I have grown roots by being deeply in the present moment and have let the ideas percolate.

But now it's time to pull the trigger.

I was living a life of spirituality.

But then I started to get depressed because I wanted to have some fun.

So last night and today I went out and tried talking to some girls.

I got rejected a lot and it's made me start hating women again.

I used to want to be a billionaire.

My mind would come up with ideas and plans to make it happen almost on auto-pilot.

But I would be unable to stay focused on any plan for longer than a few weeks so I never got anywhere.

In fact, I was broke.

This happened 100s of times until I got sick of it and decided I had had enough and wanted to throw all of my dreams of making a billion dollars away and just live a spiritual existence.

To live in the present moment.

This "stuck" and slowly slowly I started to see movement in my life.

Is a purely spiritual existence the answer?

Or a purely hedonic one?

Or a "middle path" between the two?

Ever since taking my meditation to the next level I feel like I have become uncool.

Today I found myself feeling as though I was being mentored by a yoga master.

It made me want to look for a meditation master as well and this is what happened...

In order to achieve my dream of opening a meditation retreat in the countryside outside of Melbourne and starting a family, I will need to engage more with the world.

Maybe trying to be fully enlightened is something best pursued later in life.

I want to build a meditation retreat in the Yarra Valley east of Melbourne.

Sorry I used the wrong microphone so it sounds terrible.

I'm starting to feel super relaxed. It's like my mind is getting quieter and moving more into the background.

Is compassion a magic bullet? Not quite.

It's one of the most life enhancing qualities you can layer into your consciousness. But sometimes it is unappreciated.

Sometimes your compassion is rejected in one form or another which can be hurtful and make you less likely to continue the practice.

Compassion is a principle to aspire to when you can and it might not always be easy.