Here is a short poem oI wrote that expressed my joy of parenting but the push towards being the bet person I can be. Join me in the journey of motherhood in today’s Spoken word.m, Enlighten Me.

Today’s journal reading captures the moment where I affirm the changes I want and remind myself to love.

I was clenching my jaw so hard from the stress that I was having constant migraines and lock jaw. Surprising how our mental anguish shows in our physical bodies. Do you find yourself clenching your jaw?

This journal entry captures my attempt at the time to schedule a routine for myself and my family that would push me through the rough days. This schedule allowed me to keep moving even if it felt robotic at times. When I lacked the willpower this allowed me to push forward. I knew exactly what would happen next according to the daily alarms on my phone for throughout the day.

This journal entry captures my struggle to be okay with not pursuing my dreams and giving up my career in order to be a mother and wife.

This episode captures a moment when I was facing imposter syndrome. The universe opened doors when I thought everything had shut. I gave up my dream of being a game developer and the opportunity of what I thought was a lifetime. Yet the Universe knows

This journal reading captures the anguish I felt on having to give up a career stepping block and choose my family over that goal. I had to put aside my personal goal and choose what was best for my family.

Today’s journal reading captures a day where I was setting my intentions for the rest of my life. I was striving for a better me but also for a happiness that was genuine and that would carry my family for years to come. The dream of a balanced family with a very deep rooted love.

On today my heart is heavy. I lost my daddy on the other day. It’s been a whirlwind of decisions, and emotions. I am pushing forward because as a veteran he instilled in his kids the discipline to push forward. I miss my dad. He dedicated most of his life to Nursing and ran a local nursing home where he was the only male nurse and his residents adored him. He is truly missed.

I spiraled down a world of negativity but also the feeling of being overwhelmed. Stress eating and failure piled on to me until I was overweight with hair falling out.