Things I Shouldn’t Say

I used to think being helpful made me valuable.

Now I see it just made me disappear.

This episode is about choosing wholeness over usefulness — and realizing not every friendship has space for the real me.

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In this episode, I talk about what success really means when you’ve been through too much.

I explore the fear of success — not because I can’t handle it, but because I’ve learned to expect loss, betrayal, and burnout when things go right.

This is about unlearning survival mode and making space for a life that feels safe, whole, and mine.

This episode is for the ones who never felt at home here.

I talk about what it means to be a starseed, how grief and trauma can ground us in places we were never meant to stay, and the moment I realized I was built to rise, not shrink.

If you’ve ever felt too sensitive, too deep, too much — maybe you were meant to fly.

In this episode I talk about the kind of rage that comes from being silenced, violated, and underestimated — and how sacred it becomes when we finally let it speak.

 I share why my rage isn’t something to fix — it’s something to honor.

This is for anyone who’s been told to stay quiet or be nice when you were already breaking inside. Rage can be healing. Rage can be holy.

Grief cracked open a conversation I never meant to have with God.

In this episode, I talk about how loss shaped my spirituality, my resistance to faith, and the complicated relationship I’ve had with TMH, religion, and survival.

This isn’t about belief — it’s about loss, memory, and what happens when the spirit reaches for something bigger after too much pain. Raw. Honest. Unresolved.

This is the labor they never acknowledge

The holding, the checking in, the noticing, the softening

I talk about what emotional labor costs — especially when it’s expected, unpaid, or disguised as love

For the ones who are tired of being the safe space for people who never ask if we’re okay

I used to beg to be chosen

Now I’m choosing who gets access

I talk about wanting friendships rooted in emotional maturity, peace, and presence, not chaos

No more dumping. No more rescuing. No more shape-shifting.

I thought being loyal would get me loyalty in return

I was wrong.

I got burnt out and let down

For the ones who thought sticking around would earn them Love

They don’t talk about the mothers who wound you quietly

The ones who break your trust with soft voices and sharp eyes

I loved her. I still might.

But I had to leave

Because she was bad for my spirit

This is the part I was never supposed to say

This one is messy.

It’s not a lesson, it’s letting go.

I talk about emotional burnout — the kind you can’t meditate your way out of.

The kind that turns love into exhaustion.

If you’ve ever been called “too emotional” while drowning in everyone else’s pain — this one’s yours.