"I love you, but I'm exhausted" is a line that's been whispered at 2am, 2pm, 10pm, and every hour in between to our big blue-eyed, five-month-old baby.

Last time we caught up on baby life, I was three weeks postpartum and riffing mainly on the birth. Now, we're nearly five months in and emerging from the haze of the tiny baby stage. A new shape of me, my life, and my identity is starting to form, so it's time for an honest catch-up.

In this episode, I'm sharing a real, unfiltered debrief of the first five months of motherhood as a first-time mum, including:

✨ How I ACTUALLY feel now we're five months postpartum

✨ The things that have surprised me most about becoming a mum

✨ The many contradictions of motherhood and the postpartum experience

✨ What it's like to experience matrescence and a rewired "mum brain"

✨ The weird intrusive thoughts no one talks about

✨ Why motherhood is making me want to be vegan again (I know... odd connection, right?)

If you're contemplating starting a family, already in the thick of new motherhood, navigating the newborn phase, or simply want to understand someone you care about who's going through it, this one's for you.

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Why are we suddenly craving the "soft life"?

You might know this term from polished reels of flawless women skipping out of pilates at 11am and into a matcha café, but the soft life philosophy has a much richer origin. It started with women in Nigeria reclaiming their time and energy, pushing back against hustle culture and the expectation to always grind, give, and self-sacrifice.

Now more than ever, as the pressures of our thirties start to build, more of us are craving a dose of slow living. And with the dumpster fire of an economy we're trying to navigate, it's not any surprise.

In this episode we get into:

🧘‍♀️ What the soft life philosophy actually means (and it's forgotten roots)

🧘‍♀️ How the broken promise of success has left millennials burnt out and wanting to clock out

🧘‍♀️ The quiet quitting approach

🧘‍♀️ The watch out: when soft life tips into financial dependence

🧘‍♀️ How to bring more slow living and nervous system regulation into the life you already have

If you're one "I hope this finds you well" email away from lying motionless in a forest for a few days, then stick around.

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What if the version of “working on yourself” you’ve been sold is actually pulling you further away from other people?

In this solo episode, I’m unpacking the strange relationship between self-improvement and selfishness, and the point where becoming your “best self” can turn into endless optimisation, isolation, and feeling like who you are right now is never enough.

I get into how self-improvement shifted from something that happened naturally through life and connection… into a billion-pound marketplace selling us better skin, better habits, better nervous systems, better mornings, better relationships and somehow still leaving us exhausted.

We’re talking:

✨ Why women are under more pressure than ever to optimise themselves

✨ How beauty, wellness and even spirituality became products to consume

✨ Whether “working on yourself” can become an easy scapegoat away from real connection

✨ And why the massive piece missing in self-improvement is connection

If you’ve ever felt stuck between wanting to grow and wanting to just be enough already, this one’s for you.

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Why does everything feel like it’s your fault… even when it isn’t?



In this solo episode, I’m unpacking guilt - that constant, low-level hum that seems to follow women everywhere. From work to relationships, money to motherhood, friendships to finances… why does everything feel like it’s somehow our responsibility?

I get into the psychology behind why women experience guilt more frequently and more intensely than men - and how both nature and nurture conspire to keep us stuck in these guilt spirals.

We're talking:

✨ Rational vs irrational guilt > and how to tell which one you’re feeling

✨ Why women feel responsible for other people’s emotions (and how this is costing you)

✨ How guilt becomes a hidden decision-making tool that keeps you small

✨ Practical ways to stop carrying guilt which isn’t yours

Because if you’re making decisions just to avoid guilt… there’s a good chance you’re not actually choosing the life you want.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re constantly doing something wrong (even when you’re not), this one’s for you.

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What if your “self-awareness” is just control in disguise? 👀

I hate to call you out like that… but I’m also calling out myself.

In this episode, I unpack something that’s been sitting uncomfortably with me:

I can explain my feelings perfectly… but I don’t always feel them.

I dive into the sneaky coping mechanism of intellectualising emotions — how we analyse, rationalise, and “do the work”… without ever actually letting the feeling hit our body. And why so many of us (especially high-functioning, self-aware women) are stuck in this loop.

I’m riffing on:

✨ Why emotions have started to feel inconvenient (and what that’s doing to us)

✨ How overthinking shows up - from productivity to humour to therapy-speak

✨ What happens when feelings don’t get released (they don’t just disappear)

✨ How to get out of your head and actually feel your emotions

I also share a pretty raw personal shift 😅 the moment something cracked open for me, and I actually felt something fully for the first time in years.

Because the breakthrough in your 30s isn’t becoming more self-aware…it’s learning how to stop controlling your emotions, and actually let them move through you.

If you’re hyper self-aware but weirdly disconnected… this one’s for you.

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What if it’s not dating that’s broken… but how we’re showing up in it?

Stick with me for this....

I personally know so many amazing, sucessful, loving, and beautiful women who want to find a partner but are struggling in the dating world, so what's going on?

In this episode, I'm joined by dating and confidence coach Laura Nagiel to get into how we can break the cycle of unsuccessful dating and find someone who is worth partnering up with.

Laura's approach is rooted in awareness of what you want, direct honesty on who you need to become and never lowering your standard.

We're getting into...

✨ The difference between confidence vs self-love and how it shows up in dating

✨ A new approach to avoid dating burn out

✨ Is "being realistic" a myth or a need?

✨ How we might be both the victims AND the cause of toxic dating culture

✨ The biggest mistake many woman are making in dating

If you’ve ever felt like you’ve built a great life… but love is the one thing not clicking, this one's for you.

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What if the problem isn’t your body… it’s the fact you’ve been thinking about it for 30 years straight?

This week, I’m getting into body image, and why, somehow, it feels more confusing now than it ever did before.

Because here’s the thing… I've generally had a pretty good relationship with my body. Then I hit 30, then at 33 had a baby and suddenly it all feels a bit weirder.

In this episode I go all the way back — childhood, teenage years, my time modelling, the “health” phase that tipped into obsession — to unpack how our body image is actually built over time.

We're getting into...

✨ The mental reframes I'm trying to accept my body post-baby.

✨ The return of skinny culture (and why it’s messing with all of us)

✨ When even your own past self becomes the comparison

✨ The subtle ways we’re taught our value is in how we look

✨ Actionable ways to improve your body image

If you’ve ever felt like you’re simultaneously trying to accept your body and change it at the same time…

this one’s for you.

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Content warning: This episode includes discussion of suicide.

We're sold a Disney-inspired story of love. Meet the love of your life, get married, have children and live happily ever after. But nothing in life is guaranteed.

What happens when something cataclysmic changes your whole life’s path?

How do you begin to rebuild after trauma and sudden loss?

And who might you become when the dust starts to settle?

This episode is Lisa’s story of losing her husband to suicide and how that suicide loss changed everything, leaving her a widow with three children at 31.

In this conversation we explore:

✨ The earth-shattering shock of sudden loss

✨ How suicide loss impacted her self-esteem as a woman

✨ What shifts when your “life plan” suddenly disappears

✨ The stigma that shapes grief after suicide

✨ Building new meaning and post-traumatic growth after loss

This is partly a story of what happened, but really a story of rebuilding life after losing a partner to suicide.

If you’ve ever built a life you thought was certain, only to watch everything change overnight, then this one is for you.

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If you told me a year ago that I would be releasing this episode, I would have been shooketh...

But wow can things change. Really fast and really dramatically.

And now my big becoming era is being shaped by a new reality of motherhood.

I was very unsure about the choice to have a child, I was very scared about how it was going to shape me and maybe you're feeling the same if this is something you're considering.

So I'm going to lay it all bare, the good, the bad and the weird.

In this weirdly personal episode I get into:

✨ How my birth plan got derailed

✨ The c-section experience

✨ Sharing a ward with a schizophrenic mother in psychosis

✨ How weirdly magical breastfeeding is

✨  The REAL partner test

✨ The inevitable identity shift coming my way

If you’ve been circling the idea of motherhood, wondering what it really does to you, not just physically, but to your identity, your control, your relationship, your sense of self - then this one is for you 🤍

Stick it on and go for your hot girl/guy walk.

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In our 20s it feels far away.

Like something that will “change everything”.

But in your 30s?

It starts to feel closer.

And the questions get louder.

Will I lose myself?

Will my ambition survive?

What happens to my identity?

In this episode, I’m joined by Raychel Addo.

We talk about the fear around motherhood, the way life reorganises with a child, and the identity shift that comes with becoming a mum.

Because what if the story we’re told - that you lose yourself - isn’t the full picture?

In this conversation, we cover:

✨ The fear narrative around motherhood

✨ The identity shift of matrescence

✨ Grieving who you were before

✨ Motherhood and ambition

✨ Boundaries, productivity and career as a working mum

This isn’t about pretending it’s easy.

Raychel is honest about the sleep deprivation, the adjustment, the overwhelm.

But we also talk about growth.

Clarity. Confidence and the unexpected ways motherhood can expand you rather than reduce you.

If you’ve ever felt unsure about becoming a mum…

If you’ve worried it might cost you your ambition…

If you’re navigating motherhood and career at the same time…

This one’s for you 🤍

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