The Bed Head Chronicles

Today, I woke up thinking about the fact that the past week, I've had a really good week. In the past week, some days I've woken up and I feel good. And because I feel good I'll go for a walk with my mom and all our dogs. Maybe, later on, I'll still feel good, so I'll go and I'll get up on my Peloton and I'll do a bike ride.

Obviously. I'm not doing anything hard or performing in any way, but I'm exercising. Exercising lifts my spirits. It makes me feel positive. It makes me feel strong. It makes me feel like I must be healing because I'm able to do it.

My point here is that for anyone that's dealing with a sickness, disease or you're depressed and think 'I'm depressed so I should just lie around all day' -- we subscribe sometimes to whatever we're going through. We think that that should look a certain way. But it doesn't have to.

My philosophy is that if you feel good, go do something because it's only going to make you feel better. If you feel bad, take care of yourself. If I feel exhausted. I'm gonna lie down and have a nap or just read a book or just be quiet. But if I feel good, I'm going to go out and I'm going to live life. I'm going to go for a walk with the dogs. I'm going to go hang out with the horses. I'm going to go ride my bike easy, but It makes me feel good. It lifts my spirits.

Now I don't know about you but the things that lift my spirits are nature, animals, horses, family and being active. That's what lifts my spirits and makes me happy. So if I have the energy I'm going to go do those things that fill me up so that I have even more strength to step into this challenge that I'm dealing with right now.

For all of us, let's do less of the things that drain us. Less of the things that make us feel bad. That means worrying. That means being afraid. That means tasks that we do that just simply aren't serving us and aren't serving others. Stop doing the things that drain you. Instead, do more of the things that fill you up. Do more of the things that make you happy. Do more of the things that strengthen you. Do more of the things that serve you. And that also means the right ways of thinking.

I talked the other day about how there's a constant me standing at the gates of my mind allowing some thoughts to come in and some thoughts to just pass by. Because I know that thinking about my fears or how has scary this is or what I have coming up ahead of me and what I have to deal with -- that just drains me and makes me feel bad. It scares me. It does not serve me.

So I will acknowledge those thoughts. I'll recognize those thoughts and honor them. But then I let them go by and I started thinking about the health and energy I have now. I can go out for a walk. I can ride my bike when I feel up to it. Look at the love and support I have.  I focus on all the things that I have, not the things that I don't have. I focus on all the things that fill me up and make me feel strong, not the things that drain me and made me feel bad.

So for all of you do more of what makes you feel good. Do less of what makes you feel bad. That takes discipline and being present with yourself all day long. Do that for you. You deserve it.

Have an amazing day.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Good morning everyone, and welcome to the Bed Head Chronicles.

I was asked yesterday if I always have this positive attitude that I'm going to make it through this and there's no doubt in all of that.

Let me tell you that in my whole life, I have learned from the great Tony Robbins, many years ago, that the focus and meaning that we give things and what we choose to do about it create our entire experience of life. Where focus goes, energy flows.

In my situation now, if I was focusing on the fact that I've got acute myeloid leukemia and that this could kill me, that I could die, and that I'm going to suffer, that's only going to make me suffer more. I believe that will make it more possible that I don't survive.

So, I don't entertain those thoughts. I don't negotiate with my mind when it tries to blow me down with negative thinking and fears.

But, throughout the entire day, I feel like I'm at the gym trying to build this muscle of replacing every negative thought with a positive one. Replacing every fear with a hope or a belief that everything is going to be fine.

If I do everything right... If I leave no stone unturned... If, every single day, I do everything in my power to release the things that no longer serve me -- that means forgiving, letting go of guilt, anger, anxiety, worry and fear, and asking better questions so that I am serving my body and mind to put me in a place that I can best step up to this challenge. I want to make sure that in the end, I am victorious and permanently healed.

But it's a battle.

None of us are perfect. All of us are going to have worries, fears, and negative thoughts. But the key is building a muscle that will immediately recognize and appreciate that thought but replace it with something that will bring out the best in you. A thought that will serve you, give you strength, positive feeling and positive energy that will then lead you to your best possible result.

So, if you think that in order to make great things happen in your life, you have to have a perfect train of thought or perfect thoughts all day long, that's just not true.

Even the most incredible people in the world that seem brilliant, happy and accomplished in their lives, also have to build this muscle of having the right thoughts.

Be present in every moment as possible. Live in a beautiful state in as many moments as possible. That's my goal and strategy here.

To all of you, have an amazing day.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Good morning, everyone and welcome to the Bed Head Chronicles.

Obviously going through what I'm going through right now, I've been focusing a lot on how I can heal, not only my body, but my mind, my spirit, and my soul. One of the things I wanted to speak with you all about today is the healing power of forgiveness.

Think about the people in your life that have either hurt you or disappointed you. Or an experience you had that you feel as hurt you or disappointed you or negatively affected you in some way. It is so very important for us to practice the act of forgiveness. To forgive those people that have hurt us. To forgive ourselves and the things that, maybe, we've done that we aren't happy about or that we're not proud of.

But the power of forgiveness is incredible.

If you think of it this way, Tony Robbins has one of the most powerful statements I think I've ever heard. He said, "When you hold onto the pain or the disappointment or the anger you feel towards someone that is hurt you -- when you don't forgive or when you're holding onto that, it's like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die."

Take that in. "It's like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die."

It's hurting us. When we hold onto that anger, when we hold on to that disappointment, it eats away at us and eats away at our spirit. It eats away at our soul.

So, it's so very important to let go of those things.

I feel when people have hurt us, we just happened to catch them at a point in their lives where they're not at their best or we're not at our best. There's a lesson that comes from that. There's some kind of learning, some kind of a blessing that comes from that pain or hurt.

I know that may be hard for some of you to hear, but I really believe that there is a gift in every struggle and there's a lesson in every struggle as well. But when we choose to forgive, we are freeing up space inside ourselves. We're bringing positive energy instead of holding onto negative energy. We are allowing ourselves the capability to heal.

When we forgive, even if we don't forgive outwardly through words or in-person with that other person, energetically they will feel that forgiveness and they, in turn, will begin to forgive you. You'll see the things in your life open up because when we hold onto these pains or we don't forgive certain things, there are blockages.  And we need to remove these blockages. We need to free ourselves from any of those intense emotions that cause us pain or upset. Because when you have a lot of that, it could potentially lead to ailments or aches and pains in your body.

So, my suggestion to all of you -- and when you think about this as I said to my wife this morning, I was telling her about this and she said, "Oh, I don't have any pain or grudges over anyone." Because the thought allowed her to question within herself if this was really true, she came back to be about 10 minutes later. She realized "Yeah, I could forgive this person for saying this or I could forgive that person for saying that."

Just at that moment when you use that Grace to forgive someone, it's not only a gift that you're giving them, but it's a beautiful gift that you're giving yourself. Free up that space inside yourself. Replaced that negative energy with a positive, empowering energy that serves you and that will help you heal anything that needs to be healed inside of you. I hope this helps.

To all of you, have a wonderful day. I love you all so much.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Good morning, everyone and welcome to the Bed Head Chronicles.

Today, I want to share with you one of my very dear friends who gave me this book "The Dynamic Laws of Healing" by Catherine Ponder. I started reading it last night and I couldn't stop. It was amazing.

It all has to do with the thought that dis-ease (or disease) can be caused by an imbalance in your thinking. Thinking negative thoughts or carrying tons of anxiety, worry, fear or guilt can lead to disease in your body because our cells carry these thoughts.

Now the interesting thing about this is that it just started thinking about what are the thoughts that I kind of dwell in a lot in my life. One of those that I came up with, which I just realized last night or had an enormous breakthrough, is guilt. And this guilt stems from -- I basically feel guilty anytime that I am not delivering, giving, serving perfectly. Whether that be to my wife, to my mom, to my friends, to my clients, to the world... If I feel like what I'm being or doing isn't perfect, I feel guilty.

I feel like I'm letting people down. I feel like I'm not living up to what's expected of me. But as we all know, there's no such thing as perfect. No one is capable of being perfect.

So, basically I'm living in a state of guilt in every moment of my life thinking that I'm not as good as I should be. And this leads to anxiety. This leads to worry. This leads to fear that I'm going to lose the people that I love and care about if I'm not giving, being or doing things perfectly.

So, if you think of this -- if I'm living with guilt in every moment of every day, and that's leading to anxiety or fear, even anger at myself for not being able to be perfect, which doesn't exist, that can take a toll on my body. This was the most freeing thought because what I realized -- and for anyone out there who is listening to this and can relate to what I'm saying, perfection is impossible.

So, if you're striving for perfection in everything you do in the only way you're going to love and accept yourself as if you're perfect, you're never going to win that battle. You're never ever going to appreciate and love yourself because you will always be disappointed because perfection doesn't exist. It's not possible.

So, when I realized this, I just wrote in my journal "I have nothing to feel guilty about. I gave with all my heart and soul all the time with good intention."

Now, that should be a goal for all of us. I would say just do the best you can with what you have in every moment. Give with good intention. Love with good intention. Do your best with good intention.

"Falling short of perfection has made me feel guilty. Perfection doesn't exist. No more feeling guilty instead, I want to feel proud. I want to feel proud of the person I am. Proud of the love that I give. Proud of the heart that I share with all those around me."

And, just so you all know, this is not all about me. I hope to share these messages and have it make a difference in your lives as well. Think about how you speak to yourself. How you appreciate yourself during the day or not.

Appreciate yourself. Appreciate your effort. Appreciate your heart. Appreciate your soul.

I know that I appreciate each and every one of you more than I could ever express through words. Your love, your support, your encouragement, I know, is going to be a major part of my healing, of my becoming whole. And part of all of us becoming whole is really caring for our mind, body, and spirit. That means caring for the thoughts that come to our mind. Caring for every thought, every belief that we have about ourselves, that we have about others, or we have about the world. Take care of those thoughts. Take care of those beliefs. Make sure that they're thoughts and beliefs that serve you. Thoughts and beliefs that lead you to recognize the magic inside of you for being able to see the love that you have for yourself, the appreciation, the pride that you have for you and those around you. Care for those thoughts. Love yourself. Love those around you. Live with good intention and you will be whole.

I love you all so much. Thank you.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Good morning everyone, and welcome to the Bed Head Chronicles. And Merry Christmas Eve!

I feel so incredibly grateful to be home for Christmas. I'm feeling deeply blessed, especially from all the love and support from all of you.

I want to share a story with you. I got an email the other day where a person said, "Are you aware of the statistics of your disease and the odds of you surviving this? How are you dealing with that?"

I was taken aback by the email because my attitude has always been "I love life so much. I want to live to be a million years old. Dying is not an option." Then I thought back to when I was 23 years old and I fell in love with the sport of triathlon. I didn't know how to swim, but I knew that my ultimate dream was to become the #1 triathlete in the world.

Now, if I looked up the odds of my being able to achieve this dream, those odds might be 1 in 10 trillion. It would be impossible.

But I didn't think about what the odds were. I didn't think about how unlikely it was that I'd be able to do it. What I knew in my heart was I was going to give my heart, soul, and spirit -- everything that I had to make this dream come true because it meant that much to me. I was driven every single day by my heart, soul, and spirit.

In this case -- yes. I have acute myeloid leukemia. Yes, the statistics are not great. But you know what? I'm not a statistic. I am me. I know I don't just want to survive this, but I want to thrive in my life. I want to be living a life greater than I have before. I want to give more, touch more lives and have an impact. I want to create more in this lifetime.

I don't just want to survive. I want to thrive. I'm not just a statistic. I proved when I was 23 years old that eight years later I could be the number one triathlete in the world. I achieved that dream even though the odds of that happening were next to nothing. And I'm going to do the same here.

So, to all of you, thank you. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for your messages of love and support. Thank you for all the healing that you're bringing me. I want each and every one of you to know that when you think of me, pray for me, support me in any way, I am taking that in. I am learning to receive that and have that help me heal.

So, thank you. I love you all so much. I wake up every morning feeling so deeply grateful for each and every one of you. I wish you all the most beautiful, magical Merry Christmas where you look into the eyes of everyone you love and really think about how much you love and appreciate them. Think about every single moment and recognize the absolutely precious gift of this incredible life that we've all been blessed with.

I love you all, Merry Christmas, and thank you for listening.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Good morning everyone, and welcome to the bed head chronicles.

Today, I want to talk about this amazing quote that a dear friend of mine sent to me the other day. It says "Everything you are going through is preparing you for what you asked for."

Let me begin by going back to when I was an athlete. I remember some of the hardest things that happened like getting injured when I was in my prime fitness and ready to go race. I'd get a running injury that would stop me from running. I would think it was the end of the world, but what it did mean is that what I could do is swim and bike. The swim was my absolute weakness. And my bike definitely needed help.

So, if you would look at this saying, "Everything you are going through is preparing you for what you asked for," I wanted to be the best in the world in triathlon. I wanted to be the best that I could be and I hoped that could lead me to be one of the best.

In order to do that, I needed to become a good swimmer and biker. The times I would get a running injury and be unable to run for two to three months, I would swim 1000 meters a week and bike however many thousand meters a week. That would improve my swim and bike where I was able to win a world championship. There is a gift in every struggle.

Granted, acute myeloid leukemia is a challenge that is beyond anything I could imagine. But when I think about this quote, I found my freedom in my twenties. What I mean by that is I found freedom from my fears, anxieties, and torture that I was living inside my own body and mind.

Through the process of triathlon, I found a love, appreciation, and acceptation for myself, which led to my mission of wanting to be fearlessly authentic in my life. Just being true to me, my beliefs and my values. And having found that freedom -- going from a place where I didn't want to live to wanting to live to be a million years old -- that freedom that comes from self-love and acceptance is the most glorious freedom you can dream of having, in my opinion.

Now that I have found my freedom, so much in part due to Tony Robbins and his influence in my life, everything I've learned from him through his books and CDs about focusing on what you want and how the meaning we give things can change our entire experience of life, it's a gift that I want to provide everyone on the planet with. If somehow I could inspire them through words or through storytelling, encouragement or inspiration -- whatever it is, I've said to God in my prayers that in this lifetime I can truly take this beautiful gift of life and do everything with it that God has hoped I would do. Be able to touch many lives, humans or animals, as I possibly can in the most beautiful and powerful ways. To be able to take everything that I've learned that has brought me to a place in my life where I can feel and experience true love and give my love freely. To share everything that I've learned and touched another person's life in a way that can bring them to their own personal freedom or new levels of joy and achievement or fulfillment, most importantly, that's a dream come true for me. That's a desire in my life.

I see life as such a beautiful gift. It's a privilege to be given this life and make it what we want it to be. I believe the greatest way to show thanks for this gift of life is by giving back. Maybe giving back is all about becoming more -- becoming more so that you can give more, inspire more and create more in this life that can make a positive difference.

If this challenge ahead of me, or this challenge that I am in right now, is going to allow me to give that much more -- to have more of an impact on other humans and on the animals in this world, then it will be the most beautiful gift. I believe that that is what this is all about. I have asked God, the universe, to help guide me to be able to make a beautiful impact in this world and in people's lives. To share the love, light, and fulfillment I feel in my heart with everyone; and perhaps this challenge is what's going to allow me to do that to a greater extent. That's my hope. That's my dream. That's what will inspire me. I am going to give this everything I have: heart, soul, and spirit.

The love and the support that it has been sent to me from all around the world means everything to me. It will be what I focus on, what I remember, what I soak in, in those toughest moments. So thank you. Love is healing. Love is strengthening. Love is everything that we all need to be the very best that we can be every day in our lives. Whether it's going through a tremendous challenge or just trying to be our best selves for others.

Thank you for listening to my Bed Head Chronicles. It means the world to me that somehow there's something in this that is touching your life and I hope to continue to be able to do this. To me, being home -- it's Christmas. I have you know everything I need with me here. Most importantly my wife, my mom, my animals, the horses -- I get to be home for Christmas. And that's the ultimate gift.

I will keep you all in the loop as I continue learning and growing on this journey, and I thank you for your love. I thank you for your support. To all of you have an amazing Christmas, a beautiful holiday. Know that I love you. I appreciate you. And all I want is blessings and light for all of you today and every day. Thank you.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Welcome everyone, and welcome to the bed head chronicles.

I've been home for a few days. I was in the hospital for about a week and have been able to be home. During my treatments from home, we drive to the hospital a couple of days a week. It's been amazing being home.

Obviously, with a lot of time on my hands, I've been doing a lot of thinking. You all know that my biggest thing is fearless authenticity. Being you. Just like I am right now -- bed head, not making myself made up or anything. I am just me.

When I think about fearless authenticity, it's about being true to you. Staying true to what you believe in. Staying true to what matters. Being able to be vulnerable to the people around you, which leads to deeper relationships and richer experiences.

But when I was thinking about fearless authenticity with what I'm going through now, I wondered how authentic have I been with myself in regards to how I'm feeling. Being authentic is being true to you. Being honest with you. Expressing your truth to yourself always.

I think, sometimes, when you're battling illness or disease, you can tell yourself 'I'm strong. I got this. I have everything I need inside me. I'm going to get through this." That's so incredibly important. That is what I'm saying to myself every single day. But I also think that we need to be able to sit peacefully in those moments where we feel really afraid. In those moments where it gets really scary. In those moments where you can't find the words to inspire, move or give yourself the strength you need at that moment.

We need to love ourselves in every moment. That could be in our strongest, bravest and most courageous moments. But we must also really love and appreciate ourselves in those moments where we need to ask for help. Or when we don't know what to do or feel hopeless and terrified. Love yourself in those moments, too. Accept the fact that those moments will come.

Life is life. They are always changing. There are going to be really tough times and hard moments, along with blissful moments as well. It's a matter of fearless authenticity. It's a matter of loving yourself no matter what. Being yourself no matter what. Not putting on a brave face if you're not feeling brave.

Yes, it's important to set yourself up for success and have a belief fully in that positive, optimistic attitude. But I also want to know that I can sit with myself in those tough moments, too. And be brave enough to know it's okay to feel weak. It's okay to feel afraid.

In those moments, whatever resonates with you, I pray for strength, guidance, love, and support. I tap into all that I receive from my family and yourselves -- all that love, support and encouraging words.

So, fearless authenticity -- be all that you are in every moment. Express who you are in every single moment without holding back. And that means with yourself, too.

I hope this all makes sense to everybody out there. Have an amazing day. Appreciate every single moment of this beautiful gift of life. And appreciate every single aspect of who you are as a beautiful, magical human that is you. Thank you.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Hi, everybody. Day 7.

I got to go home on Friday. So, now we just drive into the hospital to get my treatments. It's early -- 7:30 in the morning.   I got my wife up at 5. 

And it's December 15th.  This is her last IV of chemo, for now, for another three weeks! We're so excited.

I have to say I was just talking to our amazing nurse here today. The staff at this hospital are amazing at UC Health and Children's hospital. The level of care is just beyond anything I could ever hope for as far as caring and supportive staff. They take the time to talk to you and answer any questions that are relatable. They're just beautiful and it's made such a big difference to feel so supported.

I know I feel so supported by all of you, so thank you. That means everything to me. I feel supported by my wife, my mom, and my chosen family. I mean, it's just beyond anything I could ever imagine. But to also have that kind of support in a hospital is pretty incredible. I know there are a lot of things that can't really do right now. But one of the things that I've found that's helped me is just focusing on "what can I do?" I can do what I need to do before taking all my medications. I can do that really well. With my mind and my thought processes, I can do that really well. 

Just like an athlete that has an injury, everything doesn't just stop and you just sulk and get sad and miserable. Focus on what you can do and you do those things to the best of your ability. That's what I'm doing now. I'm focusing on what I can do and doing that to the best of my ability. I'm appreciating everything that I can do and putting all my faith in God that I'm exactly where I need to be.

But to all of you struggling with anything, focus on what you can do and do that to the best of your ability. Because we create our experiences. I could make this an absolute misery or I can get as much joy and happiness at every moment as I possibly can. And that's my goal. So to all of you thank you so much. To my beautiful wife whose arm is getting tired. I love you all so much. Thank you for your love and support. It means everything to me and it means everything to my wife as well because she's going through this, too. 

Day 7, 21 to goto remission. The goal is21 days hoping to go into remission, at which point I could then go into my transplant, which is the big step. So that's the goal. I love you all so much. Thank you.

 For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Good morning, everyone. Welcome to the Bed Head Chronicles.

Today, I've obviously been doing a lot of thinking about life and how interesting it can be. We often go through our lives feeling like we are controlling everything we need to in order to get the result that we are hoping for. For example, with me, I've got this great diet and I eat healthily, I exercise, I take care of my mind, body, and spirit -- everything I do with my athletes I do with myself. But there are no guarantees with anything.

I would say that what's even more important than trying to control everything is having faith. Having faith when unexpected things happen means knowing that they are happening for a reason.

I've been reading this amazing book, The Four Sacred Agreements, and there is such amazing stuff in there. There was one part where they were talking about how trees shed all their beautiful leaves in the winter -- I've looked at this and even spoken about this in the past in the Bed Head Chronicles about how beautiful it is to let go because it makes room for us to come back more beautiful than ever. In this respect, when it comes to what I'm dealing with my diagnosis, I feel that sometimes in life in order to reach that next place -- you get to a point where you have learned everything you need to learn. You feel like you've got it. Life is great. My life was absolutely everything I dreamed it to be. And it still is, aside from this, as far as having the love and the job I've always dreamed of, a love for myself that I worked so hard for my entire life, living in a place where not a day goes by and I look out the window thinking about how blessed and how grateful I am, a strong and beautiful group of core friends that bring me so much joy.

But, still, I believe that even if we've got it -- even if we've got our system figured out, there's more for us. My faith leads me to believe, with all my heart, that I need to shed all my leaves as the tree does in the winter. Even though that leaves me standing exposed and raw and scared, this is what will allow me to acquire everything else I need to truly go to the next place in my life that's waiting for me. When I look at it this way and have faith, everything that happens in our lives is part of the journey we were meant to have. When you focus on this being life happening for you, not to you, it gives us extra strength to take on anything that is ahead.

For me, I go to the hospital on Monday and the journey begins. It's going to be the biggest challenge of my life, by far. But, again, I always talk about focusing on what you have, not what you don't have. What you want, not on what you don't want. I am focusing on the beautiful love from my wife, my mom, my dear friends and from all of you. Your love, support, and prayers mean everything to me. I'm focusing on that. I'm focusing on my love for myself and the fact that I know that I've been through very hard and tough situations before and found a way to break through and make it to the other side. I know I have that strength in me. I know I was so stifled at the time by my fear. But I know that I made it through that.

I speak this, not just about me, but for any of you that are faced with something that is terrifying you or bringing you to your knees. This is for you, too. What will help get us through this, heal and be our very best for the task at hand is to focus and appreciate what you have.

I am appreciating the health that I have now -- the health that maybe for a little bit in my future. I wake up and I say I'm thankful for my health on this day and the water that I drink (may it heal me). I'm thankful for these two hands that have allowed me to do so much in my life. Focus on what you have, not what you don't have. I am going to focus on the fact that I'm facing this huge challenge that's going to take me away from my home that is my sacred space for a long time. But home is where the heart is. I get to bring my heart and my wife and my mom. I get to have access because of social media, which is a beautiful thing because it allows us all to be there for one another. I get to bring that with me. I'm going to focus on healing, strengthening and growing and expanding my understanding of life and everything that comes onto our path when we don't expect them. I'm going to focus on all the beautiful things that come from this. I'm also going to focus on sharing this with you no matter what I end up looking or feeling like as the weeks go by. I will be here for you because I will have you learn and grow on this journey through me. We're in this together.

I'm not being weak right now. I am going to share this with you the entire way. Because we're going to get through this together. I hope that in getting myself through this, I'm also going to help others get through their own challenges as well.

Be strong. Focus on what you want. Life is happening for us, not to us. When we look at it that way, we will see that there are so many gifts, there's so much magic, there's so much grace when we're going through something like this. But you have to know that it's there and open your eyes to it. That's what will give you strength and faith.

To all of you, thank you for being a part of this journey with me. Thank you for your love and support. To those of you facing challenges, I'm with you. We've got this. We're going to get through this. We're going to come out of this better, stronger, happier and with a more expanded spirituality and understanding that will allow us to be even greater beacons of light in this world -- for ourselves and everyone around us. And thanks to our creator.

Thank you, everyone, I love you. Have a wonderful day.

For more tips and advice about living an authentic life go to https://www.sirilindley.com/authentic/

Good morning, everyone.  And welcome to the Bed Head Chronicles.

Today, I want to talk about when somebody in your life -- or you, yourself -- somebody that you love or someone you just hear about is given some really bad news. 

Just last week, I was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia. I don't want you to feel sad for me or pity me because I truly believe that God only gives us what he knows we can handle. We are given things that will take us to a whole new level spiritually with the things that we learn and the things that go through us during these challenging times.

I am going to get through this. I am going to make this my most beautiful victory. I am going to find a way to use the word "leukemia" or "cancer" be something that people don't feel weakened but allows us to strengthen amidst the challenge. I truly believe that through this process at working at getting through this and getting it out of my system, there will be so many beautiful things that I experience along the way. One of them, already, is the incredible depth of love in my relationships -- with my wife, mom, dad, sister, my mother-in-law, my sister-in-law, my beautiful close friends who mean everything to me. The depth of love and caring is beyond magical.

I often said in my talks who a lot of us don't start living until we're faced with our own mortality or someone we love is facing their own mortality. That we don't truly live until we feel we may not have our life forever. We realize the fragility of it...

Sorry, I got cut off there...

I have always been someone that wants to live life to the fullest every minute.  I love my life now.

There was a time when I was terrified and in a really rotten place when I was about 18 years old.  I didn't think I can handle it anymore. You all know this story when I read the book, Unlimited Power, by the amazing Tony Robbins. It completely changed and saved my life at that time because it made me realize I was in charge of my own experience of life. If I wanted to be happy, it was up to me. It all depended on what I focused on, the meaning I gave things and what I chose to do about it. 

Since then, I've really lived my life in finding the gift in every moment, appreciating the beauty all around us, finding the gift in every struggle; that's been the way that I live my life. I am so grateful for that because being faced with this diagnosis, I know that if I focus on all the solutions and not the problem, that's going to help me. If I focus on all the beauty like the deep and rich relationships -- this incredible deep love and passion that I share with those closest to me -- it's such a beautiful gift. There are so many gifts that will rise from this struggle. Being able to understand that I've always been a great giver, but I've always really struggled to receive, to take in love and take in what really makes me feel so good to give -- this is the lesson in that. This will bring greater depth and beauty into my life by not only being able to give but to truly receive and believe that I deserve this love, care, and support.

There are so many beautiful gifts that will come from this struggle.  We all know that living in a beautiful state comes from being able to empower yourself in every moment with thoughts of gratitude, of love, of aliveness.  Focusing on abundance and the things that empower us to be able to do more, be more, create more and feel more joy, rather than focusing on the things that drain us and deplete us of our energy.

Yes, acute myeloid leukemia is not something anyone wants to hear. But I know that I have everything inside of me. The love and support around me, and the incredible doctors, I know I will get through this.

Am I scared? Yes, I am scared. I know there's going to be some really tough moments that will probably bring me to my knees.  That's scary.  But I also know that I have been scared before.  I've been scared and terrified before, and every single time  I made it through. Every single time I found my courage or developed even more courage. I found a way to get to the other side. And that's exactly what I'm going to do right here.

I love you all so much. I can't thank you enough for your love, support, prayers, and your thoughts. They mean absolutely everything to me.

For all of you, whether you are someone that's dealing with a bad prognosis or someone in your life is having to go through this, we all need to put our focus and thoughts to a place that will bring us healing, energy, love, and light. Do not sit in spaces that bring us down, weaken us and make us even more vulnerable.  We need to be strong. We need to be positive. We need to focus on solutions. We need to focus on the gift in every struggle. We need to be living in a beautiful a state as we can so that we can bring all our power, our life force, our love, our energy into creating the outcome we all want, and that is healing, living, thriving and being the very best that we can be in this beautiful gift of life that we have all been blessed with.

Thank you, everyone. I love you. I will keep posting Bed Head Chronicles. I actually have a separate thing going that I just keep recording and stashing away, which is my Cancer Chronicles. I think it's empowering to say the word cancer. It's okay. Many of us go through this, and I hope to be able to talk about it in a way that strengthens people. To give them the energy, inspiration and life force inside to truly breakthrough and get rid of any disease that they're faced with.

I love you all. Thank you and have an amazing day.

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