Sober Disclosure

Parker has just over a year sober—and this is his first time trying recovery. His story is unique from the start: he didn’t even have his first drink until he was 22, and by 27 he was already at the end of the line. In just five years, alcohol had taken everything from him—including the one thing he had always clung to: his body.

Growing up, Parker was bullied, and body dysmorphia took hold early. When he found bodybuilding, it became both his escape and his identity. Even when he was drinking, he refused to touch beer—not because he didn’t want to drink, but because he was terrified of getting fat. Eventually, though, alcohol stripped away his routines, his fitness, and his sense of self.

When he got sober, Parker knew he needed structure to survive. He went back to the basics: waking up early, cooking all his meals, moving his body. Fitness became his anchor, and now it’s how he helps others in recovery—guiding them toward health, consistency, and purpose.

His journey hasn’t been perfect. He talks about his time in treatment, a chaotic sober living packed with twenty people (and even finding someone dead there), and the reality of not working a 12-step program. He even got kicked out of sober living for smoking weed. But through it all, he found his path and his purpose—helping others get sober and rebuild their lives through fitness.

Today, Parker shows that recovery doesn’t have to look one way. His story is about honesty, discipline, and the freedom that comes from finding what truly works for you.

🎧 Listen in for a conversation that’s raw, powerful, and proof that recovery can be built one routine, one workout, and one day at a time.

Eli has two and a half years sober, but his journey here wasn’t straightforward. We first met him at the second Camp Sober Fest back in Big Bear, when he decided to show up on his birthday without knowing a single person. To get outside of himself, he volunteered as the videographer—giving him a purpose and a way to connect.

Before that, Eli had tried to get sober a few times, but never in residential treatment. He went to outpatient programs mostly to please his family, stayed sober for a while, and always relapsed—harder each time. His final drunk was the breaking point: hysterically crying, naked in the shower, talking to himself until both his parents walked in. Within an hour, they got him into treatment. Day one, he hit a low he’ll never forget—shitting his pants—and ever since, he’s donated clothes to that same program.

At first, Eli planned to stay 30 days. But as that milestone crept up, he just kept listening to people with more time than him—and chose to stick it out. From treatment he went into sober living, and then into a new way of life. His path hasn’t looked traditional: instead of going through the book, he worked the steps with a workbook; instead of leaning on meetings, he found his people at Camp Sober Fest. What matters most is that he finally accepted what it means to be an alcoholic when someone explained it simply—he could get addicted to anything. Looking back, he saw that pattern had been there his whole life.

Today, Eli runs his own business, stays connected to his sober family, and has aspirations and goals he chases because of sobriety. His story proves there’s no one right way to do this—as long as you keep showing up, keep saying yes, and keep building a life worth staying sober for.

🎧 Listen in for a conversation that’s raw, funny, and a reminder that recovery doesn’t have to look perfect—it just has to work.

Randall has just over four years sober—but it took a long road, eight or nine treatment centers, and countless false starts to get here. For years, he would make it close to a year sober, talking the talk but never really walking the walk, only to relapse and leave wreckage behind. This time, things are different.

Today, Randall isn’t loud about his sobriety. In fact, he’s quiet—because it’s no longer about words, it’s about actions. He says sobriety has become sacred, something people can see in his life rather than something he needs to shout about. And the biggest difference? Service. For the first time, he’s sponsoring other men, walking them through the twelve steps, and finding purpose in being the “cool dad” who leads with love instead of shame or guilt.

Randall opens up about mourning the chaos of his addiction, about the deep ties between meth and sex in gay culture, and how even in sobriety the pull of old behaviors can resurface in unexpected ways. He shares the raw story of a moment at one year sober when he found himself doing something he swore he’d never do again—because recovery isn’t about perfection, it’s about continuing to grow.

What changed everything was finding a sponsor he could truly trust—someone who had used the way he had, even sat in jail with him, but who also had a life worth chasing on the other side. That trust gave Randall the willingness to follow suggestions, and in turn, to give his sponsor “grandkids.” Today, he calls his sponsees the greatest gift of his life.

🎧 Listen in for a conversation that’s honest, gritty, and full of hard-earned wisdom about what it really takes to go from talking about recovery to living it.

Jordan has just over 4 years sober—and she got sober at 21. But her journey with recovery started long before she walked into her first meeting. Growing up with two parents in recovery, she saw firsthand both the beauty and the heartbreak this life can bring. When one parent stayed sober and the other relapsed, her family changed forever. Her parents divorced, and her relationship with her mom faded away.

Her dad, with over 30 years sober, had a roadmap for her recovery long before she even knew she needed it. By the time she made the decision to get sober, every room she entered seemed to already know her story—and people were ready to help her succeed.

But Jordan wasn’t interested in the chaotic young people’s meetings. She craved depth and weight in the messages she heard, because anything less and she knew she’d just go back out. Her recovery became a place where she truly grew up—learning not just how to stay sober, but how to live.

Today, Jordan works in the treatment industry, is in a healthy relationship, and embodies the truth that sobriety is a gift worth protecting. Her story is a testament to the fact that you can be young and still take this seriously—and that sometimes, the program really does raise you.

🎧 Listen in for a conversation that’s heartfelt, wise beyond its years, and a reminder that no matter where you start, recovery can give you everything you need to build a beautiful life.

This episode is unhinged in the best way. Jimmy and Breezy were OUT OF CONTROL, and Richie—well, Richie kept up like the seasoned vet he is. With 24 years sober, Richie brings us a rollercoaster of a story that starts with eviction on day three and somehow lands in grace, humility, and Pop-Tarts.

Richie got sober at 21, after years of burning every bridge—including the one with his mom, who finally said, “I hope you fall hard enough to bounce back.” And fall he did… onto a cat-hair-covered cot in someone’s hallway. What came next sounds like a movie: a chance encounter with a celebrity who showed him trust when he’d never trusted himself, a Pop-Tart that became a symbol of hope, and the slow, painful process of becoming a person who could show up.

From baking cakes for meetings with his mom (because he couldn’t afford one) to navigating heartbreak and trauma, Richie shares what it looked like to build a new life from nothing. He opens up about the relationship that changed him—and the devastating loss that nearly broke him. He talks about being a feral animal who learned how to clock in, clean toilets, and show up when it mattered. Working at Starbucks became spiritual—because for the first time, people countedon him.

Now, 24 years later, Richie reflects on getting back to basics, checking in with his trusted crew, and trying to live by one of his favorite quotes:

He’s still learning, still laughing, and still letting himself be human.
“I’m always me—but I’m not always one way. And I like the flow of that.”

🎧 Buckle up for a wild, hilarious, and deeply moving conversation with someone who’s done the work—and lived to tell the tale.

This week, we sit down with Alexandra—Breezy’s best friend and a beacon of grace, grit, and radical honesty. With eight and a half years of sobriety, Alexandra brings us a story that’s both deeply personal and universally relatable to anyone who’s ever tried to rebuild their life from the inside out.

Originally from New Jersey, Alexandra made the spontaneous decision to move to California during the dead of winter—because, as she puts it, “smoking a cigarette outside just sounded... nice.” But what followed was far more than just a change in weather. In her early days of recovery, she found herself bargaining with life, telling herself she could always opt out if sobriety didn’t work. But then came the shift—one sunny afternoon, Breezy and her crew showed up to move her into a new sober living, and everything began to change.

Alexandra opens up about the raw, real experience of navigating those first 30, 60, 90 days, the challenges of living with other women in recovery, and the messy beauty of building community from scratch. She talks about becoming a house manager, trying on new identities (including dating women for the first time), and making questionable decisions—like dating newcomers she met at panels—all while slowly healing and learning.

In a heartbreaking and powerful moment, Alexandra shares the story of a missed amends—how a close friend passed away from an overdose before she could make things right, and how she now carries the weight and gift of a living amends. It’s a reminder that this disease is cunning, baffling, powerful—and deadly. But it’s also a story of hope, connection, and the deep transformation that comes from showing up, even when it’s hard.

🎧 Listen in for a conversation that’s unfiltered, unforgettable, and full of hard-earned wisdom from someone who’s lived it all—and kept going.

In this powerful and refreshingly honest episode, we sit down with Larissa—aka Larz—the certified cool girl of AA. She’s smart, hilarious, effortlessly stylish, and radiates the kind of authenticity you can’t fake. On February 5th, Larz celebrated one full year of sobriety—and today, she’s sharing the real story behind that milestone.

Larz opens up about getting sober young and clocking two years of sobriety the first time around. But as she candidly admits, willingness only goes so far if you’re not ready to give up the life you’re still holding onto. She unpacks what made this time different—and what finally pushed her to let go for real.

From blacked-out wax appointments and champagne-fueled shifts at Bronze Bunny to crashing at grandma’s house (who, it turns out, partied just like her), Larz tells it all with the perfect mix of grit, humor, and grace. Her relapse lasted five years—but the seeds of recovery were always there. Eventually, it took one phone call from an old sponsor and a familiar meeting room to bring her back to herself.

Larz talks about hitting her emotional bottom, trying to hang on to weed, and finally realizing she was just dealing with untreated alcoholism. Her first year back in sobriety has been filled with quiet miracles—moments of reconnection, self-love, and discovering the woman she was always meant to be.

This episode is about the difference between wanting sobriety and being truly willing to do the work. It’s about coming home to yourself—messy past and all—and embracing the freedom on the other side.

🎧 Listen now for a conversation full of laughter, truth, and the kind of transformation that only comes from real surrender.

We kick off this milestone 30th episode with the ultimate icebreaker—Markus taking his tooth out on mic—and what follows is just as raw, honest, and unforgettable.

With 16 months of sobriety, Markus opens up about what finally made this third try at recovery different. After two previous stints in treatment and a pattern of fleeing—either back home or off to chase a relationship—he decided this time would be all in. No more half-measures. Just a simple commitment: say yes to everything that could help him heal.

Markus shares candidly about his diagnoses of anxiety and bipolar depression, and how his mental health struggles both fueled his addiction and complicated recovery. But instead of running this time, he stayed. He didn’t date. He didn’t chase an escape. He turned inward and started doing the hard work—on his identity, his self-worth, and his emotional health.

This episode dives deep into what it really takes to rebuild from the inside out. We talk about what self-esteem looks like in early sobriety, how loneliness can sneak in even when you're doing the right things, and what it means to actually want to live differently.

In a beautiful twist, Markus flips the script mid-conversation and starts interviewing Breezy, asking her if she truly loves herself. What unfolds is a vulnerable exchange about grief, feeling dead inside, and the emotional complexity of connection—including Markus and Breezy’s brief but meaningful romance during his first year sober, and how that connection helped shape his healing.

This episode is about mental health, honest recovery, and learning to stay—not just sober, but present.

🎧 Listen now for a story about radical honesty, emotional growth, and the messy, beautiful work of becoming whole.

In Episode 29 of Sober Disclosure, Breezy and Jimmy sit down with Satch, a man whose road to recovery was anything but straight—but who now celebrates ten solid years sober. With unflinching honesty and deep insight, Satch shares the story behind his transformation from a chronic relapser to a pillar of recovery and resilience.

Before sobriety stuck, Satch cycled through 27 treatment centers, never staying sober for more than three months. Despite a privileged upbringing—adopted by his aunt and raised with love, comfort, and opportunity—Satch’s addiction didn’t discriminate. He thrived in structured environments, even leading groups in treatment, but as he puts it: “The person who made it hard for me, was me.” What finally changed? He had to hit his own bottom.

Satch walks us through that pivotal moment: a suicide attempt, waking up alive, and realizing his mom had already sent his insurance card—ready to help. He talks candidly about the heartbreak of losing a friend in treatment—someone who relapsed once and didn’t survive—and how that tragedy led him to Treehouse, the program that finally gave him what he truly needed: accountability, structure, and zero hand-holding.

From making his bed to learning how to belong, Treehouse taught Satch the fundamentals of being a human again. And the sober living community and alumni program gave him the connection he’d always craved. For the first time, he wasn’t just surviving—he was part of something bigger.

This episode doesn’t shy away from the hard stuff. Satch bravely opens up about the hidden struggles of early recovery, including how he engaged in sex work during his first year sober—and how that shaped his sense of worth, intimacy, and identity, even a decade later. His sponsor’s guidance helped him escape that life, and the healing continues to unfold.

This is an episode about more than addiction—it’s about acceptance, courage, and choosing to stay. Satch’s story is a powerful reminder that no number of failed attempts makes you a failure, and that healing happens when we finally stop running—from others, from truth, and from ourselves.

Because sometimes, the 28th try is the one that changes everything.

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In Episode 28 of Sober Disclosure, Breezy and Jimmy welcome a high-energy guest with an even higher recovery IQ—Pierre, Jimmy’s personal fitness coach and a powerhouse of resilience, humor, and transformation. With four and a half years sober, Pierre brings a global perspective, raw honesty, and an infectious laugh to the mic.

Pierre’s journey starts in Paris, where he got sober for the first time at just 19 years old. He stayed clean for three years—but a two-year relapse followed, one that brought him face-to-face with the questions so many wrestle with: Was I really an alcoholic? Was it something deeper? Through mental health struggles, medication, and moments of deep doubt, Pierre eventually found his way back to recovery—and this time, it stuck.

This episode is equal parts hilarious and heartfelt. From seances in treatment to a mysterious fire (yes, really), Pierre’s stories are as wild as they are revealing. He opens up about choosing not to date in his first year sober—a decision that surfaced addictive behaviors in other areas, especially around money. With a knack for sales and a hunger for escape, he dove headfirst into a lifestyle of travel, snowboarding, and unchecked spending. But no amount of external adventure could quiet the internal noise.

Together, the three talk candidly about what it’s like being young, sober, and male—navigating friendships, emotional isolation, and the struggle to find authentic connection. Pierre shares his experience of “sponsor hopping,” looking for someone to co-sign the easy way out, before finally leaning into the kind of accountability that changes everything.

Through it all, Pierre never loses his sense of humor—and that’s exactly what makes this episode so special. It’s a reminder that sobriety isn’t just about surviving. It’s about thriving, laughing, and building a life you actually want to live.

From relapse to radical honesty. From burnout to balance. From hopelessness to handstands in the gym.

New mantra: You don’t have to give up fun to get sober—you just have to give up the stuff that was killing you.

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