okay we've cried enough, we've healed enough, we've been emotional enough today, we're laughing because if I don't laugh at my life, I will cry in the parking lot at Target and we're not doing that today.

After the last few episodes, I wanted to give all of us including myself a moment to breathe. this episode is light. is simple and it's about the little things that help keep me grounded.

Today I want to talk about my fifth pregnancy and what it was really like being a NICU parent while my own body was struggling too. before I do that I want to acknowledge something important because my story includes loss, love and survival

I want to take a moment to talk about the last episode; not to explain myself; not to hurt anyone and not to point fingers, but to share where my heart was when I spoke

today's episode is personal it's about my pregnancy it's about fear and it's about learning who really showed up when things get serious

lately I've noticed something about myself I've changed but I'm still kind and if you're on tiktok make sure that you follow @lifegetsrealquick

this episode is about becoming comfortable with who you are, not who you used to be, not who people expect you to be, not who people want you to be, but who you are right now

today's episode isn't about recovery it is about something I had to be honest with myself about and that is I used to need people to love me

In episode 6, I talk about what it means to choose yourself after years of being the strong one from motherhood to marriage to recovery, this episode is a reminder that rest, boundaries and self care are not selfish they're necessary

reflecting on the last episode