Some things you forget with time.

Others… your body keeps score.

Episode 12 of The Envelope Series opens the door to memory—not the kind you speak of, but the kind you feel.

This is a letter from my future self about addiction, comfort, and the fingerprints that sweet seduction leaves behind.

This one’s not just heard.

It’s felt—in your chest, your breath, your gut.

If this resonates with you, share it. Someone out there might need to know they’re not alone.

Eat Clean. Live Good.

Lou Riley

I said goodbye.

I tossed her out.

I stood tall in the mirror and told myself I was done.

But my body…

still remembered her.

This is Part II of the trilogy.

A love story wrapped in withdrawal.

A truth that lives not just in the mind—but in the blood, the bones, and the cravings.

You ever get a letter in your own handwriting… but have no memory of writing it?”

That’s how these started.

The Envelope Series is my journey inward—told through letters that sound like me, but come from somewhere wiser.

Episode 12 is about the residue.

When the habit is broken—

but the body still aches.

When the taste is gone—

but the memory lingers in your joints, your sleep, your silence.

And even when you want to be free—

your body begs for one more touch.

Episode 12: My Body Remembers Her

Drops Monday at 6:05 AM CT.

Because some things don’t live in your mind.

They live in your muscles.

And they don’t leave quietly.

This episode is the first in a powerful trilogy. A love letter. A breakup. A truth I didn’t want to speak—but had to.

I called her my lady love… my sweet bubbling brown sugar.

But she was never feeding me.

She was feeding off me.

And this time, I finally let her go.

“You ever get a letter in your own handwriting… but have no memory of writing it?”

That’s how these started.

The Envelope Series is a conversation between who I was and who I’m becoming.

Episode 11 is about a goodbye I had to speak aloud. It’s about the seductive comfort that nearly cost me my life.

It’s not just about food. It’s about freedom.

Letting Go isn’t easy—but it’s necessary.

Episode 12: My Body Remembers Her drops next Monday at 6:05 AM CT.

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Some threats don’t arrive with warnings.

They don’t shout.

They don’t make noise.

They wait.

They blend in.

They normalize themselves.

That’s the danger of a silent assassin — it doesn’t feel urgent until it’s already taken too much.

This episode is about facing what’s become culturally comfortable but biologically dangerous.

It’s about food, diabetes, hidden sugars, and the hard truth I couldn’t ignore after hearing Dr. Bobby Price speak.

It’s about survival, not judgment.

This envelope came with clarity.

And it came right on time.

Come inside.

There’s a stretch of the journey nobody talks about.

The stretch after the planting.

After the courage.

After the step of faith.

It’s the stretch where the ground stays silent.

Where storms rise.

Where old comforts start calling your name — tempting you to dig it all up and go back.

This envelope met me right there —

right in the middle of the silence,

right in the middle of the storm,

right when I was beginning to question everything I had planted.

The miracle isn’t just in planting.

It’s in protecting what you started…

especially when you can’t see it yet.

Come inside.

There’s a moment when hope has to give way to movement.

For a long time, I held onto hope — believing, dreaming, waiting.

But real change doesn’t happen because you hope harder.

It happens when you trust enough to plant… even when you can’t see the outcome.

This envelope met me right there —

at the line where wishing ends and working begins.

At the place where seeds go into the ground, not because the conditions are perfect,

but because faith is stronger than fear.

The miracle isn’t waiting somewhere down the road.

It’s already in motion.

You just have to plant.

Come inside.

I grew up looking for a miracle — expecting the impossible.

Sometimes it came loud, shaking the room.

Sometimes it came quiet, hidden in small wins and second winds.

This envelope is a reminder: trust what you can’t always see.

The miracle isn’t waiting somewhere far off.

It’s already moving — right here, right now.

Come inside.

Another envelope shows up.

Same handwriting.

Same steady pull to open it.

Still no memory of writing it.

Inside, the message wasn’t loud.

It wasn’t urgent.

It was… steady.

A whisper I had to lean in to hear:

“Healing isn’t punishment. It’s partnership.”

This episode isn’t about chasing exhaustion.

It’s not about breaking down.

It’s about rebuilding — breath by breath, step by step, rep by rep.

This is where the real work starts:

* Moving with intention

* Breathing with respect

* Trusting that real change doesn’t scream… it whispers.

Because the process?

The process is the point.

Let’s walk it out — one real, intentional step at a time.

Description:

Some fights don’t happen in the ring.

They happen in silence—behind closed doors, behind tired eyes, behind the mirror.

In this episode, I open a letter that reminds me of one of the greatest underdog stories of all time—Muhammad Ali vs. George Foreman. But this isn’t just about boxing. It’s about resilience. About believing in yourself when the odds—and sometimes even the people around you—don’t.

I talk about what it means to be in a fight that nobody sees. A fight for your health. For your peace. For your future.

And how some of my hardest rounds weren’t in the gym… but in courtrooms, in silence, and in years of trying to rebuild what was lost.

This episode is personal.

And it’s a turning point.

Key Message:

You don’t have to win every round. But you do have to keep showing up.

What’s Inside This Letter?

A reminder that strength isn’t always physical. That sometimes, the real power is just in deciding to get up—again.

Teaser:

And just when I thought the lesson was finished… the next envelope asked me to do something even harder:

Celebrate the small wins.

Some letters you open.

Others? You taste.

This one didn’t hit like the others.

It didn’t call me out.

It called me home.

Back to my kitchen.

Back to the flavors that once healed me.

Back to the truth I’ve known all along:

If life and death really lie in the tongue,

then the fuel for either… starts on the plate.

Whole Foods.

Plant-based.

Unapologetically intentional.

No guessing. No grazing. No hoping it works.

This time, I’m cooking with purpose—because this body of mine has been through enough.

Episode 4 is the shift.

It’s where The Envelope Series and Eat Clean. Live Good. finally shake hands.

Not with a pitch.

With a plate.

So if you’ve been waiting for the strategy behind the steps,

if you’ve been asking what makes the healing real—

This is it.

Tune in. Taste it. And if it feels right… let it nourish something deeper.

The next envelope is already waiting.