Raised by a father who died from obesity at the age of 69yrs young weighing 400lbs and a mother who is a lifetime member of Weight Watchers, I had no sense of “normalcy” around food.
At the age of 42 I’ve spent over half my lifetime now on the cycle of dieting. I have done every diet, workout program, cleanse, and miracle pill. I have destroyed my body on this journey, and it had to stop.
This fall, a few things happened that made me hit the brakes and realize I had to get off this cycle, like NOW.
Problem…I had no idea where or how to start. I literally did not know how much a 42 yr old active female was supposed to eat. I also, had no idea how to stop the constant narrative in my head.
Solution…I scheduled a call with @rachelpastor and for the first time in my life shared with someone the hell I was living and I needed help.
I was so sick of my own shit, the pain of not doing this work was more painful than the pain of the dark side of this work. I know facing my thoughts was going to be hard, but so worth it. I had to get so honest with myself and with Rachel, if I wanted to forever change.
So, 90 days later, my outside looks the same, minus 5lbs and puffy inflammation, but my inside is forever changed. Eating without fear, shame. There is no more restriction. No more “treating” myself with food. Food is eaten to nourish my body and give me the energy I need to live in my purpose every day. I have massive dreams and need all the energy and brain power I can get to live this life!
So next time you see someone who appears fit, healthy, and think it must be nice, STOP, you have no idea the mental prison they may be living in. They may be in the same mental prison as my Dad who was obese. The struggle can come in different shapes and sizes.
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