In this episode, I share the mic with my mother Mrs. Yvonne Jones.
A family member reached out to my mother and requested that we share his experience as a person who has been incarcerated and has a diagnosed mental illness. We share our family's experience of navigating the limitations of services and supports when we have had family members in mental health crisis.
The letter he wanted us to share with you is below in it's entirety:
Hi I'm have a message that needs to get out on Mental Health.
I'm suffocating my host, and he can't tell anybody because I'm supposed to be all better now, and if anyone finds out he's not - "It's gonna be Trouble Trouble.”
See the Boogeyman is back, and this time, this joker is badder than he ever was. He ain't even got nobody!!!!! He is just a virus now, and every 30 seconds he kills off all my family and friends!
On December 15th at 4am in the morning, that sneaky son-of-a-bitch crept up in Momma's window and killed her!
Now that wasn't right, she was just learning how to be a good girl, so why did he want to go and do that ? She never did nothing to him.
Now the unit managers and counselors in this prison full of boogeyman carriers say I need to call home to get the bad news, but then they say I need to hurry up and get back to my cell, cause we are quarantined and I only got 5 minutes.
5 whole minutes to lie to my children and say Papa alright, I'll be home someday soon, now go say goodbye to my Momma for me. But don't get too close or he'll get you too!
Every 30 seconds seconds he kills somebody, every 30 seconds he cuts off somebody's lights!
I'm not gonna be alright cause President Trump won't test the vaccine, so my people don't trust it and won't take it either so now the boogeyman can't die!!!
Because Trump wouldn't wear a mask, people think they didn't need one either, and so we all became super spreaders, and helped the boogeyman kill our families, and friends every 30 seconds.
Hello my name is Orell Leroy Logan, I'm a 52 year old African American man, I am one of the millions of young black undiagnosed suffering from mental illness incarcerated in the United States of America. I've been locked up for 30 years, it took 25 years of long term segregation in a super maximum prison before I was told I was bipolar.
Before my diagnosis I thought I was just a crackhead. See I'm the other side of the victimless crime from the 80s and 90s war on drugs. I didn't know I was born with a compulsive, addictive personality disorder, and that I just simply wasn't a match against the high potencies of crack's addictive nature.
I would serve crack faithfully against my weak will until I was locked up, or killed. Crack's black on black violence, and the booming new money maker at that time (the prison industry) along with being poor and with mental health issues, that no one ever talked to me about was a perfect storm!!
I didn't see it coming, the destabilizing of every urban inner city, and otherwise minority populated community in America. This storm touched every African American life one way or another. A movement was even founded behind the results of this tragedy. The Black Lives Matter movement, ask them.
I'm here to tell anybody that will listen, all of that put together, on top of every other thing we been through as a people, short of the horrors of slavery itself, will be nothing compared to what this monster will do to us, if we don't wear our mask, wash our hands, and get vaccination shots. And get mental health help because no you are not OK.
If you or a family member are suffering because of an undiagnosed mental illness please seek help. Here is one resource: https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline.