Theology Kills

What if Christian faith isn’t about being correct, but about being creative? January Jaxon and Andrew McRae explore Maureen Murdock’s Heroine’s Journey through two of history’s most famous women: Eve, the mother of all, and Mary, the mother of Jesus. From the Fall to the Cross, they unveil a spiritual adventure that transforms shame, violence, and mimetic rivalry into trust, integrity, and creative power.

You’ll hear:

• A fresh theological reading of Eve and Mary
• Why creativity — not correct behavior — brings love into the world
• The 10 stages of the Creative Journey
• Real stories about freezing in moments when love called us to act — and what it takes to become the kind of people who can say yes

PLUS practices of Sabbath, stillness, and open-focus attention that make space for that shift to begin.

Ideal for listeners interested in Girardian theology, Internal Family Systems as a spiritual practice, and the theological legacy of women in Christian scripture.

Chapters:

• (00:00) - Introduction

Note: This podcast is a personal exploration of theology, creativity, and human experience. January Jaxon and Andrew McRae are not medical or mental health professionals, and nothing in this podcast should be understood as medical or psychological advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Our discussions are general and are not a substitute for personalized care. If you need medical or mental health support, we encourage you to seek care from a qualified professional.

Bad theology kills your soul. 
Good theology kills what’s crushing your soul. 

Welcome to Theology Kills, a podcast about letting our shame & violence die so that life & love can thrive. 

You were never meant to feel like a problem to be fixed. You were made for joy, freedom, peace, belonging, and creativity. But creativity can be hijacked — mis-used to create shame and blame that keep you anxious, angry, and perpetually unmoored. 

What if you could quit that toxic cycle?

This season on Theology Kills, we’re looking at Christian scripture through the lens of Maureen Murdock’s Heroine’s Journey. This mythological framework sheds unexpected light on the stories of Eve and Mary, inviting us to consider that creativity, not correct behavior, is how God brings the Kingdom of Heaven to earth. As we follow these women from the fall of humanity to the foot of the Cross, we’ll reclaim discipleship as a creative adventure of trust, integrity, and vulnerability that transforms us into peacemakers, not just peacekeepers. 

Each episode includes:
— A theological insight that reads Scripture from a posture of wholeness and divine nonviolence
— A conversation between the hosts where we wrestle with what that looks like in real life
— A simple creative or contemplative practice to help you live it, not just think about it 

Theology Kills is exclusively listener-supported.