Paulina Young has done a remarkable amount of work on herself.
After 17 years of marriage, her relationship ended. With two young boys and no idea who she was outside of being a wife and mum, she found herself in a very dark place.
What followed was a period of depression, survival mode, and slowly — painfully — finding her way back. 11 years on, and her reflection on that journey is as honest and generous as it gets.
Timestamps:
[00:00] — Welcome & intro — Paulina, head of the R4R SUP community
[00:41] — How Paulina ended up on the podcast
[01:01] — Ben's research: struck by how much Paulina had reflected on her own story
[01:54] — 17 years of marriage, separated at 39 with two young boys
[02:44] — The morning they told the kids — and realising life wasn't going where she thought
[03:31] — Why was it so hard? Loss of identity, loss of a future
[04:53] — Survival mode: single parenting on week on week off, the hole getting darker
[07:27] — Pulling the covers over her head — and the boys pulling her out
[08:13] — Grief and depression — and postnatal depression with Louis years earlier
[09:00] — A year to two years of darkness; seeking support early
[10:04] — "Who am I outside of being a wife and a mum?"
[11:45] — Walking past the boys' empty rooms on week off — the emptiness
[12:52] — Going from full-on single parenting to suddenly, completely alone
[14:20] — How did you find yourself? Curiosity, growth mindset, "what is this here to teach me?"
[15:00] — The Reality Slap by Dr Russ Harris — the book that helped change her thinking
[16:19] — Pain into purpose; doing small things that brought joy; discovering her values
[17:59] — When her ex re-partnered early; learning "I am not my thoughts"
[18:47] — "The only way out is through" — feeling all the feels
[20:04] — The Johann Hari parallel: you need to feel it before you can understand it
[21:27] — How her boys inspired her to show up even when she didn't want to
[22:13] — "Better, not bitter" — her North Star through the whole thing
[23:24] — The shift from external focus (him) to internal focus (herself)
[25:40] — Protecting the boys; not letting them get caught in the middle
[26:35] — "If it's hysterical, it's historical" — understanding what's really being triggered
[28:22] — Advice for someone in a dark place: you don't have to go through it alone
[30:07] — Drop the shoulds; self-compassion; "what would you say to a friend?"
[32:14] — What would have helped most: someone just sitting there, holding space
[33:41] — Why silence is sometimes the most powerful thing; why R4R works
[34:56] — The SUP community — showing up, building connections, September season starting
[36:52] — Rinse and repeat: how healthy habits help you find yourself
[37:09] — Who Paulina would love to interview on the R4R podcast
[38:31] — Closing thoughts: "better, not bitter"
[38:55] — Book recommendation: The Reality Slap — Dr Russ HarrisLinks:The Reality Slap — Dr Russ Harris (ACT): https://www.actmindfully.com.au/books/the-reality-slap/
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