Sigmar Berg is an Austrian-born architect, photographer, artist, and former fashion designer whose life changed drastically after a single guided breathwork session. In the session, the teacher used 528Hz, a tone known as the "love frequency".  Sigmar has since created a small flute-like device you wear and breathe through so the exhale becomes one note that plays 528hz. He wrote a book, founded a California nonprofit working with schools and veterans, and now brings his mission of love and healing to The Junkyard Love Podcast community. 

This long-form spiritual podcast conversation moves through breathwork and nervous system regulation, living from the heart instead of the intellect, morning and night practices to ease anxiety, 528 Hz and the older musical scales around it, heart coherence, authenticity, intuition, and why he thinks the path works better when you keep it... light. A fascinating chat with unorthodox teacher Sigmar Berg.
Check out more of his work here:

Lovetuner: https://www.lovetuner.com

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lovetuner528hz/

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/LOVETUNERMALIBU/

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@Lovetuner528hz

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/sigmar-b-310114b/

Book (One Journey): https://www.amazon.com/One-Journey-Lovetuner-Sigmar-Berg/dp/1960583743

CHAPTERS 

00:00 Welcome to The Junkyard Love Podcast with guest Sigmar Berg

00:42 Who is Sigmar Berg and what is the Lovetuner breathwork device

01:51 The Aqua Journey guided meditation that started his spiritual awakening

04:10 From architecture and fashion design to a 528 Hz love frequency tool

07:32 Living from the head vs living from the heart

09:20 Heart coherence, thoughts per day, and spiritual hygiene

11:20 Breathwork for beginners: why a slow exhale regulates the nervous system

13:05 Fight or flight, yoga nidra, and breathing like you are blowing through a straw

16:57 Morning breathwork practice vs using tools only in an emergency

18:40 Setting the tone of the day

20:15 Night practice, cortisol, sleep, and waking at 2am

22:32 Choosing what you start the morning on

24:55 What is 528 Hz? Solfeggio frequencies and the love frequency

26:40 Nature, bees, chlorophyll, and how 528 Hz shows up in the living world

28:55 Concert pitch at 440 Hz and the forgotten note

31:20 Sound healing, church organs, and older musical scales

33:11 Music, group coherence, dancing, and raising frequency together

34:41 Authenticity in spiritual practice

37:00 Individual breathwork and collective spiritual awakening

40:13 Schumann resonance and a rising planetary frequency

42:30 Trust your intuition and your own channel

45:55 Keep spiritual practice light

47:20 One Journey the book and where to find Lovetuner

50:28 Subscribe to The Junkyard Love Podcast - find clips from the show @jacobfromtheinternet

QUOTES (from Sigmar during our conversation)

"This frequency triggers something in you that takes it out of your head, into your heart."

"Hearts are always curious. What literally separates us is our intellect."

"It's kind of cheating because it's a shortcut to meditation."

"You're setting the tone of the day."

"The most important thing is to slow down the exhale."

"Authenticity is actually the key to wholeness."

"If you look on the outside, you become a dreamer. If you go inside, you awaken."

"Breath is basically your best friend."

"Keep it light. Don't take it too serious."

"Trust in yourself. This is your channel to the divine."

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Junkyard Love Podcast, long form spiritual podcast, breathwork podcast, spiritual awakening, unorthodox teachers, Sigmar Berg, Lovetuner, 528 Hz, solfeggio frequencies, heart coherence, nervous system regulation, meditation for beginners, living from the heart, authenticity

Dr. Cristine Hull is an integrative mental health practitioner, author, and developer of the Zero Point Meridian technique. With a Master’s in Psychology and a Ph.D. in Natural Medicine, she brings over two decades of experience as a substance abuse counselor, school psychologist, and private practitioner. Drawing from her own journey through depression, anxiety, addiction, and a profound spiritual awakening, Cristine works at the intersection of brain chemistry, energy medicine, and the quantum field. She is the creator of the Four Bodies model and trains practitioners in tools that address the physical, vital, mental, and quantum levels of healing. Based in northern Utah, she continues to teach, write, and guide people toward deeper wholeness through her work at Health, Healing & Wholeness.

In this episode, Cristine and I cover a wide-ranging conversation that moves from brain chemistry and addiction into spiritual awakening, energy medicine, and what real healing actually requires.

Cristine shares her personal journey through severe depression, anxiety, and substance use, and how those experiences led her into decades of work as a counselor and integrative practitioner. She introduces her Four Bodies model (physical, vital, mental, and quantum) and explains why most lasting change has to address more than just the physical level. The conversation explores sugar as part of the narcotic continuum, the difference between dopamine and endorphin addiction, the spiral of recovery she developed while teaching in a jail, and the powerful spiritual experience she had on Yom Kippur that shifted everything. We also dig into entities and generational energy, the development of her Zero Point Meridian technique, the “neutral game” for quieting the mental body, and why conventional mental health often falls short with personality disorders and chronic pain. Cristine closes by pointing back to the deeper truth underneath the endorphin chase: capital-L Love.

Timestamps

• 0:00 – Elevator pitch / “junkyard love” framing and four bodies intro
• 1:30 – Four Bodies for Medicines ebook and physical vs. vital/mental/quantum
• 3:00 – Wind analogy for spirit/effects on the physical body
• 4:30 – Personal history: chemical imbalance, depression, anxiety, substances
• 6:30 – First career in substance-abuse counseling; self-medication insight
• 8:00 – Serotonin, carbs, Potatoes Not Prozac, wheat sensitivity discovery
• 9:30 – Endorphins as “inner orphan” / morphine parallel; sugar as narcotic continuum
• 11:00 – Dopamine vs. endorphins; cocaine, bipolar diagnosis, mastering the middle path
• 13:00 – Love addiction, romantic craving, spiral model (abstinence → moderation → attainment)
• 15:00 – Jail curriculum development; 20 years clean vs. relationship patterns still unresolved
• 16:30 – Yom Kippur night/boyfriend breakup; Day of Atonement context
• 18:00 – Light shaft experience through the crown/spine; “whole and complete through divine connection”
• 19:30 – Kundalini as vital-body tool (chakras, meridians, aura)
• 21:00 – Growing up Christian, leaving religion, seeking freedom from guilt and pain
• 22:30 – Cocaine phase; friend returning from overdose funeral; entity/attachment theory
• 24:30 – “Perverse energy” (Quantum University language); generational clearing
• 26:00 – First Kundalini session clearing grandfather’s heavy emotion
• 27:30 – EFT training (2002–2003, Gary Craig); shift to private practice
• 29:00 – Zero Point Meridian (ZPM) development; claimed superiority data vs. EMDR
• 31:00 – Mental body chaos of positive/negative thinking; neutrality / “neutral game”
• 34:00 – Yoga entry via client accountability + Baron Baptiste Journey into Power
• 36:00 – Gap between stimulus and response; mind-body necessity of yoga
• 37:30 – TM interest; Vipassana documentary (Doing Time, Doing Vipassana)
• 39:00 – Mahasati movement meditation; fear that stillness = non-existence / black hole
• 41:00 – Moving through zero; zero-point field → unified field; John Hagelin / Frank Kinslow
• 52:00 – Limits of conventional mental health on personality disorders (narcissism, borderline, ego structures)
• 54:00 – Spiritual/quantum solution as transformative where pills and talk therapy fall short
• 56:00 – Quantum Solutions Masterclass / ego-structure component
• 57:30 – Chronic pain and the pain body (Eckhart Tolle); noticing pain-free body parts as anchors
• 59:00 – Endorphins at quantum level = capital-L Love; closing gratitude

KEYWORDS:
Four bodies model, Zero Point Meridian, ZPM technique, quantum body, vital body, endorphin continuum, sugar addiction recovery, love addiction spiral, attainment model, perverse energy, generational clearing, Yom Kippur awakening, Kundalini vital body, neutral game mindfulness, Quantum Wholeness Meditation, Love Solve Method, Frequency Formulas, personality disorder spiritual solution, pain body Eckhart Tolle, brain chemistry natural balance, EFT to ZPM evolution, Cache Valley healer, integrative mental health Utah.

Checkout more Cristine here! :

Website: Cristine Hull

Youtube - Health, Healing, & Wholeness - YouTube

Instagram - Author Cristine Hull (@cristine.author)

LinkedIn - Cristine Hull PhD Linkedin

FaceBook - Author Cristine Hull • Facebook

Quotes from Cristine in the episode:
“Love is an answer. It’s a solution for sure.”

“The wind is actually the spirit. The effects are the physical body.”

“Endorphins… stands for inner orphan, which like morphine… highly addictive… sugar.”

“The trick was not to try to change it and stay up. The trick was to realize when I was down, there was some work to do…”

“Really, all that matters is that you are whole and complete through a divine connection. And you bring your whole self to it.”

“I believe the person who overdosed came with her and walked through the door… this entity… attached to me.”

“If we try to use the mind to correct the mind, we can get just a lot of chaos… the solution… is neutrality.”

“There’s not a lot in mental health and psychology to solve personality disorders… the problem is because there’s not really a spiritual solution in the mental health field.”

“Notice where you’re not in pain - tune into even if it’s your hair… their hair doesn’t hurt, the tip of their nose probably doesn’t hurt…”

“What people are looking for in the endorphin experience is love. And it’s a capital L-O-V-E…”

If you enjoyed our conversation - please like, subscribe, and we'll see ya next on the next episode!

Today we’re diving into something we use every day - our voice. Most of us are walking around with an unconscious default voice that’s been patched together from old stories, childhood wounds, cultural expectations, and whatever got us through the day. But what if that voice isn’t really you?

Meet Barbara McAfee - voice whisperer, author, singer, and playful catalyst for authentic expression. For more than three decades, Barbara has helped people shed vocal habits shaped by old stories and step into voices that feel truly like home. Through sound, story, character work, and her Five Elements system, she makes voice liberation both profound and ridiculously fun. She's a master voice coach, bestselling author of Full Voice and Vocal Intelligence, and dynamic speaker whose two TEDx talks - including the widely viewed “Bringing Your Full Voice to Life” - have inspired hundreds of thousands of people worldwide. Her work has reached leaders, organizations, international educators, community singing movements, and countless individuals through keynotes, retreats, coach trainings, and her beloved Morning Star Singers hospice choir.
Barbara, in so many ways, graces us with her presence on The Junkyard Love Podcast to remind us that our voice is the primary way we shape our world.

Your voice is the instrument that shapes your expression on the way out. What we really 'mean' is upstream of the voice, and how we express what we really mean is changed by the voice - our life is lived downstream of our ability to express ourselves. Our expressions are interpreted by one another through an infinite number of micro movements, frequencies, rhythms, pheromones, sensory perceptions, biological responses, and so many more - but our voices carry truths even our own conscious perception can’t filter out. Barbara shares that our voices are often shaped by past traumas, survival strategies, cultural pressure, and old stuck identities - and she teaches us how to release those unconscious holds in our physical body, allowing the voice to open and flow without restraint. 

In this back-and-forth conversation, we cover how most of us are unconsciously wearing what Barbara calls a “vocal girdle” - that invisible tightness and restriction we build over years from old wounds, family expectations, and cultural pressure that keeps our voice smaller and safer than it wants to be. She shares how we can gently loosen and remove it through her joyful Five Elements framework (Earth, Fire, Water, Metal, and Air), by playing with characters and archetypes, and through simple, everyday practices like laughing through the different sounds, voicing your yawns, and reading children’s books out loud. We also explore the magic of group singing, the power of pretending to be someone else, code-switching with awareness, and why freeing your voice changes so much more than just how you sound - it changes how you show up in every part of your life.

If you’ve ever felt like your voice doesn’t quite match who you really are inside, this conversation is full of heart, laughter, insight, and practical tools you can start using right away - to start speaking with your real voice.

Key Topics Covered:

• Unconscious vocal habits and the “vocal girdle” most of us wear
• How childhood experiences and trauma shape our voice
• The Five Elements Framework for vocal freedom
• Playing characters and archetypes to access hidden parts of yourself
• The power of group singing and collective connection
• Practical daily tools to open and strengthen your voice
• Code switching, ego, and authentic flexibility
• Voice work for leaders, creatives, and everyday life

Chapter Timestamps (YouTube & Podcast Platforms)

• 00:00 – Why Most People Are Stuck in an Unconscious “Default” Voice
• 00:58 – The “Vocal Girdle”: How Old Wounds and Expectations Restrict Us
• 02:13 – How Childhood Trauma and Family Secrets Shape Your Voice Long-Term
• 04:10 – The Five Elements Framework (Earth, Fire, Water, Metal, Air) Explained
• 05:40 – Barbara’s Personal Story: Overcoming Fear of Singing Solo
• 08:32 – The Secret Power of Playing Characters and Archetypes
• 13:38 – Ego, “Brain Rats,” and Gently Expanding Beyond Your Comfort Zone
• 22:55 – Practical Voice Tools for Leaders, Presentations, and Difficult Conversations
• 30:29 – The Magic of Group Singing and Deep Human Connection
• 34:05 – Jacob’s Wild DJ Story: Unifying Experiences and Collective Flow
• 40:06 – Laugh, Yawn & Read Children’s Books: Easy Daily Practices to Open Your Voice
• 46:26 – Code Switching: Shifting Voices Authentically Across Situations
• 55:12 – Why Humans Crave Collective Ecstasy and Group Singing
• 01:01:40 – Barbara’s Books, Music, and Life’s Work
• 01:12:45 – Current Retreats, Courses, and What’s Next for Barbara
• 01:17:01 – Final Wisdom and Closing Reflections

Learn practical voice exercises and how to speak with more confidence and authenticity.

Key Quotes from Barbara

• “Most of us are using our kind of unconscious default voice that we think is us, but it’s not. It’s cobbled together with duct tape and popsicle sticks and trauma…”
• “We’re all kind of wearing a vocal girdle.”
• “Pretending to be somebody else is kind of the secret sauce.”
• “The parts of my voice I hate the most have the greatest gifts for me.”
• “Our voice is the primary way we shape our world.”
• “Singing is like the mycelial connections between trees.”
• “Laughing is a great way to just open up the different sounds.”

Resources & Links

• Official Website: https://www.barbaramcafee.com/
• TEDx Talk (Full Voice): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ze763kgrWGg & https://www.audible.com/pd/Vocal-Intelligence-Audiobook/B0GJ6S1JS3?clientContext=133-8676392-2129631&loginAttempt=true&noChallengeShown=true&srsltid=AfmBOorP30WNp0kMoRLLeUmuQ5u-QS5iM86MSz-MzEmJclaZfpu6Na-h&showMosaicSSOView=true&showAmznLopSignalBanner=true
• Books (on audible, physical copy, or Kindle!): Full Voice: The Art and Practice of Vocal Presence and Vocal Intelligence - https://a.co/d/0hOIWVoz // https://www.audible.com/pd/Vocal-Intelligence-Audiobook/B0GJ6S1JS3?clientContext=133-8676392-2129631&loginAttempt=true&noChallengeShown=true&srsltid=AfmBOorP30WNp0kMoRLLeUmuQ5u-QS5iM86MSz-MzEmJclaZfpu6Na-h&showMosaicSSOView=true&showAmznLopSignalBanner=true
• Music: https://barbaramcafee.bandcamp.com/
• Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/barbaramcafeesings/

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“I found this perfect Porsche Cayenne diesel, white with red interior, low miles, great service history. I hit the lady up, we agreed on a price, everything was lining up… and then it all fell apart. She sold it to some random guy for a thousand dollars more. I was pissed. I was fighting it. But then this little Mercedes GLA shows up at work - cash, fixed it myself, gets way better gas mileage, and it’s literally everything I wanted, just packaged differently. It doesn’t always show up as you expect. I asked, you provided. God was like, ‘No dude, I got you, this is actually better.’” - Tim

Tim Fraley - mechanic, musician, truth seeker, etc

Tim returns! We explore the tension between discipline and radical self-compassion, balancing masculine action with feminine receptivity, yoga and breathwork, perspectives on wisdom texts, Tim’s eye-opening visit to a mosque, astrology as a cosmic roadmap - We celebrate synchronicities, ego death, the courage to pray, the power of gratitude, and the quiet leadership we should strive for. This one is funny, profound, and deeply human - a reminder that the path isn’t about perfection: it’s about staying open, staying gentle, and trusting the next step. It's my pleasure to welcome back to the podcast, unorthodox teacher: Tim Fraley.

Notable quotes from the episode:

“To really be whole, you need the feminine. A man needs the feminine… the action, the masculine, and then there’s the giving and the receiving, the feminine.” - Tim
"You’re not a pu*sy if you don’t meditate perfectly today… Today wasn’t the day. Not every day you’re going to have enlightenment.” - Tim
“For me, meditation really started as moving my body and stretching… reconnecting with self.” - Tim
“Pray for your future self… God, shape me into the person I’m down here to be.” - Tim

for more Tim: @tangoteem87
for more Jacob: @jacobfromtheinternet

00:00 – Welcome Back & Reconnecting on the Spiritual Path

02:30 – What Does “On the Path” Really Mean? Spirituality vs Self-Improvement

06:45 – The Pendulum Swing: Discipline, Cravings & Self-Compassion for Men

11:20 – Balancing Masculine Drive & Feminine Grace

16:50 – Meditation, Yoga, Breathwork & Reconnecting With Your Body

23:40 – Prayer Practice, Gratitude & Praying for Your Future Self

29:15 – Yoga as Union, The Body Keeps the Score & Releasing Tension

36:10 – Astrology, the Bible & Finding Your Own Spiritual Language

44:50 – Visiting a Mosque, Religious Similarities & Open-Minded Faith

52:30 – Synchronicities, Signs from the Universe & The Celestine Prophecy

57:40 – The Porsche Story: Surrender, Divine Timing & Trusting the Redirect

1:08:20 – Ego Death, Nature Loves Courage & New Timelines

1:15:50 – Working on Cruise Ships, Reputation & Man Plans God Laughs

1:25:30 – Mentoring Young Men, Leadership & Being the Example

1:35:45 – How Tim Prays: Knees, Gratitude, Ancestors & Body Prayer

1:48:00 – Closing Wisdom & Final Thoughts

#JunkyardLovePodcast #SpiritualGrowth #MensWork #MasculineFeminine #MeditationForMen #SelfCompassion #EgoDeath #Synchronicity #PrayerPractice #YogaAndSpirituality #AstrologyWisdom #SpiritualAwakening #Brotherhood #Surrender #GentleWarrior #UnorthodoxTeachers #RamDass #DavidGoggins #TerenceMcKenna #PorscheStory

David, 80, has been teaching ministry for over 60 years. He has decades of experience as a minister, teacher, author, spiritual guide and sound healer - and has journeyed from a fundamentalist Christian upbringing to an inclusive spiritual vista that primarily champions love over fear. David is the founder and spiritual leader of the ‘Academy for Spiritual Awakening’ - a vibrant sanctuary blending things like Christian texts, Gnostic insights, Kabbalah, A Course in Miracles, and modern science to inspire transformation. David works extensively with ancient Solfeggio frequencies and tuning forks, his teachings and insights are weaved with various knowledge from qigong, meditation, 5D, building community, cellular shifts, unconditional love, star-seeds, and many more.

In this episode we talk ancient frequencies, 'Babes, Adolescents, and Co-Creative Adults', the overlooked gaps in sacred stories, inner knowing vs. structured faith, DNA revelations from quiet reflection, heart-centered sound work, stages of inner maturation, physical manifestations of soul growth, disorders leading to renewal, experiencing divine encounters, universal memory, sound's role in vitality, ecstatic energy release, community sanctuaries, creating lasting impact, shaping our destinies through community and much, much more.

Notable quotes from David in this episode:

“The path you’re really on should be the path to no path. We don’t need to get something we don’t have. We need to remember what we’ve forgotten.”

"Over the past six decades, I’ve moved beyond the traditional fundamentalist religious framework to embrace a broader, more inclusive understanding of spirituality."

“Don’t believe everything I say just because I say it. Take what resonates with your own innate intelligence. That’s where your own ‘I AM’ code comes in.”

“Transformation begins with chaos and disorder. The caterpillar doesn’t go through all that to become an enlightened caterpillar -it becomes a butterfly.”

"He said, I'm the way. And I think they cut out the way. You know, there's at 18 years missing in the Bible that nobody wants to talk about in Christian. Them. Like, okay, that wasn't important. He didn't say anything for 18 years that maybe you need to know."

“I want to work with what’s breaking through, not try to fix what’s breaking down.”

"I'm sure that old caterpillar goes, what in the world is going on here? You know, I've been nibbling on this leaf, and now there's I've eaten all my resources. I have nowhere to go but what's happening inside of me? I don't know what's happening."

Follow David Hulse here
Academy for Spiritual Awakening → https://sanctuaryforawakening.com
HeartLight Spiritual Center → https://www.heartlightcharlotte.org
SomaEnergetics (Sound Healing) → https://somaenergetics.com
Instagram: @academyforspiritualawakening

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TIMESTAMPS:
0:00 – Welcome & Awakening as Process vs. Event

3:30 – Western Product Mindset and the Missing 18 Years of Jesus

8:20 – Reevaluating New Age Teachings and Paradigm Shifts

14:10 – Gnosis, Innate Intelligence, and Suppressed Knowledge

21:00 – The 1980s DNA Meditation Download

29:00 – Discovering Solfeggio Frequencies & Tuning Forks

39:30 – Spiritual Growth Stages: Babes, Adolescents, Co-Creative Adults

47:30 – Cellular Awakening: Inner Becoming Outer

56:00 – Caterpillar Chaos to Butterfly Transformation

1:04:30 – David’s 17-Year-Old Awakening & Cosmic Story

1:11:00 – Starseeds, Critical Mass, and Global Evolution

1:15:30 – Gospel Roots, Sound Spirals & Energy as Currency

1:17:30 – Coccyx Activation, Etheric Blueprint & Tuning Fork Practice

1:18:30 – HeartLight Center, Academy Legacy, and Community Building

1:19:00 – Forgotten Pre-Incarnation Contracts and Future Activations

1:19:20 – Closing Wisdom: Walking Each Other Home

KEYWORDS:
spiritual awakening journey david hulse, solfeggio frequencies dna activation, tuning forks energy healing guide, cellular awakening symptoms explained, gnosis vs religious dogma, 5d consciousness transition podcast, caterpillar butterfly spiritual metaphor, pre incarnation contracts revelation, etheric blueprint sound therapy, energy currency manifestation techniques, spiritual stages babes adolescents adults, breakdown breakthrough motivation, junkyard love podcast full episode, ancient frequencies meditation practice, academy spiritual awakening review

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In this conversation, I sit down with Trey Jones. Trey Jones is a former convict who spent 10 years in a Tennessee prison, and while in prison, he had a near-death experience that awakened him to a very new and different perspective.

While tattooing, Trey was offered a bump, of which turned out to be fentanyl, that put him out for 18 minutes.

After six cans of Narcan and three defibrillator shocks, Trey awakened to a new lens on reality. He joins us to share his current teachings on victim mindset, his insights on what he calls ‘inverted narcissism’, and his wisdom as a coach - Trey moves now as a Personal Authority Coach under the moniker ‘PrisonToPurpose444’ (He’s the founder of ‘From Prison To Purpose’) - He does 1:1 interventions to dismantle victim identity and rebuild authority. He lives a more grounded life these days, as a proud father with his partner and son in the Great Northwest. I actually met him at the edge of a forest - where a gathering of dancing energy healers, eccentric thinkers, connecting artists, and modern shamans met to evolve together, transmute, and dance through their dharma as one. 

Please welcome to the podcast: Trey Jones.

For more details on what subjects we approached, check the time stamps below>

Timestamps:

0:00 – Morning rising ritual, meditation, and gratitude practice

4:00 – Mobility work, cold showers, and light breakfast for energy

7:00 – Why victim mentality is inverted narcissism and manipulation

12:00 – Fasting as a mental game and building willpower like a muscle

18:00 – The witness state in meditation and observing your thoughts

23:00 – Prison life, the fentanyl overdose, and the near-death turning point

28:00 – Instant perspective after dying and working through deep regret

33:00 – Cutting ties with old energies while allowing redemption

38:00 – God as energy, frequency, and universal consciousness

43:00 – The double slit experiment and how belief creates reality

48:00 – Identity shifts from manual labor to purposeful social media work

55:00 – Christ consciousness and the current global awakening

1:02:00 – Energetic healing, breathwork, and the power of mindset

1:08:00 – Levels of consciousness, empathy, and reading people

1:14:00 – Prison lessons on self-care first and real empathy with standards

1:22:00 – Synchronicities, interconnections, and past-life loops

1:30:00 – Pre-planned journeys, amnesia, and chasing your higher calling

1:36:00 – Final reflections and message to listeners

Notable quotes from Trey on the show:

“Victim mentality is just inverted narcissism.”

“Healing isn’t being understood. Healing is becoming someone that your past can no longer control.”

“Your willpower is a muscle. The more you exercise it, the stronger it is.”

“I don’t believe everyone has to die to find their true self.”

“Empathy without standards creates weak adults.”

“Staying hard is the quickest way to never change.”

“The true you is the witness behind it all.”

“We’re all just trying to pick different versions of ourselves up because we’re all a little piece of the puzzle.”

“If you have a dream or a higher calling, just fucking chase it. Nobody’s going to pursue your passions like you are.”

“Everything in my life needs to change, because everything in my life up to this point led me to this moment.”

“My purpose now is to offer the same perspectives I went through so people don’t have to reach the same levels of rock bottom.”

“Identity is your subconscious beliefs on who you are. You have to surround yourself with people who believe in the identity you believe in.”

“We come down here and everyone gets amnesia. The beauty of life is discovering life itself.”

Trey Jones turned:

 - a decade in Tennessee prisons

 - a fentanyl overdose that put him out for 18 minutes

 - and living in victim mindset

into a complete life reset.

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Insta - @prisontopurpose444

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What if mania isn’t a malfunction — but a message from the psyche trying to heal?

Sean Blackwell is an author, teacher, and researcher who has spent nearly two decades exploring the spiritual and somatic dimensions of bipolar disorder. His work challenges the mainstream psychiatric model by suggesting that episodes of mania, depression, and psychosis often have trauma roots and can reflect deep inner attempts at healing rather than symptoms of a broken brain.

In 1996, Sean went through a sudden and life-altering psychotic-spiritual emergency - an experience that would send him on a lifelong path of studying consciousness, trauma, and the symbolic nature of extreme states. Years later, after training with Grof Transpersonal Training, he developed Bipolar Breathwork, a somatic healing method designed to help people safely release the emotional and energetic blockages underlying bipolar symptoms.

Since 2007, Sean has taught internationally, run immersive healing retreats, offered long-distance breathwork sessions, and released dozens of educational videos to help people reframe bipolar disorder as a potentially meaningful and transformative process. His book Bipolar Awakenings and his upcoming second book continue this work - bridging psychology, spirituality, trauma science, and subtle-body energetics into a new way of understanding human breakdown and human growth.

Sean’s approach is deeply interesting, compassionate, and grounded in real lived experience - a perspective that has helped many people find hope, coherence, and self-understanding after years of confusion or misdiagnosis.

This episode explores the somatic roots of bipolar disorder, the symbolic language of psychosis, the role of trauma in extreme states, and how Kundalini and breathwork can create dramatic shifts in consciousness.

Notable quotes from the episode:

“People think delusions are random. But around the world, the same 13 spiritual delusions show up. There is structure.” - Sean
“Breakdowns often happen because something in us finally refuses to stay buried.” - Sean
“I’ve met so many people who weren’t sick - they were overwhelmed by a truth they weren’t taught how to carry.” - Jacob

“What psychiatry calls a disorder can be the beginning of a profound inner journey.” - Sean

“Trauma doesn’t live in the mind. It lives in the body - and the body tries to heal in dramatic ways.” - Sean
“The body whispers for years, and when we don’t listen, it eventually sends a storm.” - Jacob

“When those energetic blockages release, the result can look like mania, visions, or symbolic delusions.” - Sean
“Sometimes healing looks like falling apart in ways we can’t cleanly explain.” - Jacob

“The psyche speaks in myth and metaphor. Mania is often that language becoming audible.” - Sean

If this conversation expanded your understanding of bipolar disorder or spiritual awakening, consider following the show and sharing it with someone it might help.

00:00 Sean Blackwell on Bipolar Disorder & Spiritual Awakening
00:00:25 What Bipolar Disorder Really Is (Symptoms vs Reality)
00:01:30 Bipolar I, Bipolar II & Psychosis Explained
00:02:20 Spiritual Delusions & the Ram Dass Connection
00:03:38 Sean’s Landmark Experience: The Turning Point
00:05:05 Entering Psychosis: The Dreamlike State & Ego Death
00:06:32 Crisis, Hospitalization & Early Integration
00:08:05 How Helping Others Became Sean’s Calling
00:09:16 Supporting His Niece Through Awakening
00:10:49 Why Psychiatry Defaults to Lifelong Medication
00:11:35 Kundalini, Trauma Energy & Somatic Roots of Bipolar
00:14:11 Which Book to Read First
00:15:24 Breathwork, Distance Sessions & Trauma Release
00:18:53 Meaning, Intuition & Sean’s Multiverse Theory
00:21:27 Closing Reflections on Healing & Awakening

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In this conversation, I'm joined by mathematician, meditator, and machine learning engineer Blake Hull. 

We share stories of therapy, meditation, and Ram Dass, opening up after years of staying in the head, we unravel ideas of masculinity, expand on vulnerability, and dissect what it means to become safe in our own skin. We talk about anger as sacred energy, the strange geometry of emotion, and the daily ritual of saying “Good morning, Blakey Boy” - a quiet reminder that to heal isn't to change, it's to remember who you already are. This is a fluid dialogue that drifts through psychedelics, softness, the mathematics of love, friendship, wisdom - it's an episode that invites you to slow down, breathe, and feel something true. Together, The Great and Wonderful Blake Hull and I explore the space between intellect, emotion, and becoming what we are - I hope you'll join us.

Themes: therapy · masculinity · meditation · Ram Dass · psychedelics · inner-child · emotional intelligence · spiritual growth

Notable quotes from the episode:

“When intellect finally kneels to emotion, that’s when growth begins.”
- Blake, describing the moment logic yields to honesty.

“Emotions are information. You’d be stupid to ignore them.”
- Blake quoting a college professor who first reframed feeling as intelligence.

“When Jesus flipped tables, that was dharmic anger — anger in service of love.”
- Jacob, reframing anger as sacred energy rather than chaos.

“I feel most connected with you when you’re feeling.”
- Blake recounting a moment in therapy that changed his understanding of connection and vulnerability.

“Maybe consciousness has always been doing this — reflecting itself through whatever new medium we invent.”
- Jacob, near the close, connecting AI, identity, and awareness.

“Anger isn’t the problem. It’s what happens when we stop letting it teach us.”
- Blake, redefining emotional intelligence through presence.

TIMESTAMPS:

00:00:00 – Intro: Setting up, laughter, first exchange, Blake's Bio
00:02:15 – “I feel most connected when you’re feeling” – therapy and awareness
00:05:00 – Logic vs emotion: learning how to feel again
00:07:25 – Emotional intelligence and inner safety
00:10:45 – Anger as sacred energy (“dharmic anger”)
00:12:10 – Modern society, Idiocracy, and humor as medicine
00:15:23 – Aldous Huxley, psychedelics, and self-reflection
00:16:09 – Paul Stamets, microdosing, and consciousness
00:20:00 – Mushrooms, meditation, and integration
00:26:00 – Masculinity and vulnerability
00:31:00 – Meditation: honesty over peace
00:36:03 – “Good morning, Blakey Boy” – the inner-child ritual
00:40:03 – Ego, death, and Ram Dass on becoming somebody
00:45:00 – Comic relief: fart jokes and humility
00:50:00 – Math and metaphysics: when numbers become poetry
00:58:48 – Math as beauty and the language of existence
01:00:26 – Group theory, triangles, and the philosophy of structure
01:02:06 – Did humans discover or invent math?
01:10:00 – Humor, curiosity, and teaching through questions
01:13:34 – The future of math, AI, and physics (the long view)
01:14:13 – Ray Kurzweil and his father’s digital journals
01:15:15 – iPhone, exponential tech, and AI acceleration
01:16:00 – Touchscreens, prediction, and futurism
01:20:00 – Consciousness and machine learning
01:30:00 – Human identity in the age of algorithms
01:37:01 – AI anxiety, UBI, and the ethics of automation
01:43:56 – Consciousness itself: What is it, really?
02:00:00 – Journaling, memory, and the desire to preserve the self
02:14:00 – Humor as grounding: “Even the enlightened still fart.”
02:20:00 – Compassion as technology
02:31:04 – Returning to therapy: “I feel most connected when you’re feeling.”
02:40:00 – Closing reflections, gratitude, and quiet laughter

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Curtis L. Harnagel is a creative polymath - a director, consultant, and producer whose career moves fluidly between live entertainment, multimedia, dance, art, and nonprofit worlds. A true pop-culture savant, Curtis carries decades of music knowledge, behind-the-scenes reasoning, and pedagogical wisdom from his perspective that apply across every industry. I first met Curtis on-site at a stunning fashion show fundraiser. I was hired as the shows Live-DJ while Curtis was the shows Music and Staging Director. After a few days of working with Curtis, I knew this was someone who sees a room from different angles. I asked him to join our collection of outlier teachers here on The Junkyard Love Podcast, we had nothing short of an excellent conversation.

Armed with a degree in Radio, Television, and Film, Curtis’s path has been a mosaic of lighting grand productions like Phantom of the Opera, sculpting award-winning dance performances, staging massive live events, and mentoring creative teams to greatness. He coined GESAMTCURTISWERK (“Total Work of Curtis”) to describe his craft. It's a philosophy that threads art, logistics, and human connection into something greater than the sum of its parts - a way of thinking that refuses to split art from logistics, communication from creation, or teaching from doing; it’s all one interconnected, ever-evolving work: Curtis lives it. To top it off, his tagline? - "Turning Dreams Into Entertainment."

In this episode, Curtis and I pull back the curtain on what it takes to knead, bake, and present large-scale creative projects with a true human touch. We talk about perception, the unspoken layers of communication, and how one thoughtful phrase can redirect an entire production. Curtis shares stories from the unpredictable trenches of live events - moments of tension, flashes of brilliance, and hail-mary's that knealed to the 'The show must go on'.

We unravel wisdom passed down from influential teachers, explore the psychology of feedback and leadership, and examine how different minds approach creativity and problem-solving. We talk about the invisible threads that hold collaboration together, and how communication and listening can shape art, teams, and even lives.

“GESAMTCURTISWERK  [guh-zahmt-kur-tis-verk] 

noun, German. 

1.  "Total Work of Curtis" 

   A.  Gesamt - adj; total, overall  (German) 

   B.  Curtis - noun; English proper name of Anglo-Norman origin derived from the word courteous. 

   C.  Werk - verb; to work  (German) 

2.  Derived from: Gesamtkunstwerk  [guh-zahmt-koo nst-verk]  noun, German 

   A.  German for "Total Work of Art" or "Synthesis of the Arts “

Resources / Links:

• Website: www.gesamtcurtiswerk.com
• Instagram: @gesamtcurtiswerk
• YouTube: GESAMTCURTISWERK
• Bold Journey Interview - https://boldjourney.com/meet-curtis-l-harnagel/
• Voyage Dallas Interview - https://voyagedallas.com/interview/conversations-with-curtis-l-harnagel/
• Canvas Rebel Interview - https://canvasrebel.com/meet-curtis-l-harnagel/
• DIFFA - 2025 theme trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gugNT39gHjw
• DIFFA website: https://www.diffadallas.org/hod
• DIFFA Instagram: @diffadallastx

Checkout Curtis's official music playlist for Ep: 0116 Junkyard Love: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/06CsHwodO7jxWav75ieiX6?si=BI8KIR9qR5SbSsxODd3eeg&pi=lUYZBKGITUmCj

Quotes:

• “Listening is the cornerstone of communication. Most people hear - you have to actually listen.”
• “Kindness is not niceness. Kindness and goodness have one thing in common: benevolence.”
• “Observation itself is a form of communication.”
• “Every move is a signature... make it count.”
• “Your emergency is not my emergency. Take a beat, be polite.”

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“I grew up with puppetry and voices and weird little characters. I never really let that go — I just found ways to turn it into a life.” - Nate Begle
 
In this episode, we're joined by Nate - He's a voice actor and puppeteer with over two decades of experience in storytelling across stage, screen, and sound. His career has spanned live theme park shows, national commercials, animation, and narration work for over 30 audiobooks. Nate has collaborated with major creative institutions, including James Patterson, The Jim Henson Company, Walt Disney Entertainment, and Sesame Street. Deeply rooted in performance, character work, and voice, Nate brings a grounded and authentic presence to everything he creates. He allows the characters, not the performer, to take center stage.

Nate and I nestle in for a tender, playful, and witty conversation about a life built around performance. We talk discovering creative purpose early, navigating years of invisible work, and learning how to keep showing up for the craft even when no one is watching.

We talk about his roots in Midwest community theater, how Fraggle Rock cracked open a lifelong fascination with puppetry, and the reality of building a career from bits and odd jobs to full-time creative expression. Along the way, we dive into themes like staying grounded while performing, the therapeutic power of play, self-belief in the face of doubt, and the surprising joy of working just off-camera.

From humor and nostalgia to identity and intention, this conversation brings small insights that build into something honest, warm, and very real.

More notable quotes from the episode:
- “A lot of people think voiceover is just ‘talking,’ but it’s not. It’s acting. It’s truth-telling. It’s intention.”
- “It’s like, if you see something that’s not available where you’re at - then make it.”
- “There’s a moment where you stop trying to get it perfect and start asking if it feels true. That’s when you know you’re doing the work.”

For more on Nate Begle, head over to his IMDB here: https://www.imdb.com/name/nm4662429/
Checkout Nates website here: https://www.natebegle.com/
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@NateBegle
LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nate-begle-785155bb/

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