're the person that has a private jet
    you can just take all your shit and have people deal with all your bullshit for you that's a very
    different kind of thing than what I'm talking about I'm not the target audience although if you are
    please you know the comma patron I don't have a Patreon thing but you know like let's
    message me and then find a way to have you pay me because something that's going to be a nominal
    amount for you would be enough to get me by I'm I'm really at this moment trying to figure out
    like how can I how can I exist without having to you know have I mean it's not that I don't
    want to have a job it's not that I don't want to work but I really don't want to have that
    gun to my head that like you have to do this job that you hate in order to survive in order to
    have shelter in order to do the things you want to do especially and I don't know maybe that's a
    way to do it maybe that's a thing but other than that I'm not really talking to you so I'm talking
    to the person who yeah they not have that much money may not have any money may be just a student
    and again like if you're a student going to Germany to to get your undergrad degree or your graduate
    degree can be damn near free and you can even work while you're there to pay for other expenses
    and then you go and you have no student loan debt which I assure you is a thing that you don't
    want to have I have like a house oh I guess houses are a lot more expensive now than they used to be
    but I still have like 160 grand or something left over and student loan debt it's even more than
    I don't even know it's such a big number I can't I can't even think about it but whatever it is
    you don't want that and you can find other ways to get it to get around it and you can also
    do that summer abroad or I would say semester abroad or even Europe abroad and also also also
    when you do that understand you're going to be very uncomfortable you're going to want to go home
    you probably I'm not saying that's a guarantee but there there will probably be times
    where you're like fuck this I'm done I just want to go home and if you power through that it will
    get better especially you know like maybe you're someplace and you don't have any friends and you're
    not you know you don't have people to do stuff with and you're just kind of everything is frustrating
    and you really want to to get that burger or whatever your favorite food is and you just are like
    kind of stuck um if you power through that you'll find a I mean it is kind of interesting like when
    I first when I first started traveling to Europe I wanted it was in I actually when I lived in
    Paris which wasn't even that long ago I wanted a bagel it was there for like a few months
    and I'm not somebody that has bagels like bad often but every once in a while I like a bagel
    and at a certain point as much as I like a quesson and baget I wanted a bagel you know and I made
    a trek like halfway across the city through the only place I could find that was anywhere near
    that had bagels and I got like the shittiest like endomins kind of bagel from someplace that they
    cooked like a panini for for some fucking reason I'm a panini press and I was happy for it I was glad
    to get you know you can find stuff that's like an approximation of the thing that you're missing
    um they when I was first living there they didn't have to put me and I messed it I actually
    researched the people that to put me asking them to do it and they ended up like years later opening
    one and I went back later and it was it was not the same but it was something it was not bad
    but now actually you can go the last time I went to Paris the bagel shops all over the
    fucking place it's kind of it's kind of annoying actually but you can go and get a bagel
    it's not a big deal when I lived there getting a mocha was really hard the only place that had
    a mocha that I could find was either Starbucks or there was an occasional like coffee shop that was
    doing some weird shit and they would have a mocha and if you go there now you're gonna mocha
    fucking everywhere like they're all over the place it's kind of it's kind of sad in some sense
    that you're not losing that but it is also really nice just that a lot of the things that you
    might have missed you're not gonna miss anymore depending on where you go there there are certainly
    places where you're gonna go and especially if you have very like American or defined tastes you're
    gonna have trouble yeah then it even if you are fairly flexible and you're willing to do
    different stuff and work it out you're gonna you're gonna want your thing right you're gonna
    whatever your little comfort food is you're gonna want it I mean actually similarly like Mexican food
    yeah I I really like the Arizona version sort of Gringo version of sinor in Mexican food
    that really seems to only exist in basically that part of the Southwest and I like it a lot
    I don't get me wrong I like street tacos I like a lot of other stuff too I like different regions
    in Mexico but that's the one that I want yeah it's not that I want all the time but you
    I wanted sometimes and when I first lived there it was very rare to find places that did tacos
    any kind of tacos and then I found a place that was from actually people from Mexico City
    lived and it was not too far from Garden Lord it was expensive but they had street tacos
    and they were very authentic and very good other than being expensive and that was nice
    that was a nice little and now if you go there they're actually a decent number of Mexican restaurants
    it's amazing how quickly that kind of stuff has changed but you can go and find your thing
    or you can find an approximation of it or you can just you know suffer without it but it's
    frustrating you know you could figure out okay the first time I was there I got desperate enough
    that I ended up getting what is that stuff called the the sort of taco hardshell tacos or
    or chips or whatever that are from I can't think of the fucking sick the most American
    westernized bullshit version of it I got those because I just really wanted it and it's
    satisfying you it wasn't perfect it did a good job but anyway anyway I have a lot more stuff I
    could probably talk about but I think this is the sort of broad strokes of what I wanted to hit
    you know the where to go like you know go wherever you're interested in honestly go almost any
    place you know there's something there I personally have discovered about myself that I'm much more
    of a fan bum it's not that I like cities necessarily but I like I love public transit I love walking
    more than anything actually like the thing that I like about traveling is just being able to walk
    places and then when I get there you know like the thing that I normally do and the thing that my
    friend and I did this last week was basically and this is like rough approximation you know you can
    you could dial it in due different stuff but basically we would kind of say okay we're going to
    go to this thing and we want to want to go to this botanical garden so we'll find our way out
    there take the metro whatever go to that and then the next thing we're going to do is go
    to this imperial palace and the distance between them is very easily walkable so you just walk
    between them and that is a afternoon and you do that and then it's like well okay well now we're
    done here walk we'll get coffee and we'll walk back to the hotel and in the process of doing that
    you're seeing a lot of stuff and you can kind of figure out yeah where you're going where you want to
    go and maybe along the way you find a really cool restaurant maybe you're along the way you
    find a place you're like oh we're hungry we'll stop in here or maybe you find a temple that you
    didn't even realize and you didn't know that you wanted to go to so you go to a big or some kind of
    park and you decide you're going to go to some other place and while you're going there you
    pass some really cool shit that you didn't know was there you didn't know you should have been interested
    in and you go someplace else and you find that kind of stuff it's awesome that's my favorite thing
    and yeah I don't give me wrong I love museums I love a lot of the other stuff but that's
    that's the one that I think it's made the most it's kind of nice also like figuring out
    but again the first time I was traveling I spent two or three days and again two or three days
    in London I probably spent like three days in Paris I think I went to niece and where else did I go
    oh I took I went to niece I took the tissue bay there and then I went to what Milan
    and Pisa Florence I don't remember if that's the right order and then to Rome on the train
    and yeah you do that and you kind of make your way I spent a couple days in each hit the
    the major bullet points I've sort of landed on and again this is all very personal depends on
    where you are in life and what you're doing all I kind of stuff I've sort of landed on you know
    like two full days someplace you go to a new city you have the day of travel which is still
    be able to do dinner or something when you get there probably if it's not too late and then that
    overnight and then you got one full day another overnight you got another full day and you'll leave
    the next day and that seems to if you can manage it be a really good amount of time like longer
    than that I'm not saying you're going to get bored with places but yeah it's it's easy to especially
    if it's a city where there's not that much stuff there are certainly cities but I guess any city
    you could spend and you could just live in people live in them but there are places like Pisa
    I really did not need a full day there I could I could get there you look around hit a couple
    things and then you're like okay I don't even need to stay overnight here or if you do stay
    overnight you know just leave the next day and you're fine and I'm not necessarily saying
    that for you Pisa will be that but I'm just for me that was an example and then there are places
    where you're like I could stay here indefinitely I could stay in Tokyo indefinitely I could stay
    I could probably stay actually in Kyoto indefinitely Osaka I mean I could stay anywhere but
    there are places that I'd rather be and Tokyo and Kyoto are probably higher on there
    I went to Nagano it was nice but I really probably if I stayed a week there would just be like
    losing my mind I wouldn't want to stay there for that long especially you know like there
    there is a train but it's like a super slow train and it doesn't really do that much for you
    unless you're getting in and out and it was like taking the Shinkansen up to basically where I was
    going and then getting to the monkey park I think the from the Shinkansen station there
    there are two that from Tokyo took about the same amount of time despite being much much longer
    than it took to get from that Shinkansen station to the right can that I was staying at
    near the monkey park or whatever it's called it the stone monkey park it was it was
    interesting actually just how different that was like figuring out the amount of time if you have
    the time to do it it's nice to stay places longer and again if you're in a place where you can do
    the semester abroad then you got a semester or two semester is someplace if you want to do
    your undergrad in Germany I keep going back to Germany because it's one of the like there are places
    where it's free basically free like Germany or way a lot of places in Europe are examples of this
    then there are places where it's much cheaper but not free and then there are places where it's
    and not necessarily US price but very expensive if you look at those places that are not too expensive
    and you stay there for a while and especially if it's someplace like Germany you can travel a lot
    and you can sit there and you really get the feel what it would be like to live there
    and even if you're only staying like again if you're staying two full days like I'm talking
    about in which for most cities I think is you're not you definitely have to understand you're
    not going to do everything in two full days like especially if it's a city where there's a
    shitload of stuff you'll get like a sampler palletter you're getting like the flight
    of activities to do there and the nice thing is then you have a reason to come back
    I on my first trip and it wasn't exactly intentional but it was kind of my thought process
    go to a bunch of places see what it's like in Athens for a couple days see what it's like
    in Munich for a couple days see what it's like in Rome for a couple days and then later on you can go
    well I'm not really that interested in going back there or maybe I want to go back for a long time
    and like there are some places like London I could just keep going back to or I could live there
    very easily money permitting and all that Paris similarly unique like I would go back to Munich
    and spend some time there I wouldn't want to live there I don't think it's just it's not my
    is that it's not a nice place it wouldn't be my first first Athens nice to visit probably
    wouldn't want to live there Rome they don't probably I don't know I'm not and I'm not saying that these
    are for you but you know just just kind of my experience and you know figuring that kind of stuff out
    is very cool so I feel like I'm rambling a little bit at this point which I do tend to do
    but I I really hope that you will think about this if you don't have that the first step
    first step that you can take if you don't have a passport already is to get a passport it's not very
    expensive it's not that difficult to do literally just have to get your picture taken you get two
    passport photos fill out a form send it in and you know I I don't even know what the fee is but order
    of a hundred bucks it's it's it's a decent amount of money like it's an annoying amount of money
    but it's not like it's so much money that you can't do it hopefully and you do that and now you
    get a passport and now that you have a passport say you don't have very much money there are places
    you can look where you can find ridiculously cheap flights I'm not going to give you directions on
    that because I I'm not a person that wants to take all of those because A like I hate layovers
    but I like I like traveling but I don't like the active traveling so much especially like long flights
    and especially some of those ridiculously long flights are just less comfortable you're trading
    comfort for price some of them are not bad though there are some where it's just like a direct flight
    and it's just like a no frills airline and you know you're going to be on that plane for a little while
    but it's going to be so cheap and then you just have to figure out the the board like where you're
    staying and how you're eating and all that kind of stuff and so you can get someplace pretty cheaply
    and you can day there if you don't mind the hostel or the capsule hotel or something like that
    you can stay pretty cheaply if you have more money take a nicer flight if you have a lot of money
    take one of those flights with the lay flights I I aspire to that it seems like such a ridiculous
    waste of money but also like if I was going from LA to Sydney which is a flight that I've never
    done and it scares the shit out of me because it's so long because you know you take the flight
    that's like Phoenix to the London I think it's like 10 and a half hours I don't remember exactly
    how long it is but it's it's similar we LA to Tokyo is about 10 and a half hours and
    you're on there and you bring your entertainment or you watch movies or whatever and let
    movies are a nice example because you can you know how long a movie is yeah hour and a half
    two and a half hours right and so you get on there is that you're reading a book and you know
    like how long is it going to be or doing other stuff different but there's a movie is an example
    you get on there and you get kind of situated you have your meal and you watch a movie
    and you watch a movie and then you watch a movie and you still have four hours to go and it's like
    holy shit how the fuck is this taking so they could just feel like it's going to take forever
    it feels interminable and it feels much more so like when you first do it and then after a while
    you kind of know the deal and you kind of you understand this is going to suck but it will be over
    I don't have the it's not like I'm stuck here in prison forever I will say
    as I've gotten older when I was younger I could sit much longer and now I have a walking disorder
    like I have to walk it's almost a compulsion and be you know I just like it hurts to sit on my
    ass for that one and it's physically painful I think you're probably doing some damage and then I know
    like my mom um she's a lot older still and it's really hard for her to travel anymore now because
    you know just sitting that long and it's in fact it's dangerous too because you can get
    get an embalism or something you can get you can do some best and that's not an embalism
    from Vosis what am I saying but you can do some bad stuff and you don't want you don't want that so
    figure that out understand how to deal with it but even if it's just discomfort figure out ways to
    be more comfortable and get it over with and hopefully stay longer because then you can but you
    know again you could be like my friend who would like she would fly out and then just do like a long
    weekend and spend a couple days in some other country you can find these super cheap flights you can do
    the summer abroad you can do a week away you can do month away all of those things they're they're
    very cool you can get it like it takes more time and coordination but you could teach English
    someplace I understand that China is particularly interested in that it's much easier I know a lot of
    people like to do it and say Japan I know people who do it and let's see I know people in a bunch of
    different countries but like Taiwan or other places teaching English not like getting paid like
    massive amounts of money but it's enough you can get by Japan is very in demand and if you come
    here I think people end up usually in some tiny tiny little village someplace which is probably not
    you know become to Japan at the very least you're in on one of visit Tokyo probably and if you're
    me you want to stay here so you're if you're teaching in some rural place not be the most exciting
    thing and the teaching is a lot but you can still do it you can get the experience of living
    someplace and if you really wanted to be here that's maybe a path I don't know I know it's very
    difficult to to go from that to actually like living living here you know it's kind of like
    I mean I'm saying it's like a dead end job but there are certain things where it's easier to transition
    and that's a very difficult one to transition from that to just something but it's some if you want
    to spend some time someplace else it's a way to do it you can be if you're younger there are
    a bunch of things where you can like be in a pair for a while and like take care of somebody's kids
    and I've known people who've done that and I've heard like two distinct kinds of not I don't know
    that many people live have done it but the the experiences why I guess there are three like there
    it's it's fine it's not a great thing but it's not terrible level of love but the ones that I
    really remember are one was amazing like it was very little effort and she was with a really
    wealthy family and the kids were well behaved wasn't a lot of work they gave her lots of time off
    and it was just and and also like you know she's staying in their house in a room and situation
    that was just fucking awesome like a luxury hotel level of awesome and they're traveling also
    and she gets to travel with them so it's the care of the kids and they're paying for her
    that's that's like don't count on that being the case and then I I know somebody else who got
    in one which was just a nightmare and you know horrible kid and really trapped and not able to do
    anything and you know like really just assholes doing the thing and then I know people in between
    so there's a range you could do you could try finding a job that works some place also
    you could find a job I do think like anything that you do for work ends up being work at the end of
    the day so as much as I like travel if I had to travel for work I know I would fucking hate it
    and also the people that travel for work they're not like chilling places it's just
    visiting and learning what it's like there they're kind of like constantly traveling and getting
    the worst part of travel over and over again I friend with a tiny single bag she was just like a
    couple weeks after I was in Shenzhen she was there I think she was there last week and she sent me
    a message and it's like hey are you and are you still there you're coming soon because I'm here
    for a couple days and she flew from San Francisco over there and spent which is a long fucking
    flight and spent like two days doing some stuff and then work obviously and then flew back and
    yeah that to me it's like the worst part of the travel and then also when she's working there she's
    working the whole time and doesn't have much time to really spend and you just just like the hotel
    or the factory and then you're gone and that's that's not the ideal that's not hopefully although
    it's still nice it's still an experience you could still maybe get little tastes of stuff but if you
    can take it as a vacation if you can wander around you know have a lot of maybe have your things
    that you want to do but make a small number of them don't try to overdo it give yourself some unstructured
    time and again if you are physically able then especially your places where you can do it walk
    walking is awesome walking around places is awesome take the metro also awesome so anyway
    I think trying to see if I'm missing something and and look into that baggage thing that I mentioned
    you know again track pack light but even when you're packing lightly if you can have your bags
    delivered to the next hotel and it doesn't cost that much money you can spend a lot of money on
    that too by the way so I'm not saying you know just do it and expect that the work well or to be cheap
    but if you can find a situation like the one that I did where it was literally like 10 bucks to send
    your bags the distance from Phoenix to LA and they get to the next day and the morning do that it's
    so much better it's it's ridiculously better and you know it gives you a lot of freedom not having to
    carry your bag like as nice as the train the high speed trains are not having to carry your bag on them
    is like a massively better and then when you carry your bags whether you're on the train or the
    plane you're going to have the distance from the airport to the hotel which I would also encourage you
    you know you could imagine you have money and it's not a big deal you could take a shuttle you could take a
    a van or a cab or whatever take the public transit route if they have it which again you know
    maybe get your bags delivered because a lot of these delivery services if you have the money to do it
    we'll do it from the airport to the hotel the same day but if you can't do that you're still
    stopping your bags but everybody on the train from the airport is going to be doing the same thing
    it sucks you get to the hotel you drop them off maybe you take a shower and now you're there
    and then it's yeah it's a very big relief it's kind of part of the initiation into wherever you're
    going and now you can just do your stuff and I hope you do that and I hope don't just go some place
    and like live basically as you would kind of try to experience it a bit and see what you can steal
    and I don't mean like physically steal but like see what ideas people have see how people are doing
    stuff see the way things work and you know improve things take that take those ideas back with you
    take you know or look at how people are doing stuff and sometimes some ways you'll be like
    that's really terrible we don't want to do that it's good that we don't do that
    yeah you can learn hopefully also like I know a lot of people this will be the last thing that I
    say that I know a lot of people who the classic one is they think they're going to go to Paris
    and they have some weird romantic notion of it and then they end up hating it and I never had that
    but I also had zero expectations and I definitely never had a romanticized vision of what Paris was
    and it ended up being one of my favorite cities I actually love the city but I never had like oh it's
    the view I don't even know what they call it the view demore or whatever you know
    view demore I don't know what you actually call it but whatever people call Paris they have
    an idea of it and you go there and it's it's just a city there's a place and then they're like
    ah this sucks if you have no expectations it's actually really lovely you know and if you have
    just sort of the um I don't know that I'm just thinking right now about how nice it is
    to be there and walk around and it turns out of course if you look at the history of
    horsemen and how it got to be such a nice place to walk around there's some
    great shit there but nonetheless um if you're there you can wander around the city and I've
    walked around that entire city too and you do it and it's fucking beautiful there are some like
    a weird areas but with very few exceptions if you're in the anywhere in any of the major on
    these moments you're walking from one to the next it's lovely like it's it's beautiful like
    even the shitty year places it's kind of nice looking and you take the metro and it's it's really
    like the metro's you know kind of smells like this not the greatest thing is that very clean
    and blah blah blah I still like it I still like you know every time I ride the metro my friend while
    we were riding the train was just like you kind of smiling when you're on the train to do like
    it's fucking awesome this is so fucking nice and also like just the feeling of wherever you are
    you can be walking around and in a city that has a good metro system wherever you walk to
    if you get tired you're like five minutes from a train station and if you're going someplace
    and you have some time you can walk to the next train station and the next one's still
    and usually they're a few minutes apart so you know they're like just close enough that it's
    not like they're right on top of each other but it's fast for if you take the train but you can
    still walk it pretty quickly and comfortably and if you do that and walk another one or you're like
    okay this is bullshit it's hot it's raining and I'm tired and I just want to get on the train
    and sit and maybe you can sit to be camp but hopefully you can anyway with all of that go get your
    passport and try if you can if you're in a position too I know you know again this is a lot but
    think about it think about how you might be able to do it and understand that it will
    I'm not guaranteeing that you're going to love it or that you'll consider it to be worth it
    but in my opinion it's worth it and I think it's something that everyone should do at least a little bit
    and especially if you do it and you do it in a way that's not
    I don't know how to say it but you know it's not like overly sheltered and isolated
    and you're actually kind of exposed and going through not necessarily getting the experience of what
    it would be like to live someplace but at least getting the experience of some of the parts of that
    yeah it's kind of nice it's kind of worthwhile anyway with that the next one of these will be
    more serious but I think I enjoyed this and I hope you did too take care and see you again

    再见

    1 hr 50 min
  • Charlie Kirk
    Episode Transcript

    The last thing that I wanted to talk about rambling on and get it putting a cap on this and the thing that I'm really disliked about

    More than and it's not that I don't like or that I that I'm okay with rather
    The white supremacy and the Christian nationalism and the fascism.

    I'm not just throwing words out there, but I'm not gonna

    I'm gonna go into definitions of those things, but yeah, absolutely was those things
    But he fucked up language and fucked up
    Really like I think I he using this word is a sounds a little weird
    But to me like honor and actually like trying to
    Be as honest as you can and trying like to if you're having a discussion with somebody not a debate
    But a discussion and somebody makes a point and somebody is actually right
    recognizing the right
    acknowledging that
    Learning from it those kinds of things
    You know actually having your mind to change those are really important things and people like this guy
    Completely eliminated them.

    They completely have fucked things up so badly and it's not just them

    It's like you know again the left versus right thing the idea of you know
    What is what is radical you know like I think everybody should have universal health care
    I think you should be able to have housing for free as somebody who exists
    I think you should have
    Education for free as somebody who exists and then people will go like well
    How do how are you going to compel people that work to people people don't need to be compelled to do those things people will actually do
    Those things for free
    If they don't have that gun to the head of
    You know you have to do this to survive they really will
    And I'll tell you how you know that they would because I'm doing it right now
    I'm doing like I have a fucking PhD if I didn't have to pay for that
    I'd still be doing this in fact what I would be doing probably is
    Doing research and talking to people and sharing things that I know and probably putting more and more time and effort into this because I wouldn't have other things to do
    I wouldn't have again like this.

    I this thing that I have to get the score in my

    Game of imaginary
    You know money thing
    Get that score up to some number just so that I can survive and so that I can live reasonably well and be comfortable and
    Not be an horrible situation
    That is it's a horrible thing.

    It's a really horrible thing and I think I I wish and again, I'm not

    I don't think
    That things used to be better or worse or you know, I'm not a nostalgia guy as a general rule
    But I do really wish that people would have a concept of honor
    a concept of
    Honesty a concept of good faith and when I say that like I don't just mean that you know you act in those ways like I
    I genuinely do my best
    To do those things.

    I care about honor.

    I care about reputation.

    I care about these things.

    They matter to me

    I care about honesty.

    I if I find out that I was wrong about something

    My
    Gut reaction there and the thing that I tried to do and I tried to demonstrate and I tried to even like go a little bit overboard on this
    Is it to acknowledge that somebody was correct and I was wrong and
    To correct myself and to learn from it and I think that's something that we should all be doing
    That's something you know you shouldn't be doing this shit where you're just like convincing people of
    of of nonsense that's wrong and
    That is a mass of harm to society as much of a harm as actually like saying
    Oh these these terrible people are doing these terrible things and then you're putting a target on them or you know like we are totally
    Under threat because of x y and z when you're the dominant category, you know like it's such a fucking weird thing
    Like you have these white males
    Particularly like people that kind of look like me, but they're especially like Christian they're especially and they talk about how
    You know
    Much that they are under threat or they're being discriminated against you're all those other bullshit and then you look at every like bored room
    You look at the any the cabinet of the president you look at the president himself and all of our presidents except for one
    And they're all dudes that look like that and it's kind of like
    What's what's going on here guys are you are you little little full of shit little fucking full of shit?
    You know, it's it's just such a fucking it's it's a frustrating thing how much people reverse the stuff and it's also a very frustrating thing.

    I think how much

    I guess this will be the actual like in the cap to this but how much people are algorithmically
    Balkanized so part of this is like you know
    One person watches fox news one person watches and MSNBC which is fox news for liberals and
    They have a completely different
    Preception of reality both of them are completely just
    Disconnected from actual reality by the way and both of them as somebody who's outside of both of those things
    If I go to somebody's house and I see like either one of those channels on
    And I don't just mean those two because it's this is a very common problem for
    Pretty much all legacy media
    But I see that stuff and
    It's it's excruciating.

    It's physically painful for me.

    I have to leave the fucking room

    I feel like I'm gonna crawl out of my skin.

    I can't stand it because it's so

    ridiculous and it's so
    Like it's not just that it's not connected to reality and it's you know
    Whatever they're saying is like it's own universe under itself
    But they have the exact same kinds of things about like agreement and in group versus out group
    And talking about how bad some group of people are and you got the the demonization and we're under threat and it like it's really
    So similar is one of the reasons why
    I talk so much about blue maga
    Is not just because I think it's like a convenient short hand but because
    the differences between
    blue and red maga are
    Paper thin like there's zero daylight between these two groups and it's when you're when you see it
    And when you see people going down these paths and you see them like sharing
    It's the most ridiculous.

    I'm sharing exactly the same memes except

    One of them is making Trump and a Superman and one of them's making Gavin Newsom who's a fucking horrible person also in the Superman
    And it's like the same shit they've got you know
    Kamala Harris as a super girl and then they've got somebody also the super it's just the same shit
    It's like the same fucking thought process.

    It's the same and it's not surprising because they're coming from the same society

    But the same stuff
    But alternate universe versions of each other and they're both clownish
    They're both like super ableists
    Really love to talk about people's intelligence really love to focus on like somebody's not educated or they're they like the throw-around
    How it's stupid or like you or all these kinds of things and
    Most of these things you can take the words and you have legitimately no idea if I took one of the posts
    From the liberals the that I know and I took another post from some of the maga people the red maga people
    And I took out like the context so you don't know
    They're talking about Trump or they're talking about Biden
    You would not know the difference legitimately like I'm not just exaggerating or making that up you would not know the difference
    And so that's a problem what you're watching and then you also have that all of the social media that you're in
    A you're connecting the people your following pages and doing things like this that align with you
    But also
    There's this algorithmic Balkanization
    So you get into sort of a cluster and then they keep showing you more and more stuff from your cluster
    So with Charlie Kirk and I think this is
    This is the thing that kind of prompted the the spying thing I was gonna talk about but it matters
    With him you have one group of people who see him and they're seeing just the stuff
    That sounds completely reasonable and sounds like oh he's one of us and he said you know
    I don't understand why people are so upset about him.

    I don't know you know and it

    Is that they're not completely wrong because that's what they're seeing and the even other group of people and they're seeing
    All of the Christian nationalism and the racism and the sexism and the anti-immigrant stuff
    And the demonization of trans people and the talking about how people need to get the stone and all of these
    horrible the political punishments and all that kind of stuff and they're not wrong because that's what they're saying
    and then you know
    Because those are the the little areas that they're in
    People are starting I think and I think this is actually like a vaguely hopeful thing
    This will be my sort of positive end cap to this whole thing but I think it's vaguely hopeful that I've got people and both of these domains
    Now kind of mentioning like they're shocked by the disparity of how people are reacting and they're sort of
    Getting a crack into that algorithmic with those bubbles that they're in and starting to see like oh, maybe there's something else going on here
    And it's not it's not about him so much like it's funny that it appears that the guy that did
    Shoot him was probably actually just like even more extreme and right wing
    Then him and probably didn't think that he was barren off
    You know, and then but people blamed him or people blamed your other leftists
    Especially at the beginning and they're like oh, we have to political violence is wrong and all of this stuff as though as though war is not political violence as though
    Police brutality is not political violence as though you know structural racism
    Is not political violence
    You know this plenty of political violence that the country was founded on political violence like I
    This is a this is a thing that just strikes me as bizarre but like
    When I went to public school I swear every fucking year
    We went over the foundational myth of the US every year
    Maybe there were a couple that we kind of skipped it, but I'm pretty sure like every year
    We at least touched on it and some years we spent a lot of time on it and
    That's all about like
    Revolution and people shooting people and all kinds is and people seem to not
    Remember that or something.

    I don't know and then you know the country is also full of

    Just racism
    It's like yeah, but between the original
    Send of the country that was being founded on a genocide on the scale of like a hundred million people that were there before
    And then also
    You know you have the racism of
    Having Black people
    Doing all the labor and being forced into servitude and yeah, you do that it's a pretty fucked up thing that the country is founded on violence
    It has violence and it's bones right
    Capitalism I would say is violence the idea that you have to work for somebody else
    And if you don't do whatever shit somebody else tells you
    They can throw you into a position where you're gonna be on the street that is violence the idea that you know
    Your health care is contingent on
    Having to do whatever somebody else says is violence it is
    You know, it's implicit violence it's not like they're actually like beating you with a stick or something like that
    But it is
    It's violence because they are doing something they're putting you into position where you're going to be her harmed and you know it
    Potentially very severely
    If you don't do
    What they're telling you to do what they're making you do
    It's as surely violence as if somebody you know, and this is the thing that I get with them
    You know, but if you look back at the mightest was cheese thing
    I talk about how you know, like statistical mass murder
    Is mass murder just because you're not
    Pointing a gun at people and pulling the trigger
    If you make a policy decision that kills millions of people
    That's still murder that's still like you've killed millions of people
    I don't care what the mode of action is but if you do something like that if you
    Spread lies that kill people like RFK junior and he's back junior
    Or wake field there are all of these other people you were a murderer as
    Surely as if you pointed a gun at people and killed them and you're also a mass maemer as
    Surely as if you chopped off people's legs and you know again shot them and caused all kinds of problems
    And it's weird to me that we don't see those as equivalent
    But we don't
    So anyway
    This algorithmic Balkanization I think I hope people are starting to at least catch a little drift though
    Starting to maybe realize that there's a little bit of
    Pro wrestling going on.

    There's maybe

    Maybe
    I don't follow for wrestling so I don't know to characters from it, but maybe the two
    That is the good is that you think of that you know the ones that you follow and the their opponents
    Maybe they're actually friends
    Maybe they're actually getting along maybe they're actually like when you're not looking at them laughing at you for falling for their shit
    Maybe they're drinking together.

    Maybe they're having dinner together

    Maybe they're very very chummy.

    Maybe they're being paid by the same people.

    Yeah, maybe it's pro wrestling

    Just just think about that and I think it's one of those things where if you start thinking about it and you start looking at it
    I know obvious it's kind of again like the magic trick where if somebody tells you how it's done
    And especially if it's not done very artfully and these guys
    They're not hiding it.

    They're not even trying to hide it is the most it's one of the reasons why I'm losing my mind with people because it's so obvious

    Once you see it
    They're they don't care enough
    To to lie to you well.

    They don't care enough to make it hard to see

    It's just frustrating and so anyway
    I wish I wish people would see it and I hope by listening to this maybe it will help you see some of that stuff
    I'm gonna I've got a lot of this was kind of extent branious and
    Sort of broad
    scattered shot of stuff
    I have a lot of things that I mentioned in here and some things that I didn't mention but I wanted to
    But I forgot about that I'm gonna talk about in more depth later on
    So
    I don't want it to be like the theme the theme of tangents is just me talking about this stuff
    But it's gonna be something that
    For a little while I'll at least be
    I'll probably always come back to it unless I feel like somehow magically the problem is solved which I don't I don't think I think for
    I think we're a ways from solving the problem
    Unfortunately so it'll be a subject that I think about and talk about for a while
    But I don't want it to be everything but it will be something
    So with that as always thank you for listening and
    Especially actually thanks to my two friends who
    Really prompted this episode and prompted some thoughts and kind of
    I really will say gave me a wink of hope
    Just well not not just
    Then but like between them and some other people that I've seen
    Starting to go like what's going on here like maybe maybe there's something else
    I hope that that's the thing that prevails and not the
    Sort of you know people go and use this thing to justify doing horrible shit
    Maybe we can learn maybe we could do something better and maybe we can start
    Noticing what's actually going on and maybe we can start getting together and realizing
    There are there are a lot of things that we're getting fucked out of this is this is one thing incidentally
    This will be my actual indicate so this will be about an hour and a half but
    Going out of the country and seeing how things can be a little bit and seeing what it's like to live in a country
    Where you do have public transit and where you do have universal health care of some sort
    And
    Understanding that you know things don't need to be the way are there they are and not only that
    But you know like just because other countries are doing stuff that's better
    Doing some other stuff that's worse.

    You can take the best you can make the world but you want it to be and

    We could very easily for not even all of the money that we spend waste on defense
    We could have universal health care.

    We could have universal college

    We could have cities that are walkable and at public transit and have high speed rail between them
    We could do so much better and
    We should we should do so much better.

    We deserve it.

    We're getting fucked over

    And it doesn't need to be that way and it'd be nice to do you know
    It'd be nice to start figuring this shit out and start actually
    Maybe changing things
    But that's that's the last I want to say so as ever
    Thank you for listening
    Thanks for talking and

    再见

    1 hr 30 min
  • Swiss Cheese

    Source: Ian M. Mackay (virologydownunder.com) and James T Reason. Illustration: Rose Wong.

    Episode Transcript

    Hey there, I'm Scott and this is Tangents.

    It is the fifth of Subtemper Holy Shit, 2025.

    I'm recording this 1342, not that you need to know that,

    but this is my last day in Bangkok, this trip.

    I'm flying back to the Tokyo tomorrow.

    Well tomorrow evening.

    I've got to tell you, I feel so, I know I'm repeating myself here a little bit,

    but I just love not being in the US.

    Don't get me wrong, obviously.

    I'm not getting the same experience as if I actually lived here to be fair.

    And also, you know, not perfect.

    Like I could come up with a thousand criticisms of Bangkok.

    One of them certainly is that there are so many,

    and this is also an Apple Maps criticism, so it's not exactly fair,
    but partially fair.

    You can go down a street here, and I really like walking.

    And I don't want to walk and backtrack down the same street over and over again.

    But if you go down a street here and you're not careful,

    it will dead end.

    You'll go down something and you'll think you're going to get around.

    And then it just dead ends.

    And Apple Maps will even show you that you can do it.

    And you'll follow that, and then you'll get to a point,

    and you just can't go any further.

    You have to backtrack 15 minutes to get back to wherever the fuck you were.

    So it means that you're doing a lot of backtracking,

    and you're not really doing loops, or you do big loops.

    Either way, not my favorite thing.

    And you know, I mean, I could just go on, but I won't.

    I really like it.

    I like that I am a five-minute walk.

    Literally like I'm looking out of my window in my hotel,

    and I can see the MRT station,
    one of the two metros that they have here.

    It's awesome.

    It's fucking awesome.

    It's so much cheaper.

    Like if you look at, I was at a organic grocery store yesterday.

    And it's just mind blowing.

    How fucking cheap produces, for example.

    But in the US, I, this was something I noticed when I was in Paris.

    So this is not a new thing, although it's gotten much worse.

    But when I lived in Paris, it was actually cheaper

    to get food at the grocery store, significantly,
    and then to make it, and you to home.

    In the US, I've tried that, and I've tried,

    like I've really worked on figuring out how to economize,
    and vaguely healthier, and all this kind of stuff.

    And it's hard, it's fucking hard.

    You can do it, don't give me wrong.

    And there are things you can do to, to save a little bit of money

    by cooking at home, especially if you could be batches,
    and you could for a few people, and this kind of stuff.

    But for the most part, especially if you're just a single person

    cooking for yourself, which a lot of people are,
    because we don't have a good culture community.

    If you're that, it kind of ends up being at least a wash

    getting food out.

    And the food that you're getting out is not going to be good for you.

    And then that also saves you from cooking, which is a pain in the ass,

    and all this kind of stuff.

    I don't give you wrong, like I enjoyed making my pizzas.

    Every once, once a week for a long time,

    I was making pizzas when I lived in Arizona for about a year.

    And it was a little delight.

    It made my Saturdays kind of special.

    It was a thing that I looked forward to.

    It was like a little tradition that I had for myself.

    Really liked it, but it was not cheap.

    It was not really now, of course, pizza used to be super cheap,

    and here it's still cheap.

    But they're going out for pizza would have been ridiculously expensive

    in many cases.

    And anyway, I don't want to talk too much about this,

    but it's just fucking, that's wild.

    Anyway, what I do want to talk about is getting onto the subject.

    I don't, not going to give you a 20 minute introduction,

    like 45 minute introduction, like last time.

    I guess I should say, next week,

    I have a friend coming to Japan,
    and we'll be kind of showing her around a little bit
    and traveling with her, so,
    won't be making one of these until about Sunday,
    which means that you will not get another one of these probably
    until after the 15th or theirabouts.

    We'll see, there's some small possibility.

    I also could record another one tomorrow if I'm inspired,

    but probably be about a week, not a big deal.

    Anyway, there are a bunch of articles,

    and obviously, I've talked about this,
    but we have a friend and family group chat,
    and my mom likes to share,
    well, we all kind of share articles,
    but my mom was really most responsible for that show we say.

    And, you know, today shared one that Florida

    is no longer going to require vaccines,
    like childhood vaccines.

    And, it's just,

    so we have anti-vaccine here, RFK Junior,
    in charge of health and human services.

    We have this ridiculous,

    just fucking Joker clown,
    who's the surgeon general of Florida,
    and I just read another article,
    literally between the time I stopped making my notes,
    and started recording this,
    Georgia is not going to even offer
    the updated COVID vaccines for the fall,
    which, because of the guidance,
    is unclear,
    the situation in disposition is confusing.

    We said, simply, right now there is a giant wave going on.

    So, that's perfect.

    And also, like, I really,

    this is not getting into the stuff
    that I want to talk about specifically,
    but I do want to say,
    even ignoring long COVID,
    and you don't have to look at just people like physics girl,
    although you should look at physics girl,
    if you don't know who she is.

    She has had her life fucking destroyed,

    by this stuff.

    But there are plenty of people who,

    it's just,
    like, even if it doesn't go to that extreme,
    it has very serious long-term sequela for a lot of people.

    It's a systematic infection,

    by which I mean, the infects.

    It's not just like a respiratory infection,

    it infects your circulatory system,
    it infects neurons,
    so it does brain damage,
    that's why you can't smell,
    why you lose some of the sense of smell and taste.

    It does cardiovascular damage.

    It does a lot of organ damage.

    It's not good for you in a lot of ways.

    It's also immune-modulating and immune-vasive,

    which means that it causes a lot of secondary immunological issues,
    which could be auto-emunity,
    or it could be immune dysregulation,
    because it's an nervous dysregulation.

    A lot of stuff that you don't want.

    You know,

    that stuff ignore all that, right?
    Most people who get these infections,
    they're getting infected by it,
    and they're just true.

    There are lots of people who get asymptomatic infections,

    or brief infections,
    but a lot of people get, like,
    multi-week feel-like shit,
    really terrible disease states
    from getting infected from this stuff.

    And I don't know about you.

    I know I'm fucking weird here, I guess,

    but it's weird to me that this is a weird thing.

    But I don't want to fucking cold.

    You know, I don't want to get sick for two or three days,

    and be mildly ill.

    I definitely, especially,

    especially given that I have asthma,
    and if I get that,
    I will very often get a horrible horse cough,
    the last, like, a month or two,
    and sounds like, you know,
    I'm in a TV ward or something.

    But I don't want that.

    I don't want to be sick.

    I definitely don't want to get flu,

    which, you know,
    records just the flu people like to say.

    That typically has a,

    and this is an annoying thing,
    because people,
    everything has kind of flu-like symptoms,
    because the symptoms that you get
    and the signs,
    the presentation of these diseases,
    is largely due to me in response
    to having a viral infection.

    And so, like, when we took, when I took viralogy,

    you know, the first time,
    every, the first time being the first class,
    not that I retook it.

    But the,

    every virus that we would cover,
    the infected people,
    would have flu-like symptoms,
    and the acute phase.

    HIV, flu-like symptoms,

    influenza, flu-like symptoms, that's where,
    you know,
    rhino viruses.

    Did you just go through the list,

    most terrestrial viruses,
    almost everything, flu-like symptoms.

    And then something else,

    maybe later on.

    But that was,

    that's just the thing.

    And then people don't test,

    and people are very poorly educated on this.

    And I,

    I'm not blaming them for this.

    Obviously, you don't know what you don't know.

    And how would you know?

    But people kind of call everything the flu,
    and they think that the flu is not a big deal.

    If you actually get the flu,

    if you actually get it,
    you will probably not be happy.

    You get, like,

    very sick for a couple of weeks.

    Typically, like,

    14 days is the normal course.

    It'll be gastrointestinal involvement.

    So it's not just that you have muscular aches,

    and joints hurt.

    You get a fever,

    respiratory stuff,
    diarrhea,
    nausea.

    It's just that you will feel like shit.

    You will not be happy.

    It's kind of a big deal.

    It's much more than just a cold.

    And of course,

    even just a cold.

    Things are more complicated than the acute phase presentation.

    And just the cold could be any of

    who knows how many different kinds of viruses.

    It's not like people kind of think of rhino viruses

    as the cold,
    but there are so many,
    so many different viruses
    that have cold-like presentation.

    And then also,

    there are many viruses that are very well adapted
    that have completely asymptomatic,
    or maybe they have some kind of a sign or something,
    but you normally wouldn't notice it.

    And most people are not tuned in and off the notice it.

    And so you're not taking tests.

    You're not,

    which is an annoying thing that we don't do that.

    It should just be standard.

    And there are countries where they have rapid tests

    that they send to people that include things like RSV
    and influenza and COVID.

    And then you can get sick,

    and then you take the test,
    and then you kind of know what you have,
    and then you know what to do.

    To some extent.

    Not that the treatment or the responses

    necessarily that different for different things.

    But, you know,

    if you have influenza and you get it early enough,
    you could take actually Tamiflu or something
    and,
    do you better if you get COVID,
    you can take,
    I brain is completely blanking.

    Oh, this is embarrassing.

    I'm not even going to be able to say,

    tax-loaded.

    And there are other things as well,

    but you know,
    that's something you could do.

    And, you know,

    so on and so forth.

    And that kind of stuff is useful.

    It's also useful,

    epidemiologically,
    because the way that these things are transmitted
    is kind of similar,
    but it's not the same,
    and how infectious they are is very different.

    Like,

    Flu is much less infectious than COVID.

    COVID is very contagious.

    Anyway,

    this is not the point of what I want to talk about here.

    But just,

    kind of,
    setting the stage a little bit.

    And anyway,

    as Antibax Junior and the Surgeon General of Florida
    and Georgia and all of these things are happening,
    I think it's worth talking about public health.

    Now,

    the,
    I'm afraid,
    end of the era of sort of vaccination,
    at least,
    I say,
    and, you know,
    I do think it will come back,
    and,
    although there are some dangers that,
    if you go from a population that's largely vaccinated
    to one that's not for a while,
    you're basically allowing rapid expansion of a bunch of diseases
    and things mutate,
    and you have an area of a vaccinated population
    that they're being challenged with,
    you might be selecting for a vaccine occasion,
    or,
    yeah,
    which is bad.

    I don't know if you know that that's bad.

    It might mean that you have to change the vaccines,

    at least,
    or it might mean that you can no longer vaccinate effectively,
    or it's not as effective,
    which is bad.

    That is not,

    it's not like you can just stop for a while
    and then face the consequences
    and then start again.

    If you're lucky you can,

    and certainly you should try.

    But there could be very serious long-term consequences

    from stopping this stuff.

    It's not a good situation.

    And that,

    you know,
    still would be better than not doing it.

    But you know,

    it's something where you really desperately want
    to vaccinate as much of the population as possible
    until you eradicate stuff,
    which you can do.

    So anyway,

    and I don't want to talk about Wakefield
    and Jenny McCarthy.

    And all the others,

    that there was a whole long list of people
    who got us here.

    And I,

    you know,
    they've undermined trust both in vaccinations,
    they've spread disinformation,
    and public health has been undermined by them.

    They've made people not understand

    how vaccines work.

    They've done,

    they've done a lot of harm.

    But I don't want to,

    to talk about that.

    Many others have.

    And I probably,

    I don't know that I have much to had.

    B, I probably couldn't do it justice.

    And see,

    that's not really what I want to talk about.

    I want to talk about stuff that maybe

    fewer people are talking about.

    You can find that kind of,

    that this other stuff on Wakefield and McCarthy
    pretty easily on your own.

    I hope,

    although don't find,
    don't find ridiculous
    quackery for that,
    find actual good stuff.

    I hope.

    I just had a,

    like,
    minor,
    I just want to say,
    seizure,
    like thinking about,
    the whole,
    like,
    do your own research thing.

    Part of,

    one thing that this is just an aside of an aside.

    But one thing that I think is very important

    to understand when you talk about
    airports through your own research
    is like,
    when you go through the process of becoming a domain expert,
    going to undergrad and then grad school,
    getting a master's or a PhD in a subject,
    one of the things you do,
    so one of the things you do is just learning how to do research.

    That's,

    that's a very important thing.

    And you're not just born knowing how to do research.

    Another thing you do is learning how to put things into context,

    contextualizing stuff.

    So,

    like,
    it's not like you just pull five articles and the articles tell you something.

    That's not how science works.

    You have to understand sort of what is the preponderance of the evidence,

    and look at many different articles,
    and put everything together and see
    how do these pieces fit into the puzzle?
    What is the context of this?
    What does this mean?
    What does this article mean?
    Is this article in total disagreement
    with everything that everybody else thinks?
    And if so,
    is the reasonable thing that it's real,
    or is it dubious?
    And all of that kind of stuff is stuff that you're not getting,
    if you're just,
    like,
    equates to doing the research on your own.

    You have to develop that.

    It takes a lot.

    And it's also something I think,

    like,
    being an auto-direct.

    It's good.

    Don't give me wrong.

    I like teaching myself stuff.

    I like learning stuff on my own.

    But not having a teacher,

    or at least sort of a mentor or a guide,
    helping you out,
    helping you understand how to do this stuff.

    You're going to fuck up.

    You're going to misunderstand stuff.

    You're going to misinterpret stuff.

    And it goes to this thing that I get all the time,

    especially,
    you know,
    I was going to say Twitter,
    I've been with on Twitter in a long time,
    but on blue sky,
    or Facebook,
    or just talking to people.

    And they're like,

    show me the,
    show me the proof.

    Show me the,

    the one article that tells me this.

    And the problem is,

    that is fundamentally misunderstanding
    how that works.

    There's no one article

    that just tells you X.

    All the things I'm going to be,

    talking about here too.

    These are things that have,

    like,
    when I speak about stuff,
    especially here,
    I'm speaking about stuff that I know,
    very well.

    And I've spent a lot of time

    and effort understanding it
    and building this context for it.

    But it's not like I can just point you to a single source,

    and you'll get it.

    It is something where you have to do a lot of work

    to understand all these pieces and put them all together.

    I feel like it conspiracy theory,

    guy talking about that.

    It is just like basically how research works,

    and how,
    you know,
    it's part of scientific epistemology,
    which is,
    we know what things are.

    We know,

    you know,
    successive approximations of reality,
    based on continually sort of testing things,
    and getting refinements,
    and seeing little bits of evidence,
    and putting them all together.

    It's not like one thing tells you anything.

    And in fact,

    if there was a case where you're like,
    oh,
    this one article says this,
    you're fully fucking in it,
    because you can find,
    they might not be the dominant thing.

    You might,

    you know,
    they might be rare,
    but you can find articles talking about all kinds of nonsense,
    and even in good journals.

    And there's plenty of examples of that,

    which is not to say that every article
    in a good journal is bad.

    It's just you have to look at the,

    again,
    I keep using the word,
    but preponderance of evidence,
    and the context,
    and put everything together like that.

    It's,

    it's not like,
    I can just say,
    you know,
    this is,
    here's your,
    you know,
    just look at this summary,
    or even a review article.

    I can't send you to you,

    like this is a review article,
    and look at that,
    and now you'll know.

    Like,

    I can tell you that I've done a lot of work.

    I've looked at a lot of stuff,

    but I can't really just,
    you know,
    without having you do the work,
    you can't really convey that.

    It's one of these problems with expertise,

    and I think,
    people don't understand how expertise works.

    It's a,

    it's a fundamental problem.

    And there's definitely this issue

    that people have where people think,
    or people used to think,
    this sort of,
    I don't know,
    but you call it,
    appeal to authority.

    Was a thing.

    Like,

    you know,
    at one point it was like a priesthood,
    but in science,
    you know,
    it's like,
    oh,
    I have these credentials,
    and I'm an expert in this,
    and so you should trust me,
    because you should trust me.

    That's not,

    that's not how it works.

    And I want to be very careful and clear

    that I'm not asking you to do that.

    Although,

    I normally don't like talking about my background,
    specifically because of what I just said,
    but I do want you to understand
    that being an expert actually means something,
    and it means that,
    you know,
    I have spent many years of my life
    studying a subject,
    and I,
    you know, have looked,
    not just like a couple things,
    but a lot of stuff
    from a lot of different people
    over a long period of time,
    and I've gotten pieces,
    you know,
    and some of those stuff I'm going to talk about today,
    I have studied in,
    and it just,
    just like one of the things,
    actually,
    I'll get to this later.

    I don't want to stop on it too much,

    but I'm going to talk about the,
    the way that genes are encoded in DNA,
    and then translate it,
    transcribed rather to RNA,
    and then expressed as proteins.

    I have studied that in high school,

    several times in different classes,
    then in undergrad in genetics,
    in microbiology,
    in immunology,
    and in biology,
    and you could just go down the list.

    I studied it many, many times,

    and every time you get more layers,
    and you start learning more nuances about it,
    and you start getting a better,
    and better understanding of it.

    I'm going to cover in very broad strokes

    at a very high level,
    some of that today.

    And when I do that,

    you might feel like you know,
    something about it,
    or you might find something
    that's kind of,
    well,
    Scott said this,
    but the actual thing is this.

    I'm giving you the sort of sketch,

    high level sketch of it.

    There are details,

    there are nuances,
    there are things like,
    not everything in your genome,
    not everything in your DNA,
    is coding for proteins,
    for example.

    There are a lot of nuances there,

    and then there are edits after transcription
    and translation,
    and there are,
    all of these,
    all of these things that happen,
    modifications,
    and there's a lot of detail there.

    Like,

    you could spend many years studying that,
    and you would just kind of get
    closer and closer to understanding it.

    But no better,

    who you are,
    no matter how much time you spend on a subject,
    you don't know that much about it.

    And I would say,

    one of the measures of expertise,
    and actually going through an earning expertise,
    is you kind of understand
    how much you don't understand,
    much more than people who are just like,
    brushed on a subject.

    Like you brush on it,

    and it's like,
    oh, that's really simple.

    And then you start studying,

    and you get more and more nuance,
    and more in detail,
    and you're like,
    wow, this is actually really fucking complicated.

    And, you know,

    it just unfolds very quickly.

    That's not to say also,

    like there are plenty of experts,
    and I get really fucking annoyed with these people.

    But these are people like,

    for some reason,
    Neil deGrest Tyson is really in my head,
    Brian Cox.

    He's not as bad,

    but he's pretty bad.

    What the fuck is that guy's name?

    Dawkins.

    He's like the archetype of this kind of person.

    Good cow,

    is a good example of this.

    These are people who are definitely Paul Davies,

    perfect example.

    These are people who are definitely experts in a domain.

    There are people who,

    you know,
    they have credentials,
    they have done some work,
    and they know a lot about some particular subject,
    or at least they at one point in time.

    When you have a PhD with a thing,

    the way to look at that in some senses,
    you are the world expert on some tiny,
    little,
    minutious thing,
    just at the moment that you do your dissertation.

    As soon as you do that,

    other people,
    as soon as you publish,
    other people will start going beyond what you know,
    but at that moment when you're defending,
    in principle at least,
    you're the world expert on that handy little thing.

    And all of the people that I mentioned have PhDs,

    and they've all been world experts on something.

    But like,

    Kakao is a very good particle,
    field theory for physicists,
    but then he talks about weird stuff that's completely unrelated to that.

    Yeah,

    NDT is a really bad one,
    like he just goes out,
    and all these people also have this,
    it's not just the professorial tone,
    but they have a cadence and a way of speaking,
    that really conveys the impression of deep understanding,
    and authority,
    and then they can speak on these other subjects,
    which they know very little,
    to nothing about,
    and they sound like they know what the fuck they're talking about.

    And this is a massive problem.

    Like even if you get outside of,

    like,
    just to use Dawkins, for example,
    he was a world expert at one point in time
    on certain aspects of evolutionary biology.

    There are plenty of evolutionary biology,

    as a huge field.

    This is relevant actually,

    because my last job,
    I was a researcher in evolutionary biology.

    So I know a little bit about this subject,

    a research scientist,
    and I worked with my advisor,
    had some disagreements with him,
    but he's considered widely in the field
    to be one of the leading experts in the domain.

    But all these people,

    who know something about something,
    don't know everything,
    even about that subject,
    and certainly don't know anything,
    necessarily,
    about subjects that are not close to their domain of expertise.

    That is very important.

    That being said,

    and this is where I give you my brief CV,
    a half hour end,
    I guess 26 minutes.

    So I have an undergrad degree in microbiology.

    I have another one in mathematics that I have concurrently.

    Almost got one in anthropology.

    Those two don't matter.

    But I took a lot of classes.

    Suffice it the same.

    I did that in four years,

    ended up with 170 to 174 credit hours,
    and a lot of classes.

    I was like five or six classes every semester.

    Took some summer semesters.

    I did a lot in that.

    And I mentioned it before,

    but in my microbiology,
    I took virology.

    It was like a 400 slash 500 level course.

    It was my first virology course.

    I took immunology.

    I think I took advanced immunology.

    I can't remember if I did that after undergrad,

    or if it was before,
    I finished.

    I think I did both.

    But either we have taken advanced immunology as well.

    And I've taken a couple other immunology courses.

    I have taken epidemiology at like the 400 level.

    So I'm getting into my master's degree in microbiology,

    which incidentally just throwing this out here.

    But I stopped before doing the research.

    So I did not have a PhD in the subject.

    But I took all the coursework.

    I've got the background that I would have had

    if I had a PhD in the subject.

    The only difference is,

    and this is not an insignificant difference.

    Many women says they're PhD ABD.

    All the dissertation are all but done.

    They're full of shit.

    They don't have a PhD.

    That's what that means.

    But they definitely,

    if they actually have done the master's work,
    they've taken the coursework,
    and they have the background that a PhD would have.

    Doesn't mean that they're an expert or that they've actually worked on

    specific research in a specific subdomain of that subject.

    And they've that published or gone through the defense process

    and all of that kind of stuff.

    But they still have some decent amount of background in it.

    Anyway, that's just an aside.

    I get annoyed when people say that I haven't seen that as much anymore,

    but I used to see it.

    Maybe it was because I was a grad student at one point in time.

    And then I was never a postdoc,

    but after I got a PhD,
    I'd see a lot of people saying that and it just created on me.

    It was getting a PhD as a giant fucking pain in the ass.

    But anyway, all of that being said,

    did the masters, and I took the coursework that I would have had,
    if I had a PhD.

    And my specialties, there were virology,

    a couple virology courses as a graduate student,
    and then in the analogy,
    took a couple of those,
    and then I took undergrad, well,
    undergrad, upper division level,
    so like four hundredish level,
    infectious disease, microbiology,
    epidemiology, took them at the grad level as well.

    Which incidentally, and I'm going to talk a little bit about epidemiology here,

    but I want to say one of the big takeaways that I've had
    from studying a bit of epidemiology,
    is that it is a very fraught subject,
    and it's extraordinarily easy
    to misunderstand things,
    or over-generalize something,
    or to be very slippery on,
    especially when you deal with statistics and how to understand stuff,
    or, you know,
    and then you start getting into causation,
    versus correlation,
    and it's just, it's fraught.

    It taught me not to get too deep into that subject,

    when I'm talking about stuff,
    because you're, you're gonna,
    the stuff that I'm going to talk about today,
    is like confidence stuff,
    but there's a lot of stuff that you can get into with epidemiology,
    that is just totally, like you're going to step in it.

    And it's one of the most annoying things,

    when you've got that bit of understanding,
    and then you start seeing people who are not domain experts in it,
    and you've never taken up an epidemiology course,
    and it just like read some bullshit Wikipedia article or something,
    and they feel like and present themselves,
    as though they know anything about epidemiology,
    it's really fucking annoying,
    and they're very, they're very certainly wrong.

    But anyway,

    I've done that, I taught infectious,
    like 400 level infectious disease microbiology,
    but I was one of the instructors.

    I've taught a bunch of introductory microbiology courses,

    and then my PhD is in physics,
    and in physics,
    I've done a lot of math modeling,
    which includes things like transmission,
    basically the stuff that you would do,
    in statistical mechanics,
    but part of the stuff that we did there
    would be the kinds of stuff that you would do
    for epidemiological modeling.

    And I've done a lot of,

    like calculus and differential equations,
    which also gets into things like
    such as the infected air infectious
    and removed population models,
    and more complicated models than that
    for epidemiological modeling.

    So I have a little bit of background.

    I'm not claiming to be the biggest expert in the world

    on these subjects,
    but I can speak with some authority on this,
    and when I say that,
    I also don't mean,
    like, oh, just trust me, bro.

    I mean, like,

    what I'm saying here is actually correct.

    Or at least two,

    yeah.

    Nothing is perfectly correct.

    Nothing is completely true,

    but to a pretty high degree of confidence,
    I'm not gonna say stuff that is dubious or sketchy.

    So just laying that stuff out there.

    And basically,

    what I want to start with is,
    and I put,
    I normally don't put a lot in the,
    the episode images,
    but here I'm putting something that is an image
    that was from Ian McKay,
    who has a site called the virology down under,
    and this was made by Rose Wong,
    and it's not the only,
    like, picture of this.

    There are many different figures like this,

    but I really like this one,
    and I could have made my own,
    I could have done this,
    but I'm hoping that that attribution
    is sufficient here,
    and I'm picking this one,
    A because it was very popular at one point in time,
    although,
    it's pressingly,
    people seem to have completely forgotten about it,
    and partially,
    not due to their own fault.

    It's partially due to a large,

    sort of,
    large scale effort that's been by partisan
    to really,
    really mislead people on this subject.

    But this,

    and this is kind of tailored toward,
    infectious disease for an airborne respiratory virus.

    It's not specifically exactly COVID,

    although it's obviously was made for COVID,
    but it's also relevant for other diseases.

    And so I think it's,

    it's good to talk,
    and like,
    I'm going to talk about it in sort of broader strokes,
    and then occasionally,
    like, come back and forth between other diseases,
    and COVID,
    specifically SARS-CoV-2.

    I'm going to be sloppy,

    just to preface this,
    with like,
    the SARS-CoV-2 versus COVID,
    down in the literature.

    I'm sorry about that.

    It's just,

    it's a little bit of laziness,
    and it's also just being out of practice.

    But,

    anyway,
    the thing that this shows that I really like
    is it has personal responsibilities on one half,
    and then it has shared responsibilities.

    And again,

    I do want to say,
    I'm not like 100% aligned with everything that's here exactly,
    but I like it on a general,
    you know, broad strokes level.

    And I think an important thing to understand,

    especially with public health.

    This is,

    it's one of the most frustrating things for me.

    Public health is public health.

    It is not like individual,

    you do these things to protect yourself.

    It is,

    we do these things together to protect all of us.

    And like,

    the perfect example of this,
    incidentally,
    I was going to talk about this later,
    but this is,
    this is useful here,
    it's herd immunity.

    And herd immunity is,

    and I'll get to have vaccines working all that stuff later,
    but the herd immunity is a big part of how vaccines work.

    And how,

    and why we say,
    you don't vaccinate individuals,
    you vaccinate populations.

    Vaccines are not magical,

    personal shields that protect you from getting sick,
    but what they do,
    what they are,
    and the reason that we use them,
    the real reason that we use them,
    and the real reason that Florida
    turning off the mandates for vaccines is horrible,
    is that they protect us as a society collectively.

    You do get protected by being vaccinated,

    don't get me wrong,
    but not everybody,
    not every vaccine and every person
    elicits protective immunity.

    And it might,

    you know,
    it's a statistical thing,
    it might work for you,
    it might not,
    probably is,
    but really effective vaccines
    might only be effective,
    80%,
    even 90% of the time.

    Sometimes you can have a vaccine,

    it's only effective,
    like 70% of the time.

    And if you vaccinate enough people,

    and it's not contagious enough,
    and you do other measures,
    that can be enough to basically knock a disease
    into oblivion,
    or essentially so.

    So herd immunity is this idea

    that even if you are not effectively protected
    from something by a vaccination yourself,
    people around you are vaccinated,
    and so they're no longer able
    to give you something,
    because they're not,
    yeah,
    they're not going to be carriers
    that are transmitting stuff.

    This is the idea,

    there are there are details here,
    and again,
    I can hear people saying,
    extra details,
    and you know,
    please go with me
    that the broad strokes here are correct.

    There are nuances and details,

    obviously.

    But basically,

    you have a vaccine that protects you,
    not by protecting you directly,
    but by keeping people around you
    from getting you infected,
    which means that people who have
    actual reasons not to be
    able to be effectively vaccinated,
    like immune deficiencies,
    or serious autoimmune disorders,
    they get protected by
    enough of the population being vaccinated.

    And then,

    even if somehow you happen to get sick,
    because everybody is around you as vaccinated,
    and especially if they have
    vaccine or like vaccine raised immunity,
    that protects them,
    they don't get sick,
    and then they don't transmit it to other people.

    So you can't propagate through the population.

    And depending,

    like the details of how many people,
    like what fraction of the population
    has to be vaccinated in order for this to work,
    it varies,
    depending on like how infectious things are.

    Some things are extremely,

    COVID is a good one,
    is extremely, extremely of infectious.

    You can,

    one person who gets infected
    is infecting a lot of people,
    and you don't have to have a very long exposure
    to them to get infected.

    There are other things like flu,

    that it's pretty infectious.

    It's like,

    you're going to give it to a couple
    three people or so,
    on average,
    but it's not like,
    super infectious.

    You need longer exposure time,

    and you know,
    it's,
    and then there are things like,
    a good one is leprosy,
    or tuberculosis,
    that they're pretty infectious as well,
    but much less so.

    And it takes a lot of long term kind of close contact

    to really get something.

    And all of these things are statistical too.

    So you could be in a room with somebody

    who's shedding COVID,
    or shedding COVID variants,
    just for a long time,
    and I could sick,
    and you could,
    you know,
    or you could be just passing by somebody,
    who has tuberculosis,
    and you get really unlucky,
    and then you get tuberculosis.

    That's the,

    the average sort of expected things
    are sort of what I'm talking about here.

    And so those,

    like that herd immunity is why we vaccinate.

    It's also,

    in some sense,
    why things like improving indoor air quality
    is so important.

    You're not doing that to protect individuals,

    necessarily,
    although it does protect individuals,
    but improving ventilation,
    improving filtration,
    making sure that you're not just
    recirculating and ensuring infectious particles.

    That keeps disease from propagating,

    and by preventing it from propagating,
    you are able to stop it,
    or at least slow it down significantly.

    And if you,

    and this is one of these things,
    if you do enough of these things,
    so that one infectious person,
    doesn't infect more people than
    the replacement on average,
    then things will fizzle out.

    And you know,

    you have exponential decay,
    and it'll just go to zero.

    It's zero.

    It's like, you know,

    things,
    especially if they're nonhuman reservoirs,
    it's very difficult to completely
    completely eradicate something,
    but you can take it down
    to essentially an negligible level.

    And if you don't do stuff like that,

    and each person who's infectious
    is infecting on average more people,
    then you get exponential growth,
    and you don't need to have too many credit cards
    to know exponential growth is really bad.

    It can,

    you know,
    one person gets two people infected,
    and then they get four,
    then eight,
    and then,
    you know,
    it's the whole kid with,
    well,
    first they give me one grain of rice,
    and then two grains of rice,
    and then by the end of the month,
    you have to,
    you know, do something horrible,
    because that's like all the rice in the kingdom.

    That's exponential growth.

    And if you adjust the multiplier there,

    you adjust whether or not
    it's going to be able to propagate in the population.

    And there are things that you can do as individual,

    and this is one area where I'm not a huge fan of this,
    of this figure,
    but I do kind of like it's still,
    there are,
    you know,
    in the personal responsibility section,
    there are things like masks,
    hand hygiene,
    cough etiquette,
    avoid touching your face.

    Some of these are more relevant to like flu,

    and other diseases,
    but they're all a good sort of universal precautions
    that everybody should be taking.

    Physical distance and staying home of your sick,

    but all of these things,
    even if they're personal responsibilities,
    there are things that we all do for each other.

    And if everybody does them,

    if, you know,
    people don't go home,
    or go to work or to school when they're sick,
    then you don't have as many people getting infected,
    and then we're all better.

    It's one of these,

    like,
    it might not directly help you on this one instance,
    but by all of us doing it,
    or most of us,
    the vast majority hopefully of us doing it,
    it's better for all of us.

    It's such a simple example of collective responsibilities,

    and why that kind of stuff is so important.

    And it's just,

    I hope that that,
    I'm not rambling too much and boring you,
    but I hope that kind of conveys a little bit about that.

    So,

    one thing in addition to herd immunity,
    that,
    that I want to kind of cover is like,
    what we should have done,
    or what we still could do even,
    to address the ongoing pandemic.

    And one of the first things that you would do is surveillance.

    And surveillance would be,

    you know,
    you test people regularly.

    I used to not like waste water testing,

    but I think it's actually a really good way to,
    to surveil things.

    The problem that I have with it is just that you don't necessarily,

    it's good at detecting relative amounts of something.

    It's good at detecting the presence or the absence of something.

    But even if you're doing quantitative PCR,

    it's difficult to understand directly,
    or to directly correlate,
    like how many people are infected,
    versus how much virus you're seeing,
    for example, and wastewater.

    It is kind of related,

    but if you have one variant that sheds much more than another variant,
    they're not really that comparable.

    If you have,

    you know,
    on average the same thing,
    and the same amount shed by each person,
    you can kind of work backwards from it.

    But even with that though,

    I do think it's actually a really useful,
    powerful tool.

    And it's something,

    especially if you're doing like,
    a large scale survey lens,
    it's easy to set up,
    doesn't cost that much.

    It's raining, it's beautiful.

    It doesn't really take that much effort.

    Like you don't have to get everybody individually

    out to a testing facility,
    and then do all that kind of stuff.

    And you can get pretty good detection,

    and rough,
    broad strokes kind of how prevalent something is.

    So that's part of surveillance.

    Testing individuals is also a part of surveillance.

    And frankly,

    this is the one I like more,
    because A,
    it tells you more immediately.

    B, it tells you exactly who has what.

    And the nice thing about this is,

    if you detect that somebody has something,
    you can do things like quarantine.

    You know,

    it's a very least,
    the very least,
    we're a fucking mask,
    and then that infect the bunch of people.

    And ideally,

    you know,
    just say home,
    while you're sick,
    that would be a nice thing to do.

    You can treat people.

    You can also,

    and this is one that just drives me wild,
    because it's built into all of our phones,
    and it's turned off.

    It should just be on by default,

    and it should be there,
    globally,
    and working together.

    It's there.

    It's not on by default.

    It's only for people in certain apps,

    for certain things,
    and it doesn't really interoperate,
    and it's just like,
    it's just irritating,
    that you have this technology,
    and you don't use it,
    and you don't have it applied well,
    or correctly.

    But contact tracing,

    with our phones,
    would let us know,
    okay,
    you were exposed to somebody
    who is sick,
    or who,
    you know,
    maybe they're not sick,
    maybe they're asymptomatic,
    but they were,
    they're shutting virus.

    And so,

    because you were exposed to them yesterday,
    you could isolate for a day or two,
    or however long it takes to incubate,
    test,
    and see,
    if you're sick,
    and then,
    and I'm using sick,
    kind of sloppily,
    like sick means infected,
    in this case.

    Doesn't necessarily mean that you're actually sick,

    but,
    you know,
    if you are infected and infectious,
    then you're not,
    you're stopping the spread.

    You're not going to be part of that chain of transmission.

    And this is,

    this is really essentially what all of the stuff is,
    because that chain of transmission,
    this is,
    this is also the main reason that I wear a mask.

    I definitely,

    like,
    I don't want to get sick.

    I don't want to,

    I don't want to get,
    either acute symptoms,
    and I don't want to get certainly long COVID.

    I don't want to get a cold,

    or any of that kind of stuff.

    But I also,

    I don't want,
    if I do get infected by something,
    I don't want to be one of the people
    that gives it to somebody.

    Who either dies themselves,

    or gives it to somebody else who dies.

    And when you think about it,

    like COVID is not like the most,
    it's not like Ebola or something.

    The mortality rate,

    or the case mortality rate,
    is low single digit percentages.

    But when you think about,

    like how many people,
    like because it's so infectious,
    every time you get sick,
    you're infecting,
    well,
    like 15,
    20 people.

    And each one of them,

    on average,
    15 or 20 people.

    And so you go a couple of hops out.

    And now if the case mortality rate

    is like one or two percent,
    two hops out.

    So you infect some people

    who infect other people.

    You're killing at least a,

    not just one person,
    but you're killing a few people,
    who would have survived
    if you stopped the chain of transmission.

    In addition to just,

    you know,
    that is continuing the path of exponential growth,
    versus stopping it.

    So that's,

    that's one of the,
    is one of the things that just really gets to me,
    like it's such,
    again,
    a basic communal responsibility thing.

    I wish,

    I really wish,
    that wasn't that complicated to explain to people.

    And also,

    more than that,
    I wish,
    this isn't a thing that just annoys me,
    but this is something
    that should have been explained to people,
    so early on,
    and so often.

    And it's something that people just don't fucking know.

    They don't think about it.

    They don't think about the train of transmission,

    or their responsibility to other people.

    And if they did,

    I think people might have a better understanding
    of how this stuff works.

    They don't understand that you vaccinate populations,

    and not individuals.

    And this is one of the things also that I get really

    incensed,
    and I know I have,
    again,
    I'm a broken record on this,
    the Biden administration.

    And again,

    I want to talk about this very carefully,
    because I don't want you to think,
    like obviously Trump is fucking horrible,
    anti-vaccine,
    as fucking horrible,
    these Republicans,
    doing a considerable amount of damage to public health.

    Absolutely.

    Absolutely.

    But Biden,

    and the Democrats,
    have done,
    I don't,
    again,
    in an argument that I over who did more,
    I'm not going to say that any one group
    did more than the other.

    But what I will say is that some of the stuff that Biden has done,

    and this is even a more abstract kind of thing than this,
    but when you have one group of people pushing to do something bad,
    like the Trump RFK Junior group,
    and then you have another group of people
    who are eliminating any kind of resistance
    to those people doing something bad.

    Who is more responsible?

    I don't know.

    I mean, certainly like,

    proximally,
    the people doing the bad thing.

    I'm responsible,

    but when you're completely undercutting any kind of resistance at all,
    you kind of have some responsibility there.

    I think that,

    yeah, it's a big deal.

    And it really is a team effort between these two groups,

    and in doing this together,
    they're causing an enormous amount of harm.

    And so this is going to continue on to this figure that I have,

    I don't know if you'll be able to see it very well,
    but you'll be able to see at least the stuff that matters from a high level.

    And if you have some good visual impairment,

    I'm going to describe it.

    So, yeah, don't worry about that.

    But yeah, the Swiss cheese thing on top,

    hopefully you get that,
    layers of defense, defense and depth,
    individual layers of imperfect protection,
    layered on top of each other,
    kind of cover up the holes from each other,
    and then it gives you much better protection overall.

    That's, that I think that's pretty easy to understand, I hope so.

    It's something that, as,

    this is,
    the public health is not just the policies,
    and it's not just getting people vaccinated,
    and it's not just improving air quality,
    and getting people to wash their hands,
    and getting people to wear respirators,
    especially in healthcare,
    it's also educating people.

    And teaching people about Swiss cheese is educating people.

    But one of the things Biden did,

    I'll get to these other figures in a second,
    but one of the things Biden did that I fucking despise,
    and I will never forgive him for,
    is basically convinced people to air quotes,
    Vax and relax.

    So, he told people,

    and very badly,
    misrepresented how vaccines work,
    and what they're for,
    and what they do,
    he basically told people,
    they get vaccinated,
    and now you can take off the mask.

    You can just go about your life,

    you can just be,
    and that's not how they fucking work.

    That's not how vaccines work.

    They're not magical,

    individual, personal shields.

    They do not give you perfect protection.

    They don't necessarily prevent you from

    transmitting things,
    although by decreasing the amount of virus that you're shedding,
    they do help.

    This is one of the things that I was talking about before

    when I was a kid here,
    listening and then kind of criticizing.

    You know,

    you'll get people who say,
    oh, it doesn't,
    the COVID vaccines don't pretend,
    but don't prevent transmission.

    And to some extent,

    yeah,
    but because they give you a shorter course,
    because you have some immunity,
    and you're going to be shedding less,
    they do slow it down.

    They do decrease the basic replication number,

    which is what really matters.

    And if you do that with other interventions,

    then it helps.

    It really does help.

    It's not just protecting you.

    But they don't magically stop you from getting infected.

    And they don't magically stop you from infecting other people.

    This is one layer of Swiss cheese.

    And so,

    you know,
    you have Biden,
    his wife,
    Dr. Jill,
    never been on.

    I wouldn't mind that she calls herself,

    Dr. Jill,
    if she didn't start talking about medical stuff,
    but it's when you,
    if I go to a hospital,
    and I call myself Dr. Scott,
    I think that's criminal.

    I think it's actually really deceptive.

    If I'm in a medical,

    even in this thing,
    if I'm calling myself Dr. Scott,
    but I have a PhD in physics.

    Yeah, it's a little misleading.

    It's just a little misleading.

    If he is a doctorate in education,

    not pertinent to,
    and then will be Goldberg,
    you know,
    this is one of those things,
    also like your Scott,
    what he knows that she has a doctorate.

    No, do they?

    What big Goldberg was saying,
    she should be the surgeon general.

    Like,

    that's, and as I'm picking on one example,
    but that's the kind of thing that happens
    when people call themselves Dr.

    And I don't want to take away from,

    especially like,
    I understand there's a lot of misogyny
    and, you know,
    women get a shot upon.

    I don't want to take away from

    a woman calling herself Dr.

    and all this kind of stuff.

    But when you start getting into

    domain stuff that you don't understand
    and you're not an expert in,
    like saying,
    doesn't it?
    Doesn't the air just smell
    sweeter without a mask?
    Which she did say,
    because she was telling people
    that they could vaccinate
    and relax.

    When you start doing that kind of stuff

    and you're calling yourself a doctor,
    people believe you.

    It has real consequences.

    And it's one of these things

    where I get annoyed,
    especially with the misunderstanding
    of the role of experts in expertise.

    So, just you're taking me.

    But because she and her husband

    and a bunch of other people,
    it's been like so many people
    publishing shit
    and again,
    like New York Times and Washington Post.

    And unfortunately,

    a lot of these,
    like horrible,
    pro-infectious disease doctors
    are now part of the current administration.

    It's really beautiful.

    Like these people who,

    a lot of them were from like UCSF
    medical school
    and for some reason,
    Stanford
    and that general Silicon Valley area
    and the greater area around it
    had a lot of fucking horrible people
    and a lot of them were doing a lot of harm
    Dr. Wen,
    and all the,
    I think she's from someplace over there.

    And then they were getting people

    to, you know,
    stop taking the pandemic seriously
    and take off the masks
    and all those kind of stuff.

    And the thing is also,

    like,
    I'm a respirator.

    I don't fucking like it.

    I don't enjoy that I'm doing it.

    Although,

    I will say,
    one of the things I like about being in Asia
    is I'm not fucking alone.

    Like there are other people doing it.

    It's not,

    it's definitely not as many as it was a few years ago.

    It's depressing, disappointing.

    But at least I'm not,

    you know,
    like just the only person
    in the fucking,
    or one of like two or three people
    and the entire store doing it.

    You know,

    it's,
    but Biden pushed for this idea
    that you vaccinate
    and now you don't have,
    like it was an either or thing.

    You get vaccinated or you mask.

    And the problem is it's a both thing.

    It's not an either or

    it's a this and that.

    Each one is an imperfect layer

    of protection
    and between doing these things.

    And not only doing those things

    but also like one of the things
    we absolutely should have done
    that we didn't do
    is give a shit ton of money.

    This would have helped

    the economy too,
    incidentally.

    I don't want to get into that subject.

    But it's,

    it's one of the very simple things
    we could have done
    that would have been a great
    investment in the future
    is like changing building codes
    and requiring better
    ventilation,
    better filtration,
    making standards
    for like indoor
    or quality that included
    like CO2 concentration limits
    and things like that.

    It would have been,

    it would have been very useful.

    Making things especially in

    like schools and hospitals
    and buildings where
    a lot of people are
    that require
    you know certain high
    or fairly high standards
    of filtration.

    What a what a nice

    what a been easy
    and it would have paid dividends
    and it also like
    if we got like in medical settings
    doctors and nurses
    no matter what
    just as a matter
    of universal precautions
    like you and I
    should be able to take off
    the masks if
    we're not,
    but we know we're not infected
    and prevalence
    of things that are circulating
    is very low.

    That's where the surveillance comes in.

    In those cases,

    you could do that.

    But if you're in a medical setting

    and you're
    you're a clinician,
    you're a nurse,
    you're anyone in this kind of domain,
    you should just be wearing them.

    Just like you should just be wearing

    or washing your hands all the time
    because you don't know
    what the fuck you're exposed to.

    People who get sick

    go to a hospital
    and who knows
    if they have
    you know
    the flu
    or if they have RSV
    or if they have some emerging
    airborne infectious disease
    and because people
    have just completely taken off masks
    and especially in medical settings
    where they're dealing with
    people who are immune compromised
    or like on
    infusions for cancer
    or for other things
    and their immune suppressed
    and people are not
    in the ICU units.

    People are not wearing

    fucking masks anymore
    and all that kind of stuff
    not just because of COVID
    but because of other infectious diseases
    including emerging ones
    that we might not know about yet
    you're facilitating
    the transmission of these things
    and you're making everybody
    much, much less safe
    including yourself
    and it's like a communal thing
    that also hurts you.

    It's just annoying.

    So

    the vaccine relax idea
    just irritates me
    and it
    also caused so much harm
    because
    inevitably
    what would happen
    you know vaccines
    are not perfect
    vaccines are not 100
    percent effective
    they do not convey
    magical protection
    against anything
    and so
    even though vaccines are very good
    and they work very well
    people would see
    oh Bob got vaccinated
    and still got sick
    there go
    this is the logic that they're going to use
    because they're not
    they're not had somebody
    explained to them
    which is again
    absolutely essential public health thing
    because they don't know that vaccines
    help
    and they decrease the severity of infections
    and the durations
    of infections
    and the probability of infections
    but they don't
    eliminate them
    so now people are seeing
    all the vaccines
    didn't work here
    and then they conclude
    okay vaccines are pointless
    and then they conclude
    why am I doing this
    because if you don't understand
    that they actually help a lot
    then all you see
    are the risks
    which people again
    like Wakefield
    and McCarthy
    and all these other
    assholes
    have vastly vastly
    overblown
    and
    I don't know if you heard
    that there was a
    there was thunder
    got me excited
    but
    because
    all of these people
    were vastly overblown
    the risks
    and now you see no reward
    and you see risk
    it's bad
    if you wouldn't
    if you would have
    instead said
    and again
    you can explain this
    to a fucking six year old
    vaccines
    are a layer
    of imperfect
    protection
    and
    they help
    they decrease
    the probability of infection
    they decrease
    the likelihood
    that you're going to get a severe infection
    they decrease
    probably the length of infection
    and so on
    and you explain that kind of thing
    but they're not perfect
    and they're not magical shields
    but you
    just like you wear your mask
    for other people
    you get vaccinated
    to help other people
    and if enough people are vaccinated
    then it actually helps everybody
    including you
    that's the whole fucking point of vaccines
    and
    in addition to the herd of
    immunity which I already explained
    it's fucking annoying
    that we had that opportunity
    we had the opportunity
    to improve
    ventilation and filtration
    and it basically make people
    much less likely to transmit
    not just SARS-CoV-2
    but influenza
    or RSV
    or every other airborne
    infectious disease
    we could be much more
    protective against them
    we could have built a society
    we still can't
    find you
    but we should have done this
    five years ago
    built a society
    where people
    get sick
    and then they go
    I'm not going to fucking work
    I'm not going to stay home
    because I don't want to get other people sick
    I don't remember when it was
    it's probably been like
    if I'd have been like
    2018 or something by now
    but
    years ago there was a Bureau
    of Labor Statistics
    study
    for the US
    that said that
    mandatory paid sick time
    off would save
    billions of dollars
    with a B
    a year
    just in the US alone
    because
    turns out when you're sick
    and you go to work
    you're getting other people sick
    if you work in service
    service industry or
    someplace where you're interacting with a lot of people
    you're not just getting your co-workers sick
    you're getting other people in the community sick
    who are going to get
    time off or they're going to
    get other people sick
    who
    take time off
    and use medical resources
    and
    maybe even get really severely ill
    and die
    is a possibility
    or some other kind of long-term injury
    it's fucking annoying
    so
    it's also weird
    like there are countries
    in the world
    where it's just a given
    you don't even have really sick time per se
    it's just your sick
    you stay home
    I don't want you coming to work
    and then in the US you have this thing where it's like
    you're going to go to work no matter what
    and you're going to get me sick
    you're going to get everybody else sick
    and then we're going to go to work no matter what
    just power through it
    which incidentally also means that the probability
    not only of getting other people sick
    and getting yourself sick
    but the probability of having bad outcomes
    increases
    when you overdo it
    as a general rule
    it's just not
    and the length of your sick
    area of your sick
    the length of your sick
    that's good English
    the duration of your illness
    probably goes up
    when you have more stress
    and you're pushing it
    and all of this kind of stuff
    you're not able to recover
    and convalesce
    as quickly
    it's just just worse for everybody
    all around
    and again
    it's more expensive
    for everybody including the employers
    it's one of these many cases
    where
    it's not just
    the direct
    selfish
    self-interested thing
    for companies and businesses
    is actually the thing that's nicer
    is the thing that's like
    let people take sick time off
    similarly letting people take vacation
    and have a nice decent amount of vacation
    increases productivity
    significantly
    and yet
    employers don't want to do it
    and forcing people to go physically into an office
    that you have to pay for
    it decreases productivity
    having to go through traffic
    I'm here
    and then
    and it's not quite
    rush hour now
    but you can see it's thickening up
    but during rush hour
    especially
    I was
    walking a couple days ago
    in the morning
    because I had a zoom call
    that I had to do
    and I was trying to get coffee before it
    was walking in the height of rush hour
    and
    it was just like
    bumper to bumper stopped traffic
    I'm just looking at that
    as like
    all these people
    are going to some place
    most of them don't
    need to be physically
    wherever the fuck they're going
    and they're spending so much time
    in the cars being traffic
    you know
    going painfully slow
    I'm watching a street
    like in front of me right now
    and people are going
    so slow I could walk faster
    than they are in their cars
    wouldn't want to necessarily know
    because it's raining
    although I'm going to go out soon
    because I like that
    but you know
    it's just like wild
    to me
    that we do this
    and then you waste all that energy
    being in your car
    that you're not getting paid for
    by the way
    going to work
    coming from work
    and now you're at work
    and you're going to be less productive
    and in a worse mood
    because you just
    help with all that bullshit
    that you didn't need to deal with
    and then also
    the people that do need to physically be someplace
    have to deal with your ass
    going to and from work
    adding to traffic
    but they could be
    you know
    it could be easier for everybody
    it could be better for everybody
    but anyway
    so if I know like getting back
    to this figure
    this is something that I really want to talk about
    and I just
    I
    it's one of these things that I know
    sounds like
    ridiculous
    wacky conspiracy theory kind of stuff
    this is completely real
    this is something that I'm not making up
    it's not something that I've just constructed
    I'm not like
    I'm not the guy who's got the map
    with all the string
    gets attached to each other
    and is like pulling out his hair
    and pointing it stuff
    this is a real fucking thing
    so you look at these two maps
    down on the bottom of this figure
    and again I'm going to describe them
    I started talking about this
    I think like 15 minutes
    it's going to finally getting to it now
    sorry
    there's a reason
    that the thing is called
    the digits right
    so you look at this
    and the left one
    is the CDC's
    these are both from the CDC
    these are maps
    the CDC was
    putting out
    they've stopped of course
    but they were putting out to sort of tell people
    just status of the
    the pandemic
    right
    more or less
    and the first one
    is Community Transmission
    and the US by a county
    and it had a scale
    it seems pretty natural for me
    red was high
    and in this case
    at this particular point in time
    it was 68.53%
    red
    and it had increased by 7%
    I think the previous week
    and that was
    20 or 2000
    to 108 counties
    look at the map
    it's a sea of red
    right
    and in substantial
    481 counties
    with about 15%
    14.93%
    which had gone slightly down
    from the previous cycle
    moderate is yellow
    11%
    and then low is blue
    with like 5%.

    and you look at this

    and it's all red
    a little orange
    tiny bit of yellow in the middle
    and then there are like
    a lot of blue
    just a little dots of blue
    and you look at that
    and it accurately
    conveys
    is that exactly
    telling you prevalence
    but it's a very close proxy
    for prevalence
    so prevalence would be
    if you go outside
    how many people are sick
    how many people are shedding
    how many people are infectious
    and that's important
    because
    it's like the weather
    if a lot of people are sick
    and shedding
    and infectious
    then maybe you bring
    maybe it's like it's raining
    out and you bring a raincoat
    or rain
    umbrella
    I could not think of the word
    umbrella
    said you bring your umbrella
    because
    it's raining
    right
    and then if it's not
    prevalent
    if things are not circulating
    then maybe you don't need one
    that's why this is useful
    it's also useful
    because it tells you
    if you are paying attention
    to that real-time prevalence data
    you can act accordingly
    and not necessarily where you're
    respirator every day
    but it also helps with public health
    because you can look at that
    and you can say
    well, there's a lot of prevalence
    right now in the community
    and that means that
    because
    people get infected
    and then they have like a week
    or two before they really
    start
    getting seriously sick
    you can prepare for that
    you know that it's coming
    you can see the wave
    before it crests
    that's why prevalence
    is useful
    and why
    community transmissions
    like the amount
    that it's circulating
    in the community
    was useful
    that is a real
    meaningful metric
    and it's a map
    that you look at it
    and it looks pretty bad
    and I
    until they stopped
    publishing this map
    I watched this map
    and it pretty much never
    didn't look bad
    some weeks
    it would get like
    gone
    not as bad
    like it would be
    a little bit more yellow
    or there might be bigger patches of blue
    but it's been pretty bad
    as long as they get
    putting it out
    or it was pretty bad
    and I don't think Biden liked that
    this was also like Trump didn't like it
    and one of the things Trump said
    was
    if we just stopped testing
    then it'll magically go away
    now of course it doesn't
    magically go away
    it's just you don't know
    just like it's just invisible
    but you don't know
    you don't know what you don't know
    but Trump didn't stop testing
    but Biden stopped testing
    Biden basically eliminated
    PCR testing
    so at one point in time
    we had free PCR testing
    and PCR testing is much better
    than rapid antigen testing
    I don't want to get too much into the details
    but basically the antigen testing
    you have
    antibodies that are specific
    to whatever the antigen is
    and the infectious disease
    and then those detect the hat
    and there's some kind of an indicator
    and then you get the little bar
    that tells you
    oh you're positive
    that's kind of antigen testing
    PCR you have primers
    so you have these little sequences
    and then it basically gets in
    to whatever the infectious
    or whatever the sample was
    and then it replicates
    and so you're amplifying it
    and in that amplification
    then you look for those things
    and that means that you're much
    much more sensitive
    and much more specific for that matter
    you're able to detect
    much lower levels of something
    and much more reliably
    and it's just a much better system
    it's not as fast
    it's not like you could just put it on a card
    because you have to have the thermocycle
    or thermocycle
    which is basically something
    that lets the stuff
    anneal, it's a hat
    and it's a replicate
    and then you heat it up
    to split it
    and then it replicates again
    and then you heat it up
    replicate
    and you just keep going through these cycles
    you need a device
    that precisely controls the temperature
    but that's something you can build
    pretty easily
    and pretty cheaply
    and then you need the reagents
    which are again more expensive
    than the stuff that you need
    for the rapid antigen tests
    but not that much more
    like you could do it for literally
    pennies, per test
    especially if you scale it up
    and especially if it wasn't done for profit
    it could be pennies a test
    you can also have different primers
    and different in one test
    test for multiple things
    and it would be basically
    like a system that's looking for different indicators
    and then tell you what
    what infectious diseases
    or what agents rather are present
    and what amounts
    you can do quantitative PCR as well
    that's another thing
    but it's a thing you can do
    and so you can make a test like this
    and in this one test
    very sensitively and very specifically detect
    RSB
    or flu
    or COVID
    or something new comes out
    and it's this new emerging thing
    you can't turn it on overnight
    but once you've got a sequence for it
    which we can now do very, very easily
    you can start adding that into your test
    within weeks to a month
    like almost no time at all
    it's one of the things that's amazing
    about molecular technology
    we have that ability now
    and so you can set that to PCR
    the antigen tests
    you have to raise antibodies for
    they're not...

    they're not perfect in a lot of ways

    a lot of false negatives
    you get a bunch of people that will take one test
    they get a negative and they're like oh well
    and you can get a false negative
    just because there's not good reactivity
    or because you need a lot
    of the antigen in the sample
    in order to see
    a strong positive
    and it's a much worse way of doing it
    we could have
    and we should have
    everybody at home having a thermocycler
    having like a spectrophotometer
    just like a little machine that you have at home
    and you have little kit
    those kits have all the reagents
    and then have all the indicators all that stuff
    do your test
    toss the kit into a little
    slot or something in the thing
    and then
    you know within
    an hour or whatever
    and not only do you know
    with the updated set
    of different agents
    that you're looking for
    what's there
    so you know if you have flu
    or influenza
    you know if you have flu
    or RSV
    or some rhino virus
    or COVID
    you could just tell that
    and you can also kind of tell
    like very sensitively
    when you don't like when you're not shedding it
    anymore this is one of the
    I think more important things
    so part of it is knowing when you have it
    part of it is sharing that information with people
    by wishing you like the CDC
    or some kind of an agency like that
    putting it into these prevalence
    like community transmission
    maps
    and then letting people use that as actionable
    information and then also you want to know
    when you're no longer shedding
    because as soon as you're
    if you resolve symptoms
    you might still be shedding for another week
    or two
    which means you feel good
    you go out into the community
    you start doing stuff
    and if you're not wearing a mask
    you're getting people sick
    you don't even know it
    versus you do these tests
    and the tests again are very cheap
    and you can just do them and you get them for free
    and then in that process
    you know when you're no longer shedding
    and you know when it's safe to go out
    and then
    you know just magic
    it's frustrating because it's so simple
    it's not like a complicated thing
    that
    I'm not saying like if we had flying cars
    then we could I'm not like postulating something
    that is if we had
    ten layers of technology that we don't know
    this is stuff that you could very easily do
    the day or even five or ten years ago
    and the fact that we haven't
    got it is just irritating
    it's just fucking irritating
    and so you go back to these charts
    and this is
    I'm pretty sure these are the same week
    they might be separated by a week or two
    but I think these are the same week
    and this other one
    the lower right hand corner
    is community levels in the US
    and community levels
    is a completely made up metric
    that
    it's just like it does not
    it's not a standard thing
    for epidemiology or infectious disease
    it sounds like
    the level of
    you know in fact this is really
    kind of dystopian like the name
    sounds like you're saying what
    what is the level of
    disease in the population
    like what is the prevalence
    it sounds like prevalence
    doesn't it?
    but what it actually means
    is not prevalence but it means
    well how
    crowded are the hospitals
    and is that just that
    lagging indicator?
    again because
    you don't get sick and go to the hospital
    until probably a week or two after
    you've been infecting people
    hospitals don't get crowded immediately
    they get crowded a couple weeks after
    there's a big outbreak
    and by then you know it's spread
    many, many times over
    so you're not
    it's annoying
    it's lagging indicator
    not very sensitive
    but it would have to be like an
    absolute catastrophe
    in order to get to like a
    map that is orange
    oh yeah this is another thing
    if you're not seeing it
    if you look at the left one
    high is red
    red looks bad
    you look at this one
    high is orange
    never can get red
    and again in order to get high
    you need cataclysmic
    and again it's not just hospitals
    it's a bunch of other things
    or mixed into that metric
    just
    because it's the most ridiculous
    ship
    and then they have
    on this thing
    the orange that they used for high
    not even red but the orange
    if you look at it next to the orange
    from the other map
    it looks nicer
    it looks friendlier
    the green is green
    it's not blue it's just like green
    so you have the same picture
    of the same fucking time
    and again
    I'm not 100% sure that
    these are the same day
    and time I think
    pretty sure they are but I don't have
    an exhausted set of these
    so and they're not well labeled
    I don't think there's a date
    either one of them
    but I'm pretty sure I got these
    and you can see one is red
    and looks terrible
    and one is green
    and barely has a little bit of orange around it
    and remember that in order to be orange
    things are really really bad
    so those orange spots in here
    that don't look that bad
    that's like critical
    failure of health care systems
    but that's really bad
    and so this map is set up
    the liberty to make it look like
    we solved the problem
    yeah look things are good
    we don't have to worry about it
    and it's fucking annoying
    Biden turned off testing
    he disabled the
    weird word I need to think about
    is it ableist
    he turned off basically
    the thing where we had the free
    house staff
    the free RATs
    it again the RATs are not great
    but what you should do
    and a real country
    you have unlimited
    tests
    if they have to be
    an intelligent test that can be
    ideally again PCR would be better
    but you have these tests
    and these tests are free
    you can get as many as you want or need
    and then if you have a household
    you think about this
    and somebody gets sick
    you want to test that person through the course
    and again these are not perfect to test
    so you probably test
    and even if it's negative you test again
    somebody starts comblessing
    you use those tests
    and you test a couple of times
    to see you know for me
    especially with an intelligent test
    I wouldn't consider yourself
    to not be
    shedding
    and so you get two negative tests
    spaced by 48 hours
    ideally again those would be PCR test
    but you know if you're stuck with
    just the intelligent test
    that would be something where you get two
    48 hours apart
    probably okay?
    maybe hopefully it's better
    sadly it's better than what
    most people are doing so
    what is the standard here
    but that would be a thing that you do
    and that already you know if you're getting
    four tests per household
    if you're one person like me
    and you get one scare
    four tests are
    probably not even enough for you
    along and now you have a household
    that could have four people in it
    that's one test the person
    or what if you have five people
    in one test that are you supposed to
    double up on them
    and then again you're not using one
    if somebody in the household
    gets sick you want to be testing
    all the other people in the household
    to see if they're
    infectious as soon as they get to be
    infectious and you want to be testing
    them probably every day or two
    and you can't do that with
    four tests per household
    that was a ridiculous thing
    and again also like these things
    are so cheap to manufacture
    and they could have been done
    this is one of these
    like the privatization disease
    that's probably able to
    to say too but whatever
    this thing where people think everything should be privatized
    it's such a problem
    because we had like 50 different companies
    making these tests because they were
    oh it was a nice easy way to make money
    right?
    did big government contracts
    and so you'd get these tests
    and they would have different instructions
    different
    a different protocol for each one
    the reagents weren't exactly the same
    it weren't really interchangeable
    so you'd have to learn how to take one
    and then the next time you got tests
    you'd have a different procedure
    that would not necessarily be compatible
    and it's just like so many things wrong with it
    and you have to have all the replication
    of each of these separate companies
    doing the same shit
    and different ways
    developing their tests
    manufacturing these things
    versus you could imagine
    that we just have a standardized
    like a national testing company
    and that company has
    you could even
    contract this stuff out to other people
    if you needed to, although I wouldn't like that
    but you could
    but you basically build standards
    for how we make these tests
    you build massive factories
    for making the reagents
    and setting all of this stuff up
    you make tests that are not just for one thing temporarily
    but they're like oh
    you just go and request them
    and you can get an unlimited number
    of tests that you can use for
    the code again, COVID
    and RSV and influenza and B
    and you just go with them
    go down the list
    hopefully you have like five or six things
    and maybe more
    if you have new stuff coming out
    then you add that in
    that would be nice
    so anyway going back to these two maps
    I really want you to look
    and this map on the right
    where it's like the worst is
    orange and then it goes yellow
    and green
    that is not as bad as it got
    that was like the first
    opening salvo
    changing the metric and using this
    coloring
    they also later on
    went to like for
    the wastewater testing
    literally shades of blue
    like the maps were literally
    just covered in shades of blue
    and like darker blue
    was worse and lighter blue
    it's so ridiculous
    how much
    the stuff was changed
    to confiscate stuff
    how much the metric
    was just made up to confiscate
    and not to convey
    accurate information
    how much testing
    got turned off
    how much not just testing but reporting
    and like you look at
    if you look at excess stats
    first off
    they reskilled the excess
    deaths
    based on a new baseline
    and the US
    the WHO I don't think quite
    did this
    as it was based on a bunch of
    half departments around the world
    and not everybody did it
    but in the US and the CDC
    they changed the baseline
    to a new higher baseline
    to make it look
    less bad
    and you just go through the list
    and again it sounds
    conspiratorial
    what sounds like you know you're just
    making shit up
    but that's stuff that Biden did
    and then when I emphasized
    it was Biden
    pushing his CDC director
    and he could have
    the most offensive thing
    and this is
    this is the last thing I want to talk about
    but this is kind of
    what we could have done
    and addition to
    the surveillance
    and having like a weather map
    and having like you know
    today
    you should probably go out
    and wear a respirator
    or you know maybe you don't today
    you don't need to today
    that kind of stuff
    easy stuff to do
    I want to
    talk very briefly
    about
    mRNA
    and I think this is like the mRNA
    in the room
    but if I had chapter titles on this
    I tried putting chapter titles
    in one of these
    and it didn't work
    and I'm going to add them
    at one point in the future
    but it's just like
    it's a giant pain in the ass
    already
    to make these
    and then
    extra layers of work on top of it
    and I have to build the pipeline
    to put those in properly
    I've also given up on the
    the transcript thing is a mass
    in Apple Music
    you're getting the Apple
    generated transcript
    which for some reason
    that's completely ignoring
    the transcript to that I put in
    which is
    yeah
    it's another
    but mRNA
    let's talk about that
    so I mentioned this before
    but the way that mRNA works
    mRNA is messenger
    RNA
    Rebonically a gasp
    a ribose and clay a gasp
    this is a sugar
    nucleic acid is nucleic acid
    and basically this is a way
    that we convey genetic information
    from our genomes
    from DNA
    deoxyribose nucleic acid
    and our genomes
    into proteins
    which are
    polymers of amino acids
    I'm not sure if that's going to mean anything to you
    but there are things that get coded
    for by the mRNA
    it's coded for by the DNA
    and that's how we make proteins
    and everything that we are
    to first approximation
    comes from these proteins
    and that the proteins
    are structural purposes
    like collagen
    or elastin
    or they are actually functional
    and they're enzymes
    that catalyzer reaction
    they make things go faster
    basically
    they make a certain chemical reaction happen
    more quickly and it would just spontaneously
    or they do other things
    but those are kind of like the general sort of thing
    that just means that
    in ourselves
    if you didn't have mRNA you would be dead
    you would be 100% dead
    you need mRNA to survive
    that is how you function
    it's literally just
    DNA gets
    transcribed
    or rewritten as mRNA
    DNA if the double stranded
    sort of sequence
    and then that gets kind of like
    opened up and one of the strands is the coding strand
    strand
    and that coding strand
    gets read
    by an enzyme
    or complex of enzymes
    but you know proteins
    and some other stuff
    and that gets
    copied
    basically into complimentary
    RNA
    RNA is a single stranded thing in this case
    and that complementary RNA
    is messenger RNA
    or at least it's the precursor to messenger RNA
    it might have some modifications made to it
    it might have other stuff happen to it
    but that's like the broad strokes of what it is
    and then that messenger RNA
    and again this is like again
    the details
    can get messy
    where it's coming from
    is it coming from
    mitochondria
    and nucleus
    where is it going all this kind of stuff
    there's a lot of other stuff that can happen here
    but this is the broad strokes
    and sort of the general
    dog of how genes work
    you come to the messenger RNA
    and then in that messenger RNA
    you have these three letter things
    so AUG and C
    and each one of these three letter chunks
    is called a codon
    and that codon
    basically codes
    codes for
    and amino acid
    so there's a set of
    I think 20 different chemicals
    and each one of them is like a little bead on a string
    and they
    get charged up on these things called TRNAs
    transfer RNAs
    that have their own little code
    complimentary code
    and that
    through a whole bunch of machinery
    matches up with the mRNA
    and then puts that bead on the string together
    and then they get connected
    and then you build a bigger and bigger string
    and the specific sequence of those things
    dictates the structure of the protein
    that you're making
    and then the structure kind of determines the function
    in broad strokes kind of
    don't worry about the details
    there is a lot of detail there
    but that if you understand the stuff that I just said
    at least to a high level
    you understand mRNA is not like a magical weird
    horrible thing
    it's literally you
    like it's literally like most of the mechanisms
    of stuff getting out of your genes
    and into actual practice being made for you
    it's how you work
    and then we go to
    well, SARS-CoV-2
    is a coronavirus
    and coronavirus is they're called coronavirus
    because they kind of look like a crown
    their structure is like they have the genome
    and then they have this thing around it
    don't worry about that right now
    but that's kind of the structure
    and the genome
    guess what?
    it's a single strand
    of RNA
    their single stranded RNA viruses
    and it's plus sense
    which means it's a coding strand
    which means the genome
    of SARS-CoV-2
    is mRNA basically
    again, I'm being a little sloppy with that
    but it's basically mRNA
    and that means
    that again, if you're worried about mRNA
    and you're getting infected
    you're not getting a little bit of mRNA
    from the virus
    you're getting a fuckload of it
    because your body is replicating virus
    and you're getting all of that
    and all of yourselves
    and not only that but the mRNA
    vaccines and one of the things that's beautiful
    about these things
    one of the reasons why
    like when I was in Virrology
    the first time to date myself
    in the 90s
    had that's a long time ago
    oh my
    holy shit
    we were talking like my first Virrology class
    that we're talking about how amazing it would be
    if one day we could build mRNA vaccines
    because what you could do
    is take the specific sequence
    for a specific protein
    that the virus makes
    and this would be something where you're not making a full virus
    you're not making all the proteins in the virus
    you're not trying to attenuate it
    so like some vaccines
    you have a live attenuated
    like a live weakened version of the virus
    so the bacteria
    and you're not trying to kill it
    so you have an activated vaccines
    where you have the vaccine
    is basically just virus
    or bacteria that's been killed
    and suspended
    you don't need either one of those
    so you don't need to grow it
    you don't need to do all this kind of stuff
    you just need to know what is the protein
    that if I build an immune response to this
    I can actually have protective immunity
    and if you can do that
    you're basically simulating having an infection
    your immune system looks at that
    it sees that it raises antibodies to it
    and other things besides antibodies
    there's certain T cells and B cells
    and a lot of other details
    but I'm being sloppy partially deliberately
    but also understand the extent
    that I'm speaking in children's language
    I'm trying to make my target audience here
    is that molecular immunologists
    it's like, hopefully you're listening to this
    and then, yeah
    so, losing my mind here
    just talking about this
    but basically, the virus is mRNA
    we wanted these mRNA vaccines
    because you can just take that specific protein
    that can definitely not become a virus itself
    it's only one part of the virus
    and you can have your body make it
    so you can have a very small amount of it
    in the vaccine
    you don't have to have a huge amount of protein
    that you're injecting people with
    having a lot of protein
    means you have to make the protein
    somehow
    and making proteins, especially if they're complicated proteins
    or anything like this
    it's a whole set of things that you have to do
    that are going to be specific to each virus
    that will be required in order to make a protein-based vaccine
    but if you can make an mRNA vaccine
    you can take just the mRNA that will be coding
    for a specific protein or a part of a protein
    build that, get your body to make that protein
    temporarily
    and then mRNA incidentally, your body is full of things called RNAs
    and the environment is full of them
    it's one of the reasons why actually mRNA is really hard to work with
    because the environment is extremely hostile to RNAs
    RNAs get chopped up very quickly
    and so they have a very short half-life
    it took a lot of work to make vaccines
    with our mRNA that would be stable
    so we made those
    and now you're able to do that
    and you're also able to update them very quickly
    because we have
    they're called DNA printers
    but we have basic mRNA printers as well
    we have the ability now to take a specific sequence
    like you have the letters A-A-G-G-C-A-C-T
    whatever
    and then you can make DNA in that sequence
    and then you can use that to make RNA
    and mass of amounts
    in that sequence
    or in a complementary sequence I should say
    and in doing that
    you're able now to make a vaccine
    against a completely novel virus
    in almost no time
    it's one of the things that's beautiful
    about these vaccines
    it's one of the reasons why they're so appealing
    now they're not perfect
    and the biggest reason that they're not perfect
    is not that they're dangerous
    or there's some horrible thing that they're doing to you
    it's just that they don't tend to elicit
    really effective immune responses
    that are really durable
    and we're working on this as well
    but they tend to elicit immune responses
    that they work for a little while
    and they kind of fizzle out
    and that means that you need to get boosted
    very often
    this in addition to the fact that
    RNA genomes
    when you're replicating an RNA genome
    you're using an RNA dependent RNA polymerase
    they tend to be much more error prone
    than DNA dependent DNA polymerases
    the things that replicate
    say your genes
    or like a herpes virus
    so if you are replicating these RNA based viruses
    you're getting a very high mutation rate
    and in that process
    that means that in the environment
    when you have a lot of people infected
    and you've just not really done anything
    you have a huge population of mutated virus
    out there
    basically every replication cycle
    you're getting some mutation or another
    which means that now you've got
    really rapid
    evolution
    because you have a lot of these different things
    and some of them are going to be able to do things
    that other ones couldn't
    and now you have
    all these variants coming from this process
    over and over again doing that
    over and over again challenging
    people's immune responses
    and challenging
    all the things are trying
    not trying to but basically
    inadvertently through the process of selection
    figuring out ways to work around your immune response
    figuring out ways to be more transmissible
    figuring out all this kind of stuff
    that's the problem
    with having like uncontrolled spread
    and so there's this policy
    you can kind of look it up
    it wasn't officially called
    air quotes letter-repe
    but there was this idea
    that
    it's not a completely ridiculous idea
    I will say in some sense
    although it's kind of horrible
    except it doesn't work
    for a coronavirus
    specifically would not work for a coronavirus
    because they replicate
    too quickly
    or too contagious
    and their mutation rate is too high
    but if you had something that was much more genetically stable
    then this letter-repe idea is basically
    okay we've got
    enough of the population has been vaccinated
    and this is the thinking that
    the people that kind of vaguely understood this
    we're saying
    we've got
    enough of the population has been exposed
    or has been vaccinated
    and the hospitalization numbers are down
    so if we let everybody get infected
    then it will rip through the population
    the hospitals won't get overwhelmed
    because now we're at this point where
    they're not going to be massively massively numbers
    or huge numbers of sick people beyond capacity
    and then
    ideally and again this is wrong
    but their thought was
    and when I say their thought was
    this has to be people that didn't know what the fuck they were doing
    because people who actually understand
    this stuff would know this is not going to work in this case
    but the thought was
    okay so now everybody gets it once
    and you've effectively vaccinated people
    as a group of natural infections
    and now they're not going to get sick again
    and they're just removed from the susceptible population
    because of that
    it doesn't work
    because as this is mutating quickly
    it's able to evade the immune response
    that was elicited to
    another variant
    and so you're able to get infected
    like a run of viruses like so I was go to
    over and over and over and over again
    it also has a immune-vasive
    and a immune-modulating properties
    so it's not just that it's mutating quickly
    but it's able to tweak
    and mess around with your immune system
    to basically get around
    some of your immune responses
    and immune protection against it
    and so between these two things
    let a rectidine work
    and couldn't have worked
    it was ridiculous to even think that it might work
    and all it did was leave us in the situation
    now we have unmitigated spread
    we have a huge population of infected people
    larger population of variants of these viruses
    and just it's leaving us with this
    I don't want to imply that it's intractable
    because you could still
    really limit the spread
    of things to contain it
    and get it down to basically zero
    yeah, not exactly zero
    but you can get it down to such a low level
    that and then if you had that
    plus surveillance
    very low levels
    let people go about their lives
    don't have to worry about masking
    except in healthcare settings
    you still don't get smart
    doctors and nurses
    you still fucking should wear your masks
    all the time no matter what
    just like you should still wash your hands
    every time no matter what
    but people in the general population
    who aren't really vulnerable
    could probably just go about their lives
    and be fine
    and then occasionally you'll have an outbreak
    you'll detect it because you have good surveillance
    you'll isolate people, you have contact tracing setup
    you can contain all of that
    and the outbreak will fizzle out
    and that will be it
    and then also if we had
    indoor air quality improvements
    it would make it much harder for those outbreaks to spread
    if we had the doctors and nurses
    always burning the fucking masks
    as a universal precaution
    then it would be harder for it to spread
    and now
    basically like
    not only would it be like this for COVID
    but inadvertently
    unintentionally
    in the same process
    as doing that
    we would eliminate or really knock down
    many other respiratory viruses
    it would just be a natural consequence
    of doing that
    and that could be where we are
    and it still could be what we could do
    but instead
    we get people like ending vaccine mandates
    which is going to destroy herd immunity
    which incidentally
    if you have other viruses
    that you know are not that stable genetically
    you can do some
    like a prior imagination
    to what happens when you allow
    uncontrolled spread of those things in the population
    a lot of people get infected
    a lot of virus
    which means lots of mutations
    which means lots of different chances
    to you know
    test immune surveillance
    and maybe work around it
    and then evolve
    to things that
    are immune invasive
    or that at least can escape
    the vaccines that we have
    and now
    best case scenario
    you have to create new vaccines
    and worst case scenarios
    that you just can't make a vaccine
    that's as effective
    against some of these things
    and then you have to really fight
    in order to do something about them
    and a lot of diseases that are like that
    are diseases that you really don't want
    their diseases that can cause
    things like immune amnesia
    and just wipe out your
    wipe out all of the immune protection
    that you previously developed
    from exposure to other things
    and from vaccinations
    and all that kind of stuff
    but it's not something
    yeah
    it's probably not the best thing
    yeah
    and so anyway that's where we are
    it's just
    it's just fucking annoying
    to me
    it's like it's horrible
    it's eugenicist
    and it's also wrong
    and misguided
    like the people who
    were making these decisions
    including Biden
    Biden himself
    no fucking clue
    not listening to the experts
    or if they are experts
    they were
    very misguided experts
    but mostly
    like just not
    listening
    and it gets to
    another one of these things
    that I hate
    about this guy
    and one of the reasons
    one of the ways that he's
    like Trump
    is just that these are
    like lazy students
    don't really care
    they don't want to do the work
    and because of that
    and because they've never
    really faced any consequences
    for the ship they've done
    and their fuckups
    we have our in a situation now
    where
    people are massively
    more prone
    to believing things like
    anti-vaccine
    ideas
    like vaccines don't work
    because they were told
    vaccines work in a way
    that they absolutely don't work
    and so of course they don't work
    the way that they don't work
    and we have
    many more people who are
    anti-vaccine
    we have less
    strong public health
    we have less
    you know
    ability to even
    understand stuff
    because people don't know
    Swiss cheese
    everybody should know
    by this point
    and you know
    when you're five years
    six years into a
    global airborne pandemic
    everybody should know about
    fucking Swiss cheese
    everybody should know
    you don't vaccinated individuals
    you vaccinate populations
    there are a bunch of
    things like that
    that could have been
    and should have been
    conveyed in public health
    messaging
    and weren't
    and instead
    we have people thinking
    vaccines don't work
    we have people thinking
    that you know
    it's not a big deal
    it's just a
    flu
    like the flu
    is not a big deal
    because the flu
    again the flu
    kills
    20 to 60,000
    Americans
    museums
    I should say
    every year
    just as a matter of course
    COVID right now
    is killing
    hundreds of thousands
    and
    both of those
    are going to continue
    indefinitely
    as they are
    and now
    granted hundreds of thousands
    of people
    in a scale of
    like a population of
    330 million
    it's not like
    it's not huge
    but it's a lot
    it's a lot of fucking
    people if it's your grandma
    or if it's your cousin
    or whoever
    probably a big deal
    and that's not even
    getting into
    long COVID
    it's not getting into
    the vascular diseases
    and neurological diseases
    and all the other things
    that come from it
    and it's also not getting into the fact
    that like
    we are
    primed right now
    for
    another terrible
    airborne pandemic
    like if there was
    something
    if you think about like
    bird flu
    and it really got
    to human
    transmission
    and head of mortality rate
    of like even just like
    five or ten percent
    but especially if it was like
    20 percent
    or 40 percent
    we'd be so fucked
    because in health
    like people would get sick
    they'd go to the hospital
    nobody in the hospital
    is masking
    so I just
    blows through the whole hospital
    and then
    not only does it take out
    the hospital and share
    in the hospital
    become an excess of transmission
    now
    you don't have the ability
    to deal with sick people
    because all the health care workers
    are
    decimated
    or worse
    and the
    hospitals
    blow up
    and can't do
    like their capacity
    is destroyed
    because
    you know
    one of the cool things about
    the capitalism
    is
    excess capacity is
    waste
    and so you can't have
    any kind of resiliency
    because
    excess capacity is
    what you need for resiliency
    and so
    we don't waste
    so now we don't have
    excess capacity
    so now
    we're
    just operating at a critical level
    and if you ever have any
    overflow
    things
    just implode
    it's one of the
    one of the big reasons
    why more people died
    earlier on in the pandemic
    was just
    more
    more
    more
    more
    more like the
    actual underlying
    sort of
    case mortality rate
    also again
    you know there's this idea
    that people have
    that you know like somehow
    magically evolution
    selects against
    pathogenicity
    but there's no reason to
    believe that because
    the trends
    the only way that would work
    certainly on like a long enough
    time scale
    the
    reasons of generations
    maybe
    but when you're talking about
    individual life times
    the only way that would work
    is if it was so
    lethal
    that it killed you
    before getting
    transmitted to other people
    and it definitely doesn't do that
    it infects you
    you spread it to a bunch of people
    and then it kills you
    or it doesn't kill you
    and you know there's
    zero selective pressure
    literally like you know I mean
    there's like a tiny, tiny, tiny
    little
    little
    and on the scale of human
    lifetimes it might as well be
    zero there's no real
    evolutionary select the pressure
    that it doesn't mean that it's
    going to get more pathogenic
    but if there's no pressure
    then things just kind of like
    diffuse
    outwards and things can get more
    and less and there's no
    directionality to it
    it's just chance
    and that's not good
    that's not like that's the
    thing with the pressure
    to change
    it's disappointing
    or it should be so much
    better and one day
    ultimately like I don't know
    what is going to happen
    or what it's going to take
    one day ultimately it will
    be better because
    and it's kind of tragic
    but like some
    horrible
    pandemic will come
    and it will be much worse
    and people will
    well I think something
    will weigh from people to
    is Andy Vax sentiment dissipates over many decades
    and then people start going like,
    oh, it kind of sucks to have your kids dying.

    Again, that maybe why weren't kids dying 30 years ago?

    I don't know, I was kind of weird.

    I mean, kids die all the time,

    but not in mass, not in huge numbers.

    Maybe we should figure out why that's happening.

    And then you start reinventing vaccines.

    That's just so ass-enined.

    It's very depressing when you realize

    civilization doesn't go in a specific direction.

    And things can progress.

    And it's just so depressing.

    And I do think, ultimately, we will get to a better place again.

    I just don't know what it's gonna take.

    I don't know how long it's gonna be.

    And I hate the,

    many, many people will die,
    many people will get permanently injured
    and disabled.

    Unnecessarily, because we are in the situation we're in.

    And that really fucking sucks.

    It's just like, I think I have zero doubt

    that at some point the apartheid and genocide
    and Gaza will end.

    And there's the book that's like,

    one day, everyone will have always been open against this.

    Yeah, one day, I'm confident, everyone will always,

    just like everyone now is always against apartheid
    and South Africa.

    Everyone now is always,

    there was always against the Shoah.

    You know, oh, I say that there are literal Nazis out there

    that should be armed, but you know,
    broad strokes, hopefully, most of us are on the right side of that.

    But you know, inevitably, where it's gonna go,

    it's like, why do we have to go through the fucking horror
    and the process of this?
    It's just irritating, it's just annoying,
    it's just depressing.

    Anyway, with that, this is it for the week.

    I hope you have a good one.

    It's wild that my time here in Bangkok is over.

    I could very easily, I think I've said this before.

    I don't think I would live here on a long-term basis,

    but I could imagine if I was in the position financially
    and could just like travel around and live
    different places for a while.

    I could imagine coming back here for a few months

    and like, showing out everyone's in a while
    and hopefully developing my tie
    so that it's not embarrassing like that.

    But, you know, I could see myself doing that.

    It wouldn't be the worst place to be.

    I definitely have a lot of places that have been

    as one of the nicer ones.

    I do, like, I can very easily live in Beijing

    or Chengdu or, you know, even Shenzhen,
    I can easily live in Paris.

    I love Paris.

    I could easily live in the Dred or Oliver Spain.

    I could even, like, Vietnam, I could do,

    wouldn't be my first choice, but I could do it.

    Soul was nice.

    I'm sure much of South Korea is also nice.

    Benchipan, I do, like, as well.

    I know the colonizer's stuff is bad and then yeah.

    The problem is, of course, there's no,

    if you start getting into the problems
    with different countries, any country has some bad history,
    but it's also, like, yeah, there's just pretty bad.

    But also, like, you look at Germany now versus Germany then.

    I still, I will say, I still, I have been to Germany.

    I've been to, well, just Munich, specifically, München.

    And I went there and I know that they,

    you know, did some level of denotsification.

    They do education and they, a lot of people are very,

    you know, regretful and hopefully learned.

    They talk about it.

    Unlike the US where, you know, basically just pretend slavery never happened.

    Or pretend that it was, like, good for people who were enslaved,

    a bunch of horrible bullshit.

    At least Germany kind of deals with that stuff a little bit.

    But still, when I went there, I was, like, a little,

    a little uncomfortable.

    And you're going to places and you're seeing, like,

    oh, these are places that, um, yeah.

    And I don't know.

    I just, I have, I have, like, a inherent aversion.

    Just not to say that I hate German people.

    It's just, you know, like, there's a little bit of me

    is like, uh, not quite, not quite, okay, not quite, okay.

    Yeah.

    Um, Japan, I can definitely see kind of similar on that.

    And I think unlike Germany is not really addressed a lot of the stuff in the same way.

    It's probably bad.

    I'm much closer to the US, unfortunately.

    But I do, like, you know, having said that, there are things that about Japan that I like.

    And then you, back and forth.

    But you, where, where is a good place to be?

    What is a, I don't know.

    And then you have to think about, um,

    am I being a colonizer wherever I am?
    Like, living in Hawaii would be nice.

    But also, you think about, like, a or a hally,

    b, your, like, not really wanted there and you're definitely being a colonizer
    and you're taking resources from people.

    And you're raising the, the rents and all of the stuff that's horrible.

    And some more way, if I was living here, I'm doing the same kinds of things.

    It's, it's very complicated.

    I don't know what you would do.

    And then you could go, well, okay.

    So being in the US and then fight against what's going on

    and try to improve things.

    But then, um, yeah, I, I will say actually,

    this will be the actual end to cap with us and then I'll talk about all that stuff later.

    But California, I think Oregon and Washington, and now Hawaii are part of a, uh,

    sort of, like, makeshift CDC to take up the slack where the CDC is failing.

    And I, and I'm, I'm giving new some zero credit here, but I do appreciate it.

    And I do think this is how you actually address this kind of stuff is build parallel systems

    and just ignore the, understand that the federal government is not legitimate
    and ignore them and do your own stuff.

    And definitely don't comply in advance and you actually be better.

    That kind of stuff.

    It's, it's good.

    I think that's, hopefully you do more of that.

    And hopefully you do it well and hopefully you do it better than, uh,

    like Biden's CDC, which was a fucking shambles.

    And, you know, it's like the Biden thing killed me because I, there was a time, like,

    my undergrad was microbiology.

    I was always very in-difirology.

    I grads, my initial grad was studying gyphirology and immunology.

    And I wanted really to work it, like a, a CDC or a U.S. Amrid or something like that.

    That was before I understood a little bit more of what, uh, the military isn't all like,

    but, you know, I liked the idea I really did.

    And then, you know, it's just like it's gone so fucking downhill.

    And in the current situation is such a fucking embarrassment.

    I'm, I'm very glad that I have that career path because it would be so depressing and devastating.

    I, I have friends who work at NASA and, like, the situation there is so depressing.

    And, like, you spent your whole life trying to get into this career and doing this career.

    And now it's just the thing that you loved is just torpedoed and it sucks at us.

    And anyway, uh, with, with that, I'm at your full note.

    Thank you. I will talk, uh, again, probably in like a week.

    再见

    1 hr 58 min
  • The Demistocrats !
    Episode Transcript

    Hey there, I'm Scott, and this is Tangents.

    I have to say, I am getting annoyed with the audio quality on this.

    I hope that it's not bothering you, but I've been recording these on my AirPods Pros.

    And I'm used to condenser mic and something a lot better.

    And this just sounds like asked to me.

    I'm annoyed just in general with a lot of things about Apple too.

    But it's not good, I'm sorry.

    I'm not sorry enough that I'm going to get something before I get back to the US.

    But I am sorry, I apologize.

    So it is, as I'm recording this, the second of September 2025.

    I'm still in Bangkok.

    It will be today's Tuesday, I'll be here until Saturday.

    And I strictly speaking, I mean to make this about once a week.

    I think I recorded the last one of these two days ago.

    Maybe it was three, I don't recall.

    But it wasn't very long.

    It definitely wasn't a week ago.

    And next week, I'm going to be traveling with a friend in Japan.

    I definitely am not going to be able to make one of these.

    So I'm probably going to bank up a couple.

    But I'm not the kind of person that likes to bank stuff up, but not release it.

    So I'll probably bank it up and then release it almost immediately.

    I doubt that this will actually go out on the second and it'll probably go out on the third.

    But it's not going to go out next week while I'm doing other stuff.

    So if you've heard this joke, the aristocrats.

    And it's basically this idea that you tell the most transgressive awful story.

    And it's about this act and then you just go through.

    And it's kind of an improv thing and it's kind of like a weird comedian thing.

    But you're basically just trying to be as gross as awful as possible.

    And then at the end, the punch line is just formulaically.

    The aristocrats.

    Well, I am calling this episode and I refer to a specific political party as the demistocrats.

    Because to me, they are just fundamentally ontologically awful evil as a party.

    And I can almost hear like, every time I talk about how bad they are.

    I know people think somehow that if you don't support the democrats, you're a Republican or you're a Trump supporter.

    This is part of the problem, by the way.

    The fact that you're understanding of politics, that you're understanding of the political spectrum extends from the extreme far right.

    Christoph fascist and our co-capitalist Republicans to the still right of Reagan, modern democratic party, so-called democratic party.

    Nobody hates democracy more than the actual Democrats.

    It's funny.

    We should legitimately sue them for using that in their name.

    It is false advertising.

    They hate anyone that is at all left of center-truey, like you look at Bernie.

    who is a little bit left of center, and the way that the party got together and organized and worked, you know, just tirelessly.

    They fought him the way they should be fighting Trump.

    Let's just say that.

    I mean, like, you can see who is the real threat to the party.

    Because the way that their, or quotes fighting Trump is just a fucking joke.

    I mean, while, you know, they assemble, like, old-fron and put aside their differences and fought Bernie, tooth and nail.

    And I will say, like, I still, yeah, I still love Bernie in the same sense that there's a part of me that still likes Obama and Robert Greig and all of these kind of.

    yeah, the sort of brunch liby shit liby kind of people.

    I like them.

    I do.

    It's a residual thing.

    I'm not proud of it.

    But they're really not.

    They're not aligned with me.

    It's part of the problem.

    So, any time, again, I talk about this, I'll get comments from people who, again, I would call brunch lives.

    The people who, if Harris would have gotten elected, would have gone to back to brunch.

    And in fact, I've seen them literally in as many words say that, I've seen signs that said that.

    And if you don't understand that that's part of the problem, I don't know what to tell you.

    I really don't.

    I also see, yeah, all of these people.

    I mean, I'm particularly annoyed with the getting behind Gavin Newsom, who is, and I'm not just throwing this word around when I call him a fascist.

    He is a fascist.

    He's a corporatist.

    He is anti-omeless.

    And I don't mean that he's anti-omelessness, like he wants to end homelessness.

    He is against homeless people.

    He, like, you can find photos and talk about this before, but you can find without any difficulty.

    Very recent pictures and video of him personally, with his own two hands, air quotes clearing homeles.

    and nothing.

    People who have no place to go.

    He's picking up their shit, he's throwing it away, and that could be their central medications.

    It could be their few possessions.

    I could be heirlooms or things that matter to them or anything.

    It could be their few things.

    He's throwing them out.

    And you can see the glee and joy in his face.

    It is not like he's just doing it because he thinks that this is a necessary evil.

    He's doing it and he is enjoying it.

    I have zero doubt about that.

    This is a man who, and I say the same thing about Trump.

    This is the thing.

    I am so frustrated when I talk about this subject that I cannot talk about it without peopl.

    thinking that somehow I'm a Trump supporter.

    I fucking hate Trump.

    And it's like, you don't criticize Republicans in the same way that you criticize the Democrats.

    I'm not going to talk about this a lot in the future.

    It's something that I want to kind of address now one time.

    And then don't expect me to talk about it again.

    I'm sure it will come up.

    It's something that's kind of a perennial subject, unfortunately.

    Until maybe people start getting better and start recognizing where things are and start developing principles.

    But it's, it's really, it's quite frustrating to me.

    And especially, like, this is another thing that I'm just going to repeat endlessly.

    But in 2016, when 2015, 2016, first, I, it was the first time I really was engaged politically.

    And I went out and I knocked doors to some extent also made phone calls and things.

    But mostly not doors for burning.

    And I also spent a lot of time telling people that Trump could easily win.

    This is before Hillary got the nomination.

    Trump could easily win, and that it would be prudent, even independent of just.

    especially at the time, thinking that burning really reflected my beliefs and values.

    And he does certainly more than most of the party, but he's further right than I am.

    And he's also much more of a supporter than the party than I.

    But even at the time, you know, I was telling people, Hillary could very easily lose to Trump.

    And Bernie almost certainly would not.

    And that's not, I, I want to, I can just hear, there's a horrible thing, like I've spent too much time on the internet.

    And I can, I can not talk about subjects like this without hearing people be like, oh, it's misogyny.

    It's because nobody wants a woman to be, no, it is not that.

    Don't give me wrong.

    Misogyny is a very big factor.

    It is baked then.

    But Hillary could have still won.

    Hillary could have beaten Trump.

    And she could have beaten whoever else was there.

    But she kind of went out of her way not to.

    Similarly, Harris, Harris could have easily beaten Trump.

    And, you know, it's frustrating to me how much she went out of her way to just absolutely ensure that I could not in good conscience vote for her.

    But I'll get to that in a little bit.

    I want to talk more now about general things, and I don't want to speak specifically about these cases.

    But I do want to say before just like the front load this 10 minutes in.

    That I after Bernie, if you want to be really civil and diplomatic lost the nomination.

    and if you want to be a little bit more provocative as I would be here.

    And I think more honest, had the nominations stolen from him by Hillary.

    And I don't mean like, I don't mean literally like there was vote rigging or anything like this.

    But there were a lot of factors that the party did and even got sued for.

    And you know, there was the term that they can decide how to run their elections.

    And this is one of the reasons why I said nobody hates democracy more than the Democrats.

    But they did a lot of things that were very dirty that sort of handed her the nomination.

    And took it from him and us.

    And a big one was just the super delegate thing.

    And the way this worked, you know, I don't want to get into the weeds here because this is not at all the subject.

    And in fact, I want to talk very generally without getting into the party specifically.

    But I do want to just get through this quickly.

    The way the super delegates work is these are not people that you're voting for.

    These are just like party officials and higher-ups and leadership if you want leadership.

    And they get to vote and they very early on without having voted or without doing anything like this.

    But in the reporting, we're counted in the numbers for Hillary.

    And I know that doesn't seem like a big deal, but what that did was make people feel like it was extremely, extremely unlikely.

    Maybe even to some extent numerically impossible for Bernie to win.

    And this is something that annoys me about people in general.

    But there's something with people that they will not vote for someone who they don't think is going to win.

    Which, of course, means that if you would vote for somebody, they could win.

    It's a very weird sort of logic that it's almost like a disease not to be able to steer.

    But it's almost like this innate thing with you have to be on the bandwagon.

    And if people, if your perception is that you're going to be on the losing team, then you abandon that team.

    And so part of what happened there, big part, is that it kind of suppressed the vote.

    It got people not to vote for him because they're like, oh, it's not even worth it.

    It's not, you know, there's no open, blah, blah, blah.

    And then, well, it's history.

    And never mind also, I've talked about this.

    I've only done like four episodes. I've talked about this, but please Google, well, not Google.

    Dr. Go or whatever, not whatever less evil search engine you're using.

    Search for Hillary Clinton, Pied Piper, or they always wanted Trump.

    And you will find in not like weird random guy on the internet talking to himself about like in political.

    the New York Times, the Atlantic, the Hill, and you just go through the list, like all of these massively reputable publications.

    They have write-ups about how Hillary Clinton's campaign and the Democratic Party knew absolutely new.

    And obviously when I say new, they were wrong.

    They were very wrong, and they were obviously wrong.

    But they were absolutely confident, confidently wrong, that Trump could not possibly win.

    And they as a strategy did this Pied Piper thing, which was basically to get him the nomination.

    If it wasn't for them, if it wasn't for their interference, if it wasn't for their pushing a lot of corporate media to really elevate him.

    and make him seem like a contender and make him seem like the natural nominee and the leader of the party.

    If they didn't do that, he probably would have lost.

    This is something, this is a big fucking thing.

    But anyway, I, in the moment, was looking at the polling data, looking at models, all those kind of stuff.

    And I knew he could very easily win.

    I absolutely knew that.

    And I also knew, because I've spent a long time being for abortion.

    And I mean, like for abortion rights and abortion is healthcare and abortion as a procedure, just like I'm for appendectomies.

    You know, I've never mind that now, but I've been for that for a long time.

    And so I knew that for longer than I've been alive, and really it goes back, like if you want to dig into the history of this.

    I guess you could always go back into other stuff further.

    But basically, at the civil rights era, there were all of these Supreme Court decisions, like Brown versus the Board of Education, like loving Virginia.

    And not just civil rights decisions, but also environmental decisions, anti-corporate decisions.

    And these kinds of things pissed off a bunch of rich white assholes, including people like the Koch brothers.

    But a bunch of rich white assholes, and they got together.

    And this is one of these things that seems like a conspiracy theory, but it's real.

    And it's easily, it's very well documented.

    And it's been happening in public view, like it's not even like they were pretending otherwise.

    But they put together things like the Federalists Society, things like the Heritage Foundation, things like acorn, to push for, you know, pre-package legislation that they could distribute to state legislator or legislatures and get implemented in states.

    And their whole thing was basically, we are going to make sure that we can undo this.

    And that they did focus on this for, again, longer than I've been alive, many, many decades, more than half a century.

    They've been working on this.

    And I knew about this.

    I knew that they were growing in justices in the lab, getting into law schools, getting into legal organizations.

    And basically building a pipeline of people who would be what they accused other people of being.

    So they always use this terminology or quotes activist judge.

    And, you know, legislating from the bench is another one they really like.

    That's what they wanted to do.

    They're literally just telling on themselves when they talked about these things.

    And their whole goal was basically to fill.

    And they have federal courts and the Supreme Court with people like Brett Kavanaugh.

    who essentially have been cultivated their entire lives to legislate from the bench.

    to be activist judges, to change a case law, to essentially make the Supreme Court.

    to the extent that it ever was legitimate, completely illegitimate.

    And that's been their goal.

    They've been working on it and they succeeded.

    And I knew about this stuff before 2016, because I, again, paid attention.

    I was involved for a long time.

    And I saw that.

    And I knew that if Trump won, then these people would be getting into the Supreme Court.

    And so after Bernie had the nomination stolen from him, I busted my ass.

    I mean, don't give me wrong. I was not happy about it.

    But I still went out every week and busted my ass, knocking doors, making phone calls.

    more knocking doors than phone calls, but still both for Hillary.

    And I was on Facebook telling everybody I knew and in person, telling everybody I knew.

    A, he could easily win.

    B, I know she sucks, but you got a vote for her.

    And you know, just like desperately begging people.

    And it was another reason why I wasn't surprised that.

    that he did win, because when I was knocking doors for Bernie.

    and I really encourage anyone, I noticed I still haven't gotten to the party stuf.

    and all of this other stuff yet.

    I will get to it.

    I really will.

    This is just the introduction.

    But it was not a surprise to me because when I was knocking doors for Bernie.

    and also I knocked doors for Medicare for all.

    And when I did these things, no matter who I talked to.

    people liked and respected them.

    You know, I would occasionally, very, very rarely find somebody who's like.

    you know, oh, comedy or socialist or whatever.

    The funny thing is actually, like, Biden is not in any way a socialist or a communist or anything like that.

    Hillary is absolutely not.

    These are, these are capitalists.

    They're neoliberals and all of this.

    But the Republicans have painted them as such.

    Even more so than they have Bernie, which is a weird fucking, just absolute mind fuck.

    But somehow they've done that.

    It's one of the things also that gets me annoyed with this party because they take the space and they make people think.

    oh, these are socialist policies.

    When they're absolutely just corporatists.

    pro capitalist bullshit.

    And because they do that, they're essentially ruining the name and the reputation of people who are not pro capitalist.

    But anyway, I busted my ass knocking doors and I talked to people about Bernie.

    and I knew how much they liked them.

    And then I talked to people about Hillary.

    And for Bernie, they put us in not just like high-prepensity, you know, so just sort of general donors or general voters rather.

    General people who were registered to vote, registered to vote, I think Democrat for the most part.

    But people who were not necessarily, you know, high-prepensity means like they voted in the last three major elections.

    Hillary, they were basically all high-prepensity voters that they put us on.

    It was just kind of different strategy of the people running the ground game.

    Weirdly enough, the guy who was actually running the Tempe Democrat volunteer stuff, the coordinator that I was under.

    He was a Bernie supporter.

    All the people that I was volunteering with, at least like two-thirds of them were Bernie supporters.

    This is for knocking doors for Hillary, but never mind all of them.

    It endlessly irritates me that we get completely defamed and slandered and livid by people who insist that somehow we got Trump elected.

    We were working harder than anyone.

    We voted more for her than say her voters voted for Obama.

    More of her voters voted for what was his name that came at the time.

    It's it's it's fucking offensive.

    And people don't talk about how, you know, I mean granted Obama did win, but it was not with the help of her voters.

    Let's just say that.

    So anyway, when I was knocking doors and talking to people, I talked to so many people, high-prepensity Democratic voters who didn't like her.

    Didn't trust her.

    Didn't want to vote for her.

    And it didn't help also that her campaign was pushing.

    I call it the secret because basically they were pushing this idea that she's got it in the bag.

    She is inevitable.

    Like, go on.

    But the fuck is his name.

    I can't even think of his name.

    The finger stop guy.

    Thanos.

    You know, like she's just, she's got it.

    And in doing that, they were discouraging people from voting because if she's got it in the bag and people don't feel like voting for her.

    But they don't like her and all this kind of stuff.

    Then why would they go out and vote for her.

    You know, you don't have to.

    So of course you're not.

    It's it's it's a ridiculous thing.

    But I was talking to people.

    I knew that they were not into her.

    And her campaign completely ignored that kind of stuff.

    They didn't try to address it.

    And I'm not saying that it was all fair.

    I'm not saying that it was all right.

    I mean, a lot of it was based in misogyny.

    And it was based on the fact that, you know, like a bunch of Republicans saw her in the 90s in front of Congress pushing for her health care plan.

    Which I should go back and look at.

    I have not.

    I feel like it's a bit of diligence that I should.

    I should check that before.

    I feel like we're actually like even talking about it now kind of a shame that I'm not more familiar with it.

    But whatever the plan was, a bunch of Republicans saw that.

    They did not like, did not like her.

    You know, this is.

    I'll put people in talking in front of Congress.

    And they defamed her for the next, you know, so many years.

    I've been told the present because of that.

    That was a fact.

    But she also has gone so much out of her way to be so, like, arrogant and, you know, uninterested.

    Absolutely uninterested.

    And even trying to be persuasive or trying to make any kind of a case for herself.

    Yeah.

    It's like, yeah.

    Part of this is unfair.

    Part of it is misogyny.

    And part of it is you.

    And like, you can't.

    This gets the one thing that I always get annoyed with.

    Like I say, I'm kind of talking about the party.

    But this is not what I wanted to talk about.

    And we'll get to the other stuff.

    But one thing that really annoys me with that party is just that they look at the stuff.

    And they're like blaming other people, blaming things that are external, blaming things that are outside of their control.

    And the problem with this is if everything is the fault of somebody else, everything is the fault of the weather.

    Or, you know, like, just random chance and happens to us.

    Then everything just becomes a lottery.

    You're not, you have no agency.

    You have no control.

    You have no real influence.

    And this is a mess.

    A problem because it's not actionable.

    I can't say, well, okay, well, the weather fucked me over today.

    I'm going to change the weather tomorrow.

    Yeah, that's, that's not a realistic thing.

    You could, you could definitely say, well, I could, let's see.

    The weather yesterday kind of didn't work with my plan.

    So maybe I'll change my plan so that I can deal with different weather and be in a better position to handle whatever the weather might be.

    Yeah, that's something you can actually do.

    That's something that makes sense.

    That is something where, again, like, you're not saying that the weather is in your favor.

    But you are saying, regardless of what the weather does, I will be prepared.

    And I will do what I can to, to win or to, you know, thrive or whatever under those circumstances.

    And you're basically turning something from this external force measure kind of thing to something that is internal that you can actually act on.

    And then the thing that's really important about it is that it is actionable that it's something that you have influence over unlike, again, the weather.

    Like, I mean, I guess technically in principle, maybe you could figure out a way to manipulate the weather or change it.

    But you're probably not going to, and you're probably not going to by the next election.

    So anyway, all that stuff, it was very bothersome.

    And the fact that she, like, didn't go to Michigan, didn't do all of these things.

    And also, you know, like, Bernie, I swear, I feel terrible like focusing on something that happened like a decade ago so much.

    But the reason part of the reason that I'm talking about this so much and that I focused so much on it is that, you know.

    I talked to people that are endlessly to this day blaming Bernie supporters for her losing.

    And I want to clear the record.

    I want people to understand, no, we actually really contributed to her chances.

    We did as much as we could, truly, we voted for her in mass.

    We helped her as much as we could.

    We did what we could. It was not us.

    It was, it was, it was, it was more than anything of her and her air against her hubris.

    And, you know, I mean, if you want to, this is not a due to lung Hillary episode.

    But if you, if you want to really like twist your brain a little bit, she had something.

    I remember what year it came out.

    I think it was like 2018, 2019, doesn't really matter exactly.

    She had something where it was, it would have been her, I don't know what you call it.

    It's not an acceptance speech, but her speech that she would have given after winning.

    And some of it was fine, some of it was okay.

    But a lot of it was like, like, just ridiculous over the top nonsense.

    And I'm not exaggerating it. It's worth watching, truly.

    It gives you some insight into her.

    But she's sitting there having a conversation or the framing of this is she's having a conversation with her younger self.

    And explaining how essentially, like, God or Dane, that she would be the first woman president.

    I swear, I'm not making that shit up.

    I like, it is, like, whoa, you know.

    And totally out of touch with reality, obviously.

    And especially, like it was already out of touch with reality, even if she would have won.

    But she could, she very well could have won.

    I know people who were like, oh, she had no chance.

    She could have easily won.

    It was on the day of it was probably like two to three in her favor.

    That is to say, like, order of if you ran the same day three times.

    Two of them you'd expect her to win and one you would expect her to lose.

    I think that's probably a realistic assessment.

    It's not good odds.

    Like, I wouldn't, I wouldn't do Russian roulette odds.

    I wouldn't play that game, especially when you think about the cost.

    This is worse than Russian roulette.

    This is, like, twice as bad.

    I definitely wouldn't, there's an advice that I would roll.

    You know, it's all I'm saying.

    And I think this is a thing where people who really do not understan.

    at a very fundamental level statistics and probabilities and odd.

    and all that kind of stuff, but that's not the point in this.

    Now, I'm almost a half hour.

    I'm going to fucking get to the stuff that I actually want to talk to.

    But all of that said, that's kind of just some background here.

    So what I really want to talk about is, yeah, the Republicans are fucking awful.

    I don't think there's any question about that.

    I think it's even an interesting thing to talk about.

    They're extreme far right, crystal fascist, anarcho-capitalists.

    And I know some people who are anarchists and they get annoyed when I say anarcho-capitalists.

    They're not the same, they have the same word in them.

    They're one is an extreme right wing thing, and then the other is a very left wing thing.

    I wish people had better just poly-side background.

    It's annoying that you can't have a conversation with people, but just in a side.

    anarcho-capitalists are basically like capitalists can do whatever the fuck they want.

    The people with the money get to dictate everything, they get to decide everything.

    they don't have to follow any rules, they can just make up the game, that's it.

    And then crystal fascist literally, you know.

    their people who have their version of Christianity.

    and they think the government should be wrong in accordance with those ideas.

    Which are pretty fucked up, especially given the tenants of the Christianity as I understand the.

    are not as horrible as this, if you just laid them out.

    But their version of it is like Calvinism, and they like to call it the prosperity gospel.

    Let me get like it's a new thing, but it's an old thing.

    They're pretty fucking terrible.

    They're just like, and the end of the world called and all this other stuff.

    And of course, you know, well all the stuff that goes with religious fanaticism, just in general.

    misogyny and in general just horribleness and all that.

    That's who they are.

    And Trump is fucking awful.

    Look, I don't think I shouldn't even need to say that.

    I shouldn't need to explain to you that Trump is awful.

    And the thing that does, I mean, I could go on and on.

    And I really could just on and on.

    I didn't find item about all the ways that he's terrible.

    I've known he's my entire life.

    I've known he's terrible.

    I did.

    It was not something that I had to really learn or figure out.

    In the 80s he had the, what does it central park five.

    He had things where, you know, just like overt racism.

    Is it through lying for him.

    But even if you take that out, he's just an asshole.

    Like just a fundamentally terrible person.

    Yeah.

    You would see, like he'd pop up in this America and talk about how.

    You could just go in the back and the changing room.

    And, you know, he's transgressive.

    He's like a sex past.

    He's not only racist, not only classist, just indecent.

    And when I say he has no class, and then since I don't mean, well.

    that's independent of being classless or classist, rather.

    But he has no class, and he has no decency.

    He's not got respect for anyone, but himself.

    He feels like he should be able to do whatever the fuck he wants.

    Just a fucking awful person.

    Like, and it utterly unprincipled and extremely lazy.

    And a cheater and a liar.

    And you can go on and on and on.

    You just, you could, I don't have to, though.

    I shouldn't have to.

    I should not have to explain how bad he is or how bad the Republicans are.

    I assume, you know that.

    I echo with kind of the principle of charity, which is to assume, well.

    I guess several things, but one to assume the best interpretation of something when you say it.

    But also, I kind of assume that you have the capacity and experience and understanding to know who these people are.

    But it's, it shouldn't be necessary.

    And I think, well, I mean, this is kind of a depressing thing.

    Because I see a lot of the people who I would call blue maga in the brunch lives.

    I used to call them more shit lives, but I think shit lives sounds more personal.

    And it sounds more like I just don't like them because I don't like them, although I do.

    Yeah.

    But brunch live really catches, like exactly who they are, which is just, they don't want to be bothered.

    They don't want, they don't mind the policies of Trump.

    They don't mind the deportations that Obama was doing.

    They don't mind Obama blowing up kids and weddings.

    They don't, they don't mind any of that kind of stuff.

    They just don't like that it's being done by somebody who is overt and awful and, like, in your face about it.

    That's the real objection to Trump, which is, in itself, it's actually kind of disturbing.

    Because, like, all that stuff that I said and all this stuff I could go down to list about Trump and why he's awful.

    It's not because he's just like the orange turd, or whatever the fuck they call him.

    I certainly don't have to use ableism.

    I certainly don't have to use body shaming.

    I don't have to use homophobia or transphobia to criticize him.

    I would never have to do any of that stuff.

    But you see the brunch flips doing this stuff.

    The blue mega people doing this stuff all the time.

    And it's, it's fucking annoying.

    It's like, I don't need to talk about how bad he is, but maybe you guys need to think about why he's so bad.

    Because I don't think you know, I think a lot of you just are on this, like, social being.

    In the same sense that, you know, like, I lived in Gilbert, Arizona for a long time.

    And when I was there, there were a fuckload of trucks, including, like, well after he was not going to be the nominee.

    And, you know, like, probably to this day, they have bumper stickers that are, let's go brand him.

    They love this guy, they love genocide, Joe, they love crying bill Joe.

    And I don't know why they like him so much, but they hate him.

    They love to hate him.

    But the thing is, if you actually, like, listed the policies, you listed his principles and his positions, like, he is pro forced birth.

    That's not a reason for me to like him.

    That's a reason for you guys to like him.

    They hate him.

    They think that he's a communist.

    And we're just fucking, it's just silly.

    It's funny.

    It's ridiculous.

    It's absurd.

    If you had any kind of, any kind of understanding of political theory, you would know who he is and who he is not.

    There are plenty of reasons to hate that guy.

    I mean, he is a plagiarist, he is a liar and a cheat.

    And when I say he's a plagiarist, I don't mean, you know, like, I'm just throwing the word around.

    If you go back to 1988, I actually have a video pinned on my TikTok, where I have some clips from.

    from 1988 when he was in the Democratic primary and he got drummed out for plagiarism, like literally just reading other people's speeches.

    You know, almost, almost verbatim.

    It's ridiculous and over the top.

    And these, these videos are from people like, just mainstream established journalists talking about how bad it was.

    These are, these are people like Eleanor Cliff or Dan Rather talking about, like, how he's just like a doll that's, you know, a puppet.

    It's spitting out other people's words as though they were his own.

    And how his career should be destroyed or was destroyed.

    They just assumed at the time, laughably, that that would destroy his career.

    And it should have, he should have never had the political office again after 1988.

    He would be able to frankly, he shouldn't have before, you know, because there's.

    Keep plenty of reasons why he shouldn't have before, but that should have ended it for him.

    And you go back to let law school and his undergrad.

    He cheated in classes.

    He plagiarized massive chunks of papers.

    He, he was not a good person.

    He was, like, the amount of stuff that he has in common with Trump is uncanny.

    Is it both just kind of mediocre old white dudes who have their entire lives had nothing but privilege.

    Had lots of stuff handed, and you can, I understand, like, you know, okay, he's had some tragedy.

    I'm not, I'm not saying that he had a perfect life.

    You know, this isn't as similar to, um, if you have white privilege, it does not mean that your life is great.

    It doesn't mean that you never faced any problems. It just means that your problems did not come from your race.

    It means that, you know, like, I have had plenty of difficult fees in my life, but they're not coming from the fact that I'm a white male, right.

    It's just head, white male. Those are not, those are not hurting me.

    Whereas there are people who, you know, if you're, uh, like a femme dude, um, that's gonna hurt you.

    If you are trans, if you're Black, if you're brown, if you're a woman, um, all of those things are going to hurt you.

    And those are things that will be in people's way.

    And there are people with multiple intersecting marginal identities who are much more successful than I am.

    but they did it despite all of those things, not because of them.

    And, you know, I am less successful than I could be, but, you know, it might, my, my race and identity are not factors that they're not things that were in my way.

    So, anyway, um, both of these guys completely mediocre, um, lying, cheating, indecent, uh, very transgressive.

    It's, it's kind of, uh, a, a hand-to-standard part of this is a generational thing, but both of them are extremely transgressive.

    Like, there, there, there was the, this is another thing, um, you can look up the audacity of the grove.

    This was a daily show, um, there wasn't a full episode, but it was like a decent chunk, um, in there.

    So, man, the B and John Stewart.

    And it's a, it's just clips after clip after clip of Biden, um, with various women from Angela Merkel to, uh, to little girls.

    And he's like doing like this weird creepy, um, shoulder massages and getting, like sniffing their hair and just like being gross and weird.

    Um, and similarly, you know, just like Trump.

    Now, I'm not saying they're exactly the same guy, but they're so similar in so many different ways.

    Um, you know, and, and you look at like how they both cheated through university.

    They both, um, have, frankly, blown up things in huge ways that would have destroyed most people's careers.

    Um, and yet they faced no real consequences for it.

    But the stuff that Biden did in 1988 should have ended his career.

    Um, Trump losing a billion dollars and other people's money should have ended his ability to get investments and get, to have a career past.

    And yet both of these guys, uh, continued to fail upwards up to the presidency.

    It's, it, the thing about these two, especially, I think it's going to be much more obvious with the perspective of history.

    It's hard to see when you're in the middle of it.

    But with the perspective of history, um, these two guys at kind of the end cap of, of the United States as, as we've known it.

    Um, they are the perfect avatars for that country.

    They really truly are.

    They are the embodied embodiments of everything that's wrong about that country.

    Like, you could not pick, you couldn't cast better examples of, of, of what's so fucked up by the country.

    And also in both cases, you have their supporters.

    I mean, I'm going off on a, well, really a tangent.

    That's a thing that I do I guess.

    But, um, you know, this is not what I meant.

    But talk about it.

    They're both such, um, such an example of this and also the way that their supporters bot.

    loath the other person.

    Not based on how horrible they are because they both are horrible people.

    They both, you know, have endless reasons to dislike them and be disgusted by them and fin.

    them offensive and never want them anywhere near any kind of power, uh, both in th.

    terrible.

    But the people that hate them, they hate them because orange turd or, uh, you know.

    the people that hate Oklahoma, uh, they call them Obama and all that they have a B.O.

    Is a, is another one.

    There's a lot of very thinly veiled racism and horrible stuff.

    Uh, they hate him for reasons that are not like, oh, he is, uh, agent of empire.

    Um, he's an oligarch himself for aspiring one who chums up with oligarchs and blows u.

    little kids and does all those horrible stuff and doesn't, you know, does not see to i.

    that W or his administration, uh, face any consequences at all for, you know, overtly torturin.

    people, right.

    It, you know, like there are plenty of reasons to hate the supporter and chief, uh.

    that the people who hate him for the most part hate him for completely ridiculous made u.

    reasons that are not so subtly racist.

    That's, you know, the people who hate, um, Biden for the most part.

    It's not because he's genocide Joe or crime bill Joe.

    Oh, yeah, that's a thing that he did.

    Um, it's weird.

    Also, this is, this is not intended to talk about as well.

    But, uh, I, these are groups that I can't help getting into as I'm talking about this stuf.

    that came out of it because it's so fucking annoying.

    Um, Biden and Harris both built their political careers on putting Black men into prison.

    And it's, it's kind of stunning when you look at it and you look at how much they both were involve.

    in law enforcement and an unfairly taking civil rights from people and enslaving people.

    Again, like, bears endless repetition.

    The 13th amendment does not, um, for bit slavery, um, it has a little asterisk.

    It has a little asterisk.

    It doesn't abolish slavery in abolishes it, except as a punishment for crime.

    And putting an asterisk on there, it's, it's pretty special.

    It says a lot about that country.

    Anyway, um, getting back on track that where I wanted to be.

    I've never voted for a Republican.

    I can't imagine any scenario in a realistic near term that I would ever vote for one.

    You know, the party would literally have to do another one of these seismic shifts and completely reverse itself in order for me to even consider it.

    And frankly, the, the brand is so tainted, like even if, um.

    the Republicans became openly communist.

    I don't think that I can vote for a Republican.

    I just, I just don't think I could.

    And it's too, too associated with racism and Trumpism and all these things.

    Um, so it's, it's very annoying to me that people would jump to this thing like.

    Oh, somehow, because you're criticizing Democrats, you must be a Republican.

    You must be a Trump supporter.

    And I don't think, you know, I think people generally speaking, even if they don't really know the details.

    they kind of know how terrible the Republicans are.

    They don't really have that much of a clue how terrible the Democrats are.

    And it, including even actually the, the red manga people, the Republican supporters that don't like the Democrats.

    Again, they don't like them for reasons which are imaginary.

    Not for the actual reasons, not to like them.

    Not for the actual, um, problems with them.

    The actual reasons that I don't like them.

    Um, and so I want to talk a little bit about this.

    And I want to talk, I, I'm not going to talk about the parties in particular.

    I'm not going to go through, like, I don't want to go critically in it.

    And why is like the Democrats sort of this.

    And this is the, and the Republicans are this.

    Instead, I'm going to start from a different angle 45 minutes in.

    So this, this probably should have been at the top.

    But 45 minutes in them finally getting started.

    That was the introduction.

    Um, I want to talk a little bit about my principles.

    Where I stand on things.

    And then as I go through those, talk about the parties and how well they align with me.

    Um, so first of all, first of all, just to be, you know, very clear, very open.

    Um, I'm an anti-capitalist.

    I, I don't want to go into, uh, like, this is already in 45 minutes into this.

    I don't want to get into the details of what that means.

    Um, maybe I'll do that in another episode someday.

    It's worth talking about.

    Um, but just in general, um, I don't believe in or support, uh, the individual accumulation.

    a glomeration of wealth.

    Um, I don't think billionaires should exist.

    Period.

    Yeah.

    I get into a lot of arguments with people about how, uh, oh.

    that there was one that posted something on Facebook yesterday, the day before.

    about, you know, the biggest long multi-page screen about how Taylor Swift is still a human.

    She's a human being.

    And, like, people, like, it's so lazy and cheap and blah, blah, blah for people to hate her.

    I don't hate her because of anything about her other than the fact that billionaires are ontologically equal.

    The existence of the very existence of billionaires in a world where there are people who do not have enough to eat.

    We do not have shelter.

    We do not have basic needs met.

    Um, when you have people hoarding so much wealth that they individually.

    cannot spend it in a thousand lifetimes.

    Um, that is evil.

    Like, that is as close to pure unadulterated evil as, I think, exists in the world.

    Um, it is a hoarding thing and it's terrible.

    It just is intrinsically terrible.

    Um, that should not exist.

    Should just fundamentally not exist.

    And, you know, you still may be a human being.

    You still may have feelings and all those kind of stuff.

    But it does not make you a good person to be a billionaire.

    If you were a good person and somehow suddenly somebody gave you a billion dollar.

    for whatever reason, you find yourself being a billionaire.

    You wouldn't be a billionaire for very long because you would go out of your wa.

    to help as many people as you can and use the inordinate amount of resources and power that you hav.

    that again amount to, you know, the equivalent of thousands, millions of people around the world.

    You have that much.

    Um, that's ridiculous.

    Then nobody should have that much power.

    Nobody should have that much wealth.

    Nobody should be able to do the things that they can do.

    Nobody should be able to buy a city block, you know, just at will on a whi.

    because they can because they want to.

    Um, nobody should be able to, even the good stuff that they couldn't in principle do.

    but somehow never end up doing.

    Um, it shouldn't exist.

    Um, and in fact also, you know, this is just, it gets to, to this.

    Um, well, I don't, I don't want to go too far down this path because again, I will.

    I will make another one later on about the, about not being a capitalist and being anti-capitalist.

    But, it's just, it's just bad.

    It's not a good thing.

    And to be clear also, that doesn't mean that I'm opposed to you having personal property.

    You know, I, I want to have the computer that I am that I have.

    That should be my computer.

    That's, you know, my toothbrush should be my toothbrush.

    I think that's, that's fine.

    There's, it's kind of almost like a natural thing.

    Um, you know, like our ancestors had stuff that was kind of theirs.

    They had their own shit.

    Everybody kind of can have their own shit to some extent.

    If you're on island, but you can have your own toothbrush.

    You know, you can have your own space.

    You can have, you know, some stuff that you have, you've done.

    You've worked towards all of that kind of stuff.

    And when I say, you've worked towards it.

    This is part of the difference between, you know, personal property.

    And private property.

    Um, that doesn't mean that you have a company that you, you know.

    you don't get to own an apple, like apples, not your thing, right.

    Um, even if you somehow built it all yourself, which nobody does.

    uh, but you don't get to do that.

    That's not, that's, that would be the private property thing.

    You don't get to own, um, an island.

    You don't get to own a factory.

    Nobody should own those things.

    Um, that's not, and think that any individual.

    or organization really should be able to do.

    They should be collectively owned resources.

    And frankly, a lot of things shouldn't be owned by anyone.

    You know, nature has its own, you know, well.

    and I don't even want to get into that, but that's.

    a lot of things are not ownable.

    You should be able to own a person or another animal.

    Um, it's, it's, it's fucking weird, actually.

    Like the fact that people think that you can or should.

    they're, that's a fine thing to do.

    Um, I'm opposed to investors.

    I'm opposed to, you know, it's one thing for you to work on stuf.

    and make something and make something that other people find of value.

    And then exchange that with them for something else of value.

    Um, I, I, I, I, I'm much more into the gift economy and like.

    you make extra stuff in the process of doing stuff.

    And you give it away.

    But I'm not opposed intrinsically to the idea of markets and commerc.

    and exchange and that kind of stuff within reason.

    Um, but I am opposed to investors owning a company.

    uh, not really contributing to anything there other tha.

    contributing, or quotes capital.

    Um, I don't, I don't believe in capital as a concept.

    Um, and then taking the surplus.

    uh, from other people, the extra work that people have done.

    that they're not getting, uh, the reward from.

    I don't, I don't believe in that.

    I don't believe that, that is a thing that even makes sense.

    And it certainly should not happen.

    Um, I'm very opposed to that.

    Um, and, you know, if, this is, this is kind of thing.

    Like if, if somebody, you make something.

    And then it gets exchanged or sold for something else.

    You should get the part of the value that you put into that.

    You just should, um, it's, it's the way it should be.

    And even if you don't necessarily take it home yourself.

    like you could reinvest it, you could decide, okay.

    well, it would be better if we as a group.

    or making these things together, um.

    got some tools, got better tools, got better space.

    Did, didn't X or Y or Z.

    I put that into raw materials to make more stuff.

    Or to, you know, any of that kind of stuff.

    You can make that decision.

    But that's different than somebody who's, again.

    investing, um, a capitalist who owns the thing.

    That isn't contributing to the production of the thing.

    Contributing to the actual, you know, making of the thing.

    And I'm, I'm talking about making as, as though these are like widgets.

    but they could be services, they could be whatever.

    They're thinking, you know, things that, in a very abstract sense.

    you are making.

    Um, so I bring this up and, you know.

    what, what does that have to do with the Democrats or the Republicans.

    Both of these parties are capitalist parties.

    Both of them are completely diametrically opposed to where I am.

    And that, in that regard.

    And in that sense, neither one represents me.

    And neither one, even remotely.

    aligns with me on a very, just basic foundational fundamental thing.

    This is one reason why I'm not a Democrat.

    I'm not a Republican.

    I don't like either of these parties.

    I'm much, much further left.

    I assure you, then either of these parties.

    It's funny also, like, this is just an aside.

    But, you know, I like to send people to political compass.org.

    And it is not perfect.

    It is, like, I could give you an enlistment of criticisms of the site.

    And the way that they're measuring things and all those kind of stuff.

    But it does kind of, in very broad strokes.

    shine a light on the fact that the Democrats.

    the mainstream Democrats, including Bernie.

    are very vaguely, like.

    like, Bernie again is for the party kind of, like, extreme sort of middle of the road.

    And you look at, like, Obama and Clinton, both Clinton'.

    and Trump and McCain and all these people.

    They're all clustered in the upper right corner of the sort of authoritarian right.

    And, you know, there's not that far from each other.

    If you actually look, whether you like the metrics that they use or not.

    if you actually list, and I really encourage, like.

    I think this is something, this is an exercise for the reader.

    Not that you're reading.

    Maybe you are reading, I don't know.

    But as an exercise for the reader.

    one thing that I wish people would do is kind of think about what are your values.

    What are the principles that you hold dear.

    What are the things that you think matter.

    What are the things that you think are not negotiable.

    And you should have things that are not negotiable.

    I understand this weird thing that people have now where they talk about how.

    you know, you can't have a purity test.

    Purity tests are literally just or litmus tests or whatever you want to call them.

    They like purity tests because it sounds really bad.

    All it means fundamentally is having basic standards.

    You know, I will not vote for somebody who supports genocide, hard stop.

    That is a basic standard.

    That is a basement level standard.

    It is like something that should not be controversial.

    It shouldn't be something that I even have to say.

    It shouldn't even be something.

    It should be like just a given.

    Of course, you don't have to vote for anyone who supports genocide.

    Because now who would support genocide.

    Like, and it turns out, of course, both the Republicans and the Democrats support genocide.

    Both support Ecoside.

    You know, the environment that we live in that we depend on that our entire existence is based on.

    And our civilization developed and you probably should not fuck that up.

    And you probably should take care of that so that we have some kind of sustainable future that's viable.

    It's not horrible.

    That should be a basic fundamental principle.

    And if the thing about this and I'm really want to say.

    this is one of the reasons why I get annoyed with people especially.

    Democrats, the Democrats, and this one is like a rank and file thing that bothers me.

    If you had standards, if you would not, like if you.

    and when I say you, I mean, everybody who's going to vote for a Democrat.

    if you put your foot down and you said, I am not going to vote for somebody who supports genocide.

    period, hard stop, then you wouldn't have a candidate that supports genocide.

    You would have a better candidate.

    You would have a candidate that I can vote for.

    That's the fucking thing.

    And because you have that lack of standard, and especially because like I see.

    I keep seeing people declaring publicly that they're going to vote for whoever the nominee is next time.

    This is like, do you want to, let's, let's just take this a little bit more into the abstract.

    I'm going to write a contract.

    I'm going to leave all the terms blank.

    I'm going to fill those in later.

    Don't worry about it.

    You don't have to, we don't have to negotiate any of that stuff.

    You're going to sign it now, right.

    You're just going to sign the contract.

    And then later on, I'll put everything.

    the, I'm getting and everything that you're getting in there.

    And you think you.

    does that seem like a reasonable way to negotiate anything to you.

    Does that seem like it doesn't, doesn't make sense.

    You're like, you're essentially saying.

    you can be safely ignored because you're going to vote for whatever the fuck I give you.

    You're going to take it.

    You're going to accept it.

    It's very annoying to me.

    And when I say annoying, I mean, that is not nearly as strong enough word.

    It is a fucking awful.

    It is beyond fucking awful.

    And it is the reason why you have two candidates in the last election for the two majority parties.

    They're arguing with each other over who is a bigger fracker than our both pro genocide.

    The both went.

    was a two to be basically like beach property for somebody else.

    to be taken from people to be leveled.

    That is why there are no standards because you have no fucking standards.

    Like it's not me.

    It's not people that actually have standards.

    It's your fault.

    I really wish people would get that.

    I really deeply.

    but it's fucking annoying.

    I think, I think housing is a human right.

    I think just for the fact that you exist as a human being.

    you should be able to have safe, comfortable shelter.

    You should be able to not have to pay rent to exist and to live.

    That's just a fundamental thing.

    And I don't think that should be a ridiculous thing.

    That should just be a given.

    That should just be like simple.

    don't check.

    Neither party.

    Neither party is for that.

    Nobody should have to pay rent to live.

    Also means you should get food.

    And I'm not saying shitty food.

    You should be able to get decent, good, healthy, nutritious food.

    The taste good.

    Just as a matter of.

    just in exchange for existing.

    It's part of the deal.

    That's part of the package that we offer.

    It's like, okay, you're going to exist.

    And as in return for existing.

    you get that.

    Neither party.

    Neither party.

    Belief food is a human right.

    I think education is a human right.

    As in exchange for existing.

    you should have health care.

    You should have education.

    You should even have indulgences.

    I understand this is a big thing in the US with food stamps.

    You can't possibly have sugar with food stamps.

    You can't possibly have any kind of thing that you might enjoy.

    It has to be just, you know, like, terrible tasteless, awfulness.

    But I think you should be able to, like, if you want to have coffee.

    And you want to have chocolate.

    And you want to occasionally have ice cream or whatever.

    You should totally, that should be part of the deal.

    That's part of the package.

    Just for existing.

    You don't have to, to work for that.

    That's a innate human right.

    I think you have an innate in neither parties for any of that.

    I think you have an innate human right to autonomy.

    And that includes not only self-determination in terms of how you spend your tim.

    and lives, but that means you also have a fundamental right to wrong.

    You have the right to be where you are and to go someplace else.

    And that means that there's a lot of consequences.

    Like that, that belief.

    That means borders should not exist.

    Or they should at least be very open.

    Like it should not be.

    It should be maybe, if you want, like, the.

    the, I always talk this up, Shindan area in Europe.

    Where you can just go from country to country and live and work.

    And, you know, or just like the United States.

    as maybe a simpler example.

    And there should not be borders between different countries.

    You should be able to do it.

    If you want to live in Australia.

    you should be able to go to Australia and live in work.

    Module, like colonizer, self-knowledge, kind of stuff.

    There are details, obviously.

    But you should be able to.

    You should be able to go anywhere.

    The borders should be open.

    They should not exist.

    And that also means, in both parties.

    are very fundamentally deeply opposed to that.

    And I have to meet my phone because.

    I don't know if you're getting the bumps that they're.

    super annoying.

    Both parties are opposed to that.

    That's, that's like, again, basic foundational thing for me.

    That also means that cities should be accessible.

    Not just walkable.

    Although they should be walkable.

    Walkable means you, without a vehicle.

    can go from point A to point B.

    And it might take you a long time.

    It might be a little long.

    But you can do it.

    And it's going to be safe.

    You're going to have a sidewalk there.

    Probably also, they should be accessible.

    which means you can roll from A to B.

    If you're a wheelchair user.

    If you need some other group of systems beyond that.

    that should be a thing.

    There should be public transit.

    They can quickly get you from A to B.

    Now, it maybe it doesn't go point to point everywhere you ar.

    to everywhere you can go.

    But within like five minutes of walking or rolling.

    you should be able to get to public transi.

    from basically anywhere.

    And go wherever you're going.

    And then five more minutes of walking or rollin.

    to get to your destination.

    That should just be, yeah.

    And at your destination, if it's a 20 story building.

    there should be an elevator there.

    For people who can't go up 20 flights of stairs.

    It also means that there should be high speed rail network.

    built from city to city.

    And those should be much more like a better version of Toky.

    where in Tokyo is pretty good.

    Don't get it wrong.

    Compared to any US city, other than maybe New York.

    Tokyo is pretty nice.

    But you should basically be able to be wherever you ar.

    in your apartment, which again you didn't have to pay for.

    You can, if you wanted, you could pay for one that's nicer.

    But you got a nice apartment just by virtue of existing.

    You could be there.

    And I don't mean that you're sheltered, you're sheltered.

    Where house together with a bunch of other people that aren't paying.

    You can have a nice place and a nice place.

    With, yeah.

    You should be able to go from there to public transi.

    to a train station very quickly.

    And then from that train station, you should be able to ge.

    basically anywhere at a reasonable cost.

    And, you know, I'm not saying it should be free necessarily.

    Although it should be damn near free.

    It should be like a level where anyone with a tiny bit of effor.

    could do it.

    And fundamentally, I would really say, probably should be free.

    Like you should say, yeah, you could set things up so that they could do this.

    Like it does not have to be an expense that you have to incur personally.

    Now, obviously, with all this stuff.

    I can, even when I was talking about the food and the health car.

    and the educational is going to stuff.

    And then you talk about autonomy and you're like, well.

    how do you get that and square that with people having the righ.

    to choose what they do.

    Well, I hate to tell you this.

    There are plenty of people who would be doctors.

    who would be lawyers, who would be educators.

    You have a fundamental right to legal representation, by the way.

    That's another thing I believe that neither party believes.

    Fundamental right.

    But you should, there are people who would do that stuff for fre.

    if they didn't have to do, you know, like all the stuff to pay rent.

    They don't have to somehow exchange currency in order to exist.

    There are plenty of people who would make art.

    And I would personally do research and engineering for fre.

    not for other people, not to make other people rich.

    But for myself, and when I say for myself.

    I mean, I would do research that would probably advance the.

    you know, the border of human knowledge and capacit.

    and make things that are useful for people.

    I would do that and I don't need to be compensated for it.

    I need to have like a safe place to live.

    I need to have all the stuff that I was talking about.

    Not like an exhort, like I don't need to have a mansion.

    But you know, a comfortable place where I can work and where I can liv.

    and where I can just, you know, like maybe enjoy a view is a nice thing.

    Have a little comfortable workspace where you can do your project.

    or do art or do whatever you're into.

    And a plate like a little nuck where you can read.

    These are things.

    Every single person should have simply for existing.

    And we could, like, these are not like.

    this is not me to open in like, oh, if we someday.

    if we have automation, then we can really, no.

    we could do this today for everybody.

    Absolutely.

    I'm so fucking looping.

    It wouldn't even require that much restructuring of, you know.

    found a more foundational economic systems.

    It's most of, this is a thing.

    And this is, I talk about this sometimes.

    Like, I do not understand the concept of money.

    And I say that, and I'm saying it kind of gives, like, half tongue and cheek.

    But also, I mean literally, I understand, obviously, like.

    I have a PhD in physics.

    I've not undergrad degree in mathematics.

    I understand what people think the concept of money is.

    But it is so disconnected.

    The current, you know, fiat currency, all of this kind of stuff.

    It's so disconnected from any kind of real intrinsic value.

    It's one of the reasons why cryptocurrency seems to kind of make sense to peopl.

    because it's just as completely disconnected from anything in value.

    Maybe it's maybe a little bit more.

    But because of that, it's all just made up.

    It's all literally numbers in a computer.

    Like, it might as well be scores in a video game.

    And the thing about them is you could totally change all the numbers.

    and it fundamentally would not change anything.

    It's one of the reasons why I say you could do this today.

    And the thing also is, like, you could make the worl.

    much, much flatter.

    And, you know, not really impact stuff that much.

    If you look, this is a thing.

    If you look at people who are activists for far more girls.

    and you look at what they actually get paid.

    and they're working conditions, and all of this kind of stuff.

    And then you see how much it would cost to just double.

    Not like increased by a slight amount, double what they're getting paid, or more.

    And it ends up being like a penny for, you know.

    like some negligible amount of increase for produce.

    for individual, like a head of lettuce or whatever.

    And when you see, when you start seeing that.

    and you start realizing, like, how much everything is designe.

    to just be horrible, and to funnel both to funnel wealt.

    to people who are already fucking rich.

    And also to keep people, you know.

    and I think this is a thing that is easy to discount.

    but keep people struggling and keep people poor.

    And when I say poor, I mean, I'm including in poor anyon.

    that is not able to exist without working.

    Like if you, if you cannot indefinitely quit your jo.

    and just exist indefinitely without working, you're poor.

    And I understand, like, you don't see yourself as poor.

    but that is, I think a reasonable definition of poor.

    Now, there's, of course, extreme poverty.

    where you have to work three jobs just to exist.

    and all of this kind of stuff.

    And, you know, I'm not trying to undermine that or to, like, you know.

    gloss over it, that's much worse.

    but most people are poor.

    Most people.

    And part of the reason that people don't revol.

    is because you don't see yourself that way.

    You don't understand that, you know.

    you should be able to take vacation.

    You should, at the very least, if you were in the US.

    like you should be able to have the kind of lif.

    that people in Europe have.

    And the fact that you can't.

    and the fact that you don't even know.

    like most people there.

    think that they have the best healthcare on the world.

    they live in the best country in the world.

    And they have no fucking clue what they're missing out on.

    All that kind of stuff.

    That's a pretty big fucking deal.

    That's, I wish that more people would kno.

    what they're getting fucked out of.

    This is one of the reasons why I want trave.

    to be basically free.

    Yeah.

    And when I say travel is free also.

    that means you should be able to go to another cit.

    and, because housing is a human right.

    there should be places where you could stay there.

    For free.

    There should be food that you can eat there.

    Water that you can drink there.

    For free.

    There should exist that.

    None of this stuff is compatible with anythin.

    that the Democrats or the Republican.

    align with or agree with.

    And that doesn't get into.

    you know.

    like part of the rate of growin.

    means you're not like.

    I'm not allowed to just walk into somebody's apartment.

    But it does mean that you can't be like.

    the node course.

    yeah, course a lot.

    Or on.

    I can see his face.

    I can't think of his name.

    Zuckerberg.

    God.

    You're not with one of these asshole.

    who somehow thinks they can own a beach.

    That's not a thing.

    That is not a thing.

    You can have your own house.

    You can have your own space.

    But you can't have your own fucking beach.

    You can't have your own fucking island.

    You can't have your own woods.

    Oh, that kind of stuff.

    That kind of stuff.

    People, all of them say.

    you could have your own little garden.

    That could be within reason.

    Within, you know.

    you have to kind of balance this.

    There are certain things that are reasonabl.

    and there are things that are just ridiculous.

    And having your own beach is fucking ridiculous.

    Having your own island is fucking ridiculous.

    So anyway.

    the Democrats are not for any of that stuff.

    I don't know if you noticed.

    And it also, like.

    one of the things that people talk abou.

    is like, oh.

    you only want the perfect candidate in all of a sudden.

    Now, I'm willing.

    well.

    I'm not compromising on this stuff.

    but I'm willing to vot.

    for somebody who is like minimally acceptable.

    I'm not asking for somebody that agrees with all of that stuff.

    Although.

    it'd be nice.

    But I would.

    I would vote for.

    like.

    if you take care of us.

    and she was nominally.

    I'm sorry about that.

    There's an ambulance going down the street by me.

    And it's pretty.

    like, the traffic's already stoppe.

    and the ambulance is just kind of like stuck in there.

    I hope it's not.

    I waited as long as I could tolerat.

    and it's kind of down the road now.

    but it's still really struggling.

    Like.

    people are not opening the red se.

    to let them through.

    Let's just say that.

    That's the thing I saw.

    Well, I don't want to get into that.

    but then in Paris.

    I saw the same thin.

    like.

    people would not hear at leas.

    people are kind of moving out of the way.

    but they're really.

    really not doing a great job of it.

    And Paris.

    like.

    nobody got out of the fucking wa.

    when I saw this.

    It was just like.

    they're stuck in traffic.

    And if you have to get to the hospital quickly.

    and urgently.

    you're kind of fucked.

    Anyway.

    what was I talking about.

    I completely.

    completely blew my mental stack.

    Well.

    this is so embarrassing.

    Oh.

    shit.

    comfortable shelter.

    Nobody should have to pay rent to live.

    autonomy.

    Nobody can own a beach.

    That was it.

    And neither.

    neither party is.

    neither party aligns with that.

    I believ.

    that abortion is a human right.

    Just like healthcare.

    Just like the rest of healthcare.

    And again.

    I am pro abortion.

    Just like I'm pro appendectomy.

    Neither party agrees with that.

    I can hear somebody going.

    like.

    what's Scott.

    But Scott.

    the Democrats are for abortion rights.

    They're for their pro choice.

    I'm using little air quotes.

    you can't see.

    I'm pro choice.

    No, they're not.

    They're really.

    really, really.

    really not.

    I wish that.

    this is another reason I wish people woul.

    fucking pay attention.

    because.

    yeah.

    I'm just.

    if I had hair.

    I would pull it out.

    Biden.

    up until 2019.

    Biden.

    you know.

    the leader of your fucking party.

    This guy was for the hide.

    H.Y.D.E.

    for some reason.

    It always goes like.

    H.Y.I.G.H.

    team.

    or something like that.

    I don't know if it's my pronunciation.

    or whatever.

    but the hide amendment.

    Apologies.

    if it's wrong in the transcript.

    But he was for the hide amendment.

    up until 2019.

    And then somebody told them.

    you know.

    you can't be the democrati.

    nominee with.

    without kind o.

    pretending to support abortion.

    or abortion rights.

    you know.

    at least with the Hillary.

    like.

    safe legal and rare kind of bullshit.

    But.

    yeah.

    he was.

    that's who he is.

    He said.

    as recently as 2024.

    this is not.

    like in the 70s.

    although he did say it in the 70s.

    as well.

    But as recently as 2024.

    he said he thought.

    row went too far.

    After dogs.

    overturned row.

    he said he didn't want t.

    politicize the court.

    Like.

    like.

    you know.

    he didn't.

    he didn't.

    it's actually.

    comical.

    like he didn't want to politicize the court.

    Could you imagine if somebody politicized the court.

    are you fucking shitting me.

    That the cour.

    could not be more political.

    It was already political.

    just with.

    with parents.

    Thomas and there.

    And, you know.

    like.

    I mean.

    come on.

    you don't want to politicize the court.

    For abortion or choice.

    I neither is Pelosi.

    another party leader.

    neither is Clyburn.

    and you can just go down the list.

    and there are so many.

    so many people in that part.

    that are not.

    and alignment with me there.

    That's a.

    that's a big.

    it's a kind of big foundational thing.

    and it goes back to bodily autonom.

    and all this kind of stuff.

    Neither party is anti gun.

    I do not believe people have the righ.

    to have a point and click.

    murder device.

    murder remote control.

    I don't think.

    I think it's contrary to the bodily autonom.

    of others.

    that you can point somethin.

    at somebody.

    and with the zero effort in their life.

    Both parties support.

    you know.

    the.

    I mean.

    at most.

    maybe some additional regulations.

    I'm completely opposed.

    and I just don't think they should exist.

    even.

    I don't support the police.

    and they.

    you know.

    they don't protect.

    they don't exist to protect citizens.

    They are there to protect a capital.

    And, you know.

    I mean.

    if you look at their history.

    it's not that surprising.

    that they're.

    but they're actually there for.

    but they don't prevent crime.

    You can look through the statistic.

    you can look through.

    and there's been so much study of this.

    they do not.

    and it's weird that people think that they do.

    They.

    they don't even really.

    meaningfully investigate or punish it.

    and it.

    to be.

    to be for also.

    I'm not pro carceral.

    I'm not.

    for punitive justice.

    But both parties are pro cop.

    both parties are pro punitive justice.

    and carceral punishment.

    and all of this kind of stuff.

    Both parties are for slavery.

    and.

    and prisons.

    I don't support.

    you know.

    wasting millions of dollars.

    a year-end defense.

    I don't think that's a good thing.

    I don't think that's.

    and most of that.

    also.

    is not even actually spent to defend anyone.

    It's.

    it's just going to military contractors.

    That.

    you know.

    essentially it's like a socialis.

    for people that are making tanks.

    and.

    you know.

    rolling the tanks out into the desert.

    It's one of those things.

    also.

    like you make them.

    and.

    at a certain point.

    you have a bunch of weapons.

    so it's hard not to use them.

    So simply having them is a fundamentally destabilizing force in the world.

    And I think bad for that.

    but also.

    like you think about how much.

    how many resources are waste.

    on building things to kill people.

    versus.

    like.

    use those same resources to build public transit.

    or to advance the state of art for healthcare.

    or.

    you know.

    anything that's actually goo.

    and an investment in people.

    Both parties.

    on the wrong side of that one.

    Universal healthcare.

    I'm against torture.

    both parties for torture.

    It's.

    it's fucking ridiculous.

    And I can go on and on and on.

    but I think you get the point.

    Neither party represents me.

    And the reason that I talk more about the Democrats.

    than the Republicans.

    is because.

    you know.

    I can't.

    I never would have voted for a Republican.

    but I spent my entire adult life.

    up until.

    damn.

    up until the last cycle actually.

    I.

    I was not going to vote for.

    for crime bill.

    and Jim Crow Joe in 2020.

    but I got.

    kind of.

    arm twisted into it.

    But up until the 2024.

    I always voted for Democrats.

    And now I can't imagine ever doing it again.

    And the problem is.

    like.

    they pretend to align with me.

    And people need to understand that they don't.

    and you need to do somethin.

    to.

    to improve that situatio.

    and to get something that actually doesn't suck.

    And until you do that.

    we're stuck.

    We're stuck in this situation.

    I'm not.

    not necessarily.

    like.

    all of this is crumbly academic anyway.

    because I don't know that.

    a electoralism is going to get.

    the country out of the situation that it's in.

    But.

    to the extent that it can do anything.

    It's.

    I think.

    then.

    one of the two major parties is not helping.

    The.

    the other one.

    I think you already know about.

    so.

    about them.

    because.

    you know.

    of the two.

    who pretends to align with me.

    who pretends to represent me.

    Yeah, that's, that's basically it.

    Anyway.

    with all of that.

    I'm gonna.

    just trying to think if I.

    if I missed something.

    both are agents of capita.

    and white supremacy and colonialism.

    That's.

    that's basically what I was saying.

    So anyway.

    with that.

    I will talk with you more later.

    I.

    I appreciate it as ever.

    And.

    take care.

    Thank you.

    See ya.

    Thank you.

    1 hr 23 min
  • The Crazy [ sic ] Ones

    Image by Matthew Yohe, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=82773576

    Episode Transcript

    Hey there I'm Scott and this is tangents. Well, it is as I'm recording this actually the

    31st of August, 2025, planning on putting this up on the 1st of September, which is tomorrow.

    I'm not 100% sure that I won't get it up today, but it's probably just to be safe.

    I'm in Bangkok, it is 1521, and I'm looking outside of my window, and it is dumping out,

    and I fucking love the rain.

    I love the fucking rain.

    I don't like being in it, mind you, if I'm not like protected from it obviously, but I just, there's something about it,

    and maybe it's just that I spent so much of my life in Phoenix.

    And in Phoenix, like where I was born in Indiana, there is a gray sky for literally like

    2,000, literally 2,000s of the year.

    And for that time, when I say gray, I don't mean like

    differentiated.

    There are not clouds that you can see.

    It's just grey. It's just a sheet of grey.

    And that sheet of grey is undifferentiated and unwavering for months and months and months,

    and it is relentless and it is horrible.

    And by the end, when you start seeing blue again,

    it feels like just a huge relief.

    That is, like I understand why somebody who spent a lot of time

    in that circumstance would find just blue skies with no clouds most of the year appealing.
    But I'll tell you also, like for me, blue skies without a cloud in the sky,
    and the independent of just being like, you know, in Arizona, it gets up to 50 degrees,
    122 Fahrenheit.

    It gets fucking hot.

    Now it's not as humid as it is in a lot of places, but it is hot.

    And much of the summer, it is like in the 40s, at least like 41 42

    with the, and that the worst part is not like how hot it gets during the day. When you're walking around
    and your iPhone is overheating, just trying to, just trying to like look at web pages.
    Never mind trying to have like a zoom call or something on it.

    It is just melting down

    and then complaining and then telling you, you're like, I'm overheating, you need to turn me off,
    you need to go inside.

    That's the phone.

    It can't be good for me.

    But, you know, there's a problem then is, it's not even cold at night.
    Like there's a certain point where you can't go out at night without sweating.
    I like to walk.

    I need to walk.

    I need to walk.

    I really do.

    It's almost like a compulsion, physiological compulsion that I have.
    And if I can't walk, I just lose my mind.

    And for a big chunk of the year in Phoenix,

    it's so fucking hot.

    I cannot walk.

    Or I mean, I will still do it, but I'm just miserable.
    And then I need to take fucking shower twice a day, three times a day.
    Because I'm melting.

    I'm just covered in sweat.

    And at least in Phoenix, I'm like places where it's humid.
    You know, they do say dry heat and all of this.

    But at least they're, you're not like stopping wet from the sweat,

    which I am getting a little bit here, which is a little bit annoying.

    But they're, you're just kind of like sticky and you have a film on you and it's just gross.

    It's just gross.

    But that undifferentiated blue sky for me is very much like the undifferentiated,

    gray sky that I had when I was a kid.

    And the best for me, well, I guess not the best.

    I'm somebody who likes things from different places.

    I, for me, I love like a thunderstorm.

    A thunderstorm is the best weather.

    But I don't want thunderstorms constantly.

    They're miserable.

    If it was dumping like it is right now all the time,

    I wouldn't like this.

    I mean, I'm looking at the street and it is,

    it's only been raining for like 10 minutes.

    And there's so much water, like all the cars are looking like boats.

    If it was like this all the time, I would not be happy.

    I would not enjoy this.

    But, you know, going from mostly nice and you can walk

    to getting a little bit of this every day.

    Fucking awesome.

    Getting some thunder and lightning.

    Fucking awesome.

    Getting, and it's the variety.

    It's the variation that really I need more than anything.

    I need the dramatic like crashes of thunder and wind and rain.

    And then I also need like, you know, I can just go outside and feel comfortable.

    And I definitely need, I can be outside and eat and not be miserable.

    That's, you know, I'm going to eat outside no matter what,

    but I was like that as a thing that I could have almost every day,
    whatever I live.

    If I could live anywhere I could live.

    You know, if I could choose.

    So, five minutes then, I want to make this one about advertising.

    And the reason I'm doing this is this is something,

    like I have never been a fan of advertising.

    I've never really enjoyed it.

    I've never really found it to be something that is particularly compelling.

    And it's something though that, like I watched a lot of YouTube videos.

    And it is getting ridiculously over the top of noxious.

    And yeah, I could technically get YouTube premium and not have to sit through the ads.

    And in fact, I'm, I'm convinced increasingly convinced that these ads that they have on their,

    are not actually meant to sell anything.

    They're kind of a scam being run on the advertisers by YouTube to get people to pay for premium.

    So that they don't have to see the fucking ads.

    And in fact, I think the people doing the ads themselves are probably,

    I don't want to point to say it's like a form of money laundering.

    I'm not sure exactly how the economics work.

    But the people who are getting their self-advertised,

    I don't think are being critical, I think they're just giving somebody money.

    And when somebody's pretending to make ads for them.

    And the ads are not selling anything.

    They're not actually compelling.

    They're not actually targeted.

    I mean, they have all this targeting ability.

    Almost all the ads that I see are definitely not meant for me.

    They're definitely not selling to me.

    They're not something that I would ever want.

    They're not saying that I would ever even think about buying.

    And I would say like, you know, Paramount Plus is the worst master of this because

    I watch Star Trek Strange New Rules.

    I have a lot of criticisms of that.

    I'm going to cancel my subscription there as soon as the season is over.

    Incidentally, because it's kind of fucking pissing me off.

    I'm glad they're only two episodes left.

    And I'm looking forward to the end of that show.

    It's kind of depressing.

    But all the fucking ads that are on there are for like hobby lobby and other things

    that are basically equivalent, which are like these right wing stores.

    I would never, never shop at hobby lobby.

    I would never go to a Chick-fil-A.

    Like it would not.

    I went there once or twice at the Memorial Union at the ASU before I knew about them.

    Then they were shitty.

    I was not impressed.

    If you want waffle for eyes, AZD8 in Scottsdale, massively better.

    And they're not particularly more expensive.

    Although they've changed suppliers a number of times and they've emptied.

    But they're still better.

    But they're awful for eyes of shitty.

    They're chicken sandwiches.

    They're not particularly good.

    You can get a much better chicken sandwich, a lot of other places.

    All the stuff that they're supposed to be great at.

    I just don't get it.

    I don't see the appeal.

    And like if it was just a regular restaurant and not an actual transphobic nightmare,

    I wouldn't support them.

    But they're terrible.

    They're like objectionable.

    The only time recently that I've ever gone there is I was a advisor for the NAACP Youth Council in East Valley in Phoenix.

    And for some reason, people wanted that for a thing that they were doing, which annoyingly also had cops at it.

    That there's a whole lot of things I don't get into.

    But I'm not a supporter of police, but they were there.

    And they wanted to do want to check full up.

    So I got it for people.

    I kind of regret it.

    I kind of given my, given my brothers, I would not have done it.

    But I foolishly said that I wouldn't get lunch.

    Not thinking that I should put constraints on that.

    And that was what people wanted.

    So I kind of backed myself into a corner.

    Would not do that again.

    Anyway, the ads, the fucking ads.

    The ads on YouTube.

    And the reason that, you know, there are several reasons why I don't get YouTube premium.

    The first one, and the reason before, like right now, it's an extra expense.

    And I'm trying to cut that kind of things.

    I'm not trying to expend a lot of money on shit that I don't need.

    Otherwise, not like that, that expensive.

    But the reason I first canceled my subscription was, you know, I subscribed to, like,

    university day and Marcus House and what about it?
    And about a bunch of other things on there.

    And at some point, the main feed went from actually showing me the shows that I subscribed

    to when they came out to just a bunch of random shit.

    And recommendations for stuff that I would not, like, does not interest me.

    It's not stuff that, like, the targeting was terrible.

    The targeting on, for whatever you say about TikTok, especially when it was really good,

    the targeting there was amazing.

    Like, it was getting stuff that I wouldn't really want to see.

    The targeting that I've seen on YouTube, it's comically bad, just novelty, novelty bad.

    And they're showing me a bunch of this stuff at the expense of stuff that I wanted to see.

    Like, I was not even seeing notifications for new episodes of the shows that I wanted to see.

    I had to go to their pages just to see them.

    And as far as I know, it's still like that.

    And then, you know, there is a thing where you can go, which is, like, subscriptions only.

    But if I go there, then it's full of, like, Go, France, Funcat, France, 24.

    And things that are high frequency posters.

    And so it's, like, the, the algorithms to some extent are useful to filter out, like, the extra noise.

    But they've got them, like, you know, show me the fucking shit that I actually want to see.

    This is, I don't know what it is about every social media platform.

    Now, I mean, I kind of have some ideas, but one thing I really am frustrated about.

    Especially, like, meta slash Facebook, but it's generally true.

    They won't let you just have the fire hose.

    That's, that's what I want.

    I want to just see whether it was TikTok or Twitter or Facebook.

    The thing I wanted to see was all the people that I'm connected to.

    Just show me all of their fucking posts.

    Just have to be in a timeline.

    I don't need stuff filtered out.

    Or if you want to, you know, like, if somebody's posting over and over and over again,

    you want to, like, just show me some representatives stuff and then let me drill into their stuff.

    Maybe.

    But I don't want to see, like, the same five people over and over again.

    At the expense of, you know, I, on Facebook, I'm connected to thousands of people.

    And before I stopped, like, before I discontinued my account there years ago,

    I was seeing only stuff from the same five people and never seeing stuff from anyone else.

    And now it's even worse because it's like, I will see stuff from a handful of people.

    And then most of the feed is crap that I'm not subscribed to.

    I'm not connected to.

    I'm not, you know, it's just like inserted random garbage.

    Mostly from bullshit meme accounts that I would never be interested in.

    I just, it just annoys me.

    And then, of course, they're also, like, super full of ads.

    So, I mean, it's the problem whenever you build any kind of social media,

    platform or site, you have to host it somehow.

    And if you scale past a certain point, the data storage and the bandwidth and all that stuff,

    which might be very nominal to begin with, becomes enormous.

    At some point, like, you're, you're talking about four billions of people,

    using a billions of active users, billions of dollars a year.

    Like, you know, it's a significant amount of money, hundreds of millions at the very least.

    And you can't afford that without finding some way to pay for it.

    And it's true, like, if you were getting somehow like a dollar or two from each one of your users every year,

    that would cover it.

    But the problem is you've established from the beginning that it was free.

    And people will just, a abandoned ship if you start charging for it,

    especially if you start charging for it and you've turned it to ship.

    So, you have this problem.

    And the, the answer to this problem is always, like, how are you going to pay for it?

    Always ads, always selling user information.

    Like, that's just what they always land up.

    It is the most frustrating thing because some kind of social media.

    And I do think given enough time, something like that will exist,

    but something that is like what Facebook used to be,
    where you have all your information, the timeline of your life,
    eventually from birth to death, and you have, like, all your photos,
    all your connections, and disconnections, and relationship history,
    and all that kind of stuff, and a plate like a hub to connect to people.

    That kind of thing is really useful.

    It's really, like, it's a whole that exists now.

    And it's something that, you know, it's just such a shame that it doesn't exist.

    Just as a service, like, as a free public service.

    And the fact that now it's just like these horrible private corporations,

    massively enriching some of the worst people in the world,
    that's, that's what we've got.

    It's, it's fucking shitty.

    Anyway, now I'm, like, 15 minutes in.

    Getting more back to these ads.

    The ads, I mean, like, when I was a kid,

    and I, I'm not, I'm not an astrologer guy.

    I always feel bad about saying, like, when I was a kid.

    Back in my day, it might be.

    But, you know, when I was a kid,

    well, they did, they let's just think about what it is.

    And ad is essentially some kind of paid promotion that is there,

    like it exists to inform people about a product or service.

    That's somebody is presumably trying to sell you.

    And, like, when I was a kid,

    they were, you know, that they actually seem to be trying to sell you stuff.

    They seem to be, like, they didn't have individual targeting.

    They were just things tossed on TV or in newspapers or magazines.

    So you had some targeting from that, but it was very, like,

    broad geographic kind of stuff or general demographics.

    But, you know, they would have things like empire carpet.

    And in the ads for that, five, eight, eight, two, three, hundred,

    and five, like, it is seared into my, like,
    barring considerable brand image.

    I will have that phone number in my mind, the rest of my life.

    They've successfully embedded it in there.

    And I haven't heard that commercial and probably at least 20 years.

    Maybe more.

    I don't know how long ago, but a long fucking time ago.

    And it's just there.

    Four or seven W Disney.

    I called before recording this and checked.

    And it's still the number.

    And their ads got that number in my brain as a kid.

    And I still have it.

    I still have it through this day.

    If you want to go to a Disney resort,

    I know how to call them without Googling them without searching.

    Now, I'm not that I would Google anymore.

    With a doctor going or whatever ends up being the one that you use.

    They all kind of suck.

    But it is just ridiculous.

    Like, there are so many slogans.

    So many company names and all the stuff.

    Where's the beef?

    They're just like seared into my head.

    Seared into my mind.

    Apple's 1984 ad.

    Or here's to the crazy ones.

    The mistlets, the rebels, the troublemakers.

    The round pegs and the square holes.

    The ones who see things differently.

    They're not fond of rules.

    And they have no respect for the status quo.

    You can praise them, disagree with them,

    quote them,
    disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them.

    About the only thing you cannot do is to ignore them.

    Because they change things.

    They invent.

    They imagine.

    They heal.

    They explore.

    They create.

    They inspire.

    They push the human race forward.

    Maybe they have to be crazy.

    This is not the actual version of this.

    I think it's part of it.

    And then it's like a extended version or something.

    It's kind of bugging me.

    The actual one is more like here's to the crazy ones.

    The mistlets, the rebels, the troublemakers.

    The round pegs and the square holes.

    So that part is the same.

    The ones who see things differently.

    That part seems to be the same.

    Well, some may see them as crazy ones.

    We see genius.

    Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world

    are the ones who do.

    And then think different.

    Not differently.

    Because you know, like think Apple think different.

    That it's, I'm not saying it's great.

    I'm not saying that it actually lives up to what they claim.

    I'm not saying anything like that.

    It was something you're swinging for something.

    They are like selling you something.

    And when I say selling you something, I don't mean like just some guy,

    like telling you stuff.

    But they're really conveying like this is who we are.

    This is what you're buying when you buy an Apple product.

    This is, yeah.

    It's just so fucking weird to me to watch these modern ads.

    Where like if you go to YouTube,

    I finally have just installed Firefox and you block origin.

    I used to have that on my computer.

    And then for some reason, I'm sure some security things are whatever.

    Apple disabled the ability to install that for Safari.

    And I still use Safari.

    I don't like a lot of other browsers.

    But you block origin.

    Like without that, you have ad block and all these other ones.

    They still don't really do a great job of getting rid of the ads.

    You block origin seems to work.

    But I've installed it because I can't,

    I'm losing my mind watching these fucking ads on YouTube.

    And they are obnoxious.

    There's like, there's no way that I'm going to be convinced

    that any of these are actually trying to sell you anything.

    Anything at all.

    Like, and they're also so badly miscarbiding.

    Like, again, selling people shit that I'm never,

    never going to buy Grammarly.

    I didn't want to use Grammarly to begin with.

    But now I'm seeing all this fucking fake,

    audible air quotes AI bullshit for Grammarly.

    No way at hell.

    No way at hell.

    And the ads are like some obnoxious.

    Sean Williams Scott.

    Like, what he used to be when he was a kid.

    Like kid being in his 20s.

    Kind of dude talking about how he likes to,

    you know, like, the tone of what you write is,
    what?
    Fuck you.

    I don't care.

    I don't want your bullshit.

    I don't want your fucking fake ass AI giant air quotes.

    Environmental, ecological catastrophe.

    Resource and intensive plagiarism based bullshit factory.

    I do not want that.

    I will never pay for it.

    I will never use it.

    It's just, you know, like, fuck you.

    Fuck you.

    And they're incessant.

    They just keep going over and over again.

    And it used to be, like,

    they used to be a reasonable amount of ads.

    Like, it wasn't just continuous.

    They weren't.

    They would do mid roles and things,

    but they weren't, like, always constant.

    Like, you watch something in a minute later,

    bang bang bang.

    That's that's that's.

    They're so frequent now.

    They're so obnoxious.

    Like, the only way that I can make any sense of these at all.

    Is that the entire intended purpose of them is to sell YouTube premium.

    Like, to sell you, we will spare you from these ads.

    And in fact, there are even ads where they're like,

    they're selling ad bloggers on YouTube,
    which, to me, seems a little bit sketchy.

    It's like, why would YouTube sell you an ad blogger

    to stop you from watching and having to sit through the ads on YouTube?
    It seems, it just raises some questions.

    You know, it's just like, you look at that and you're like,

    something doesn't add up here.

    Something is weird.

    And, you know, like, I understand,

    like, there is the Saturday Night Live problem,
    which is, it's easy to look back on,
    you know, your memory is of the best skits,
    the best episodes.

    So you remember going back, like,

    oh, it used to be so good.

    And then you see the current stuff,

    and you're seeing all of the stuff.

    And so you go, like, well, now it sucks.

    There is that.

    I don't think that's the case here.

    I don't think I'm just remembering the good ads.

    And I do remember, like, there were terrible commercials

    back when I was a kid.

    There were always, like, you know,

    some guy who owns a store,
    not the, the Wayne's world,
    that the Noah from Noah's arcade,
    advertising his thing was an hope business
    at all selling anything on TV.

    Like, you, you look at that and it was just,

    it was weird.

    There were things like that.

    But there was a balance, right?

    There were, like, things that were actually
    good and compelling.

    At least trying, like, even that guy

    was trying to sell something.

    He was maybe not doing a great job of it,

    but was doing it.

    And now it's like some jackass.

    When I talked to my team,

    I remember my team first talked to me about
    making a titanium pan.

    A titanium cookware is not a great plan.

    Like, titanium is a really cool

    refractory metal.

    It's very, very lightweight for the strength.

    Very thermally resistant.

    But it has a very low heat capacity.

    And the thermal conductivity is not great.

    And especially, like, you know,

    volume of torque heat capacity.

    So it's like, you wouldn't,

    I don't want to get into the technical details,
    but it just does not seem like a really great choice
    for cookware.

    Other than, it's like, oh, it's titanium.

    It's like, oh, it's titanium.

    I mean, I guess it does make sense

    if you're making cookware for camping,
    because you want to make something that's light.

    Like, strong and light,

    and still is not going to burn up.

    They're fine.

    But for your kitchen,

    it just doesn't make fucking sense.

    And yeah, I see these ads.

    I see these ads for the stuff.

    And, you know, like,

    one of those ads, that the key
    harping on this one,
    but one of those ads is a bald chef
    talking about how it's going to blow your hair back.

    And I am much more distracted by, like,

    watching this fucking ad with this guy
    with no hair talking about how it's going to blow your hair.

    And I understand it's metaphorically

    going to blow your hair back.

    But if you see me talking about hair,

    it is evoking something in you.

    And it's not good.

    It's not like, oh, yeah, this makes sense.

    This is just an expression that he's using.

    Yeah.

    No, it's like, something is off-putting about it.

    Something is drawing your attention

    at a very negative way.

    And I just, I found it weird.

    I found it annoying.

    And I think, like, I know I'm a broken record

    on this, but just like, capitalism
    and especially, like,
    the agglomerative nature of all these things
    and venture capital and private equity.

    Really ruined things.

    They're really, like, take the essence.

    Like, anything that's actually an improvement,

    anything that's actually good.

    They don't like that.

    They're going to cost off the miser.

    They're going to replicate it a million times.

    And then you have, you know,

    you have basically, like, the American
    using grocery store where you go in
    and it's 50 different kinds of cereal.

    It looks like variety.

    But they're all the same fucking shit.

    They're all the same material

    in the box, like, with slightly different
    coloring and flavoring.

    They're all basically the same boxes.

    Like, you can see that the boxes are being made

    at the same fucking place.

    And the printing is maybe different

    that the boxes are the same.

    And you have maybe two or three different kinds of boxes

    because they're, like, two or three different
    mega corporations making them.

    And, I mean, they've all been destroyed.

    Like, even, yeah, and again,

    they're not saying, like, things were good.

    20 years ago or 50 years ago.

    But there was a time when they were

    at least time to try and to make food
    that was maybe that good for you,
    but at least taste it good.

    And now they're just, like,

    oh, we can shave a quarter of a cent off
    of each unit if we replace chocolate
    with something that kind of looks like
    chocolate and vaguely resembles it
    in terms of taste.

    And it tastes much worse.

    And it smells bad.

    It's just weird and off-putting.

    But, yeah, on scale,

    when you multiply that over millions of units,
    that actually ends up being a material amount of money.

    And, yeah, it's just, like, everything is being ruined

    by the finance bros with a fucking spreadsheet.

    And the spreadsheet doesn't have any connection

    to reality.

    It's just, like, somebody's manipulating numbers

    in a fucking table.

    And they go, oh, if I change this,

    then that I can get another,
    I can get an extra bonus and get a new house.

    I need a fifth vacation home.

    You know, I need an extra yacht

    or I need another private jet
    or whatever the fuck.

    It's just, like, this is,

    it's one of the things also
    that I just lose my mind about because
    the entire system there.

    And I talked about this a little bit

    in a previous one of these,
    but I think
    Bangkok has some, probably Thailand in general,
    but certainly Bangkok has some stuff
    that really reflects the extreme
    of this sort of,
    everyone for themselves,
    self-optimization, self-maximalization,
    kind of, I'm going to advance myself
    in any expense and, you know, all of this.

    And you end up with stuff, like, you do end up with stuff

    that looks nice.

    They're like, I'm staring at a bunch of buildings

    that look cool.

    I'm staring at a road that looks nice.

    I'm staring at trees that are lovely.

    But you also, like, you kind of dig beneath that

    and you go down the other way
    and there are people
    in object poverty
    living in essentially improvised homes.

    And there are people

    just, you know, like, desperate
    begging for money on the streets.

    There's not, like, a social safety net per se.

    And you look at, you know,

    like, did just that disparity.

    And also, like, there are so many things,

    this is one of the ones that really gets to me.

    But this whole thing where you're going to optimize,

    the problem is what you're optimizing for
    is not, like, making your customer happy.

    Is that even that you're trying to make something

    where you're like, okay,
    I'm going to make a good product.

    I'm going to make a company

    and people will know
    if they buy something from my company.

    It's made well

    and somebody actually gave a shit about it
    and somebody was trying
    and all this kind of stuff.

    If you do that right now,

    what will happen is some other asshole
    will copy your shit
    and make a cheaper version of it.

    And people, and this is, like,

    it's not just the people on that side,
    the people who are not discerning
    as customers, just buying, like,
    the cheapest version of something
    without looking at, like, does it taste better?
    Does it, you know, does it whatever?
    They end up buying the cheaper shit
    and they put out the, or put the
    better one out of business.

    And you have this race to the bottom

    and it's just, it makes everything suck.

    It makes everything fucking suck.

    Everyone has to have a car.

    This is a thing, like, I haven't gotten rid of my car.

    I've been trying to do this for a long time

    and I don't know, like, as I am right now,
    on my, I don't know if I would call this a vacation,
    on my travels that I'm doing right now.

    Not having a car is not a big deal.

    You know, not having a car

    being here, like, in walk, it's not, it's easy.

    It's actually quite easy.

    But I get back, especially if I go back to Arizona,

    not having a car will be annoying,
    which to me, like, my conclusion there is basically
    I want to be someplace where I don't need a car.

    I want to live someplace where I can just walk.

    I want to live someplace where I'm like a five-minute walk

    from a metro station.

    But, yeah, this thing where everybody

    in the US has to have a car.

    You have to have your own car, and it's freedom.

    If you have your car, it's freedom,

    and that you can be part of traffic.

    And you just look at, like, there's, well,

    one of these things also a bunch of people have copied it,
    and so there are a million different versions of this,
    but somebody at one point made a cartoon,
    and it's just a picture of a road
    and a bunch of individual people
    each driving a personal car.

    And then the same number of people

    if they're in bicycles, or on a train,
    or walking, or whatever,
    and you just look at, like, how much more densely
    people can get packed in,
    and how much more efficient it is
    in terms of use of space, and time, and energy,
    and any metric that you want,
    including comfort, by the way.

    Having a comfortable public transit system

    with high frequency trends,
    and when I say high frequency,
    I mean, you know, like, a good public transit system.

    If you're in the US,

    and unless you have spent, like, a significant amount of time in New York,
    or maybe DC, or maybe,
    I'm trying to think of other cities that have,
    like, there are some,
    the need to Chicago,
    Pittsburgh, they have, like, some stuff.

    San Francisco has some stuff,

    but it's not really, like,
    there's a metric station,
    and I mean, the contrast to that,
    and I'm not going to say, like, Paris is perfect,
    because Paris, it's not very accessible.

    It's not built.

    It's definitely not built

    for people with, you know, like, elderly people,
    or people who have trouble going up and down stairs.

    There's another thing about here,

    like, it would be very difficult for my mom.

    The streets are fairly,

    well maintained, although there are bumps,
    but if you're going to walk any significant
    difference, they're distance.

    You're going to have to go up and down

    a bunch of stairs here,
    which somebody with limited mobility
    is going to have trouble with.

    Somebody elderly is going to have trouble with that.

    My mom, in Paris, like, a decade ago,

    had trouble getting up and down the stairs.

    Not at every metro station, like,

    some of them have elevators, a lot of them have escalators,
    but some of them are just stairs,
    and some of them are really a lot of stairs,
    and, you know, like, I am, in okay shape,
    I like running up and down stairs,
    and I'd get winded sometimes,
    and, you know, for somebody with limited mobility,
    it's not a great situation.

    But you can build metros that are built well for that.

    You can build cities that are not just built

    for walking and cars,
    but for people.

    And when I say people, I mean, you know,

    people in general, people
    whatever their abilities are to get around.

    But, the module of that, you know,

    like, you fix that one thing.

    In Paris, there are all of these lines,

    and you know, if you live, like, way off
    on one line, and you're kind of out in the,
    the suburbs, it's different.

    But if you're someplace like in the heart,

    in one of the big, around these months,
    the sort of main areas of the city,
    you're going to have a couple lines
    that you can walk to.

    Almost anywhere you are, you can walk

    like five minutes in almost any direction.

    You'll run into a metro station,

    or airway or VR station,
    or something like that.

    And the train will come,

    depending on the time of day,
    every couple minutes,
    maybe every five minutes.

    Some of the really infrequent ones

    would be like every seven minutes,
    or maybe off hours, every ten minutes.

    But even ten minutes,

    it's annoying, but it's not like terrible.

    But when it's like every two minutes,

    it's such high frequency.

    You don't really have to plan.

    Even though it's every ten minutes,

    you don't really have to plan,
    because just on average,
    you're going to be waiting there probably
    like five minutes tops.

    And you do that,

    and you can just get around so much easier.

    You don't have to park.

    You can get almost to wherever your destination is.

    And then when you're there,

    you can just walk around.

    You can just, you know,

    I cannot convey.

    I really would like,

    you know, if you're listening to this
    and you haven't traveled,
    I'm kind of like you to travel a little bit
    and go someplace.

    If you can,

    where this is a possibility,
    and just to experience it,
    because it's so much better.

    It's so much better.

    It's not just that, you know,

    places in the,
    or quotes developed world that
    doesn't have universal healthcare
    of some sort.

    And then, you know,

    you can, you can go into medical bankruptcy.

    You get in a crash

    or your kid gets cancer
    and it destroys your life,
    financially destroys you.

    It's not just that it's like that.

    It's not just that, you know,

    like going to university there,
    destroys you.

    Like I,

    I'm very glad I have a PhD.

    I loved spending all the time

    that I did in undergrad and grad school.

    But at the same time,

    I have a house.

    Well, I guess now houses have gotten

    so expensive.

    Not quite anymore,

    but I have hundreds of thousands of
    dollars in student loan debt
    that barring,
    like a ridiculous salary.

    I'm never going to be able to pay off.

    Like,

    maybe someday I do something
    and it's extremely,
    renovated,
    but short of that,
    it's just going to be dead
    that I'm settled with
    for the rest of my life.

    And, you know,

    that side of it,
    like just to get an education
    getting that fucking sucks.

    Being in a place

    where like the difference,
    not having my car.

    Now granted,

    I had an expensive car
    and insurance for it was
    expensive and all that stuff.

    Although,

    now cars are just kind of expensive
    and it's easy to
    easy to end up having a pretty high
    monthly payment for them.

    But,

    yeah,
    even if you're kind of
    working on that,
    you're trying to be
    cost-efficient,
    you're going to end up with something
    where it's either
    direct expenses,
    where you're just paying
    the lease,
    or the loan,
    and insurance and all that kind of stuff.

    Or,

    you know,
    you have an older car
    maybe a cheaper car,
    but it means a lot of maintenance.

    And then the maintenance

    is this kind of random,
    stochastic thing
    where all of a sudden one day,
    you might not have a car that works.

    And you just have to,

    you have to roll the dice
    all the time you might have
    no air conditioning that works.

    Or,

    you know,
    and when it doesn't work,
    who knows how much you're going
    to have to pay to get it fixed.

    Now, this is a massive problem.

    Versus,

    and everybody has to have that.

    Every single person has to figure out

    their own transportation.

    Versus,

    build a city
    where we have good public transit,
    where you can walk around
    where you can wheel around
    where you can get from point A to point B
    without having to have your own vehicle,
    without having to figure it out yourself.

    You have,

    I mean,
    it's such a ridiculous idea
    that you're going to have
    millions of people solving the same problem.

    Versus,

    we have a problem that millions of people have.

    Let's just solve it once.

    Let's just figure out how we can

    solve this,
    because there's just no way
    that it's going to be cheaper
    to have everyone individually
    doing it their own way,
    doing it differently.

    Then it will be to figure it out once

    for everybody
    or figure it out two or three times.

    You could have like trains

    and buses and some kind of exotic
    people move very kind of stuff or whatever.

    And you have some options.

    You know,

    you have ways to get from one place to the next.

    And it's just,

    I don't know,
    it's such a frustrating thing.

    And of course,

    in the US,
    if you are poor,
    it's become a luxury
    to live in places like New York City
    where there's actually a walkable city.

    And there's actually a good public transit.

    A good by relative terms

    because they haven't really invested in it
    in a long time.

    It's kind of a decay.

    But still,

    I would take,
    I would live in New York
    way sooner than almost any other US city.

    Like if I had the money.

    And you think,

    but also,
    and again,
    I never want to go back
    and say like,
    oh, things used to be better.

    Things used to be.

    I don't like that idea.

    I think generally speaking,

    well,
    there's no directionality
    to stuff necessarily.

    But I do think

    on almost any metric.

    Yeah,

    you go back.

    And it's like some things were better.

    Some things were worse.

    But on average,

    things tend to improve.

    But you could definitely say,

    like, you know,
    you watch all the 80s movies.

    And there are people living in New York City

    that are just artists.

    And they're living pretty decent lives.

    And even granted movies are not reality.

    They're not like a direct

    replication of
    reality.

    But they're kind of vaguely based in reality.

    It's not like the people in

    friends
    were all,
    you know,
    actually being able to live in
    the conditions that they are presented in.

    But you could have at one point in time

    lived in New York City
    and not been rich.

    And I had to have like a thousand roommates.

    And now you just can't do that.

    And it's fucking sucks.

    Especially if you're poor.

    I mean, this is one of these examples of just

    poverty tax.

    Like if you're poor,

    you get much higher interest rates on everything.

    You know,

    if you're rich,
    if you're wealthy,
    especially,
    you can get tax breaks
    on buying a private jet.

    Like it is completely ridiculous.

    And this is one of these things that sounds

    made up.

    It sounds like you're just

    come on.

    Come on.

    But if your tax liability,

    like what you owe in taxes,
    is $50,000,000,000 a year,
    or your company's tax
    liability because mostly that's not people.

    It's people have a corporate structure or something for it.

    If you are making enough money,

    or taking enough money,
    so that you would owe that much in taxes,
    you could instead of paying that,
    go,
    I'm just going to get a private jet.

    And I'm going to buy the jet

    and step me to appreciate it.

    This is in the new tax,

    the big, beautiful bill.

    And it was kind of in there before,

    but they made it even worse.

    It was also,

    I don't want to make it sound like
    this is just a Trump thing.

    This was bipartisan,

    and it's been,
    to some extent,
    it has existed for a very long time,
    but Trump is definitely taking this to a new extreme.

    But again,

    totally bipartisan,
    and for a very long time,
    it's been like this.

    You can pay for that jet.

    You can pay for the fuel,

    the operating expenses,
    all of that kind of stuff you can pay for training,
    or whatever you want.

    As long as you're using it,

    you can give vaguely for business,
    which means,
    whenever you fly someplace,
    you spend 10 minutes in a meeting with somebody,
    and now it's a business plate.

    You can pay for it instead of paying those taxes,

    but it's the most fucking ridiculous shit.

    Like,

    it actually,
    like the way things are structured,
    it's not a rational decision for somebody that's making a lot of money
    to also pay for transit,
    but in addition,
    just write it all off and get your own private jet,
    and now you don't have to deal with security,
    or any of this other shit.

    Now of course,

    your carbon footprint is completely ridiculous,
    and you're making the world a materially worst place,
    and also,
    you're concentrating all of that,
    you're depriving the public of those resources
    that could be used to make transit better for everybody,
    and you're also,
    like,
    it's just worse for everybody.

    I've said this before,

    but it's kind of worse for you,
    because you do have this thing where you have to,
    you have to get to the airport,
    how do you get to the airport?
    Well,
    you have a really nice car,
    you have a private driver,
    and all that kind of stuff.

    Okay, so now you're at the airport,

    and you fly someplace.

    When I had you get from the airport,

    now you have to rent a car,
    or you have to,
    if you really rich,
    have a car at the airport you're going to,
    have a driver there who's flying with you,
    or,
    you know,
    who just lives there or whatever,
    it's just like,
    versus,
    you know,
    especially like,
    high-speed trains,
    but the difference between,
    that kind of flying,
    and say,
    I talk about this particular way,
    but,
    it just annoys me,
    I'm,
    you're in Tokyo,
    and you take a 10-minute ride to Tokyo Station,
    and then you buy a shinkansen ticket,
    and you can buy a shinkansen ticket,
    almost certainly for a lot of the,
    the destinations that it,
    like the Kyoto or Osaka.

    There's a train going every 15 minutes,

    maybe every half hour,
    most of the day,
    you buy a ticket on that,
    does not cost that much,
    hop on the train,
    and then it's like a two and a half hour ride,
    and you're going the distance that you would be going from,
    say, Phoenix to LA,
    but in Phoenix,
    if I want to,
    if I want to get on a train
    and ride a train to LA,
    it's a, it's a fucking joke.

    It's,

    it's expensive,
    it's slow,
    and getting two and from the station,
    and both ends,
    it's a pain in the ass,
    and they're not frequent,
    it's just,
    it's a miserable experience,
    versus,
    you know,
    again,
    you,
    you walk five minutes to the,
    the metro station,
    you go to Tokyo Station,
    and you get on the train,
    get the ticket,
    you don't even have to plan,
    it could be an impromptu thing,
    and you get there,
    and then when you're there,
    oh,
    there's a train that you can take,
    and you hop on that,
    you may be changed,
    and then you walk five minutes,
    and you're wherever you're going.

    It's,

    it's like,
    I cannot convey,
    how much nicer that is,
    how,
    and how much cheaper it is,
    too,
    and how much easier it is,
    and less painful.

    Versus,

    like,
    all the extra coordination you have to do,
    all the extra expense,
    all the extra,
    like,
    dealing with traffic,
    and dealing with all the,
    these other things,
    and no granted,
    if you're really rich,
    you can pay somebody to do it,
    and that's something I guess,
    but,
    you know,
    it's just such a better experience,
    for,
    for the average person,
    you know,
    I guess you have this veil of ignorance,
    concept,
    which is,
    you should organize society,
    so that if you become a random person in that society,
    your life is okay,
    like,
    maybe it's not amazing,
    but,
    you know,
    you're going to be comfortable,
    and we,
    we have the resources,
    we have the space,
    we have all the stuff,
    to basically give everybody housing.

    This is a thing,

    like,
    I get really upset,
    I talk a lot,
    like,
    if you look at my,
    my Facebook interactions,
    if it comes anymore,
    is,
    well,
    okay,
    people who,
    like,
    one cluster of people,
    are very,
    aware of the current pandemic,
    and so I interact with them.

    I then you have a bunch of people also,

    with a lot of overlap incidentally,
    who are very aware of what's happening in,
    in, in, in, in, in, in, in, in,
    and in,
    and we talk about that kind of stuff,
    and then I'm connected to a lot of,
    you know,
    and I'm talking about a bunch of loads,
    and a lot of what I'm doing there,
    and this is,
    it's kind of thankless,
    and it is a deliberate act that I'm,
    you know,
    I think some people think that I'm trying to control people,
    but what I'm really trying to do there,
    is actually like inject a little,
    you know,
    there are other things,
    there are other options,
    there are other ways to see things and do things,
    besides what you've been told,
    and these people,
    very, very commonly,
    think, you know,
    like if you're criticizing the Democrats,
    then you must be a Republican.

    You must be a Trump supporter.

    The frequency with which I get somebody,

    that's like,
    you know, I say something that, you know,
    like, I'm really criticizing the Democrats
    from the left,
    clearly,
    I'm not making,
    you know,
    there's no reasonable way you would look at whatever I say,
    and go like,
    that guy is definitely the pro-fascist.

    I'm sitting there saying,

    like Gavin Newsom is a transphobe,
    and he is a transphobe,
    that is unambiguous,
    absolutely is.

    He's anti-homeless,

    unambiguous,
    absolutely is.

    You know, if you look,

    I mean,
    he just had this thing where,
    you know, he's like clearing out homeless
    and campments,
    clearing out,
    not getting rid of them by giving people homes,
    which would be fucking easy,
    but he's taking people's homes from them.

    And, you know,

    somebody who had gotten an argument with there,
    and she's like,
    oh, well, you know,
    he's, you have 48 hours notice.

    For first off, she was like,

    oh, why is he a fascist?
    And I completely incredulous.

    Then I explained the transphobia,

    and I explained the anti-homeless stuff,
    and then she comes back with me.

    Well, the things are,

    which is kind of weird,
    because it was like,
    obviously you kind of seemed to know
    about this or at least you did research on it.

    But, you know,

    like, oh, you have 48 hours notice.

    Where the fuck are they going to go?

    Somebody has no home.

    They have no resources.

    And they just have improvised housing.

    What are they going to do?

    Like,
    I don't know what the fuck people think.

    Like,

    how do you think somebody is going to move someplace?
    And where are they going to go?
    Where are they going to move?
    They don't have the resources.

    And the best thing that they can do,

    maybe,
    is go to a shelter,
    but the shelters
    are like designed to cram a bunch of people together
    and warehouse them,
    and dehumanize them and be miserable,
    and have their shit stolen,
    and have them be under physical thread.

    And even then,

    it's not like you can just,
    like,
    all you have to do is give people fucking space,
    give people a little studio apartment.

    And I don't mean,

    like you put all the studio apartments in one place,
    you know,
    that I hope you can understand
    why that is not a good plan.

    But you have,

    literally,
    like every block,
    you could have a couple of social housing
    things,
    and they could be things,
    you know,
    don't make them just for people
    who are coming off the street,
    make them things that,
    you know,
    like if you are living in a city
    or you're visiting,
    you could just go there.

    You could just,

    now,
    exist there.

    And you could have a scale price and things,

    so it's like,
    if you have no money,
    it's free.

    It's,

    you know,
    and in,
    I know that sounds ridiculous,
    but you could do it.

    It's not a bad thing.

    It's a good thing.

    And then if you make more money,

    or you have more money,
    you can pay a little bit more.

    And if you have a lot of money,

    you know,
    make them nice.

    Make them things that people

    with a lot of money might actually
    want to stay in,
    and have enough of them.

    And, you know,

    like give people space to
    store their shit,
    give people space to be comfortable,
    give people space,
    so that if you don't have a job,
    you're not going to be,
    like this is one of the things
    that I really was struggling with
    in my last job was just,
    you know,
    first off,
    my medical care,
    the biggest stresser for me.

    I had this eye thing,

    and,
    you know,
    I had stuff that was ongoing
    that had to be done that took
    between last November,
    which is coming up on a year
    from now,
    or a year ago now,
    wild.

    I guess maybe it was October.

    Whenever it was,

    from the time that I had
    because I had detached
    right now,
    to the time that I got
    the lens installed,
    you know,
    the trek to me,
    and recovery from that,
    waiting,
    and then getting,
    if they're getting,
    the cataract surgery,
    and all that kind of stuff.

    All that stuff,

    needed insurance.

    I could,

    there's no way you could pay
    for that without insurance
    and without some kind of resources.

    So if I would have lost my job,

    I would have been fucked.

    You know,

    like,
    I would have,
    and technically,
    okay,
    I've got, like,
    my sister,
    I have friends that I could probably stay with.

    But I do,

    I really want to impose on somebody else.

    And if I am staying there,

    do I have my own space?
    Like,
    what?
    I,
    I realize,
    from traveling and all this kind of stuff.

    I need,

    I don't need that much space.

    I don't need that big of a space.

    But I need,

    like, a desk.

    I need a place to,

    to be comfortable.

    I need a place to store myself.

    I need,

    you know,
    like,
    it'd be nice to have a couple
    square meters of flat space.

    Where I could put some papers and,

    and some things.

    I need a comfortable chair.

    Having a window with a nice view.

    It's really nice.

    And it kind of sounds,

    something,
    but it's nice.

    And you could do that.

    You could totally make things like that for everybody.

    I need a shower,

    and a bathroom.

    And I want those things to be mine.

    Like, I'm not saying that,

    yeah,
    and again,
    I'm sitting here talking about how,
    it's good to build things.

    Communally,

    and all this kind of stuff.

    Communally stuff doesn't mean you have to share everything.

    You can have shared resources,

    and still have nice housing for everybody.

    Have an apartment for everybody.

    And one of these people that I was getting

    in this argument with,
    she mockingly,
    derisively said,
    like, oh,
    well,
    as soon as you're born,
    we should just give everybody a home.

    And yeah,

    as soon as you're born,
    as a human right,
    you should be a thing that everybody has.

    It doesn't mean that you are handing people mansions.

    It doesn't mean that you're handing people,

    you know,
    selling them expensive houses.

    But you should not have to worry about being on the street.

    You should not have to worry.

    But if you need,

    if you get sick,
    if you need surgery,
    if you can't work for a little while,
    if you get burned out,
    you should just be able to show out for a little while.

    If you want to write a book,

    and you don't want to work for somebody else for a while,
    you should be able to do that.

    If you want to do research,

    if you want to,
    yeah, you could just go through the list.

    If you're an artist,

    and again,
    I'm not saying that you're getting like a massive artist's loft
    in Manhattan, right?
    Not every,
    there are things that are finite resources,
    and we can't just do that for everybody.

    But you could give everybody who wants it,

    a little, again,
    a studio apartment,
    with a little space to do,
    to work on some stuff,
    whether that's art,
    or writing,
    or whatever.

    We can,

    you know,
    put those things all over the place,
    and have to be something where you can go to any city,
    and you could just chill there.

    You could just,

    and have the stuff be dense enough,
    that you can have,
    like,
    around where people live,
    you can have restaurants,
    you can have shops,
    people don't need to have a fucking car,
    so they don't have to pay for that,
    have good public transit.

    Yeah,

    just,
    that's the way it should be.

    Obviously,

    it should be that way.

    And also,

    like,
    you should be able to,
    and again,
    I'm not saying,
    you're going to,
    like,
    Michelin star restaurants,
    every meal,
    but you should absolutely be able to have,
    like,
    food.

    And when I say food,

    I don't mean just,
    like,
    something that's pastless and shitty,
    but I have good food,
    like decent food.

    You should be able to have some indulgences.

    You should be able to,

    like,
    and again,
    I'm not saying,
    you're getting, like,
    massive luxury shit,
    but,
    you know,
    you should just be able to,
    enjoy yourself,
    and have a comfortable life and existence,
    independent of,
    having to work for somebody else.

    That's just the way it should be.

    And the way that things have structured,

    where you're essentially,
    like,
    like, you have a gunnier head,
    and it's like,
    you have to,
    you have to work,
    and you have to work.

    Not just one job,

    in many cases,
    but like,
    a lot of people have to work so much.

    They have to do so much

    in order just to scrape by.

    It's,

    it's miserable.

    Like,

    and I know,
    like,
    part of it is,
    you have people paying rent,
    just to exist,
    and then somebody is,
    is making money from that.

    That's,

    fucking brilliant.

    Somebody that doesn't have to work

    to live,
    by the way.

    Somebody who does have essentially

    a post scarcity living.

    You know,

    like you look at the people who are born into money,
    and they essentially,
    they,
    they don't have to work to live.

    They don't have to work to pay for shit.

    They don't have to do anything.

    They can just chill out.

    And,

    and again,
    if this is like the,
    do you have that for,
    a tiny,
    minority of people,
    based on a genetic lottery,
    or do you do that for basically everyone?
    And again,
    like,
    I'm not saying everyone needs to have a fucking private jet,
    but everyone should have the ability to get around a city.

    Everyone should have a place to stay.

    Everyone should have,

    you know,
    like if you want to have coffee every day,
    you should be able to have that.

    If you want to have nice food,

    you should be able to have that.

    If you,

    if you get sick,
    have medical care.

    Have,

    and not just medical care,
    but yeah,
    like,
    just say,
    a cold,
    or flu,
    or COVID,
    or whatever.

    You could have a place to stay,

    and kind of be taken care of.

    And not have to sit there and,

    the end for yourself.

    Like,

    the way that we've made society.

    I was,

    I was talking to a friend here,
    in Bangkok.

    And he was pointing out,

    in a couple of weeks ago,
    when I first came here.

    It's mild that I've been here.

    Pesipin' a couple of weeks,

    or is it just one week?
    I don't know,
    I guess it's just one week.

    That's wild.

    But,

    it feels like a couple of weeks.

    I have another week more.

    But anyway,

    I was talking with him last week.

    And,

    you know,
    he's talking,
    he is a kid.

    He's talking about how hard it is to raise kids.

    And part of what makes it hard

    is again,
    we're not solving this as a community,
    like sitting there going like,
    oh,
    we have this problem
    that everybody has that wants to have a kid.

    Let's figure out ways to make that work.

    Let's figure out places that people can be.

    Let's figure out,

    like common ways to take care of each other.

    You know,

    have a bunch of parents get together
    and the kids can all kind of hang out
    and you trust people because you're in a community.

    And so,

    if you want,
    you can go out and do stuff on your own.

    You don't have to be sitting there

    taking care of your kid constantly.

    And you can trust that the kid's going to be okay.

    And, you know,

    if you get sick or they get sick,
    somebody's going to take care of them or you.

    And, you know,

    like,
    it's just like basic shit.

    And yet,

    today,
    the way things are,
    everybody's got to solve this shit for themselves.

    And so,

    it's wildly expensive
    because you're,
    it's like everybody buying a private jet,
    versus having
    shun constant,
    and having a metro.

    And it just doesn't make any sense

    in terms of efficiency.

    There are things like having your own space,

    having your own toothbrush.

    Don't,

    you don't have to shit with toothbrush with people.

    But it's silly for everybody to have a fucking car.

    It's silly for everybody to have their own jet

    if you want to go to an extreme with that.

    Like,

    it's just ridiculous.

    And that's the way things are right now.

    And at some point,

    you can just tell,
    I think,
    assuming that human civilization
    continues past,
    yeah,
    we don't completely collapse.

    And people are still here in a hundred years,

    or a couple hundred years.

    There will be a time

    where people will look back at this stuff,
    in the same way that you look back
    at medieval Europe.

    And, you know,

    under feudalism,
    you're just like,
    how the fuck was it like that?
    How did people think that that was an acceptable thing?
    How did people,
    you know,
    I mean,
    including up to the point where,
    like, you know,
    throwing literally throwing shit out under the street,
    that's kind of what the world is.

    Now, people are just poisoning the air

    and the water.

    And, you know,

    sometimes literally,
    with shit,
    but also,
    you know,
    just pollution.

    Or, like,

    everybody's got their own fucking motor.

    This is,

    you know,
    I'm talking about Bangkok specifically,
    but,
    any place where you have a lot of,
    like,
    everybody's got a little scooter.

    And the scooters are not electric.

    So,

    if you get on the road,
    and it has,
    like,
    one of the benefits of raining,
    it's going to be clear out now.

    But,

    get rained,
    and now it's going to be clear air.

    But,

    you go out to places,
    and it will be smoky,
    and smoky.

    Either,

    you know,
    the emissions,
    controls,
    obviously,
    on some of these things,
    they're not,
    I'm not great.

    It is an interesting thing,

    you know,
    when you look at,
    and again,
    I'm pretty anti-car.

    I,

    I'm going to say,
    like,
    I know people who will
    get on me for,
    like,
    oh, you're so ableist for,
    like,
    I'm not saying that you should,
    nobody should ever have a car.

    I'm not saying that there aren't

    reasons that you might need a car or
    might want a car.

    But things should be built and organized,

    so that,
    even if you have limited mobility,
    you can get around,
    and if that means,
    you know,
    having a private car occasionally,
    now,
    then that's different.

    Yeah,

    but it doesn't mean that every single human being
    on the planet has to have their own private car.

    And also,

    like,
    you can have car shares,
    like,
    why does everybody need to have
    their own car all the time?
    You can,
    you can share them.

    And if you build things right,

    and you build things,
    so that you don't need the car every day,
    then it's not a big deal.

    It's not,

    it's just,
    it's just frustrating.

    It's like,

    so,
    somehow,
    it's just,
    it's just frustrating.

    It's like,

    so,
    simultaneously,
    so easy,
    and such a,
    for the moment,
    and track the whole thing.

    And the frustrating thing for me more than anything,

    is that they don't get how ridiculous it is,
    that you're on the freeway,
    and you are traffic,
    and you go into,
    like,
    you go into LA,
    and you see the 405,
    and everybody's like,
    they're bumper to bumper,
    and everybody's got to drive themselves.

    Everybody's got to have their own fucking car,

    and fuel those and all this.

    And just,

    the difference between that,
    and solving the same problem
    in a way that makes more sense,
    like a fucking train,
    train would be,
    I'm very pro-train,
    in case you can't talk.

    But you know,

    train,
    you can have one,
    even if you don't automate it,
    which is trivial,
    like,
    they've had automated trains
    for,
    I don't know,
    when the,
    the number one line in Paris was automated,
    but it's been decades,
    at least,
    and they've been able to automate stuff
    for a very, very long time,
    that way.

    Yeah,

    it's not like new technology.

    It's not like self-driving cars

    that were kind of like on the cusp
    of being able to manage that quite.

    This is stuff that you've been able to do

    for decades and decades.

    And even if you didn't do that,

    you could have one conductor
    driving the equivalent of how many cars
    worth the people.

    And,

    of course, you put automation,
    and you put all this kind of stuff,
    and you could have stuff
    scheduled,
    you could have a high frequency.

    And it's just,

    in any way,
    you want to look at it,
    it's more efficient,
    and frankly,
    more comfortable.

    Yeah,

    and if you build it right,
    and you think about it,
    you don't make it
    actively hostile to people,
    then,
    and you don't do the thing that,
    like,
    oh,
    yeah,
    we have the light rail in Phoenix,
    but,
    first off,
    they only come every,
    I don't know if it's seven minutes,
    or 15 minutes,
    whatever it is,
    it's too long,
    the frequency is not there.

    But also,

    it's so fucking slow.

    It's like,

    I can,
    I could certainly drive
    from Tempe,
    by ASU campus,
    the downtown.

    I can drive faster than I can take the train.

    That's not how it should be.

    Public transit

    should and could be faster,
    or at the very least,
    has fast.

    Now,

    granted,
    you have to park,
    and all those kind of stuff,
    and to end.

    So when you add that in,

    the public transit's may be a wash,
    but,
    you know,
    and again,
    I'm glad that Phoenix has a light rail.

    I'm glad that there's some progress in that direction.

    But you just look at it,

    and it's like,
    I,
    I guess I would feel better about it
    if human lifetimes were a lot longer.

    But I look at it,

    and I'm like,
    I can imagine,
    I can squint and see,
    maybe in 50 years,
    Phoenix will be like a city
    that actually,
    assuming that it's still high,
    but I've all of those.

    It'll be a city that has,

    a kind of,
    okay, public transit system.

    And it might have a few other metro lines,

    and I can imagine that,
    like,
    Bangkok will have,
    all of their metro systems interconnected,
    and the stations,
    not like,
    forced people to walk,
    a ridiculous,
    and like,
    it really is kind of funny,
    how you have these stations,
    that are like,
    two stations will be adjacent to each other
    on the different systems,
    but it's still a good 15 minute walk
    from one station to the next,
    and then, of course,
    you have a different card on the two lines,
    and it's just like,
    why, why do you guys do this?
    And I do know,
    you know,
    part of this,
    unfortunately,
    is just things happen on a very long time,
    scale compared to human experience.

    And you look at Tokyo,

    and they,
    they still kind of have separate private systems,
    but it's also sort of interconnected,
    and you get a squeaky card,
    and it just works.

    They'll have that,

    I would assume,
    and eventually,
    inevitably here,
    eventually,
    inevitably,
    Phoenix will be okay.

    LA is working on it.

    Like,

    I,
    I'm not saying that I want to live in LA,
    but I can imagine,
    a time where,
    like,
    the public transit there is actually,
    not so bad,
    and there are,
    there are places already there,
    now that you could live,
    without a car,
    but,
    I can't,
    and I,
    I think,
    I think a lot about this,
    like,
    where do I want to live,
    what do I want to,
    I,
    I feel so much better,
    so much better outside of the US,
    and it's not just the walkable city
    and the public transit,
    it's just like everything.

    I don't even know,

    I don't even know what it is.

    And I know what part of it is kind of like,

    oh, you're sort of quasi on vacation,
    in some sense,
    like,
    it's different than,
    or quotes real life,
    but,
    I think a lot of it is just,
    like, there's something about that country,
    that it is,
    you think about,
    like,
    guns are so easy to come by there,
    like,
    getting healthcare is not easy,
    getting all of the things that you need in life,
    is not easy,
    getting,
    you know,
    food is kind of expensive,
    and it's unreasonable,
    and if you want to go on,
    if you want to point,
    you click murder device,
    A,
    you can do it all over the place,
    and it's pretty cheap,
    and also,
    like,
    you'll get people arguing with you that,
    oh,
    guns don't kill people's guns.

    Why are you calling it a point,

    because it is a point,
    and click,
    murder device.

    It is a remote control

    that lets you,
    and somebody's life,
    at a distance,
    that's literally all it is.

    And yeah,

    you might be using it for target practice,
    or whatever other wankery you're using it for,
    but it's design intent,
    is to kill people,
    and to kill other animals.

    And you can sit there and say,

    oh, you can kill people with a car,
    or you could do it,
    but the car is not designed to kill people.

    The car is not,

    like,
    it's not,
    like,
    engineers have figured out the best way to murder people with a car.

    Like,

    that's not how it works.

    And it's,

    like,
    it's frustrating to me,
    just dealing with that kind of stuff.

    You know,

    I know this is kind of a global thing,
    but the US is really just so full of it.

    So full of that.

    And,

    you know,
    you have the Trump people,
    the mega,
    the red man of people.

    And if you also have the blue mega people,

    and it's just,
    like,
    there are people there that I'm,
    comfortable talking with and hanging out with,
    but if you just deal with a random person there,
    there are so many people
    that are just not anywhere near,
    you know,
    it's not that I think they're bad people.

    It's just,

    they've been so propagandized and they're so,
    Balkanized,
    that they,
    they just are,
    are not,
    like,
    you have to tap dance around certain subjects,
    or it's going to be painful.

    And it's just not fun to me.

    It's not enjoyable.

    I don't like that,

    you know,
    for as much as I criticize this place,
    for having a lot of poverty.

    I don't like that if I'm walking around L.A.

    the frequency of places that are nice,

    like,
    here there are places that are uncomfortable.

    I don't mean that I feel any way in danger,

    but it's just like,
    this is really impoverished.

    But you still like you walk around

    and there's stuff there that you might want to do,
    you feel like,
    then it feels okay walking,
    right?
    Like you're weird walking.

    L.A.

    is more walkable than then Phoenix

    for as much as people say,
    like, you know,
    walking L.A.

    and then laugh at it.

    It's kind of a walkable-ish city

    and there are nice areas around it,
    but you very quickly will get into areas where you're like,
    this just feels crappy.

    It's just,

    it's not pretty.

    It's not like,

    not that aesthetics is the whole thing,
    but you know,
    you don't want to be walking in a lot of places.

    You don't feel great in a lot of places.

    The sidewalks are covered in literal shit

    and God knows what else.

    And it smells,

    and it's just weird and gr-
    and yeah, I mean,
    I know you go like,
    go on New York smells like piss too, Scott.

    Yeah,

    but it's different.

    It's really,

    and I know,
    I'm not saying New York is amazing,
    but you know,
    it's true,
    like New York and Paris have poor people,
    and they have a lot of things that are not ideal,
    like being in LA,
    and being in Phoenix especially,
    you feel like a fucking weirdo when you're walking.

    If you're outside of a few small areas in Phoenix,

    it's literally a desert.

    And when I say that,

    I don't mean like in the sense of a climactic desert,
    where it's like dry and all this kind of stuff.

    I just mean,

    nobody's walking there
    and you'll go a full city block before you get anywhere,
    and run into anything.

    And I'm just looking like now,

    like I see people walking on the street,
    as they're passing a lot of apartments,
    the passing stores and restaurants,
    and there's stuff that you might want to do there.

    I'd even if there's not right immediately

    where you are,
    there's stuff a little bit ahead and a little bit behind,
    wherever you are.

    And, you know,

    I mean,
    Paris is,
    and again,
    there are some places that are nicer than others.

    If you go to the suburbs,

    it's not my favorite place.

    But if you're inside of the city,

    you could just walk and walk
    and walk all day and wander,
    and it's nice.

    It's pretty.

    It's just,

    and I understand also,
    part of this is just,
    it's an older city that's kind of had more time to sort of stew.

    And they did have,

    this is one of those things,
    where he owns,
    and my perspective on it has changed over time,
    that Housemen did the layout for the city,
    and this sort of master planning,
    so to speak,
    that's probably not the greatest word.

    But,

    which I used to really like,
    and I still like it,
    because ultimately it makes it a nice city,
    but then there are certain things there,
    where it's like,
    when you set it up so that,
    it's very difficult to have a revolution there.

    There's,

    there's stuff that people have done,
    that,
    on the surface,
    kind of seems nice,
    and then you think about it,
    and it's like,
    that's actually not as cool as you think.

    But still,

    I would not try to live there.

    I would not try to live someplace,

    where it's nice to walk.

    I would not try to live someplace,

    where there's nice stuff to look at.

    And there's like some density.

    Like, I know people that like,

    it's just weird how much the United States has sort of twisted ideas about what is freedom,
    and what it's like to have a good life or anything like this.

    And their ideas are generally,

    you're going to be isolated from everybody else.

    You're going to be going from inside of your personal home

    to inside of your car,
    to inside of your office,
    and barely interact with people,
    and not have any kind of community,
    or any kind of real community,
    certainly not going to run into people on the street,
    that just wandering around.

    You're certainly not going to have like,

    social interactions with people that are not just transactional,
    customer service,
    kinds of interactions.

    And it's,

    it's,
    it's very soulless,
    and it's kind of gross,
    it's just not,
    it's not fun, it's not great.

    It's sort of like,

    the,
    I don't know if Similac wrote is like exactly the right word,
    but it is kind of,
    it's a little bit of that.

    Like,

    you have things that sort of seem like social interactions,
    but they're not,
    and it's,
    even in the moment,
    you know that they're not really real,
    but you kind of feel it.

    And just the difference in like,

    being a regular someplace there.

    And you know,

    you have these interactions where you kind of feel like your friends,
    with people that they're not really friends.

    This is,

    I,
    I've always kind of been aware of this,
    and I always felt,
    you're about some of it,
    but,
    really came into focus when my,
    French former roommate after grad school,
    was talking about this,
    and it was just,
    in,
    in France,
    you're not,
    and again,
    I'm not saying like,
    France is,
    is great.

    I,

    I really want to say like,
    there are a lot of,
    a lot of problems,
    right?
    But,
    one thing that he was commenting on is,
    and a lot of people like being in the US,
    because you have these sort of,
    very friendly interactions,
    and people will randomly talk to people,
    and all of this kind of stuff.

    But at the same time,

    it feels good,
    but you also have this thing where it's like,
    oh yeah,
    it feels good,
    and you feel like you're having a social connection with somebody,
    but in reality,
    it's not,
    it's not real.

    It's, it's very superficial,

    and it's very,
    ephemeral,
    and there's no substance to it.

    Like,

    it's,
    it's the simulation of,
    something that kind of vaguely resembles,
    friendship,
    and connection.

    And it's very hard,

    like,
    shockingly hard,
    I found,
    to really connect to people,
    there,
    connect with people there.

    And I'm not saying that there's

    another country that's like,
    amazing at it,
    but you know,
    they're just going with France,
    because I spent some time there.

    What you can do there,

    if you,
    like,
    again,
    it's not easy to connect with people,
    but if you start making connections,
    you start getting,
    like,
    much deeper friendships,
    and it,
    it's,
    it's real in a different way,
    then,
    you know,
    the US,
    and you'll,
    you'll find the,
    you know,
    there are people you can count on more.

    There are people who,

    seeing,
    genuinely,
    like,
    interested in spending time with you,
    versus the US,
    like,
    you get people who seem very friendly,
    and they seem like they're,
    a friend,
    and then,
    you know,
    you'll stop making any effort,
    and you just never talk to them,
    and it's just,
    it's fucking,
    it's, it's weird,
    and gross,
    and it's,
    it's kind of,
    and I don't,
    I don't blame people for that,
    specifically,
    I think it's just like,
    how we're raised,
    and the kind of,
    culture,
    like,
    that we have,
    but it's,
    it's very alienated.

    It,

    it feels very,
    very bad,
    you know,
    it doesn't feel great.

    And,

    again,
    I'm not,
    I'm not saying that,
    like,
    any places amazing,
    but there are places that are much better than that.

    Now,

    the public transit thing is huge.

    The lack of health care,

    it's,
    it's huge.

    It,

    like, I mean,
    you think about,
    like,
    just how different your life is,
    when you know,
    like,
    if you live there,
    you know,
    all it takes is a moment,
    and,
    you know,
    what happens,
    and your life is destroyed.

    Whether it's your car,

    especially,
    especially if you're not rich,
    if you're rich,
    then it's different.

    But if you're not rich,

    and I mean,
    when I say this,
    I don't mean like,
    you're like,
    you're like,
    fairly normal,
    averageish person,
    person,
    your car breaks down,
    and it will fuck your life,
    or you get another expense
    that was unexpected,
    and things are completely fucked up for you,
    or you get sick,
    or,
    and you just go through the list,
    you know,
    like,
    oh, you lost your job.

    Now,

    what are you going to do?
    Do you have friends or family that you can stay with?
    Now,
    you can be a burden on them,
    and kind of feel uncomfortable there,
    and feel like you're,
    and maybe have a place to say,
    or if you don't have that,
    through whatever reason,
    it might not be your fault,
    it might just be bad luck.

    You don't have friends and family that you can stay with.

    You end up on the street.

    That's that's super easy in that country.

    And, you know,

    it's,
    and whether you're in that situation directly immediately or not,
    I think most people there know at some level
    that that is in the cards,
    like,
    there is a series of things that could happen,
    that would not be through any real fault of your own.

    And then mostly,

    could just be like random,
    you know, like just shit happens.

    A couple of things go wrong,

    and then your life completely unfolds,
    and,
    or are you going to be able to retire?
    Are you going to have to work for the rest of your fucking life?
    And,
    you know,
    I talk about this a lot,
    but there's,
    who works in facilities at the place that I work today,
    as you.

    And she's like,

    my mom's age.

    She's like,

    in her 80s.

    But she's cleaning the place.

    And she's,

    I'm sure she's worked very hard,
    physical stuff for whole life.

    And through,

    I would say,
    no fault of her own.

    She's just in the situation where,

    like,
    probably can never retire.

    Probably can't really afford to get sick.

    You know,

    like,
    how does she even have time or money,
    a socializer to do anything other than work?
    And you just look at that,
    and it's just like a fucking dystopia.

    And that's,

    I mean,
    I think about myself personally,
    unless I somehow make,
    like,
    something happens,
    and I make a ridiculous amount of money.

    I currently have no plausible path

    to ever retire.

    And I'm very interested in,

    well,
    I mean,
    it's an interesting thing.

    And I see,

    this will be kind of like,
    I'm starting to wrap up.

    Uh,

    the next 10 minutes should be about the last,
    but I see Robert Reich talking about how,
    people are,
    people are saying,
    you should retire and you're,
    you know,
    you're older and you should,
    and this guy's,
    what he's doing is,
    basically retirement.

    For at least my idea of retirement,

    like this idea that,
    I don't think,
    like,
    sitting on your ass is a thing that appeals to most people.

    I don't think it's something that,

    anyone really wants to do.

    It's different if you're not able to do it,

    but,
    you know,
    if you're physically and mentally able to do,
    some stuff,
    and make a contribution to,
    to the world and,
    you know,
    enjoy things,
    and maybe add some value to society.

    I think that's,

    that's actually not bad.

    The problem is like,

    having to work.

    And,

    what he,
    like his,
    his entire career,
    compared with,
    say that woman,
    who is just cleaning,
    you know,
    like emptying trash bins and vacuuming,
    and all this kind of stuff,
    his entire career is basically retire,
    compared to her.

    And he could,

    actually not work,
    that he'd be fine.

    He could just chill for the rest of his life.

    If he wanted to,

    we're as she never could.

    And,

    just,
    I don't know,
    I get annoyed with the sky,
    because it's like,
    I,
    I do have enough of the lid brain
    that,
    you know,
    or recovering lid brain,
    that the stuff that he does,
    kind of appeals to me.

    Just like Obama.

    Like,

    I have that professor real tone,
    the,
    just general vibe and the coolness,
    and all this stuff about him,
    the aesthetics, all of that.

    It resonates with me.

    It feels good.

    I like it.

    I'm embarrassed by it,

    especially knowing,
    knowing what I know now,
    about how he was,
    well,
    I can't,
    I can't claim that I didn't know this at the time,
    but he was blowing up weddings,
    and kids,
    and,
    you know,
    like drowning people,
    and all this kind of stuff.

    I don't,

    not a great guy.

    Not a great guy.

    He made sure that W and his administration

    wouldn't face consequences
    for gross violations.

    Of human rights,

    making torture cool again.

    Yeah.

    I mean,

    I remember,
    this is a total fucking mind-fuck,
    but like,
    when I was a kid,
    you don't even have to go back that far.

    There was a time where

    the idea of somebody being a Nazi
    was just obviously a born,
    and a terrible,
    and punching Nazis was like a no-brainer, of course.

    And now,

    it's not so clear.

    There was a time when I was younger,

    where torture was a thing that you didn't fucking do.

    Now, it wasn't,

    to be fair,
    the US has,
    it's not new that the US is torturing people.

    It's just more open about it now.

    It's obviously a dystopian hellscape,

    and all of this kind of stuff.

    But,

    there was a time where at least people thought
    that it was a bad thing.

    Like if it's generally accepted,

    that was not something that you wouldn't want to do.

    But now,

    it's pretty,
    pretty widely accepted.

    It's very disturbing how that's changed,

    and in short order as well.

    And,

    you know,
    I don't know,
    it really,
    it really gets to me,
    actually,
    like so many things like that.

    But Obama contributed to that.

    Bill Clinton really contributed to a lot of the stuff

    about like destroying,
    not that we had a great social safety network,
    or so social safety net in the US,
    but completely decimating
    to the extent that it did exist,
    what we had,
    and making it,
    you know,
    the euphemistically called welfare reform,
    turning that into a situation where it's like,
    oh,
    you know,
    if you can work,
    you have absolutely,
    that's not how this should be.

    And,

    and also like,
    and understand,
    especially for you,
    unfortunately,
    this isn't just a US thing,
    but a lot of people are brainwashed,
    and then propaganda is then
    to thinking,
    everyone desperately,
    absolutely needs to be working.

    And when I say working,

    I mean,
    like,
    in the sense of,
    you have a boss,
    you have somebody who can tell you what to do,
    you have somebody who can fire you,
    and ruin your life.

    There's a thing,

    like,
    the amount of stress that you have,
    when you're in this situation,
    where like,
    somebody,
    if they don't like you,
    they can destroy your life,
    just utterly destroy your life,
    on a whim,
    and based on personal stuff,
    or if they like you,
    they can,
    and you have to do the dance,
    and especially for somebody like me,
    that is not,
    you know,
    I am not a political creature,
    I'm not somebody who,
    is comfortable,
    naturally,
    like sucking up the people,
    or,
    you know,
    dancing for people,
    and,
    but I think nobody really is.

    I think that's something like,

    some people have developed the ability to do,
    but I don't think it's a thing
    that people are just innately,
    like,
    oh,
    I'm graded just, you know,
    like,
    pretending in all of this kind of stuff.

    I think,

    like,
    honestly part of,
    well,
    I don't want to wrap up,
    I don't want to get into another whole line of discussion there,
    but,
    that's something I'll talk about later.

    Just,

    no.

    It's kind of thinking about how,

    I think,
    which people understand at some level,
    that it's all a charad,
    and they're sort of like,
    fraying that they get found out,
    because they know that it's not a meritocracy,
    and they don't want people to realize,
    and they're,
    just,
    especially on the US,
    but in the same sense,
    the other people,
    like normal people are afraid of the game being,
    being called out and ending.

    Um,

    anything.

    And it's not just rich people,

    but especially, like,
    you look at career politicians,
    for example,
    you can see that they really,
    really, really don't want to go into the air quotes for real world.

    Um,

    but,
    that the real world is not what it should be.

    The real world,

    like you think about it,
    if you have an existence,
    where,
    you are going to be okay,
    where you're,
    no matter what,
    that you're going to have shelter,
    you're going to be comfortable.

    You're not going to have like,

    opulent settings,
    but you will be comfortable.

    You'll be in a situation

    where you can actually relax
    or work on your own stuff.

    Um,

    and you'll have a place to stay.

    And you have food and all that kind of stuff.

    And you don't have to,

    worry that,
    you know,
    like if your boss is asking you to do
    unethical or horrible things,
    or,
    you know,
    if you're a politician,
    you don't have to worry that,
    um,
    if you lose the election,
    then you're not going to have all this nice stuff.

    And you're going to be,

    out on the street with other people.

    It's,

    frankly,
    it's one reason why politicians have
    a direct personal interest
    and improving things,
    because,
    um,
    I understand that they think.

    They want to make things better for themselves,

    but making things better for the average person
    would make things better for themselves,
    and it would,
    uh,
    get them into about,
    anyway,
    because,
    I don't want to go down that path,
    but it's a thing that I just,
    I get annoyed with.

    I think about a lot,

    um,
    but,
    but anyway,
    um,
    Robert Wright,
    just looking at him,
    talking about this retirement stuff,
    and I keep seeing him talking about this,
    and you're empatheticating about it.

    And it's just so out of touch,

    it's such like this boomer shit,
    where it's like,
    um,
    you are a person who your whole life
    has had so much
    relative privilege,
    and I'm not even saying,
    like,
    I'm not saying that I wanted him
    his life to be shitier,
    uh,
    but more people's lives
    should be easier
    as kind of what I'm saying.

    Um,

    you know,
    like,
    and you just don't have a perspective,
    I think this is part of the problem.

    People who think that the economy

    was amazing for the last four years,
    they don't even know
    they don't even know what the fuck
    it's been like for people.

    Um,

    they don't,
    and to be fair,
    also,
    like,
    I've been relatively privileged to do.

    I just have,

    like,
    but I,
    I haven't been working on a roof,
    and a situation where,
    you know,
    if I get something happening to my eye,
    and I need to be in a prone position
    for like a couple months.

    It destroys me.

    It completely destroys me.

    I had money to get my eye fixed.

    I had insurance for it.

    I had some degree of freedom to do it.

    Um,

    and then I had the ability to do,
    you know,
    I don't have like a lot,
    but I was able to take,
    uh,
    the tiny little bit of,
    uh,
    a pair of quotes for retirement that I have,
    and travel a little bit,
    and do the stuff that I'm doing now.

    And,

    you know,
    a lot of people don't have that.

    A lot of people don't have,

    even that.

    And everybody should have more.

    And everybody should just be,

    you know,
    it's just frustrating.

    Everybody should be okay.

    Like,

    that should not be a controversial statement.

    Like,

    you should not have the situation where it's like,
    you know,
    things could happen where you are just an absolute,
    destitution and desperation.

    And things could happen where like,

    what,
    what are you going to do?
    How are you going to eat?
    How are you going to survive?
    How are you going to have shelter?
    How are you not going to be out in that rain?
    When it's raining?
    Um,
    or out in the sun?
    You know,
    you think about like,
    Phoenix?
    Like,
    just the amount of heat?
    When it's hot in the summer there,
    um,
    it's so miserable.

    And there are people living on the street

    with no air conditioning in that heat.

    And,

    and of course,
    fucking cops like pushing them down on the ground
    and giving them burns
    from the asphalt is a thing that happens.

    Anyway,

    I don't know how I got from advertising to this.

    Um,

    I,
    I think,
    I think the,
    hopefully that was coherent.

    But,

    it's kind of,
    it's kind of,
    I don't know.

    I'm always,

    I just,
    I know there's too much meta here.

    But I'm always interested in just sort of the thought process

    and sort of how I go from one thing to the next and where I end up.

    And I've never,

    somehow I've never been able to make one of these,
    uh,
    with like an outline or a plan that I really stick to.

    I always,

    look,
    I definitely hit the,
    the points that I wanted to hit,
    but then I kind of meander off.

    And it's just what I do.

    It seems to be the thing that I like.

    But it's,

    it's interesting to me how it,
    it wanders and where it goes.

    I hope it's interesting to you.

    Um,

    but anyway,
    with that,
    I think,
    I'm going to go try to get something to eat.

    And hopefully don't get rang on again,

    but it looks,
    it actually looks like it's pretty clear,
    and I don't think it's going to rain again for a while.

    So,

    I will enjoy the cooler and cleaner air.

    With that,

    I will talk to you soon.

    And I don't know.

    Well,

    I'll probably record one more of these in Bangkok,
    and then I'll have a friend in Tokyo and Kyoto,
    uh,
    for the following week.

    Might not record one then,

    uh,
    but I will record another one from Japan,
    and probably two.

    And then I'll be back.

    It's wild.

    I'm down to like three more weeks,

    and I'll be back to the US.

    I have to say,

    like,
    uh,
    if I was in a position,
    I wouldn't quite say that I would never go back.

    Like,

    my mom and sister are there.

    I would go back to visit them.

    But if I was in a position,

    I wouldn't just,
    like spend most of my time outside of that country.

    I,

    I just,
    I don't like it.

    I feel so much better.

    I don't remember peating myself here,

    but I feel so much better.

    Outside of it,

    and not in it.

    And, you know,

    like seeing it from a distance,
    it's disturbing.

    I don't like it.

    I feel like I probably should use my privilege

    to try to make things better for people.

    But also,

    it's kind of like,
    like looking at the,
    Gaza,
    like,
    you see this shit,
    and you know it's terrible,
    but you also,
    like,
    what can you personally do as an individual
    about it,
    other than,
    like,
    there's something that I could do
    physically by being there
    versus just speaking about it
    and doing what I can from a distance.

    I don't know.

    I don't know.

    I know,

    like, you know,
    the people who are doing
    the freedom of hotels
    and all of this kind of stuff
    they're doing something.

    But at the same time,

    like,
    are they,
    they do they really expect
    to do anything that's not
    similar to what?
    And, you know,
    it's just,
    it's so wild
    that that,
    I mean,
    this is another thing.

    Like you know,

    with the perspective of history,
    but you don't even need it.

    You can see right now,

    but certainly with the perspective of history,
    people are going to look back
    and think like,
    what,
    how was this a thing?
    How was this a thing that people
    allowed to happen?
    How was this a thing
    that the entire rest of the world
    let happen?
    And didn't stop?
    Did not get food in there?
    Didn't,
    in the embargo?
    Like, didn't end the blockade?
    Didn't do something?
    And there are so many people
    who could do something.

    There are so many countries,

    certainly mine,
    but not just mine,
    who could do something
    and are not doing something.

    And the best we have right now

    is just like,
    yeah,
    people,
    like literally just fucking people
    doing the freedom of flotilla
    or you know,
    like talking about it,
    raising money
    for individuals there
    or for groups,
    and you know,
    like trying desperately
    to do what we can,
    if there's not a lot you can do.

    And it's so frustrating,

    it's such a mind-fuck,
    that that is a thing
    and people can see it.

    And it's,

    you know,
    I don't think it will go on forever.

    I think it's like apartheid.

    It's like,

    the show,
    you know,
    it will end,
    but it will end
    after a lot of people are dead,
    and it will end after so much
    unnecessary suffering.

    And it's just like,

    why do we have to go through this exercise?
    Why can't we just get to the end?
    Why can't we just get to the fucking end
    and fix this shit?
    And it's,
    I think eventually,
    assuming again,
    the human civilization doesn't collapse
    and all this kind of stuff.

    Eventually,

    I think there's absolutely no doubt
    that whatever exists
    where the U.S.

    is now

    will have
    a social safety net
    and will have universal health care
    at some point,
    and will have cities
    that are actually quite livable.

    And it's just like,

    why do you have to go through all the bullshit
    before you get there?
    Why can't we just short-circuit that
    and get there?
    That's my general,
    it's just so frustrating.

    It's like all this fucking bullshit

    audible air quotes,
    AI crap.

    Like,

    you can see
    that it's just a sham.

    You can see

    that it's not going to end well
    for any of the people that are
    throwing ridiculous amounts of money
    and destroying companies
    and destroying people's jobs
    and lives
    of chasing after it.

    You can see where it's going,

    right?
    You don't have to be that fucking smarter
    that is not that deep.

    But we have to go through the fucking exercise

    and it's just,
    it's so tedious and so annoying
    and frankly, so boring.

    And in addition to just being like awful,

    it's so fucking boring.

    It's like,

    why can't we just skip this part?
    Why do we have to make people suffer
    and have things be terrible
    and waste so much energy
    and so many resources
    on something that ultimately
    is going to amount to nothing?
    And like,
    I was on the,
    this will be the last thing I could talk about,
    but I was on the Metro a few days ago
    and I'm there
    and some dude is there
    speaking English to I assume his girlfriend
    and he's just explaining like apparently
    they're heading to the airport to go to Vietnam
    and he's explaining that,
    oh, I thought that I didn't need a visa.

    Of all places that I went the only place

    that I had to get a visa in advance
    was Vietnam.

    I got the 10 day

    or you have a 240 hour thing
    you can do for China
    if you're from the US
    so you don't need to get a visa in advance for that.

    If I was going back,

    I'd probably stay longer
    but the 10 days was not bad
    but Vietnam
    you need to get one of the advance
    and maybe there are countries that don't need to
    most of them there
    and so he talked to chatGPT
    and apparently chatGPT told them
    now you don't need one
    because you've got a green passport or whatever the fuck
    and it turned out he didn't need one
    and I don't know how he finally figured it out
    but he figured it out on the train
    and he's talking to her and he's like,
    oh, shit, I can't go to Vietnam
    and she's incredulous
    and she obviously had her
    but it's just
    people are going to remember this stuff
    whether or not I don't know that Sam Altman
    will face direct personal consequences
    for this shit.

    He certainly should.

    He certainly should be

    he is committing mass murder
    at scale
    and he is also committing mass
    mass of amounts of fraud
    and mass of amounts of theft
    and wasting so many resources
    and how many people have been fucked over
    like that who believed
    the nonsense that this thing is telling them
    how many people have been killed
    because they're talking to that shit
    and it's advocating it
    or it's telling them, you know
    just being like super abusive
    and saying like, oh yeah you're right
    you're absolutely right
    you're blah blah blah
    and then you know how many people
    how many people
    and you think about it
    like whether or not
    there are consequences
    whether or not
    people decide
    or eventually people will decide
    that statistical mass murder
    is mass murder
    as it obviously is
    and there will be consequences
    for people directly
    but whether or not that happens
    anytime soon or to him
    people will remember
    people will know
    like this guy I hope is learning his lesson
    and is never going to stop
    fucking trust that shit again
    and the thing that's annoying about it
    also is actually like if somebody actually did
    invent genuine AI at some point
    like genuine AI
    people are going to be so biased against it
    because of all this fucking fraudulent shit
    that these just bullshit factories
    and it's just going to ruin things
    for so many people
    and it's so fucking annoying
    and yet these people
    they're just dumping toxic waste
    into the river
    right upstream of
    where people are getting their drinking water from
    and they don't care
    because they're making money
    doing it
    and they have zero so far responsibility
    but they're ruining things
    for so many people
    and fucking things up
    and it's irritating
    with that
    don't use that shit please
    I say I use
    what is it called?
    I do have a deep seek
    is that what it's called?
    Occasionally, I've used it
    and I've been using it
    I've completely convinced myself that it's completely
    fucking worthless
    like it's something
    I've met in arguments with people
    I guess I do have one more thing to talk about
    this is
    I've gotten into arguments with people about this
    and they're like oh well I could never
    use Google or
    search stuff
    because it just never worked for me
    but this stuff does
    and this is a youth thing
    this is a fucking youth thing
    you don't know how to do research
    and you never learned
    and
    now you have this fake friend
    which is really dystopian
    by the way it's like a fake friend
    with no perspective
    and no actual
    doesn't care about you just pretend
    and it's just like
    a literal stochastic parrot
    sitting there talking to you
    and pretending to be your friend
    but your fake friend
    your automated bullshit factory
    that is extraordinarily
    resource intensive
    and based on plagiarism
    that thing
    it may make you feel
    like you're getting answers
    this is part of the problem
    it makes you feel
    like you're getting answers
    but in reality
    like if you literally put in the same prompt
    and then not that you need a prompt
    like figure out how to do search
    and do an actual search
    but if you put in that search
    search terms
    you'll get basically the same answers
    from
    .go
    it's
    or some other search
    like Ecosia
    or even bang
    or Google has a fucking gym
    and I think that you can't turn off that
    but back when Google
    didn't suck
    it had that
    and I really am increasingly convinced
    that there's just no point
    to this shit
    other than if you want something
    to just lie to you
    if you want something
    to pretend
    like you're so isolated
    and you need a fake friend
    that's literally the only utility
    of the shit
    and that is not good
    that's sick
    it's fucked
    you need
    actual human connections
    not fake connections
    to a fake machine
    as no intelligence
    but anyway
    with that
    don't use it
    thank you very much
    it's a joke

    1 hr 44 min
  • Politics Primer
    Episode Transcript

    Hey there, I'm Scott, and this is Tangents. It is the, well, actually, as I'm recording this, the 27th of August 2025. Probably going to put this up on the 28th, so I've already marked the files as that.

    But it is 10.06 a.m. here in Bangkok where I'm recording this, and I went out for coffee, came back, back to my hotel, and let me just preface this by saying a couple, well, a few days ago when I recorded the last episode the first time, maybe I guess it was a week ago now, I fucked it up because I was recording in the bathroom because I was trying not to bother.
    My neighbors, it was like 10 p.m. at the time, 2200, or maybe even like 2130 or something like that. I didn't want to bother people by talking in my own hotel room, and this morning I get up, and of course I have insomnia.

    I was up at like 630 or something, I don't know, maybe earlier, and I get up, and I'm moving around, and at some point before 730, I know definitely was going on by 730, but at some point by then, my new hotel neighbor is bumping ridiculous house music.

    And I went out for coffee, and I kind of rolled my eyes, and I recorded a little bit and sent it to the sort of family group chat.

    Went out for coffee, went around, did some stuff, came back.

    it's now 10 10 almost and uh that's that the rave is going on and it's even louder and it's

    just more ridiculous and i just i i can't like first off i'm not the kind of person i i understand
    that people like loud music i am not the person that enjoys loud music just to begin with i i've
    never like it doesn't make sense to me as a thing i don't need to understand it but it just never
    has um i guess i kind of get how you know like oh i feel the vibrations but you know that is it's
    like blowing up fireworks or something like that i get the interest that you have in that one time
    very briefly and then it's kind of okay i've done that box checked i'm good um i don't understand
    the appeal for some people that this holds like it's something that you want to do over and over
    again and i really don't understand why at like 7 to 10 a.m uh you're you're doing this it's just
    fucking weird to me like it would not appeal to me just to listen to it even if nobody is being
    bothered by it and then to be in a hotel where you know there are people above and below and next to me
    uh enjoying my my rave doesn't fucking like it does not compute it does not fucking compute to me
    um i i just like my i i go a little bit excessive on this but my general thing is basically
    a not to bother people you know just to the minimal extent possible i don't want to the maximal
    extent possible and i don't want to bother people i i just don't want to be in the way and if i do
    bother people i want to minimize that as much as possible and to the extent possible you know i i
    i listened to that thing where it's like you know leave the campsite better than you found it
    that's kind of generally like if i if i'm renting a place or if i'm staying someplace or whatever
    i'm not saying that i'm going to have it perfectly cleaned and all that kind of stuff but i try as a
    very general rule to leave things better than i found them you know that's my my thing and i
    definitely am not going to be like annoying people going out of my way to annoy people it's
    fucking weird it's fucking weird so now four minutes in actually you know now that you've
    listened or stopped listening already um or we've filtered out some people what i want to talk about
    today is i i was talking to a friend yesterday and she mentioned kind of offhand like how fucked up
    things are in the u.s and then i sent something about uh how you know the the right-wing parties
    um in japan gained a lot of seats in the lack the last election um she's like you know you kind of lost
    me at politics and it occurred to me and this is not necessarily for her although it would be awesome
    if you know she listens and finds it useful but this is kind of a thing that occurred to me is just
    i normally spend a lot of time with people who are very deeply uh enmeshed in politics they're
    i will not necessarily say that they are well informed i know a lot of people who are
    very poorly informed or very disinformed um and they but they have strong opinions on it
    and they find it at least kind of interesting but i think there are a lot of people out there
    who don't really pay attention and and in fact deliberately this has been a tactic that people
    have used uh they've been turned off to the stuff and i'm not saying that like electoral politics
    is going to accomplish really much of anything at all but i am saying you know like there has been a
    deliberate uh long-standing sort of thing that people have done to get people to think yeah voting
    doesn't matter and you know like it's all just bullshit it's all a show and it kind of is and
    it's kind of true but also to some extent there are things you can do within the framework of the
    system um you know like i i'm not someone like i i did not vote for harris i almost didn't vote for
    genocide joe because at the time he was i already knew crime bill joe he was jim crow joe um he was a
    terrible fucking person and he would one of the big issues for me is abortion rights and this is a
    guy who in 2019 this is not like ancient history this is not like him saying roe went too far in
    the 70s which he did say um but this is in 2019 he was for the hyde amendment and the hyde amendment if
    you don't know uh if you're not like deeply into this stuff is a thing that goes basically on the
    federal budget and it says that no federal money can be used um in any way to fund abortion and
    it's a it's a fucking terrible thing it has dire consequences and it's it's just like it's one of
    these things where you have these people that act like and think i do think some of them are sincere
    sincerely misguided but sincere they think they're saving babies or some bullshit in reality what they're
    doing is making it extremely difficult to give basic health care to a lot of people and i don't
    want to get into this this is not the point of this episode but like abortion is a medical procedure
    it is indicated in certain circumstances and you know like usually the things that they focus on
    that the one most abortions happen very early in pregnancy and the ones that happen late
    um the the ones that people like to focus on those like people are not carrying uh pregnancy
    to like eight months unless they want to have a baby like people get there and then they get in some
    kind of medical emergency or you know the the fetus is dead like this is a thing that happens or it's
    going to die or you know like there's something horribly wrong that is going to put that and uh the
    pregnant person's life in jeopardy or is putting it in jeopardy and so they you know and again this
    is extremely rare when it does happen and when it does happen it is you know it's not like a thing
    that people are going out of their way to do it's something that they're doing very grudgingly and it's
    very traumatic for them already and you know like but the people who like to pretend they're saving
    babies and all this bullshit they really focus on this and they really demonize the people getting
    them done and it's it's you know if you're superficial when you're like not really paying
    attention it's easy to stand from the sidelines and go like oh that's just horrible but when you
    actually look into it and and again i'm not going to make this episode on this i will make an episode
    someday on on abortion um but it is unambiguously just a reasonable thing it is not a bad thing it is
    it is medical care it is just like um getting an appendectomy it is life-saving medical care
    and it is something that should be between the pregnant person and the medical providers it should
    not have anything to do with the federal government other than that we should have universal health care
    and it should be covered under universal health care like a thousand percent so anyway getting on
    from that uh the thing i wanted to talk about is basically and i think my audience here um this
    could be for anyone but the the people that i'm really trying to speak to are either a people who
    are not paying attention and they don't know much about a lot of this stuff and b also you know i i am
    gonna kind of say some things that i think are not broadly known and i think they're things that
    everyone should know and hope hopefully for you this is all like old hat old hand old hat i don't
    even know which one and it won't be news to you but for people that it's not um i think it's important
    and i think it's stuff that we should all know and now i'm like 10 minutes in this is this is my
    problem i'm sorry i'm very verbose so first of all um everything you've been told especially if
    you're in a if you're a usean uh usean would be someone from the united states america is a you
    know much bigger than just the united states so usean and also it yeah let's just say it works well
    because the usean population uses a lot of resources way more than most people in the world
    but if you're a usean everything you've been told is a lie now i i'm i'm obviously exaggerating
    somewhat uh but not really all that much you know useans are among the most propagandized people
    in the world seriously i i know that it seems like oh no other people are propagandized we're not we're
    totally not pro no you're very very propagandized i'm sorry and people listening from the outside are
    like yeah no shit they like to them this is such a no-brainer um and it's so obvious and it's ridiculous
    it's like it's like actually and and this i don't want to put people off uh but this is like if
    you're standing outside of both the red and the blue mega groups and you see these people it's it's
    so obvious they're both cults it's so obvious that they're both like completely out of touch with
    reality and rabid and you know they're they're not really interested in any issues they if you ask
    them about specific issues they will say they have nominal positions on certain things but then
    you look at the candidates that they support and they obviously obviously don't give a shit about
    them you know whether it's trump or gavin newsom or biden or harris or any of these other people
    they do not align with the the principles and the the things that people claim to support
    so anyway that's now that i've lost like completely all the audience that i'm trying to talk to
    um i i just want to say like i i went to public school i got a fairly good education in public
    school relatively speaking and the u.s and in the 12 years k through 12 i i swear without exaggeration
    i got the u.s like we we didn't cover most of history um certainly not most of the history
    either of this country or any any region in the world uh like we dabbled we we we sort of like
    covered all of chinese history over the course of like a couple days like and i'm not even really
    that much exaggerating like in my k through 12 we touched on it a couple times over a couple days
    all the dynasties all the just bang um african history mostly did not cover egyptian history
    in the sense that it connected a little bit with um with like greece and rome and all that kind of
    stuff we touched on very briefly uh the whole cleopatra and uh and all of that stuff um we touched on
    it right uh but very very light very very lightly and european history similarly although a little
    bit more depth and then you know like oh 1066 the battle of hastings and blah blah blah and then you
    get to the u.s foundational myth and we covered that shit i swear damn near a dozen times you know
    dozen years almost every fucking year and we didn't spend like five minutes talking about it we spent
    weeks talking about it and studying it and most of it is complete bullshit complete and utter bullshit
    uh you know like i mean some of the the things obviously you know things get valorized things get
    kind of uh glorified and myth mythologized um so you don't expect things to be like exactly
    high fidelity to what actually happened uh but what we really studied is just complete complete
    disconnect from reality so you know it's like oh these guys didn't like living under the tyranny of
    the of the king and they were these wise uh the founders they were these wise people who blah blah
    blah no these these were people who were rich kids um and when i say kids i mean like legitimately
    late teens early 20s um you know these were not old wise mature people these were rich kids uh most of
    whom in fact owned i'm using air quotes but owned slaves to the extent that any human being can own
    another human being uh they were slave owners slave holders um and they they weren't really
    interested in most of the things that they espoused that they were interested in other than like a not
    paying taxes didn't like paying taxes b they didn't want to be told what to do by somebody else and c they
    wanted uh the rights the you know people act like are foundational important rights um you know freedom
    of speech and all this kind of stuff for wealthy white landowners that that was they didn't want them for
    everybody they certainly didn't want them for uh for Black people or for brown people or for red
    people or for yellow people they wanted them for just people that looked like them people that were
    extremely rich and people who were mostly terrible like mostly legitimately terrible i i mentioned this
    in another episode but you know like i the first time i watched hamilton and even before i watched it
    you know like i heard about it for a long time and then i started listening to it and it's like oh this is
    awesome oh this is awesome and then i watched it and it was fucking great i i've seen it twice in fact
    and both times in pentagius in la um i didn't buy the tickets my sister did she likes shows but i went
    and the first time i actually really loved it i really and and i'm saying this to kind of point out
    my own shame because i thought it was fucking fantastic and then i learned more and i mean i always i
    always kind of knew some of the stuff but i learned more about these people uh they're getting valorized
    by that thing and really like they're terrible people like for the most part everyone in that
    thing um was a terrible person you know that is some to greater extents than others and some you know
    had like some were particularly awful and some were kind of like marginally awful and even of the
    terrible people you know if if washington wanted to he could have been the empire or the emperor
    the king or whatever uh the fact that he didn't do that it was like he went out of his way not to
    uh it was a good thing it definitely like it could have gone much worse and in most revolutions
    uh you'd have a worse person there but still kind of an asshole kind of pretty fucking terrible person
    and so you know that's just where we're starting and before them and during and then after
    uh this country i say this country i'm in thailand right now so that country um was built on and i
    mentioned this in a previous one i say it all the time uh because it figures endless repeating it was
    built on top of a genocide on a scale that would make hitler blush um you know like literally we don't
    we don't actually know the numbers it's kind of hard to figure out but we know order of magnitude
    it was order of magnitude somewhere around 100 million people lived there prior to european
    contact and now it's true many of them died from diseases and many of those diseases just got
    propagated in uh naturally well naturally after initial contact and you know so it wasn't like a
    deliberate act there but that wasn't everybody that wasn't you know like millions and millions of
    people were killed deliberately and driven off of their ancestral land and you know even the ones
    that survived um like their kids were stolen kidnapped and then put into these things they
    called and i'm using again air quotes here but indian schools and these things were basically a way to
    systematically commit cultural genocide by which i mean they they were not allowed to speak their
    original language they were not allowed to wear their own clothes they were not allowed to practice
    any of their uh any of their traditions and they were forced into christianity the religion of the
    colonizers they were forced to use the language of the colonizers and punished for not doing those
    things and basically this was a way to just sever uh countless generations innumerable generations
    of tradition and of um you know continuity and these are i was talking to somebody else today about this but
    you know like we live in a world where food grows from the ground in trees and you can just like
    literally like walk around and pick it and eat it that is the situation that we live in and people
    and it wasn't just in north america but people all around the world a lot of indigenous people
    generally speaking um before european contact had and again i'm not trying i want to be very clear
    here a i'm not saying europeans are the fucking devil and b i'm not saying this was just europeans because
    if you go through the history of asia or africa or you know there there are a lot of a lot of bad
    things but before yeah i'm focusing kind of like broad strokes here i'm trying to trying to give you a
    little bit of a refresh on the u.s particularly so the colonizers that colonized there before their
    contact um and the other places that they went and who were like europeans going to the americas going
    to africa going to other places uh indigenous populations were working like literally 10 to 15
    hours a week of light work you know not not like toiling for 10 to 15 hours and then chilling out
    uh like a little kind of tending to stuff little kind of like you know cleaning things up do a little
    bit of stuff here do a little bit there and the rest was essentially leisure time like they could do
    what they liked with it and the time that they were working uh again it was not toil it was like
    light work it was stuff that they could do with their families and their friends um it was stuff
    that they could do voluntarily if they didn't want to do it one week they could take some time off
    they were very you know it was a very different situation and these colonizers come over and they
    see people chilling out and they see people like relaxing and you know having essentially it yeah i'm not
    saying it was like a post-scarcity society exactly but and again also i'm painting everything with
    broad strokes things were not a monolith even within a specific uh you know group not a monolith
    and certainly many different groups i'm you know broad brush but a lot of people are sitting there
    and they're in essentially a life that would be pretty comparable to what you might imagine a post-scarcity
    society would be like you don't really have to work um you have people caring for people who are
    sick and elderly um in many cases and again broad strokes uh just just assume the broad strokes is
    there i'm not i'm not going to keep interjecting with that but just keep that in mind uh but then
    these colonizers come in and they're like these these lazy bastards and they basically said you know
    like well stop that you guys have to work and toil and you have to like it's super important that
    you and and you have to do this regimented uh like you can't just have food forests food forests are
    kind of silly you need to have organized structured uh you know farms and all this kind of stuff and
    all those things are very inefficient very labor intensive uh they're things that are sort of almost
    by design set up to essentially like strip the land of all of its resources and destroy it versus
    like the food forest you have an ecosystem which kind of takes care of itself and also you know like
    if things ebb and flow you can move from one place to the next and all this versus you know you have
    this this farmland uh and you have monoculture there crop monoculture and you end up with things
    like uh taking all of the uh the nitrogen out of the soil and you know if you do crop rotation you can
    kind of make it work uh but for the most part you need fertilizers you need pesticides you need a
    bunch of stuff whereas in the food forest um all of that stuff kind of and i'm not again i'm not
    saying everything is just magic and it takes care of itself but it kind of does with a little tending
    you can do a lot and the entire not only the entire continent but much of the world was sort of
    cultivated by humans um in various populations to be that kind of a situation where you know it wasn't
    necessarily the natural state that you could just walk into the forest and find a bunch of food
    but people made it that way people over many many generations made it so that you could basically be
    anywhere uh you could eat something you could find uh you know the stuff that you would need
    to sort of survive and be relatively comfortable and uh that was not a good thing for these europeans
    and they came in and they completely like nuked it they completely destroyed all of that stuff
    and it's just it's it's fucking ridiculous like honestly it's hard to convey how much worse things are
    um and how much worse people made things and this was this was again you know like this is just one
    example um so anyway we got the the genocide yeah and the genocide of course uh still ongoing
    like even to this day um and it definitely again you know you i know people that kind of like wave it
    by they're like oh because of the diseases pre-contact uh you know when i say pre-contact i mean like
    you know people in some part of the country that never even saw europeans were wiped out by diseases
    the europeans brought over but even even then you know it wasn't just like magically they they were
    gone and then the land was free there were still people all over the place you know it wasn't like
    you completely wiped out everything just a lot of people um and then you did the various forms of
    genocide after that and then of course also yeah the the country was built and i mentioned slavery
    before but it was built uh on the blood and sweat and tears of slaved enslaved people you know people
    who were held as property and forced into you know horrible servitude uh not that any servitude
    is good but you know like just fucking horrible situations and just fucking evil like absolutely evil
    stuff and of course there were also like indentured servants and people being exploited all also that some
    rich fuckers could live essentially lives of leisure in some vague sense uh like what everybody used
    to be able to live uh prior to european contact and it i can't emphasize enough and again i'm not
    saying like that they're i don't want to imply oh things used to be perfect and now they're terrible
    um there were things that were not as great there were things like now if you have uh appendicitis i
    mentioned that before you can get an appendectomy if you have a infection you can get antibiotics
    if you have uh you know and you can go through like we some technology is really nice uh dentistry is an
    interesting one because prior to the uh the development of sort of purified sugar and certain aspects of
    agriculture um people's teeth were by and large quite good and you know so we obviously still you would have
    problems occasionally or trauma or whatever uh but cavities were much less of a thing a lot of the things that
    we deal with and that we need modern dentistry for were not problems uh to to such an extent
    and uh we've made them much worse and we've developed ways to address some of that stuff so
    yeah but we are we are here and you think about also i think this is a thing that um yeah it's very
    difficult because i'm trying to make this at a very high level i want to get through it in about an
    hour but i also want to go into enough or enough depth so one thing that is important to understand
    is also that the economic systems uh and obviously again nobody's a monolith a lot of different groups
    but by you know broad strokes the economic systems did not have a concept of uh private property uh or
    property like land ownership for example um it is not to say that you didn't have personal property
    like you could have stuff that was kind of yours that you held on to that you made or that somebody gave
    you and it's sort of yours but you didn't like own this plot of land you didn't what it would which
    is a ridiculous concept at the beginning you didn't own this animal or this it's just you know and the
    stuff that you did have um that their economy was not based on a sort of um tit-for-tat transactional
    system where it's one of these lies that you know like just like you get fed this bullshit lie about
    the u.s foundational myth we get lot we get fed this lie about like well people this is the economic
    lie story that we're all told uh people used to do exchanges and they would barter and they would
    figure stuff out and then eventually like they started using instead of i'll trade this for that
    they would figure out like well okay i'll trade this for this number of shells and then
    uh or some other you know stones or whatever coins eventually and then you can exchange those
    for something else and this is how currency was developed and blah blah blah this is not actually
    if you look at indigenous populations and the history this is not how things worked uh or continue
    to work in places that are uh pre-contact or minimal contact still existing today um in in reality what
    actually happens the way that things happen are people have stuff and people make stuff and they
    make an excess of stuff often and if somebody needs something that somebody has made or collected or
    whatever and they have more than they need uh they give it to them they just give it to them openly
    uh you call it a gift economy there there's a whole lot of stuff done on this and study it's not
    you know i'm not making up some like bullshit um that's some hippie shit no this is this is the way
    things were in most human populations including european populations by the way if you go back far
    enough it was predominantly gift economies and then people sort of figured out aha i can make up this
    bullshit lie and uh you know sort of through force and through other things uh and through just
    conning people with this bullshit framing uh i can get people to toil for me and do much more work
    than they need to uh in order to enrich me uh while i'm sitting on my ass and that's you know
    it goes through like you can go through not just the feudal period but prior to that um then you have
    kings and this kind of stuff and then uh you end up with sort of a mercantile like merchant uh trading
    economy and then you end up with the sort of capitalism that we have today um none of this is
    i hesitate to use the word natural because nothing is natural when it comes to humans but none of this
    is really like reflective of anything that people used to do it's all just made up bullshit and i think
    it is important to understand that so many of the things that we take for granted as just like innate and
    natural are completely made up bullshit that transactional exchange and you know having money and all this
    kind of stuff or needing money and especially you know like having something that is a currency
    that that is not a thing that we necessarily need at all you know and it's not to say that there aren't
    like scarce resources and you don't have to worry about allocation and this kind of stuff but for the
    most part if you look at other organisms um that that's not the way things work you're not like
    trading um even like people like the frame it's interesting how much this framing i'm going to talk
    a lot about framing here and in the future but a frame is sort of the structure for how you understand
    something how you put the world into some kind of um an organized story right and the framing
    with capitalism is basically um you know you have scarce resources and you want to exchange them
    and so you need some kind of a currency of exchange either you do direct uh barter exchange or
    you convert to a universal currency and then eventually you have this like a fiat currency that's completely
    disconnected from anything at all and uh you know like it's a funny thing like if you look at um
    like banks the way that banks work now they just i want you to understand how made up all of this
    shit is uh they they will take money and people give them a little bit of money to hold on to
    and then they loan out um some multiple of that like it's not like they're loaning out the money that
    they're holding on to they'll loan out like five times ten times whatever they actually have
    and then of course the people who get those loans can put that money in a bank and then the bank can
    loan out more money based on that imaginary stuff and it's just like piles and piles of imaginary
    bullshit it's it's just because everybody thinks of stuff in a certain way and has this framing and of
    course that framing means that it's not just how you see the world you don't just see like oh this
    thing has a certain this pin that i'm holding has a certain value and the work that went into
    making it is worth a certain amount and so when i buy it i'm giving you know the person who owns the
    factory a certain amount i'm giving the person who actually did the engineering for a certain i'm
    giving the person who worked in the factory a certain amount we have we have this idea this is not
    this is not the way things work but that kind of framing when you look at say atp in organisms people
    will sort of twist that into a currency exchange and to some extent i mean don't get me wrong
    information or energy there are like things that have an innate value and they do get exchanged but
    in cells you know it's not like the cell is necessarily hoarding these resources if you look
    at organisms and you look at ecosystems the way this normally works is and this is the way people work
    and again i'm not i don't want to twist everything into this other framing i'm just saying you know
    like giving you a counter frame and sort of suggesting maybe there are other ways to look at
    things but the way that things tend to work is basically you have resources in the environment
    and you take what you need to some extent maybe you take a little bit more and you make stuff
    using that that you need and then you spit out waste products and those waste products might
    be like oxygen and oxygen is useful it would it's actually a poison but it's also useful for a lot
    of other things to do a lot of other stuff with uh and and oxygen is so abundant in the environment now
    that we basically don't you know it's essentially free it's there for the taking water in nature would
    be kind of there for the taking other than in deserts and there are a lot of details i'm kind of
    glossing over but again broad strokes i know it's it's like a horrible reflexive thing that i keep
    talking about that so anyway that is sort of how we got to yeah a lot of stuff and i don't want to get
    into in this episode like the civil rights movement and history of the political parties in the u.s
    and all this kind of stuff i will talk about that later but what i want to i'm going to jump
    way way way way ahead to where we are kind of today um and where we are today is in the world
    uh there are a lot of people in pretty dire circumstances like don't get me wrong uh you
    know there are a lot of people who are very comfortable very few people in air quotes developed
    countries are truly truly starving like they're like to the point where they're really emaciated and
    dying because they're not getting enough uh nutrition but a lot of people are living pretty
    miserable lives a lot of people that are working very hard are living pretty miserable lives and
    they're needlessly sick and they very well may be now malnutrition malnourished uh you know which is
    to say like you might have enough caloric intake but you're not getting you know in the u.s especially
    like it's so cheap and easy to get processed foods that are shitty and terrible for you
    and it's very difficult and expensive to get safe fruits and vegetables um whereas in most of the
    world and especially in you know you go back at a certain point there were no processed foods it was
    all like air quotes natural stuff uh and again i don't want to imply that air quotes natural stuff
    is intrinsically good um obviously you know there are plenty of things that are poison there are plenty
    of things that are you know not great for you um there are plenty of things that you know like
    if you just ate certain things uh even if they taste good and even if they're kind of nominally air quotes
    good for you um there are a lot of things that you could overdo that's all i'm saying and there are things
    that well and i don't want to get too much into that stuff but the point is anyway where we are now
    there are a lot of people in this system that we've built um and again all of this stuff is just
    made up and like some asshole human beings long ago thought of it found ways to get people to work
    for them essentially um and the way things are structured actually you know you have it's kind
    of an interesting thing because you have it's easy to focus like uh you know mao and well not just
    but a lot of a lot of sort of revolutionary people really focused on the landlords and that the
    landlords were probably at the time a little bit more at the top of the of the pyramid so to speak
    than they are today but at that time people would focus on them and uh you know for for good reason
    because uh if you own in some sense air quotes own the ability to exist someplace like you need
    shelter you need food and somebody has some kind of control nominal control over that um that can
    that person can force you to do labor or they can force you essentially into the servitude whether it's
    actual like overt slavery or just you have to somehow get so many of these shells to give to me
    before you can just to survive otherwise you're going to be out in a horrible situation
    that's you know that's a pretty terrible person and especially when you think of like what are the
    actual underlying costs and quote-unquote owning something like that versus what are you giving
    somebody and also similarly like when you're you're working what is the value that you're creating
    your your efforts that your labor is creating versus what are you getting for that and again
    like at all these layers in our society we have all these i i want to say middle people but i'm
    going to say middlemen because um deliberately gendering it no it's just like you have these
    people who are intermediaries who essentially are just there they just exist to add friction to the
    system and you know take a cut and they make things worse for everybody they're not actually
    contributing they're not actually essential in any way but they're there to take their cut
    and then give you some diminished version of whatever whether it's your boss or whether it's
    you know the bank or whether it's a landlord or whatever and at at the moment the way things are
    you know you've got this sort of structure but above like again you can focus on the landlords and
    i do not think landlords are good people as a general rule you know but but i i know i own property or
    i'm a landlord myself or my friend is a landlord or whatever you want to say probably not the
    greatest thing like i understand you're just doing or they're just doing what they've been told is the
    right thing to do but it is intrinsically kind of evil to force other people to do shit that they
    don't want to do in order to give you shit that they don't want to give you um in order to simply
    survive and and obviously like you could maybe survive on the street if you wanted to but probably
    not and it's very difficult and you can't really yeah i mean i think about i think about this a lot
    like there was a time in history where if you didn't like the way things were you could just like
    wander off into the to the wilderness and you just disappear and you can kind of fuck off and not
    have to deal with people or or at least not have to deal with the people that you were dealing with
    before uh you and then certainly like you didn't have to pay rent to somebody you didn't have to
    uh and then but anyway i don't want to get too much into the weeds there but the point is you got all
    these people now we have this other layer on top of that where the landlords themselves who are again
    terrible doing terrible things they're really essentially working for people who are above them
    um like people who are running the banks people who are the owners of corporations and stocks and all
    this kind of stuff and we're like even the people that are exploiting you uh even the if you're
    exploiting people you're exploiting people but you're being exploited at the same time and we've got this
    sort of hierarchy where people are always kind of like clamoring to get up to the top of the ladder
    or to advance um they're they're using this sort of or they it's not like a one person decided this
    it's kind of a collective delusion but everybody is sort of trying to improve their situation
    at the expense of others and it's easy to tell yourself like oh i i can't actually do the right
    things here because it will destroy my life or it will cost me a lot in order to to help somebody
    and so you end up with a situation where you have layers and layers and layers of people exploiting
    other people making things worse adding friction to the system also the a very small number of people
    at the top like on the planet with eight billion plus people uh literally like order of like thousands
    of people like a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a percent are the ones that are like
    really on top of the pyramid and everyone else below is just kind of working and exploiting people
    and fucking people over in order to further enrich those people at the top and the ones at the top
    do not give a shit about like the continued habitability of the planet or anything and they
    have so much like they could not conceivably use everything that they have even if they lived a
    thousand lifetimes like they just couldn't do it uh and they want more it's this disease i i hate i
    don't want to use this as like an ableist thing but it's like this horrible hunger that is insatiable
    that these people have they cannot ever be satisfied they cannot ever be satiated and they just want more
    and more and more and it doesn't matter what the cost is and it doesn't matter that they can't
    possibly use they just want to be able to be at the top of the pyramid and have more than everybody
    else and have more than they did yesterday and it's just fucked that's the situation that we're in
    and so because of this and then we have a bunch like a long history basically my entire lifetime you
    have all of these parties um and getting back into the actual politics of today here but we have
    these parties like the democrats in the united states uh like labor in the uk labor in australia
    and canada and a lot of places in the world and these parties are sort of nominally nominally better
    than the the right-wing parties kind of but they've also and i'm not again i'm very far to the left i'm
    not in any way saying good things about the right-wing parties uh or the the center right the more
    center right parties i'm just saying like these other parties that you think of many people think
    of as kind of left-ish even in other countries by the way but in the u.s especially like what you
    think of as a left-leaning party is actually to be generous to them center right and really a little
    bit you know the democrats are right of where ronald reagan was on immigration and a lot of other
    issues and uh you just think about like how fucked up this is and so what what kind of happened is they
    weren't always like that none of the parties obviously were always to begin with they were
    all just fictions created by people and what they stand for and all this kind of stuff has changed over
    time the dominant parties in countries like the u.s even where you have kind of a two-party system
    um those those parties have changed over time and the way that these things have kind of changed or
    one way that they've changed is after reagan you have bill clinton um i'm going to focus on the u.s a
    lot here but i'm yeah a lot of these things kind of have echoes in other countries so if if you're in
    another country maybe you're bill clinton is somebody else but uh it's a tony blair or whatever but
    whoever it is yeah you have these people who made reaganomics and made this idea um this sort of
    neoliberalism um i mean i'm throwing out that word i'm not going to really define it here but this is
    the the concept the the sort of general political philosophy uh it's a very the idea is in some sense
    good because you have uh freedom and free markets and blah blah blah um and this sort of fundamentally
    though capitalist uh currency exchange uh transactional idea everything has to be it's a
    weird thing it's it's actually quite quite sick and twisted because it's like everything has to make
    money uh you can't have public services that are just public services uh it's totally antithetical
    to any kind of a gift economy and and again like one of the reasons that human civilization
    developed initially and one of the reasons why we are and have been so successful as a species
    is because we work together and we improve our collective situation together and like societies exist
    uh partly and largely really so that if you get old if you get sick somebody's there to take care of you
    and uh you can help other people later on and or or maybe you helped other people and also like
    your value is not intrinsically in it's not measured in terms of what you do it's not measured in terms
    of like it's not like you have to help somebody and then they'll help you just like that's how the
    fucking thing works people help each other that's that's i i know that like i know a lot of people
    will argue like oh the human nature is blah blah blah uh i i think that is if you look at people
    in indigenous societies that tends to be how they are that's not to say that they're always like that
    it's not to say that people don't do horrible shit uh there are plenty of examples of people in
    indigenous societies uh that are horrible and brutal and yeah so again but i do think like by and large
    if you take a kid and that kid is raised without really too much acculturation like they're not
    indoctrinated into a culture and they see someone in pain or they see someone in need their impulse
    and you know i don't have kids of my own but i've seen enough kids in the wild to kind of gather this
    i mean i was a kid the natural human impulse is to help the natural human impulse is to you know do
    something it's to to sort of take care of each other to take care of other other organisms other
    other sentient beings that's sort of if if we have any nature to speak of i think that's a lot of it
    and then everything else is kind of layered on top of that and again like people are people people are
    individuals some people intrinsically have more or less of that uh some people don't and and all of
    this but i think by and large you know take an average person uh they're probably between neutral
    and a little bit uh benevolent just just a little bit um so anyway rambling on you have people like
    bill clinton who took ronald reagan's extreme sort of uh everything has to be it any any public
    organization has to make money every everything like the post office has to make money the air
    traffic controllers have to make money they and also it's all got to be run under a sort of
    capitalistic thing like you know we we want to minimize the the costs and maximize the and blah blah
    blah and what you end up with is a system which is very brutal very harsh um it completely undermines
    social safety nets it completely undermines any kind of you know services that people would get
    including things like universal health care this is this is another thing also like in the u.s you have
    another layer of like one of the reasons why almost every um modern civilization that is air quotes
    developed has some form of universal health care has public transit has nice parks and walkable cities
    and all this kind of stuff one of the reasons why the u.s doesn't have that um one of the biggest
    reasons is just straight up racism because it you know like prior to the civil rights era um in the u.s a
    lot of cities a lot of villages had public pools they had things that were kind of nice collective
    places to be and then uh there were a bunch of supreme court decisions um and and laws that made it
    so that everybody could have access to those things and a bunch of white people who were fucking racist
    didn't like that they didn't want to share it and so rather than sharing they paved over their own
    fucking pools rather than sharing they divided up their cities they made the city unlockable they
    they put up barriers they tore up and again there were also like a lot of other factors at play but
    one factor in destroying public transit in the u.s which used to be pretty good like la used to have
    an actually really good trolley system and then it got torn up partly because of the auto industry
    but also partly because if you have a good public transit system then and you have civil rights
    then people that have darker skin can go other places people who don't speak english can go other
    places and it's easy and you have a much easier upward mobility and then we can't have that we
    can't have that we have to have everything divided and separated out and so that is that is a big factor
    there but i'm kind of rambling on but coming back um just want to make sure that you understand
    the reason that we don't have a lot of good stuff is fundamentally racism um there are other factors
    again but that is a number one in the u.s and you have uh again um reagan and bill clinton's air quotes
    welfare reform and then also like tough on crime was a big thing and this is a bipartisan a lot of
    these things are very bipartisan i i want people to understand like it is not just the republicans
    that are super pro cop it is not just the republicans who are super pro uh capitalism and uh running
    everything like a business everything everything has to be a business it can't be a public service
    it is it's bipartisan it is fully bipartisan and uh you know you have democrats who either are doing
    the same stuff or they're offering absolutely zero opposition to it and and similarly in other
    countries you have this air quotes left ish giant ish party uh versus and in other countries of course
    you have many parties you know i it's it's difficult to talk about all this kind of stuff without getting
    into like tons of weeds i'm trying to give you broad strokes uh but we have the democrats who are left
    er than the republicans left of the republicans but they're still a right-wing party uh or like
    legitimately right-wing and because of that people have gotten into a point where like at one point
    in time uh the u.s had a top tax rate of like 94 that the nominal um marginal tax rate marginal tax
    rate this is another thing that like uh it's very important to understand that the way that marginal
    tax rates work it's not like if you're hitting that 94 all of your money is taxed at 94
    it's all of the money past a certain level is taxed at that level so whatever the marginal rate is uh you
    know for the first chunk is very low you get that and then the next chunk from some amount to some
    other amount you're paying that much more and so on and so on and then for any amount over a certain
    amount that you make 94 of that was taken and at that time we had social programs we had a lot of
    things that were making things better for a lot of people making it very easy to go to school
    uh get an education to have retirement to to live fairly well for a lot of people and that got chiseled
    away over time slowly and we've gotten to the point now where you have a bunch of people who are
    hungry and tired and desperate working multiple jobs and this this is at different stages but it's
    kind of happening around the world uh working really hard and not able to survive and they see
    that they're in a position that is much worse than their parents were at the same age and when they
    were working much less hard uh which is not to say like maybe your parents worked very hard but if they
    worked as hard or if you worked as hard as they did um and you're an average person and they were an
    average person you would probably be way way behind where they were at the same age and especially like
    you go to their parents well i guess it depends on your generation and all this kind of stuff but you
    know if you go back to say the boomers uh they were able not in a like great job to have a house
    uh that car to be comfortable to pay for their kids education which was very cheap uh it and in some
    cases free like literally free or damn near free you know like people could go to university
    and uh in in many schools again like california state schools used to be free now they're very
    expensive but in many places you could go to university and like do a summer job and in your
    summer job which would be maybe not even full-time uh but even if it's full-time you have enough time
    and money to go out have fun uh to pay rent to pay for the rest of the year in your university
    and you come out with basically no student debt wasn't even a thing and then you'd graduate
    with a degree and no debt and you had a good time like and also you didn't have to spend the entire
    fucking time while you were studying also working and that is gone that's blown away from the u.s
    the thing that's scary is also like if you look at other countries uh even if they're not where we
    are uh a lot of them are getting there like the national health service or national health system
    in the uk has been slowly eroded and it's much better like i would take nhs over the u.s air quotes
    health care system any day but it's been fucked over and it's been dried out and slowly over time
    um is being destroyed and many of the companies that are responsible for fucking over u.s health
    care are in other countries doing the same stuff uh many of the people and country companies that
    have fucked over our education system they're in other countries doing the same kind of stuff and
    they're making the same kinds of things like making education too expensive making university
    education too expensive and again i don't want to say like you know it was magical and perfect in other
    places but a lot of things were a lot cheaper or free and they're getting worse in a lot of places
    and so people are experiencing this and they again quotes left party is not doing anything or they're
    not doing anything to help like even when they get into office they're not helping in any way they're
    helping uh capital they're helping the people with lots of money but they're not helping most people
    and then you have the these right-wing fascists who go around and they don't tell you that it's
    because of uh or maybe they do kind of like give you a bit of a lie that with of the best way to lie
    is to have a little kernel of truth there so you kind of say oh it's these uh these elites that are
    doing and and you know it's these uh left parties that are doing this that's because you're getting
    you're paying too much in taxes or some other bullshit and they give people simple simple answers to
    very complicated problems usually they like to um to point to other people like it's oh it's the
    immigrants oh it's the and you know it's some other group uh some other people in some other country
    or someone who's not you or it's trans people or it's uh muslims or it's whatever and any any group
    that is not the sort of dominant majority group of that country very easy to use as a scapegoat
    and so they're selling people that and they're saying like we're gonna make everything you know
    we have these simple solutions we have this hard problem things suck and listen to us and elect us
    and then we have these simple solutions for you and they're getting you know it's not just trump
    and the u.s and in fact in the u.s if you go up and down state legislatures there are a bunch of
    many trumps there are a bunch of other fucking terrible people there are a bunch of people who are not
    you know like as gross and obviously terrible as trump but they're basically just as bad
    um including in his administration and congress and so on and those are people that are there
    there are people that are all over the world and they're getting you know a lot of play out of this
    because you don't have somebody uh who has any real entrenched power who offers any kind of uh
    either an alternate framing that actually works or you know any kind of an answer and that the real
    answers are not you know unfortunately like things tend to be complicated there are not like quick
    fixes for a lot of things there are not things that are you know like if you imagine crime so crime
    first of all this is not a problem like and i'm not saying that crime doesn't exist but there's this
    whole idea in the u.s that like crime is rampant and blah blah blah and crime certainly exists but
    for the most part if you look at the statistics crime rates are very low now it's much safer in a
    lot of other countries to be sure uh mainly because in the u.s anyone can get a gun very easily and you
    know so it any kind of crime that there is is intrinsically much more dangerous there but you know if
    you if you look at crime rates in the u.s most cities including the places which are you know
    supposed to be crime and you know crime written horrible dystopias uh new york or chicago or dc or
    whatever they're the crime rates are very low right you're very safe there you're you're not as safe as
    you are maybe here or sure surely if you go to like beijing or something you'll probably be safer
    go to tokyo you'll be safer uh but you're you're very safe uh and most of the people that are not
    like that are experiencing the effects of crime uh very often are sort of let's just say involving
    themselves and again broad strokes not not universally but it's a very common thing so
    anyway um people focus on this they make up a problem like that they make up a problem like
    immigration immigration is not actually a problem in the u.s period there's no crisis at the border
    uh there's no problem with there's literally no problem with immigrants or immigration
    immigration uh it is a made-up fictional problem that the right-wingers have made up so that they
    have an excuse so that they have a reason to send troops into cities to increase the number of police
    that there are to increase you know like to make things horrible for a lot of people and the problem
    the real fundamental problem is not just that those people exist and that they're telling people these
    lies and that they're selling easy solutions the real problem is that the democrats or the opposing
    party to the extent that there is one are using the same framing they're using the same they're
    telling you the same stuff like harris didn't say there's no crisis at the border you're being
    fucking silly she didn't say that crime isn't a problem she didn't say like these are the actual
    problems she didn't say that you know like a lot of people are struggling and we need to work on that
    she went with the same framing that trump had she's like oh yeah there is a crisis at the border and
    this is how i'm going to deal with it there is a blah blah blah this is how i'm going to deal with
    it and by doing that a you're accepting and you're using the same just complete bullshit framing
    so you're spreading it you're not giving an alternate way to see things b you know if you're
    using that framing you're probably not the one you know i mean aside from the fact that like the people
    that she was chasing after are very largely racist and they weren't going to vote for her anyway
    but also like if you're if you believe in that kind of shit uh you're going to go for the the bigger
    fascist you're going to go for trump you're not going to pick this sort of like republican light
    and it's such a ridiculous problem because these parties do that kind of stuff and then magically
    there's no opposition and then magically trump wins and that's you know where we are not only in the
    u.s but kind of around the world people like trump when because there's no real opposition there's no
    counter frame and the people who are supposed to be opposed are reinforcing the same shit that these
    people are claiming and they're offering a less strong and less simple solution so of course people
    pick the the stronger strong man they pick the stronger uh easier solution because that's just how
    the fucking shit works when people are telling lies and it's it's such a fucking problem and the
    republicans will sit there and they make up like oh trans people are blah blah blah and the democrats
    are so many the democrats do not protect trans people it's the most fucking infuriating thing
    actually because like gavin newsom is anti-trans fundamentally deep hard stop and it's not just gavin
    newsom uh budigich or biden or harris they're all fucking anti-trans they're not like you they're
    not talking about trans people they're not helping trans people and yet the republicans point to this
    as like oh those those woke democrats and you know the bunch of bullshit that they say and then they
    blame it on trans people and the democrats just fucking accept that they act like you know oh yeah
    they're right this is a real problem and we have to abandon trans people not that you were with
    trans people to begin with but you have to abandon them oh yeah the republicans are right and now we
    have to abandon immigrants like you fuckers you absolute fuckers um or my favorite one it did not
    my favorite one but one of my favorites as well you know like harris in the debates was arguing with
    trump over who is the bigger fracker like she's super pro fracking and we're in a fucking climate
    catastrophe right now things are going to get much worse but things are already bad and you can see
    that they're bad and that there's no party sitting there no dominant party in power or anywhere near
    power saying like this is a fucking you know planetary emergency and we have to do something about it
    and you know that there are people that are doing that but they're not the democrats they're not anyone
    with any kind of real power and so you have you know like no real opposition and so it's kind of like
    this thing like oh you have to vote for me because trump is worse um and you do that over and over
    again and then you don't help people and you don't offer like real explanations for why we're where we
    are and you don't offer real solutions even if they're slow and kind of take some time and then you
    have the republicans who are saying like oh this is where we are and we have these problems and it's all
    their fault and so vote for me because i'll fix it really quickly for you and it's not shocking
    that they fucking win it's not shocking that like it what was what is your plan like you're never
    gonna have any republican ever win again because that's the the vote blue no matter who always vote
    for the republic or for the democrats against the republicans that's the the only way that works
    and it's not a viable solution even if the democrats were actually okay and the democrats are
    actually pretty shitty they're they're not as shitty in many ways as the republicans but it's like
    the do you want the fast train the express train to fascism or do you want the slow train there's no
    train going the other way i i want to be on the train that's going the other way i want to be i
    like and this is one of the reasons i live well i live i am i aspire to live outside of the u.s
    uh but one of the reasons i love being outside of the u.s even in the cities with shitty public transit
    and the parts of the world that i go to it's much better like bangkok doesn't have the greatest
    public transit network uh there are a lot of things that i don't like about it but it's so
    much better than almost anywhere in the u.s like okay you go to new york city it's pretty good there
    are parts of chicago where it's pretty good there are parts of dc uh where it's pretty good there are
    parts of san francisco where it's pretty good la even has parts where it's pretty good but for the
    most part in the u.s um and in even all the cities that i said or that i mentioned they're decaying
    or like la is actually investing in it but for the most part it's not a great network but just
    sort of a nominal kind of marginal shitty i mean i'm using random words there that don't really mean
    exactly what i mean but just a random city in europe probably has a better public transit system
    than almost any city in the u.s uh you know it's certainly like the app the the best case maybe it's
    not as good but on average certainly you roll the dice you go to any u.s city versus roll the dice and
    go to any european or asian city um and you're probably going to get much much much better in a
    random city anywhere else in the world especially a city that's not like under active development
    then you know it's kind of like getting someplace if they're already built up a little bit it's probably
    going to be better and you're probably also going to be like one of the things that's remarkable
    especially like anywhere that i have been traveling uh you you go places and it's always walkable
    it's always like being a pedestrian is not the worst thing in the world and you can actually get from
    place to place and you're not like standing if you if you walk in arizona uh you feel like a weirdo
    you feel like you're doing something wrong and i i really mean that like there are places where
    there are people walking but for most of the city like there's nobody it's it's not only a desert in
    the sense of you know like being dry and all this it's a desert in the sense that there's just nobody out
    it's it's creepy it's fucking weird it's like a dystopian movie um like a post-apocalyptic movie
    and it's not just because you're like out there in the summer when it's fucking hot it's like even when
    the weather is nice there's very few people out and the people that are out like you feel like
    there's something wrong and it's it's a real problem it's really depressing uh but anyway
    the the the place that we are is is sort of there and the the way forward and i don't i don't want to
    go i'm already like two hours like an hour and 10 minutes i don't know why logic always starts
    there must be a good reason for this but it starts at one colon zero zero zero zero instead of zero
    zero colon zero i guess it's maybe like the uh the standard thing in the u.s where the ground floor
    is the first floor and they're starting like the first hour is is a one so it uh i would much rather
    the counter start at zero but anyway i'm an hour 10 minutes in i'm not gonna go into like what we
    should do um or where we should where we should go next but that's i do think there are answers to
    that and i think a lot of them uh come from people understanding sort of where we are and a lot of
    them come from having a much better understanding of this and not just being like oh well um the
    republican republican bad and democrat good they're both bad they're both bad but it's pro wrestling
    and the idea that they're even in opposition to each other in any way that is meaningful um it's
    pure theater and i wish people would understand this because i talked to so many people who are
    absolutely convinced it's just like oh the democrats they're totally trying to oppose this stuff they're
    just you know they're they're they're not as strong or they're not as what no they're not trying
    to oppose it they're very strong when it comes to opposing bernie sanders they they organize and i'm not
    it like bernie sanders is good he's left of center but i'm i'm much further left than he is
    and i have i have some problems with him because he's actually like very aligned with the party and
    very much you know not acting in opposition to it um i could go on for that or with that for a long
    time but he's much better than the vast majority certainly any of the democratic candidates the that
    we've had other than him uh much better much better and the party can massively you know mount
    a defense against him if they could mount the same kind of defense against trump trump would never have
    gotten elected would never have won um and instead you know hillary clinton this is one of those things
    like it sounds like a conspiracy theory but you can search for this you will find it in the new york times
    um in politico and uh yeah you just go the hill uh the atlantic a bunch of other stuff um they always
    wanted trump just search for that hillary clinton and you'll find this thing called project or called
    pied piper and the pied piper thing was a thing that they thought it was a strategy it was a terrible
    strategy but it was a strategy and it's it's this like playing fifth dimensional chess thing um they the
    idea was basically like trump couldn't possibly win and so if we get him the nomination then we can
    just like sail into the white house this this was hillary clinton's thing and the whole you know the
    entire party was kind of behind it and again it sounds like a ridiculous conspiracy theory but it's
    fully well documented it's it's it's not like some ridiculous idea that i'm just making up and you look
    at that and this is the wisdom that these people have they thought they had no idea where we were
    and this is a thing that i want you to understand like obviously don't just listen to me and assume
    that everything i say is correct and and certainly understand that everything that i'm saying you know
    it is a rough sketch a first pass at understanding stuff it is you know like the the chalk outline it is
    not like rough then it is not i'm not giving you a bunch of details and everything that i've talked
    about you can go and talk at length about everything else and you know like there's a lot of stuff that
    i'm i'm sort of deliberately omitting or i'm glossing over because the reality is always much more
    complicated and you know if i made this like exhaustive uh first off i'm not like yeah i i know more
    about this stuff than a lot of people but i am not by any means qualified to like fully like
    exhaustively go into full depth on all of this kind of stuff but also even to the extent that i i know a
    lot more that i'm talking about here if i did like you you wouldn't listen you just like yeah you need
    to initially get kind of like a very rough cursory idea and then maybe go into some of these things and
    maybe start thinking like oh that's scott maybe maybe he's not completely wrong maybe he's not
    completely yeah he's he's a little extreme i'm not extreme but yeah maybe maybe i should look at
    maybe there's something to that and then you kind of like go and peel back the onion a little bit
    go go do a little bit of research that's all i'm asking you to do um but anyway that it's just
    frustrating it's just very frustrating to me so she got trump and i'm saying she it's not it's not just
    her because james carville and a bunch of other fucking people got us trump this party not actually
    offering any kind of opposition and destroying uh social safety net the the air quotes welfare reform
    that her husband did got us trump you know a bunch of things got us trump um harris running on
    being super pro fracking and being anti-immigrant and not really helping any of the core constituencies
    like literally alienating all the core constituencies of the democrats and taking away any reason why
    somebody might vote for them like you know i didn't vote for her specifically because of the genocide
    in raza um i i wasn't going to do it i couldn't do it i was ready to vote for her for like a couple days
    and then she and her husband and spokespeople and all these other people kept coming out
    and saying over and over again and beating the drum like um not only do they you know support uh israel
    completely unconditionally um but you know like they're just going to keep funding it keep doing
    all this stuff and apply zero pressure to to end this thing which like i i cannot tell you how many
    uh over the last couple of years how many kids i've seen blown up or burned alive uh people in
    hospital beds you know just burned alive mother screaming um while her kids are burning to death
    in a tent right in front of her but burning to death because the tent has been bombed uh with bunker
    busters that came from my country that that we gave to to this country um yeah like and i mean i talk to
    people there pretty much on a daily basis and like there's always a fucking drone buzzing in the sky
    um not not a hundred percent always like they they don't do it just enough so that it's not like a thing
    that you can filter out they do and i'm sure they've calculated like what is the right amount of time
    to have this thing annoying you uh where you can't filter it out and you kind of can't get used to it
    and they they do that it's psychological torture and then they're blowing things up they're they've
    completely leveled the city um and and they're starving people to death you know like there there's
    an absolute embargo um an absolute you know blockade of anything getting in and out and it it's
    fucking horrible and even before that it was very hard to get out uh it was very expensive to get
    out but now like people can't get out and i talk to a lot of people and the refrain that i hear most
    often is that people would just like to die um because they either they just want the suffering to
    end or you know and i'm not i'm not a religious person so this part sounds pretty bad to me but they
    want to die so that they'll have few food in heaven i i think that this idea of an afterlife
    obviously like it's unknowable whether it exists or not uh i i would say i lean toward probably not but
    i i certainly admit that i don't know because how would i know but this idea that something exists
    after this life i think it gives people uh a it gives people an excuse b it gives people this idea
    that you know like it's oh you can deal with all kinds of bullshit because this is eventually a
    good reward um and it also gives you this idea that you know like oh it's it's fine that mitch
    mcconnell is a fucking horrible person because and he'll die with a smug grin on his face in his own
    bed comfortably that's all fine because eventually after he's gone he'll suffer for it and i don't like
    this first off i'm there's a whole like i don't want to i'm not into punitive justice even with
    somebody like that uh just to begin with although i would to see him suffer would not make me feel bad
    but i i don't you know that's not the the goal it's not the goal it's not to to see him in a worse
    position or to see him miserable the goal is to make things better and to prevent harm from being
    done and to restore to the extent that harm is done to do what you can to undo it and to get people
    to a better place to get him to not be a fucking horrible person or if he is going to be a horrible
    person uh to get him out of power and to get him out of a position where he can actually hurt people
    like that would be the thing that you would do uh to me that's just that's just me i'll i'll probably
    talk about that more and something else later but you know it's just like broad strokes uh but this
    idea sort of i think it gives people a salve uh sort of like a feeling of yeah it removes some
    pressure to some extent it takes away some of the edge like if you think oh this is the world this is
    what exists and if it's shitty or if it's a paradise that's on us we can make it better or we can make it
    hell um and a lot of people are intent on making it hell but it could be a fucking paradise
    um very easily by the way it's not like you have to mass you don't need like massive amounts of new
    technology or anything we could today make it a paradise like legitimately fairly easily it wouldn't
    be tomorrow you couldn't quite snap your fingers and do it but we could make it pretty quickly if
    we got together and we did it um we could make things much better we could make things so much
    better for so many people all around the world like there's no reason for anybody to starve to death
    right now in the world more food rots every year than you need to feed everybody and yet millions of
    kids not just in gaza are dying just every year of starvation like completely human made famines and
    things like this and you know like the entire existence of my life and for much of this country
    certainly post-world war ii um we've bombed people we've blown up shit we've made things worse in a lot
    of countries and that doesn't need to be that way it doesn't need it we've you know like my country has
    propped up dictators and overturned democratic revolutions many many times um yeah it's just it's
    it's fucking annoying it's really and it does not have to be this way and i think that there's a
    danger a real danger in this idea that you know a this idea that there's some omnipotent being out
    there um who's just you know like because once you start thinking that it's like well why do things
    suck and then you start coming up with these ideas like oh things suck for some people or for you
    uh because you know you did something wrong and god is punishing you and the people that are
    really successful god is like shining a light on you know the prosperity gospel bullshit and it's
    very easy to come up with that kind of stuff and that gives you a reason not to the change things not
    to improve things um and then it's also very easy to think like well you know that there's just like
    intrinsic justice in the universe and so we don't really have to impose no there's the justice
    there's there's no justice but what we make there's no um consequence for things that's innate but what
    we make and and i think this is important also like i like the idea of karma and to some extent
    obviously it sort of exists naturally like there are effects to doing shit but consequences are largely
    created by people and the absence of consequences um makes things worse the absence of concerted effort
    and like looking like this is what we've got we don't think maybe there's something better later on i
    don't know but we know we've got this um we should fucking make it better and the absence of that
    makes things worse and it is a massive problem that i know also it's torture because again i talk to
    people in in graza and it's not just there but you know like if somebody's kid dies like why did god
    do this and and i am so thankful i was raised without religion i am so thankful on a daily basis
    especially when i talk with people like this um for that because by being raised without it i don't have
    this torture you know i did this not to say that i haven't had an existential crisis or things like this
    i've had to deal with like the the vastness of the universe and the the length and the you know
    massive scales of time and things like this but i haven't had to deal with like why does life suck
    why is this horrible thing happened um that you know like the this being that i'm told is omnipotent
    and omniscient and loves me um why why have they done this horrible shit to me like i i see people all
    that on a daily basis like why what did i do to deserve this you didn't fucking do anything like
    that and there's a lot of i think there's a lot of relief in this idea it's not good it doesn't make
    you feel great about it but understanding like oh the universe is kind of random and the things like
    that people don't deliberately steer one way or another um that's just random it's not you know
    it's not like a condemnation of you or it's not like oh you're being rewarded for being a good
    person no it's just kind of largely random and then people do stuff that's not random and a lot of that
    good or bad people don't think like oh well we could actually make things better we could actually
    you know like people don't need to be blown up they don't need to be starved to death people don't
    need to be like forced into this situation where they have to do a gofundme because their kid gets
    cancer or or because they were in a car wreck and they're just you know like injured or because they
    had covid and you know they've got like a permanent uh disability from it you know so i i see people
    a lot of people ask like why do you wear a mask all the time one of the reasons is that i'm not
    rich and i know way too many people with um you know just long covid and they're like there are
    extreme examples like physics girl um you should check her out if you if you're not familiar but like
    a lot of people think they have permanent brain fog they lose the ability to smell uh they they have
    you know like brain damage from this shit they have cardiovascular damage from this shit it is causing
    their lives to be much worse it's making you know the stuff that is essential to do in life uh much
    harder and already like i i struggle enough to get stuff done i don't need another thing standing in
    my way i struggle enough uh to be able to focus i don't need something i don't need fucking brain fog
    and to be tired all the time i i don't need that i don't want that and you know there's a whole other
    thing about like the abandonment of public health and this is another place also this will be where
    i end but this is another place i will make an episode just on this one but where both parties
    have been terrible you know like early on in the pandemic it was like the the democrats were the
    ones wearing the masks and the republicans weren't and part of it you know people were talking about how
    it was virtue signaling and i i think actually kind of was because as soon as you got biden into office
    you know trump a couple hundred thousand useans died under trump terrible right and many of those
    were preventable if we would have acted fast we could have put the fucking brakes on this shit
    but didn't and let it go uh and then he said and i probably i'm repeating myself and i know i'm
    repeating myself but i probably i'm three episodes and i'm probably saying something i've already said but
    i'm gonna repeat this ever ever more um until people get it he said you know well if we just
    stop testing it'll magically go away but he didn't do that right he didn't stop testing biden had all
    the time had all the time to prepare all the time to get ready came in and his approach was we're gonna
    stop testing uh we're gonna change the reporting because i don't like uh people look at the maps on
    the cdc website and it's all red and orange that doesn't look good uh so we're gonna change the
    metrics on that we're gonna change the coloring on that again i i will make an episode um and a page
    where i show some of this stuff because it is fucking ridiculous and because he did all this stuff and
    because he got people to stop masking and because also because he told people um that vaccines like
    vaccines are not magical personal shields vaccines are a public health tool that do protect you to
    some extent but the big reason that you have vaccines the main thing that they do is protect
    society protect us collectively um so if you vaccinate enough of the population you don't have enough
    susceptible people in the population to get infected and to spread things and then diseases collapse they
    can't go from place to place so they just die out and you end up with you know things essentially
    either not necessarily getting eradicated although we've done it with smallpox and we've almost done
    it with a few other diseases um but at the very least they go to low low low levels where they're
    very controllable and you can just do monitoring and they're basically non-existent and then if they do
    pop up you can contain them and you can deal with them and then people don't die or people die on a
    much lower rate than they were um that's what you know you vaccinate populations not individuals um
    but biden sold them as like this oh you get vaccinated you can just take off the mask that's that's not how
    the fucking shit works and by doing that he promoted anti-vaxxers because people saw oh it doesn't
    actually work that way because of course it doesn't uh they didn't he didn't explain like
    swiss cheese i can explain to a fucking six-year-old like uh if you vaccinate somebody it offers imperfect
    protection it offers protection but it has holes and that mask offers protection but it has holes
    and you know cleaning the air having better ventilation better filtration offers protection
    but it has holes and when you put these things layer on top of layer on top of layer those holes
    don't all allow you know this is the swiss cheese model layers of swiss cheese the holes don't all
    overlap and then you have smaller and smaller gaps where things can get through and in that defense
    and depth um you're offering much more protection that's how fucking shit works that's how public health
    works and you know this this whole idea about vaccines being for you personally versus a thing
    that we do to make society better and and for us included by the way because you know because everybody's
    getting vaccinated then you're much less likely to get measles you're much less likely to get whatever
    other disease um it's not just yeah it's it's kind of an interesting thing because you're taking this
    individual action which is helping us collectively which is prevent in turn protecting you individually
    that's the thing that's protecting you individually it's not that the vaccine personally immediately
    protects you it's that if enough people are vaccinated and you have other public health
    measures then you will be protected and and never mind also like people get freaked out about
    like this mrna stuff um if you're upset about mrna uh covid is a plus sense single-stranded
    rna virus that means it is itself mrna like it is literally mrna and you know if you're upset about
    the virus if you're upset about the vaccine the virus is the fucking it's a piece of the of the
    vaccine is a piece of the virus literally just pulled out and designed so that you can get protective
    immunity and develop protective immunity without getting sick um that's that's what it is and they do
    have like adjuvants in them they have things to elicit an immune response which can trigger
    some kind of an immune reaction and most of being sick is an immune response to a disease so it can
    give you like some symptoms and this kind of stuff and nothing is perfectly safe of course but like if
    you look at the relative risk the risk of getting vaccinated is very very small and the risk of getting
    covid is much greater and you know so it's like it's a complete no-brainer it's it just fucking
    pisses me off and now we have the situation where you get fucking trump in office and first off vaccine
    uptake went down to shit under biden and now trump is talking about like trying to pull all the covid
    vaccines because um anti-vax junior rfk junior is pushing these just ridiculous concepts but they're not
    just about like the covid vaccines which yeah but he's also pushing this nonsense about um like
    gardasil these hpv vaccines hpv like if you're a woman um or someone with a uterus i guess i should say
    uh under 30 35 one of the leading causes of death and it's a horrible death is uh cervical cancer
    and most of the cervical cancer comes from hpv infection and gardasil can prevent hpv infection
    and prevent cervical cancer and massively it's very effective very low risk and you know like it's
    just like why would you not why would you not do that if i if i had again i don't have kids if i had a
    daughter it would be criminal i think it would be just evil to not get her vaccinated it's just
    and and of course you can also get um it's not just for for women although you want to vaccinate
    both boys and girls because even if it was just for women again it's a public health measure and
    you're preventing your son from giving somebody else's daughter something i'm sorry that i'm using
    very gendered language there but yeah but also um you know penile cancer anal cancer throat cancer
    oral cancer these things are also caused by hpv and they're also very easily preventable by gardasil
    and by i keep using gardasil but hpv vaccines there are other ones um that's just for some reason the
    one that i have in mind but it's just it's fucking infuriating that this guy and this guy is just a
    massive quack and he's in a position of power now and unfortunately biden and the democrats have
    really elevated this guy and this these kinds of notions because they've sold this bullshit idea
    of how vaccines work as a magical personal shield versus a public health intervention uh that is
    gonna that is gonna do it for now i'm an hour and a half and this seems to be like the right amount
    of time um my voice is about to to die and uh and also like i i feel like i probably probably have
    bored you enough for this episode i will be back soon uh probably not in a couple days i'm gonna try
    to do i'm trying to do this about once a week uh but i'm not on a fixed schedule and i am traveling
    which is making things complicated uh but i i will put up another one soon this one i just i was talking
    to somebody yesterday i got um i got the idea i really wanted to to expand on it and then i've
    got a lot of stuff that you know i just like always like talking about uh but i have a bunch of i have
    so many things that i just want to say and i i appreciate you listening i hope that it's helpful
    i hope that it's interesting and i really hope more than anything uh that it at least i don't i'm not
    i'm not expecting to like change people's minds but what i want to do and the way that i see all of
    this kind of stuff it's kind of like geology it's kind of like you know i'm a grain of sand blowing
    in the wind and i'm individually not doing that much right but enough grains of sand over enough
    time enough things in the water in the wind and you can carve the grand canyon and i'm hoping
    aspiring that in time in concert with a lot of other people and with things that you know you're doing
    yourself uh that things change and then things get better and that maybe you start thinking like
    oh maybe this is uh the situation that we're in or maybe maybe the democrats are not such a you know
    depending on where you are depending on what your your system is and what what you're thinking maybe
    the democrats are not such a good party um if you're a red maga person maybe trump is not such a good
    person maybe maybe these fucking fascists who are selling you this bill of goods that is like
    you know complete bullshit and a bunch of scapegoating maybe that's not actually in your
    interest either if you're somebody who's not political and you're like you know politics
    affects us all it's unfortunate it sucks um it would be nice to not have to worry about this shit
    i i would you know i think it would be really nice to not have to just constantly think about this
    and it doesn't have to be this again it does not have to suck like this all the time
    um but for the moment like it always it affects us but for the moment it really affects a lot of
    people and the consequences are not just there if you're an immigrant but you know like anyone
    is really facing dire kind of consequences and the undermining of public health the undermining of
    like i i've been in places where there's very poor air quality and taking away environmental
    regulations makes the air worse it makes the water worse it makes the food more dangerous
    and it's nice to be able to say like oh i can get a fucking drink of water and not have to worry
    that it's gonna poison me i can breathe the air without my eyes burning and without feeling like
    it's killing me i can i can get food that is safe to eat you know it's nice it's much better to live in
    a place like that and it's much worse not to and it's also nice to have public parks it's nice to have
    wilderness reserves it's nice to have things like that and you know you have these forces of i hate
    using the word evil because evil implies kind of like um the supernatural thing it's not it's not a
    supernatural thing it's not like some extrinsic thing but there are people and you know forces at
    work which are like collective it i'm trying to frame this so that it's not sounding like a religious
    thing but it's it's basically like in society a bunch of people acting in concert uh can do things
    and those things can be good or bad and you have these collective forces at work uh conspiracies
    without conspirators i would call them where you know a bunch of people making decisions in their
    own self-interest are doing things in a way that looks concerted and to some extent there might be
    coordination but to the most to the to the greatest extent or to the bigger extent it's just like
    people acting in their own immediate self-interest doing things and all because they're all similarly
    interested in similar situations making similar decisions and they're destroying a lot of things
    that are not coming back like if you take away wilderness it's very hard to to get it back if you go to a city
    like new york and you see uh you see uh central park that is an amazing awesome thing and there are
    well that i i there's some negative history there as well but uh that will spare you that right now
    but it's unfortunately it's one of those things where you look at it and it's like uh it's not as good
    as you thought but where we are now ignoring the history having something like that in the city
    um is nice it really is nice and there are a bunch of people that look at that and they're
    salvating and they're like oh i could just build condos there and i could make so much money and if
    you do that and if you build a bunch of litter there once it's gone it's really hard to get something
    like that back especially in a dense urban area and you know i don't think people appreciate or
    understand how easy it is to fuck things up and how hard it is to try to to recover them at all
    especially something like that especially something where it's like oh now we have building upon building
    upon building and you want to restore it to the wilderness that's really hard and uh it's just
    i and the the way things are the way things are going is not good and it's very detrimental to a lot
    of people and you know living in a country where people can be disappeared for nothing i want to
    say like this this will be really the last thing that i talk about but the u.s is and has long been
    a fascist country like it's not just trump that is making it possible to like disappear people off the
    street um police in general are bad uh they they do a lot of harm and to the extent that you don't
    realize it's been like this i think it reflects a lot of privilege and it reflects a lot of like
    not pushing up against the boundaries because i've known people who actually protest and do stuff
    and uh over the years and they've run into this kind of stuff and they you know it's not a surprise to
    them it's not like a massive change to them it's like incremental and the people that you know it
    it's new to are people that are formerly privileged or or still quite privileged but they don't have
    that exposure they've not pushed up against the edges so they didn't really realize that we're in a
    cage but we are um anyway i i i could go off on another rant on that i will talk about that as well
    more later i think with that um i'm going to to finally end this so hour 40 minutes on thanks
    again as ever um i will be back soon and uh stay tuned
    you

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  • Sounds like a Whisper

    Re-recorded this one becuase the audio quality was awful

    Image By © Hans Hillewaert, CC BY-SA 4.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=7279259

    Episode Transcript

    Hey there, I'm Scott, and this is Tangents.

    It is 25 August 2025, and this is like my fourth time of starting this one. I recorded a full one, and I recorded it a little bit late at night. I'm recording this now at 10.42 in Bangkok.

    I recorded it at night, and I felt bad. I didn't want to keep up with the neighbors. I'm in a hotel, and I can hear people outside, so I know they can probably hear me. I didn't want to bother them.

    So I recorded it in the bathroom, and the reverb on that one is just fucking terrible. So I'm redoing it, which kind of sucks.

    And then I'm in, like, not that you need to know all the technical details here, but I'm using my AirPod Pros. The audio quality from the first episode was actually not that bad. I was kind of surprised.
    So I'm doing it again. I'm going to be doing it while I'm traveling, at least. I'll probably go to a better mic when I get back.

    I'd like to figure out something that I can do that's kind of sustainable and, you know, just works wherever I am.

    But for now, this is good enough, I think, and hope.

    Apple is so fucking annoying anymore. So fucking annoying.

    First of all, at some point, it decided to start connecting to my phone, and it wants to use my phone's mic as a mic.

    And every time I open up Logic, it's trying to reconnect to it, and there's nothing I can do.

    Now, granted, I have a macOS beta. I have an iOS beta, the 26 versions.

    And maybe it kind of seems like the previous one, there was a way to do it, to disable that.
    But in the current one, if it's there, and I'm not convinced that it is, but if it is there, it's buried someplace.

    I can't find it, and it's really fucking annoying.

    And it's just, like, Apple anymore, you know, their whole thing used to be just works.
    Like, literally, that was their thing. It was just works, TM.
    Yeah. And it didn't ever actually just work. Like, everything wasn't perfect.
    But it did kind of work pretty well. Like, there were a lot of things where you could tell they were making things better.

    And recently, and when I say recently, I mean, like, the last probably five to ten years,

    especially since Steve Jobs got really sick and then died, and especially recently,
    it's just been getting worse and worse and worse.

    And again, like, I'm not saying that he was perfect or awesome or, you know, like, without faults by any means.

    But you can just tell, like, Tim Apple is not Steve Jobs. Let's just say that.
    And the company, I mean, like, it's very obvious that the company that he built is very toxic.
    And Tim Apple, I'm not going to call him Tim Cook. He's just become Tim Apple.

    So, if I didn't have such derision for the man, I might be nicer to him, but fuck that guy.

    But anyway, it's very obvious that Jobs built an extremely toxic culture and horrible company.
    Yeah, as much as I like some of their products and some of the ideas about the stuff, and, you know,

    I do love a lot of their engineering.

    But, you know, the whole structure was extremely terrible.
    And there was this competition between, like, Tony Fidel, Fadel, however the fuck you say his name,
    and Scott Forrest Dahl, or I don't even care what the fuck his name is.
    And all these other people were kind of, like, vying to be the next CEO.
    And Tim Apple got to the top of the pile of assholes, which I think doesn't make him a great guy.

    It makes him, like, the biggest asshole.

    I think it's a condemnation, like, the fact that he got there.

    Big fucking condemnation.

    The fact that they bought Beats by Dre.

    Like, they could have bought that and then had Dre be the...
    And I'm not saying that Dre is, like, the best possible CEO for the company.
    But dude built Beats by Dre and could have done some interesting stuff.

    They acquired his company and then just kind of, like, shelved him.

    Um, and again, like, I'm not saying that he's a great guy.

    I'm not saying that he's the guy I wanted to be CEO.
    But would have been better, probably, than fucking Tim Apple.

    Like, in fact, a lot of people would have been better than Tim Apple.

    In fact, I don't even like Tony Fidel, the Nest guy.

    I kind of hate that guy.

    He would have been better.

    That Scott guy would have been better.
    You know, a lot of people would have been better in the role.

    And it ended up with, like, the, again, the biggest asshole.

    But anyway, the shit is turning really crappy.
    And, like, they're doing stuff, like, a year ago for the previous version of Mac OS X.

    They, in preview, this is just one example, but it's emblematic.

    In preview, the application for, like, doing PDFs and images and stuff.

    They used to have an icon.
    And, in fact, like, I'm looking at Logic right now.
    And if I look at the window, at the top of the thing is the file name.
    And then there's a little icon of the file.
    And I can click and drag that icon and just do whatever I want with it.

    Now, in preview, they decided, well, we're going to hide that.

    And so you can kind of see some stuff, but you have to mouse over it.
    And then the delay before it shows, I want to say it's 200 milliseconds, but I think it's more like 500 to 1,000 milliseconds.

    In fact, it might even be 2,000 milliseconds, like, two seconds.

    It is ridiculously, ridiculously long.
    In fact, I'm going to see if I can open it right now.
    And for some reason, oh, it just crashed.

    It just crashed.

    Maybe I shouldn't be trying to do stuff while I'm recording.

    I am using beta software, so it's kind of my fault.
    But it was a ridiculously long time.

    I do think, actually, like, two seconds seems obscene.

    But I think it actually was that.

    I timed it, and I made a, well, I made several bug reports and feedback things.

    They always ignore them.
    But, yeah, I've made that.

    And it doesn't, the thing about it is it, like, doesn't save really any screen real estate.

    It doesn't do anything other than make it look maybe a little tidier.

    But this functionality, which I use all the fucking time, like, multiple times a day on a daily basis, it makes you go and, like, hunt for the thing.
    And if I didn't know it was there, I wouldn't even know to go there.
    But I know it's there, and I have to go up there, and then hover the mouse, and you have to wait two seconds.

    And then you drive, and I think it is two seconds.

    I've convinced myself.

    It's just, like, what the fuck are you guys doing?

    What the fuck are you guys doing?

    Jobs was weird with, like, skeuomorphic interfaces and things like this.

    You know, not the greatest guy, but that kind of shit.

    And just the mystery meat, this thing where you hide UI elements, and you have to, like, randomly click on stuff and move the mouse places.

    It's just shitty.

    And, again, like, there's plenty of space.

    It's not saving space.

    It's not really, I mean, obviously it's saving some number of pixels and some percentage of the screen.

    But it's a negligible amount.

    And it's, like, you've made it 1% cleaner, and you've saved, like, a fraction of a percent of the screen area.
    And in doing so, you've made it 1,000 times less usable.

    Like, I don't know what the fuck you guys are thinking.

    It pisses me off.

    It legitimately pisses me off.

    One of the things also, and I, it kind of pains me to say this, I think I'm not going to buy any more Apple shit.

    Which, I say that now, if they do come out with a Vision Air that is good, I might still consider it.

    Because that Vision Pro, I have to say, like, I don't like a lot of things about it.

    I'm not a big AR, VR fan.

    But one thing that, I didn't bring mine with me, but one thing that I really like about it, and I kind of miss, is it would give me, like, a great, giant, high-resolution screen.

    And, you know, it, unfortunately, it's really heavy, really bulky, but you could carry it with you a lot easier than you could carry a monitor.
    And I say that, I don't know how much an external monitor weighs and how much bulk it has.

    It's probably comparable, actually.

    But, you know, if you're wearing those things, and they do, they're very heavy, they're very fatiguing.

    I don't like staring at a screen right in front of my eyeballs for a long time.

    But having that virtual display, like, floating there with you, and, you know, I mean, like, one of the things I miss, that there are not that many things I miss about not having my own space right now.
    One big one I miss is not having a whiteboard.

    If you could figure out having that, that would be fucking awesome.

    I don't know how you could do it well.

    And I think, I do think it is one of these things, like, I have show notes.

    And I did this partly because I listened to the previous episode, or sort of, like, the new episode one of this.
    And I think it's pretty good, but I do repeat myself a number of times in there.
    And I was sitting there going, like, I don't, that's not what I want.

    I don't want to waste your time just rambling on, circling the same things.

    So I made an outline.

    And my plan, at least with this outline, is not to go, like, point by point through everything and write down exactly what I'm going to say.

    But I want to make sure I hit certain things.
    And then I want to make sure I don't go back to them.

    Unless I'm actually, like, adding something material to them.

    You know, if I'm adding, if I'm going back to them and, like, adding layers, that's different.

    The tangents that reconnect.
    Different threads reconnecting, that kind of stuff.

    That's different.

    But when it's just, like, repeating the same shit, which I did, it's not good.

    And again, maybe it doesn't bother you.

    It bothers me.

    It's not something that I really want this to be.

    So, anyway, 10 minutes in.

    Getting back to what I recorded on the previous one.

    And I'm calling this one Sounds Like a Whisper.
    And this is a deliberately kind of double entendre.

    Double entendre.

    No.

    Just kind of up my ass.

    Sorry.

    But it's a deliberately double meaning.

    One of the meanings is about Tracy Chapman's talking about a revolution.

    And this is a song.

    Like, I remember it when I think, and I'm dating myself here, but I think I was in middle school when it came out.

    It may have been grade school.

    I don't remember exactly.

    But it was, like, that area.

    And I just didn't, like, I mean, I enjoyed the song.

    Don't get me wrong.
    But at the time, I was, you know, obviously I was raised in the United States.

    I had the standard sort of U.S. public education.

    I think I got a pretty decent public education, actually.
    I think, you know, especially compared to a lot of people.

    Had pretty good teachers.

    Had, you know, I didn't see it at the time.

    But I think I benefited from not getting fast-tracked and not getting, like, accelerated and stuff.

    And not getting pushed into the, air quotes, advanced classes.

    It was kind of annoying, and I felt shitty about it at the time.
    But I think it's really detrimental to kids.
    And most of the people I know who got, like, skipped a grade or two.

    It fucked them over.

    Like, it robbed a piece of, you know, you're only in school one time for so long.

    And that's precious time.

    It really is.
    There's no real advantage.

    Like, I've known people, I've known a couple people who went to university when they were, like, 15 or 16.

    And, yeah, it's kind of cool.

    And you're like, wow, you must be.

    I used to think they were really smart.

    I think now it's just, it's got more to do with the family and getting pushed.

    But I would not want that.

    Like, you're way outside of the cohort of people who are sort of your age.

    And I will say, like, I never, I always felt more comfortable with adults than other children.

    Like, as long as I can remember.

    I never really, I didn't vibe with the other kids.

    I just never did.

    It was never until probably into late undergrad or even grad school before I started feeling, like, comfortable with my actual peers of a similar age.

    Like, before then, it was just, like, I don't understand you fucking people.

    I don't, you know, I mean, don't get me wrong.

    I had friends at various times and I hung out with people.

    But for the most part, I just didn't, it's like, you know, like, what, I don't understand your values.

    I don't understand what you're doing.

    I don't understand, you know, what you're saying and what the subtext is behind everything.

    And it just felt like, you know, like, I felt like everybody is, I'm surrounded by aliens.

    Like, what the fuck?

    It just is weird.

    So anyway, that was my perception of the revolution song then.

    Now it's changed a little bit.
    Like, I didn't at the time realize why, you know, someone might want a revolution.
    And in retrospect now, looking at, you know, what I know about the United States and the fact that this is a country built on a genocide on a scale that would make Hitler blush and that inspired him.

    And built on top of slavery and built, you know, on empire and fucking over so many countries and destroying so many democratic governments just because they didn't kind of vibe with our, with our companies.

    They weren't really working for our sort of world order, so to speak.

    It, I see why people would want a fucking revolution.

    And, and I think also, like, I know, and granted my Facebook experience is a little different than, than most, but I have a lot of sort of brunch libs connected to me there.

    Mainly from running for office, connected to a lot of Democrats at the time.

    And a lot of just the mainstream Democrats, especially the people who are actually active in the party, are very privileged, often very white.

    And often, let's just say not really, they're, they're not sharing the standard experience of living in the United States, which is to say, you know, like they're, they're getting, especially the boomerish kind of thing where they could work a, not necessarily very, you know, highly skilled job, so to speak.

    Highly skilled is a bad, not a job that required a lot from them in terms of like preparation, let's just say that.

    And they could have enough money to get a house and have vacations and send their kids to college and do all kinds of stuff.

    And they're, you know, like now they have 401ks and their 401ks have been booming and they feel like, um, genocide Joe was fucking awesome because under him, they're, you know, the stock market was going well and all this kind of stuff.
    And they're like, Oh, the economy is amazing.
    And they have no idea that a lot of people, um, have been working multiple jobs just to be able to pay rent and barely scrape by.

    They have no idea how much like the increasing of food prices has really gotten to people.

    They have no idea how much just everything has started to really suck there.

    Uh, and when I say started to, I mean, obviously it sucked for a lot of people for a long time, right?

    Um, like my dad was able, he had a pension, um, although he got fucked on his pension and forced retired after 29 years and 11 months just so that he wouldn't get the full 30 year pension.
    Um, it's pretty, pretty fucked up thing.
    And then he ended up getting cancer and dying.
    Um, you know, that's, it was a, it was a situation.

    Um, but not that the pension, not, you know, like getting screwed on the pension didn't cause the cancer, but it made his life harder and things sucked more, uh, needlessly because some greedy bastards wanted to get a little bit more money.

    But anyway, um, yeah, I'm just, I'm thinking about like, he was very fortunate.

    There are a lot of people who didn't get pensions.

    There are a lot of people who are like my mom's age, um, in their eighties.

    There, there was a woman who worked, um, in facilities at the, that ASU biodesign where I was, uh, in my last job.

    And she was in her eighties and she's cleaning the place and doing hard physical manual labor, long days, all those kinds of stuff.
    And I'm sure she has to, I don't think it's just because like my, my dad's mom, um, she kept working at a sandwich shop for a very long time into, I think at least her seventies.
    And I'm sure she didn't mind like the little bit of extra money, but she was mostly doing it because she wanted something to do, right?

    She didn't want to just be like sitting around the apartment watching TV, which I think is, is something.

    I get that. Um, I, I don't think I would ever want to retire per se, although I definitely would want to not have to work for some other asshole.

    That's, that's a big thing.

    But anyway, um, I, I'm actually going to jump ahead of what I wanted to talk about a little bit.

    Not that you know that. Um, but I think this fits in because I've been traveling.

    I'm currently in Bangkok, uh, in Thailand and in my traveling this time, I've kind of noticed a number of things.

    This is, this was not deliberate and I'm sure somebody else, well, first off, I'm sure other people have actually done comparative analyses and people that.

    Like know what the fuck they're doing and are actually qualified to do this kind of stuff.

    But I have noticed a number of things that I think is worth, or that I think is, that I think are worth talking about.
    And, um, oh, I'm, I'm, I'm going to jump into that in a second.

    I do want to finish this whisper thing though.

    Now, the reason I was talking about whisper other than just the Tracy Chapman thing and the need for a revolution, uh, and then I will get back to, to the other part is that in doing this, I really want to offer a, a text-based reason or way to, to experience this.

    I have some other things that I want to do eventually that are going to take a lot of software development.

    And I haven't had a chance, I haven't had time to, to make them yet, but I want to, um, and, and for this and for accessibility reasons, I really want to have good transcripts.
    And so I've been looking at like, how can I transcribe these episodes?
    And yeah, in doing this, I did some research and I, I fucking despise Sam Altman and open AI.

    Uh, but what I did notice is they have this open source, uh, it's called whisper thing and it's a large language model and does sort of speaker independence, speech recognition, and it's supposed to be good.

    And again, it's, you know, you can do it on device.

    So you're not really using the resources.

    You're, you're using something that just exists.

    So I thought I would try it.

    I thought, you know, okay, I'll see what this is.

    And I, I try, uh, I try working with, you know, like I, I despise them.

    I have tried playing with Claude and ChatGPT, ChatGPT, I should call it.

    And, um, I can't even think of what it's called.

    Deep think and, or deep mind.

    I don't even remember what the fuck it.

    I, I, I, I've used these things a little bit and in using them, I have really discovered how shitty they are.

    Just like how unbelievably bad these things are.

    In addition to just like being a horrible ecological catastrophe and ridiculously, you know, resource intensive, uh, both for the actual application and for the training, especially.

    And the training wouldn't be so bad if it was like you train it once and then you're done.
    But what they do is they keep retraining their models over and over again.
    And each time they do it, it's like, uh, some number of households, annual carbon footprint over and over again.

    And everybody else is chasing them and doing the same kind of stuff and doing the same, you know, I mean, you look at this and it's like, you'll get a lot of people who are like, oh no, it doesn't actually use that much water.

    It doesn't actually use that much energy.

    And then at the same time, in order to power these things, there are all of these data centers going in all of these places and they're having to expand, like spin up old nuclear reactors and do all kinds of things.

    Like it's obvious, it's obvious that it's actually extremely resource intensive.

    You don't have to, you don't have to look at their metrics and look at, you know, like the, the stuff that they're doing to know it just is.

    It's, it's fucking obvious.

    It irritates me that people are so disingenuous about this and just straight up lying about it.

    Or they might be genuinely misguided.

    It's certainly possible.

    But anyway, they have this whisper thing and I thought I would try it.

    I thought, okay, I'll see what this is.

    I'll see if it's any good.

    And I made the captions and I was stunned.

    A, you know, just looking at the, the models, cause they have on their, um, it's, it's on GitHub and you can look at the papers on it and this kind of stuff.
    Um, the fidelity, like the, the, the percentage error rate, like how many words it gets wrong.
    Um, it's, it's, it's like 90 to 95% for most languages for speaker independence, speech recognition, which is not great.

    It's really not great.

    And I just think about this and it's also extremely slow.

    Like they have a tiny model, tiny.

    Um, and then they have a turbo model, um, giant air quotes turbo.
    And you can set these things up and you can use like GPU acceleration or the neural engine acceleration and all this other stuff.
    And you do that and it's fucking slow and it's extraordinarily, uh, memory intensive.

    Like they have these giant models and they need a fuck ton of memory to run and they need a shit ton of processing.

    Like I thought I, I, before actually playing with this, I really thought that the big costs was in the training and the training is horrible.

    Like the training is wasting so many cycles, but just in the application of these things, just in the transcription.

    And I did just as a slight aside, I really would rather support humans that transcribe.

    I have friends that are, um, that do transcription and I would like to support them.

    Um, the problem is like, I looked into this and the price per minute of audio, uh, was like a buck 50 or two bucks.

    And I typically make one of these that say an hour and a half or at least an hour long.

    And you start thinking about it and it's like, um, every week that would be a couple hundred bucks, which if I had, you know, if I was in a position to afford it and I might one day actually be, uh, then I will do that.

    But, but at the moment, like, it's just not, it's not feasible.

    It's not something that I could afford.

    It's not something like, you know, and as long as I don't have a job, probably fucking hard.

    I don't really, you know, like even just hosting this is probably more than I should be doing.

    And the time that it's taking to put this together, even if it wasn't for like having to rerecord it and then fight with Apple.
    Um, like I, again, I started this one four or five times cause it kept using different audio or it's turning on the monitoring or it's doing all kinds of weird shit that I don't want.

    And you're just like, motherfucker, I just want you to work just fucking work.

    Um, and it gets to one of these things that like bad automation is much, much, much, much, much worse than no automation.

    And, you know, I mean, it's like auto incorrect.

    Um, I, I need some kind of auto correct on my iPhone just because with the soft keyboard and there's no, you know, like my, my fidelity on an actual like touch typing on an actual keyboard is pretty good because there are home keys and I can orient my fingers and I can know exactly where I am and I can type.

    And I know if I made a typo and I can go back and correct it, but on the soft keyboard on a screen, there's no registration.

    And so it's really easy, especially if I'm typing quickly and not looking at it to, to miss the keys.

    And I need something to correct that.

    If I turn it off, it is unusable.

    It makes so many mistakes.

    It's painful.

    And there are some things where they actually deliberately disable it and it's just frustrating to use, um, like the translate app.

    But when I've got it turned on, it's inserting shit at the end of the stuff that I've already typed that I don't want.

    Or it's taking a word that I typed and spelled correctly.

    And then after I've typed it and after I've looked at it and kind of like casually proofread it, I look away and then it changes it.

    I hit send and it changes a word or it adds a word and changes the meaning.

    I, you know, like it, it likes to do things like changing hell to heal or heal to hell.

    And, you know, like in, in, in places where it's completely inappropriate, the way that it goes.
    And like, I typed deliberately the thing that I wanted to type.
    And it's, it's annoying also because like, I, I have certain stylistic things that I do on purpose.

    I have certain, like, I care about my choice of words.

    I care about my choice of how I present things.

    And usually if I'm doing something a certain way, I'm doing it intentionally.

    So, and having something coming in and changing it is fucking annoying.

    And I can't disable the whole thing because if I disable it, it disables the part that I actually need.

    Like, but if I leave it enabled, it's infuriating, it's fucking infuriating.

    But anyway, coming back, um, it's just like, ah, motherfuckers.

    So I'm dealing with, uh, this, this open whisper thing.

    I, I run it and it's so slow.

    It's so slow.

    And I, I, I cannot believe how long it takes to transcribe, you know, like literally like 15 minutes.

    Uh, to transcribe an hour and a half, maybe even more.

    And the transcription is not perfect.
    And I just look at this and I think about like, okay, we're in 2025 right now.

    Um, more than halfway to 2026.

    And there was a program called Dragon Dictate in the 1990s and the early 2000s.
    And I think it called like, or it changed its name to like Naturally Speaking or something.
    And it sucked.

    I do want to say it did suck.

    It wasn't great, but it had, uh, speaker independence, speech recognition and on the hardware of the

    time, which was extraordinarily slow and didn't have very much memory at all compared to any
    machine today.

    You know, like we're talking like megabytes of RAM.

    If, if even that we're talking, you know, like the, the processors were like a microcontroller

    now, like your, your watch, your mouse probably has a processor that's more powerful than the,
    than the processors and the computers of the era.

    And they could do, uh, like 90 to mid nineties percent speaker independent speech recognition.

    Um, they did pretty good.

    They didn't do quite as good.

    They didn't get like some of the punctuation, right.

    They didn't get some things right that the new ones do to, to be fair.

    But the thing is, it's, it's like, I would liken this to, you take a car off the, and you took

    this car and you souped it up and you put it in the coffee can muffler and you reprogrammed
    it so that it's like burning fuel rich.

    And you do, you did a bunch of things to make it, you know, to squeeze out a little bit

    extra performance.

    And you got like a 10th of a horsepower extra, you know, and I'm only half exaggerating there,

    like say one horsepower extra, you know, less than 1% improvement.

    But in doing so, you've legitimately gotten, yeah.

    I mean, to say it's like a thousandth of a, or a thousand gallons to the mile, like is,

    is not that much of an exaggeration because you think about like, it was able to do in real
    time, pretty good speech recognition back then.

    And now in way less than real time, you are with the current processors and with gigabytes

    of RAM, sometimes like tens or even hundreds of gigabytes of RAM for these big models.

    You're able to get a tiny bit of improved performance and fidelity.

    It's, it's not worth, not remotely worth it.

    And you just take like the stuff people were doing back then.
    And granted, I understand like the, the approach is very different, the capabilities, the, all
    these kinds of things are different, but you look at that and you're like, okay, even if
    you say like that was kind of a dead end and we had other ways to go, the idea that you
    have spent 25 years and you've got something that is marginally, marginally better and uses
    so many more resources and is so much slower and still is pretty bad.

    You know, it's, it's not great.

    It's like, I go through these transcripts.

    This is another thing that I'll get to, but I go through the transcripts and edit them.

    And, you know, I'm, I'm trying to make them not suck.

    I want them to be presentable.

    And even then I'm sure lots of crap gets through and I'm changing so much stuff because they're,
    they're shitty.

    They're just fucking shitty.

    And then Apple again, and their awesomeness, like I've got the transcript that I generated

    that I went through and deliberately made, you know, like I fixed some things.

    Um, Apple has regenerated the transcripts for me and I've got it set up so that it's supposed

    to use the transcript that I uploaded, but it's not, um, which is fucking annoying.
    And I can't, I can't get in there.

    I can't do anything with it.

    And I can't edit the transcript that they've generated, but the transcript that they've

    generated, and it is cool.
    Like it's showing word for word highlighting as I'm speaking, which I love.

    I think it's awesome, but it's also fucking up a lot.

    Um, it's also taking a lot of time.

    I don't know how many, like, I, I'm not seeing the compute resources that it's using, but I'm

    sure it's not insignificant.
    And again, like I've just wasted all my time, uh, doing this transcription, uploading or editing
    the thing, uploading it.
    And then you're fucking doing it on top of me and reintroducing the same errors that I
    changed and new errors.

    And it's fucking annoying.

    It's really annoying, especially like I'm trying to put in like the, uh, I'm not going to

    um, Vietnamese spelling of Ha Long Bay or Hanoi or whatever.
    And you know, you've, you've changed it back or you're re transcribing it to something else.

    It's, it's annoying.

    I don't like it.

    I don't fucking like it.

    Um, bad automation is worse than no automation.

    All right.

    So anyway, um, getting, I, I, Apple, I bitch about Apple in the same sense that I bitch

    about the, uh, the Democrats because it is like, I, I'm not a Microsoft fan.

    I don't like them.

    I've not, I tried very briefly.

    I got so fed up with Apple.

    I got a, uh, a surface pro at one point and it sucked.

    I got like the, at the time flagship, um, because I was like, I was sick of my MacBook

    pro.
    And back then they had these Intel processors and the thing was just roasting.

    Like it was so hot and the fan was so fucking loud.

    I like, I could not use the thing.

    I wanted to discus it and it started just getting weird.

    And like, it had an issue with the motherboard and it was just like flaking out.

    And I had to get the motherboard replaced on it like two or three times.

    And in that moment, I got a surface pro and I realized like windows sucked even more.

    And I'm, which is not a, you know, it's not like saying Apple's awesome.

    It's just saying that the alternative that had, um, was pretty shitty.

    And then Linux, you know, like I, I switched, I used to long time ago, like in the nineties,

    I used windows.

    And then I also dual booted into, um, Linux and then also like BSD, open BSD or free BSD.

    And I, I switched to a Mac because I wanted the Unix stuff and I wanted, um, you know,
    the consumer polish and the Mac has nicer consumer polish than, than windows.
    And it has Unix kind of ish under the, under the hood.
    And I've used a Mac since then and mostly like the, the stuff and broad strokes, but
    they keep just like, um, throwing sand in my eye and it fucking annoys me.

    So anyway, with all of that stuff, I am sitting here and, uh, I, I'm sorry to, again, Apple,

    I bitch about more than Microsoft, not because I dis, or because I like Microsoft, because I

    like the idea of Apple, I use it, um, moving on though.

    I'm, I'm in, I'm in Bangkok.

    This was the reason I was talking about whisper, uh, because of the whisper thing.

    I am in Bangkok and I've been traveling.
    And one of the things that I found interesting in this travel is just kind of seeing different
    countries and sort of how different political and economic systems have, have worked or not
    worked.
    And it's, it's been enlightening.
    And again, you know, like I, I am not qualified to, to speak on this in any way.
    Uh, my background is definitely not, this is not the domain of my expertise.
    I'm sure other people have done a much better job.
    I'm sure other people are much more qualified, but I'm just going to give you some of my,
    my thoughts and observations because I do think it was to me, at least interesting.
    Um, and so Thailand where I am now, there are some things I would characterize this as
    a sort of hyper-capitalistic, uh, society.
    And it's interesting.
    I have a friend here at dinner with a few days ago and he said, it's kind of like the fifties
    and the eighties happened concurrently.
    And I kind of get what he means.
    In fact, even like I, I, yesterday or the day before I went to a mall here and the malls
    are like the malls in the eighties.
    Yeah.
    I mean, obviously with like modern tech, incidentally, also a bunch of phone companies that I've never
    heard of from China that make it, you know, they're, they're companies with like 8% market
    share.
    I've never heard of the company before.
    And they make phones that look pretty fucking decent.
    And I'm just sitting there like, man, the U S is such a fucking scam.
    It's such a goddamn scam.
    Um, but you know, the malls are nice.
    The malls are actually nice.
    And you know, if you go to the, to the extent there are malls left in the U S, which is not
    much, uh, they are scary.
    Like they're, and I don't mean like dangerous, dangerous, but you know, like it's just dark
    and dingy and nasty and all the stores are closed and it's not a place you want to hang
    out.
    Um, these places are bright and light and clean and you know, like the air is filtered, which
    you need here.
    Cause in the city, it's a little, there are all of these cars and, um, and scooters, gas
    powered scooters.
    And it's, it's, it's a little unpleasant to breathe.
    Honestly.
    Um, there are a lot of people wearing respirators and masks, and I think they're mostly wearing
    them because of the air pollution.
    Not because they're worried about, um, pathogens and infectious disease and all that kind of
    stuff.
    I'd love to think that it was that, but you know, it's not a public health thing as much
    as a personal one, but you know, it's nice in the mall cause it's, it's clean air.
    It's bright.
    It's air conditioned.
    It's not hot out or not hot in.
    And I can see like, it's a place where kids could hang out and just be like in a decent
    place.
    It's not, it's not like hanging out in the woods.
    It's not as nice as that.
    I was very fortunate as a kid to have, uh, like forest preserve in my backyard, at least
    for a few years when I lived in Pittsburgh.
    And that was, that was fucking amazing.
    I, I, I feel, I feel bad for myself not getting that after that, but I feel worse for kids.
    Like I go through neighborhoods and, um, in Arizona and you see kids like playing just
    in the street or playing in the cul-de-sac or something.
    And it's like, man, this is so, A, it's dangerous.
    It's an interesting thing here.
    Like there are so many cars, so many, um, people on scooters, so many, you know, there's
    a lot of traffic here, but you can just, and in Vietnam as well.
    And in China, um, but you can just like walk into the street and you're not going to like,
    like, people will act like they're going to hit you, but they won't hit you.
    They, they'll stop.
    They, they're not like fucking weird.
    Arizona, if you're walking and doing everything right, like you feel like people are going
    to hit you and they actually will try to hit you, like literally try to hit you.
    Um, here you can feel that like being a pedestrian is a first class kind of thing.
    Like it's, and in Vietnam, I, it w it was amazing and weird just how that worked.
    Uh, and especially like, it took me a minute to, to recognize like what you're supposed
    to do, but basically you just, uh, leap of faith it right into the traffic and the cars
    stop for you.
    The, the scooters stop for you.
    Um, here it's a little different, but it's a little bit, pretty much like that.
    And I've never in, in my travels since in like the last month or so, I've been
    going around, I've never once felt like I was going to get hit and in the U S and
    especially in Arizona and in California, I feel like I'm going to get hit all the
    fucking time.
    It's really, you know, it's a very different experience.
    So anyway, um, I would say here it's very hyper-capitalistic and this manifests itself
    in a lot of different ways.
    But one of them is like, there are, and this is just a ridiculous thing that just, I don't
    know why people have to make the same mistakes over and over and over again, but one of them
    is like, they have multiple different Metro systems.
    They're all incompatible.
    They have like, one of them has tokens, uh, which, which are nice.
    They're, you know, it's cool.
    They work well.
    Uh, one of them has cards and they're, they're cool.
    They work well, but they're not mutually compatible.
    They're separate systems that, you know, like if you get a card for one and you get a card
    for the other one, they're not into, you have to have two separate, it's just like, and then
    the stations, like they won't be exactly connected.
    It's like there'll be a station and then there's another major station for the other system, but
    you have to walk 10 minutes away to get there.
    Or if you were my mom, it would be a real fucking pain in the ass.
    Um, you know, like somebody who's older and has limited mobility, um, and the, yeah, it's
    just like, I don't know.
    I guess Tokyo used to be like this.
    They used to have a bunch of different Metro systems and they still do have a bunch of different
    private Metro systems, but at some point, uh, they, they got the Suica system and this
    other, actually it's kind of ridiculous because they've got like multiple competing different
    equivalent standards and they're, you know, it's like just fucking make a standard.
    It doesn't matter what the standard is, uh, make a standard and use it.
    And it's like Apple with these fucking, um, lightning connectors versus USB-C, you know,
    they could have made lightning just a universal standard and opened it up and got everybody
    using it and blah, blah, blah.
    But they insisted on having their own.
    Um, and then you have all these different connectors and they're all incompatible and
    it's just like, why do you want to fucking do that?
    Why do, why do we have to keep going through the same ridiculousness?
    You know, it's just, it's just irritating.
    And I understand like, especially when you're pushing the edge of the envelope with technology,
    it's a little hard to know like what's going to be the right thing.
    Are you going to go beta max?
    Are you going to do VHS?
    But you know, like going through, especially when stuff gets mature and especially when
    it's something like a Metro system, which people have built a thousand times for well
    over a century, um, a thousand times, it was an underestimate, just fucking do it right.
    Just make them all incompatible.
    Even if you're going to do like private separate ones, um, make them all compatible, build them
    together, network them.
    And you get so much more power out of that.
    You get so much more benefit out of that.
    And it's just, I assume inevitably at some point, like if you come back here in 20 years,
    they'll probably have a single like unified system with things that are linked well.
    And you know, it's just like, why not just fucking do it?
    Why not just fucking do it?
    Um, another thing that I noticed here is like, and I am coming from Vietnam where there's a
    lot of, a lot of poverty, poverty.
    It's, it's, it's obviously like air quotes developing country, um, here, you know, like
    that there's stuff there that's nice, but for the most part, it's kind of like, eh, you
    know, it, it's, it's not quite what you're used to.
    Um, but you come here and there's stuff, especially around the area that I'm around.
    Um, there's some hyper-modern, nice stuff.
    The, the metros look really cool.
    Everything is built well.
    And, you know, like things seem extremely nice.
    And then you go for a walk and you walk like 10 minutes in the wrong direction and you see
    like shanty towns, like just like people in improvised, improvised housing, although with
    addresses and mailboxes.
    So it's obvious that it's like some kind of system that's, you know, semi-organized, but
    it's just like no real shelter, like just a few things and open door.
    And that's somebody's house at somebody, somebody who lives there and they're all on top of each
    other.
    And, you know, like that juxtaposition, this is the thing about capitalism.
    Like capitalism can give you some really nice stuff, but, and for the winners, it's
    amazing, right?
    It's, it's super cool.
    If you're like at the top of the heap, um, it's nice.
    But then for the people that are not doing so well, and especially if you don't have a
    good social safety net, it really can suck.
    Like the, the poverty here, I think is worse than the poverty in say Vietnam, even though
    there, there's a lot more poverty.
    I think it's just not as extreme and it, or at least that's my perception.
    I don't know the details and I've, it's not like I've interviewed a bunch of people or
    gone around extensively and I'm basing this also out of cities.
    I'm not going like into the countryside.
    So who knows?
    You know, I could do more research.
    I should do more research before like making broad sweep, sweeping statements.
    But again, I preface this by saying, this is my perception.
    I'm not in any way qualified to even have an opinion on this.
    So giant grain of salt.
    Um, it, it's an interesting thing also, like there's just, and I think this is partly,
    I don't know that this is necessarily a capitalism thing, but it's definitely like a organizational
    thing and a societal thing.
    Um, in, in Japan or in Korea or in China or most of the places that I've been, uh, you
    can wander down a street and, you know, just if, if you want to go around the block, you
    can, if you want to go like, um, down this street and then turn left and go down that
    street and turn left and go down that street and turn left, do it a few times.
    And then you can come back to where you are, um, here where I am.
    Yeah.
    I mean, you can do that on a large enough scale, but I, the first time I was here, the first
    night that I was here, I go down the street that I'm, I'm looking at right now, which is
    lovely by the way.
    Um, and then I turn right down the next major street and I go way down there for like a
    half hour.
    And then I turn right.
    And then I am using Apple maps for navigation and I'm looking at like, how can I get back?
    I don't want to backtrack.
    I just want to try exploring a little bit, you know, like to see new stuff.
    And so it sent me through a neighborhood and it sent me to a dead end and it like around
    here, it's all fucking dead ends.
    It's, it's weird how many there are, it's weird how much it's just like, it's not conducive
    to wandering.
    And I think a lot of this is just kind of, you've let stuff get built up and you've done
    it without any regulation or any real control of how things are going to be organized or
    any kind of planning.
    And then you end up with stuff that's just not really usable for humans.
    Um, don't get me wrong.
    I mean, it's like way more walkable than Phoenix and there's a lot of, you know, like I would
    rather this than a lot of other places, but compared to places in China or in, you know,
    again, South Korea, Vietnam, Japan, any of the places that I've been, it's annoying.
    It's really annoying.
    And, you know, like I don't like backtracking and I'm going up and down the same street
    that's right by my current place over and over and over again, because there's not,
    you know, that in order to take a loop, uh, I have to go way out of my way.
    I have to go on a pretty big path.
    Um, it's, it's, it's an interesting, interesting difference.
    And then you go to like, um, South Korea and Japan and I'm going to lump the two together.
    Although you can see really like South Korea seems to be doing much better.
    And Japan, or at least in the more recent times and Japan like was doing really well in the
    eighties and the nineties, and then just kind of like booted and did not progress very much.
    Like economically, if you look at, um, their GDP or things like this, decent, like most metrics,
    uh, they, they were going really well at a certain point and they just kind of stagnated
    for decades. And you can feel it when you're there that things have not advanced much. Like
    the first time I went there was in the early two thousands. And at the time, like you'd just
    go to Akihabara or something like this. And there would be these fucking like futuristic phones that
    were wild and they were cheap. And you know, it's like, holy shit, this is like the future.
    And now you go there and it's still kind of like the same future, but it hasn't really
    advanced much. It's, it's weird. Cause it's like, and you can see the stuff that was really
    new then is kind of run down and you're like, and it's, it's yeah. And of course, like most places
    you have the sort of population inversion. You have a lot of older people and not as many younger
    people. People are not having kids cause things are too expensive and for a lot of other reasons.
    And so, you know, you, you can feel things kind of degrading. Um, in Seoul, at least where I was,
    things seemed like they were kind of booming. They were kind of, you know, like really pushing and
    making a lot of nice new stuff. And it just kind of felt a little bit more clean and a little bit
    more polished and a little bit less stagnant. Um, that was, that was something that I definitely
    noticed. They have pretty nice metros in both places. Yeah. And again, obviously these are
    two very different countries, but I'm, I'm lumping them together a little bit because they,
    in the scale of the places that I've been, they have a lot of things in common. They have some degree
    of a social safety net, some degree of universal healthcare, um, still very capitalistic and all
    this kind of stuff. And you can, you can definitely, I don't know. It's interesting just
    how being there is. And still, there are a lot of things where you're like,
    I don't know of the places that I've been. I don't know where I would want to live. I do know
    I wouldn't, I mean, I don't get me wrong. I can live anywhere. I wouldn't want to live in Vietnam,
    especially not like, um, how long Bay I'll get to that in a minute, but that was, it was weird.
    It was very weird. Um, Hanoi was not bad, but you know, there's again, like so much,
    so much poverty and so many places where it's just like, uh, you know, not quite shanties.
    They're like, you know, buildings, proper like multi-story buildings, but you know, just like full
    of dirt and debris and kind of nasty. And then, you know, like not really any sidewalks and it's very,
    very random. Um, wasn't really, wasn't really my first choice. And of course, not a lot of public
    transit and of course, no high-speed trains and all that kind of stuff. And then you go to China
    and you know, it's sort of nominally communist. Uh, they have the CCP and all of this kind of stuff.
    And it's like, uh, Chinese communist party. Um, it's, I don't think you could actually call it
    communists exactly, but they will call it that because that's what they call themselves.
    And they, they have done some things like, you know, you look at, um, and the, the same with the
    USSR, uh, the, the progress of taking people out of extreme poverty and especially in like the last
    decade. Uh, but over, over time, it's very hard to argue that like, they're not doing something
    right there. They're now they, they do have some things like, uh, you know, basing where you can
    live on where you were born. And that kind of locks people into more agrarian sort of situations,
    which kind of locks people out of being able to, to advance socioeconomically, um, to the extent
    that that's a thing, but they have brought a lot of people out of object poverty. They bought,
    brought a lot of people like kids, I say kids being like younger people now, um, don't want to
    work in factories like their parents did. And I can't fucking blame you. Like, would you,
    would you want to work in a factory versus like delivering stuff on a, uh, on a scooter where
    you're outside and kind of doing something and you kind of feel like, you know, the rush of air
    versus being like in a box with air conditioning and building shit and just robotically doing the
    same stuff over and over again for somebody, you know, I mean, it would be nice to do something
    better than either of those things. We can imagine better things still, but yeah, I can, I can get
    that. And I guess people make pretty decent money doing that. Um, they have high speed rail. Like I,
    and I took, I deliberately took a train from, um, mainly because I wanted to annoy myself,
    but I, I took a high speed rail from, uh, Beijing to Chengdu and Chengdu. Chengdu. I'm probably,
    I'm sorry, my pronunciation, I know it's terrible. Um, and it's just like fucking amazing. Like,
    you know, not as nice as, uh, Shinkansen, I would say, although I think faster, but pretty fucking nice,
    pretty decent. And the country is crisscrossed on these things now. And you can go from one city
    to the next in a short period on these things. And it's better than air travel other than like
    extreme long distances. Like I did, when I went from, um, Chengdu to Shenzhen, uh, I flew just because
    I didn't want to take another six hour train ride, but I could have taken the train and, you know,
    it's just for anything longer than I think like three hours, um, flying ends up beating it. But
    for things that are like the distance of Phoenix to LA, the train is a no brainer, complete no brainer.
    And it's so easy to go from city center to city center. You go wherever you are, you get on the
    metro, um, you get on the train, you get to wherever you're going, take the metro. Um, it's
    just, it's just so much better. It's just so much fucking better. I, I, and especially like, you know,
    you look at, um, like Arizona where I lived and you need a car there. You like without a car where I
    was, um, it took literally like two and a half to three hours, uh, trying to take public transit to get
    from Gilbert to ASU. And with a car, it would be like 30 minutes. And you just think about like how
    fucked up it is that you're in that situation. Or if you take public transit there, the frequency
    is so low. Like, I don't think people appreciate in the United States, unless you live in New York
    or you've been someplace like that. I don't think a lot of people appreciate what high frequency
    public transit is like. And like this thing where you can just walk over, you know, you cross the
    street, you go to a metro station and you wait three to five minutes and there's a train. And
    then you get on the train, you go wherever you're going and it's cheap and it's easy. And it takes
    you basically where you want to go and all that kind of stuff versus like in Arizona, you take the
    boss and you're sitting outside at a fucking hot bus station and your bus stop rather. And you have to
    wait. Like some of them, the high frequency ones are like 15 minutes, but most of them it's a half hour.
    Some of them it's like an hour that you're waiting in the sun. And if you miss the bus, then, you know,
    it's like completely fucks your day. And, you know, you just, it's, it's a very different experience.
    It makes it much worse to use than nice high frequency rail. And like Arizona, they have the,
    the light rail and Phoenix. It's enough to make me feel like in 50 years, they might have a decent
    public transit system, maybe assuming that the city is still habitable, but you know, it's just,
    it's depressing. It's fucking depressing. Um, one thing that I did notice on the train, especially
    is like, we're passing all of these cities and the cities, and this is in China, the cities have,
    you know, giant areas where it's like 50 copies of the same building. I might, I might be exaggerating
    about the number of copies, but it's like a bunch of copies of the same building. And this,
    it kind of reminds me of like Soviet era brutalist architecture, although nicer architecture,
    but still, uh, like clone homes, but for multifamily big high rises now. And again,
    clone homes, totally us kind of thing. So I'm, I'm definitely not, I'm not saying that like one is
    worse than the other. Um, and I used to think negative things about this, especially because
    again, raised in the U S propagandized in the U S and, you know, and I'm not saying again,
    that the Soviet union was amazing, but you know, you look at the poverty things, you look at the
    number of people that got housing, you look at how many people owned homes and how many people
    currently own homes in China. You look at the literacy rates in these countries and just like
    by any objective metric, these places are a lot better. And having these cloned buildings makes
    sense when you're trying to house a lot of people in a dense area and you know, you don't have the
    time to re-architect everything. You don't have the tools to do it well. And you know, you just want
    to mass produce stuff. You end up with a bunch of trains that all look the same, but they all work.
    They're all interoperable. And this is a thing where like the sort of centralized planning stuff
    works really well. Uh, one thing about China that would be painful for me and the reason that I
    wouldn't, I mean, I, I, again, I could live a lot of places. I could easily live in a lot of places
    there. Um, but, and this is coming, I'm sure from a lot of like scarcity and, you know, like issues that
    they've had in the past and probably will resolve itself in time. But when you, if you're in Japan
    and you're getting on the Metro, um, people will kind of stand off to the side, they let people
    exit and then they get on as a very general rule. I'm making generalizations. Nobody's a monolith,
    all this kind of stuff, but very generally, um, you're getting on the elevator. You kind of stand
    to the side, you let people get off and then you get on right in China and the places that I was,
    you have people like standing right in front of the elevator door and then the door opens.
    And while people are still getting off, people are rushing in and they're like, if you would just
    get off to the fucking side and you let people off before you get in, um, it'd be easier. It'd be
    faster. It'd be smoother. And it makes it worse for everybody. But you know, again, like I'm, I'm sure
    it's easy to understand how this came about, but it's still fucking annoying. I don't like it. I found
    it. I like queuing. I like order. And again, actually the, the way that Japanese people do this
    also comes from trauma and some weirdness. So it's not like it's, you know, not like it's great,
    but, um, it's just, I don't know. Um, and then you have the great firewall, which was very annoying.
    And I have to say though, like I look at that and I can't fully claim that it's bad because you look
    at like how much, um, people in like all across the world have had this like march of right-wing
    fascist sort of stuff. And yeah, I, again, like not having people criticize the party and having
    sort of people be monolithic and all this kind of stuff, not great. But when you look at like the U.S.
    or UK or Canada or Spain or any, any of these other countries where people are really badly
    propagandized and badly getting pushed very, very extreme, right. Um, the fact that China has this
    has let them kind of escape that at least to some extent. And yeah, I can't really, I can't completely
    fault them for it. I can't even say that it's terrible. And also like when you're there, um,
    you do have alternatives that basically give you the same apps, but they're, they're different.
    And also like, you know, you go to any restaurant and, or, or any store or whatever,
    you can pay with WeChat, WeShinPay and, or Alipay. Again, it's not, it's annoying that you have like
    three or four competing things, but you can, most places do all of them. It's just like,
    there'll be three QR codes and you have to pick the right one, which is a little annoying, but
    again, you go there and you can order. Like you go to a restaurant, you can get the menu on,
    on WeChat and then you order and then the food comes out to you. And then when you're done,
    you pay and you just walk away. And it's just, it's like doing capitalism so much better than the
    U S you go up to a stand or something on the street and everybody's got a WeChat pay and, and
    Alipay and a bunch of other stuff like that. It's just so much better. And when you look at that
    versus like the U S kind of, you have Apple pay and Google pay and sort of works ish, but it doesn't
    really, it doesn't give you the menu thing at all. Like you're not going to a restaurant and there's
    like a standard way to order your food. And it's just, it's just so much like, I don't even know
    how to explain it, but it makes it so much easier, so much less painful. And then like Vietnam,
    I think was a, it's kind of own different thing. And one thing I have to say about Vietnam is,
    you know, it, this is a country that defeated my country, which yeah, maybe it's just because I
    was again, propagandized my whole life, but I enjoy this sort of underdog beating the empire a little
    bit. I, I watched star Wars, you know, I, I like the rebels winning to some extent. I'm not,
    and again, I'm not saying like any country is perfect or terrible, but the fact that they beat
    the U S says something, it's kind of, you know, kind of made me feel good about them. It kind of
    gives you some hope about like where, you know, like we could actually get things into a better
    situation. That'd be, that'd be kind of nice. I think it'd be kind of nice. Um, and you look at
    that and you're like, man, this is, this is a country that did not have a ton of resources.
    Didn't have, you know, and they're up against people with like fighter jets and napalm and agent
    orange and all this kind of stuff. And they still want, they still fucking want that stuff is cool.
    That stuff is, you know, but at the same time, you know, especially in it, I want to really
    emphasize that I went to Halong Bay, um, in the off season. So, you know, I'm there at a time that's
    not like super popular, but everything felt a little weird. And I'm talking mainly about there
    and not the Nang or Hanoi. Uh, everything felt a little weird. Everything felt a little, like,
    didn't make sense. Uh, they're building all kinds of new buildings. They're doing all kinds of
    construction and remodeling. And, um, at the same time, like all the buildings that are there,
    everything seems kind of empty and I'm walking by stuff and everything is kind of like gutted out
    and filled with stuff that looks, it looks like years ago has been emptied and stuff is just sitting
    there and they just piled up a bunch of crap inside of the buildings and the offices and all the store
    fronts and all this kind of stuff. And, you know, like you go to a restaurant and it'll be a huge
    restaurant with a lot of staff and, and granted, it's nice to staff and they're getting paid in the
    off season, but yeah, totally empty. And there are a lot of people there and you go. And if you're
    getting food, like it's, it's a surprise and they're not really extremely helpful. They're kind
    of like, which I guess I get if you're getting paid to just sit around and hang out, you know,
    seems like a bad sign also that the people at the restaurants were mostly eating like, um, cup
    of noodle ramen sort of things and not the food from the restaurant. It didn't seem like a great
    signal. And, uh, what else I, you know, environmental regulations seem like they're,
    shall we say a little lacking there. Water supply is not great. Uh, the air is obviously from the,
    the scooters and things kind of polluted, but also like, if you looked at the AQI, the air quality
    index, um, objectively, it shouldn't have been that bad, but I, especially again in Ha Long Bay,
    um, felt like I was being poisoned. And I think like, as I was driving there, I saw a bunch of
    factories and a bunch of like piles of trash and things and you're on some, some sketchy stuff.
    And I'm sure that there were bad emission controls and probably releasing, you know,
    God knows what chemicals into the air. And I felt very sick. I felt like I was being poisoned the
    whole time. Uh, much more so than like here, if you go out on the street, um, from the scooters and
    stuff, it's bad and it burns. And, you know, even wearing a mask, I'm kind of like feeling weird,
    but I don't feel the same, like everything is kind of toxic feeling, which I felt there.
    Maybe it was in my mind, but I didn't go there expecting that at all. And it was kind of surprising
    to me, but that was like, especially because that was where I went last. Um, I was just itching to get
    out of that country. Annoyingly, there's, um, I can hear someone nearby and it's just like very
    distracting to me. Um, I'm going to wrap pretty soon, but then trying to think, I think that was
    pretty much all I wanted to say about that. Um, and again, like you can do, I'm sure people have
    done comparative analyses of different countries and economic systems and things in a, in a much
    better way. I just, you know, those are some sort of highlights that of my experiences and my
    perceptions, uh, that might be completely wrong, but you know, I thought I've found have been kind
    of interesting differences and similarities. Like all the places that I've been, um, just in terms of,
    you know, if you want to walk to a restaurant and you want to eat and just live someplace,
    um, seems a lot easier than the U S it's, it's kind of annoying actually to, to see just even the,
    the worst of these places. Like, you know, you can for a lot less money and get a pretty decent meal
    and get a lot of variety and you could just, yeah, it's just, it's just so fucking, it's so
    annoying how bad the U S is in terms of like, everything is so expensive and so difficult. And
    it's just very, uh, it's very, it's not a very human place to live. It's very like, I think one of
    the reasons that all this fake audible air quotes, AI shit is so popular, especially these, uh, like
    chat kind of conversational interfaces is that a lot of the world and especially like the U S
    is so depersonalized and so, um, like isolating and so like devoid of any kind of communal
    feelings. Like people are not interacting with each other. I was talking again with a friend
    here and like, he has a kid and he was saying, you know, like a hundred years ago,
    uh, you could just go out on a date and your kids would be fine. Cause they'd all be hanging
    out together and you'd have adults there watching them and all be part of the community. And you
    wouldn't really have to pay for a babysitter organize that kind of stuff. It would just be
    like natural and net, which is not to say that things were easy then, or, you know, like things
    were perfect by any means, but they're having that communal or communal sort of network really
    has a lot of benefits versus now in, in the U S and a lot of places that are emulating
    us. Um, everybody's isolated. Everybody is kind of on their own doing their own thing,
    which means that you have to solve like every single person has to solve the same problems
    over and over again, rather than solving them as a community. And that gives you a lot of problems
    that don't need to exist. And it makes things a lot harder. And it means that the burden on
    individuals is much, much greater than it needs to be. Because again, like if we pool resources and
    all do the same stuff, uh, like how, how often do you need your drill, right? You might have a drill
    and you might use that drill a couple of times, but if you're not a contractor, you probably don't need
    it every day. Um, and a bunch of other people have bought their own drills and all of those people
    probably could share the, share one drill and it would be fine. But instead we have a hundred
    different households that all have their own drills. They all have their own, you know, like
    babysitters. They all have their own, you know, like, it's just like, you look at all this stuff
    over and over again. It's one of the things like the idea of like in capitalism, you can, um,
    if, if you really succeed and you really do well, you can get a private jet, you can get a private
    driver, you can get a really nice car and all this kind of stuff. And the way that that works,
    it's so resource intensive, so damaging, so harmful to everyone else. But it's also like
    your experience there is shittier than it would be just living in a nice walkable city where we've all
    invested communally and accessible city where, you know, you can get around, um, where we built,
    uh, pub, you know, like public transportation networks where you've got like high speed rail that
    takes you, you know, basically from door to door with a little bit of help. And you take that
    comparison versus like, okay, you're super rich. You can have your driver at your place, take you to
    your plane, and then you go to an airport and then you fly someplace. And you're using the resources of
    like a thousand people for a year to do your stuff, um, versus almost no resources using like an
    electric train that's powered by sunlight or, you know, hot rocks or whatever. And it's just like,
    it's so fucking ridiculous. Um, and then once you get someplace, no matter how nice your car was,
    where you started, you got to get a car there. And then that car, you have to have a driver or,
    or you're driving yourself and you have to deal with getting places and just the difference of
    that. I wish more people would get this experience. Just like be in Tokyo and take the Metro to Tokyo
    station, take Shinkansen to Kyoto or Nagano or whatever. And then, uh, well, Nagano is a bad
    example, but you know, like say Kyoto, take it to Kyoto. And then you got a Metro there. And then that
    takes you to a five minute walk from your hotel. And that just, that, that is so much nicer.
    You don't have to have a fucking car. You could have a car if you want to, but it's kind of a
    detriment. And, you know, especially if you're someplace where things are built to be accessible.
    So if you have, you need mobility assistance, you can do that. If you're older and your feet
    shuffle a little bit, you don't have to worry about like, um, it's a fun thing here. I keep walking
    into bumps in the sidewalk and the difference between that and like a place where people
    actually care, um, and do a good job. I'm not saying people don't care, but you know, like
    enough that there's a societal something to, to keep that from happening. Um, it's, it's
    just nice. Even as somebody who can see and, you know, and you're paying attention and all
    this kind of stuff, not to have that kind of stuff. It's much nicer to be someplace where
    things are just easy and work. It's just nicer. It's so much nicer. Um, and I was talking
    to a friend, um, actually on Tik TOK like a week ago, and he said something that kind
    of, it was both hopeful and kind of a little bit depressing, but he was talking about how,
    uh, you know, we were in feudalism for so long and then for a while gotten to this sort
    of mercantilism and that, you know, took things and it gave a little bit more to a few more
    people and, you know, made things a little bit, you know, a little bit less imbalanced.
    And then we got capitalism, which still sucks, but gave things, gave more stuff to more people
    and gave more people some kind of a path outwards. Um, although obviously is not sustainable and is
    like, if you really succeed in capitalism, then you end up with monopolies and you end up with
    all these competing standards and, you know, like it's, it's not a great plan. It's not a great long
    term solution, but a lot of that stuff takes decades to sort of sort itself out. And, you know,
    you think about that and we've been in this system for order of hundreds of years, uh, which is like
    halfway through the mercantile period, I think is what he was saying, which I think was rough. Right.
    And you think about that and you're like, I don't know what the next system would be. Although I
    think it would have, you know, if you're, if you're looking at this kind of progression and you're
    somewhat optimistic, um, I'm cautiously optimistic person. And of course you have to consider the,
    like we have the ecological catastrophe going on that we've caused, um, you know, not, not,
    not just the climate catastrophe, but also like humanity. Um, if you look at like the biomass
    on, on the surface or in the sea, uh, the vast, vast majority of it at this point is
    either directly by humans or influenced by humans or, you know, and it's not just like livestock and
    crops, which is like 95% of, of surface biomass now, which is fucking scary. Uh, but it's also
    like, you know, you look at the indigenous organisms that we've killed. And then you look
    at the other organisms, uh, like rats and pigeons that sort of live with us and are part of our
    society in some sense. And we've just completely upended, um, our entire ecosystem and the entire
    fucking world that we evolved and our civilization grew, um, to exist with. And it seems kind of like
    a not great sustainable thing. And it's easy to imagine that going really badly, but you can
    imagine if that goes, like, if it doesn't completely kill us, if we haven't already failed the great
    filter, if it, you know, like, uh, and of course what's depressing is you could imagine, it's not
    that hard to imagine like a massive contraction where I say a massive contraction, like it's, you know,
    completely sterile and not a big thing, but you know, like billions of people could die from
    starvation and from terrible things. Um, a lot, like you could just go down the list and, and wars
    and so on. And if we somehow make it through that kind of stuff, and especially if it's not as horrible
    as it could be, you do kind of think like, maybe we get to a better system. Maybe we sort of figure
    this shit out and start realizing like, Oh, um, we can build better stuff for, and it'll be a better
    experience for all of us. And we could just do that. And this, this sort of dovetails into the last
    thing I want to talk about, which is strange new worlds. I'm a big fan of Trek and largely because
    I like the sort of, um, sort of gay space, um, fully automated space communism thing. Um, I like
    the idea of being in a world where you don't have to, um, you don't have to just like do everything
    for, for money. You don't have to do, you don't have to pay rent to exist. Essentially. You don't have
    to, um, monetize anything you do. You can actually, if you want, you can have hobbies. If you want,
    you can study stuff just because it's interesting. You, you can do research just because it's
    interesting and that can be your life. And you can just babble in a bunch of stuff. You could
    have a restaurant in New Orleans and not charge people and just like serve good food and make
    that your thing. And imagine like the world that you would live in if that existed, like you could
    just go to Cisco's and it was a free restaurant. And it's like a guy that really likes cooking and
    really wants to do this and doesn't have to worry about like making it make sense economically.
    This, this was a thing I was, um, where the fuck was I? Oh, I'm not, I'm not going to be able to
    finish this thought, but I was in some situation recently and it, I was just having this experience
    like this does not make sense economically. And I really, really loved that it, oh, I was at a
    restaurant. Okay. Yeah. That was it. I was in LA and my mom and I went to a restaurant.
    I can't remember what it was called. Um, it will come to me. The new deal. I think it was called
    the food to be fair. The food was okay. It wasn't outstanding, but everybody there is like an actor
    in period guard. Now maybe we just happened to hit a date where they're doing this and all this kind
    of stuff, but everybody there is an actor in period guard, um, trying to do performances,
    trying to be in character. They were, it was a new thing. They were just trying to figure it out and
    see how it worked. But I'm sitting there and like, this does not make any sense under the current
    economic system, but it's fucking awesome. It's like, you know, you could imagine a world where
    people just do shit like that. And like, they, they have a restaurant and that restaurant could be,
    it could have a theme or it could be like, this is a person who loves cooking and they just want to
    make awesome food. And they also want to make an entertaining experience. And they have friends
    who are actors and those friends who are actors are in a situation where they can, like, they don't
    have to worry about paying the bills and they don't have to worry about like being completely drained.
    They can go out and just fart around and cosplay and just for fun, sit there and, you know, put on a show
    for you and put on a show for themselves. And they could be like, they don't have to be working
    there. Even they could be like partly just hanging out with their friends, uh, enjoying the place that
    they've got and partly putting on a show for the people that want to be there and experience it and
    interact with it. Um, it's kind of like that kind of thing could and should exist. And in, in a lot of
    human societies, like if you look, you don't have to go that far back in the past and people on one
    hand, life was harder in some ways. Um, but at the same time, you know, like you didn't have a dentist
    that you could go to. Um, you didn't have like processed food that you could buy. But when you look
    at indigenous populations in a lot of places, pre Western contact, a lot, a lot of places, they had
    food forests. They had stuff where things were set up. Um, and it was very much like not the natural
    state. It was stuff that people built over many, many generations, but they had situations set up
    where you could work basically like 10 or 15 hours a week. And work was a very light work that was done
    with friends and family. And from that, you would basically just be able to survive and have plenty
    of food, just have a smorgasbord around you. You're hungry. Uh, there's just shit growing on
    trees. There's stuff that you could get anywhere you want to go. And with a very small amount of
    effort, you could get something good and make it, or you can have somebody else make stuff for you and
    get it. And, you know, it's kind of like a gift economy. And again, you know, like most of your time
    is just free and hanging out and just existing. It doesn't have to be this constant, like a gun to your
    head. If you don't work, um, you're not going to survive. Yeah. And, and you think about like all
    of the stuff that's lost by all the people that could be thinking about stuff and making stuff
    that's making the world better. And instead they're out stuck, um, you know, working in a
    factory or, um, sitting on a scooter running shit around for other people or doing whatever the fuck.
    Um, it's just, it, it would be a better world. It could be a better world. It should be a better
    world. And I do think that, you know, I'm again, cautiously optimistic. Oh, I worry that the path
    to getting there is a little bit precarious. And I also worry that, you know, like, uh, some things
    like, even if we do get there, we've already committed ourselves to some very seriously fucked
    up shit. Um, unfortunately. So I don't know how that's going to go, but anyway, getting to the
    strange new worlds, I like Trek cause it puts you in that kind of thing. Um, obviously also,
    you know, like I do know people who look at that and they're like, well, the Federation
    is actually an empire and blah, blah, blah. And the argument is not lost on me. I like,
    I don't think they're completely wrong. Um, and then especially the fact that it's like
    emulating the United States and it's easy to, to see some things where you're like, eh, this
    is not as cool as it seems, but it is kind of cool. And you can imagine or imagine like
    certain things about it. Like, I like the idea of somebody trying to come up with, um,
    an idea that they think of like what things could be. And it's not a fucking horrible dystopia.
    And it's an annoying, lazy thing with a lot of writers that, uh, you know, like it's easy
    to make a future where everything is horrible and dystopian and you can make drama there.

    You can make weird stories there, but it's not that hard to imagine. I guess you have humans,

    humans are humans. You're still going to have social interactions. You're still going to have
    tension. You're still going to have people aspiring to do stuff that they can't quite do.

    Um, no matter what the system is, even if they don't have to struggle to survive, even if they're

    not living in Brazil, um, the movie, not the, uh, the country. And you can imagine like, I, I wish more
    writers were better about this and more, a little bit more create clever and creative about like,

    Oh, these are things that could exist in. And again, it's not a utopian world necessarily,

    but in a better world, this is how things could be. And it's not just like things have turned to
    shit and it's hellish. You know, it's not just like, Oh, the sky is Brown and most people are dead.
    And, um, you know, they're, you're, you're struggling to survive and it's just horrible.

    It could be like, Oh, this is actually a place where people, people don't have to, uh, toil to

    exist. They can actually just like exist and they can actually like go to university and study if
    they want. They can do art. They can spend a decade working on a project if they wanted to,
    or they could dabble in different stuff or they can travel. They could just do all kinds of stuff.
    And you can build a world where like people traveling isn't an ecological catastrophe. And
    it is just, it would be nicer. It's a thing that I wish people would come up with because I think,
    you know, that part of the, part of the duty and responsibility of creators and people, I hate that
    word creators because of TikTok, but of people who are like writing stuff and coming up with media and
    content. And I hate, again, the fucking word content coming up with like, you know, shows and
    stories and novels and all of that. Part of that is giving people ideas that they can build into
    stuff eventually. It's like, Oh, this is actually a good idea. And then we make it, or we make
    something like it. And then you have flip phones. Um, you know, and I wish more people would come up
    with better stuff and be creative about it and come up with like settings that are not just hellish
    because I think people can't imagine some of this stuff or what it could be as easily. They just see
    like the concrete, terrible stuff. And then it makes the world worse. I think materially worse,
    especially when you do that over decades. Um, so strange new worlds, it came out of discovery,
    which is not a show that I really liked. Like I, the first episode I really thought was going to be
    amazing because it's like, it's kind of nice. And then you had the, uh, the captain and the first
    officer. And you know, you're looking at that and it's like, if that was, if the, if the show started
    there and it was like the first season was just, uh, the matriculation of Michael Burnham to becoming
    captain, uh, and, you know, like starts out under George O and then you watch, uh, the promotion and
    all this kind of stuff. And it just kind of like worked. That could have been so much better. And it
    just existed in that time period and didn't get really weird and dark and didn't have to do all
    that I could go on about how much that show annoyed me and disappointed me. And then they,
    they fucked up the timeline so much. And then they jumped, like they destroy the Federation
    and rebuild the Federation because destroying the Federation kind of sucks. And then they, um,
    it's just like you go through and it's like, come on people. Just, it doesn't have to be like this.

    You could make another show in another universe or you could just exist in that time. And it irritated

    me. And then they had Picard at the same time, which was again, um, you know, I, I don't like
    the, obviously like civilizations ebb and flow and nothing is perfect. And you know, like the
    experience that you get, um, on a starship in the Federation might be different than the
    experience that you get on earth, but it's also like, you just, your, your imagination is really
    limited and it's really fucking frustrating. And you, you don't have to make this horrible
    fucking shitty situation. It's, it's, it's kind of irritating to me. I find it annoying
    and offensive. Um, you don't need to make a dystopia again. And yeah, I also, it's not
    just dark, like metaphorically, they made it so fucking dark. All the sets were so dark
    and weird. And you're just like, why are you guys doing this shit? Um, and then strange new
    worlds came off of that. And I was honestly like not super hyped about it because I was feeling
    pretty bad about those two shows, but the first season of that was pretty good. I thought
    that it was interesting. And I really liked a lot of the characters. I really liked a lot
    of the actors. Uh, the sets are kind of beautiful. I think they're a little weird because it's
    like the, you know, the people are in a shuttlecraft and the bridge of the shuttlecraft is bigger
    than the bridge of the defiant was in deep space nine, which is supposed to be hundreds
    of years into the future. Um, you know, it's, it's just, and again, like they don't
    need to preserve continuity exactly. You know, it's a problem with sequels, especially
    when they're separated by decades and our technology has moved on. Like you, you can
    reimagine, I, some of the stuff I don't mind, like you're re-imagining like, okay, we're
    not going to make, we know what a computer looks like now. Um, doesn't have to look like
    the idea of a computer in the sixties. Right. But some of it is also just like, you don't
    need to imagine like the, because the ships in, in, in this, they look very much like
    the same ships from the end of discovery that are set like a fucking millennium in the
    future, you know, versus a couple hundred years in the future. Like you could put some
    kind of continuity into it. It doesn't need to be like jumping so far ahead. I think I
    get why people want to, you know, like put things as far forward as they can, but be a
    little bit more reserved. I wish that they were. And yeah, again, I had the first season

    I liked there, although there were a couple of things that irritated me. I've talked about

    these before, although not in this continuity here, but like the, um, the calling quarantines
    lockdowns really fucking annoyed me. Um, they, and they did this in enterprise too, but using
    torture and then showing torture as an effective approach of getting information, um, really
    fucked up and, and, and a number of things like that. Um, but the first season overall
    with a few exceptions I liked, and then the second season was a little rough. Um, and I,

    I kind of accepted that it was like the writer's strike and some other stuff and you're like,

    okay, this is annoying, but okay. Um, and then the third season is just like, you know, you
    guys have, they're, they're past the halfway point now of the show. They know the thing
    is ending. And I understand the rush to like, the last episode that I watched was like, um,
    Kirk and Uhura and Scotty and a bunch of, not quite the whole original series cast, but you
    know, like a bunch of people from that show and from the enterprise there. And they're all
    kind of getting together and don't, don't get me wrong. It felt, you know, like it gave
    me the tingles. I enjoyed it. But at the same time, it's like, this is not the show that

    I need or want you to make. And I wish that you just like take the characters that you have

    and the time that they have and the situation that they're in and just have them have experiences
    and put them again, again, I do understand it's very difficult because it's hard to sort
    of know what you're getting to. And, you know, you have plot armor for some people,
    which immediately removes any kind of, um, yeah, you can't make it seem like Spock might
    die, for example, because you know that he's going to be okay. Although it is an interesting
    point that you can have, like Apollo 13 is an interesting movie to watch. Um, even though
    you know what the outcome is there, there are a lot of situations like that, where even though
    you know what the outcome is, it's still interesting. Uh, but it is, it is challenging
    because you have to still make things dramatic. You have to still find ways to make things
    interesting. Um, it's more work, but it's not impossible, but it's just like, I don't know,
    there's some things with this that I'm finding. Yeah. I I've gotten, I listened to, um, what
    is it called? Um, Ian and Danae on captain's pod. That is it. And it's, there are people
    from, uh, cinema sun's universe basically. And they're, they're talking about the show
    and I'm listening to them. I'm listening to Aaron Dicer come on there and he's, he's talking
    about it. And I was listening to those a couple episodes before the ones that I was watching
    because I don't really care about spoilers. Um, but I'm listening to that and I'm like, yeah,

    I really do. But at the time I hadn't watched the episodes that they were talking about. And

    then I watched the episodes or got halfway through and I was like, yeah, I really, really
    kind of agree with this Aaron guy. That's like, I do, I do like some of the stuff that you're
    doing. I like some of the, you know, I'm enjoying it. Like it's, it's tickling the right neurons
    in my brain for sure. But at the same time, it's just like, I, I don't know. I wish that I'm,
    I'm really, I've gone from the point where I'm like excited about the show too. I'm going
    to go through it. I'm going to watch all of the episodes. Um, but I'm, I'm kind of just
    on, I don't need it to be on. And I wish that you guys, I'm, I do kind of feel like it needs
    a break. Although I also don't want to not support it because it's nice that Trek exists.

    Although it'd be nice also if people were making more, you know, again, more sci-fi that's not

    dystopian would be really nice to see. Um, but I don't know. I, I don't have a specific coherent
    point there as just something that I've been thinking about because it's been, you know,
    again, I'm watching it. I'm also watching foundation and like the first season, I feel
    like that one, I mean, obviously they're deviating. I've not read the books, so to be fair,
    but obviously they're deviating a lot from them just to kind of make something that works in a
    series, which is fine. Um, you know, it doesn't have to be the thing that's the source material,
    but one thing about it, that's kind of getting to me is just like the first season felt like they,
    and this seems to happen a lot. The first season felt like they had a really good plan. They had
    a kind of arc and it worked well and things were interesting. And now it's just like, you can feel
    they're working backwards and reverse engineering. Like they want to get to a certain point.

    This is the same problem, I guess, with, um, strange new worlds. They know where they're

    going and they're going to reverse engineer stuff to get there versus like we are in a
    certain situation and people act as they would act in, you know, given the characters that we've
    established for them, um, and advance from that situation to the next situation to the next
    situation and then organically get to where they're going. Um, it's, it's much harder to write
    that obviously, but you can really tell the difference and it's like, well, why is this
    person doing this thing? Or why is this person here? Why is this, um, you know, why are they
    in this giant cavernous space, but everybody's standing in one tiny little place in it? And
    it's obvious that it's like, oh, they did this on a green screen and they put the stuff in
    post and didn't really know what it was going to look like and didn't think, you know, like,
    oh, we could actually, we don't have to be, we don't have to go this ridiculous about this.
    Um, but you know, just kind of like, I don't know. It's, it's just irritating. Just irritating
    to me. It's like some of the stuff, like the, uh, the Q episode, fucking awesome. I enjoyed
    that, but for the most part, and there are parts in all of them that I'm liking, but it's
    just like, eh, eh. So anyway, uh, keep rambling. I probably should, uh, it's already past noon
    and I have to get started for the day for, for real. I have a lot of stuff that I want
    to do in terms of, uh, like actually just going around town and work back, like actual
    work stuff. Um, not that I'm getting paid for it, but you know, stuff I want to build
    and kind of working on. Um, and I haven't been doing that yet today. Um, but I, I will
    be doing that soon. I think today I'm going to take more of a, like a touristy
    day and cause I've been doing other stuff, but, uh, anyway, with that, as, as
    always, thanks for listening. I really hope the audio is better on this one. Um, if
    it's not, I'm not going to rerecord this one again, cause this is already, you know,
    that one I already recorded for like an hour and a half and then did the like
    listen through and some other stuff. And I've spent like several hours on that.

    And then I threw that out and now I'm doing this one and it's already an hour

    and a half. And by the time I get everything done, it'll be, you know, so it's
    like a day or two worth of work going into this episode, at least spread over
    two or three days. So this is going out and I just hope it doesn't suck. Um, I, I
    have a bunch of other stuff I want to talk about, but I think that will do for
    today. And so as ever, Zaijin. Oh, and thanks. Thank you. Of course.

    But Zaijin.

    1 hr 36 min
  • Hello World !

    I was on LinkedIn and happened upon this

    Denise ConroyDenise Conroy said:

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    I'm about to delete my LinkedIn account. As some of you might have noticed, I haven't been posting at all. This platform and its parent company, Microsoft, is trash.

    I've been focused on in-person community activities and my Substack.

    But before I go, I'd like to introduce you to Ricky Patel. Ricky is the the Special Agent in Charge at Homeland Security Investigations (AKA bureaucrat thug) who kidnapped Newark Mayor Ras Baraka when the mayor and members of Congress were DOING THEIR JOBS and performing oversight at a detention center.

    If you're connected to Ricky in any way, you might want to do some soul-searching about the sorts of people you associate with.

    Fascism isn't a good look -- getting uglier by the day. Fascists deserve to carry the shame of their chosen "profession."

    to which I replied:

    Good to get off of this place but find someplace better than Substack - they platform Nazis

    to which Denise replied:

    Scott M. Where do you post your created content? I’d love to follow your work.

    Which I answered with 「 places like Genetics and Physical Biology or Bluesky but I don't have a blog 」 but then I thought.. why not ? Maybe I should.

    So I made this ( notably not on Substack ).

    IDK how often I'll post or what I'll do with this but I've got the site so I figured I might as well put something here other than just some weird bio stuff.

    Episode Transcript

    Hey there. It is the 18th of August 2025. This is Tangents again, and I haven't recorded

    one of these in I don't know how long. I don't know if I'm going to bring the old Archive
    episodes back. I think I might, but we'll see. But what I am doing is restarting this,
    and it's something that I've been thinking about doing for a long time, but for a variety
    of reasons, I haven't. And I guess I'll take today to kind of talk about that a little
    bit, probably reintroduce, maybe not myself exactly, but I will introduce what the show
    is, talk a bit about what I'm going to do with it, and where I think it's going to go,
    all that kind of stuff.

    First of all, I'm Scott Menor. I go by「 smenor 」 sme-nor as one of my exes

    used to call me, which is just my first initial and last name. That is the username they gave
    me when I worked at Intel at my first job, and it was smenor at Intel.com. And then I
    was a contractor. I wasn't actually an employee. So at a certain point, they changed it to smenor
    X at Intel.com, which was much less cool. And then finally, you know, I stopped working
    there. So that was my first job. I was in my senior year of high school and then first
    year of undergrad at ASU. I guess, yeah, this is a reintroduction episode. So I will go through
    a brief bit of my bio since I'm mentioning that.

    I did my undergrad in, well, I didn't

    actually have a specific goal in mind, to be honest. And I think this is kind of, I would
    say this is sort of how you should do, how you should approach undergrad. It's obviously
    not practical. And I'm not saying that this is what you should actually do if you work or
    if you're going to school in the United States at the present moment in 2025. But I think
    this is how undergrad should go.

    So I basically looked at the classes that they offered. And

    I thought, these are the classes that I want to take. And at a certain point, I went through
    and I kind of, I took every semester, five or six classes. That was the maximum load you
    could take.

    There was one semester where I worked 40 hours a week in addition. And I got

    to tell you, it is fucked up. You should like going to school should be a full-time job, hard
    stop. You should not have to work during it. And I believe me to this day, I am paying for
    doing that because I have, I don't even know what it is, like 180K in student loan debt,
    including like 8K of private debt, which I knew how bad the private loans were. I deliberately
    avoided them. I don't know how it happened, but somehow I got like six, seven K in a private loan
    at some point through undergrad or grad school. And that I have been paying like that, that has not
    been paused.

    It hasn't been, you know, I've just been paying it continuously since I got out of

    university. And I have paid the principal over two times over. I think probably by now it's like
    two and a half times over. I've had like 20K. I know it was at least 18 the last time I checked
    and that was a while ago. So I'm sure, I'm sure it's over 20K that I've paid. I paid that and I still
    owe more than I owed originally, which is, you know, chef's kiss.

    Pretty fucking awesome.

    But anyway, that was that. And then I don't even want to get into the other student loans,

    obviously disgusting and horrible and excessive. I'm recording this incidentally on my AirPod Pros
    and I am sure that the audio is ass. I'm currently in, actually, Ha Long Bay in Vietnam. And I don't
    have a mic or anything decent. I have the mics in the AirPod Pros. I have the mic on my phone,
    which is shitty. And then I have the mic on my MacBook, which is also kind of shitty. And I'm,
    I'm going to dabble. I'm going to see what works. I did, I did record like 20 minutes of this just
    on the street with the rain before I got back here. It actually didn't sound terrible. I don't know if
    this is going to be comparable, but I hope so.

    The, the rain noise and street noise was a little bit

    much, but I might, I might fit that in there if I can. We'll see how that works. But it was actually,
    yeah, if this is comparable to that, this will not be terrible. This is not the level of audio
    quality that I'm used to or care to provide. So I apologize for that, but hopefully, hopefully it'll
    be okay. Um, anyway, I picked those classes. I found the majors that I could take, uh, or the degrees
    that I could get with those classes. And that was how I decided what my degrees would be. And I went
    like, one of the things that I did is I w I would have been, uh, um, biology and, uh, mathematics
    because that was easy. Um, but to do biology, I had to, I hope that doesn't pop. That looks,
    it looks like it's pegging when I'm saying like, but the way that I said back there, um, but that,
    that I will, we'll, we'll, we'll see.

    This is, again, this is a work in progress. This is an

    experiment. Hopefully it's, hopefully it's not terrible. Um, but there it goes again. When I was,
    uh, there, I didn't want to take botany and in, in retrospect, I should have just taken botany.
    Uh, not because I wanted a biology degree, but you know, the botany was, it's one of those things
    where I feel the absence. I feel like I missed something by not taking it. And so, you know, I,
    I don't know, but anyway, I, I didn't want to do that. I ended up in microbiology instead of
    biology. That was my undergrad degree. Um, in addition to mathematics. And if I would have
    stayed another semester, I could have had anthropology as well. But what, what was the
    point of three undergrad degrees?

    I don't know that two has made any difference in my life.

    Other than, other than I can sit there and tell people like I have a degree in mathematics
    or I have a degree in microbiology. Um, not that that buys very much. So after that, I went to,
    uh, university of Hawaii at Manoa and I was going to do a PhD in microbiology specializing in
    virology. And I, I really like virology. I really liked the lab work. I love tissue culture and all
    that kind of stuff. Fucking hate. Uh, and, and I'm not going to do animal work or giant air quotes
    euphemistically animal work, uh, which I think you can probably gather what that means.
    Virology is very difficult to do without, um, animal work without lab animals. And I, I did
    like one experiment with the pineal shrimp.

    My advisor there was working on shrimp viruses,

    a couple of different ones, uh, white spot and yellow head. I think were the specific ones,
    but there, there were a few others and these are agriculture, agriculturally important shrimp
    viruses. So basically they are transmitted by birds, I believe, and they'll fly into the shrimp,
    um, aquaculture areas and they'll transmit them from one to the next.
    And so even though they're contained pretty well, it's very hard to prevent them. And so his lab
    developed a rapid antigen test, uh, to detect these and, uh, a few other things that did some work on
    them. I was working on tissue culture and that was the thing I was more interested in. But even when
    you're doing tissue culture for, for arthropods, you're basically stuck doing primary cell culture
    because that, that means primary cell culture means you're directly deriving those cells from an
    organism. And I was trying kind of to work on cell culture conditions and optimizing media and figuring
    out how to make a shrimp cell lines.

    Didn't get very far.

    I did use nonlinear optimization techniques

    that, you know, I guess my advisor called it a little esoteric, but I think it was a nice way
    because you think about it, you have all of these parameters and you're trying to optimize them.
    And if you're exhaustively testing all of them, it, it's very complicated.

    So what you could do is like

    a steepest descent and just do a sequence of, um, of tests. Now the problem that I ran into
    was that it was extremely difficult to get any kind of, you know, consistency or control
    from test to test. Like even, even on the same 96 well plate, the cells would be different.
    Everything would be a little different well to well. And then when you would go experiment to
    experiment, totally different.

    So it didn't work out very well. Um, but it was interesting. I thought

    it was, it was worth doing. And it was at least something that let me work on the theory and not
    really have to do, uh, the animal work again. So that was something.

    So anyway, I did that, um,

    finished it master's cause I didn't want to do the PhD, uh, that the PhD, I would have had to do animal
    work and it would have also taken like a decade or some ridiculous amount of time. I didn't, I didn't
    want to spend that long on it and maybe I would have liked it. I don't know. But in retrospect,
    I'm kind of glad like looking at how much of a clusterfuck the CDC and every, everything has become.
    And, and to be clear, I mean, yeah, you have Trump undermining it. You have Biden undermining it.

    Um, it's just like completely gutted and it's just a fucking joke today. And looking at that, I just,

    I'm glad that I'm not in that domain. You know, I'm glad that I have that in my background. I'm
    very happy to have experience and knowledge in that domain, but it would not be, I would be so upset if
    that was my profession. And also I have to say, I'm not a person, I I've learned this about myself.
    I'm not a person who really, it's not just that I don't want to specialize.

    I don't want to work in

    the same shit, uh, for, for 30 years. I really don't. I'm, I'm somebody who likes to dabble. I
    like to go from subject to subject given like if money was not a constraint, I would have just
    collected alphabet soup and, and not just alphabet soup, but I mean, a lot of undergrad degrees in
    particular, because the graduate stuff, like once you get to graduate school, you're, you're taking
    primarily stuff in your discipline and don't get me wrong.

    I enjoyed taking, uh, and teaching like, uh,

    epidemiology and medical microbiology and immunology and, uh, virology and different classes like that.
    I liked that, but I also wanted to take Spanish, which I did. I also wanted to take, you know,
    things that were outside of it. And then when I did my PhD in physics, my advisor didn't even want
    me doing like particle physics and field theory. Like not, not only didn't want me outside of,
    um, physics and I did take some French and I took some other classes, but he wasn't super happy about
    that, but he didn't even want me taking like general relativity or field theory again. And I was really
    interested in those. I, I regret not taking them.

    I enjoyed like classical mechanics. Um, I enjoyed

    almost all of my classes actually, except for optics stat mech. I had a little bit, um, a little
    bit of trouble with, I don't know what it was. And I'm, I'm going to, I know it's not the teacher's
    fault. You know, it's not the professor's fault. And actually of the professors that I had as a,
    as a grad student, he's the only one I think, or one of the few that I'm still, well, I guess one
    of the few who I'm still connected with on Facebook. Uh, but just something about his teaching
    style. I was, and maybe it was just that I didn't have the physics in undergrad, but the stat mech was
    always, um, always a little, like it didn't quite click to me and partition functions and all that kind
    of stuff. I just didn't, I didn't get it. I didn't get thermodynamics that much.

    I get it much more

    since then. And it ended up being actually a core part of my, uh, of my PhD. So I had to get pretty
    good at it, but from the class, I was just fucking lost. Um, I still, I got a, either an A or a B in
    that class. I don't remember which the only class that I really, really struggled and suffered under
    was optics. And that again was the professor, a hundred percent in that case. Uh, that professor
    was not really explaining things in a way that, uh, like the thing that I would always get is if,
    if I could understand the concepts, I would just own it.

    If I, if you explained stuff to me and I

    understood the fundamentals, I just get it. You know, my, uh, advanced algebra prof said something
    like, you know, you're, when you're doing these proofs, you're getting a packet of seeds and you're
    taking those seeds and learning how to grow them. And you're not memorizing the whole like path,
    but you take the seeds and you kind of know how to prune them and to take them to what you're trying
    to grow. And that always made so much sense to me. Like if you, if you do that, then you have,
    you don't have to memorize that much. You don't have to, um, I mean, it's not that you don't have
    to study exactly, but you don't have to do this thing where like when I would teach physics, you'd
    very often, we would let people take a sheet of notes into the tests.

    And realistically for like

    undergrad, first, second semester physics classes, I could get that on the formulas that you would need.
    I could get that on like half a sheet of paper and pretty big font. Like you don't need that much.
    People would write in micro print on both sides, like an entire book worth of shit. And it's just
    like, Hey, how are you going to, it's like, I don't know how you're even going to find what you need
    when you need it in there. And maybe it's just like a comfort blanket or something, but
    I don't know, it's going to work. But what I do know is like, you don't need that much stuff.
    And if you really studied it and understood it, you probably wouldn't even need, like,
    I would never take this sheet of notes when they offered it or like a couple of times I made one,
    but I never referenced it. I just had it there. And the reason was not because I was like some
    master of physics. Um, but it was because I understood the stuff.

    And if you understand the

    stuff, it's not that hard. If you understand calculus, uh, and I know like people are like,
    Oh, calculus. Calculus is not that difficult. Like it really genuinely is not. I think the
    difficulties people have with calculus are like the difficulties that I had with optics and with
    stat mech, especially optics. If you learn by rote memorization and you don't understand it,
    then it just doesn't make any fucking sense. But if you actually understand, um, whether it's, uh,
    even something like LeBag integration or, you know, limits or whatever, if you understand that stuff,
    it just makes fucking sense. It's just not that complicated. And once you get that,
    you know, you, you own it in a way that like, I took calculus as an undergrad. I don't even know
    how many decades ago. And I still, I could go through and it's not just because I've used it a
    lot.

    I could do integrals. I could do, I could do volume and hyper volume calculations very easily.

    You know, I could do all of this other stuff. Now I might not remember, um, like how to integrate
    over an end sphere, but, you know, or, or to figure out the volume of an end ball. Um, but
    I could write down the integrals. I could put them in Mathematica and then, you know, or, or look them
    up in a table, which I think is what really matters. And, uh, because I know how to do it, I can get
    those things.

    I know how to ask the questions. I have the, the seeds and I've learned how to sort of do

    the pruning and fertilizing and watering and all that stuff. So I really own it in that way.
    Anyway, going on, um, undergrad degrees, mathematics, microbiology took a lot of different
    classes. Uh, graduated, I think with 172 credit hours. Not, and I'm not telling you that because
    I'm like bragging or something. That's just, I happen to remember it. Maybe it was 174, but it was
    an order of that. Um, you need like, I think 120 to graduate.

    Did that in four years. Uh, mostly,

    mostly just the regular semesters. Although I took a couple of summers or a summer, I can't speak
    summer sessions. And I did have to retake, um, chemistry 113 because I have ridiculous social
    anxiety. And I, and that class, like I, I did, uh, extremely well on all the exams. Yeah. Um,
    in fact, when I withdrew from that class, I went in, talked to the professor. He looked at my exam
    scores and he's like, but these are all A's. Why are you withdrawing? And then he looked at my lab
    scores and it was all zeros. And the reason it was zeros was I went in and somehow I didn't, I don't
    know, this was, um, before I realized this kind of shit would be in the syllabus.

    Um, didn't know

    where I was supposed to turn in the, the homework and I was too embarrassed to ask. And so I just
    didn't know where to put my fucking homework. And at a certain point I didn't do the homework
    because it was like, I don't even know what to do with it. And then I got to the end of the semester.
    I got two thirds of the way through the semester and I was going to fail the class because I didn't
    have those things done. It was really foolish and annoying. That's other than an English class,
    which was also, uh, that was in, uh, one semester of English in high school.

    I had to retake

    similarly because I didn't, I had to write something and then we had to read it in front of the class.
    And yeah, I I've talked about this before, but like it's coming around. I was like two thirds of
    the way through the class and, uh, I'm watching people and it's coming around to me. And as it's
    happening, I'm feeling like my throat is tightening up and my upper lip is starting to like, I'm sure
    it wasn't visible, but it felt like it was flapping so much and it's getting closer and closer.

    My eyelid is also flapping and I was just feeling so like, and then finally I just said, I didn't do it

    because yeah, I didn't want to read it in front of the class. And it was, it was a fucking ridiculous
    thing. And I ended up taking that semester again, which sucked, but it did get me to, uh, did get me
    to the point where talking in front of the class was a little bit less difficult. Um, I guess that,
    and then you think about like, uh, as, as a grad student, I was a teaching assistant quite a few
    semesters actually. And I was teaching the introductory microbiology lab and I wasn't great
    at it. I wasn't very comfortable at it, but I was doing it.

    And then we had the TA evaluation,

    like the instruction person would come in and sit in and I, it was a train wreck. I had, I couldn't
    talk. I couldn't think. I was just like, ah, I don't know what the fuck. And yeah, now I can get up in
    front of a large lecture hall. And it's not that I don't care, but it just doesn't really move me in
    the same way that it used to, which it's, it's, it's got its own. It's not all good. It's not all
    an improvement because having that little bit of an edge, having a little bit of anxiety about it.
    Um, it does actually focus you a little bit. It does make you, um, worry about it and do a good job.
    Or hopefully.

    And I, I don't know. I mean, I, I've also gotten to the point where like right now

    I have no outline. I have no idea of what I'm going to say from one moment to the next. I knew
    this was going to be called hello world. I knew kind of vaguely what I was going to talk about.
    Um, I knew I wanted to make it like a reintroduction. And so, yeah, but the actual
    details of everything I'm saying, just pure extemporaneous. And, you know, I, I, I think
    this is pretty, I I'm going to say, I think it's probably listenable. I don't think it's probably
    like, it could be tighter. It could be a little bit more focused. It could be a little punchier,
    but I think, I think you could probably listen to this and not mind it.

    You probably listen to it and

    think that, yeah, this is actually fairly well put together and organized. And I've gotten to this
    point where that is just something I can do. And it's taken a long time, uh, of a lot of different
    stuff. So like teaching over and over again, presenting over and over again. Um, I did, uh,
    as a grad student, college radio, and that was very uncomfortable. And then it wasn't very
    uncomfortable. And I did a bunch of interviews there and it was kind of, it was kind of fun.
    It was kind of like, I enjoyed it. And then at a certain point I didn't enjoy it as much because
    I don't want to get into the details of that, but I was having, I, I, I, I liked having conversations.

    I wasn't on the air to do like music, which I was there to, to talk. I was there to talk and not just

    to like me monologuing like I am here, but to have conversations with people. And I often would
    have guests, but sometimes I wouldn't have guests. And when I didn't have guests, I would have callers
    and there was one guy who called a lot and the station manager didn't really find him very
    compelling. Um, and she kind of got annoyed that I was talking to him a lot. And so she told me not
    to, and I got irritated by that. And then finally I just, I don't know, I don't want to get into the
    details of that, but that was my, my end of my college radio career was just getting irritated
    and like saying something about her on the air. Uh, because I, and it's the thing that was annoying
    there also, it's like, she didn't directly, she talked to me a couple of times and then kind
    of went through the, uh, the station advisor or manager or whoever it was. It was, I think
    an undergrad, I don't remember, but it was, it was very obviously like something she said
    coming through him, but it was through him. And I, I don't know what it is.

    There's something

    in me when people do, um, indirect kind of passive aggressive bullshit. It, it really,
    really irritates me. It really gets to me. And, uh, this just got to me. So anyway, through,
    through talking there, through interviewing there, um, doing a lot of presentations, all kinds of stuff,
    even doing a little bit of standup.

    I don't know how I started talking with Bobby Oliver.

    Um, I, I think I followed her on Twitter and, uh, at some point started talking with her.
    We were kind of politically aligned. Um, and then I started explaining, you know, I have this social
    anxiety with talking and she's like, Hey, I have a class where you're, you know, or I don't know if
    class is the right word, but she does a thing. Uh, she made a book or several books probably.
    And she does teaching, which is, or, or I don't know if teaching like workshops, basically you go
    in and then you start making standup routines and then you do a standup routine. And so I did that.
    And which was an interesting thing in and of itself, because I, I have, again, a lot of social
    anxiety, a lot of anxiety about talking.

    Once I got up on stage, I just started talking and talking

    and talking. I don't know if it was funny. People did laugh, although they were laughing because,
    you know, it was a, uh, comedy students. It wasn't exactly, you know, like a hard crowd,
    but people were laughing and I just, I, I missed the exit cue. And then finally realized at the end,
    I was like, Oh shit. I, uh, yeah, time is up. I, so I went over my time, feel bad about that still.
    But anyway, um, got some practice with it there. I I've done, I don't know how many hours of just
    talking to myself and talking to other people and doing interviews and, uh, talking with my former
    friend Gil on these things, uh, just like this.

    And in doing that, I have gotten, I would dare say

    okay at it. I dare say maybe even pretty good at it. I I've certainly gotten to the point where
    I'm not bad at it. It's not awkward and uncomfortable. I'm not struggling to come up
    with stuff to say. I'm not, I mean, I am kind of rambling, but I think it's coherent enough that
    you could follow the gist of it.

    It's, it's sort of logically put together. And I, I don't know that

    that's, that's basically what you're getting if you come here and I'm going to try a couple of
    things. I'm going to try to put up automated transcripts.

    I can't guarantee that the transcripts

    are going to be perfect. Uh, voice to text is shaky and just the way that this works, the way I get,
    because I know sort of how things go for me. Um, this takes the time that it takes to record.

    So however long it is plus a little bit of extra, cause I will edit a little bit down. Although

    I'm not going to edit that much. I try to make it as unedited as possible, mainly because editing
    takes so long, but I will edit it a little bit.

    So it's like, however long the actual episode is

    plus a little bit for recording it. And then when you edit it, you're listening to it again.
    So it's at least that length again. Um, and then, you know, if you're going to do the transcripts and
    all this kind of stuff, it takes, it takes a lot of time. It takes a lot of time. And I'm not trying
    to say, you know, like, Oh, you should thank me for the time that I'm putting in.

    I'm just trying to

    make an excuse or at least an explanation here for why, uh, the, the transcripts might not be
    perfect.

    You know, I'm going to put transcripts up. I'm going to try to have texts and make these

    episodes sort of multimedia. So if you want, you can read them.

    If you want, there'll be a transcript

    on the podcast. And if you want, you can just listen to it.

    Sometimes I might make video, although

    I'm not a big fan of video, but I was recording these and it's another thing actually, like I got
    comfortable, uh, doing audio for a while and I was super uncomfortable with video and I started
    recording a bunch of videos and then I got okay with it.

    I don't think it was ever very good. I

    don't think it was ever something that I would like feel super proud about. I've, the audio stuff I've,
    I've felt pretty good about. Like I think at its peak, it's actually pretty good. Um, at the very
    least, you know, I don't think I've made a bunch of shit.

    The video it's fine. It's fine. It's just

    like video is another media and I can do a little bit of an audio performance in the sense that, you
    know, I can vary my speech. I can make things hopefully not just, uh, like a, um, an
    acoustic sedative.

    I can make things I think that are worth listening to the video part. It's like,

    I don't know. It's just not, it's not me.

    I'm not.. I've never been comfortable with it,

    but I am now at least somewhat more comfortable with it than I used to be.

    I've never been really

    like a huge fan of how I look. I've never been super comfortable with that. I think I think I have
    an okay voice. Um, I don't think that I exactly have a face for radio, so to speak, but I,
    I joke about that. Uh, but I, I just don't, you know, I, even though I've made a shit ton of
    TikToks, um, even though I made a bunch of, uh, YouTube videos, um, I just don't like it.

    I just never have liked it. I've never really wanted to do it. And it also like, you know,

    the, the amount of extra work that it goes into making those videos and doing, you know,
    like the TikToks, I, I enjoyed it at a certain point. I really, I was making like a handful a day
    and I was having fun.

    You know, I literally was making like five to 10, 10 minute videos every day

    or almost every day for months and months and months when I first got on TikTok. And it was like,
    most of them would not get that many views to be fair. But at the time, you know, like occasionally
    I get one that had like 10,000 views, which I know by the scale of what people get there,
    50,000 views is not a lot of views, but it felt good.

    It felt like, oh, there's a chance that I

    could make something that's not crap and that people will enjoy. And it might actually get some
    distribution. And I have things that I want to say and things that I want to talk about.
    And I have some things that I think are worth talking about. And so it felt,
    it felt important and it felt like it was at least worth my time.

    But then I, like my TikTok became

    very much about the pandemic. And for some reason, there are a bunch of people who really don't like
    the idea that anyone wants to talk about wearing a respirator.

    They really don't like the idea that

    somebody wants to talk about the fact that the pandemic is still ongoing. For example, it's 2025.
    It's still fucking ongoing. It's still, you know, and it's not shocking that it's ongoing. It's,
    and it doesn't, it's not what, it wasn't inevitable that it would be ongoing.

    It's just that people

    completely abandoned any sort of semblance of public health. And it's a bipartisan effort.

    You know, first you had, it's one of the frustrating things, and you're going to hear a lot about,

    like, you'll hear much more from me about brunch libs or shit libs than you will about Republicans.
    And I want to make it clear right now, this is not because I in any way support or align with
    people like Trump.

    Fuck those people.

    I dislike them so much that, like, in 2016,

    after Hillary stole the primary, stole the nomination from Bernie, I don't think that's an
    unreasonable thing to say. I think that's accurate. But after the party did that, I still busted my ass
    after the convention, up until and including election day, making calls for her, and knocking
    doors for her, and telling everyone that I could talk to, everyone that would listen, and people that
    didn't want to listen, I would tell them, like, you have to fucking vote for her, because Trump was
    fucking horrible. And, like, in a lot of different ways, too.

    It's not like he just was, you know,

    terrible, and it was a surprise. I was like, obviously fucking terrible. And also, like, I have
    been a very big advocate for bodily autonomy and abortion rights, which incidentally really is
    another thing that pisses me off about people with the pandemic, because they've taken the language of
    bodily autonomy and twisted it into anti-vax bullshit. And, of course, the real bodily autonomy
    argument with vaccines is that, you know, and with masks and all this kind of stuff, is that people
    have the right to go out in public and not be exposed to deadly, dangerous pathogens. That is the,
    that's the bodily autonomy argument.

    It's not like, oh, you have the right not to,

    not to get a very safe and effective vaccine.

    You have the duty, the responsibility,

    that if you're going to participate in a society, that you not expose a bunch of people to shit.
    And, and the way that it's been twisted is fucking annoying. But anyway, I've paid attention to this
    stuff. I've cared a lot about it for a long time. I've been active in it for a very long time. And I
    knew for, I didn't even know how long before 2016, I knew what the Federalist Society was doing.

    I knew that like my entire life, literally my entire life, these people have been, they got their

    pennies in a bunch because of the civil rights era. There were a bunch of legal decisions, a bunch of
    Supreme Court decisions, like Brown versus the Board of Education, like Loving Virginia. And you just go
    through the list. They didn't like that. They didn't like, they used to call them activist judges, which
    were people that just, you know, like gave people rights that were kind of essentially enumerated or
    indirectly enumerated in the Constitution. The abortion thing, they, I don't think they cared that much
    about, but they kind of decided that was an easy issue to talk about. That's another one that drives me,
    like, I fucking lose my mind about it because like the language that people who are pro forced
    birth use is very much like, oh, we're saving babies and all this kind of stuff, which is similar to the
    language I would use talking about, um, the genocide and, uh, and Felistine and Felistine. Um,
    and yet, you know, one is real and one is bullshit and it just irritates me the way that they're so
    disingenuous.

    And we're at a point now where people are disingenuous across the board and it fucking

    irritates me. And I also is getting back.

    I am going to talk a lot more about Democrats, not because I think

    that the Republicans are good, not because I'm not aware of the shit that they're doing, not because
    I'm not aware that they've been growing these injustices in the lab, again, my entire life and
    then some, um, just so that they could overturn civil rights era legislation.

    So they could overturn

    or not legislation decisions rather.

    So they could overturn environmental regulations and all kinds of

    other shit.

    Um, I'm not going to talk about them as much because I would never fucking vote for them.

    I never, it would never occur to me to vote for a Trump.

    It would never occur to me to vote for, uh, any of the

    Republicans. And like, I, I don't know. It's hard to imagine like, and I think this is a problem.

    It's hard to think of a single Republican elected official in my lifetime who I would even consider voting for.

    And it's fucked up that that's the situation, but that is the case.

    I can't imagine ever doing it.

    My entire life, however, from before I was able to vote, I was a staunch supporter of the Democrats

    before I was even political. And I didn't think about it. I think, I thought that they aligned with
    me was part of the thing, but it was very cultural as well. Like, you know, it was just, that was kind
    of what you did.

    I didn't reflect on it that much. And as soon as I was able to vote, I voted in every

    presidential election and you could go through my voting record. You can see all the, pretty much all
    of the, uh, lesser elections with the exception of a couple where it was like, there's some side issue
    and this is a weird, um, side election of a side election.

    And I happened to be in Europe at the

    time and it was a pain in the ass to vote. And even when I was in Europe, I voted for Obama.

    I think

    the second time, I don't remember. I think it was the second time. Yeah, it must've been. Um, and it
    was hard. It was annoying to do that, but I did it and I felt great about it.

    I felt fucking good about it. I was, I was not quite the, 「 uh, I would have voted for Obama the third time 」. In fact, I wasn't

    quite like that level, but I was, I was pretty, pretty much kind of shit-libby.

    I thought that they were, I really bought into the bullshit.

    I really thought that, yeah, like there's something

    for me about like somebody who looks cool, acts cool and has that professorial tone and cadence that
    he has. Like everything he says sounds cool. And it just like, it was tickling a part of my brain
    that I,

    I cannot tell you how much I enjoyed it and how much it just like, it was like, yes, yes,

    yes. You know? And in reality, like even, even like at the time I, while he was president,
    I knew about blowing up babies.

    I knew about blowing up weddings.

    I knew about the deporter in chief stuff.

    I knew a bunch of shit that he did.

    I knew that he did not push for a, um, a public option. I knew all of this stuff and I still just made

    excuses for him. Oh, it's Lieberman. Oh, you know, I mean, like he has to, he, you understand he *_has to blow up babies because if
    you got those daily intelligence.. and he said this and I'm just like, this is the thing in my mind.

    If you got those daily intelligence briefings, you too would be blowing up babies, which is

    fucking ridiculous.

    It's, it's fucking just disgusting and ridiculous.

    And the fact that I ever thought that I I'm ashamed of, I'm horribly, horribly ashamed of it is a, it is a true blemish

    on my record. And I have spent a long time since then trying to make up for it and trying to convince
    people about this stuff. And like, there's no excuse, there's no fucking excuse for blowing it.
    And, and the perspective that I have now is really that my country is extraordinarily imperial.

    Um, we, we are something like 4% or so of the global population. And yet we cause, I would say,

    upwards of 95% of the misery in the world. And we have done, um, not just in the duration of my lifetime,
    but really since World War II, like most of the misery in the world has been caused indirectly or directly
    by the United States. And it's not just that far. L

    ike you go back and this is a country built on top of a

    genocide on a scale that would make Hitler blush, like legit. And of course he was inspired by
    Jim Crow and inspired by the shit that, that the Americans did, that the United States did, uh,
    to the indigenous people that were there. And like the potentially like order of a hundred million
    people, uh, killed that were there prior. And you think about like how much suffering and torture
    and torment and, and not just like actually murdering people and taking their kids away,
    but the cultural genocide as well, like taking away the culture, taking away the language and all of the
    stuff that people have done. And you just look at that and it's like, holy shit.

    And then the entire country was built on slavery as well. And you know, like it literally in the fucking constitution

    is the three fifths compromise. Like, um, you know, and that is not saying that you even have
    the rights of three fifths of a person that's saying like for, um, just, just in terms of what
    you count as for representation for the area that you happen to live in, you count as three fifths
    of a person. Um, so in reality, you don't even get three fifths of the rights of a person. And you
    just look at that, that's, that's in the fucking constitution.

    You look at the people and like, there was a time when I watched Hamilton and I was like, oh yes, this is awesome.

    And now I look back at that and it's just such brain candy for people who want to feel good about, uh, the,

    the foundational myths of my country, which are horrible. They're fucking horrible. Like most of
    these people, um, had other people as property, like treated other people. And, and, and you know,
    like you just, it's, it's hard to comprehend how fucking evil that country is. And it's, it's
    actually funny.

    I am again, I think I mentioned this at the top of this, but I'm currently in

    Ha Long Bay in Vietnam. And this is a country which beat my country, like not, not even a
    question. And you think about it, it's not because they had better technology. It's not
    because they had better, you know, like funding or, or weapon systems or anything like that.

    It was just, um, you know, it's, it's very difficult to be like a air quotes military superpower

    and to win against people who are really determined and working together and, you know, like living
    where they, they live and where they've been.

    It's, it's very hard. And it's kind of, I don't want

    to say like the most hopeful thing in the world, but it definitely makes you feel good. It makes you
    feel like, I mean, I'm certainly not saying that there is no, like everything is perfect here by
    any means. Um, but that aspect of it, the fact that that could happen, the fact that that did
    happen and it happened more than one place, um, that tells you something.

    It's, it's, it's very hopeful and very, like I, I talk to a lot of people in, in Urquaza. Um, I do every day, every day,

    I talk to people there and I talk to people who are starving.

    I talk to people who are, you know, like they've, they've had relatives and friends blown up. Um, their, their houses, their homes

    have been destroyed. Uh, many of them have lost children. Many of them have lost parents.
    All of them have lost friends and relatives. And, you know, even the ones that are surviving
    that are still around, uh, a lot of them have injuries, like very serious, terrible injuries.
    Everybody there has like, they don't have running water.

    They have to wait in line for hours to get

    like a gallon or two of water to bring back to their family. And that's, you know, that's not enough
    water to drink and to live on much less to just wash your fucking hands.

    They don't have soap.

    They don't have water. And so like a scratch there can fucking kill you. And you get people that have

    like, there's, there's one guy that I know there, um, he has a ankle injury and that ankle injury
    would have been bad.

    It would have been, um, I don't even remember what happened. I think he got shot,

    but he, at least, you know, like pretty bad cut, pretty bad contusions. And again, it would have
    been bad under any circumstances, but everybody's covered in filth. They can't wash shit. They can't,
    you know, just do basic wound treatments.

    Um, they, they have no real sanitation to speak of.

    And so, you know, anything becomes an infection. Anything becomes like the, the idea that you're not
    going to get septic there is, is ridiculous. The idea that you're not going to get gastroenteritis,
    people get all kinds of parasites.

    They get all kinds of, you know, like fleas and scabies and all

    just horrible shit that is easy to treat and prevent. And yet it's impossible for people there.
    Um, it's, it's, and you look at so many people have, uh, skin conditions, like they have, uh,
    staph infections that are just chronic all over them. And again, you know, you get that,
    you get a scratch and you're kind of fucked. You're in bad, bad shape. And then how do you
    get antibiotics?

    How do you get the soap to, how do you get bandages?

    How do you get, you just think about like all the stuff that's happening there and it's so fucking horrible.

    And there are a lot of reasons why I stopped reporting these. One of the reasons, but one of the reasons was my boss
    was a fucking pain in the ass and started out cool. My, my, my previous boss, I'm no longer working
    for him. I'm no longer working at ASU, but I was there, um, for a while. And that was a job that I
    got through. I thought my best friend, I would have called him my best friend for a long time, Gil.
    And, um, yeah, it was annoying cause it was like, I was making less money in real terms. And certainly
    if you fixed for inflation than I was in my job out of, um, out of my PhD, I, I was not doing that
    well. And I was, I was getting like a third of what I was getting prior to that before my company.
    I'll, I'll talk about all of this stuff in greater detail later on, but you know, just, I'm going to
    give you kind of like an overview of some things.

    Um, I was getting paid like a third at ASU of what

    I was getting prior. And I, I made some decisions.

    Like I got a car that I shouldn't have gotten

    and really regretted, but I could, it, it was a Tesla.

    It was a model three. And there were some

    nice things about it, but that fucking thing, uh, it's did a speed run to, uh, it's like every,
    every new car that you buy depreciates ridiculously.

    That one depreciated in a way that a normal car

    has that you can't even fathom how fast it went down.

    I couldn't sell it for the longest time.

    I'm stuck with it. And also it was costing a whole fucking paycheck.

    So that car between, uh,

    the, between the loan and the insurance was literally a paycheck. It was like 1500 bucks
    or the paycheck after tax. And then my rent was a paycheck. It was like $1500 bucks.
    And, you know, obviously on top of that stuff, you have to eat.

    Like if I didn't have the car,

    if I could have, if I lived someplace where I could walk and drive, uh, ride a train and that
    kind of stuff, wouldn't have, I would have been okay in that situation.

    If I didn't have a lot of debt already going in, I would have been okay, but it was an excruciating, horrible situation.

    And I just felt like trapped.

    And then I, I guess I'm going to go into some of this stuff. Cause you

    know, I, this is already 50 minutes long.

    It's going to get a little longer, but this whole, I might as well be somewhat complete here.

    I will go into more and more depth later, but

    about a year before my job ended, boss starts getting a little weird. And prior to that,
    I was working with these other two postdocs and I thought we were doing good stuff.

    I thought we were doing interesting stuff.

    And then he started sort of not liking what we were doing. Didn't like

    that we were working together and all this kind of stuff started getting weird, started sending us
    like occasionally he'd send us a really scary email, send all three of us a scary email. You're
    the worst postdoc I've ever had.

    I wasn't a postdoc, but you know, basically, um, you know, I've never

    had, and, and just like threatening. And it sounded like you're going to get fired or, you know,
    it was, it was very unnerving and it sounded horrible. And then we would exchange notes cause we
    would all get these emails and it felt like it was very personal and directed and attacking.
    And then all three of us were getting the same things. And then he'd be cool for like two or
    three weeks and then he'd get weird again. And you know, that was very stressful. That was,
    and then there was a point where he and I, uh, we did one paper together. And when we did that,
    he was insisting that I come in physically to work every single day at like 8 39 AM and spend like
    all day with him and we're in his office and we're just doing this stuff. And he's got me like, I,
    I have a PhD in physics. I'm pretty good at, uh, evolution and genetics and a lot of other stuff.
    I'm not trying to brag here. I'm just saying like, I'm, I'm good at computers.

    I'm good at programming.

    I'm good at a lot of things.

    And he has me doing like Excel bullshit and data analysis

    in Excel for him. Um, and his spreadsheets are sort of very poorly arranged and ill formed.

    So I couldn't just like build stuff. I had to like go through and do a lot of, a lot of kind of like

    fine adjustment of like, Oh, this is where this column is. And this was, it was so annoying.

    It was so fucking annoying.

    And I was spending so much fucking time on that. And it was just like so

    stressful. And then I was just feeling exhausted all the time. And I couldn't, I couldn't think
    about fucking anything other than this shit. And, uh, you know, like once or twice, I made a,
    like a tiny mistake and the spreadsheets. And I spent like the weekend on fucking it and doing
    stuff over and like make, and then this motherfucker, uh, made huge mistakes that sent
    me off on wild goose chases for weeks and weeks and weeks. And then finally, like I have recordings
    of, Oh, I really kind of fucked that up.

    Yeah, you did.

    You fucked that up.

    You, you really screwed that up.

    Um, and it irritates me.

    I'm not like, everybody makes mistakes too.

    Everybody makes fucking mistakes.

    Um, but you know, if you're going to treat me like, and I was like, I'm not

    somebody who is generally, I can take, like if somebody is yelling at me, I, it rubs off me,
    runs off me like water on a duck's back. You know, it doesn't really bother me that much. Um, and in
    fact, I might, I might start laughing at a certain point. Cause it just like, there's something weird.

    If I feel physically threatened, it's different. But if you're just yelling at me and I know it's

    not fair and it's just bullshit, it doesn't, doesn't affect me.

    But somehow some of the stuff that he was saying was getting to me, it was like, um, passive aggressive. And it

    was, it was just like subtle and it got to me. And I was, I had my confidence shaken.
    Like this was last fall, fall 2024. And I felt, you know, I would say I had PTSD like legitimately
    from this guy. And, and then, uh, my mom falls down and breaks her hip and I go out to LA for
    a week to help her out. And he got fucking weird.

    Yeah. And I sent him a thing. I was

    like, you know, I, my mom and I'm sorry, my mom takes precedence over whatever bullshit
    you're doing. Um, you know, I'm going to be there for a week. I, yeah. Or I think I even
    said, I didn't know how long it was going to be. And then I come back and I, uh, I didn't
    even know how the fuck this, this happened, but I, I have, uh, uh, irregular keratoconus.
    So I have, my corneas are a little misshapen, uh, probably from LASIK that I got when I was
    like 21 and you know, they were fine for a long time. And then at a certain point they
    weren't fine anymore and they got weird. And I, I have scleral lenses that, or I had
    scleral lenses that would help that, but the scleral lenses would take a long time.

    Like I would get them updated in, uh, like June and it would take like three months to get

    them dialed in every time, uh, which was fine. You know, it was annoying, but it was fine.
    And I go into the, the guy and I, uh, first like a few months before this, I started noticing,
    um, like little, I don't even know, like little just flares or something. Uh, the, the kind
    of thing that you would get if you had a detached retina, but apparently just had a PVD, uh, posterior
    vitreous detachment and, or at least that was what he said.

    So, you know, basically the vitreous humor in your eye has this gel, this collagen gel in it, and it has some structure

    in it and they can, you know, shrink and detach from like peel off of your retina at a certain
    point. Very common. And so I thought that was what I had. And then I started getting like
    some weird, like occasionally, um, arcs.

    Like I would see just an arc in my vision, an arc of light, um, in my periphery.

    And it was weird that I didn't make that much of a deal of it.

    I didn't think it was that much. I talked to the guy though, one day I was like, you know,
    could you just like check my retina out and see how things are? And then he's like, Oh,
    you have, uh, I can't remember which one is less severe. He thought that I had, um,
    is it a detachment or a tear? Whatever is the least severe of the two. He thought that sent
    me to a retinal specialist. I go in and he's like, Oh, you have the other one. That's very
    serious. We need to do emergency surgery. And by the way, you're going to get a vitrectomy,
    which means they basically like scoop out all of them. Sorry, this is going to be a little graphic.
    Scoop out all the gel of your eye. And, uh, you know, when you do this, you're going to have a
    tamponade. Like if we're going to cryo cauterize the retina back to the, you know, like put it back
    in place, cryo cauterize it. And then you're going to have this tamponade.

    So it's like this

    gas bubble in your eye. And it's going to be there for like two months. And you're going to
    have to be like the first week, um, 50, 55 minutes out of every hour. You have to be face down.
    And which is fucking annoying, by the way, I don't recommend this to anyone if you can avoid it.
    And then after that, after a week or two, it like, you could be upright for a little while,
    but you should still be face down. You should still be supinated, um, for most of the time.
    And you really don't want to be standing up for, for very long while this is going. Cause you want
    to make sure your retina like glues back on essentially. And so I had this and for like two
    months, I'm not able to, to go into work. And the dude got really fucking weird again, like just
    like layers of weird, uh, for the longest time I could, I could work remotely. And then he didn't
    want me to work remotely.

    In fact, he put me, didn't actually call it that, but I know he talked

    to HR and he put me on basically what would be, I think called a performance plan anywhere else.
    And, you know, it was like, he was trying to make a case to fire me, which is weird. Cause ASU
    is in Arizona, which is a, um, what do they call it? A right to work giant air quotes state.
    Um, which means you can, you know, you could be fired at will anytime. And also the way these
    academic appointments work, um, you're, you're on a nine month academic contract, they call it.
    Um, and then every year you have to get renewed. And if you don't get renewed, you're basically
    fired by default, you know? So it, it's, it's a kind of fucked up thing. Like you don't have
    to make a case. You could easily, easily not.

    Um, and again, because of that at will thing

    could have fired me anytime.

    So anyway, I, I get, um, I, I'm in a union or wasn't a union

    there, got an FMLA. They helped me with that. Um, I got, you know, like a month and a half
    off where I didn't have to go into work and got a little tiny bit of money, like two thirds
    of my salary, um, during that time. So it was okay. It was okay. It was not great. Not
    a great situation when you're not making enough money, but he got fucking weird and just kept
    getting weirder and weirder. And then that's over. And in like January, I come back and
    he's like, every single day you have to be within the confines of the CME from 9am or
    between the hours of 9am and 5pm. And he was like, at first it was like, you can't go out
    to lunch.

    You can't do fucking shit.

    If you want to do lunch, you have to make it nine to

    six or eight to five or whatever. And then you got a little bit less like ridiculous about
    it. And then it was like, you know, Oh, you can, okay. You can go on two 15 minute
    walks a day. And it was just so fun. Like, I mean, it was to the point where I asked him
    if I can go to the bathroom. I like, what is your position on this? And I was not exactly
    joking. I was kind of serious about it. I was kind of like, there was a, it was a little
    tongue in cheek, but he's like, well, I'm very liberal with the, um, the bathroom policy.
    You can, as long as it's not unreasonable, you can use the restroom as much as you need
    within reason. I was like, you know, Jesus fuck dude. And it's so fucking like I, my,
    my entire life, I have, I guess I have had a couple of jobs where you do have to go physically
    in, but for the most part, I don't, I've not done that. And I certainly have not had a job
    in the previous, you know, like since 2013, where I even had an office to go into. And certainly
    that one that I had to go into, like even before then as a graduate student, like, you know,
    you could work in the office, but you didn't have to, you had to go in for meetings and stuff,
    but you, you had some flexibility.

    It's one of the reasons I like academia.

    That's one of the reasons that it was kind of appealing to me because you don't have like the structured nine to five

    thing you could do. And the thing is also like the stuff that you do, um, most of what I get paid
    for or did was thinking. And you don't think on a schedule, like you don't, to some extent,
    obviously you can kind of turn it on and off, but for the most part, it was like, um, you know,
    I'm, I'm sitting, walking around and I'm thinking about shit. And then occasionally, you know, and
    that would be, sometimes it would start at 6 PM and I would just get into a group of a groove or get
    into like a flow state and I'd be up until like three working on shit. And then some days you
    don't, you know, you don't get much done and it fluctuates. You can't really, it's hard to control,
    right? It doesn't work on a schedule, but he got really fucking weird about it. And there,
    there was this underlying implicit threat, semi-explicit threat that if I didn't do this,
    I was not going to, like, I was going to get fired. And I'm sitting here like I need, um,
    A, I need to continue the, the treatment for my, uh, detached retina, foreign and detached retina.
    B, after you get a vitrectomy, it basically is guaranteed to cause a cataract, which is,
    seems pretty fucked up to me.

    It seems like there's maybe something that they're doing wrong,

    but that's just what happens. And you have to wait like six months or some amount of time after
    you get the, after you get the surgery before you can get the cataract treated. And I needed my
    fucking health insurance because the United States is a fucking dystopian hellscape and the health
    insurance is hell insurance.

    You know, health insurance is part of your employment. And so I'm

    sitting there and I'm like, fuck, if I, if I get fired, um, am I going to be able to fucking see,
    am I going to have like permanently just a cataract in that eye? Um, am I going to, you know,
    like it was a very stressful period of time. And it was amazing also during that last,
    like from the January until the contract terminated at the end of June, um, it was ridiculously
    uncomfortable and unproductive, like probably the least, the, the single least productive period of
    my life. And also like that nine to five shit.

    Um, I, I lived in Gilbert, Arizona, right? So without traffic, it would be about a half hour to get from there to ASU with traffic. And I would be

    going in for 9am and leaving at 5pm. So I was guaranteed to hit traffic and with traffic it would
    be like 50 minutes to an hour, sometimes more than an hour to travel each way. And so it's like,
    in addition to the nine to five, you have this time in the beginning, time in the end that you're
    eating in, you know, so it's like eight plus two hours, like 10 hours. And then also it just like
    exhausted me. And it was unproductive in the sense that it kept me from actually doing the work that
    I was getting paid to do, which is frustrating as shit.

    Uh, and it was also unproductive in the sense

    that, you know, like I, I independent of work, I have hobbies and other stuff like this that I do.
    And I was not able to do anything. I was, I went from, you know, like getting all my shit done.
    Um, and by the way, I could also do like five to 10 TikTok videos a day. And I could also record,
    uh, tangents episode once a week or whatever. Um, and, and, and I went from that to basically,
    I can't do fucking shit other than work. And even my work is inadequate and is kind of frustratingly
    horrible. So yeah, that was kind of what killed this.

    Um, in addition to also,

    um, Gil, again, the guy that I mentioned before, I don't know if he's going to listen to this one.
    I'm going to try to put it in the same feed.

    Maybe he will catch it. I don't know.

    He used to be a big listener. Um, but that dude, um, called me a, like a nine. He said, you're like a nine 11 truther

    because I was sitting there and I'm watching, um, kids get blown up and burned alive in a tent while
    their mom is screaming. And I'm, I'm, I'm reading like Harats and, uh, times of Israel. And I'm,
    I'm seeing like the shit that Netanyahu is talking about and not just him, the whole, um, Knezit and all.
    So if you look at polling, um, Israel, like they're something like two thirds of their population
    wants, um, ethnic cleansing. They want genocide of the Palestinian people.

    It's, it's a fucked up situation and people like to focus on Netanyahu, but you know, it's like, it's, it's, it's a giant

    chunk, not only with the government, but of the populace, um, that are in, you know, pretty fucking
    bad positions here. And so, and then you look at also like the IDF that's the entire population
    goes to IDF with the exception of a small, small number of conscientious, conscientious objectors
    who go to prison. Um, yeah, it's, it's like, it's a depressing fucked up situation. And I'm sitting
    there like saying shit that, that Netanyahu was saying and echoing stuff like that. And because
    I'm saying that kind of stuff and it was fucking horrible, I'm a 9-11 truther and he got fucking
    weird. And this was like, we used to be, again, I, I considered him to be probably my best friend.

    He might not have considered me to be a best friend. I would guess not, but I certainly thought

    he was, um, for me and you know, like for, for probably like approaching two decades, pretty
    much every day we would talk, you know, occasionally we maybe wouldn't, but you know, most days we'd be
    exchanging text messages, um, no matter where I was in the world, no matter where he was, no matter what
    we're doing.

    Um, and then every time we're in the town together, at least once a week, maybe on the,

    you know, some stuff comes up and then you miss a week or something, but pretty much once a week,
    we'd have lunch together. We'd hang out together. And it was, I, I, I liked it. I liked it a lot.

    I liked him a lot.

    I respected him.

    And then he got fucking weird again. And, uh, I don't know.

    He said, you know, like you're like a 9-11 truther and blah, blah, blah. And then, uh, on the 31st
    of December, I don't even know what year that was, 2023. It's, it's been, it's coming up on 700 days
    since October 7th. Um, but that December or that, that New Year's Eve, he's like, eh, well,
    you just don't talk to me anymore. And, or for, for a while. And we haven't talked since I've sent
    him some messages a couple of times, sent him a couple of emails and he just has not talked to me
    since. And at this point, I don't really want to talk to him.

    I'm not like, if he came back and he's

    like, you know, I'm so sorry. Um, obviously you were right. You're not, you're not a lot. 9-11
    truther. Uh, there's a fucking genocide going on and there's nobody in the world. It kills me
    because there's nobody in the world who doesn't study the Shoah as much, who studies the Shoah a lot
    more than the Israelis.

    There's nobody in the world who has less of an excuse.

    There's nobody in a world

    who like never again should mean never again more to than the Israelis.

    And it's, it's, it's just so fucked up. It's so fucked up.

    It kills me. It kills me. It kills me.

    And you hear these people talking

    about like calling Palestinians vermin, like using the same fucking language.

    The same, it sounds like

    it came out of the fucking Holocaust, the same language, the same everything. And then they talk
    about like, um, literally talking about like final solutions and exterminating people and all this
    fucking shit. And it's horrible. It's fucking horrible. And you know, like the, the official
    death count is upwards of 50 K now. I think the Lancet a long time ago was saying, you know, it was a few
    hundred K and it was probably like that. And now it's gotta be, I would be shocked if it's not like
    600 K plus at this point. And you think about it, the, the, the Palestinian population in Gaza
    in Gaza was something like 2.2 million, I think before October 7th. And even then, of course,
    they've lived under apartheid for a long fucking time. Um, but you know, they've had the mowing the
    lawn for a long fucking time. They've had all this other shit for a long fucking time.

    But you know, the, the population now is probably like, I'm guessing like 1.5, 1.6. And I, you just

    think about how many people have been killed and you have people there literally saying like, Oh,
    every, for every Israeli killed on October 7th, we need to kill 50 Palestinians. And then of course
    you think about it, it's like, well, if that's true and obviously collective punishment and
    disproportionality are illegal under international law, but nevermind that now it doesn't actually
    matter, obviously. But if that's true, you've done it.

    You're, you know, you can celebrate,

    you got 50 K official death count plus, uh, and a thousand people generously on October 7th.
    And it's like, yeah, that's, that's fucking great guys.

    You, you, you've mass murdered so

    many fucking kids. You've, you, you're done.

    You're fucking done.

    And you think, I don't know.

    I just think about like how fucking awful this is. I think also like about how awful this gets
    back to the Democrat thing. And this is going to, I'm going to wrap this up.

    I need to, it's, it's like 745, 1944, 23, 24, um, as I'm recording this, but it's getting late. Um, I need to eat

    something is basically what I'm saying, but the democratic national convention, like first off,
    they forced Harris into the nomination. And, and even before that, it was going to be like,
    they're going to force Biden in there and genocide Joe. Like, and I don't say that lightly,
    uh, before 2020 incidentally, he was already, uh, Jim Crow Joe.

    He was already crime bill Joe.

    He was already the guy that fucked over Anita Hill and gave us Clarence Thomas Joe.

    Uh, he became eugenics Joe with, you know, like Trump, Trump said during the pandemic that, uh, and it's still

    during the pandemic incidentally, but during the pandemic portion of his term, Trump was like,
    well, if we just stop testing, it'll magically go away. Uh, and a couple hundred thousand
    Americans died or USians, I should say. Um, and then Biden came in and he had plenty of time in
    advance and all this stuff. And he ended up killing a million plus, like just straight up killing,
    like did not do fucking shit. They, they did this as an official policy letter rip. And this is a virus
    that if you understood the barest bits about it would know that it's not even something where letter
    rip as a policy would work because you can get reinfected by the same fucking thing over and over
    and over again, because it's, it's a single-stranded RNA virus.

    It evolves extremely fast. And when you

    have unregulated spread of this shit, you're going to have so many different variants out there that
    you're going to get it over and over again. And it's even without it being immunovasive and a bunch
    of other stuff. So it was like, letter rip as a policy makes sense for something. And I'm not saying
    it's ever a good idea, but it makes sense for something.

    If it's like a, uh, slowly evolving

    DNA virus that you can elicit protective immunity against. And so once you've got it, you're not going
    to get it, you're not getting it again. You could let it burn through the population, kill 2% of the
    population, which incidentally killing 2% of the population is not a good thing. You know, you think
    about like, um, an influenza, people would say like, Oh, it's just a, it's just the flu.

    It's just influenza every year kills between 20,000 and like 60,000 USians. Um, that's, that's, that's flu.

    Um, in the kind of steady state now that we're in or semi-steady state, um, COVID is killing

    hundreds of thousands of people every year in the U S alone. And it is also extraordinarily easy
    to prevent, um, with respirators and with improved ventilation, um, improved vaccination rates and all
    this kind of stuff. And you just think about like how much trouble, how much damage Biden has done.
    Biden stopped testing, stopped reporting. It sounds like it can, this sounds like a legitimate
    conspiracy theory, but if you look at like the fucking CDC under him, um, not only did he do the
    testing thing that Trump suggested, but didn't actually do himself. Uh, but he changed. Well,
    um, um, Walansky, I think is her name, the CDC director under him for the one that for the bulk
    of the time. Uh, she changed the coloring on maps because, you know, red maps looked too bad.
    They changed the metrics from what was close to prevalence to, I think they called it community
    levels. And then they, they had, they went through like two or three different metric changes.

    They went through a bunch of coloring changes.

    It's, it's fucking ridiculous. I, I someday I'm

    going to put together a site or something. I should put something up on my website that
    just shows you the stages that they went through and it is beyond Orwellian. And then also like
    going from the prevalence, which is showing like how, uh, prevalent it is actually like in
    circulation to these community levels, things, which were basically like some made up metrics
    that was like, Oh, well, what we're going to do is look at the hospitalization numbers
    and blah, blah, blah, which is going to be a lagging number.

    It means that, you know, like prevalence is based on testing, which tells you today or a few days ago, this is where we

    are. Um, hospitalization takes a couple of weeks.

    So you're getting data. That's like a

    couple of weeks old does not, it's not actionable.

    It's not usable.

    It doesn't really help you that much.

    It does help from a public health standpoint, kind of, although still like with

    that kind of stuff, if you have the prevalence data, you can infer where you're going to need
    to shore up, uh, the hospitals. And of course, this is such a example of capitalism at play
    where like excess capacity is seen as waste under your capitalism. And so hospitals, one of the
    reasons so many people died was that we didn't have excess capacity and we, you know, overwhelmed
    the capacity we did have. And so people who could have otherwise survived didn't, uh, it's
    just, the whole fucking thing is so horrible. And, and still, again, we're having hundreds
    of thousands of people die every year, you know, like easily two, three times the flu, uh,
    two, two, three times a bad flu season just is the norm. Now that's great.

    That's fucking great.

    Uh, anyway, rambling on. I am now, uh, since my job ended, uh, this is going to

    be the wrap up, but yeah, kind of telling you where I am and where I'm going. Uh, my job
    ended at the end of June and I took a month and lived with my mom and sister in LA.

    Um, sold my car, which again has been a fucking bane to my existence for so long.

    It has sucked like it, that was the difference between being comfortable and being able to like cover everything

    and not being able to, you know, like making less money than I, than it took to survive.
    Uh, and I couldn't get rid of it - I was just stuck with it. And even, even if I could have,
    even if it wasn't underwater, I couldn't, I still couldn't fucking get rid of it because
    I had to go into work every day. And in the U S where I was, um, it was like literally
    two and a half hours plus each way. Uh, if I was going to take buses and the train to
    get to and from work and it was already an hour each way with a car. And so, you know,
    if I sold the car, what am I going to fucking do? I'm, you know, it was a horrible, horrible
    situation.

    Um, it was very traumatic, like truly the, the last like year has been extremely,

    yeah, I guess really the last couple of years too. And, and obviously like nothing compared
    to the people on the ground and, and fell a scene, but it's been difficult, you know?
    And, and I've seen so much, I've seen so many people that I liked and respected, um, just
    like talking about joy and voting for continuing the genocide, um, you know, like in voting for
    somebody who, I don't know. I, and again, this gets back to, I have never voted for a Republican
    and don't have any expectations of them not being awful.

    They're openly awful. Um, but the Democrats

    you'd think are better. Right. And, you know, Harris is sitting there and like for two days,

    I was excited. I was ready. Cause it's like, dang fuck, it's not going to be Biden. And then

    she and her husband and her spokespeople and a bunch of people are just continually every couple
    of days saying like, well, she's pledging her undying, unconditional support for Israel,
    no matter what, going to keep giving them weapons, going to keep giving them aid and all this stuff.
    Going to keep the genocide going. I couldn't fucking vote for her. I'm sorry. I couldn't,
    I don't regret it.

    I regret that Trump won, but it is good that she lost. And it's not just that.

    It's like, even if you took that out, I'm very pro-immigration. She was anti-immigrant.

    I am very pro, you know, like doing something about the current situation in the world. Cause

    the environment, our environment is fucked, right? The climate catastrophe is fucked. It is
    killing us. And this is just starting. And she's talking about how, like literally in her debate
    with him, arguing with him over who's the bigger fracker, talking about how she wants to have the
    most lethal fighting force in the world under her, like, you know, between her legs. That's what she
    wants. That's what she needs. Yeah. It's like, you just go on and on and on.

    Um, I'm like, I care

    about trans people. I'm sorry. I'm weird that way. And the Democrats completely abandoned them. Like
    she, in an interview was like, well, would you, um, they asked, you know, like, well, would you
    protect trans people? And she's like, well, I would follow the law. What does that, what does that
    mean? I would follow the law. I'll tell you what that means. The law being like decided at the state
    level means that there are some States which are anti-trans and have anti-trans laws. So you
    following the law means you are anti-trans. Like you're not going to go to bat for them. This is
    one of, one of many reasons why Gavin Newsom is a fucking terrible person. He's super anti-trans,
    ditto Buttigieg, piece of shit. Um, Newsom, you know, now the fucking Democrats,
    um, the brunch libs, the shit libs are out there like, Oh, Newsom's so awesome. Cause he's,
    he's making some kind of like Trump esque tweets and then talking about how we're going to, um,
    gerrymander California. Like gerrymandering is not a good thing. I'm sorry. It's not a good
    thing.

    It is funny that the Democrats are not fighting, you know, like they're literally going

    up against tanks with stones. That's, it tells you how serious they are, but it's not a good
    thing. And Newsom doing that is not really a good thing. And Newsom making like mean tweets
    is not really a big deal.

    It's kind of silly.

    It's not doing anything to Trump.

    It doesn't actually impact anything. And then, you know, like tearing down homeless people's encampments

    and taking, like you could see in the pictures of that, he enjoyed it. He didn't just do it,
    which was fucking horrible. He enjoyed it. He took pleasure in it. Um, fuck this guy. He's a piece
    of shit. He's a fucking piece of shit. And the thing about him is like the people that are just not
    paying attention. They don't care. Um, they're just like eating up his bullshit. It's just, it's really
    been disappointing.

    It's really been disappointing to see people say like, you know, Oh, you should

    just turn off Tik TOK and then you can just let the genocide happen, not even pay attention to it,
    which you can do. You can close your eyes to that. I know it's true. Um, my eyes are, my eyes are open,
    you know, I, my whole life again, like the stuff that I'm seeing now that I have been seeing the last
    couple of years.

    One of the things that I realized is that is not new. Like shit was happening here.

    That was terrible. Um, and here being Vietnam shit from decades and decades and decades, my entire
    life shit was happening someplace in the world where people are getting blown up, burned to death,
    starved to death, all kinds of horrible stuff, largely at the behest of the U S and the U S military.

    And, you know, I'm, I'm sorry. You can close your eyes to that. I'm, I'm fucking not. And it's a shame

    that any of us close our eyes to it.

    It's not acceptable. It's not decent. So anyway, with that,

    um, this is my hello world, um, re inaugural episode, I guess we would call it. Um, I'm going to go get
    something to eat and I will definitely be talking to you again soon.

    I don't know how long it's going to

    take to get this up because I'm building the pipeline to, to put these up and make it a little
    bit easier to do. I'm trying to automate some things. Uh, but I've got like two thirds of it
    done, but you know, who knows how much the extra or the last third is going to take. Um, I, and I
    have a bunch of other stuff I'm trying to work on. Um, I've been traveling around the world a little
    bit, well, not around the world, I guess around Asia, I should say, uh, flew into Japan.

    I started talking about, this is the problem with the tangents. Cause I, you know, go off on a tangent

    and I don't reattach, um, stayed in LA for a bit, went to Japan for a few days, went to South Korea
    for a week or so, uh, went to China.

    I spent, uh, like China. I went to Beijing. I went to Chengdu,

    Chengdu. I'm terrible with the name. I'm sorry. I can feel it's butchered and I can't fix it.
    And then I went to Shenzhen and it fucks me up because there's the Shen Zhen area and you,
    nevermind. Don't worry about it. I went there. Um, and then I came here and, uh, I'm finishing up my
    like 10 days, 14 days here the next couple of days. And I'm going to Thailand and back to Japan.
    And then I'll be there for like a month and then I will be back in the U S and then I will be out of
    money.

    You know, like I, the situation that I'm in, I have tried to get a job for a long time.

    I have not been able to, uh, it's been really kind of difficult and I'm not sure what I'm going to do.
    And I was in a situation where it was like, Oh, I can sit here and still have my car and still have
    my apartment in Arizona and all that. And just be there, like getting ready to run out of money
    for a few months.. or I could travel a little bit for a few months.

    And I decided to do that. And I'm

    trying to, um, I'm trying to get some things sorted out. I'm trying to figure out some stuff.
    I'm really trying to figure out like ways to get into a sustainable position. And, and also like,
    I know a bunch of things about myself that I have, some of them I knew and some of them are
    just things that I guess none of them were like revelations exactly, but definitely like, I know,
    um, having to go physically, if I had a job where I had to go physically into work,
    I'd be fucking miserable.

    Even if it was a job that I otherwise loved. Um, if I had a job,

    like the thing is, I'm somebody who works pretty hard and I like, I like working a lot,
    but I want to do, it's not that I want to do just the stuff that I want to do, but I do want to like
    be self-directed and I want to choose what I'm working on to at least a decent extent and having
    some, some other dude who I don't like or respect telling me what to do is not for me. It's not for
    me. I don't think it's for anybody. I don't think it's good for anybody. Uh, but anyway, working on
    that, trying to figure out something sustainable, trying to figure out like, I, I really like that.

    I cannot tell you how fucking thrilled I am not to be in the U S right now. Like I feel so much

    better. And this is not of the countries that I've been to. This is not my favorite. I like places
    where it's like a walkable city and there's public transit and they don't quite have that here yet.
    And they're walkable cities they have here, but public transit is not yet fully here. The high
    speed rail is not yet fully here.

    There's no Shinkansen or, uh, fast trains, although there will

    be, they're working on it. Uh, the twenties, thirties, I think they'll, they'll have a North South
    high speed rail, which will turn the train hotel that I took that took like 18 hours to go from,
    um, um, I didn't even remember where I went. Um, the name to Hanoi or am I backwards there?
    I don't even, it's so sad. I like, I'm so terrible with names. I don't remember. I don't,
    I don't remember. I'm trying to, I'm trying to think. Yeah. The name to Hanoi. And I'm, I,
    I know that I'm botching those names. I'm sorry. Um, that train took so long. That'll be like a six
    hour, maybe even like a less than six hour travel or trip.

    I took a six hour trip incidentally in

    China from, um, from Beijing to Chengdu. And that was awesome. It was like fucking amazing.
    It irritates me that the U S is nowhere near anything like that. Um, having like high speed,
    every, every city that I've been to other than in this country, um, every city has had like high
    speed rail of some sort. And even if they didn't have the high speed rail, they at least had
    a Metro.

    They have good bus networks. They have, you know, like you can get around without a

    fucking car. And you think about just how much nicer that is. And then also like, I mean, it's
    not just that like the food is cheaper everywhere else that you go in the world. It's better. You
    know, I, I mean, I, the first time I went to Europe and that was a long time ago now,
    like over a decade ago, um, probably a decade and a half. The first time I went, you know,
    you go to like a convenience store and things have gotten worse in the U S they've gotten more
    expensive and shittier, but you go to a convenience store and you get an orange or something.
    And, you know, just like a corner stop, a corner shop place where like, it would be terrible. Like
    you wouldn't even think about getting one and the U S or if you did, it would be just like wood. It
    would be not good. And the fucking orange would be like the best orange, better than something you
    go to a farmer's market in the U S and get. And it was like, what the fuck? What the fuck? I wish
    more people would travel. I wish more people would get that experience. I wish more people would get
    pissed off at how fucked up the shit in the United States is. We are so fucked over. It's not just
    that our country is, um, is really this dystopian hellscape that is causing so much harm in the world.

    It's so bad for us. It's so bad for us.

    Like the experience that you get living there, it's dangerous.

    It's, you know, like miserable. It's isolating. The food is expensive and it tastes like shit.
    And it's all bad for you. It's like, it just like, it's ridiculous. It's fucking ridiculous.
    And we just consider that normal. You have medical bankruptcy is a normal part of life there. Like
    people fundraising to pay for their cancer treatment is normal there. It's, it's so disgusting and wrong.
    And you know, like, I don't know. It's just like, lose my mind thinking about it. And the people there
    think that it's the best country in the world. And we have the best healthcare system in the world and
    bullshit. Bullfucking shit.

    You're, it's a dystopian hellscape there. It is a shithole.

    Um, and the standard of living is shitty.

    The experience that you have in life is shitty.

    You, you work like people work two, three jobs and they can't fucking pay the rent. They can't pay
    to eat. Um, and they can't, they certainly like, if one thing goes wrong, they're completely destroyed
    financially.

    Um, anyway, I don't want to, I will talk about all that kind of stuff more later,

    but just gives you a little taste of some of the stuff that I'll talk about. Hopefully it's
    interesting to you. Um, but this is my, this is my show.

    I hope, uh, I hope you enjoy it.

    I hope that

    you'll follow me, um, through my discussion. And one of the things that, one of the reasons that I'm
    doing this incidentally also is that I got tired of, um, not just TikTok, every fucking social media
    network, every platform, um, you don't have control over what you put out. You don't have
    control over the distribution of it. Uh, you don't have control over like what they take down
    or what people do. Um, and it's, it's, it's just awful. Like, it's just annoying. I don't like the
    TikTok lets people mass report you if they don't like what you're talking about and then suppress the
    shit out of your views. It's terrible. Um, I don't expect a lot of people to listen to this,
    but at least it'll be on my site. And if you want to listen to it, it's not going to get suppressed.
    It's not going to get, you know, um, but anyway, this is, and not that I'm saying things that are
    like that controversial or that, you know, like, Ooh, scary Scott.

    You know, it's, it's just ridiculous.

    It's fucking ridiculous that this is a thing that I have to face. Like, I just want to fucking talk,
    uh, about random shit. That's pretty much all this is going to be. It'd be nice to just be able to do
    it and not have somebody like just quietly without any, any due process or any transparency at all,
    uh, get in the way. I don't want that. I'm tired of it and I'm done with it. So I hope you like this.
    I hope I continue making them. I hope, um, yeah, I hope it's interesting.

    Thank you very much. And, uh, as always, 再见.

    Thank you.

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