SPOOKY SZN HALLOWEEN EP: Hi guysss!!! This week is a semi-spooky episode for halloween. 🎃 🖤💀🦇🧡👻 PSA: this weeks episode is not scary at ALL I just talk abt spooky topics lol

This week I discuss aliens, UFO’s and the existence of extra terrestrial life beyond Earth… somewhere in the universe. I also talk about if I think ghosts exist and houses that are haunted.

Also I attempt to discuss a conspiracy theory (not really my thing) but I gave it a go. The rational part of me always seems to take over and applies logic to situations it’s one of my character flaws. And since a new season of Abbott Elementary has started eeekk haven’t watched it yet as it’s not been released in the UK I think it would be so interesting to hear conspiracy theories from Mr. Johnson’s character as he seems to bring them up alot in the show.

What’s your worst nightmare???

Then I talk about if my worst nightmare came to life. Firstly I discuss if Jurassic park was real and in the uk then dinosaurs would roam in the suburbs (the most out there nightmare tbh). This is when the more logical, rational part of me takes over and I talk about nature, its viciousness and unpredictably. And how natural disasters are more likely to occur with increased volume and intensity due to global warming (also we are currently living in it.) article about natural disasters for anyone who is interested:https://www.worldwildlife.org/stories/is-climate-change-increasing-the-risk-of-disasters

Lastly I talk about the most realistic nightmare that’s most likely to come true. It’s weaponised incompetence. And actually ending up with someone who uses weaponised incompetence to avoid doing basic household chores. Then instead of actually learning how to do stuff for themselves they use their weaponised incompetence to their advantage. The fact this is so prevalent in the Punjabi community and I have witnessed people who are like this just adds to the nightmare as it could come true. So instead of a nightmare it would be a day-mare (idk if that’s a thing but I’m saying it’s a thing now lol) or reality. Although as an germaphobe I feel like I’m living my nightmare in flu season as well tbh :(

✨songs of the week: your on your own kid (midnights) & the 1 (folklore) | Taylor Swift ✨ 💜🤍

I will be watching US by Jordan Peele at some point to make sure I watch it I will put thoughts here🎃🖤 UPDATE: I finally watched US and as someone who does not like horror. And would normally not watch it but did so because of Halloween. I thought the movie was good and had a good concept with a very interesting twist at the end. Also the messages in the movie were very powerful; and showed complexity of human nature. Having said that I fully didn’t enjoy the movie because I dislike the horror genre; given that it gives me nightmares. So the fact that I haven’t been able to sleep properly for a couple of nights has made me like the movie less. To be honest I wouldn’t be quick to watch it again but would recommend everyone to watch it at least once. 3.5/5 ⭐️ Also I had a lovely shopping trip/ retail therapy day and it’s on my TikTok here is the link :https://www.tiktok.com/@simmm_k?_t=8qjIoYSGaP2&_r=1

Just to let everyone know I’m still healing and working on myself atm which is important for me :) I don’t want to get into too many details but like I’ve said before healing isn’t linear. Last week I had some old stuff I was dealing with come up and it was very hard but I persevered. Anyway I’m very proud of myself as I have had to take back things (literally but mostly metaphorically) , movies, places that I had a hard time going to because of memories ect. Some of this did contribute to my anxiety around these places as well. Anyway still healing and taking it one day at a time. Will keep you updated on the journey. 🤍

Hi guysss! This week’s episode is a storytime about extended ‘family’ members who lie, scheme and play games. All very two faced behaviour to be honest. While I was unsure if I wanted to share this I always pride myself on being authentic and the truth is there are people who are like this and act this way. If anyone has dealt with people like this I feel for you.

Anyway if you asked me now how I’m feeling about this. I’d say that it’s okay because I don’t wanna be anywhere that I’m not wanted. But truthfully while I’m hurt by their behaviour I’m not surprised because they have behaved this way before. The truth is people can’t hide who they REALly are for long.

Also the fact that this whole situation revolves around them lying, being two faced and scheming. Which is something I would not do. On top of this lots of other family members were involved and just went with it and thought it was okay is just unfathomable to me. So deciding where I stand with the others as well. Meaning it’s not just one family who have done this but others as well as they went along with it. Honestly this whole situation has made me anxious and just feeling confused tbh.

How I’m healing and moving on???

Well that’s such a process because no one wants to feel unwanted and lied to. First setting firm boundaries at the moment because I am no longer comfortable with or around them (the trust has been broken). And from now on being selective about what I share with them. Then focusing on me and doing things I like. So obviously listening to music, watching movies, watching comfort shows and maybe buying myself a treat/ pick me up ikyk 😅

No but seriously! I am actually doing this I like and focusing on me and just generally keeping busy. Even just sharing what’s happened has helped tremendously because I do struggle with keeping stuff bottled up and not dealing with it. Like saying it out loud helps me accept it and move on. I definitely feel better after sharing this. The most shocking thing is that I would have never done this or behaved this way so them doing this is really surprising to me.

Thank you to you guys who are always there when I need to share something 🥹 I am also very lucky I have good friends who I can also confide in. Just because they have treated me like this doesn’t mean I don’t have things to be grateful about. I am so grateful for all the good things in my life 🙏

Also I went to watch Joker 2 and have reviewed it in this episode. There are spoilers so if you haven’t watched and do not want spoilers pls don’t listen to it. I have given it a 3.5/ 5 ⭐️ and have posted a TikTok of me going and seeing it so definitely check that out if you would like. There were definitely things that I liked about the movie and there were things that I think that could have been done better.

✨ song of the week: your just a boy ( and I’m kinda the man) | Maisie Peters ✨

Hi guysss! This week I start by talking a bit more about my anxiety and the struggles that come with it. Then I talk about a new reality tv show I’ve currently watched called The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives. And give my thoughts on it. (as someone who hates reality tv shows atm)

Then share the Halloween/ scary movie recommendations that someone kindly sent in. (thank you so much if you’re listening this week) 🎃🧡

After I get into what I really think of FRIENDS TO LOVERS. Can friends to lovers ever work?? lmk know ur guys opinions (any success story stories or failures). Those who have been listening for a minute know why I personally don’t like friends to lovers lol ikyk :)

Then I talk about over-consumerism in relation to online shopping. I discuss how e-commerce has led to people being able to over-consume easily. I share how I’m trying to be more sustainable and the beginning of my journey (still trying to figure things out - and it’s going somewhat well but defo a work in progress). I also share what effects over-consumerism might have on the planet.

Thank you for listening everyone! I hope everyone has a lovely week x

✨song of the week: sharpest tool by sabrina carpenter ✨

Also because I haven’t done a punjabi song of the week in a minute I still adore u by harman hundal this is such a nice song so defo check it out 💜

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So guysss the juice is loose.. 💚🖤 So this week I review Beetlejuice Beetlejuice NO SPOILERS. I talk about the things I liked about it and what I didn’t like. Also I didn’t realise that this would be posted on Friday the 13th! So happy Friday the 13th to everyone that celebrates or cares lol 🎃🧡 so you guys know what I’ll be doing this Friday watching spooky season movies (that aren’t too scary 🤪) 🍿🤍 update: ended up watching hocus pocus 2! had seen the first one but not the second for some reason 🤪


Then I talk about my personal experience with silent panic attacks. I talk about what they are and some of the signs. I also talk about my experience with anxiety and how I deal with it. In recent events my anxiety has been really bad and I talk about techniques I use to deal with anxiety/ when I’m anxious and use to calm myself down. I talk about how I deal with instances when I am out of the house. I just wanted to say this is some of my experience with anxiety and silent panic attacks I do have anxiety in other areas/ instances which I haven’t talked about on here just due to time and relevance. 💛 I hope this raises more awareness about silent panic attacks 🙂

Thank you guys for listening! This is such an important and vulnerable topic for me to talk about. So thank you to everyone for taking the time to listen to this.


Also let me know your scary/ horror movie recommendations for spooky season??? 🍿🎃 - will share the recs on the next episode ty x


Note: I wanted to make this episode for awareness about silent panic attacks and anxiety in the hopes it can help or educate someone. Also to share my personal experience with recent events. It’s not for attention or sympathy (I feel like I have to say this because ppl on the internet can be mean) so please do not feel sorry for me. I actually did buy myself a ‘little treat/ pick me up’ (what ever u call it) for surviving the engagement party and being ill lol. 


✨Song of the week: Right here waiting | Richard Marx | Beetlejuice Beetlejuice ✨ 💚🖤💚


Mind information: https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/


TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@simmm_k?_t=8pIfycF24lE&_r=1

YAYYY!!! It’s been 4 years since I started this podcast. When I started I did not think that I would do it for this long. So massive THANK YOU to you guys for being here and supporting me. I love and appreciate each and every one of you x

This week’s episode is about cheating in the age of social media. In this episode I start with talking about the ‘are we dating the same guy’ group chats. And how easy it can be to cheat because of social media. Then I talk about what is worse emotional cheating or physical cheating. Also I talk about why cheating is a cowardly act.

PSA: I’m not encouraging people to cheat (obvious if you listen to the episode in full) just discussing how social media can make it easy to cheat ect especially as hook up culture is so normalised atm.


✨Song of the week: Taste | Sabrina Carpenter ✨ also I’m obsessed with short n sweet atm.


Also I talk about my favourite show atm which is Abbot Elementary and I have loved season 3 so much. I could talk about it all day tbh. Can’t wait for season 4 so looking forward to that.

Thank you guys for listening every week it means so much to me I am so grateful for you guys 🥹 I hope everyone has a lovely week 🤍

It’s going to be September soon which means the start of fall season; which is my fav season… so also looking forward to that. Honestly I have so many things to be grateful for and wanna reflect that in my podcast. I am working on healing myself, moving on from incidents mention in last episode and letting go which will allow me to be in a more positive mindset. There are so many things that I am grateful and appreciate for and I want to focus my energy on that rather than the negative.


If you wanna follow my TikTok here is the link: https://www.tiktok.com/@simmm_k?_t=8pIfycF24lE&_r=1 or TikTok username: @simmm_k

do not have expectations from people because you will end up disappointed… if they have shown they same behaviour continuously why would they change now… Hiiii guys! I’m back! I was ill for a bit which is why there was no episode so sorry about that. But now I’m feeling much better. This week I talk about my cousins engagement and the events that took place. Honestly I can say that I left fairly annoyed and upset at their behaviour. The constant lies, manipulation and being left out has taken a toll on me. Moreover the fact they think it’s okay to treat my mum like this as well speaks volumes since she has always been kind and respectful towards them. It was mentally exhausting having to deal with them which is why I will be distancing myself from them. I have learnt so much from this experience. On one had I was very excited that my cousin has found someone to spend his life with. On the other hand to be treated so disrespectfully by them has diminished my excitement. I will still be happy from them because everyone deserves love. But from now on I will be distancing myself from them because this whole experience has shown me that I need to put me first.

I realised that people may not always change. And I do not wish to feel this way again. The best thing for me is not to have any expectations from people. Do not be fooled this incident is not limited to this engagement. This has been a long time coming … from not being close and left out of things since a young age. It has carried on to adulthood. It saddens me to say that I am not close with my cousins. But this is the truth and reality. It is even more hurtful to know that we were only invited to project a picture of perfectness to his in -laws. There is almost an unsaid obligation that you have to be there for them even if they have disrespected you and your family. Honestly it is not worth it for me. As I said previously I want to protect my peace. Which will mean distancing myself from them as I have been doing.

Sometimes when my expectations are shattered and I feel hurt. I know it’s because I would have NEVER treated them the way they treated me. I would have never done the things that they did. Only because that is not who I am. And as I said previously I do not wish to be like them. So I will be rising above their behaviour and still protecting my peace. As I have been so mentally exhausted from their lies, manipulation and behaviour. A lot of extended family relationships can be complicated which is why I want to share what I am going through because it’s not all happy and shiny like social media sometimes leads us to believe. I am always learning, I am always healing. I have gotten to a place where I feel like everything is constantly changing. And I can always better myself. Now that I know better I can focus on applying this into my daily life. I am glad that the reality of who they are is now visible. As people are good at hiding who they often are. Just knowing that aunt is a disrespectful and manipulative person will allow me to protect my peace in the present and future. Also knowing that cousins behaviour is probably from what their parents taught them because they don’t know any different. Makes me think that things could have been different. But sadly they are not. This is the reality that I have to deal with. And I am okay with it because you can’t miss what you never had … so why did I expect things to be different now??? Maybe it was misguided happiness??? Or silly optimism??? What ever the reason was I thought things were gonna be different. But sadly left disappointed when they weren’t.

I’m am so grateful for my friends that support me and uplift me. Who are always there when I need them.

Can I say l am always grateful that I can share my experience and what I am going through on here. Thank you all for being here 🤍🩶