The Nicnac Podcast

I've had a rough week. And, I've documented it well. But, when you think you are on a roll why stop? With depression, censorship, September 11th, suicide, employment and romantic rejection on my mind I opened my mic and my mind for over an hour. My longest most honest podcast episode yet, I think. If you want it here it is. Come and download. Just be sure to listen with Prozac!

In this episode I express my frustration with few caring or listening to what I have to say and the effect that has on me. I also talk a lot about being in The Depression phase of the Biplaor cycle and the right to die. And, again, I won't harm myself or others.....I'll sigh a lot, sleep a lot, try to stay energetic enough to do live internet radio, bitch to anyone that will listen and try to ride it out. All I am really asking here is for people to listen and care.

In this episode I talk about my reaction to “constructive criticism” and the censorship and regulation of internet broadcasting. This leads to me talking about my self-esteem issues. For, if I suck at broadcasting and I can't get a date there is little reason to get out of bed.....And, yes I know the suicide hot line number. And no, I won't harm myself or others.....I'll sigh a lot, sleep a lot, try to stay energetic enough to do live internet radio, bitch to anyone that will listen and try to ride it out. But, most of the time, it is a long crappy nine month trip through Depressionville. And, you know what they say; misery loves and needs company!

In this episode I try to move past “The Chico Hangover” and start to face reality. Much easier said then done. But, I go over my strengths and admit my failings. My expectation are slowly adapting to meet reality. But, should I be punished for having tried? Is Homer Simpson right to say, “You've tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is never try”?

In this episode, I give more details about my trip to Norway and the inevitable Hangover that was associated with my return to The US and Chico, CA

In this episode I play and explain the audio I recorded while in Oslo, Norway from August 12th-Augest, 15th 2014. I also include the latter part of the song I wrote about the experience after coming back called “Where I Stayed”. I am sure many will not like this....but you can't please everyone. So you have to please yourself. And, I am as pleased with this body of work and this experience as I can be. I really did do well!

In the season finale of Season 7 of The Nicnac Podcast. I talk about my upcoming trip to Oslo, Norway. The whys and hows and other things that some might call “crazy”

 This episode combines a lot of things that have come up for me since the tragedy and atrocity of Malaysian Airlines Flight 17 and 370. As a member of the aviation community and, to some extent, the aviation industry these events have all but destroyed me. They have created a great fear and anger in me. Thankfully, the logical aspect of my brain is currently running the show.

But, this event goes beyond the present in terms of politics and aviation. This event is or could be compared and contrasted with the tragedy and atrocity of Iran Air Flight 655, a civilian airliner flying along a civilian air corridor and squawking a civilian transponder code, that was shot down by The USS Vincennes, a US Navel vessel operating in conjunction with The Gulf War, on July 3rd 1988. This, in turn, returns me to my stranded ranting and raving about Truman, Stalin, The end of World War II, The Cold War and Charlie Wilson's War. The events that unfolded during the latter stages of World War II and the subsequent power struggle and Cold War between The United States and The Union of Soviet Socialist Republics led to a massive armament of people and countries caught in-between these two struggling nations. And, the rage and arms that these two nations provided during this time are now being used to commit acts of terrible crimes against humanity; the current term for this being terrorism.

Everyone wants you to live in fear. To feel anger. To feel hate. But, don't let them do it. Live a life of true liberty. Peruse your happiness. We, as humans, have that right. Don't give it up! I hate to use the quote, but, it seems appropriate...

"Give me liberty, or give me death!"

 -Patrick Henry

And, of course, the paraphrase of Benjamin Franklin:

Those who would give up essential Liberty, to purchase a little temporary Safety, deserve neither Liberty nor Safety.

Much love to all,

Nicnac

In this episode I talk a bit about Bipolar and where I am at in the cycle and why. And, what's coming next. I also try to impress upon others that this podcast is a unique form for me. And, I can do other less blunt less whiny types of work.

In this episode I discuss the anonymity given up as an audio broadcaster and how that compares to the anonymity given up as a writer or video broadcaster. You can bare your soul in all three mediums but do you bare more in one vs the other? Send me your feedback nicnacjak at gmail dot com.