You’re doing fine then somebody does something or a situation happens that triggers something in your feelings or in your gut. Sometimes we have no description of what it is, it just feels negative. Then the tendency is rather than staying with that we want to put the blame onto something else.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2stxn93S8qA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ofpAdZ-i4c

Of the five skandhas, the third is sometimes called “perception-impulse”. It could also be described as “receiving-producing”. It is a conceptual dynamic to help us understand who this is and what the fundamental situation is instead of the ongoing propaganda about ourselves.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j7hOvN__fV0

Before you ask why, you may need to first go first directly to the identity. Who is having this emotion? Or you may need to first ask “what is this?” and don’t settle for the first thing that comes up. The very thing you are trying to avoid, whatever is being ignored that keeps the self-centeredness going, will start to show up. Sit down and be kind to everything by setting all of your senses on just receive. Be extremely generous by giving your attention to whatever arises.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bXTI_NkEpg4

Why? Because. What? What is this, fundamentally? Who? Find out!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGvg6W5rgxU

This is not a performance. Have a willingness to not know what you are going to do. If you come in without a clue of who you are and what you’re doing, this can be terrifying to ego!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQrGAAGeG3M

Sokuzan teaches and responds to questions about "upadana", the Sanskrit word sometimes translated as "clinging" or "grasping" or "fixation".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3R8-qUOdraU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFsHXQ6CiKE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLLkOOy5W1w

The fatigue part comes from using a form in such a way where we get caught between what we think the form is and how we should relate to the form. Some of our neurosis comes up and keeps us from seeing how to relate directly to the form. Relating to those forms means you’re also relating to your own body-mind complex as clearly as you can.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vr2MJ0aANTM