Something Twenty by Esha Khan

Long time no episode… I didn’t plan to disappear; it just kind of happened. In this episode, I’m just catching up, talking about life lately, and sharing some things I’ve been feeling and learning without even noticing.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about how much we consume mentally, not just physically. All the scrolling, the noise, the opinions, and the constant input. It’s a lot. No wonder our minds feel tired. I’m trying to be more intentional with what I let in, even if it’s just putting the phone down a little more often.

A quiet life update on slowing down, trusting Allah, and taking small steps forward again. Reflections on growth, pauses, and beginning with intention.

Note: volume goes a bit lower after 23:00 - My mic disconnected, unfortunately

What if we’re not living in reality, but in a deception within a deception?

In this episode, I dive deep into the disturbing intersection of artificial intelligence, climate collapse, and spiritual disconnection. We explore how AI is not “in the cloud” but grounded in real-world destruction.

I unpack the theory that society is willingly building The Matrix in real time and how Islam has already warned us that this world is a test, a delusion, and a distraction.

I don't read because I am bored. I read to understand people, choices, pain, love, and everything in between.

In this episode of Something 20, I dive into three unforgettable books that left a mark on me:
The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, which is a story of power, sacrifice, and identity behind the face of Hollywood
Verity is a haunting thriller that made me question everything about truth, love, and manipulation

Lastly, there's We Were Liars, which is a beautifully broken tale of grief, memory, and the lies we tell ourselves to survive

Each of these books carries lessons beyond fiction. Join me as I reflect on what each author taught me about being in your twenties when you are figuring out who you are, what matters, and what to leave behind.

In a world where our lives are constantly curated for the feed, this episode dives deep into the question: Why do we feel the need to post everything?

From dopamine hits and digital validation to the deeper spiritual questions we often ignore. We explore the science behind our posting habits and the Islamic reflections that challenge us to rethink our intentions.

If you've ever felt like you're living your life more online than offline, this one’s for you.

This is a brand new season....

In this episode, I play the card game Let’s Get Deep, answering lighthearted, funny, and surprisingly deep questions that take unexpected turns. But it’s not just all games and laughter. I also take time to speak about something important: the ongoing genocide in Gaza.

This episode is a mix of personal reflection, raw honesty, and a reminder that while we can enjoy moments of connection and joy, we are also responsible for using our voices for justice.

Tune in for both the heart and the heat. 🎧

We have reached the end of season 2... what the helly.

So happy to announce season 3: new logo, new look, and new topics brewing right now.

We will have a lot of guests coming this season....

Stay tuned for more stuff.

In today’s episode, I want to start by holding space for all the Muslims around the world facing pain, hardship, and injustice, especially our brothers and sisters in Palestine, Sudan, Congo, Pakistan, and beyond. It’s hard to carry on with life while their struggles often go unnoticed, but we remember them and pray for their strength and justice.

Then, we dive into a deeply personal topic: feeling like you’re not a priority in the lives of people you care about. It’s not always about big fights or drama; sometimes it’s the little things, the silence, the one-sided effort, and the slow drift apart that hurt the most. I share my own experiences and thoughts on why some friendships fade, how to recognise when it’s time to let go, and why it’s okay to choose peace over chasing people who don’t value you.

We also explore the beauty of friendships that withstand distance and time, the importance of genuine effort, and how true connection feels like home. Finally, I reflect on the spiritual side of friendship from an Islamic perspective—how the people we surround ourselves with shape who we are and how, sometimes, letting go is a form of mercy and protection for our hearts.

If you’ve ever felt left out, unseen, or like you care more than they do, this episode is for you.

Let’s talk about it with honesty, kindness, and hope.

This episode is close to the heart. I’m sharing real stories from the Partition — stories of heartbreak, sacrifice, and moments of unexpected kindness. But this isn’t just about the past — it’s about what that history means for us today.

We talk about why learning history matters, why saying “it’s not my problem” isn’t good enough, and how events like the Partition still echo in places like Kashmir and Palestine. I also share emotional true stories, a reminder of the strength in our ummah, and what we can do as Muslims living in the West.

This episode ends with a reminder: our faith, our compassion, and our willingness to care — that’s how we keep their stories alive.