Reflective mode. Realising what makes me happy and letting thr universe know what I want in my life.

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Note to self - I decide what is good enough. I want to work thru my anxious attachment and build a more authentic Stace.

Feeling very confused about spirituality and faith. What is my Purpose? Who am I? What do I stand for?

Did something silly and caused contrast in me. Sent my emotions to waiver again. I need to believe that it will be OK.

#denialgamestrong - discovered how good my denial competency is. Picked up that skill thru my dad and his coping mechanism. It's not true for me so I'll have to cut that out. I also am beginning this #selfdiscovery journey of what my purpose in life can be. Could it be motherhood, lifelong education or volunteering? It's time to research and make choices.

I will let go of the responsibility of my emotions off everyone. I have to remember that my parents brought me up with the mindset that I have to look after them. They bestowed the idea of being responsible and its led to a very unhappy serving life.

Was feeling joy at the accepting the idea of freeing the ex from responsibility of my emotions. I feel like I can let go and free myself.

Seeking for clarity after meeting. him. It was nice to chat. What's in my vortex unfortunately is that we can somehow work things out. But he's not ready and still going thru his own journey. I need to release.

At the park, trying to reflect on the trip and recognise that I don't want to say - I'm in pain anymore. I want to free myself from that emotion.

Podcasting from Hawaii!

Doesn't feel good to be on holiday without the ex. It's a real struggle.

Signed the papers and feeling heartbroken all over again. Planned a selfcare trip to Hawaii and waiting to board the plane.