Some seasons of life don't just knock you down. They pull you under — and you can't even see the surface from where you are.
In this solo episode, Nikki gets deeply vulnerable about one of the hardest chapters of her life. Postnatal depression. The fog that descended after early motherhood, the mindset she was trapped in for years, and what it actually took to find her way through it.
Nikki shares honestly about her experience recovering in hospital, and how the skills she learned there didn't just help her then — they still show up in her life today. She talks about the coping mechanisms she leaned on during the darkest years — overworking, alcohol, escaping into fantasy — and the long, slow process of surrendering control and rebuilding a sense of self through one of the biggest identity shifts a woman can experience.
This is not a polished, packaged recovery story. It's real, it's raw, and it's told with the kind of courage that only comes from having truly walked through the fire.
Nikki wants you to know — if any of this darkness resonates with you — that help is available, it works, and you are not alone. Everything she has learned over the last twelve years has brought her to a place of strength where she can sit with her story, speak it out loud, and light the way for someone else still in the fog.
If you're struggling, please reach out. Lifeline: 13 11 14