The Mind Stops Here

Balancing of the books, anger, the dark will always come after the light, money/relationship/intimacy, "it's all a lie", vacuum, subtler levels of energy of the story, Phenomenal perspective is tiny but if you have no other perspective, it is infinite, sex, story making machines, is the true self there during anesthesia? simplicity and beauty, migraine, awakening vs. liberation, become aware of it when you slip into defending, Kali's sword, self-forgiveness, honoring all sides of experiences, courage and trust, feeling of no space, liberation -- just a thought.

Pain being trapped, migraines, running energy of others, phenomenal freedom, no opposites, perceiving without perceiver, go to the place where you know and not where you think, understanding 'Gaps" when 'you' come back vs. some part of the mind being aware that 'you' were gone while 'you were gone', semantics, breaking habits, I AM presence, it's ordinary, I vs. pure perception, reincarnation.

Taking risks, the annihilation that you fear is happening now, love, self-image, body identification, there is nothing lacking where there is emptiness, karma with boss, discernment, connecting to male energy, third eye pain, body reaction to spiritual work, rolfing, wounded warrior must lose potency, you must become your own Guru, fear of karma, everything that comes, goes, no connection between effort and grace.

Collapsing, appreciation, disease of desire, the ordinary isn't boring, desserts, sixth sense, entanglement with mother, dance.

Let the character bow down to what you really are, being in the body, hyper-vigilance and control, prevention can be worse than the event, worshipping ourselves/Guru, sexual abuse -- male authority, karma as a cause and effect, past life, infidelity secrets, self-referencing, what is love? anything nameable is transient, awareness aware of itself without the body/mind, nobody goes there but it is known, you have to be taking yourself very seriously in order for an emotional response to persist, love is not real but it is not absent either, finding your power, heart and mind, being lost, not minding and not knowing.

Courage, wounded warrior, spiritual arrogance, depression, divine will vs. personal will, a holiday from the shoulds, freedom, what is the world? wisdom to step back, the paradox of self-love, self-dialogue, urgency -- life is dribbling away, only silence can be trusted, what would it look like if it wasn't motivated by fear? openings beyond the mind.

Body/mind as something within what you are, energetic shaking, nervous system rewiring, heart chakra -- all that is not of love, concepts growing into phenomenal realm, pure consciousness as an idea making machine, connection between a concept and it appearing as real, absoluteness zone, release of fear, finding enjoyment, there is space for truth to show itself by stopping identification, I AM, money/finances.

Heart vs. mind work, I AM Shiva/Shakti, emptiness and awareness, no solid ground, money, it doesn't have any opposites, control and minimizing chaos, you may need a body to do it! character cannot wake up, what is duty?

Awakening is for the mind, can perception happen without ownership?, devotion in the context of longing, obsessed with myself, fear of the future, collapse of consciousness, gradients of thought, if I'm not doing then who am I? trauma attaching to a character, heart opening.

I'm not getting it is torture, needing to know is suffering, what are the frames that lead up to the 'me'? seeking keeps the seeker alive.