I'm talking to My Puerto Rican Spice, Isaiah Miranda in this episode of my podcast and I want everyone to send this episode to him. Recently, I lost three aunts, an uncle and now my grandfather. In my fucked up life, there's a lot of unhappiness and misery going on and I talk about my desires of making it to my dreams and escaping my trauma. I talk about my love and respect for Isaiah, my thoughts of him blocking me on YouTube for no reason and much more. I talk about memories I had with my grandfather and how Isaiah Miranda himself inspires my family. Please send this episode to Isaiah Miranda himself and tell me what you think of the episode by emailing me at [email protected].

Nikita Dragun, a transwoman YouTuber, model and makeup artist is under fire for her remarks against black women, biological women, men and transmen. She basically said that "transwomen are women and that transmen ARE NOT men." So I went off on her and added a lot of respect to biological women's names. But Ms. Dragun IS NOT black and CANNOT speak on black people's issues. Stupid people SHOULD NOT have a platform and Nikita was doing this for attention. She needs to love herself because I heard a woman who doesn't know who she is and is tearing down the same people who made her. Transwomen got their mannerisms from biological women and the least they can do is respect biological women. Nikita is an idiot and shouldn't have a platform. The backlash against her is coming and she gonna feel it real good. But tell me what you think about Nikita's remarks. Is she an idiot? Is she right? Please email me at [email protected].

So I watched Noelle Leyva's video of her father and Isaiah Miranda wrestling and I thought Isaiah was gonna lose. But he bowed out. This rejuvenated my love for martial arts because I used to do boxing and judo years ago and am trying to get back to martial arts. I have one request and that's to WRESTLE Isaiah Miranda. I don't have a background in wrestling, but I have a background in judo and it'll be interesting. Would you guys like to see a Josiah Bhola Hillaire and Isaiah Miranda wrestling match? If so, please email me at [email protected]. Enjoy the podcast and I can't wait to hear from you guys.

I talk about my issues with depression, why I talk about Isaiah Miranda so much, my suicidal episodes, tiredness, fatigue and other issues in MY life. I also talk about the recent deaths of loved ones and the current situation with a living loved one. I also address the trolls and respond. Please email me at [email protected] and tell me what you think of this episode.

I talk about Flame Monroe and how she used comedy to help me get through the loss of my Aunt Patricia and also how she's helping me with my depression. I promised my Aunt Patricia that I would meet Flame Monroe, Isaiah Miranda and people who inspire me and I intend on honoring that promise. I talk about TT Jan and her podcast, Bold Azz Hell. But please support Flame Monroe on YouTube, listen to Laugh and Learn Podcast on Apple, Spotify and other platforms and she's in D.C. and it would mean a lot to me if you guys would go to Flame's show and support her.

I talk about my frustrations with life, the fact that I keep sweating a lot, the fact that I deal with a lot of stress and anxiety and I'm tired. I'm tired of people younger than me getting the chance to shine while I have TWO fucking degrees and still struggling to make it to my dreams. But please listen to this podcast and share this with loved ones. I want to grow this podcast, but I can't do it by myself. Please email me at [email protected] and tell me what you think.

I talk about J'Ouvert and my dislike of it after the murder of my friend, Tiarah Poyau. I also talk about my issues with cowards having access to guns. I talk about how this fucked up country has been disrespecting African Americans and not giving us the props we truly deserve. Black people are the last people hired and first people fired and this country DOES NOT want to see black people succeed. Please email me at [email protected] because I wanna hear your thoughts on this episode.

I share my frustrations with God, life and how everything's always going wrong in my life. I even talk about my frustrations with people younger than me living their dreams while I'm still suffering. I wish I was living my dreams, spending time with Isaiah Miranda himself and telling him how I feel about him. I wish the rumora about him and Noelle would die. They're JUST FRIENDS and aren't dating. I wish I was reigning supreme and just live a happy life. I'm tired of living this fucked up life.

I was watching Bradley Martyn's video today while I was writing my script, applying for jobs and living my life. I saw some unkind comments about Noelle that didn't sit well with me. First off, Jesse James West DID NOT make Noelle. Mama and Papa Leyva made Noelle. Noelle Meyva MADE Noelle Leyva. And another thing, she said "Just because I'm with a guy or is friends with a guy DOES NOT mean that I'm sleeping with them. I have a lot of guy friends and I'm one of the guys." She's NOT with Isaiah Miranda, Bradley Martyn or anyone. How many times does she have to say that? If you don't like Noelle, leave and leave her the fuck alone. But don't disrespect her and try breaking her down because her content is inspiring to me and people out there. I wanna hear your thoughts on the episode today. Am I wrong for defending Noelle Leyva? If you think so, please call me at 1-800-I-DONT-GIVE-A-FUCK.

I'm working on a script called Mirror and as I'm working on my script, a lot of old wounds reappears. I talk about my first heartbreak from my mother and how it affected my relationships with my exes. I also talk about Noelle Leyva and her video and how she inspires me. I talk about my Aunt Patricia, Mama Leyva and how influential they are on me. But I wanna hear from you. How do you overcome a heartbreak from a parent and do you even recover from that? Email me at [email protected]. Thank you for joining me on my podcast.