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Hey there, it's Caryn, and in this week's episode of The Music of Life, I’m diving deep into a topic I’ve been thinking about for years — sexual energy. I recently came across some articles that reignited this curiosity, and it inspired me to open up and share my personal thoughts and experiences around the energetic exchange that happens during sex. This isn’t just about chemistry or connection — we’re talking about energetic vibration, spiritual bonds, and how another person’s energy can actually impact your own long after the physical connection ends.

If you’ve ever wondered why you felt drained or energized after intimacy, or if you've started to question the emotional weight of casual sex, this episode will give you some powerful insight. I unpack how trauma, intention, and even someone's lifestyle choices can affect the energy we take on during sex — and why it's so important to be intentional and aware of who we allow into our energetic field. This is one of the most vulnerable and real conversations I've had, and I hope it gets you thinking in new ways, too.

Episode Highlights:

[0:02] - Kicking things off with a candid intro and why I love talking about sex.
[1:10] - What sexual energy transfer actually is and how it affects both people.
[3:28] - The spiritual and energetic implications of having sex with someone.
[5:45] - My personal journey of celibacy and why I’ve taken this so seriously.
[7:30] - Recognizing other people's energy — from strangers to partners.
[9:15] - Why sex is like plugging into a power source, for better or worse.
[11:02] - How mood, intention, trauma, and substance use all play into energy transfer.
[13:40] - Understanding energetic "residue" and why sexual energy lingers.
[15:28] - Cleansing sexual energy and the idea of spiritual attachments.
[17:10] - No judgment, just awareness — my hope for you as you navigate your choices.

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In this raw and deeply personal episode, I open up about the most defining chapter of my life—the journey from devastating darkness to radiant light. Through the lens of my own experiences, I reflect on pain, healing, and how faith and resilience can carry us through even the most unimaginable circumstances. From childhood upheaval to the soul-crushing experience of divorce, I share how I uncovered my inner light and reclaimed my sense of self, one courageous step at a time.

This episode is for anyone who has felt broken, lost, or buried beneath the weight of their past. I hope my story reminds you that transformation is possible, that healing is real, and that no matter how dark things seem, the light is always waiting to be found—within you. Join me as I peel back the layers of trauma, therapy, growth, and faith to show how I turned pain into power and found a life full of peace, joy, and authenticity.

Episode Highlights:

[0:02] - Opening thoughts and a powerful courtroom scene that sparked deep reflection.
[1:15] - Wrestling with life’s toughest question: Why do bad things happen to good people?
[2:30] - The metaphor of prayer and the challenges that shape our strength.
[3:45] - Facing the depths of darkness through divorce and emotional pain.
[5:02] - Childhood instability, blended families, and growing up too soon.
[6:17] - The start of a lifelong journey in therapy and emotional healing.
[7:48] - Discovering personal strength and growth through consistent self-work.
[8:55] - Breaking free from expectations, embracing rebellion, and carving my own path.
[9:40] - From lifelong pain to lasting peace—how I’ve come full circle.
[10:20] - Finding divine alignment, balance, and the glow of true healing.
[10:55] - A heartfelt message for others walking through divorce and darkness.

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Hey beautiful souls, welcome back to The Music of Life! In this intense episode, I take you with me through an unexpected wave of healing that caught me completely off guard. This wasn't just about revisiting the past—it was about uncovering a wound I didn’t even realize was still bleeding. I had what I can only call an emotional epiphany, and I knew I had to share it with you, not just for connection, but in hopes that it sparks something transformative in your own journey.

If you're walking the path of self-discovery, grappling with past pain, or simply trying to understand your emotional triggers better, this episode is for you. I open up about my relationship with communication, my childhood, and a powerful moment with “baby Caryn” that helped me release and heal in a way I never expected. This is all about truth, inner child work, and the kind of deep soul nourishment that changes you forever. I hope my story helps you feel less alone—and maybe a little more inspired.

Episode Highlights:

[1:30] – Realizing how communication patterns have shaped my relationships.
[3:05] – The clarity that came from emotional triggers in past connections.
[5:20] – The moment I asked, “Who made me feel like I didn’t matter?”
[6:45] – Revisiting childhood memories and emotional absence.
[8:30] – Connecting with “baby Caryn” and giving her the love she needed.
[10:10] – The importance of validating your own emotions.
[11:45] – How quickly transformation can happen when we go inward.
[13:00] – Why no one can disappoint me anymore—and why that’s empowering.
[14:25] – Final reflections on healing, purpose, and sharing your journey to help others.

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In this episode, we’re talking about something that’s been on my heart lately—healing. Specifically, I’m talking about the different paths people take to heal and how not everyone’s journey looks the same. I came across a few powerful quotes this week that sparked a conversation about coaches—dating coaches, divorce coaches, life coaches—and the contrast between that structured style of support versus something more intuitive and free-flowing, like what I experienced on my own healing path.

I share how surrender, prayer, patience, and faith became the foundation of my healing—without any formula, checklist, or roadmap. And I’m not here to bash coaching—if that resonates with you, amazing! But if you’ve ever felt out of place in structured settings or felt pressure to “do healing right,” this episode is definitely for you. I’m opening up about what worked for me, the powerful shifts I’ve experienced, and how listening to my inner wisdom became my greatest guide. This one’s close to my heart, and I hope it helps spark something within you too.

Episode Highlights:

[0:02] - Introducing the episode and the spark that started this conversation.
[1:24] - Reflecting on Tony Robbins’ quote about goal setting and how coaches approach healing.
[3:10] - Why my healing journey didn’t follow a step-by-step path.
[5:05] - The role of prayer, gratitude, and surrender in my spiritual practice.
[7:15] - Gandhi’s wisdom on patience and how it helped me through my divorce.
[9:08] - Faith as the cornerstone of surviving and eventually thriving after divorce.
[10:42] - Oprah’s advice on turning wounds into wisdom and how that’s showing up in my life now.
[12:30] - Learning to dream again and believing in what lights up my soul.
[14:00] - The shift that comes when you finally see your worth and own your story.
[15:52] - Brene Brown, Toni Morrison, and the power of claiming your truth.
[17:45] - Divine timing, regrets, and why it’s never too late to change your life.
[19:10] - Final reflections on different healing paths and an invitation to connect.

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In this episode, I open up about my own spiritual journey, especially in the wake of my divorce, and how it led to the most transformative awakening I’ve ever experienced. From confronting the ego to finding peace through service, I walk you through the stages of spiritual growth that have shaped the woman I am today.

The “seven levels of spirituality,” the idea of ego death, and how leaning into meditation, self-reflection, and service brought me to a place of unity consciousness. If you've ever wondered how to tell the difference between your ego and your higher self—or if you're just starting to explore your own spiritual path— I hope this episode inspires you to look within, trust the journey, and maybe even start your own awakening.

Episode Highlights:

[0:02] - Kicking off the episode with a reflection on spirituality vs. religion.
[1:25] - Sharing my first spiritual awakening at age 19 and how it's evolved since.
[2:55] - Breaking down the seven levels of spirituality.
[6:03] - Exploring the 12 spiritual principles that define a spiritual life.
[7:25] - What it means to listen to your higher self.
[9:00] - The contrast between ego and higher self—understanding “ego death”.
[11:15] - Mindfulness, meditation, and humility as tools for spiritual growth.
[14:08] - How trusted feedback (from friends and the Divine) helped shape my awakening.
[16:02] - The role of service and helping others during my darkest days.
[17:45] - What happens after an ego death and how we rebuild.
[19:18] - A heartfelt message I wrote about my journey through pain to power.
[20:15] - Final thoughts and an invitation to reach out and connect.

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In this heart-centered episode, I dive into a deeply personal reflection sparked by a recent conversation with my liver doctor—a conversation that turned into a powerful reminder of how far I’ve come, both physically and emotionally. From revisiting my journey through liver disease to confronting the bittersweet dynamics of my current relationship with my daughter, this episode holds space for vulnerability, healing, and full-circle moments that reminded me of my own strength and sweetness.

I also open up about something I’ve hidden most of my life—my immense capacity to love. Through the lens of childhood memories and recent emotional insights, I share what it’s meant for me to reclaim that part of myself. If you've ever felt like you needed to hide who you truly are, especially when it comes to expressing love, this episode is for you. Tune in as I talk about embracing authenticity, showing up fully, and why I believe now is the time to stop holding back.

Episode Highlights:

[0:02] - Welcoming you with honesty and a stuffy nose—recording despite being under the weather
[1:15] - Recapping a 17-year relationship with my liver doctor and our emotional full-cir.cle moment.
[3:48] - Opening up about my daughter and the pain of our current estranged relationship.
[6:10] - The validation I didn’t expect but truly felt—my doctor’s heartfelt words.
[7:15] - Childhood reflections: feeling unseen despite being called “sweet”.
[9:22] - Hiding my love as a young girl and realizing why I’ve kept that part of me tucked away.
[11:40] - The turning point: finally feeling safe to love fully and be seen authentically.
[12:50] - Love beyond romance—everyday moments of connection and genuine presence.
[13:55] - Feeling a divine nudge to open up and live from my heart.
[15:00] - A thank you for being here while I share what’s real, messy, and deeply meaningful.

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In this episode, we’re diving into the recent total lunar eclipse—also known as the Blood Moon—that happened on March 13. Now, I’m not an astrology expert, but I’ve got some insights, personal experiences, and a little Google research to share with you! We’ll talk about what a Blood Moon actually is, how lunar energy affects us, and ways to harness its power for self-care, manifestation, and emotional balance. Plus, I’ll be sharing some of my favorite full moon rituals—things like moon baths, crystal charging, and simple ways to release what no longer serves you.

If you've ever felt extra emotional or energized during a full moon, you’re not alone! We’ll explore why that might be, whether there's a scientific explanation, and how you can use this lunar phase to set intentions and create positive changes in your life. So grab a cup of tea, get comfy, and let’s talk about all things moon magic.

Episode Highlights:

[00:02] – Welcome & introduction to today’s episode! Let’s talk about the Blood Moon.

[02:15] – What exactly is a Blood Moon? A breakdown of the lunar eclipse and its significance.

[04:30] – The energetic influence of a full moon—why emotions might feel heightened and how to navigate them.

[06:45] – My favorite full moon self-care rituals: moon baths, grounding, and charging crystals.

[08:20] – How to manifest during a full moon—setting intentions, writing wish lists, and trusting the process.

[10:10] – The do’s and don’ts of full moon energy: what to avoid and how to embrace positive change.

[12:35] – Final thoughts—embracing lunar cycles, gratitude, and trusting in divine timing.

Links & Resources:

•  Find out when the next lunar eclipse will be: NASA Eclipse Calendar

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In this deeply personal episode of The Music of Life, I'm opening up about some profound experiences that have strengthened my faith and connection with God. From unexpected medical turnarounds to moments where divine guidance was undeniable, I'm sharing the ways I’ve seen God’s hand in my life. If you’ve ever questioned whether miracles exist or wondered about the power of faith, this episode is for you.

I'll take you through my journey—from my vision unexpectedly improving to my liver recovering against all odds, and even navigating health scares with a deep sense of trust. This episode is all about recognizing the ways the universe conspires in our favor when we surrender, trust, and stay connected to God.

Episode Highlights:

[00:02] – Introducing the episode and reflecting on the powerful words of Tay Lynch: There’s power with God.
[02:45] – The surprising turn in my vision diagnosis—how I went from needing cataract surgery to perfect eyesight.
[06:12] – My intense fertility journey—10 rounds of IVF, miscarriages, and the unexpected liver complications that followed.
[12:30] – The shocking liver biopsy results and how I found the right doctor who truly cared.
[17:10] – Against all odds: My liver’s recovery from stage four cirrhosis to stage one, proving that faith and divine intervention are real.
[20:40] – Navigating ongoing female health concerns and how prayer has given me peace through it all.
[24:55] – The role of faith in every part of my life—health, relationships, and decision-making.

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Healing from deep emotional wounds is never easy, especially when you're trapped in a storm of pain, betrayal, and isolation. In this episode, I open up about my spiritual healing journey—one that unfolded while I was still in the midst of daily emotional torment. I share the powerful lessons I learned about resilience, self-care, and finding my strength when I had no one to lean on but myself. From the quiet moments of prayer and meditation in my sacred space to the painful realizations of how deeply I was being manipulated, I take you through the transformation that ultimately led me to self-love, inner peace, and unshakable faith.

If you've ever felt lost, abandoned, or broken, know that you are not alone. I discuss the importance of self-care, breaking generational curses, and trusting divine timing to guide you toward healing. This episode is for every wounded warrior out there—those who have faced unbearable darkness but still found their way back to the light. If you're in the thick of it right now, I promise you: there are brighter days ahead.

Episode Highlights:

[0:02] – Welcome and introduction to my healing journey.
[2:15] – Living in an abusive environment while trying to heal.
[5:32] – The pivotal moment when I realized I was truly on my own.
[8:48] – Recognizing the power of prayer, meditation, and my sacred space.
[12:10] – How I started seeing the purpose behind my pain.
[15:45] – The moment I refused to let my ex-husband break me.
[19:30] – The importance of trusting intuition and recognizing manipulation.
[22:57] – Breaking free from toxic narratives and reclaiming my identity.
[26:40] – Finding self-love, embracing my own company, and following my truth.

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In this episode of The Music of Life, I’m flipping the script! Instead of hosting, I had the incredible opportunity to be a guest on Side Quest Success Stories with host Stephen Duetzmann. I share why I started this podcast, my personal journey through a toxic divorce, and the intense spiritual healing that followed. I share how this podcast became a platform for healing—not just for me, but for others navigating similar experiences. Stephen and I also talk about the power of storytelling through podcasting, the importance of community, and what’s next for The Music of Life as I move beyond my divorce and into a new chapter of growth and transformation.

Episode Highlights:

[01:03] – How I met Stephen Duetzmann at Podfest 2025 and what led to this guest appearance.
 [01:24] – The story behind The Music of Life and why I felt called to start this podcast.
[03:57] – The power of podcasting in building connections and helping others feel less alone.
[05:36] – Moving beyond my divorce: What’s next for the podcast and upcoming topics.
[10:04] – A shoutout to my producer Marc Ronick and how his support shaped this journey.
[14:47] – The original concept of The Music of Life: Music’s influence on love & relationships.
[16:29] – My long-term vision: A book, retreats, coaching, and building a strong community.
[23:36] – How I’m growing my audience through podcasting, social media, and email lists.
[25:06] – Reaching international listeners & the universal language of music and healing.

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• Marc Ronick (Producer, iRonick Media) – https://ironickmedia.com/ 
• Stephen Duetzmann’s Podcast: Side Quest Success Stories – https://sidequestsolutions.org/ 

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