There are places within us that no scan can see, no test can measure. These are the sacred chambers where spirit whispers and trauma leaves its mark…not only in memory, but in the very breath, pulse, and rhythm of the body, mind, and soul.

For me, the journey with complex PTSD became more than emotional pain. Over time, it spiraled into something deeper….something less understood, what the world of science names dysautonomia. But even that word, though clinical, cannot hold the vastness of what it truly is. In my case, it was an extreme sacred imbalance, a soul’s cry echoing through every system of my body.

Science tells us that the autonomic nervous system is designed to maintain balance…..a seamless flow between stillness and action, alertness and rest. But when trauma is held for too long, when pain remains unspoken or unseen, that flow is disrupted. The signals misfire. The body forgets how to regulate itself. And yet, what science cannot fully explain is the energetic and spiritual impact of trauma….the way it imprints itself not just on the brain, but on the very essence of our being.

And this is what I’ve come to understand: there are many conditions….mysteries of the body….that medicine cannot fully explain, if at all. Because they are not rooted solely in biology. They are rooted in spirit. The symptoms may carry medical names, but the cause is soul-deep.

No medical model could restore the inner harmony I had lost. Healing came only when I turned inward, toward the light within. Through aspects of prayer, meditation, energy work, nervous system regulation, stillness, and communion with the unseen….and at times, sheer blind courage….I began to remember an ancient truth:

Science may study the body, but spirit is what restores it. The two are not separate. They are one breath, one flame, working together to bring us back to wholeness.

After nearly forty years of deep exploration, I have developed cutting-edge healing practices that have largely restored me….practices that merge science and spirit, helping to rewire the nervous system, heal the body, and awaken the soul.

If you feel called to this path, I invite you to connect with me. Whether you are seeking healing, understanding, or transformation, I would be honored to share the wisdom and practices that have brought me back to life.

Reach out, and let us walk this sacred path together.

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You are the master alchemist, the unseen force that turns the ordinary into the divine. With the fire of love, you bridge earth and sky, heart and soul, weaving light into the fabric of all things.

Through your love, the boundaries of existence and nonexistence dissolve. What was once separate becomes whole. The lost are found. The forgotten is remembered. The profane is made sacred once more.

This is the great work of the soul…..to love so deeply that all illusion falls away, revealing the eternal light within. In love, there is no division, no distance, no darkness that cannot be transformed.

So light the fire. Let it burn in your words, your touch, your presence. Be the alchemist who turns life itself into gold, until only love remains.

With great thanks and reverence to Jalladin-Rumi who’s original quote was the inspiration for this short piece.

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This moment this Love comes to rest in me,

many beings in one being.

In one wheat grain a thousand sheaf stacks.

Inside the needle's eye a turning night of stars.

-Rumi

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ALL I KNOW IS LOVE

A billion times God has turned manInto Himself

You stand in line for theHighest giftFor His generosity cannot end.

But best to bring an instrument alongWhile waiting in the cold desert

And make some dulcet soundsTo accompany the palms’ swaying armsThat are casting silhouettesAgainst the sky’s curtainFrom our fire.

Remind the Friend of your desireAnd great patience.

A billion times God has turned manBack into Herself.

We all stand in lineFor the highestGift.

Love is the breath of the soul, the eternal current that flows through us, guiding us home. When we root ourselves in Love….pure, unconditional, infinite….we become vessels for creation, and everything we touch begins to reflect that light.

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In the morningWhen I began to wake,It happened again—

That feelingThat you, Beloved,Had stood over me all nightKeeping watch,

That feelingThat as soon as I began to stir

You put Your lips on my foreheadAnd lit a Holy LampInside my heart

Hafiz.

Little by little,You will turn into stars.Even then, my dear,You will only beA crawling infant,Still skinning your knees on God.Little by little,You will turn intoThe whole sweet, amorous UniverseIn heatOn a wild spring night,And become so freeIn a wonderful, secretAnd pour LoveThat flowsFrom a conscious,One-pointedInfinite need for Light.Even then, my dear,The Beloved will have fulfilledJust a fraction,Just a fraction!Of a promiseHe wrote upon your heart.When your soul beginsTo Ever bloom and laughAnd spin in Eternal Ecstasy -O little by little,You will turn into God.

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This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

As an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

Rumi

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times…In life after life, in age after age, forever.My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,In life after life, in age after age, forever.Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, its age-old pain,Its ancient tale of being apart or together.As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge,Clad in the light of a pole-star piercing the darkness of time:You become an image of what is remembered forever.You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.At the heart of time, love of one for another.We have played alongside millions of lovers, shared in the sameShy sweetness of meeting, the same distressful tears of farewell-Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.Today it is heaped at your feet, it has found its end in youThe love of all man’s days both past and forever:Universal joy, universal sorrow, universal life.The memories of all loves merging with this one love of ours –And the songs of every poet past and forever.