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Last Ep of The 1st Season!! 🙏🏾4️⃣👂🏾‼️. When I Was 23-25 I Was Just A Complete Lost When It Came To “Loving Someone” Because I Felt That No Woman I Would Come Across would Actually and Completely Just Love Me, Not Whatever They Thought Of Me When They Seen Me However They Seen Me. Little Didn’t I Overstand At The Time The Love I Was Truly Looking For The Love I Have For Myself. Once You Love Yourself, It’s Hard For Someone, Anyone Who Doesn’t Love Nor Care For Themselves To Hurt You. Let It Marinate. Blessings Hoolugans. HIANF😁🏳️‍🌈😈♿️✌🏾👍🏾

I was young, well, we were all young @ some point. Yet, I thought I knew better but I was taught wrong that the streets. My naive thinking was what I did to others they would to do me in a positive manner like to give me a chance because I will give it to them. WRONG. I failed to realize that just because I was giving them help and chances that they were not gonna do the same for me so I had to give myself a chance. Once I did that my life changed. It changed for the better mentally, spiritually, physically and emotionally I hope you can do the same for yourself thank you for listening.

I Wrote This When I Realized That I Did It Again. I Didn’t Listen To Myself and Didn’t Pay Attention To The Signs Being Presented To Me. I Was Told As a Kid That The Definition of Crazy Was Doing Something Over And Over Again The Same Away, but Expecting a Different Result. The Same Can Be Applied To People. Plus, Why Was I Thinking That I Could I Help Others If I Wasn’t Even THINKING About Helping Myself? Thinking About It Now Its What Human Being Wants. Love.

Change Is Everlasting And Evolutionary. It’s Can Be A Scary Aslect About This Thing We Live Called Life But It’s For The Best. We Only Die Once But We Live Everyday.

Second Guessing Happens ALOT!! I Know That I Have Been Dealing With It All My Life. It Took Me Years Figure Out How To Have FULL Faith In Myself Before Anyone Would Want To Have Faith I Me As Well. I Had To ACTUALLY BELIEVE In Myself When I Say “This Is What I Want To Do/Be”. It All Sounds Nice When You Talk About It. It Feels Even Better Actually Do Something. To Make It Happen, To Make It Real.

Man If I Had a Nickel For Every time I Heard That Line I Woulda Been a Thousandaire(Yes I Said That) by The Time I Was 30. I Watched Alotta Comedians As a Kid, They Said That Line A lot In Plenty of Punchlines or Segways Into The next Joke. Yet I Also Learned That, When They Said That Line That They Were Actually Really Serious But It Just Sounded Funny(Pay Attention To Context, I Learned That From Them To) To Anyone Who Is Just Oblivious In Their Own World and They Are Ok With That. I’ll Leave Em To It. They’ll See It One Day. Just Remember 2 Stick 2 Your Gut Feeling, Slown Down On The Second Guessing, Because Sometimes Hey Guess What, Maybe What You Are Seeing Happening In Front Of You……It’s Actually Happening. Because, When Something Just Doesn’t Feel Right There Are Signs EVERYWHERE!! Oh And Before I Would Ever Call You Bro Or Sis. I’d Call You a Hoolugan, but That’s a Title….. That’s Self-Earned. Don’t Talk About If You Don’t Fully Know About It.

People seem to proclaim that they want to make changes for themselves but when they put the vibes in the air and they come back to Them, that was the help that they asked to receive but they turned it away because they did not like what they heard or what they were seeing. If you ask for you will receive it I may not be in the way that you wanted it but you got what you asked for for. Life Isn’t Supposed To Go your way. Life Goes Whichever Direction You Take.

D.I.D Dissociative Identity Disorder is Just One Of My Many Mental Diagnoses. It Is Hard To Explain 2 A “Normal” Person It’s Definition, So All I Ask People Is That They Read Up On It For a Better Overstanding Because Somethings Im Not Good At Explaining. Also I’m Notta Fan Of Talking About Myself AT ALL, It Makes Me Uncomfortable. If You Don’t Know Me Then You May Say That That’s“Hard 2 Believe “ , but That Just My High Energy That You Feel Lol. For Those Who Deal With Any Kinda Mental Toll, Whatever The Diagnosis May Be, Just Know This. You Are Strong. You Deserve a Break. You Not Always To Blame. It Can Go Both Ways. I Had To and I Also Will Make a Suggestion To Anyone To Leave Those People Be If They Leave You Be When Your Down, n Since They Don’t Wanna Put Up With You When Your Down, They Shouldn’t Be Around You When The Mental Health is 🔙@💯‼️. I Had To Learn To Leave Them Alone, Ive Learned Once You Find Yourself, Respect Yourself Like Then Love Yourself. Whoever is Meant To Be Around You Will Be Around You. it’s All In The Mind. My Focus Is On Making My Mind Healthier. I Hope You Are Working On That As Well.

This Spoken Word Is About 3yrs Old yet I Think It’s Something That Someone May Be Able To Relate To Present Day. This May Sound Like Ima Rapper….I’m NOT I’m a Model, BUT I’m HUGE (80s-00s Mainly) HIP HOP Fan So A lot Of My Poetry Just Sound Like an A-cappella. Blessings All For Tuning In.

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