I am a grown ass man and I recently had one of those experiences where I woke up and felt like I had to apologize. Even as a young man I thought that one's drinking is out of hand if he or she has to apologize for his actions the next day. I've woke up like that a few times in the past year, and I got to say, it's not ok.

In this episode, I talk about why I shouldn't be drinking in the first place but also go over some hints that indicate that I'm an alcoholic. It's eye-opening for me, really.

I knew I was an addict and thought that my addiction was to food, specifically sugar. Of course, I have fallen off that wagon and am dealing with the fact that I just ate some cookies right now. While I attended my meetings, I always thought to myself that I was glad I didn't have to give up booze—glad I wasn't an alcoholic. I couldn't imagine what it would be like to hang out with my friends and family and not have a beer (code for getting shit-faced). Well, guess what?

With recent events blowing up the internet, I have been asking myself, What EXACTLY is the NRA? I asked on twitter and facebook and got zero responses. Does anybody really know? I took to their website and found some answers.

So... the NRA is a gun safety and training school? That's not a bad thing I guess, but I can't help but wonder why a school is so influential on our government? Also, what does a school have members and not just students—each paying separate fees?

Still confused I continued to ask the question, What the eff is the NRA? I got an answer on a drive in the Rockies with a close friend of mine. His answer: A church. He was absolutely right.

In this episode, I talk about the similarities between the NRA and a church.

Is everything we know about relationships from TV and the movies?

I'm not sure where I heard it, but it was very recent. Someone was insinuating that how we view relationships is entirely based on pop culture. This is something I had been thinking on for a while. What have I been basing the potential of long quality relationships on? It also reminded me of a story in where I actually gave relationship advice to someone where I said the words, "This is not the movies."

In this episode, I relay this story and ask the question, Is everything we know about relationships based on TV and the movies. If we do, does this have a negative effect on our relationships?

I don't really have an answer here. I just ponder on this question for a bit.

I said this the other day, and it resonated with me. Then I posted it online with a picture, and it blew up. People loved it. I guess it resonated with a lot of other people as well. There are a lot of us out there that are moving forward with our dreams and goals regardless whether it's perfect or not. We are just doing it. Then there are the others, the ones that aren't doing anything out of fear. The fear of it not being perfect or fear that they will look bad doing it—that they'll make a mistake.

In this episode, I talk about how I am moving forward with my career as an author and how I have to fix some mistakes that I have made. How those mistakes could have been prevented but had I waited until everything was perfect, I wouldn't be at the point I am now—a published author with the third book in a series coming out very soon.

You may think, Hey I'm not an author what does this have to do with me. It has everything to do with you. Just insert any job or business you are interes

My worst week of #vanlife.

I have been plagued with breakdowns since the beginning of this year. This particularly sucks during my first winter in Colorado because if the engine doesn't run, I don't have heat. The biggest issue I have, I guess, is MONEY. Living off my savings, putting my van in the shop stresses me out.

That being said, in November I paid $500 for admission to a writer's summit in Austin, TX. I have since lost my job and was not sure I could afford to travel. I for sure couldn't afford the airfare and hotel room. I would have to drive my van. Shouldn't be an issue, right? I just spent nearly $2,000 in repairs over the past couple months. I should be good to go! The van broke down.

In this episode I tell the story, to include the events that lead to my breakdown in middle-of-nowhere Texas and eventually my tiny mental breakdown. This is a long-winded podcast, but I get to the life lesson towards the end. Emotions are a choice and I chose to lose my shit.

Why women shouldn't fake their orgasms.

Wrong! I am not going to tell anybody, especially women, what to do with their body. But it's a cool title for a podcast, no?

I am, however, going to share a story told to me by a close friend on how she realized what an impact faking her orgasms had on her and her relationship. Then I am going to relay how the lesson learned can be applied to every one of us in any relationship. (See this is not about sex!)

The truth shall set you free. Truth always wins. Don't spare anyone's feeling when it comes to how you should or want to be treated. People will treat you as poorly as you allow them. Draw that line, say no. You'll be surprised how many of us don't know we are mistreating you. How it is the last thing we want to do and all you have to do it tell us! Just tell us.

I believe it was Lee Greenwood who said it best, "I am proud to be a Mexican-American." Or was that Cheech Marin?

In this episode, I talk about how I recently realized how much I love being Chicano or, more commonly known as, Mexican-American.

I struggled for so many years trying to pick a side—trying to pick a culture. Mexicans encouraged me to be more Mexican. Americans encouraged me to be less Mexican. I have learned that our culture as Chicanos is a blend of two cultures. Trying to isolate one is like a Latino trying to pick their race on an application or census form.  There is no one answer that applies to us. We are a blend, a mixture

Our culture is not one or the other it's a combination of the two. It's Spanglish. It's turkey and stuffing on Thanksgiving and Tamales on Christmas. It's Tierra and Kool and the Gang, Mariachi and Hip Hop. It's my grandmother's fair skin and green eyes that causes people to assume my dad is white and my dark ass skin that causes peo

Let's talk about goals.

Goal setting has started to get a bad wrap here in the past couple years. Minimalists have gone so far in giving up things that they have given up goals. Some people have just changed the name of goals to "intentions." Whatever! As much I want to be a cool minimalist, I can't bring myself to give up goal setting. The biggest reason for this is IT WORKS.

In this episode, I talk about why I recently set a goal to buy a 4 million dollar ranch in the Rocky Moutains. Why this goal is important and why it is the first goal like it I have ever set.

I also dig out my old "affirmations" book and review my old goals for the first time in a long time. I unveil that at least two of them have come true since setting them. It's crazy how this works.

Today I talk about how Action Kills Fear!

I go into detail of my recent #vanlife problems, specifically breakdowns. I have had a lot. I let them get to me, but I handle it. How? I took action.

If action kills fear, what kills all the other stuff we battle within our heads. Depression, anger, jealousy, hate, and everything else. I cover it in this episode of the David Soto Jr. Podcast.

I stammer through this episode. The flow I usually have isn’t there. The topics feel a little forced but they are good ones. Today I talk about two things that have come to mind lately.

-Everyone is hurting in someway

Everyone! I have taken this as my mantra and it causing me to feel something I lack, empathy.

-Nobody gives a shit about you

I have heard this a million times but it didn't sink in until the other day. It's the same reason why I don't follow a link for an article a friend wrote or buy a book a fellow other wrote. It's nothing personal but people instinctively look out for number one, themselves.