I let go of him from my insides, this Union 

this Eternal Flame from forevermore 

I let go of him from this Union in the shadows, 

hidden and secret

Heart of my Heart, Holy of Holies 

we go down and in, within the halo, within the Light Body 

even when being spread upon the cross 

we go down and in, loving, stroking, soothing, pressing

it is the biological, lunar, planetary and galactic rhythms

that nourish and move me

though I let go of my fight with mechanical time 

moist, dark, receptive powers of dakini and woman 

in repose with the Sun disk of her mate and beloved

the three gunas are responsible for the creation of illusion 

it is the goal of the Dakini or Tantrika 

to settle the three gunas into a state of quiescence 

all creating an action, sustaining an action

and destroying an action ceases

crack in my heart, complete shatter 

I am offering, offering the grief, the substances 

my body, my Prayer and Song, I am a puddle 

I have passed through the Crack in the Universe 

I Am the Crack in the Universe, the Door of Illumination

glare of the sunny Saturday is softened 

by the golden wings of my Hawk Husband 

by the deep blue Stargate of Orion that is above even the Sun 

by the kindness of the Sky Grandmothers 

and the welcome of my Medicine families 

of the open plains and rolling hills of the bright daylight

there is a bird

she scurries along besides me through the underbrush 

as I walk along the dirt path

I stop to speak of my Love for her 

I offer my Blessing and receive hers

keep dropping in, and emptying out until there is nothing left 

but the intimacy of the joining with the One

empty shell

the suffering structures have a right to exist 

it is not mine to try to fix them, it is mine to not suffer with them 

it is mine to be the Fusion of Sun and Moon 

and walk with Peace and Courage down the street

almost insatiable desire to ravage you

receiving the impact of this

I soften the animal of my womanly body

the knowing of his lusting after me, that is not his Prayer

I bow at the altar of what is True