I did try my hardest during the darkest times. I made a fool of myself and didn’t care. I am like this man’s first wife in a sense because of why I was left but it was beyond my power to fix alone. All I could do was watch, see her with someone else and not me, and feel whatever was left of my heart shatter for good. Gray would be the color now if I had a heart.

I thought we would get through this and work it out and become stronger than we ever have been. I thought she loved me as much as I love her. I was wrong. She lied to me, led me on, broke every promise she made to me about getting back together, but the most painful of all was that she denied seeing anyone or being intimate with anyone until our final video conversation where she admits to me, almost flauntingly, that she is indeed dating someone and has been intimate with them. 

That was all I could take. Since she let another man put his hands on her and make love to her I will never acknowledge her again because she was unfaithful to me for a long time and tried to blame and has out me through hell.

I would've died for you Sarah. I will never love anyone the same as I love you still. Ever. I have lost my faith and belief in love. I am empty now and you have someone new to be with. There's nothing left to say or do as I did it all. You already moved on and I had no chance. 

Aloha my love. See you in my dreams....