Going through my papers & journals I have realized that I am saying & wanting the same things I wanted 16years ago. From my battle with sugar & weight to my buisness ideas & plan. When will the madness stop! Russ gives me his perspective & I am listening. Follow through one task at a time. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Happy 2024! A new year & a new season. We don’t have to wait for either to reevaluate what we want to change or the direction we want to go. We are not putting that pressure on ourselves. Rest & Reevaluate anytime…. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Today is Christmas Eve & I was journaling about my health. I quit drinking over 18years ago & replaced it with sugar, without realizing it. I push treats like I pushed fun drinks. Today Russ & I talk about how I am going to change this & not wait for the “perfect” time. Today is the “perfect” time. If you would like to follow me on this journey, go to facebook & follow “thoughts from the tractor”. The right time is NOW, Thoughts from the Tractor.

After talking with a young couple that are friends of ours, I realized even more how much Russ has been patient with the way I WANT to communicate. I have learned so much from him. Men & Women do communicate differently, one isn’t bad or good, just different. Be nice, be respectful & grow together. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Spent a couple weeks in Mexico, met some great interesting people & connected with some amazing friends. I learned a valuable lesson about giving away my time & connections for free, when it is part of my work & I am on vacation. I left out Russ to help others, instead of resting my brain & giving skills. Learning my boundaries is as important as helping people. Thoughts from the Tractor

How often do we go away & our to do lists comes with us? Mine do all the time. Russ is able to stay in his nothing box in his head, meanwhile my wires are still firing & cross circuiting! So leave your lists at the airport! Thoughts from the Tractor.

2years ago today Russ finished his last Radiation treatment. We look back at the fog we went through and coming out the other side. Thoughts from the Tractor

We wanted to take a moment to acknowledge all those who fought for our freedom & right to live the live we choose. Russ talks a bit about his grandpa & uncles. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Russ & I talk about what helps to see the light of the next day. How expressing our self & having support from friends & each other makes such a difference. Thoughts from the Tractor

***** Warning, this episode talks about Mental Health & feelings of Hopelessness.********. Russ & I discuss some triggers that happened to me & my feelings of being in a black hole & climbing out of it. The whole is getting smaller & I don’t go there very often, but when I do, it is painful, frustrating & scary. I find a safe spot to wait for the next sunrise & someone to breathe 1 breath at a time with. I don’t have to fix anything or be fixed….. just breathe. Thoughts from the tractor. *talk suicide Canada 1-833-456-4566