Even when it's been a long, long time since I wanted a drink, I still need to be diligent about attending meetings. For my sake, and to be of service to others. It doesn't matter whether I want to go or not, and some meeting is better than no meeting. Living Sober pages 79-80

We say our secrets keep us sick, and that's why Step 5 is such a vital part of our recovery. We have to let go of shame to stay sober, and the only way to do that is to talk about it. 12x12 page 55.

The idea that the universe is aimless and meaningless has never really resonated with me, and I do like how Bill W. points out that whatever you believe - there are vast laws underlying all things. And it's cool that I get to pick what I believe about those things. Big Book page 10.

We can't 12-step our way out of feeling s***ty. It's a fact. And we're gonna fall short of ideals. But we don't have to get drunk. And if you're feeling all the feelings right now, you're not alone. Big Book page 70.

In 1958, Bill W. wrote a letter that was published in the Grapevine about Emotional Sobriety! (Capital letters 'cause it's a pretty big deal). In this episode I read the first four paragraphs and talk about the attempt "to translate a right mental conviction into a right mental result." (Spoiler, it's hella difficult).

The books tells us that our Higher Power wants us to be happy, joyous, and free (it's not just something people say in meetings). Apparently, in order to do that, we have to avoid manufacturing our own misery - which, for me, means looking for the joy. Big Book pages 132-133.

The spiritual experiences that have revolutionized my attitude and outlook on life are facts today. As is the influence and care of a power greater than myself. If I look for the evidence, it stops being speculation and becomes a fact of my life. Big Book page 25.

None of us quite drinking because things were going well. But most of us spent a long time thinking that our drinking behaviors were "normal" or "harmless." And things had to get pretty bad (whatever that looked like for each of us) in order for us to address it. Living Sober page 48.

Sanity doesn't return overnight. But I'm an alcoholic, and I want instant gratification! So, it's helpful to pause and look back at growth and trust that my Higher Power is taking care of me -- on my HP's timeline. Reading from Step by Step, page 18, Step 2.

Right now especially, I'm finding it really helpful to come back to the realization that I'm just one among many of folks who are having a real hard time. And that doesn't diminish my struggle, but it does put things into perspective. 12x12 page 53, Step 4.