(WARNING CONTAINS ONE UTTERANCE OF THE WORD "BIT$% AS PART OF A TESTIMONY)

Being tested more than at any time before...it's very painful

My stepfather comes to me have a difficult "talk" about me and how I'm negatively impacting their marriage relationship

No matter the cost, I cannot disobey my God Friends and I agree, "WHO WOULD BELIEVE MY LIFE?"

Lessons from Joseph's life that apply to what I'm going through

Mom puts more pressure on me to take thousands from her for child support and when I refuse she tells me I'm going to be someone's "bit$%" in prison

God reminds me that Jesus did not come to bring peace, but a sword and a man's enemies will be the members of his own household

The Revelation that ALL of this is happening by God to develop my character

How I get through the worst of battles each time

God fully opens my eyes to the false teachers and prophets of NAR and I lose another friend when I tell her about it

36 hours straight of the most Satanic attacks I've ever had...the return of the Egyptian woman, the other woman who attacked me, a false brother infiltrates our Bible study, teenagers take over my prayer spot with drugs, checking account goes into negative, mom goes on the attack again, my son is abused by his grandfather.

The message of correction I made for my pastor that the Lord never let me send for reasons I couldn't yet know

Lots of thoughts about quitting on everything, Laura, Bible study, ministry, etc.

Feeling the worst sadness about my children and being apart from them

The agony of an unsurrendered Christian

The Biblical principle behind the test He just gave me when my mom said, God told her we are supposed to have a family prayer to see if I'm truly hearing from God or not

God helps me to see the difference between false and true prophets

Insights about "We have this treasure in jars of clay" and how fragile our faith is

I can see the importance of thorn in the flesh to keep us humble

An example of how God's providence by numbers floods me with encouragement when I most need it. 1010, 111, 212, 1202, 313

A very rough day...terrible sinus trouble and growing anger about the increasing parental alienation.

Feeling the WAIT! Getting anxious towards God about Him finally coming through for me with the child support

Its harder and harder for me to be around lukewarm carnal Christians who aren't obsessed about God

A moment of deep sadness and crying where I'm wanting to give up

A false brother shows up to our Bible study and it becomes a big need for discernment to know if this is of God or Satan

God once again has delivered me from the oppression and attacks of the enemy in my heart

Why God is blessing my men's Bible study group

My mom says she believes the Holy Spirit told her we are supposed to spend three hours in prayer as a family to see if I have really heard from God correctly

Commentary about how to distinguish between a Christian who has authentically strong faith vs someone who talks about God all the time but actually has a mental illness

I always find my faith strengthened on the other side of persecution

God shows me 303 three times in one morning, reminding me He is faithful and will strengthen me against every evil attack. 2 Thes 3:3

The fruit in my life proves the "prosperity" Gospel and the "tongues" Gospel are false

The 2700 year old words of Jeremiah 17:5-8 that are true in my life right now

God sends two wonderful testimonials from my teaching to encourage me in the face of Satan's continued opposition and attacks

Watching Joseph Prince's teachings so I can teach against them.

We are NOT covered under grace!

My anger towards the teaching in the church that tells us it's OK to sin because none of us are perfect

Christ is not our substitution for being unable to live a godly life, but rather the power to do so!

We should absolutely be ashamed and afraid of any sin we are harboring in our life

Struggling to answer the question, "How do I honor my mom when she is living as my adversary and against the ways of God."

Forcing myself to pray and give God thanks when I feel oppressed by Satan fills my heart with joy

Two examples of how I failed by being too confident in myself as God says in Jeremiah 17:5-8

(NOT FOR CHILDREN OR THOSE OFFENDED BY SEXUAL TOPIC)

Satan again tries to offend me through my mom and I'm learning to keep my distance

An example of How terrifyingly easy it is for us to be deceived into being a hypocrite

A detailed account of how Satan is working through my mom to offend me and how this will be used to help and encourage many others in their own battles.

Satan's goal is to creates offense which leads to unforgiveness which leads to bondage

How things like OCD reveal that even though we believe in Christ, we are still not fully surrendered to Him in some area of our life.

God speaks to my screaming flesh, showing me that I can go much longer in difficult circumstances than I have previously thought

My burning desire and fervent prayers to God to be able to bless and do good to my enemy by child support

Confidence in flesh vs confidence in the Spirit

Insights on the good striving of striving to remain in Him

Reflecting on how I got free from my most recent and toughest sin

The incredible timing of Satan tempting me to sexual sin the same night I contemplated sharing my past sin openly with others to help them get free

When I finally told me body, "You are not the boss of me!"

It is so much easier fighting FROM a position of freedom, than fighting FOR a position of freedom

The most important lesson I've learned is totally and actually depending upon the Father for all of my needs

My growing indignation towards "Christians" who live in sin and revelations on being a slave to righteousness rather than a slave to sin

I received an email from the man I met in the woods as confirmation of the work Father is doing through me

God is Faithful even when we don’t get what we want I preached forgiveness to the men in the Bible study tonight and God blessed it

Feel hammered by Satan after the Bible study night on forgiveness and feeling like I'm delaying obedience on memorizing the teachings of Christ

When Spiritual warfare comes, it's not just one arrow, it's an overwhelming amount of arrows.

After praying for God to confirm the hard message He has given me He confirms it with a passage from Ezekiel

God continues to show me the difference between the two Covenants

More persecution from parents and friends about me having to go to jail

Revelations about my seed producing after it's own kind

Counsel to a divorced friend who is longing for his ex-wife back or for another wife

I have such contentment and no longer feel that excessive need for Laura

The Lord leads me to teach other Jeremiah 17:5-8, not to lean on man, but on God

When I first began to consider exposing my sexual sin and failure publicly

I'm not afraid of men's opinions of me anymore because I don't look to them to have any of my needs met

Realizing, I'm not my own that I've been bought at a price and called to lay down my life for others

God is keeping me waiting on the court results and training me how NOT to worry

The only reason I have been able to go this long is because of God speaking to me so much

I'm the poorest man in our Bible study and they come because they know I have something they don't

If God is a sleep at the wheel, I am in HUGE danger!

People will one day be so blessed to hear what God has done for me

Wonderful encounter with brother in the woods who was suffering parental alienation

Father warns me with a timely 666 and 616 and I suspect it has to do with court

First meeting with the new small group Pastor Rusty has established

Meet with a man who is in bondage through unforgiveness

My mother then accuses me of being boastful I have to manage my entire relationship with my mother as not to cast pearl before swine just as Jesus commanded

A future message to my mom if she ever hears these recordings

How painful it is to live around people that call themselves "Christians" but who live carnally

The Lord's training of me through my mother is so thorough

Christians in bondage are the most dangerous people in the world to spiritual Christians

My indignation about Christian counseling and how we over complicate freedom in Christ when all that is needed is forgiveness Every single person I know that has an issue they don't like, they all have issues of forgiveness

Why true love does not tolerate evil in the name of love

The kind of "Christian" I will expel out of my life

What it means to be a radical Christian

God begins to open my eyes to false teaching and false prophets

How Satan used a story I read online to cause me great doubt about my walk with Christ

How God strengthened me and gave me guidance with 202, leading me to Rev 2:2

Why God has no need to give us a "fresh word"

So many of us have a perverted view of love

I'm going to preach the hard truth regardless of how many will listen

The story of how I lost a friendship by telling them the truth about their rotten fruit

I continue to be fruitful even in this season of famine and drought

God begins to show me that I must preach the hard truth to people...leads me to 2 Cor 4:1

I filed a motion with the court to appear by phone and I get resistance

A picture of exactly what it looks like when a human tries to deliver themselves

Describing exactly what I'm doing in order to fight the fight of faith in the face of so many potential fears

The court hearing is happening right now while I'm making this recording

So grateful and filled with joy and peace over my new life of faith in Him

The critical role prayer has prayed in keeping me strong in all of this

I'm no longer living in the "real world". My worry warts are dead!

I'm weaker than I've ever been to defend myself, but God is my strength

Begged God in intense tears to turn me loose in the ministry to reach the masses that I was not satisfied with 20 people...I wanted to reach millions

Feeling like I'm going to die if I can't get this passion out to the masses

Warning a widow neighbor about a story she told me about tools she took when she left her company

Feeling weary again waiting so long for God's deliverance...hope deferred makes a heart grow sick

God answers my prayers while I'm in the middle of making a recording and sends a man name Frank Smith to encourage me!