The Healers Notebook

8/8/22. A Lion’s Gate voice memo where 24 year old me decided I was done being afraid of my own potential. I’m speaking over the woman I wanted to become, the life I wanted to build, the love I wanted to receive, and everything I believed was waiting for me on the other side of fear.

Basically… one very long prayer, manifestation, and love letter to my future self.

A little love manifestation from 24 year old me. Speaking the kind of partnership I wanted into existence, down to the love, respect, protection, devotion, and yes… the tall handsome part too 😭

Little note from 28 year old me: this worked. I’m literally engaged to that man now.

24, considering the Peace Corps, thinking about love, money, purpose, and whether I’m supposed to be building a “real life” yet.

Meanwhile, my soul is basically yelling: girl, go live.

In this first entry, I’m 23, newly living in Seattle, signed with a modeling agency, working in childcare, and sitting by the water trying to remind myself to stop forcing life and actually live it.

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

Thought I switch it up & do my affirmations from the "why" perspective. I think I heard it was supposed to be more powerful. 10/10

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

In my affirmations bagggg! Yes it felt cringy, and yes I did it anyway.

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

Sooo yeah this episode is pretty self explanatory, not my fav day.

Back story * I was rushing trying to put press on nails on in the car. Didn't have scissors to cut the tip of the nail glue off so decided a lighter was the next best option.

It exploded into my eye & here I am reflecting on bad choices loool do not advise

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

23 yrs old - figuring out love, maybe moving to Seattle, intuitive insight, weed, purpose & why I'm so hard on myself sometimes.

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

Sitting on the trampoline in my moms backyard, just graduated and not knowing wth to do with my life. Venting about purpose, relationship w my mom , living at home, discipline and needing direction.

A note from me: These are recordings that had been sitting in my Voice Memos. When I recorded them, there was absolutely no intention of ever sharing them with the world. They were for me, and me only.

They’re raw, unedited, and completely unfiltered. I’m sharing them now exactly as they were recorded.

If you listen from Episode 1 onward, you’re not just listening to a podcast. You’re witnessing the real time unfolding of my life, my thoughts, my healing, and my becoming.

New here? Start with Episode 1 and listen in order.

Back to the episode:

Just graduated college, sitting on the front lawn of Valdosta State, reflecting on Seat of The Soul by Gary Zukav. Very Gemini stellium of me.

Here are the questions if you would like to reflect on them too (:

1. Do you think a loving person is more evolved than a mean spirited person? Why?
2. Have you ever had a multisensory experience, or do you think you might have had one?
3. Do you ever feel or suspect that you have gifts to give? What do you think they are?
4. What makes a powerful person powerful? Who affects your life most powerfully?
5. What are some experiences of external power you’ve had? Have you had an experience of authentic power?