Acceptance & Forgiveness - Forgiving Other People & Forgiving Ourselves
Kyla Edwards
Self Mastery Coach, she helps women overcome negative thinking & self doubt
One-on-one coaching program called “Elevate”
Q: What was your story of Self-Mastery & Forgiveness?
I grew up in a very white environment in the Caribbean, I’m mixed race
From an early age, I struggled with acceptance
I wanted to be white like everyone else around me
My mother’s partner was abusive to me. I really resented myself, I had a lot of guilt & shame
I wanted to be anyone other than myself
The environment I grew up in was very turbulent. It didn’t feel safe to be who I was or show emotion
I grew up resenting myself & who I was, including my sexuality
I couldn’t look myself in the eye. I got into unhealthy behaviors, and I had a deep sense of loneliness & not feeling fulfilled.
I would do whatever I could to avoid that pain inside
I was in a 5 year relationship, and when that ended I went even deeper into the pain & my addiction intensified
I had an incident where I got in trouble with the police, and that was the beginning of my path of change, my awakening
I moved to Australia with the hope of starting a better life
I said a prayer, asked for help, and my recovery process started
It was a journey of going back to my childhood & letting go of resentment, accepting who I am
Now I’m proud of who I am, I own my story
We’ve all done things to hurt others, we just may not be aware of them
I want to help others understand and grow awareness of their inner world and how their thoughts & actions affect others
Q: When you were at that crucial time, and you chose the process of self-discovery, what was it that really helped you go inwards & heal?
A:
Connecting to a higher power, something that was far greater than me
Looking at my story, realizing that it had happened in my past and I couldn't do anything about it. It was done
Realizing that all I could think about was what was happening in the present moment
I wanted to be a better person, I didn’t want to feel lonely and empty anymore
What I was doing wasn’t working. Nothing was changing, I was repeating the same mistakes
I knew it was time that I had to do something different
I started to take action to work with source
I started to look at why I was afraid, and what my contribution was to the resentment or fear (accountability)
I started understanding which point in the process I contributed to my own problem
I stopped seeing myself as the victim
In the beginning it was a lot of letting go of resentment, and now it’s more of a soul journey
Q: I can feel that the acceptance piece was such a huge part of your evolution. What do you feel acceptance is, and forgiveness is?
A:
Acceptance is the sense of belonging to yourself
Accepting the parts of yourself that you want to hide away or reject
Accept your current situation as it is, even the parts that you’d rather not admit
Understanding that who you are & what you’re experiencing right now is what you’re meant to experience. Letting go of attachment to the outcome and to the emotion.
Forgiveness brings inner peace & joy
If you can’t forgive somebody, that’s the ego-mind seeing it as a sign of weakness
Really, forgiveness is letting go of anger. It’s acknowledging that something happened, but you’re not going to let it hurt you anymore.
Understanding that others are in pain, or they wouldn’t have done the things that they did
Look at things with compassion
Make a decision not to let the anger & resentment control you anymore
If you hang on to pain, you’re literally re-traumatizing yourself over and over again
It takes courage to let go
If you want space for new energy to enter, you have to forgive
When you forgive, it’s surrendering your ego, practicing humility & aligning more with your true nature
Forgiveness is probably one of the most important teachings to be able to create a new life for yours