This is a comedy podcast and these are just jokes, mostly. But also a lot of it is true. Remember those Golden Books? Remember who let the dogs out? Remember how it's hard to be a human? Me too.

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"I'm Drinking My Coffee" is a program with a stupid name in which Josh Gaines says what feels true to him about life, sometimes in a funny way. This time he talks about how divorced single dads are often perceived by other partnered parents, then how he went to the local pool with a cranky lady who wiled-out on the underpaid teenage workers.

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(a comedy podcast by Josh Gaines) Does this even qualify as a show? I don't know. I'm just "Drinking My Coffee" over here and saying things that make me laugh into a microphone. On this one I talk about Tinder and the woes of modern dating, cats in Disney movies and Baby Yoga from The Mandolin show.

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Who has read the entire Bible? Has anyone memorized the Bible? What if you knew it in Hebrew and Greek? What if you had read every theological book you've been meaning to get to? What would be the end result of all this?

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In this freeform talk, I discuss growing up under severely manipulative, fearmongering, emotionally abusive Christianity, as well as having a narcissist, borderline personality disorder parent, and the results as such that are manifesting themselves in my adult life presently.

Upon relistening, certain parts of this sound as if I'm having an attitude of, "Poor me, I've been handed a raw deal in life, won't somebody come along and save me so I don't have to do anything myself." That isn't what I intend to communicate nor what I believe about myself or my situation--my choices and mistakes that have gotten me in my current position are my own, which I take responsibility for and am working to overcome. I am merely trying to put on display the literal present-day workings of my mind and the negative thoughts I wrestle with in trying to address and navigate my mental plane. This was recorded on a particularly "low" day for me, though I hope others will resonate and find it cathartic.

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Texture returns with a sweeping dismissal of all previous episodes in favor of this, THE NEW GAINES AEON (heh heh, just kidding, kind of). I talk about my history in Evangelical Christianity, delving into the study of the Occult over the past year, and how Ceremonial and Ritual Magick ultimately led me back to the basics: simply Meditating. I talk about how there's been a lot of monetizing of this trendy "new" practice in America and some of the pitfalls of how it's perceived and what it's for, and offer some suggestions as to a higher purpose for sitting and breathing, and how you don't need any of the Spiritual Materialism shit, but simply, your own body and breath. Not coming from the perspective of an expert, merely sharing what I've learned and have found to be helpful.

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Recorded at 9pm on March 30, 2020, a couple of weeks into the COVID-19 stay-at-home order. A meandering attempt to organize thoughts & be a hymn for good in the midst of the present crisis.

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[Edit 10/13/2020: Josh's views and beliefs--like those of any person undergoing constant growth, maturity and change throughout life--are in a continual state of flux. He may or may not still hold to statements, beliefs or ways of phrasing things that he did on these past episodes, even if he's delivering them with utter conviction. That's because, at that moment in time, based upon the circumstances and the information he had available to him, he did sincerely believe, with a pure heart, that those things were true or correct. But people change, their ideas and views expand and take on new form, and that's good, so take everything said with a grain of salt and a lot of compassion.]

"a formal invocation of blessedness." Texture is going on temporary hiatus.

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[Edit 10/13/2020: Josh's views and beliefs--like those of any person undergoing constant growth, maturity and change throughout life--are in a continual state of flux. He may or may not still hold to statements, beliefs or ways of phrasing things that he did on these past episodes, even if he's delivering them with utter conviction. That's because, at that moment in time, based upon the circumstances and the information he had available to him, he did sincerely believe, with a pure heart, that those things were true or correct. But people change, their ideas and views expand and take on new form, and that's good, so take everything said with a grain of salt and a lot of compassion.]

Josh put this episode up on Friday, Dec 21st, then he got nervous about the content that was said and took the episode down. Here it is again, unedited, as it should be. Josh discusses the slew of advertising thrown our way on a constant basis, how we're brainwashed into being consumers and the American deception of possessions bringing us contentment, peace and satisfaction. Also, some contemplative suggestions for those who find holidays and the integrated family dynamics more stressful than fun.

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[Edit 10/13/2020: Josh's views and beliefs--like those of any person undergoing constant growth, maturity and change throughout life--are in a continual state of flux. He may or may not still hold to statements, beliefs or ways of phrasing things that he did on these past episodes, even if he's delivering them with utter conviction. That's because, at that moment in time, based upon the circumstances and the information he had available to him, he did sincerely believe, with a pure heart, that those things were true or correct. But people change, their ideas and views expand and take on new form, and that's good, so take everything said with a grain of salt and a lot of compassion.]

Dorothy Booraem is an accomplished director, writer, producer and all-around talented individual. She and Josh discuss her films, writing process, what led her to filmmaking and specifically to the horror genre, distribution strategies, experiences with film festivals and lessons learned on set.

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[Edit 10/13/2020: Josh's views and beliefs--like those of any person undergoing constant growth, maturity and change throughout life--are in a continual state of flux. He may or may not still hold to statements, beliefs or ways of phrasing things that he did on these past episodes, even if he's delivering them with utter conviction. That's because, at that moment in time, based upon the circumstances and the information he had available to him, he did sincerely believe, with a pure heart, that those things were true or correct. But people change, their ideas and views expand and take on new form, and that's good, so take everything said with a grain of salt and a lot of compassion.]