The Mind Stops Here

Introduction: manifesting vs. free will, answers to life's questions, our agreement creates reality, anger -- unsatisfied desire, self love -- courage, satsang as a tuning fork, separation as an energy held in the body, holding onto a higher energy when pulled back into the drama, reflecting truth, intervention as faith, manipulation -- conditional vs. unconditional love. acquiescing to others, going beyond presence, talking from the phenomenal world vs. absolute.

Introduction, what is the ego?, creativity and alcohol, how do you know when to process emotion and when to pull back?, unconditional self love, self pity, Jac living in the world, seeking energy, character refinement without the seeker, get distance from the believability of thought, accidents/destiny, obsessing about relationships, grief, reflection of my old self in my son, paradoxes, some part of you is still enjoying the separation, drop the fantasy.

Where does the mind fit into the unfolding of consciousness, it is all play, special relationships, judgments/preference, ego on top of ego, be authentic, dropping desire vs. behaviour, sex, desire for truth, Jac story experience, deep - dark-depression, going through the body, value system on doing and being task-oriented, being efficient without adrenaline.

Jac introduction, let the 'I AM' be not good enough, fall into the prior, ashram experience, existence itself, don't stop at the non-dual!, flip side of the pain is the juice of the absence of the pain, thyroid -- family tree work, surrender to something external in order to surrender to what you really are, self love, understanding what's not real, explore believability, contrast is delicious, you are not here at all, does stress create a 'You'?, can awareness be aware of itself without the body/mind?, identity itself must go, take Ramana and Papaji off the throne.

Only the mind says the stillness is not good enough, it's just story, Jac's story, absolute love underpins it all, dualistic version of love, mind knows right where to hit me, believability of the thought is the problem -- not the content, do you feel not entitled to the peace?, responsibility is the ability to respond, all about trust, take a chance!, need for approval brings pain, acceptance versus fighting for justice, freedom for full expression for every emotion, annoying spiritual advice, fully human, spirituality vs. science, your inner gut is where you figure out what is right for you, love yourself and the sense of not belonging dissolves.