The Journey There

It's my birthday! 🎂 This week we talk about my Tagaytay adventures and misadventures, and my thoughts on growing up. Who am I now and who am I going to be next? I want my 22nd year to be the year I learn how to embrace the chaos of growing up and accept the woman I am becoming with open arms.

What does it mean to be a Hot Girl? Honestly for me, not much else changed about who I am or how I look but it was really just a shift in perspective that finally let me enter this new phase in my life. I see now that I am and always have been worthy of good things in my life and I am going to do more to demand for what I deserve. That's what a Hot Girl is to me.

Happy Pride Month everyone! 🏳️‍🌈 This week I talk about how different it's been in my straight relationship as compared to when I was in my gay one. I talk about the differences in communication styles, gender roles, and even biphobia. I also answer the most asked question of all: who does it better? 

This week was full of moments that did not go according to plan and as a control freak, it killed me inside. Little by little though I saw these little things fall into place and this little misdirections actually got me where I am supposed to be. I think I'm starting to believe in God's plan more and more now.

Finally at the finish line, I am able to look back at senior year and all that I've learned from it. I've come to terms with the chaos that's to come from the real world and I am ready to enter it all with an open mind, but it took a lot for me to get here. I share my struggles dealing with the loneliness of pursuing my dreams and whittling down my social circles to the ones who matter most. I share how I found inner peace through embracing the storm. 

We're back with the GradWaiting series, and probably with one of my favorite episodes to date. I know that you guys were with me through my junior year, but I don't think I ever talked about junior year like this. Looking back at it all now, I see that the heartbreak I experienced was mostly inflicted on by myself and the ideal I always wanted to follow, but couldn't. 

Lots has happened in these past few days, and I would really love if we could just sit down and talk about it. I think we all need a big, tight hug.

Ah yes, Sophomore Year. The year where everything fell apart and where I made the worst mistakes of my college life. I'll be the first to say I was a really bad person for all the things I did, and I deserved the hell I got from it. This week, I talk about the boys (and girls) I loved and lost that year, and what I learned from it all. 

As I'm approaching graduation I can't help but look back at all the years I spent in college... and cringe. Freshman Year of college was perhaps one of the most emotionally chaotic years I spent in Ateneo, but still is packed with a few iconic moments that made their way into being core memories. I talk about the time I dated a blockmate, the time I got ousted by my entire block, and the time I thought I was going to be queen of the world. 

In all honesty I just had nothing to talk about HAHAHA so I just rambled on and I realized how pressed I am about Emma Chamberlain's burn out. It was humbling to realize that even influencers have it hard and there is no such thing as an easy job.