Steph Something

Steph Something, Massimo De Agostini and Robbin Lace

Lying to Yourself

Once again honesty has broken everything

But it’s a cruel, cruel thing to keep

Someone assuming

But you are uncomfortable with the truth

And it makes no goddamn sense to me

Oh, you just keep

Lying to yourself

Lying to me

Pretending you’re okay

Pretending that you’re happy

Lying to yourself

Lying to me

Pretending you’re okay

Pretending that you’re happy

(Making me look like the fool for telling you the truth)

You let me get close

Lured me with somedays and I believes

But never close enough to let me be

Completely me and it

Makes not goddamn sense to me

Oh, then why so much melancholy, baby

Oh, you keep

Lying to yourself

Lying to me

Pretending you’re okay

Pretending that you’re happy

Lying to yourself

Lying to me

Pretending you’re okay

Pretending that you’re happy

© Stephanie Gilliard

Steph Something & Matt Kaprelian

I meant

Every word of what I said, I will

Not stay and keep

Bleeding slowly, and let

You dismiss my truth as

Merely some daydream, because

You're too afraid to face yourself

And me

I lay bare my heart

Giving you the power to destroy

Because I trusted you to tell me the truth

It was a risk I had to take on you

So it seems

You have a decision to make

I will not be here much longer

So, if you have something you want to say

It's now or never, because

I cannot keep myself locked away

Waiting around for you

To finally take a leap of faith

I lay bare my heart

Giving you the power to destroy

Because I trusted you to tell me the truth

It was a risk I had to take on you

© Stephanie Gilliard

Steph Something - Composition, Lyrics, Melody, Vocals, Guitars

Marc H - Drums

Craig Blackmore - Bass

Wawa & Steph Something

Steph Something, Alex Bevacqua, Jochen Fleischmann

You had the perfect out

But you didn't run

You stuck around

But for what

To listen to me

Cry and scream

To watch me go

Completely crazy

Why didn't you run

Why didn't you run

If you don't want to show your face

Why in the hell did you stay

You get me high

To shoot me down

You get me high

To shoot me down

Take my hand to throw

Me to the ground

You get me high

To shoot me down

Are you having fun

Are you having fun

Let me feel around

Until I get my nail stuck in your yarn

Are you having fun

Why didn't you run

Are you having fun

Why didn't you run

Are you having fun

Why didn't you run

Are you having fun

Why didn't you run

© Stephanie Gilliard

Wawa (Jochen Fleischmann) & Steph Something

One Of My Kind

I’ve got a feeling I can’t seem to shake

After a life of bad luck it seems that things are finally gonna be okay

I begged the heavens, please send somebody down here for me

And out of nowhere you appeared, well, could it be

I don’t know if it’s divine

I just know that you’re one of my kind

Shuffling through years of melancholic years in a strange world

Taking it step by step but feeling like an alien in a place I used to call home

Having no connection feels like having no skin

All alone, uncomfortable, with nowhere to fit in

I don’t know if it’s divine

I just know that you’re one of my kind

You’re one of my kind

You’re one of my kind

You’re one of my kind

Steph Something - Composition, Melody, Lyrics, Vocals, Guitar

Mitch Brody - Production

Alex Bevacqua - Drums

Pierre Corriveau - Bass

Thomas Hines - Lead Guitar

The End

I can't make sense of it anymore

The world is not the same

People lost their humanity

The ocean's always angry

The sun leans in

Shadows move without bodies

Whispers fall heavier than screams

No sound remains

Only the hum of an ending

A silence so sharp

It cuts through thought

I open my eyes

But there is no I

Only the echo of something that used to be

And the echo whispers

This was always how it was gonna be

The sky slips its skin

Revealing veins of static

And colors that shouldn't exist

Mountains melt into rivers that flow upwards

Cities fold like paper

Swallowed by the void

Language collapses

Words unravel

Mid sentence

No sound remains

Only the hum of an ending

A silence so sharp

It cuts through thought

I open my eyes

But there is no I

Only the echo of something that used to be

And the echo whispers

This was always how it was gonna be

I reach for my hand

But it isn't mine anymore

Fingers stretch like shadows

Graspin' at nothing

Graspin' at everything

And still the sun leans closer

And closer until the world screams in light

And then there is

No world at all

No sound remains

Only the hum of an ending

A silence so sharp

It cuts right through thought

I open my eyes

But there is no I

Only the echo of something that used to be

And the echo whispers

This was always how it was gonna be

© Stephanie Gilliard

Steph Something - Composition, Lyrics, Melody, Vocals, Guitar

Alex Bevacqua - Drums, Bass, Production

The greatest communicator

When you want to be around

Notes in the refrigerator

Running, running, running, running down

The stairs

You burst through the door and say

You've been stuck in here too many days now

You said, get up

You said, get up

We are going out

Right now

I said you look like a diamond

And you went and put my face all over the place

I ask questions in threes

Sometimes you sleep beneath the trees

You're really good at getting lost

When you don't want to be found

But you'll come back

And one time you did

You smelled like shit

And I laughed so hard I cried

While you explained why

And I didn't care, I just remember

Being so fucking happy

To see you

I said you look like a diamond

And you went and put my face all over the goddamn place

I ask questions in threes

Sometimes you sleep beneath the trees

Always scheming spaceman with a grin

Always scheming spaceman with a tin rocket ship

And I'll have an ocean of cardboard cutout waves

In the backyard

Because sailors and spacemen

They have to have their ships

And I really like

Seeing you

© Stephanie Gilliard

SS - Vocals

Matt Kaprelian - Instrumental

Mitch Brody - Guitars

You, you left your light, you left your light

You left your light for me

You left your light, left your light for me

You left your light so I could see what you could see

Well I know

I know you had to go

And I don’t blame you

Cause this party's dry as a bone

But you left your light for me

I know

You figured out how we were meant to live

And you got to go somewhere better for it

And you left your light so I could see what you could see

Cause you weren’t going to leave me here

In this misery alone too long

I know

But all this time

I thought I

Was here to keep you safe

I thought you needed me

Oh but it turns out that I’m the one who needed you

I’d be lost in the dark

If I didn’t know your heart

I’d be lost in the dark

Without the light of love from your heart

You left your light

To show me

How you got out

To show me

How to get out too

I thought

I was to teach you

But you left your light

To get me through

Cause I’m the one who needed you

Steph Something - Composition, Lyrics, Melody, Guitars, Vocals

Jochen Fleischmann - Drums, Bass, Synths, Mix

In memory of my sister,

Amelia Nicole Gilliard

1982 - 2025

I miss you and love you forever

What Did I Ever Do

Can you turn it off

There's only so much a person can take

Do you think a heart

Can physically break

Just when I think

That I could be happy

The sky opens up

And sucks somebody up

But this time

It got the only one

I thought I'd have

Forever

Now my days are filled

With breakdowns from a wound that can't heal

Take it away

Whatever it is that makes me feel

Just when I think

That I could be happy

The sky opens up

And sucks somebody up

But this time

It got the only one

I thought I'd have

Forever

I don't

Think that I can do this

Without her

What did I ever do to the heavens

What did I ever do

To the sky

© Stephanie Gilliard