The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You

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What happens when the straight guy who uses gay dating apps for drugs and validation singles you out as his personal safe space? And what happens when you let yourself believe that being useful is the same thing as being loved?

In this episode of The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You, a chaotic three-day bender uncovers the unspoken rules of transactional intimacy, internalized shame, and the cruel art of the "clean break."

Meet Chris: six-foot-four, all-American charm, and a master at navigating the grid for drugs, cash, and ego boosts without ever putting skin in the game. What starts as a twenty-dollar favor quickly devolves into a multi-day marathon of stimulant-fueled mixed signals, chaotic third-party drop-ins, and a bizarre impromptu love triangle involving an ex named RJ and a neighbor named Luke.

Through it all, the narrator plays the ultimate "cool gay friend": providing drugs, shelter, and an open ear while quietly navigating his own burning desire to be wanted by someone who treats him as completely disposable. But as Chris prepares for yet another stint in rehab, the illusions come crashing down.

Deleting contacts, mutual agreements to disappear, and a single dollar bill left behind serve as a harsh reminder of reality: when the noise stops, all that’s left is the lingering scent of someone else’s exit and the cruel internal voice reminding you of what you were to them all along.

Raw, darkly humorous, and painfully honest, Chris and the Lies Straight Men Tell Us to Make Us Fall In Love explores the dangerous allure of being someone's pitstop, the performative boundaries of straight-identifying men, and the tragic lies we tell ourselves just to feel included.

Content advisory: Adult language, explicit substance use, sexual references, emotional manipulation, and internalized homophobia.

In this episode of The Lying Liars, we dissect the blurred lines between casual exploitation and addiction. From blank dating app profiles and transactional favors to awkward multi-person hookups and forced digital erasures, Chapter 8 unpacks the emotional wreckage of mistaking servitude for genuine connection.

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Original Music from The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You

• So, you loved the music in the episode? There's a story there, too.

The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You features lyrics by DJ Staxxx and arrangements and production/arrangement by B. Floore, using AI-assisted music production through Suno.

These songs are built from the real, unedited writings of a remarkably talented freestyle rapper whose notebooks became an unexpected part of the story.

• The Story Behind the Music

During the events that inspired The Lying Liars, a collection of notebooks was left in the author's possession. Between meticulously calculated FAFSA figures, elaborate buy-one-get-one grocery lists, and passages reflecting periods of intense paranoia were page after page of original freestyle lyrics by an artist, DJ Staxxx.

The lyrics captured not only the complicated life of an individual, but also many of the complications that face the men within The Lying Liars - mental illness, substance abuse, homelessness, and more - while demonstrating the incredible talent and gifts many people have, even when they are forgotten or ignored by society as a whole.

With the writer's full permission, B. Floore began transforming those handwritten verses into recorded music, preserving the original lyrics while developing arrangements, instrumentation, and production around them.

The result is a collection of songs that might otherwise never have been heard.

• From Anger to Art

For Floore, the project became something more personal than producing a soundtrack.

The experiences behind The Lying Liars left considerable anger, hurt, and unresolved feelings. The notebooks offered an unexpected way to process those experiences - not by excusing what happened, but by recognizing the humanity and talent of someone whose struggles had sometimes obscured both.

Arranging the music became an exercise in forgiveness and finding something meaningful in circumstances that had once seemed entirely destructive.

• The Official Soundtrack

Originally developed as the musical accompaniment to The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You, these tracks appear throughout the narrative podcast as opening and closing themes and musical interludes..

Music Credits

• Original Lyrics: DJ Staxxx
• Arrangement & Production: B. Floore
• AI-Assisted Instrumentation & Audio Production: Suno
• Featured In: The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You
• Explore the stories, music, and podcast: thelyingliars.online

More Lies - and Music - Ahead.

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Original Music from The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You

• So, you loved the music in the episode? There's a story there, too.

The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You features lyrics by DJ Staxxx and arrangements and production/arrangement by B. Floore, using AI-assisted music production through Suno.

These songs are built from the real, unedited writings of a remarkably talented freestyle rapper whose notebooks became an unexpected part of the story.

• The Story Behind the Music

During the events that inspired The Lying Liars, a collection of notebooks was left in the author's possession. Between meticulously calculated FAFSA figures, elaborate buy-one-get-one grocery lists, and passages reflecting periods of intense paranoia were page after page of original freestyle lyrics by an artist, DJ Staxxx.

The lyrics captured not only the complicated life of an individual, but also many of the complications that face the men within The Lying Liars - mental illness, substance abuse, homelessness, and more - while demonstrating the incredible talent and gifts many people have, even when they are forgotten or ignored by society as a whole.

With the writer's full permission, B. Floore began transforming those handwritten verses into recorded music, preserving the original lyrics while developing arrangements, instrumentation, and production around them.

The result is a collection of songs that might otherwise never have been heard.

• From Anger to Art

For Floore, the project became something more personal than producing a soundtrack.

The experiences behind The Lying Liars left considerable anger, hurt, and unresolved feelings. The notebooks offered an unexpected way to process those experiences - not by excusing what happened, but by recognizing the humanity and talent of someone whose struggles had sometimes obscured both.

Arranging the music became an exercise in forgiveness and finding something meaningful in circumstances that had once seemed entirely destructive.

• The Official Soundtrack

Originally developed as the musical accompaniment to The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You, these tracks appear throughout the narrative podcast as opening and closing themes and musical interludes..

Music Credits

• Original Lyrics: DJ Staxxx
• Arrangement & Production: B. Floore
• AI-Assisted Instrumentation & Audio Production: Suno
• Featured In: The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You
• Explore the stories, music, and podcast: thelyingliars.online

More Lies - and Music - Ahead.

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Luke and RJ: Lies About Rejection, Boundaries, and Getting What You Want

What happens when someone who barely knows you suddenly decides they hate you? And what happens when someone who knows you far too well refuses to take no for an answer?

In this episode of The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You, two very different encounters expose the strange, sometimes cruel ways people negotiate rejection, intimacy, and personal boundaries.

First, there's Luke—a familiar face from the neighborhood and the dating apps whose seemingly harmless interest takes an unexpected turn. A casual message becomes an avalanche of insults, humiliation, and threats, leaving the narrator wandering the neighborhood in search of someone he barely knows.

Then there's RJ, an occasional boyfriend, persistent visitor, and enthusiastic explorer of loopholes. Armed with a signed liability agreement, a talent for weaponized childishness, and an apparently limitless capacity to test boundaries, RJ turns an ordinary visit into a spectacularly ridiculous confrontation. Even being thrown out of the house doesn't stop him from asking for one last favor.

One story ends with a man alone on a curb. The other ends with a man laughing as he walks away.

Darkly funny, uncomfortable, and painfully human, Luke and RJ is another installment in a series about the lies people tell to survive—and the lies we tell ourselves to keep letting them in.

Content advisory: Adult language, substance use, sexual references, emotional abuse, and threats of violence.

In this double-feature episode of The Lying Liars, we dive into the chaotic world of dating app harassment, toxic hookup culture, and boundary-stepping guests. From unprovoked middle-of-the-night app tirades and awkward apartment love triangles to enforcing house rules against erratic visitors, Chapter 9 and Chapter 10 unpack the absurdity and emotional toll of dealing with chronic manipulators.

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Music Arranged by Barry Floore.

Lyrics by DJ Staxx.

Instrumentation from Suno.ai

Podcast Vocals from Elevenlabs.io

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OpeningIntroduction to Luke and RJ

01:54 Luke: The Convenience Store

05:55 Luke: Daquan and the Bitch

09:17 Luke: Chris's Hedonism Overflows

13:49 Luke: Time Passes

16:02 Luke: The Attack

22:23 RJ: I Never Ask for Cigarettes

24:05 RJ: Arguing with a Baby

27:41 RJ: One Last FavorAn exit, a bag of chips, and the inevitable cigarette request

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Danny Boy and Ray: Lies We Tell About Our Brothers

One brother punches two men in their own home. The other shows up to apologize. Somehow, neither encounter goes quite as expected.

When Tommy introduces Danny Boy, he presents him almost like a gift: another handsome, dangerous man who might be persuaded to stick around if the drugs are free and the company is accommodating.

Danny Boy is volatile, casually homophobic, sexually provocative, and increasingly unpredictable. He also knows exactly how to exploit the narrator's desire to be wanted.

Things come to a head when Danny Boy punches Joey, a vulnerable young man whose greatest companion is Cooter, a former military bomb-sniffing dog. When the narrator intervenes, Danny Boy turns on him, too.

Fortunately, Cooter has something to say about that.

Enter Ray, Danny Boy's older brother.

Ray arrives with an apology, a complicated relationship with his girlfriend, a surprisingly candid sexual proposition, and an insistence that he's nothing like his younger brother.

But being different from Danny Boy isn't necessarily the same thing as being better.

As the brothers' stories intertwine, the narrator finds himself navigating familiar territory: drug use, sexual ambiguity, loneliness, opportunism, and the increasingly exhausting business of deciding whom to trust.

And somewhere along the way, he begins to discover that saying no might be worth more than another night of company.

Danny Boy and Ray is a chapter of The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You, a darkly comic, brutally candid exploration of addiction, desire, manipulation, survival, and the complicated relationships that emerge when everybody needs something from somebody else.

It's a story about two brothers, the lies they tell about each other, and the lies we tell ourselves when we desperately want someone to be different.

Content advisory: This episode contains explicit language, drug use, sexual situations, homophobic slurs, and physical violence.

Themes: Addiction and codependency, bisexuality and sexual secrecy, internalized shame, loneliness, unreliable narration, family dynamics, transactional relationships, and personal boundaries.

The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You explores the lies people tell to survive—and the lies we tell ourselves to keep believing that someone loves us.

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A borrowed truck. A first date with no destination. Three failed hookup spots, a Walmart parking lot, a boat ramp full of drunken rednecks, an angry father, and one universe that seems absolutely determined not to let two men have sex.

Ricky starts as a late-night attempt to end a dry spell and turns into something much stranger: a story about borrowed confidence, drugs, bad timing, missed chances, and the version of another person we can carry around long after the actual relationship has disappeared.

Years later, Ricky suddenly appears online again. This time there’s a car, there’s gas, there’s money—and finally, there’s nowhere else they need to be.

Except neither of them is quite the person who showed up that first night.

Funny, messy, explicit, and unexpectedly tender, “Ricky” is about the date that never quite happened—and why some almost-relationships stay with us anyway.

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Tommy first appears on a street corner. What begins as a sexual transaction becomes something harder to define: part friendship, part rescue attempt, part addiction, and part story the narrator tells himself about what Tommy needs - and what he might still be able to save.

But Tommy is not always abusive. Sometimes, he is affection and a caretaker in his own right, and sometimes he is unexpectedly intimate and suggestive. But when you think it's going right, and you think you've got yourself figured out in this world, Tommy smacks you back. Tommy lies, disappears, returns, and asks for help without always accepting it. The narrator keeps trying to assign meaning to each encounter, even when survival, loneliness, drugs, and immediate need may explain far more than either man wants to admit.

“Tommy” is a dark, intimate piece of queer autobiographical storytelling about addiction, transactional sex, homelessness, harm reduction, unreliable memory, and the dangerous distance between caring for someone and believing you can rescue them.

Part of Lying Liars: true stories about the lies people tell one another—and themselves—when honesty cannot provide what they need.

Content warning: explicit language, sexual situations, substance use, intravenous drug use, fentanyl, homelessness, suicidal behavior, and death.

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Everyone lies - especially those we calls our friends, and even more those we our lovers. Everyone is an asshole for it, and no one will apologize or change.

In a double chapter featuring two of the shortest character vignettes in the The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You universe, we meet the narrator's car guy - Solomon, or Sol (no one calls him that) - piece by piece dismantling the narrator's car because of a boy, and then we meet the once-powerful now-porcine Kerry whose enthusiasm over two 'pussies' on a dating app rather than the two penises in his bedroom causes the narrator go flaccid and stale.

None of these people are interested in each sexually or romantically - and barely platonically - but yet, here they are, doing drugs together and exploding their own disaster onto each other's lives and calling it just another day. Disaster means attention, and all attention is good so long as they get your name right, after all.

Or, so you tell yourself.

These are the lies we tell each other and ourselves when we realize it’s easier to make something than to admit that nobody here is here for anyone else - and nobody coming through the door will be, either. The lighter and the bubble make it easy to pretend you chose these people, and to ignore the loneliness and hurt left by the last person you did choose, who walked out the door and never returned because they hadn’t chosen you.

Everybody lies because nobody wants to be honest and say everything is wrong and no one's going to make it right. Or that the necessity of another person breeds contempt, not affection. And we definitely lie more easily to people we hate.

The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You is a fictionalized, semi-autobiographical novel and podcast exploring toxic relationships, codependency, substance abuse, and the men who taught me how to mistake their survival for love. Every episode is another man. More lies ahead.

Content note: Explicit sexual language, drug use, homophobic language, police involvement, and adult themes.

#DarkComedy #QueerMemoir #LiteraryPodcast #StorytellingPodcast #Audiobook

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In this chapter, an ambiguous meet up with a 21-year-old named Sully falls apart through absurdity, misplaced expectations, unfulfilled needs, and one ex boyfriend in desperate need of a warm place on a frozen night.

What begins as an act of charity unravels into a study of transactional intimacy, where warmth is currency and connection is a performance staged for an audience of one. The coat isn’t just fabric; it’s a relic of a life the narrator can no longer claim, offered to someone who will never wear it as anything but armor against the cold.

This is not a rescue story. It’s an autopsy of the lie that kindness can fill the void left by those who’ve already taken everything.

The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You is a fictionalized, semi-autobiographical novel and podcast exploring toxic relationships, codependency, substance abuse, and the men who taught me how to mistake survival for love. Every episode is another man. Every lie is another stitch in the coat I keep trying to give away.

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These Are the Lying Liars That Lied When They Said They Loved You | A Podcast & Upcoming Novel by Berry Floor

When a charming guest named Donnie cleans your apartment, folds your laundry, and promises round three, do you trust the sudden shift in your luck—or do you check if your car keys are still on the counter?

In this episode, the past and present collide in a non-linear exploration of trauma loops, codependency, bad choices, and the desperate search for human connection.

From toxic exes to late-night Circle K parking lots, explore the thin line between healing and self-deception.

The Lying Liars Who Lied When They Said They Loved You is a fictionalized, semi-autobiographical novel and podcast by B. Floore. Names, identifying details, and some events have been changed, but there are no innocents in this story. Because some people lie easily. Some lie poorly. But everybody lies eventually. More lies ahead. Subscribe now so you don't miss Chapter 3.