**ATTENTION: possible triggers included in this episode include thoughts of self harm, child abuse, sexual assault and child endangerment.

Listen responsibly. Adult language is also used.

Join Sunny for part two of her tumultuous tenth year, as she tries to escape the unending upheaval of a chaotic home life with a sociopathic narcissist mother a ghost of a father and a brother who longs to be an only child again.

In this episode Seraphina talks about discovering, at last, why she felt so foreign to the people who gaslit her for a decade into accepting that she was the blood relative of a disperate family and learns more uncomfortable truths that will add yet another layer of social marginalization and illegitimacy, continues to be malnourished, overworked and punished for being *other*, all while being expected to perform at peak performance to ensure her place in the family home.

Soon, the fight for sovereignty well and truly begins…

……………………….

Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved.

Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency

Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988

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Contact me at [email protected]

⭐️A quick note from the host⭐️

Dearest Listener,

It is constantly in my thoughts that I am exposing you to a lot of heavy content this season. Know that things do start to take a slight upswing in the next few episodes as a new school, with new people and more deeply dangerous Gen X adventures are afoot. It was mostly awful until I was able to leave my adoptive home, but it wasn’t *all* awful and I am now safe from the pain of carrying this story in my body and my spirit. That is the joyful power of doing the work to heal one’s trauma and talking about it is how I’ve healed most. I know it’s isn’t what our culture has taught us, and has instead chosen to fill us with fear and dread at the idea of being vulnerable with another, but if you cannot afford professional counseling, please contact me to discuss to alternative options to get you on your way if you have a back log of struggles on up to CPTSD, and I’ll do my best to point you in some possible directions of healing.

For those of my listeners who grew up with me during the periods I’m discussing. I’m aware that I might be getting timing a little off. Believe me, though, I’m grateful that these stories aren’t as fresh as they’ve been for many decades. That’s the downside to healing trauma when you’re afraid to write things down (with good reason in my case). But know that I have done and will continue to do my best to reflect you in the most loving and truthful light and I’m here if you want to talk about any of it.

Thank you 🙏🏻 so very much for holding this space. It gets a bit easier from here and I look forward to bringing all of this into the present with you.

I love you. I mean it.

Seraphina “Sunny” Haas June 20, 2026

**ATTENTION: possible triggers included in this episode include thoughts of self harm, child abuse, sexual assault and child endangerment.

Listen responsibly.

In this installment of Sunny’s origin story, we follow her through navigating the Girl Scouts’ answer to “Far Camp” and how neurodivergents may react to being separated from their caregivers even when they aren’t safe or kind. She’ll also set the stage for how she cemented her place as a social pariah, continued with weigh struggles and added new layers of home instability to an already heavy load on her not-yet-ten-year-old body and spirit.

Join your host for part one of her fifth grade year, as she delves into the treacherous waters of burgeoning hormones, school yard bullies and puzzling physical problems that all had answers she still struggles to have validated by the medical community.

Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved.

Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency

Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988

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Contact me at [email protected]

**TRIGGER WARNING** This episode contains depiction of developing an eating disorder, child neglect / abuse and an admission of a love of Disco (truly, some people in my life are apt to become quite apoplectic when it comes to the lifestyle choice of embracing Disco 🤷🏼).

A little over halfway through the linear storytelling season of Sunny Haas is Gigantic, Seraphina weaves through her early competition failures, shares some of the astonishing comedic talents who further shaped her character (in multiple senses of the word), and opens up about why and how she began an eating disorder at 8 years old. Listen as she sets the stage for one of the most impactful, and terrible years of her young life which threw her so far off her true path, it would take nearly two decades to get back on track.

If you or someone you love may be suffering from an eating disorder, suspect you or someone you care for may be a victim of abuse, or are considering suicidal thoughts, please contact one of the following resources to guide you to help and / or safety. PLEASE… Stay with us, friend. You are wanted and you are loved. ~ S

Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency

Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673

Suicide Prevention Hotline / Immediate Eating Disorder Assistance: 988

To find a mental health provider that may be right for your specific needs:

GrowTherapy.com

Contact Seraphina at [email protected]

*TRIGGER WARNING : Explicit for adult language, mention of suicidal ideation and various abuses of an adopted child with Autism and ADHD.*

What did Sunny do to give herself a fresh lease on hope and decided, at age 7, that she was going to stick it out and do her damnedest to survive long enough to escape a highly volatile, dangerously abusive home life with her adoptive family who keeps trying to re-home or abandon her like she’s a damaged blender? She embraced her creativity and persevered thanks to a boost from some of the most powerful, paradigm shifting franchises the propaganda machine has produced in the last half of a century.

While her privacy and personal space continued to shrink into next to nothing, her young mind was expanding into a vast universe where anything was possible… even a feisty girl and her intrepid droid saving the universe.

Join Seraphina (“Sunny”) as she takes you through more of her childhood adventures and offers a few tiny spoilers as to how unsuccessful her adoptive mom and brother were at destroying her will to go on.

##Quick correction, my first talent show entry was in 1977 (3rd grade) and the second was in 1978 (4th grade). ##

Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency

Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988

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Contact me at [email protected]

In this Episode, Sunny delves further into the challenges of navigating a treacherous home life, sketchy vacations and the pitfalls of panty purchases in 1975 San Jose, California. A tiny taste of Gen X insight tucked into the continuing tale of being a pre-birth adoptee who was being lied to by everyone but her new best friend, about her origin, her learning disabilities and the health issues that often go hand in hand with Autism (verbiage not used at the time) and ADHD diagnoses.

Join our host as she weaves the true, cautionary tale of what happened to just one unplanned child and how hard she had to claw her way out of danger while being systemically hobbled in the process.

Listen responsibly.

Stay safe, stay sovereign and remember you’re loved.

Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency

Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988

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Contact me at [email protected]

*Explicit rating is for curse words only*

If you’ve not listened to episodes one and two, best to start there as we are in serial mode while she establishes her bonafides of why her, why now and just how gigantic?

In this week’s episode, Sunny details even more of the tools she formed in order to navigate the tricky terrain of her earliest foundational years and how she cultivated her creativity while holding ground with a narcissist sociopath adoptive mother. She then asks us to consider how impactful our presence is on the people we interact with and the importance of reconnecting with the version of ourselves we left behind (and, in some cases, utterly betrayed) in service to an uncaring system which lured so many of us from our rightful place in the world.

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**ATTENTION: please be sure to listen to the trigger warning in the beginning of this episode all the way through. While I have turned on the explicit content warning for the public, it’s not the language but some of the graphic elements of this episode that may be a concern . Death, sexual assault, child abuses are some of the themes you will encounter.

I have deliberately formulated the way I’m speaking about these topics that in effort to mitigate as many triggering elements as I possibly can, but there are some graphic details that you may find too disturbing to endure. If you wish to hear the rest of the episode while avoiding the graphic aspects please skip starting at the 35:38 mark and come on back at 38:45.

Please use your best discretion and discernment when engaging with this episode. If you or someone you know may be experiencing abuses, please seek out qualified professionals to aid you.

Here are a few:

Child Abuse Hotline: 800-422-4453 or your local Child Protective Services Agency

Sexual Abuse Hotline: 800-656-4673

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 988

The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

Childhood Disrupted: How Your Biography Becomes Your Biology, and How You Can Heal

The Myth of Normal: Trauma, Illness, and Healing in a Toxic Culture

Unmasking Autism: Discovering the New Faces of Neurodiversity

Respectfully and lovingly,

Sunny

In this installment of Sunny’s Gigantic journey, we delve into the most formative time of a human life… the first five years.

As was the case for a good many Gen X babies, those years were marked by a cacophony of “fly by the seat of your pants” / narcissistic parenting, disturbing lack of supervision or engagement and of course… it wouldn’t be a Gen X childhood without hose water. But for Sunny, she had to navigate the additional crises of surviving horrific events all while being gaslit about her adoption and birth origin, lied to about her connection to the strange people she was forced to serve and to call “family” and find hope in the incredible good fortune she had meeting some of the most powerful, loving and inspiring influences on the incredible woman she is today. Please… Listen responsibly.

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Join Seraphina Haas as she introduces her podcast where she discusses her experiences growing up a Gen X, neurodivergent woman who didn’t know she was living with strangers for the first decade of her life in the 1970s to 2001 eras of Northern California. Here she dips her toe into the story of how she navigated living several realities that were not hers, while unaware that her neurological processing was only a fraction of the resistance to achieving hard-earned success. With radical authenticity and an empathic approach to herself and all the players of her life, “Sunny” knows it’s time to tell this story because she lived a life knowing it was her role on Earth to tell it. She’s hoping to bridge knowledge, dispel stereotypes, break trauma cycles and foster a community that embraces the value that everyone who wants to live a peaceful life of community, connection and accomplishments should be free to do exactly that.

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Books referenced:

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.

(Whose name I think I botched rather badly😥)

The Myth of Normal by Gabor Maté and Daniel Maté

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