In today's episode of the Recover Dad Podcast, we dive headfirst into why so many men fail at change—especially when it comes to pxxn addiction recovery—and what actually creates lasting freedom. Using a personal story about weight loss, "Quitter's Day," and fatherhood, this episode breaks down the three non-negotiables for real transformation: rock bottom, belief, and environment.

What starts as a reflection on New Year's resolutions quickly turns into a raw conversation about the all-or-nothing trap, why white-knuckling never works, and how men repeatedly sabotage themselves by relying on willpower instead of structure. We explore the data behind accountability, why environment always beats discipline, and how recovery becomes urgent when your children are watching.

This episode is especially for fathers and high-performing men who are tired of repeating the same cycle every year—and are ready to take responsibility, lead their families with integrity, and finally break free from pxxn for good.

[00:01] Welcome back to the Recover Dad Podcast and a reflection on why this time of year is dangerous for men trying to change.

[01:01] A personal story about weight gain, failed resolutions, and the illusion of "This is the year."

[02:31] Introduction of "Quitter's Day" and why most resolutions collapse within weeks.

[03:30] "I tried quitting pxxn for 34 years—and it never worked."

[05:37] The rock bottom moment: seeing the future clearly and realizing change is non-negotiable.

[07:47] How witnessing someone else's transformation created belief and hope.

[09:14] The three keys to real change: rock bottom, belief, and environment.

[11:44] Why accountability groups work—and why recovery cannot happen in isolation.

[16:02] The statistics behind success: why accountability raises your odds to 95%.

[18:29] A direct call to fathers: your recovery matters because your children are watching.

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In today's episode of The Recovered Dad Podcast, we unpack a powerful, unexpected moment that reveals what real recovery actually produces—not just sobriety, but deep connection, emotional regulation, and trust inside the family.

What begins as a simple text message from an 18-year-old son—"I vacuumed out the car for you"—opens the door to a much deeper conversation about fatherhood, pxxn addiction recovery, and the long-term impact of daily habits. This episode explores how recovery work shows up in real life: calmer responses, safer emotional space, and relationships with our children that don't disappear as they grow older.

We break down why the opposite of addiction isn't just abstinence—it's connection, and how daily recovery rhythms like exercise, journaling, meditation, and brotherhood create the emotional stability our families can feel. This conversation is a roadmap for men who want to quit pxxn, reclaim their integrity, and become the kind of fathers their kids actually want a relationship with as adults.

[00:59] Welcome back to The Recovered Dad Podcast and the mission of recovery, fatherhood, and living life as a recovered dad.

[01:25] A real-life story that shows the "fruit" of pxxn addiction recovery—not theory, but lived experience.

[02:42] An unexpected text from an 18-year-old son sparks an emotional moment of connection and gratitude.

[06:21] Why this small act of generosity reveals emotional safety, awareness, and trust in the parent-child relationship.

[08:30] A powerful reminder: by age 12, dads have already experienced most of the time they'll ever spend with their kids.

[09:52] Recovery as legacy—building relationships that last beyond childhood into adulthood.

[11:08] How pxxn addiction recovery pays real-world dividends in emotional regulation and presence.

[14:20] The "Core Four" daily recovery habits: exercise, reading, journaling, and meditation.

[18:24] The Three C's of recovery: Core Four, Community, and Connection.

[26:56] "The opposite of addiction is connection"—and why safe emotional space changes everything at home.

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In this transitional episode, after four years of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, Matt Sinkovitz and Coach Yeadon Smith officially launch the first episode of the Recovered Dad Podcast, introducing a refined vision for the community and the men it serves. This conversation explains the inspiration behind the branding shift and why the mission had to expand beyond simply quitting porn into helping fathers recover from the deeper pain, pressure, and isolation driving addiction in the first place. Drawing from years of work with men in recovery and informed by Yeadon's own journey as a husband and father, the episode clarifies that porn addiction is not a behavior problem but a pain problem rooted in unmanaged stress and emotional disconnection. Rather than centering on one personal story, this episode sets the foundation for what Recovered Dad stands for: recovery that strengthens marriage, deepens fatherhood, restores integrity, and equips men with the emotional regulation and leadership skills needed to show up fully at home and in life. This is not about white-knuckling sobriety—it's about becoming a grounded, present, emotionally regulated father with the courage to do the work that truly changes a family's future.

[00:15] Introducing the first episode of the Recovered Dad Podcast [01:45] Why Porn to Purpose evolved into Recovered Dad [03:56] Yeadon's recovery journey as a father and why it matters [05:03] The reality of raising kids in a world of unlimited pornography access [07:52] Identifying the true avatar: fathers with the most at stake [10:45] Why guilt, fear, and shame-based approaches don't work [12:13] "It's not a porn problem—it's a pain problem" [14:35] How recovery skills improve fatherhood, marriage, and leadership [16:27] Why fathers can't afford to avoid their inner work [21:32] Becoming the dad you needed growing up

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In today's episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to have a raw and honest conversation specifically for fathers—the men who carry the most pressure, the most responsibility, and often the deepest unspoken pain. Together, we break down the truth that porn isn't the real problem—pain is, and we explore why so many fathers turn to porn not for pleasure but for relief from stress, loneliness, and the weight of feeling unseen. Coach Yeadon and I dig into the idea of counterfeit validation, the power of daily habits, and the sobering reality that the wounds we ignore in ourselves become the emotional inheritance we hand to our children. My hope is that this episode gives you clarity, conviction, and the courage to step into the healing and leadership you were meant for.

[00:35] Introduction to today's focus: why fathers have the most at stake in porn recovery.

[01:05] The emotional truth about fathers carrying invisible pressure while feeling unappreciated.

[03:29] The core insight: "You don't have a porn problem—you have a pain problem."

[04:10] How urges that feel sexual are really driven by stress, fear, fatigue, and loneliness.

[05:55] Coach Yeadon explains porn as "fake validation" when life feels overwhelming.

[07:28] Why porn "almost works"—and why that makes it a dangerous emotional coping mechanism.

[08:41] Insight #2: recovery is a marathon, not a sprint—freedom comes from daily consistency.

[10:05] The tooth-brushing metaphor: why emotional and spiritual maintenance matters daily.

[14:51] Community data showing that consistent habits predict consistent sobriety.

[17:18] The generational truth: unhealed wounds in fathers become inherited trauma in children.

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In today's episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, I sit down with Coach Yeadon to break down why the holiday season is one of the most dangerous times of year for men in recovery—not because of porn itself, but because of the disrupted routines, emotional pressure, family dynamics, late nights, and hidden pain that make us vulnerable long before a relapse ever happens. We talk openly about how the "middle circle" becomes a trap during Thanksgiving and Christmas, how fatigue and overwhelm quietly pull you off track, and why most slips start with being tired, stressed, or out of your normal rhythm. This conversation is about getting honest, preparing before triggers hit, staying committed to your core habits, and learning to course-correct quickly and gracefully instead of spiraling into shame. If you want to stay strong through the holidays, protect your integrity, and stay aligned with your recovery, this episode gives you the clarity and tools to do exactly that.

[08:38] Matt explains the "middle circle" danger zone and why hanging out there long enough almost always leads to inner circle behaviors. [09:36] They reveal how porn addiction often starts with simple drift—fatigue, overeating, staying up too late, or feeling emotionally overwhelmed. [10:51] A powerful reminder: "We don't have a porn problem. We have a pain problem. Porn is the pill we take to manage the pain." [12:19] The guys break down how skipping routines and habits lowers emotional resilience, making triggers harder to handle. [14:28] Practical tools for planning ahead, managing urges, and interrupting patterns before they escalate. [19:11] What to do when you've already "gone off the rails" and how to course-correct without shame. [22:09] The importance of telling on yourself early and using visibility to break the power of secrecy. [23:09] Simple reset strategies: movement, water, breath, environment change, and rest. [24:31] Why checking in with community removes the emotional charge and brings clarity back online. [25:36] How to extract the lesson from a slip, rebuild quickly, and return to self-compassion and accountability.

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In today's episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, we dive into a raw and timely conversation about one of the most overlooked challenges in recovery: holiday-triggered emotional chaos. With Thanksgiving and the holiday season approaching, Coach Yeadon breaks down why this time of year activates old wounds, intensifies emotional pressure, and amplifies the urge to reach for pxrn as a way to escape the storm inside. This episode is a powerful call to rise above holiday chaos, master your thoughts, and lead your life with peace and purpose.

[00:15] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose podcast — kicking off a holiday-focused conversation.

[01:00] Yeadon explains why the holiday season creates emotional turbulence and amplifies triggers.

[02:10] Family interactions often activate old patterns — "nobody irritates us like family."

[04:27] The truth behind addiction: "It's not that you have a pxrn problem — you have a pain problem."

[05:10] Why emotional overwhelm leads directly to pxrn urges, especially during stressful gatherings.

[06:35] How stories in the mind ("nobody appreciates me… nobody sees what I carry") create relapse conditions.

[07:52] Introduction to the 4RAC Formula as a real-time tool to stop emotional spirals.

[09:40] A powerful moment on a walk with his dogs — and how shifting focus can dissolve panic.

[12:05] Choosing your thoughts isn't easy — but it's a muscle that gets stronger with practice.

[15:51] A moment of gratitude: the paradox of grieving lost years yet being grateful for the growth recovery created.

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In today's episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, Coach Yeadon takes us deep into a raw, personal story that reveals one of the most important truths about lasting recovery: your freedom is built on your systems, not your feelings.

What starts as a simple morning routine—getting up, dropping off his daughter, doing the Core Four—turns into a powerful lesson about discipline, emotional resilience, and the hard choices every man must make if he wants his life back.

From cold plunges in freezing weather to the daily battle between comfort and commitment, Yeadon unpacks why porn addiction survives in the shadows of convenience… and why true recovery requires a man to rise, choose his hard, and build a structure strong enough to hold him when life punches back.

This episode is a truth bomb about accountability, systems, emotional coping, and the brutal honesty required to walk from pornography into purpose.

Whether you're early in recovery or rebuilding your life brick by brick, this conversation is a wake-up call to stop trying harder—and start building the plan that will finally set you free.

[00:15] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast as Coach Yeadon hosts solo while Matt is away on a meditation retreat.

[01:30] The morning routine setup—getting his daughter to school and stepping straight into the Core Four.

[02:30] The "big rocks" lesson: recovery has to go into the bucket first or nothing else will fit.

[04:00] Why avoiding porn is not a plan—and how porn acted as a coping mechanism for deeper emotional pain.

[05:17] The Four-R Formula: remembering pain, identifying needs, and choosing a new behavior when the urge hits.

[06:49] The cold plunge story: resisting comfort, facing the shock, and using discomfort as emotional training.

[09:14] "Choose your hard"—the idea that addiction is hard, recovery is hard, and every man must choose which hard will shape his life.

[12:04] The science of commitment: why accountability raises success from 10% to 95%.

[13:41] Understanding porn as a coping system—not a moral failure—and why healing requires replacing it with healthier mechanisms.

[16:55] "You don't rise to the level of your goals; you fall to the level of your systems." Why structure and brotherhood matter more than motivation.

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In today's episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon shares a breakthrough that surfaced during a Liberation Boot Camp call—revealing how missing just a few key practices can quietly weaken your recovery framework. After two back-to-back travel weekends, he found himself overwhelmed, disconnected from his wife and kids, and struggling internally despite staying consistent with his daily habits. It wasn't until he returned to breathwork and reciting the Noble Code that everything clicked, helping him see how those two missing practices had eroded his emotional stability without him realizing it.

This conversation drives home why emotional pressure builds from within, why it eventually finds the cracks in your framework, and why you can't see these breakdowns alone. If you've ever felt the urge to escape even while "doing everything right," this episode reveals what's really happening beneath the surface and how brotherhood and structure bring you back into alignment.

[00:15] Welcome listeners back to the Porn to Purpose podcast. [01:00] Yeadon introduces the story of his two-week travel stretch and the emotional fallout that followed. [02:53] He describes the disconnect—feeling distant from his wife, overwhelmed, and stuck in a rising storm of uncomfortable emotions. [03:51] "The DJ was spinning the record"—how internal narratives get louder when your framework weakens. [05:02] Breathwork and the Noble Code: the two grounding practices he didn't realize he had been missing for over two weeks. [07:36] The moment everything clicked—how breathwork instantly reset his nervous system and shifted the emotional chaos into the background. [09:34] The epiphany: his defensive structure had eroded without him noticing. Missing these practices weakened him more than he realized. [14:02] The truth: porn isn't a porn problem—it's a pain and pressure problem, and pressure always finds the weakest spot. [19:03] Feeling the pull: Yeadon talks openly about the real-time moments where the urge to escape showed up during the week. [26:23] Why isolation makes recovery impossible, and why every man needs a brotherhood to help reveal what he can't see in himself.

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In today's episode of the Porn to Purpose podcast, Coach Yeadon and I broke down a real-life weekend story that reveals what true recovery looks like when no one's watching. A simple guys' trip turns into a masterclass on discipline, relapse, and what it means to "return to the path."

Coach Yeadon opens up about going away with friends—once a guaranteed recipe for relapse—and how, through systems, structure, and brotherhood, he faced temptation without falling. The conversation dives deep into why recovery isn't about perfection; it's about returning. They discuss what happens when we drop our habits, why systems matter more than willpower, and how to rebuild after a slip without shame or self-destruction.

You'll learn why every man's success or struggle comes down to the system he's running, how to recognize when pressure finds the weak spot in your framework, and what it takes to build one that lasts. This episode is a grounded, honest look at masculine discipline, accountability, and the vow every free man must live by: "If I stray from the path, I vow to return."

[00:10] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose podcast.

[01:30] Yeadon shares his guys' trip to Nashville and Chattanooga with two lifelong friends.

[02:58] He reflects on how, before recovery, trips like this were "binge events" driven by his inner addict.

[03:34] The Noble Code reminder—"If I stray from the path, I vow to return"—sets the tone for the discussion.

[05:02] Daily Core Four habits—reading, journaling, meditation, exercise—as the cornerstone of lasting sobriety.

[07:31] How discipline in nutrition and health mirrors discipline in recovery.

[09:24] Yeadon admits skipping his tracking for two days and parallels it with relapse behavior: "Do not recommend."

[13:17] Why perfection isn't realistic—and how ownership turns failure into feedback.

[17:08] "Straying isn't failure; it just means something in our framework was weak."

[19:10] The key insight: You don't have a porn problem—you have a pain problem. Porn was the pill.

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In today's episode of the Porn to Purpose Podcast, we unpack a powerful real-life story that connects recovery, fatherhood, and the deeper purpose behind breaking free from porn.

What started as a simple morning moment—an 18-year-old son asking his dad to come collect eggs—turned into a vivid metaphor for the recovery journey itself. The story reveals that it's never about the eggs… it's about connection.

Coach Yeadon shares how this ordinary moment with his son became a mirror for his own healing. He reflects on the front-loaded work of recovery—the early struggle to rebuild your foundation after years of unhealthy coping—and why real transformation comes when a man learns to stay present with pain instead of running from it.

This episode dives deep into the daily maintenance of recovery, the cost of disconnection, and how fatherhood can become one of the most powerful motivators for lasting change.

[00:15] Welcome back to the Porn to Purpose Podcast — Matt and Yeadon set the stage for today's story.

[01:29] The story begins: Yeadon's 18-year-old son invites him to collect eggs out in the country.

[03:21] Yeadon shares the backstory—his father's dream of raising chickens and how the family turned it into reality.

[06:15] "It's not about the eggs—it's about connection." How this became a powerful metaphor for fatherhood and recovery.

[08:00] Yeadon opens up about the real reason his recovery began—his desire to connect deeply with his children.

[10:06] The lesson: Porn was never the problem. Pain was. Porn was the pill he took for pain.

[12:09] The "front-loaded" work of recovery—why the hardest effort comes at the beginning before the fruit ever appears.

[14:09] The ongoing maintenance of recovery and the habits that keep freedom sustainable long-term.

[19:59] "The relapse doesn't happen when you type in Pornhub—it happens the moment you step off the path."

[23:12] The identity shift from addict to recovered dad—a man who no longer hides, but leads his family with truth and strength.

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