In this raw and transformative episode of Blindsight, host Bill Lundgren sits down with Zach Tidwell, a blind Marine Corps veteran, adaptive athlete, software developer, and suicide survivor. Zach shares the deeply personal story of his journey—from a suicide attempt that left him blind and deaf in one ear, to confronting alcoholism, a devastating Huntington’s diagnosis, and ultimately rebuilding a life of resilience and purpose. Through adaptive sports, therapy, coding, and brutal self-honesty, Zach not only survived—he thrived.

Zach speaks openly about the critical importance of speaking up, learning healthy coping strategies, asking for help, and embracing your agency in the face of despair. This episode is a must-listen for anyone facing internal battles—or for those supporting someone who is.

⚠️ Content Warning: This episode includes discussion of suicide and addiction. If you or someone you know is in crisis, call 988, and press 1 if you're a veteran.

Contact Information:

Crisis Line: Dial 988, then press 1 for veterans

Aftersight Feedback Line: (720) 712-8856

Email: [email protected]

Zach Tidwell Website: https://www.zachtidwell.net

Podcast: Going in Blind with Zach Tidwell (available on all platforms)

Chapter Markers:

00:00 – Welcome to Blindsight

01:05 – Meet Zach Tidwell: Marine, survivor, and adaptive athlete

02:14 – Betrayal, trauma, and the downward spiral

04:38 – Depression, drinking, and suicidal thoughts

06:53 – Surviving a self-inflicted gunshot wound

09:11 – “I’m not making salt and pepper shakers” — reclaiming identity

11:31 – Adaptive sports and rediscovering independence

13:52 – The power of speaking up during the lowest point

16:13 – Why Zach became a blind software developer

18:23 – Relapse and the battle with alcoholism

20:46 – Xanagrams and finding purpose through accessibility

22:45 – Accountability, acceptance, and hard choices

25:03 – The final drink: December 5, 2023

27:26 – The Huntington’s diagnosis and choosing to live intentionally

29:53 – Competing in sports and doing it differently

32:19 – Adapting your world by accepting help

34:39 – VA Blind Rehab Services and veteran resources

36:44 – Suicide prevention hotline and how to get help

38:00 – Zach’s projects, book, and podcast

40:10 – Final thoughts: Growth is painful but worth it