I wrote this one back in 2017, I guess it's still relatable. :) 

"True enough that you would only know why things didn’t happen the way you wanted it to be once you’re finally out of that equation. Once you’ve finally got a hold of the door and see the whole picture from afar."

I choose to accept, move on and accept the person I have become.

..And you that moment when you can tell your story without shedding a tear? That's also the time when you can say that you have completely healed and that you have found your peace...

If you’re someone silently fighting battles within yourself, if you’re someone who’s tired of running and hiding, hang in there. Be brave and pray for your soul, for your peace of mind and know that God never sleeps. He sees you and he listen. You just have to believe that you can and have faith that there will always be that light at the end of the tunnel.

--- The last episode for this season. :) 

We can only take control of what we can, and we don’t have any control of what others will say. According to this book The Daily Stoic, the circle of control contains just one thing; OUR MIND. You’ve got just one thing to manage; your choices, your will, your mind. So mind it.

Sometimes, you meet a stranger and in an instant you just click. It’s like meeting an old friend whom you haven’t seen for a long time and the conversation just comes out naturally. It’s like giving you all the butterflies and the giggles as if that of falling in love. It’s like sitting atop of a roof top with all the stars shining brightly and you just don’t wanna end the time. Stories of misfortunes doesn’t have to be tragic, but relatable. Brokenness doesn’t have to be hidden but shared. Sometimes, we walk into a room looking for that someone who can meet us on a soul level. I’m not even talking about romantic love, but genuine friendship.

They say letting go does not mean erasing a memory or ignoring the past. It is when you are no longer reacting to the things that used to make you feel tense and you are releasing the energy attached to certain thoughts. It takes self-awareness, intentional action, a little pep-talk with yourself and time. It’s like finally returning yourself to yourself.

Just letting it go.

We always get to the point that no matter what we do, no matter how we want something, the universe will never give you what’s not meant for you to have, true to the saying that “When God shows you it’s time to let someone go and you refuse to accept it, he will allow the person to hurt you to the point you have no choice but to let go”.

For what it’s worth, I’ve forgiven myself for all the wrong things that I've caused her. I have forgiven myself for those times that I’ve let anger win over me. I’ve forgiven myself for falling too short of what is expected of me. After all, no one can be perfect. She’s finally waving hello and I’m finally saying, welcome back, self.